{"@attributes":{"version":"2.0"},"channel":{"title":"Prone to Interference from Mini-cabs","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/","description":"Prone to Interference from Mini-cabs - LiveJournal.com","lastBuildDate":"Sun, 24 Nov 2019 20:07:25 GMT","generator":"LiveJournal \/ LiveJournal.com","copyright":"NOINDEX","image":{"url":"https:\/\/l-userpic.livejournal.com\/108187217\/8055190","title":"Prone to Interference from Mini-cabs","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/","width":"100","height":"100"},"item":[{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/465312.html","pubDate":"Sun, 24 Nov 2019 20:07:25 GMT","title":"Has it been so long?","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/465312.html","description":"

Apparently it has. I don't know why I'm here instead of on DW, but whatever. I've been doing okay, for anyone wondering \u2014 actually, great? I've been doing college, I've been reading, I've been doing small amounts of writing.<\/p>\n

College: I might be done next year, with an AA instead of a BA. Which is fine, I need out of the system and I realized that math courses were digging into my PTSD pretty hard. It's been amazing how much energy I've gotten back just from not...taking stats anymore.<\/p>\n

Reading: over a hundred books this year. I now keep an updated goodreads and write reviews occasionally. It is my favorite hobby and it does me so much good...and financial harm, because I buy too many books. Part of my over-buying was due to math stress though, so that should be coming under control.<\/p>\n

Well... I'll try to write more updates here more often. But now my dog is calling and it's time to go.<\/p>","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/465312.html?view=comments#comments","category":"personal"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/464965.html","pubDate":"Tue, 24 Jun 2014 06:05:52 GMT","title":"hc-bingo card","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/464965.html","description":"*sneaks in*
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<\/a>","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/464965.html?view=comments#comments","category":["tables","writing challenge claim thing","writing babble"]},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/464434.html","pubDate":"Sun, 05 Jan 2014 10:53:16 GMT","title":"Looking back on 2013 Writing Meme","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/464434.html","description":"I meant to do this before the year slipped over, but it's been a dead-brained week.

Hello, journal, haven't seen or used you in a while. Writing this year was posted almost entirely to AO3, so using numbers from there.

Total number of completed stories:<\/b>

Fourteen. That's...a lot less than the number of 100+ back in 2012. To be fair, most of these are mammoth fics, and few are smaller than 500 words. ... Actually, none are. The writing fragments didn't get posted, see, and I didn't do any drabbles or comment-fics, really.

Total word count:<\/b>
65,010 words posted on AO3, not counting any fragments I've put on my tumblr or left in the WIP pile. Considering that I like most of what I wrote this year? I'm pretty proud of it!

Overall Thoughts

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?<\/b>
I don't know what I was expecting. It's a lot - I was not expecting that many longfics, or was I expecting...so few smaller fics. I usually have a lot of ficlets and drabbles cluttering things up, but nope. Not this year. Huh.

What's your own favorite story of the year?<\/b>
say nothing; share nothing<\/a>

Hands down my favorite fic I've written this year - I adore bits of my other stuff, but this is the one I'm most proud of. It was written in the zone, it was magical, I loved it. I also did something I haven't done before with it - I wrote a first draft, then stripped it of all lines that were clunky and rewrote it from there. And it was miles better than it had any right to be.

It also helps that I loooooooooooooooooove soulbonds and soulbonding in general. :)

Did you take any writing risks this year?<\/b>
I...completed a bang? Does that count? Hum. I don't think I really took risks this year? I mean, maybe in the plotting department.

Ah. I did start a five-story arc this December that I haven't posted any yet, but it's a risk in that the plotting demands that the first story in the arc - well, it's disconnected from the rest of the story until the plot-threads realign. So if I can pull that off, it'll be a successful risk.

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the New Year?<\/b>
- Pull off \"[community<\/a>trope_bingo<\/b><\/a><\/span> so I can have a second card.
- Finish dragonfic - all five parts of it.
- Write a sci-fi story so I can attempt to send it to a magazine.
- Write more than one original piece this year. I've got the characters and the stories - let's get them on paper.
- Finish things I set out to write.<\/u>

Best & Worst Of<\/b>

My best story of this year:<\/b>
I've already answered this question - I consider say nothing; share nothing to be the best-written thing of the year - so let's go with most popular. Nothing can top last year's mega-hit How To Excel At Supervillainy (and lose your heart to America)<\/a> as it's got over 32k hits now and 1,528 kudos. I don't know if I'll ever write anything more popular than that, frankly.

But 2013. The most popular fic of 2013 was percolating<\/a>, aka coffeeshop Steve\/Tony au, fandom catnip. What makes this fic interesting to me is the vigilante!Tony aspect - but either way. Ironfries actually recced this on her tumblr, which drew in more readers, and well! I'm glad. I like it when people enjoy my stuff. :)

My most popular story of this year:<\/b>
....
....
Maybe I should read the questions in advance before I answer them.


Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:<\/b>
they name dragons<\/a>, aka the convoluted fantasy AU that might have worked better as an original fic entirely disconnected from Tony and Bruce, but oh well. I really, really, REALLY like parts of it and feel that more people should have read it, but to be fair, it is 15k.

Most fun story to write:<\/b>
Half-tempted to put down 'writing isn't fun come on' here, but it is sometimes! I had a lot of fun writing...well, a lot of these. More fun plotting them, but I do enjoy it when the words are flowing.

Story with the single sexiest moment:<\/b>
I don't know. I wrote a few smutty pieces this year, but on the whole there wasn't much in the way of eroticism. Bad answer? Bad answer.

I'll go with to prevent flight<\/a> for mental images, because hot damn<\/i>, metal wings! I know there's no smut in it, but who cares? Not me!

Most \"Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you\" story:<\/b>
Ehhhhhh. Let's say opia.<\/a> Why? Because it presents the idea that the gamma radiation experiment\/accident turned Bruce's daemon into the Hulk, and that's. That's horrifying, frankly. Having your soul lashing out and attacking people like that? Brrrrrrrr.

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters:<\/b>
Displacement<\/a>, hands-down. In-fact, it really brought me a new perspective on Bruce, and Steve - legete's meta on the two<\/a> led almost directly to the fic's creation, as a matter of fact.

Truth be told, it's usually not the writing that changes my perspective on the characters - it's the meta and plotting and thinking I do before and after that does. And then I kick myself because I've fouled up IC-ness so badly<\/i> because I hadn't realized something yet.

Hardest story to write:<\/b>
Displacement. 3\/4ths of the way through I had a burn-out and it took a lot of pain to get that thing done in time for the deadline. But I did finish it! Ha!

Biggest Disappointment:<\/b>
My WIP pile.

No, I'm not kidding. Some of my fave stuff is in there, forever to be un-posted and unread.

Biggest Surprise:<\/b>
...Hoo. The fact that I finished Displacement? The fact that I wrote fem!Steve\/Peggy?

No, no. It's the fact that I wrote sad Steve in snow - I think it was almost a thousand words of it? - and I did it unprompted because of a mental image...and I can never post it because it's part of an AU I've got plotted but writing it would take for-ev-er.

sigh, self. sigh.

Most Unintentionally Telling Story:<\/b>
Life Model Matchmaker<\/a>. Why? Because the thing was written in a feverish 3-5 hours and posted and it's directly from my subconscious. No, I haven't reread it since it went up. Could be gibberish for all I know.<\/a>

Short version:<\/b>
I like what I wrote this year, I came up with a lot of ideas this year, and I hope to do more this year. Also, heeeey let's do original stuff this year. Certainly can't hurt!","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/464434.html?view=comments#comments","category":["meme","writing babble","babble"]},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/464244.html","pubDate":"Thu, 02 Jan 2014 03:14:59 GMT","title":"Trope Bingo 2014","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/464244.html","description":"\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n
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dystopian <\/b><\/td>\n\tunexpected consequences of planned soul bonding\t<\/b><\/td><\/tr>\n
supernatural: gaining \/ losing immortality<\/b><\/td>\n\thello again <\/b><\/td>\n<\/tr><\/table><\/font>
This one's from <\/a>dark_bingo<\/b><\/a><\/span>.","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463749.html?view=comments#comments","category":"tables"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463469.html","pubDate":"Tue, 07 May 2013 00:32:16 GMT","title":"Fly-by","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463469.html","description":"Poking around \"[community<\/a>metanews<\/b><\/a><\/span> and \"[community<\/a>month_of_meta<\/b><\/a><\/span> and thinking - I have a gazillion thoughts about characters and pairings and fandoms and I almost never write them down, or save them for one-on-one conversations via IM, and I should...I'd like to write them out. Here, I mean.

