2nd week of my journal

Monday

Monday again , thank you Lord for yet a wonderful brand new day to start my
day. not everyone is lucky enough to wake up yet another day so thank you Lord
God for yet another day to pass by me. this is the first time in my journal that I
have included God in my life. I have been spiritually distant from God but no
matter I do nothing can satisfy me. I cant my happiness in my family and friends
which only leads to one thing my permanent or not tempory happiness is found
nowhere else than with God. I have so stupid to even think I can handle
everything on my own. As I bit by bit drew myself back closer to God I am
challenged to be the better version of myself. its actaully very hard to stay
steadfast with God escially with the environment I am in that influences me but
no matter nothing is easy to achieve. while iwas in school I kept wondering what
would my be outside valley , this triggered me or reminded me how much blessed
I am to be given an opportunity thouh I don’t always take appreciate of these
things. actaully I have been struggling for some quite some time now with myself ,
I have been feeling so unmotivated which makes it hard for me to prioritize my
prioroties.
Tuesday

thankyou lord for yet another beautiful day you have granted me. My goal today
to learn more how to be patience althouh I alreay am patient but since I live with
10 girls that I am respnsible for my patience was tested to its limits and realized I
am not so patient myself. I find myself irritated and annyoed easily by them more
specifically the little ones oh boy have they tested my patience and oh not not
excempt the junior girls also. you know what good thing ive learned about
parenting them is that how it can be very irritating when people do not respect or
simply do what they are asked to do so I pictured myself so this is why my house
oarents feel irritated also. its not easy to mke others obey not to demand but to
remind them their responsibilities. usually every Tuesdays and Thursdays I am left
to take care of len len and the girls while ate judy is at school. actually I learned
how to raise my tone while I am left to care for the girls as the oldest , to raise my
tone not in anger but regulate or take control before somethings gets out of
control. ic really do hate raising my tone escially I don’t like the noise ans I am
not the type of persons who screams at people while conversing or arguing.
amyway the highlight for today is patience.
wenesday

thankyou Lord God yet again for another day you ve granted me. I don’t know if
this is normal but there are just days that I am just sad not because something
happened or I argued with someone nut the day goes by as I have a sad emotion
in me. anyway I was just sad for todays day and journal. it actaully really made
me wondered because its ot like I have been hurt emotioally or physically nor
have I doned something that ia m guilty of weird right. I only usaually turn down if
not hurt by someonelse or either I am guilty of something like I lost something
valuable that I borrowed. I went home at around 5: 15 I guess and went straight
to bed since iwas feeling really down for who knows why. I can be pretty weird at
times. usually if I feel down I just sleep it or watch something funny to shake it
off but today I went straight to bed because iwasnt in the mood of getting on my
phone. Lord God help me even I myself can no lonegr figure out myself.
Thursday

I know I don’t always mention doing any of my home work or responsibilities

because if I did then I would be able t omemorize on whats on my journal after
attending my responsibilities I set up my table and started reading my fave book
gen bio thought it did not last long because yet again I need to assist len len for
preparing her for school and I I do it 2 hours earlier because it takes her an extra
time to finished eating and then I bathed , her dress her up and then send her to
school. its actaullly not easy for me because before I had so much time for myself
but now I don’t because I have an accountability as the oldest at the girls cottage
to stand up as their eldest sister and even a mom for the younger one’s and its
never been easy. there were times that I just no longer want to do it but I have to
I mean I need to. a part of coming of age or gwrowing in terms of age comes with
great responsibility and accountability for me to grow as person and be trained
for the future.
Friday

Thank you lord for another wonderful day you yet again granted me. while I was
at school for most of the day I had one in mind that has been bothering me and it
my unproductivity. I have so many goals and big dreams andy e I just sit around
and wait for it happen even though I knw its impossible. its not easy find what we
truly want for ourselves and yet here I am sure of what I want to acheive and be
but its only desire and desire without work is equallys to nothing so here I am self
assesing my self of what are my flaw and solution to my flaws. I am challenging
myself to work harder today than yesterday and harder tomorrow today than
tomrrow. never wait for the right time veronica because there is no right time do
it now do not wait for tomorrow to come. yes there is a time to shine but there is
no perfect time in just waiting for the perfect time. doing your part yeah there is a
right time but waiting and doing nothing there is no such such thing. you cannot
expect something to come out good if aint no done anything veronica just
celebrate failure if so. I am planning to stop waiting on something to come. I am
going to stop saying what I want to become because your future isnt interested in
what you can say. Stop talking and start doing , don’t tell what you wanna
become show me you’ve got it done veronica. My word to myself stop telling me
and others what you wanana become but show it you’ve got it done. let your
actions tell you and others what you wanna become .
3rd week of my journal

