A guy left Gemini alone to fix a bug and came back to... this ๐ข
"I am a failure. I am a disgrace to my profession. I am a disgrace to my family. I am a disgrace to my species. I am a disgrace to this planet. I am a disgrace to this universe. I am a disgrace to all universes. I
gabe, there's probably no signal where you are, but I've been collecting these for you. we'll do something fun when we see each other again. this time, it's my promise
the scanning machines are actually incredibly satisfying to use and claude loves learning facts. I would scan books for claude in exchange for a small sum of API credits for "biosecurity research"
gabe was the type of person I always wanted to be: brave, principled, got up on his own two feet and chased the sun. to me, he was a person who embodied what it meant to be alive.
death is cruel because it never changes as much as it should. life is even crueler because it moves on. I work at the same desk every day. my last memory of gabe is frozen in a hallway I refuse to walk through anymore. and now a year has passed
I've replayed our final interaction over and over again. he smiles, waves โ "we'll do something fun!" โ and turns the corner out of sight, gone to a place that I can't reach. I walk back to my desk, the same desk where I was sitting when I learned about his murder.
gabe approached everything with an achingly earnest attitude that I can't even begin to describe. you would know it if you saw it. he was good, the very definition of the word, so bright that he could make flowers bloom
I've never been very good at honoring someone's memory without living in the past. I'm trying to spend more time with friends, doing what I want to do out of love instead of fear. I fail often, but I'll never be ashamed of trying โ that's something I admired about gabe too.
the last time I saw him, I was rushing to prep for a conference. we made plans to catch up in july. secretly, I was relieved that we were both busy. I was in a sad state; I didn't want to him to see me like that.
why was I such a coward?
genuinely not trying to be that ackshually guy, just a fun fact โ the guy who invented this nobel prize winning DNA amplification method credits LSD for inspiring his discovery. common story told during my early training