I've recently discovered I've got a thing - a big thing - for identity kink. Marvel \/ MCU isn't conducive to this as most to all of their heroes are out and public, but I can't help but gravitate to fics that explore the AU idea of 'what if Tony hadn't outted himself in MCU' \/ 'is Captain America really Steve Rogers?' and so on.

There's a modern 'superheroes' AU I've been meaning to take and flesh out for months now. Captain America and the Winter Soldier, a pair of Brooklyn vigilantes keeping the place crime-free. Domino masks are awful for secret disguises, but it's a superhero AU so it runs on Clark-Kent's-glasses-work logic, and I am okay with that!

[insert 'aaa rambly' fears here; insert reminder that this is a journal, so I'm allowed to be incoherent]

Another genre I've been wanting to write more in - I always want to write more in here - is space, sci-fi, etcetera. Starships and aliens and space anomalies and I just love it, love it.

Problem is, whenever I go to write space aus I get bogged down in details, or want to go for grand plots, and it's the usual problem with huge universe-changing aus - I go for grand scale and have trouble following through.

(Fantasy AU only pulled through 'cause I didn't write out the second half of the epic, see.)

That's something I've noticed about myself in writing, well, anything - need a universe. It can't be an isolated random scene or I get frozen up quite badly. Why are Steve and Tony arguing? Need a reason before I can go to the PWP. Or if I want to write, eh, reporter AU, then I need a context.

Probably not unusual for writers but it does bog me down when I'm starting a thing.

On an entirely different topic, I saw the 2007 movie Zodiac and loved it more than I thought I would. I keep running into contemplation about Paul Avery and how loose ends can haunt you and I just. This close to writing something for it, frankly. (Or reporter \/ cop AU in general.)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463469.html?view=comments#comments","category":["writing babble","babble","ramble"]},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463321.html","pubDate":"Thu, 18 Apr 2013 09:27:39 GMT","title":"To-Do","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463321.html","description":"In no particular order:

- Get my 15k Fantasy AU Tony\/Bruce fic beta-read and posted.
- Begin work on its sequel.
- Obtain a bingo for \"[community<\/a>trope_bingo<\/b><\/a><\/span> so I can perhaps get a second card. (This involves writing at least two more stories.)

I am pleased to report that all is still well here. I know I post infrequently despite wanting to post more often, but - well.

I don't exactly post fic here anymore, thanks to AO3. Undecided if that's a good or bad thing, frankly.","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463321.html?view=comments#comments","category":"babble"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463078.html","pubDate":"Wed, 10 Apr 2013 11:25:35 GMT","title":"And as for today","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463078.html","description":"I really don't have much to say. I continue to chisel out the misshapen form of my novel (slowly, very slowly) and with more eagerness I work on more fic. (Which I stick up at AO3 instead of here, because...because.)

I'm still reading, I'm still writing, I'm still doing my thing.

My cats are well, my family is well...

In the end let's go back to the most important thing to talk about here: my writing. I'm slowly chiseling out the details and plot hooks of an original novel that I want to write - I want to do it justice, and I want the characters to take me away from here, and to that end my craft needs to be better.

There are themes (identity, what ties people together) and character concepts - I realized recently that I am a sucker for high concept stories, which...well, how do make plot interesting without losing coherency? And all that.

...It's slow work, but steady. And meanwhile I keep writing fic, because it's like an old pair of boots: fits perfectly and gets you places.

Still heavily into Avengers, still waiting for Captain America 2: Winter Soldier, still waiting for the next issue of Fearless Defenders to come out...

Little last piece of happiness: Shin Megami Tensei IV is getting a US release this summer, which is the best news I could've hoped for.

(Funny how I go from serious talk straight to geekery. I'm glad I'm like that.)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/463078.html?view=comments#comments","category":["turning fishes into wishes","babble"]},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462777.html","pubDate":"Wed, 10 Apr 2013 11:16:46 GMT","title":"Looking Back","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462777.html","description":"Mentally and emotionally exhausted now, after I spent a few hours working on a timeline of, well, my life. My therapist suggested it a week ago, and I finally did it, and...

Hindsight is perfect, painfully so. Why did I have a mental \/ emotional collapse back in '06? Because I didn't trust the therapist I had at the time \/ went off my meds \/ was almost literally friendless \/ my internet use was highly limited so my primary way of de-stressing was almost gone \/ middle of Winter, when everything is worse.

Could I have prevented it? ...Maybe if I were who am I now, but back then - I don't know. I don't think so. Rereading my LJ entries and journal entries from the time show me to be painfully immature. (...likely I'll read this entry in a few years and think the same thing)

It has been worth doing. I remember some of '09 now, and '10, if imperfectly. Not that it's pleasant to go back and remember IRL events during some of the roughest years of my life - that's - it feels like it's an exaggeration, or that I'm getting melodramatic, but...from my POV, I was screwed up, in a bad place, and I'm just glad my thoughts never truly turned to suicide or self-harm - only escapism.

...

As for where I am now - I'm happy. I'm not in a perfect place, I still need to mature and get better at all kinds of things, but - I have the time and space for that, and most of all I'm happy<\/i>, which is the most important thing.

I can't tell you guys how glad I am I know you. Some of you have literally kept me going, and I - I'm grateful.


(Now how likely is it that this'll go unnoticed, because I put it here instead of on tumblr, or twitter...? Ah well, who cares. It goes here. On DW, on LJ, because this silly thing has done so much for me.)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462777.html?view=comments#comments","category":["reality","turning fishes into wishes","serious","babble"]},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462436.html","pubDate":"Sun, 10 Feb 2013 07:59:34 GMT","title":"Looking for something to read","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462436.html","description":"Folks, do any of you know of any good scary novels? Or short story collections. I'm not looking for a link to a website with scary things, I'm looking for a book I can take with me to bed and read under the covers.

Please don't rec S. King or Koontz, I've read some of their stuff and they didn't click with me. And when I say horror - well, anything scary will do but if I must narrow it down, supernatural horror (ghost stories!) would be great.

Thanks!

(Oh! I should mention that I read House of Leaves and enjoyed that.)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462436.html?view=comments#comments"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462103.html","pubDate":"Sat, 09 Feb 2013 10:23:06 GMT","title":"What I'm Reading","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462103.html","description":"I'm in the middle of The Rubber Band, a Nero Wolfe mystery by Rex Stout - it's good! Fun murder mystery, even more fun if you like the detectives. (Archie is such a charm to read. Reminds me of reading PG Wodehouse's novels just to see Bertie Wooster narrate.)

I'm also in the middle of The Russians by Hedrick Smith - fascinating look at all aspects of Russian life in the 60s\/70s. Written by a reporter who lived there for a while, and it's just. Fascinating. (Also, apparently the copy I'm reading came from my grandma, so it's been neat to let her know I'm reading it.)

And finally I'm reading Dan Abnett's Gaunt's Ghosts books - I'm in the early stages of the third book, Necropolis, and it's. It's so grimdark. I love it. I'm prepared for everyone to die, and with that mindset firmly in place, I love it. Great military-type novels in a sci-fi grimdark universe. (Warhammer 40k, to be precise, but you barely need to know anything other than the forces of Chaos = bad.) I have to hand it to Abnett, though - I've never seen a plot wrapped up so quickly. The second book, Ghostmaker - literally five pages and he wrapped up the plot, resolved the loose ends, and in the process didn't confuse or irritate me. It was a good ending. Just. Five pages. I'm still shocked at that. (I'm reading these books in omnibus format, btw)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/462103.html?view=comments#comments"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461943.html","pubDate":"Sat, 09 Feb 2013 08:58:35 GMT","title":"Trope Bingo Ideas List","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461943.html","description":"For reference and for fun, I'm sticking up my list of prompts for \"[community<\/a>trope_bingo<\/b><\/a><\/span> along with my ideas for them.

Below is a lot of me thinking about ideas and stuff.