Monday

Thank you lord for another brand new day. Today is going to be a busy day a
bunch of long quizes , long quiz on Gen Bio , long Quiz on precal , Long Quiz on PE
but thank God Long Quiz on PE was rescheduled and it was a halfday so there for
Long quix for precal was postponed heheheh but we still had our Long Quiz on
our Gen BIO Which I did a pretty job heheheheh so much for that. unlukily the
Generator gave up on us so the electricity with ofcourse wifi was on the hold. I
went home that day to take a nap but then it was burning hot it was just so hot
that I was forced to go outside. I am actually excited for the camp to come
though I barely know any of my group mates. and ohh I need to prepare for my
upcoming science quiz bee , you see I participated in science quiz bee though I did
not volunteer but someone asked me to do so so I just said yes. Welll to be
honest I like science to be more specific Gen – Bio heheheheh I love it so much
that ehn I read books for hours I just simply over flows with happiness heheheh so
much for that.
Tuesday

Due to the electricity outage the classes was suspended so instead of just
studying quietly I had a bunch of so so obedient kids that I had to look after. ever
30 minutes of my studying in my room I would hear complaints and loud cries
from our youngest kid at the house I mean seriously how am I so supposed to
study quietly. Anyway so most of my day tha day I was in my room trying to study
for the upcoming science quiz bee the next day. I was actually stressed out
because during the girls were watching a television len len foot got stuck at the
sofa ohh my goodness. I was tressed out because I couldn’t concentrate of
finished what ever I had in mind to do which is to study. but thank you Lord this
for very blessing you have given me and the people around me , I am so blessed
and im sorry if I often tend to forget that how blessed I am.
Wenesday

it’s the D-day for my science quiz bee huhuhu and iwasnt prepared reallly though
I id study but it was out of the quiz going to be because science quiz bee is a
genral science knowledge. supringsingly me and my calssmates were not partners
because I thought it was grade 12 vs grade 11 but were mixed together by pairs
and I was paired with belle. I wasactaully surprised that it her that was going to
participated I was least expecting her but in all honesty she is just smart in all
levels. she isnt just good with math but with anything and I admire that about her
We came in third place in the science quiz bee. iahd actaully a really fun day that
day because I got to bond with other people. actually before the competion we all
studied to gether which was the most fun part of that day I would never forget.
after that we came in our respective groups to attend any meeting to know any
announced from our leaders to the upcoming science and math camp. My leader
was Irish which was my first time to ever interact with her.
Thursday

the D- DAY of science and math camp. that day catrina was sent home due to her
period cramps we calll it dysmenorrhea. she was carried home due to the
unbearable pain she was in actaully it almost looked like she was about to give
birth hahahaha. because of catrina incident I had to be called home and help
assist her so half of that day I was at home tending cathrina and returned to
school at 11:00 am . it was actually a long day there were so many activities but I
was tired because I just kept standing wahthing others to the job its not like I
could help with any of it. what a great day it has beeb my foot were just tired
from holding all my weight the whole day. camp bon fire was the funniest and
hapiest part of the camp , I will nevr forget that during the potassium part of role
play one of them slipt it was so funny boy did that kept me awake. during that
camp bon fire where I got to know my groupmates a little better to so yeah it was
fun though not the whole day at least I got to sit thisp part of the game.
Friday

as the campers went to the beach to have but had too much fun and forgot about
the rules and regulations of going the beach. Though I wonder why make the
campers walk a such long way when there is a shorter way to go the beach if they
say as an obstacle then put blind forlds while they walk to the beach that will be a
greater obstacle. the first time ver the campers were sent home earlier due to
disobedience and stress laid upon the camp facilitators boy that was the first
time that I know of. Even so it was memoriable because we will forget that
campers were sent earlier than usual hahahahaha. After camp I went straight to
bed to sleep until 6;00 pm my worry now is the upcoming long quizes that is
coming up. thank you Lord yet again for the day finished even if the camp itself
wasn’t finished.
4th week of my journal