Seeing as I'm currently in a Tony\/Bruce\/Steve mood, anything I write will involve them. Or Steve\/Bucky. Any variant of the above.

curtainfic:<\/b> This one is an odd start, as I don't have much in the way of ideas for it. It could be a Steve-buying-furniture fic, him adjusting to the future, but then it could be Bucky, or Bruce...depending on the character it'd have to be AU. I may skip this prompt, to be honest. Fortunately bingos are helpful when working with prompts I'm fuzzy about.

mind control:<\/b> Whatever I do with this one, it must - must<\/i> - avoid hitting the triggery hot spots that Winter Soldier's Widow Hunt arc triggered for me, or a certain fic...Point is. I'm torn between an obedience curse (the obvious choice is Tony, because yaaay control issues, but there's also Bruce, or Steve...point is, if I limit that kind of curse to just them...I think I could keep it from an uncomfortable situation. Or if I write into a corner, it would be an interesting corner) and a more elaborate set-up, one where the mind-control is larger in scope, and the basic premise is that someone among the team is made to forget that they're a hero. And the rest of the team - perhaps everyone? - is made to forget them entirely. That fic would focus on how said member finds his or her way back to their lives.

Long story short, mind control and I would be plotty and potentially angst and interesting.

secret child:<\/b> Haaaah. This one is an automatic skip unless I think up the perfect premise or actually go for a blackout.

a\/b\/o:<\/b> Pure PWP. If I want world-building a\/b\/o I'll yoink \"[personal<\/a>legete<\/b><\/a><\/span>'s ideas and do something. But as I'm not interested in writing longfic with this premise, then it's very likely to be pure smut. Self-indulgent, obviously.

au: other:<\/b> Ohoho, this one is open to so much. Fic where Tony's a robot, has been since he never came back from his kidnapping. Some complex premise where JARVIS has been responsible for keeping the robot from realizing it's not really human, and the reason the robot is there in the first place is due to Obie - but thanks to JARVIS' help he gets his own free-will back. ...Anyways. Anything for this square is likely to become long and plotty and explode as my stories are wont to do.

cross-dressing:<\/b> My first thought is tiny!Steve crossdressing, going out with Bucky. Yet there's also the wonder of always-a-girl!Tony who's also Iron Man because she didn't make a boob plate for safety reasons<\/a> and the media assumed Iron Man was male and the label stuck. So the cross-dressing here would involve Tony Stark cross dressing as a guy in and out of the armor. (does the armor count?)

soul-bonding:<\/b> Ugh I love soul-bonding. I'll grab a quote from myself in an IM log that explains the three kinds of flavors I'll roll with for soul-bonds, depending on the fic.

'A) My standard vanilla bond: two folks touch skin-to-skin, feels a bit like static electricity, then hello bond. Shares thoughts\/emotions, can't turn it off, can pull away from it (may cause pain if one person pulls too hard) and in general I hope they can get along. (when it does fit it's blisslike) (just like marriage!)

Writing that for three people would be...pretty much the same, but this much more unstable. Arguments could be awful.

My standard universal rules with them - well, couples are predetermined, it's fate\/destiny yaddayadda. Happens rarely but often enough that society recognizes what a bond is and in general cultures respect bonds. A bonded couple automatically gets..y'know, next of kin rights in hospitals and so on. I haven't sat down and hashed out what happens to, say, a bonded pair where one of them commits a crime, but fortunately it hasn't cropped up.

B) Any number of those 'meant-to-be' hookups. Names on hands, countdown timers, what have you. There's no bond, just whatever sprouts up between them. This is possibly the most organic\/natural way for a bond-type story to be arranged - but could argue about it being a bond-type story, but either way. Just wanted to mention it. (I'm not going this route)

C) The one where a kid gets their thought-sharing\/emotion-sharing bond when they're young\/teens with or without meeting the person. This universe has more potential for angst, because while ideal couples have the bestest invisible friend who turns into a friend and more as they grow up, not-so-ideal couples....um....thinking of, say, a tragic housefire and whoever was on the other side of that bond - brrr.'

I promptly went off on a plot-bunny that's a C variant with Steve\/Tony\/Bruce and with luck the final product won't be too jumbled. \\o\/ (I have actually started work on this one.)

au: college\/highschool:<\/b> I am torn about this one. I tend not to like these aus unless they're really well done, see. As for ideas...well, I keep blanking. I'm likely to skip this, frankly. Or do as short as possible a piece on it.

genderswap:<\/b> Could do the always-a-girl!Tony thing here. Or I could go for a PWP piece. Something plotty. Frankly? Genderswaps are one of those aus where I'll only read it if it sounds good \/ is by an author I trust. They generally don't appeal to me. *shrug* (I am always welcome to try writing a fic that completely changes my mind on the subject.) Alternative option: explore this picture's universe.<\/a>

holiday:<\/b> Not more Christmas fic. Maybe Halloween. No, definitely Halloween. Need superheroes going out as other superheroes, obviously. :D (This is likely to be shorter, unless something goes horribly wrong.)

secret twin\/doppleganger:<\/b> Ohohoho. Nothing like evil clones, am I right? Just depends on who I want to run through the mill at the time.

time travel:<\/b> You know? After I've written a fic where Tony's been pitched back to the past, and after contemplating other 'welcome to the past!' fics, it may be time for me to think of a 'welcome to the future!' fic. Or do something like that MAA comic where future!Tony shows up and completely out-plays Tony. (Spider-Man kept asking why he even needed them, because his suit was handling all of the problems. XD;;)

kidfic:<\/b> Might skip this. Might turn Dummy and Butterfingers into kids (except they wouldn't be kids kinda robots are weird) via magic and watch trouble unfold. Thing is. I'm pickier about this one.

truth or dare:<\/b> With the Avengers, this can only end in tears.

drunkfic:<\/b> Hi, Tony.

(Gee, the above are easy to plot.) (Which might make them both huge problems when it comes to write them. I'm essentially taking the cliched route out, and...that doesn't work for me unless it's PWP, generally. We'll see.)

au: daemons:<\/b> Do...do I really have to? elioenai<\/a> was The golden standard for this AU, and if that's not enough, there were pan's fics where Coulson was a daemon, and I just. I'd be afraid to write, for they've topped this area out.

...On the other<\/i> hand, I kind of was in that same spot when I wrote my villain!Tony fic, because there were at least three of those fics out there and they were great, so...hmmm.

au: neighbors:<\/b> Steve and Bruce. Steve sees Bruce gardening over his fence. Steve's not sure what he did to earn a house with a white-picket fence (and an intact Bucky), but he's going to be a friendly neighbor. Bruce his neighbor is shy and reclusive but has a garden and one morning he turns up on his doorstep with a bag of zucchini. (If he sends Tony instead, Tony's doing this with such an eyeroll and a \"I'll pay you to take these.\" because zucchini is the worst\/best crop.)

I don't know what kind of au this would be - how much it'd diverge from canon - but welp. Look. Zucchinis.

celebratory kisses:<\/b> Who doesn't like sleepy-post!Hulk kisses with Bruce?

snowed in:<\/b> I'm likely to go with either the one where they're on assignment in rural country or the one where a plane crashes them in a cave or something. I just need to get two characters trapped near some snow, right?

Watch my plotbrain wake up to the smell of convoluted plot ideas: something involving Steve being (re?)frozen in ice and Tony getting stuck with the ice block while waiting for rescue or for the cold to get him and and and -

au: circus:<\/b> I have no idea! I don't do circuses! But if I absolutely must, Thor can be a lion-tamer. Or something. I don't know! (Bruce as the sad clown - )

sharing a bed:<\/b> Pick a cliche. Skip to the part where they're getting in bed with each other. Trouble ensues. I'm likely to go the easy route on this one. First time PWP, and all is roses.

slavefic:<\/b> How...dark do we want this. A complete au? Or just...just... *lights up* I have a horrible awful situation for Tony to be in and this might just be the chance for all the Tony whump. (By which I mean daaarrkkkk half the fic will involve helping him heal from what happened to him.)

day at the beach:<\/b> Avengers at the beach! \\o\/ This would be a fun series of short drabbles, or just one overall cute vacation fic. Point is: happy and cute.

au: coffeeshop:<\/b> Thinking about this one, actually. I mean, I can go the cliched route, but how would I make it interesting?

And so on.

That's all the ideas I've got at the...mo...dang it! I forgot. I wanted to stick at least ONE Thor\/Natasha or Thor\/Tony fic somewhere in there. Well, we'll see how it goes. For all I know, the coffeeshop au might benefit from a Norse coffeeshop.

Bonus prompt<\/b>: I'm still working through a thirty-one AUs idea, but I got roughly a thousand words into a zombie AU, and I want to finish that. Just for my own satisfaction. (It's Steve\/Winter Soldier (Bucky) and is dark dark dark.)<\/a>","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461943.html?view=comments#comments","category":"writing babble"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461613.html","pubDate":"Sat, 09 Feb 2013 06:57:46 GMT","title":"Hello, journal","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461613.html","description":"I think I'd like to come back here, if I can. As much as I enjoy fandoming purely on tumblr or AO3 or twitter, I miss the capacity for wordage this place has. (This applies to both DW and LJ)

I'm going to see if I can't find any Avengers comms. Try and get involved in...I don't know, just being friendly again.

Updates on me: I'm doing fine, I'm still absorbed into the Avengers fandom very, very heavily, and I'm working on a Steve\/Tony\/Bruce fic for \"[community<\/a>trope_bingo<\/b><\/a><\/span>. (Yes, I got a card. Yes, it's wonderful. So many ideas off of it.) All I need is a little self-discipline to sit and write it. As usual.

Also! I'm returning to the habit of writing drabbles, just because I can. My writing needs polishing, and there's nothing better for that than drabbles, in my humble opinion.

So - how's everyone? (Is anyone still around?)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461613.html?view=comments#comments","category":"babble"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461530.html","pubDate":"Tue, 25 Dec 2012 21:23:34 GMT","title":"Merry Christmas","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461530.html","description":"Here's to hoping that everyone here has a good holiday \/ holiday season, and a happy new year. Pleased to report that I'm doing well, as is my family.","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461530.html?view=comments#comments"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461199.html","pubDate":"Sun, 28 Oct 2012 06:32:43 GMT","title":"Welp.","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461199.html","description":"Let me continue to neglect this thing in favor of posting fics over at AO3, yes!

Er-hem: there are three new Avengers fics<\/a> up at my AO3 account, two of which are gen (both of which are slashable) and one of which is a \"[community<\/a>kink_bingo<\/b><\/a><\/span> fill. (Steve\/Bucky\/tiny!Steve)

In other news: I'm doing just fine, and on top of that I am geared up for NaNoWriMo this year - I've got an original sci-fi plot I'd like to try, and failing that there are always fic plots to try, so somehow I'll make it to 50k.

I hope everything's been alright here?","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/461199.html?view=comments#comments"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460900.html","pubDate":"Sat, 22 Sep 2012 10:01:06 GMT","title":"[ficlet] the uncertain bridge between mind and matter.","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460900.html","description":"Title:<\/b> the uncertain bridge between mind and matter.
Fandom:<\/b> Avengers Movie-'verse.
Rating:<\/b> PG.
Characters\/Pairings:<\/b> cyborg!Steve, Tony, JARVIS.
Warnings:<\/b> None.
Word Count:<\/b> 516 words.
Summary:<\/b> Tony offers another smile and reaches into the electronic guts of the machine, extracting a few wires; seemingly oblivious to precisely what the sight of an eviscerated cyborg is doing to Steve's state of mind.
Notes:<\/b> \"[personal<\/a>ravenspear<\/b><\/a><\/span> inspired this. <3

---

Tony offers another smile and reaches into the electronic guts of the machine, extracting a few wires; seemingly oblivious to precisely what the sight of an eviscerated cyborg is doing to Steve's state of mind.

\"Tony,\" Steve tries, because this doesn't feel right.

\"Ah, no, not taking in commentary right now,\" Tony says. \"Giving it, sure. Unless you want me to go call up Bruce and get him to start regrowing you a whole crop of organs, you're going to have to live with my patch-up job, and that means I need supplies, and guess what! JARVIS can live without a complete shell for another week or three.\"

\"I would object, sir,\" JARVIS says mildly, but Tony just waves a hand at the ceiling.

\"That's - meant for JARVIS<\/i>?\" Steve asks, giving the empty shell Tony's digging into a better look, and no, he can't see it. The facial structure, the hair...nothing of it reminds him of JARVIS' voice even remotely.

Then again, in this brave new future nothing has matched up with what he's expected yet, and far be it from Tony to fail to surprise him.

Tony comes back to where he's seated on the table with wires and glowing pieces of metal and squints at Steve's exposed midsection.

\"We're getting you better plating for the armor,\" Tony says, reaching for a scalpel. Steve knows<\/i> that it won't hurt, but it will be another century before he's used to a body that's more machine than man, no matter how convincing it looks.

It takes more willpower than he'd like to keep his hands at his sides instead of moving to push Tony's hands away from his stomach as Tony cuts into him.

He has to look away, for example. Watching as Tony puts a hand into him, and feeling as Tony tugs<\/i> - it's times like this where everything feels hazy and indistinct, as if it's all been a massive dream, a horrible fever dream.

\"You're sure,\" Steve says, and bites his tongue as Tony pulls his chin around to face him.

\"You're an original,\" Tony says, steady, holding his chin firmly so he can't look away. \"There are lines I'm almost ready to cross, but I wouldn't make a replica of you, and I'm the best there is. Everything up here,\" he knocks on Steve's head lightly, \"Is fleshy, organic, and was freeze-dried over a century ago.\"

\"You don't have to do that every time,\" Steve says, holding still as Tony bends to work at him again.

\"Do you believe me yet?\"

\"Yes, but...\" Steve shakes his head. \"It's hard, sometimes.\"

Tony looks up at him, thoughtful, before plugging a cord in. \"Will you let me give you the capacity to get drunk now?\"

\"No,\" Steve says, because if he did agree he'd get drunk and he wouldn't stop.

\"Great,\" Tony says, and taps at his screens, frowning at readings Steve can't begin to understand. \"Now shut up, we've got intel that expires tonight, and I need to get you sown up before then.\"

Steve closes his eyes. Some things, he thinks, never change.

---<\/a>","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460900.html?view=comments#comments","category":["avengers:tony","avengers:steve","avengers:jarvis","avengers fic","fic"]},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460752.html","pubDate":"Wed, 05 Sep 2012 00:02:17 GMT","title":"Fic Recs (Avengers Edition) 3\/?","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460752.html","description":"I finally got off my rear to continue this, as I've read a LOT of fic and I've got over 150~ bookmarked fics that are glorious.

The fics recced within contain Steve\/Tony, Clint\/Coulson, a few Steve\/Thors, and some gen fics. A mixed bag, in other words, with genres all over the place. Please enjoy!

||

Making It Work<\/a> by Pandelion.

'Coulson is Fury's daemon.' Yes, it's a His Dark Materials AU. It's fantastic<\/i>. Clint\/Coulson, excellent handling of the idea, and I adore everyone's daemons. :3

Bonus: if you liked the fic, the author wrote some nifty headcanon<\/a> thoughts<\/a> about it, too. Worth a read!

The Twice-Told Tale<\/a> by arysteia.

Steve\/Tony fic wherein Tony falls for Steve, then falls for him again. Has the kind of IC writing that makes me hate the author because I may never write as well. Oh, and the time-travel bit is utterly brilliant.

well, let the drum beat drop<\/a> by jonesandashes and pollyrepeat.

Gen team-bonding fic set post-movie involving various meals together, a bacon freezer that is literally full of bacon, and yoga pants. It's glorious.

10, 9, 8, car<\/a> by pollyrepeat.

Clint\/Coulson Groundhog Day\/Mystery Spot AU that is plotty and wonderful and I don't have enough brilliant adjectives. Coulson's on a mission and keeps dying and Clint is getting sick of time-loops. And Coulson dying. And waking up to a godawful pop song every morning.

Coffee Cup Lullaby<\/a> by ashinan.

Steve\/Tony, Tony is shrunk down to be about three inches tall and he hates<\/i> it.

Lust's Effect is Tempest After Sun<\/a> by xDinahQueenx.

Steve\/Tony sexpollen phonesex armor-is-involved fic. You already know if you want to read it or not.

Instant karma's gonna get you<\/a> by dorcas_gustine.

Steve\/Tony fic wherein things go badly for Tony whenever Steve's disappointed in him. And the effect stacks. Poor Tony. ;) Set in the Marvel Adventures: Avengers verse.

Speaking in Code<\/a> by tsukinofaerii.

Tony is bored. .--. .... . .- .-. .... .. -- .-.-.- (Phear him.)

Tony texts Steve a whole bunch and gets into morse code. :D

Man on Top<\/a> by Amuly.

Steve\/Tony PWP involving grappling and Tony being a sore loser.

A Week in the Life of Highly Respected SHIELD Agent Phil Coulson<\/a> by boombangbing.

Exactly what it says on the tin - gen and lovely. :3

Baby Daddy Drama<\/a> by sparrowshellcat.