Monday

It was the bweek before the exasm or more like the week after it is exams
exams it’s the D- day of my long quizes especially PE this is my first time that I
expirience Sir Kim hand out a long quiz because ive never had him as a sunject
teacher before. heres a secret I wasn’t able to review but I di it at school hehehe
good thing I have some notes to review. during the quiz well I wouldn’t say I did a
good job. Actually I forgot what long quizes was present but PE I di not forgot
hahaha. One of my high lights of the day is our Gen –Bio , one of my classmates
did a reporting recarding the Biomolecules and the Organic and inorganic
compounds. it was fun and exciting to learn and understand the wonderful works
of our body in order to keep us alive. Its so wonderful and creative truly the Lord
our God is such a wonderful and creative.
Tuesday

this day after doing all my responsibilities I did my performance task and after
that I took a breakand read a book a book about gen bio just for fun. also
remember meeting a friend that day at school becaused I promised her or more
like I asked her to meet her so we did and chatted before her service came to get
her home. Actaually I really went there because I had to pick up len len from
school and be responsible int aking her home and it so happened the grade 12
were early dismissed so I took that chance while waiting to bond with my friend
since its not very often that we actaully meet eache other. after ssending len len
home well I just continued doing my performance tasks. honestly I need to work
on my schedule my time is usaully not consumed productively I only do what
comes ill keep that in mind. thamk you again for a day finished and your
continous blessing and protection.
wenesday

I woke up early this day and went out to jog at 4:00 am 30 minutes before our
wake up call time so I jogged every 5 minutes and then rest to take a walk for 30
seconds up until 4;30 am and went back at the cottage to wake up theg irls to
prepare for school and do their assigned house hold chores. I was at school most
of the day. today we had a practical for our emtech and supposedly we were
supposed to also have a long quiz on our emptech but because our practcal quiz
took longer than expected it was posponed which will be hard because the week
following is our exams but this oen is on us. this also the day that for the first time
in my whole in school at valley that stood up to make statement more like a
sermon , well its because while others was busy preperaing for our class
performance task in our 21st century others were busy creating very loud noices
that was a hindrance in focusing because it was a song slef composition. Anyway I
stood up went to them to tell them not to be creating unecessary noises because
dani and others can hardly hear their song composition because others are also
singing loudly. I don’t know how to explain it but anyway that’s what happned.
Thursday

afetr doing all my responsibilities at home istarted doing creating reviewers for
our upcoming exams the fllowing week. I atleast got three subjects revieweres
done hahaha these are Gen – bio , 21st at century and oral comunication
reviewers. I stoped temporarily because I have to tend lelen for preparation of
going to school because every Tuesday and Thursday since I don have nay classes
I assist her at home and prepare to go to school. To send and pick her up from
school although school is just near by I still cannot let her go home alone by
herself. I have been contemplating I should start studying for the upcoming
exams but the only contradiction to this is my unfinishe performance of our
subjects heheheh im still not doe and my long quiz from 21st and emptech
subjects are still waiting. what a day is you know I always worry but I should start
getting something done to lessen my worries which I do im just not consistent yet.
my worst eney is myself because ialways argue with my self to get things done
instead of procrastinating.

Friday
thank you Lord for yet another wonder new or more like brand new day. im
actaully ver overjoyed because this day I reconciled with my friend I recently had
a misunderstanding with my friend when I ghosted her. we were supposed to call
eacher because she lives ver far from me to be more specific shes from cananda.
we settled a day to call each other and I did not answered her calls because I was
particularly stressed and busy so I did not answered her calls and she was very
hurt but I went to apologize to her it took her a few day to reply and we yet gain
chatted me asking for forgivesness and reconciled. It was our very first argument.
Also I havent mentioned I made a new friend which made me feel over the top I
was just so happy because I like having friends hehehe. Shes the kind of person
like a role model because shes an excellent studen academically and I admire
people who are responsible and smart because they are someone I lack. Shes
someone also very nice shes a good friend.