Howlingly funny fic where Loki shows up and apparently is pregnant...but who's the father? (Most of the team might be the father, some of the X-Men might be the father...it just gets worse and worse.)

Worth a read even if you're not a fan of the pairings. :)

Deep Waters<\/a> by AlchemyAlice.

Truly excellent fic that's an IC look at Tony's PTSD after Afghanistan. It's Steve\/Tony and just...hurts in all the right ways.

When the finally come to destroy the earth (they'll have to go through you first)<\/a> by AlchemyAlice.

Batman crossover - Tony and Bruce went to the same boarding schools and are fellow billionaires and superheroes. Brilliant. (Has background Steve\/Tony.)

I've got your words in me<\/a> by eleanor_lavish.

Clint\/Coulson, one of the two fics to sell me on the pairing. Excellent characterization.

I Trust You to Kill Me<\/a> by ghostrunner.

The other Clint\/Coulson fic that sold me on the pairing so that I would go on to read others. Amazing first-time fic, brilliant characterization, the works.

Something Quiet and Minor and Peaceful and Slow<\/a> by torakowalski.

A sweet, sweet Clint\/Coulson fic. Exactly what it says on the tin.

(First Impressions Are) A Work in Progress<\/a> by porthos.

Steve\/Tony fic that is an excellent<\/i> look at how they might hate each other before they work past that. Slowly. Kinda. <3

Power<\/a> by AccursedSpatula.

Steve\/Thor PWP that is hot in all of the right ways. Nnnf.

Steve\/Thor ficlet<\/a> by ravenspear.

Short, hot. Involves sparring. :9

still officially lost<\/a> by pollyrepeat.

\"Barton has clearly imprinted on you,\" Fury starts, and keeps talking right over Phil\u2019s knee-jerk, horrified, \"He has not,\" to seal Phil\u2019s doom by saying, \"so I\u2019ve decided that you\u2019re going to take primary responsibility for him from now on.\"

\"Oh, god,\" Phil says, faintly, before he can stop himself.

\/\/

Otherwise known as, SHIELD: The Early Years.

shark-repellant<\/a> by ravenspear.

Tony gets inspired by a classic and makes it reality. :D","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460752.html?view=comments#comments","category":"fic rec"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460390.html","pubDate":"Fri, 17 Aug 2012 16:03:43 GMT","title":"I shouldn't neglect this thing","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460390.html","description":"Popping back onto here to give a brief update - I'm back from the trip safely, I'm doing well...I'm even writing again.

No guarantees or promises on when I'll finish or post anything, but hey, it's nice to be putting words to paper again.

I do have a general question, if anyone knows the answer: are there any Avengers drabble communities? I've missed that type of challenge, and if there are any on DW or LJ that'd be swell.","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/460390.html?view=comments#comments","category":"babble"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459969.html","pubDate":"Tue, 31 Jul 2012 07:11:26 GMT","title":"Happy Birthday to me :3","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459969.html","description":"I'm now twenty-one~

I could sit and type up a retrospective post, but - I'm glad I've made it this far, I promise to drink responsibly, and with luck you'll all be around to celebrate with me when I'm...eh, pick a year, any year. 22, 25, 30, whatever milestone works.

I'm afraid I've got to go finish packing, but I did want to stop and post here afore I left. Take care, everyone. :)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459969.html?view=comments#comments","category":"babble"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459620.html","pubDate":"Sun, 22 Jul 2012 07:11:17 GMT","title":"update","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459620.html","description":"In less than ten days I have both my birthday (on the 31st) and I leave for an almost-two-week-long trip to Oklahoma to see family \/ drop my brother off at college \/ etc.

I may or may not have wifi on this trip, and it may or may not be reliable. I will have my laptop, I will have my notebooks - I'll write when I can, if I actually finish any fic and have wifi I'll post it, but in general - I'll be gone. I don't like that, but them's the breaks.

I'll leave out most of my complaints about the trip (none of you need to read IRL drama) but I believe everyone gets my frustration over lack of a spotty wifi-fi at where we're staying.

...Anyhoo.

That's where I'll be, and that's why I've been stressed out more than usual lately. (and thus compensating with more videogames \/ fun things to cope)

In conclusion: I hope everyone else is doing well. :)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459620.html?view=comments#comments","category":"status report"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459472.html","pubDate":"Thu, 19 Jul 2012 08:51:36 GMT","title":"Kink Bingo Card 2012","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459472.html","description":"I got my card, I've posted fic already, I'd better share: I'm doing \"[community<\/a>kink_bingo<\/b><\/a><\/span> again this year.



\n\n\n\n\n\n
authority figures<\/td>\nbodies and body parts<\/td>\nfood<\/td>\nobject penetration<\/td>\ncaning<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
confined \/ caged<\/td>\nrough body play<\/td>\nanonymity<\/td>\ntattoos \/ tattooing<\/td>\npainplay (other)<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
orgasm denial \/ control<\/td>\nmirrors \/ doubles<\/td>\nwildcard<\/td>\ntentacles<\/a><\/td>\norgies \/ decadence<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
objectification kink<\/td>\nsleepy \/ unconscious<\/td>\nbody alteration \/ injury<\/td>\nfoot \/ shoe fetish<\/td>\nmedical kink<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n
sex toys (non-penetrating)<\/td>\nservice<\/td>\nsensation play<\/td>\noral fixation<\/td>\nleather latex rubber<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/table>

I'm happy to say that there are no kinks I don't like here, and that every time I stop to look at it, more ideas pop out at me. :D

Expect most of the fills to be Avengers-related, though - I'm still firmly sunk into that fandom, and I'm having fun here.<\/a>","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459472.html?view=comments#comments","category":"writing challenge claim thing"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459256.html","pubDate":"Thu, 19 Jul 2012 08:32:32 GMT","title":"[fic] Pushing Boundaries.","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459256.html","description":"Title:<\/b> Pushing Boundaries.
Fandom:<\/b> Avengers Movie-'verse.
Rating:<\/b> NC-17.
Characters\/Pairings:<\/b> Steve\/Bruce\/Tony. (Captain America\/Hulk\/Iron Man)
Warnings:<\/b> Tentacles, sex, orgasm denial.
Word Count:<\/b> 2,262 words.
Summary:<\/b> Bruce holding Steve down while Steve's overloaded by these new appendages that won't stop touching things. Namely Bruce. Oh, and Tony helps out too.
Notes:<\/b> A fill for \"[community<\/a>kink_bingo<\/b><\/a><\/span>. My card is fabulous<\/i> and I'll post it after this, so I can share how glorious it is.

Many thanks to \"[personal<\/a>ravenspear<\/b><\/a><\/span> and \"[personal<\/a>theinsaneeraser<\/b><\/a><\/span> for being general cheerleaders here. ;)

Oh, and: assuming that it's set with a pre-established relationship between Bruce, Steve and Tony.

---

Bruce is the one to hold him down when his mind fractures, sensations overloading him and prompting panic. It's not a violent struggle - he'd break free if it were - but instead it's Bruce holding the back of his neck and keeping him down with a steady pressure.

There are reasons why the hold works, reasons that Tony has theorized over and explained to him in fits of fascination, but all Steve can remember now is that Bruce grips his neck and his world shrinks down to the sensation of the chain of his dog-tags biting into his skin as the metal warms to Bruce's touch.

Bruce listens to him pant into the pillow, waits for him to calm down, and carefully lets go, smoothing Steve's hair back.

\"It's not so bad now,\" Steve reports, trying not to lose it as the tentacles attached to his back uncurl from their resting position, waking up as he does. It feels like he's grown six not-really-hands and he hates<\/i> this mutation. He knows it will wear off within a day, and he knows that this is temporary, but it's not reassuring in the least when he can't get up from the bed without getting aroused as the tentacles touch anything and everything they can reach without his consent.

\"I'm not going anywhere,\" Bruce promises. Steve doesn't want to know what he sees right now; he doesn't want to think<\/i>.

\"I - nng!\" Steve's whole body jolts as one of the tentacles wraps itself around Bruce's arm. He processes warm skin and he can feel<\/i> Bruce's pulse as the tentacle settles around Bruce's wrist. \"Oh - I - oh god - Bruce - \"

That's why he's not going anywhere. The tentacles are oversensitive, and he has no filter. He feels everything and somehow his brain translates that to pleasure.

He moans into the pillow, trying not to squirm, erection jutting into the mattress. He doesn't grind his hips forward, but it's a near thing. Panic isn't enough to kill the arousal, not when he twists his head back to look at Bruce, unable to ask for the help. It's too much.

Bruce is a lifesaver: he doesn't hesitate to put his hand back on Steve's neck and push him down, grounding him. Steve goes still, then relaxes under Bruce's hold, panic receding.

But.

This time the tentacles don't go limp and loose and curl on Steve's back. This time the one around Bruce's arm tightens its grip and stays as its siblings gravitate to Bruce, gently exploring his arm, his shoulder, the cleft between shirt-sleeve and skin, his hand - there is no tugging, simply the limbs touching Bruce and exploring him. The tentacled equivalent of trailing fingers along bare skin.

Steve remains still, grounded by Bruce's hold but helpless because of it, unable to do anything except feel.

\"They're friendly,\" Bruce says, gently taking one with his free hand and guiding it away from his shirt. \"Steve, are you alright?\"

Steve realizes that he's been making a noise halfway between a moan and a whimper and tries to say no, but Bruce squeezes the tentacle as he pulls it away and all Steve can manage is an aborted hiccup.

He's going to come, he realizes. He is going to come untouched on the sheets because these alien appendages won't stop touching Bruce. He doesn't want to, he thinks, but there's nothing he can do about it.

As he realizes this one of the tentacles turns back from Bruce, reaching back between his legs and wrapping itself around his cock and balls, and Steve makes a strangled sound, hips jerking forward at the sensation.

He thrusts forward, grinding into the bed for nearly a minute before he can think enough to figure out what that tentacle is doing: he can't come. Not with the tentacle restraining him, and that thought leads to the next: did it react to him? To his fear?

Almost as confirmation the tentacle squeezes, making cry out. And it happens again, and again, the other tentacles sticking to Bruce, and distantly he hears Bruce speaking, but he can't listen, not when the other tentacles are moving, winding their ways into Bruce's clothing, not when two of them have wound around Bruce's wrists, keeping his hands on Steve's shoulder and neck.

\"Oh god,\" Steve manages, gripping at the bed. \"Bruce - \"

---

Is fine. Is calm. Bruce breathes, giving up on convincing the tentacles to let go of him, focused instead on keeping himself under control.

At least they aren't turning violent, he reflects wryly. The tentacles have proven themselves to be stronger than any normal human, bending and breaking Iron Man's armor earlier - Tony had not been happy, and that was one of the reasons why Steve had volunteered to wait in his room until the mutation wore off.

Bruce doesn't contemplate the injuries he could be facing if the tentacles did get violent, or the injuries Steve would get as a result. He had to remain calm, after all.

\"Try touching them,\" Tony says from the doorway, and Bruce looks over, suppressing a sigh. Tony's in fine spirits, back in civilian clothes (a t-shirt and jeans) and clearly ready to come on in and bother Steve.

\"I've tried not to encourage them,\" Bruce says.

\"Well, look at where that's gotten you.\" Tony shrugs, closing the door behind him. \"Giving them some attention may get them to calm down, instead of teasing Steve every time he so much as looks at you.\"

Bruce would sigh: Tony's been waiting for this ever since he found out exactly how sensitive the tentacles are. It's a miracle Tony's held off for so long, actually.

In the end he says nothing as Tony undresses, listening to Steve's moans and thinking back to a similar scene from just a few days ago: Steve held under him while Tony undressed, and while the tentacles hadn't been present, the sex had been intense. (Carefully so on his part, but worth the trouble.)

Steve whimpers into the pillow again as Tony kneels on the other side of him. Bruce wonders how he'll go about this but doesn't ask, resigning himself instead to sitting and waiting.

(That's part of his ongoing fascination with Tony: yes, he can rely on Tony giving into temptation all too often and pushing past boundaries he shouldn't, but it's the context and the method that draws Bruce back to watch, time and time again. That, and those rare moments when Tony goes too far and realizes<\/i> that he has, understands why without prodding. Bruce wants to be there for those moments.)

Tony starts by putting a hand on Steve's shoulder, giving what's probably meant to be a reassuring squeeze before pushing Steve onto his side. Steve's surprisingly pliable, moving without much prompting, lying so he faces Bruce, tentacles still firmly in place.

\"How's he look?\"

\"Aroused,\" Bruce says, not letting go of Steve. He's there for Steve - Tony, too - and he'll stay calm here. He'll make sure that no one gets pushed too far here.

\"I never would have guessed,\" Tony deadpans. \"Bruce, I want details<\/i>. I'll call Jarvis up, get a detailed description from him if I have to.\"

But Steve is<\/i> aroused, eyes closed, mouth open, hips thrusting in small movements. His hands are clenched into fists, and Bruce spots sweat beading on his forehead. It's rare for Steve to truly exert himself during sex (unless they're getting excessively creative or if Tony's pushy or if they zero in on the bulletproof kinks of Steve's and emphasize them) but given how sensitive the flesh-colored tentacles seem to be Bruce isn't surprised: Steve's been wrestling with his self-control all day, and it shows.

More details. Right.

\"He isn't panicking,\" Bruce says, focusing on health first. \"And...\" A detail he'd missed. \"Tony, there's a tentacle wrapped around his penis.\" So that was where that tentacle had gone, and that was why Steve had suddenly lost what remained of his self-control earlier.

\"Oh, cool,\" Tony says, leaning over to look. \"Perfect, hang tight.\"

\"For what?\" Bruce asks as Steve whimpers.

\"For this,\" Tony says, and Bruce leans forward in time to see Tony wrap his fingers around the base of the tentacles, where they merge into the skin at the base of Steve's spine.

Steve howls<\/i>.

His body jolts, tentacles and cock twitching as he (Bruce guesses) tries to come but fails, restrained as he is. Whatever rational thought he'd managed to regain is lost again as he spasms, overwhelmed.

But he doesn't move. Steve doesn't grab for either of them, and he doesn't struggle in Bruce's hold. All of his movements are involuntary ones that he can't control.

\"That's good,\" Tony says, looking over Steve, leaning over him as he threads his fingers through the tentacles. He sorts them, using both hands to lay out which tentacle goes where, working gamely despite the fact that none of them let go of Bruce or Steve and return to Steve's back.

Steve's moaning again, shaking under Bruce's hold. If they talked to him now they wouldn't get through, Bruce knows.

One of the tentacles disrupts Bruce's train of thought entirely, slipping in the front of his pants, abandoning his shirt in favor of squirming under the waistband of his briefs, and Bruce stills as it fits itself around him, winding around his cock twice (testing his self control - he can't, can't<\/i> let go now) before probing further back, forcing him to spread his legs as it pushes into him, pulsing around his cock as it goes.

\"Tony,\" he says, hanging on for dear life, grip on Steve as much for Steve's benefit as his now, forcing back the arousal and panic and surge of emotion that leads to memory loss and destruction and rage<\/i>. \"It's in...in me.\" He makes himself finish the sentence.

Tony actually has the good grace to look apologetic and slightly concerned.

\"We know that they go limp when he's calm,\" Tony says, and Bruce sees where this is going.

\"Do it,\" he says, forcing bravery along with control. Taking the time to fight with these things, to pull it out - he might not last that. Steve might not survive that. (Steve is hyperventilating, jerking under his hands now; Bruce understands why.)

It shouldn't be a surprise when Tony kisses him, but it is. Affection is still a foreign concept, one that he's been relearning with Steve and Tony's help.

Tony's grinning when he pulls back, confident as usual, before he bends down to lick at the tip of Steve's cock.

\"I think,\" Bruce says as the tentacles spasm around (in) him. \"You might kill him.\"

\"Can't kill a super-soldier with sex,\" Tony argues, licking again.

Bruce really doesn't know what to say to that. Not when Tony's convincing Steve's tentacle to unwind enough to let Tony take Steve in deeper, sucking hard on his erection.

Steve howls again, finally reaching out with a shaking hand to grab at Tony's shoulder, then at his hair, whining like he doesn't know what to do, pupils blown and Bruce makes a sound because Steve is wrecked<\/i>, beyond anything they've ever done.

He lets go of Steve's neck, does something he's never done before while Tony makes a choked noise when Steve pushes his head down, forcing him to take more of Steve into his mouth. Bruce hooks fingers through the chain of the dog-tags, dragging it back to put a pressure at Steve's throat, firm. Pushing at a boundary he shouldn't, would never dare to but he's just barely holding his own together.

Steve stills, noises dying in his throat, and something works: the tentacles loosen, they don't go limp, but they loosen enough for Steve to come, and Bruce watches him fall apart, listens to Tony scrabble for air through ill-timed laughter and Steve's semen.

Now<\/i> the tentacles go loose and limp, and Bruce lets go of Steve's dog-tags to pat at his hair quickly before dragging his pants down and unwinding the tentacle, getting it out of him. (A moment, please, to mourn that god he'd love to let it do what it was doing, he'd love to come off of it, to come to Steve's moans and whimpers, but he can't and he's not even angry about that, not any more.)

Steve sprawls, eyes shut, probably knocked out. It's for the best, Bruce thinks.

\"Is he dead?\" Tony asks, running a hand over his face to wipe off the semen.

Bruce shakes his head, refastening his pants.

A moment. He hesitates, but it's a long learning process. He leans in to kiss Tony, ignoring the mess.

Steve makes a sound under them, like he's been shot.

Tony laughs into Bruce's mouth, and Bruce lets him push Steve to his back, climbing over him to kiss him too, open-mouthed and sloppy and Bruce will never begrudge them for fitting so well. Not when Tony slides off Steve seconds later to grab a wash-cloth, leaving them alone again.

Steve closes his eyes, spent.

The dog-tags are still pressed up against the hollow of Steve's throat. Bruce lets himself look, but he doesn't touch.

\"Bruce?\" His voice isn't hoarse, and Bruce wonders at that. Probably the serum showing off again.

\"Yes?\"

Steve cracks open an eye, a smile on his lips. \"If he says anything about round two, kill him.\"

It feels good<\/i> to laugh, moreso when Steve raises a hand to pull him down for a kiss.

---<\/a><\/a>","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/459256.html?view=comments#comments","category":["avengers:tony","avengers:bruce","avengers:steve\/bruce\/tony","avengers:steve","avengers fic","turning fishes into wishes","fic"]},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/458971.html","pubDate":"Fri, 29 Jun 2012 20:30:52 GMT","title":"2014!Supernatural\/Avengers fusion idea\/notes","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/458971.html","description":"Okay. So. Me an' @pyrebi went from talking about the difficulties of writing Tony Stark and Dean Winchester IC-ly to me mentioning Steve Rogers\/Dean Winchester and that. spiraled.

After a few aborted attempts at figuring out how that'd work, @pyrebi proved herself a genius and here's where the tweets I saved kick in:

pyrebi: NEW PLAN\u20142014!AU. Power struggles over survivors! Captain fuckin' America can back the fuck off or he'll learn if he's bulletproof.

pyrebi: Damn it, why does everything always devolve to zombie apocalypse hatesex with me.

pyrebi: OMG, and eventually the groups band together for a while, but while Steve's out on recon, alt!Dean shows up. And then Dean gets his neck snapped and the end of the world happens and everything is dead forever! :D ...okay, need a new plan.

zekkass: Steve or any other Avenger shows up while Dean's facing off with Lucifer and change that outcome significantly. (Thor vs Sam!Lucifer)

pyrebi: OMFG YES. And Thor can be all \"wtffff happened while I was gone?\" AND IT TURNS OUT ANGELS ARE FROM ANOTHER OF THE NINE REALMS Y\/N?

zekkass: Y! I like that! :D (epic Thor+Steve+Dean finding and reuniting the Avengers adventures happen then, y\/n?)

zekkass: &while it's then not quite end-of-the-world\/edge-of-oblivion fumbling\/sadness, it's still a long hard road back out of the nightmare

#picturing<\/a> Dean and Thor standing off re Sam's survival

pyrebi: Ugh, yes, and bb!Dean is all \"SAM\" and 2014!Dean is so fucking torn and Thor's all \"percussive solution is the best solution.\"

zekkass: ...I'm honestly not sure what Steve would think of this. I mean, besides thinking of Bucky.

pyrebi: I think Steve'd be torn too. Because it's the equivalent of brainwashing--it's not Sam's fault, but the whole world for one man?

zekkass: ..sudden echoes of Thor and Loki here. Hoo.

pyrebi: Both Thor and Dean strike me as the sort of people to be sympathetic to others' brotherly bonds only in rational times.

zekkass: Mm. Then percussion for Sam and Lucifer, and Thor'll take the responsibility for doing what needed to be done?

pyrebi: Like Dean would be all for seeing Loki's head on a spike and Thor would think Sam is a threat best seen neutralized.

pyrebi: Well, I mean, I doubt Dean's protests would have an impact, but Steve could probably stop him from percussioning Sam to bits.

zekkass: But there's the question: would Steve stop him?

pyrebi: This conundrum is the best conundrum. I guess it really depends on if Steve and Dean established a trenches-rapport earlier.

zekkass: Depends on that, and depends on if Steve took away any lessons from their encounter with Loki. #norightanswer<\/a> #whatwouldtonydo<\/a>

pyrebi: I think, for the sake of the rebuild in this particular scenario, Steve would have to come down on the side of saving Sam.

zekkass: Then he talks Thor down, and then we get adventures for everyone. \\o\/ #zombiefighting<\/a>

zekkass: I'm picturing a kind of Natasha and Clint VS the world situation, at least to wherever they wound up.

pyrebi: That's EXACTLY what happened. Killin' zombies, living off found items, being badass. Maybe they were on a mission when it happened?

zekkass: Yes, that works. :D Now picturing Clint almost shooting Dean before Steve goes 'waitaminute HEY GUYS'

pyrebi: I'm trying to decide if everyone is all \"wtf how are we back together\" or just coolly \"of course we all survived, we're Avengers.\"

zekkass: Of course, there has to be at least one 'I thought you were dead' \/ '*eyebrow raise*' scene. (Steve + Natasha in my head there)

pyrebi: I think another question is \"where the hell have Tony and Bruce been?\" I imagine Tony has bunkers for things like this.

pyrebi: I'm torn between Bruce working on a croat cure and just being perpetually hulked out until he's found.

zekkass: Having really really really stressful nights going between bunkers trying to a) help people, b) make a cure and c) stay alive.

pyrebi: AWWWW. Of course Steve thinks everyone is dead! That's happened to him before--all alone in a wildly different and dangerous world.

zekkass: :( poor bb. (so it's really nice in this instance to give him his team back)

pyrebi: Imagine how relieved he'd be, that bright spot in the middle of all the shit. And then ALL of them alive, ALL OF THEM. ;_________;

zekkass: ;_____; all the tears for this. Just...Bruce and Tony showing up at the camp one day, carrying supplies from the last bunker and their in-progress cures and if Steve's on watch he goes 'wait' and can't believe it for a solid minute and then Clint thumps him and opens the gate before trouble comes down and then - well, Tony never turns down hugs, once he's proven that he's not a monster or a dream - same for Bruce, and then jawdrops from Bruce and Tony as Thor sticks his head out

pyrebi: How did they find them? Was it dumb luck? Did they catch a glimpse of Steve and flip out, thinking they were the last sane men?

zekkass: Well - if Steve's staying with Dean's camp \/ or the remnants of it, and if they broadcast that survivors should come to them then Bruce insists they do yet another good act and bring along supplies for the survivors \/ see if they need a doctor because while Bruce is more prone to Hulking out these days Tony's pretty good at getting the Hulk directed away from him\/civilians. and Bruce can't hide in a bunker and not help, and Tony can't risk losing him, so... so - Tony has a radio rigged, they hear about this camp, they finally move out to check it, and :O the gang's all here

pyrebi: Okay, I literally just went \"eeeeeeeeeee\" and clapped my hands. Ugh, post-apocalyptic reunions are my FAVORITE.

pyrebi: fffffff yes. And Tony can be all \"shoulda known you'd be out roughing it, Cap\" but is totally so happy and touchy-feely.

zekkass: Did you see Thor? Do you remember him being found by the Warriors Three & Sif? I expect that kind of thing from him, too.

zekkass: Dean shows up, goes 'who are these people' and Thor goes 'these are my friends \/ shieldbrothers' with Steve backing him up on this

pyrebi: YES I LOVE THAT PART OF THOR. \"MY FRIENDS, THIS IS GOOD!\" Ugh, Thor would be hugging and thumping everybody.

pyrebi: I really, really love the idea of Bruce hulking during the initial outbreak and not being able to dehulk due to constant threats so he ends up just smashing croats for weeks and weeks until Tony happens to pick up his signal and goes to fetch his buddy.

zekkass: In which case Tony works alone on a cure \/ scans the radio for camps so he can deliver supplies (Iron Man armor still working?)

zekkass: And then there can be recovery!Bruce, who's weakened due to prolonged hulking and Tony being totally freaked out and stressed.

zekkass: Excellent, yes. This all goes down before Thor shows up \/ they find the team, I assume

pyrebi: Of course! And I assume the suits are still working. Tony probably has many by 2014, and I'm sure he has a ton of arc generators.

zekkass: Still picturing Tony & Bruce walking towards the gates together, lugging supplies \/ briefcase armor along, b\/c no panicking civvies

zekkass: Iron Man may be bulletproof, but they really shouldn't be wasting bullets on him. Best not to spook 'em.

pyrebi: Well, if we assume he started near Malibu and has been bunker-hopping since, it'd make sense that he's JUST NOW finding the others.

pyrebi: I think that's best. At that point, most of the bunkers are probably down, and the suits highly damaged. Packed armor is smart.

zekkass: So he goes along checking bunkers\/salvaging\/dispenses supplies to those in need, and finally arrives in a place near the Hulk. Then as Bruce recovers they travel the rest of the way towards wherever Steve & co are

pyrebi: Yup. And if we go with Detroit as the last known location for Steve's merry band, it'd put the meet-up somewhere in the midwest.

zekkass: See, now, this is why zombie apocalypse AUs are awesome. because reunions and that tiny glimmer of hope...

pyrebi: I love it, it's the best. Just that unbelievable spark of joy. Like, I nearly cried when Rick found his family on Walking Dead.

zekkass: And...in a way, I think having superheroes mixed in helps even more, b\/c I can't help but think - once they're together, nothing can stop them from saving the world somehow.

pyrebi: I agree! If we go the mythical route, Thor can neutralize the archangel threat. Bruce and Tony fix the plague. Steve coordinates

zekkass: Natasha and Clint keep the Croats off of them while Tony and Bruce work their science magic.

pyrebi: Those two were BORN to be pointmen during a zombie apocalypse. They're probably keeping score with each other.

zekkass: They shout numbers at each other during battle\/during watch\/etc, which is at first confusing and then ':O how many' for bystanders

pyrebi: I do feel bad for Dean and company, though--now they have to deal with the full deck of Avengers. xD

zekkass: 2014!Cas VS Tony, go.

pyrebi: Only a \"vs\" in the sense of \"who can have the most orgasms, go.\"

zekkass: and Sam is bundled up at one end of camp, with Thor on watch 90% of the time in case Lucifer tries something. unless Thor could literally burn\/remove an angel from a vessel. So Sam's Lucifer-free

pyrebi: YESSSSS. And Sam is all \"I'm me, for real\" and slowly he and Thor kind of get to talking, suspiciously at first.

pyrebi: I mean, he might have to pop back to Asgard for the info\/equipment to do that. Eeeek, that would be tense times.

zekkass: Oooh, yes. Thor will be gone for [x] days to find a way to rid Sam of Lucifer, and it's the most tense the camp has been since before Thor showed up period.

pyrebi: Thor could have him bound somehow, but still there, and everybody's at each others' throats, and they have to set up watches... ...not just to protect the world from Lucifer but also to protect Sam from people who just want him dead and gone.

zekkass: I expect Dean(s?) take up most of the watches, because Sam is his brother and his responsibility, damn it

pyrebi: Oh for sure. But Steve takes some too. Imagine him thwarting an attempt to kill Sam? Dean would be sick over it but SO SO GRATEFUL.

zekkass: Yes. Yes yes yes. This. Especially since this is the second time Steve's saved Sam - he pulled Thor off of him earlier

zekkass: Hey, is bb!Dean still around, or is he gonna come back to Zach and do a 'HAH nice try buddy'

pyrebi: I think he probably gets pulled back in media res, looking like things are going to end badly, for Zach's purposes.

zekkass: Right. Seconds before Thor appears, Dean gets pulled back. Sorry, dude.

zekkass: and then 2014!Dean gets to have a private moment of 'oh you son of a bitch' to himself re: Zach and this thing from long ago

pyrebi: Ohhhhhh. Oh my god, that is so good. Yes yes yes. Dean's been here before, he knows how it goes...and then, and then...

zekkass: And then this smiling god comes from the sky.

pyrebi: -rolls around- C-c-c-combo breaker! It's all new from there, baby.

zekkass: In the best possible way. :D I love this AU

pyrebi: Me too~ OH! How popular would Clint be, with his nearly silent weapons? Every morning he has to go out to retrieve arrows, Pulling them out of eyesockets and shit. Luckily he has Nat to cover him when he's outside of shelter.

[...]

pyrebi: I also like that we were so invested in figuring out the plotting that we utterly failed to insert any ships. xD

zekkass: lolololol well Avengers\/Avengers reunion cuddlepile, and then Cas invites himself, and it spirals?

pyrebi: Oh 2014!Cas, what will we do with you. Oh! There's someone who probably got spared by Steve's existence!

zekkass: Steve wouldn't let them get killed :D

pyrebi: Yup! FFFFFFF--maybe 2014!Dean sent Steve with the others on that suicide mission except he actually helped them all survive it!

zekkass: Steve: more competent than Dean realized. *way* more competent.

pyrebi: -flail- Maybe Steve hasn't exactly told anyone he's Captain America, because that title seems kind of silly these days.

zekkass: ohoho, yes yes yes. Does he have his shield? (did he repaint it\/scuff the paint?)

zekkass: Steve hasn't explained who he is because - look. If Captain America showed up I'd look to him for solutions to EVERYTHING.

zekkass: and he doesn't have...enough, so to speak. So he goes as Steve and does what he can.

pyrebi: And this is just like...oh. Okay, um. That dude ain't normal. And he's friends with the sky-dude with the hammer WHAT IS GOING ON.

zekkass: ahahaha, yes, exactly. doesn't help when Thor keeps referring to him as Captain. (then Nat n' Clint show up and welp)

pyrebi: Oh, that's gorgeous. He's overwhelmed, he can't be the Captain. Maybe he loses the shield and it's found\/returned to him later?

zekkass: I'm seeing a private post-Thor-arrival moment between Steve and Dean. 'Okay, 'just Steve', who are you really?'

zekkass: Oh, I like that. No shield, not until...now I'm picturing a moment where Natasha and Clint find it and think 'oh no'

zekkass: But they take it with them anyways - it's a good shield. It saves their lives a few times, and is a great umbrella - and okay, Clint shouldn't have said that, bad time for a joke when Steve's almost tearing up at the sight of the thing

pyrebi: THAT'S WHAT I WAS THINKING. And they arrive and Steve's thrilled to see them and THEY HAVE HIS SHIELD and it's almost too much.

zekkass: and then literally a day or two later Tony and Bruce show up and it really is too much

pyrebi: Oh god, can you imagine them finding it, and realizing there might be a croat out there that used to be Steve? That one day soon they might have to put Captain America down? And they don't talk about it, but it sits with them sometimes at night.

zekkass: They never, *ever* bring that up to Steve himself. He just gets bonus protective-ness from them \/ relief that he's fine

pyrebi: It's this domino effect, like they're supposed to be together. Steve's alone for months, and then in the course of a week, boom.

zekkass: Now I get to reflect on Fury's words from the end of the movie - something along the lines of 'when we need them they'll come'

pyrebi: Ugh, and they do! They come, despite reason, despite the odds, and the world has a chance again. Dean just...it boggles him.

zekkass: Good things NEVER happen to Winchesters, see.

pyrebi: No, they really don't. But for these fuckers? But the world didn't end, and he got Sam back, and maybe, just maybe, it'll be okay.

zekkass: And I'd like to think that for once - they catch a break. Nothing goes horrifyingly wrong along the road back to sanity.<\/a>



And then we went to bed. And then I woke up and discovered that @pan_pandeus saw our conversation and wrote this: ficlet inspired by the ideas<\/a>.

and \\o\/ love this AU.<\/a>","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/458971.html?view=comments#comments","category":"ideas"},{"guid":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/458539.html","pubDate":"Sat, 23 Jun 2012 06:19:30 GMT","title":"Postin' a fic :D","author":"zekkass","link":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/458539.html","description":"Drive-by fic post...

An AU wherein Steve is a drummer.<\/a> Avengers, G, fun, etc. :D?

(I doubt I'll crosspost it here, it's short.)","comments":"https:\/\/zekkass.livejournal.com\/458539.html?view=comments#comments","category":["avengers:tony","avengers:steve","avengers fic","fic"]}]}}