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Soso

Every time I look at this bastard's face I think of everything Lwa went through
because of him, I think of how I was almost robbed of being a father because of him
and then I just want to pull the trigger and finish him off but then I think of Loyiso
noQhawe. If they ever found out that I killed their father, they would hate me and I
can't live with that. I can't live with knowing that my sons hate me.

I wasn't really in Capetown, I was in East London. That's where my uncle Jono's
gang operates and that's where we were keeping Atha and Smanga.

I was woken up by icall kaLwa but I didn't answer. I don't need distractions right now
and if I talk to her, I might just end up not doing this. I took a shower then went
downstairs for breakfast. I found my dad, Jono and Mike already there

Me: morning

Them: morning Soso

I poured cereal into a bowl with milk then joined them at the table

Mike: let me go give our friends downstairs their breakfast

Mike managed to research on what drug was used on Lwa when she was kidnapped
so we've been giving it to Atha and Smanga everyday for a week now. Right now,
they can't move, they can't talk but they are aware of their surroundings so we make
sure that we wear masks when we go in there.

Dad: when are we ending this? I need to go back home to my wife and so do you
Lwandiso

Me: soon dad. Soon

Jono: I understand you want them to suffer but the longer we keep them here, the
longer the cops might get suspicious

Me: I know. It will be over soon

Mike: if I didn't know better, I'd think you are having second thoughts
Me: well its a good thing you know better

My phone rang again and it was Lwa again so I still didn't answer

Mike: you are going to have to answer your phone at some point before your
pregnant wife starts worrying

Me: I will. I just need to focus for now. Let's go to the basement again. I have
frustrations I need to take out

We got there and the place smelt so badly but I didn't care, I was just here to beat
the shit out of them. We kicked them around a bit then when we got tired, we left. I
stepped outside to answer Lwa's 7th call of the morning

Me: Lwandile

Lwa: musa ukuthi Lwandile when you've been ignoring my calls all morning

Me: fondin ndibusy, I'm not on holiday apha. What's up?

Her: yini Soso? Ngikubangela iscefe?

Me: tchin Lwandile did I say that? Jonga fondin I will call you later. I have work to do

Her: mxm whatever Soso

I hung up then switched my phone to airplane mode.

Lwa

I don't know what happened with Soso since the last time I spoke to him but
suddenly he has switched up on me. He is cold towards me and he doesn't take my
calls. This went on for a week until I just stopped call him. It was now the last few
days of March and he still wasn't back. He would call once every 3 days and it would
be a cold and emotionless call but if I call, he wouldn't answer.

I was watching TV with Jason while the twins were at school

Me: Jay when last did you speak to your brother?

Jay: yesterday I think.

Me: and he sounded ok?

Him: a bit agitated but normal

Me: oh, i guess I'm just imagining things then.

Him: maybe. Your doctor's appointment is in an hour, we should get going

Me: oh yah, I had forgotten about it yaz. Let me go freshen up

I walked upstairs, changed into leggings and a maternity top. I also wore slippers
then went back downstairs, grabbed a packet of chips and cookies while Jay
grabbed a packet of grapes then we left. I tried calling Lwandiso again and he
answered

Soso: Lwandile I will call you back, I'm busy

Then he hung up. I felt my heart breaking as I swallowed the lump in my throat and
quickly wiped my tears. We arrived at the doctor's office early so we waited our turn.
I was quiet throughout the whole time

Jay: are you ok?

Me: I'll be fine Jay.

Him: I'm sure he has a reason for everything he is doing

Me: honestly, I don't care anymore.

The doctor called us in and Jay followed me in. She directed me where to sit

Dr: so how are you feeling today mommy?

Me: I'm good. I can't wait for her to arrive

Her: lol and you daddy? Are you excited

Me: oh, that's not daddy. Its daddy's brother. Daddy is working today

Her: oh, let's take a look at her

She did the scan, listened to the heart beat and it looked like everything is in order

Her: so, one more week and she should be here

Me: one week? The doctor that did my first ultrasound said I'll deliver end of April
Her: that doctor must have miscalculated. You should go into labor in a week's time

A week to go and my baby girl will be here yet her father couldn't be bothered to
speak to me for more than a minute. If Lwandiso isn't here by the time I got into
labor, I will never forgive him. We left the doctor's office and went to the mall. I had to
buy baby things so we went to woolies and Ackerman's then Jay drove us to his
parents' house. His mom was there alone so she was more than happy to see us

S's Mom: you look exhausted

Me: I am ma. Yho I can't wait for her to come out. Uyangsinda

Her: I will have to move in with you guys during that first month after she arrives.
That's if you won't mind

Me: I would really appreciate it ma. Especially since I have no idea what's going on
with Lwandiso

Her: wenza nton uLwandiso ngok?

Me: he has been gone this whole month, he is distant and that's when he actually
answers his phone. I don't know if he is still in Capetown for work or ubusy
noLuminjalo

Her: don't think like that. I thought you guys made progress with regards to the
Luminjalo issue

Me: we did ma but then he left and everything just changed. He doesn't even know
when he will be back and this baby will be here in a week

Her: a week? Isn't that too soon?

Me: apparently the first doctor miscalculated

She made me food and I ate while my feet were up on the couch. We spoke about
random things until Jay and I had to fetch the twins from school. When we got home,
Jay made them snacks and they ate

Me: I'm going to take a nap. I'll be up to bath them later

Jay: alright

I made my way upstairs and slept

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Soso

I'm hoping to be going home this weekend or early next week. I'm done here and I
went against killing Atha because of Loyiso and Qhawe. My dad, Mike, Jono and I
went into the basement and found them laying on the mattresses. Even though we
stopped giving them the drugs a week ago, they were still paralyzed from the neck
down. We still wear masks when we go to them, I'm not trying to take chances here

Jono: what's up boys?

Atha: show your faces you fucken cowards

Mike: cowards? This coming from the man that can't even scratch his balls right
now?

Atha: do you know our family? You are dead men walking. I swear to you

Jono: you should have looked into who our family is before you messed with us

Smanga: we don't even know who you are. How are we supposed to know what we
did to you?

Me: now that's your problem. Not mine.

Smanga: spoken like a real bitch nxa

I took the gun from Jono's hand and shot Smanga on the shoulder

Smanga: fuuuck!! Shit, are you fucken crazy?

Me: oh shit. Did you feel that? I thought you were numb. So, you fuckers gained
movement and you said nothing. Now this is interesting. Get the fuck up assholes

They didn't move so dad and Mike lifted Smanga up and he stood on his feet but
when they tried doing the same with Atha, he kept falling and I burst into laughter

Me: lol how the mighty have fallen

Atha: fuck you, you son of a bitch

Me: I will kill your cousin if you don't shut the fuck up
Atha: you are a coward. You wouldn't do that

This idiot was testing me and right now I wasn't in the mood for nonsense. I was
pissed and raging with anger.

Me: you think I'm a coward? I'll show you what a coward like me can do

I took off my mask and it was like he just saw a ghost

Me: sup motherfucker

Smanga: Soso... How the... What are you doing bruh?

Me: you two monkeys tried killing me. Wena Smanga you messed with my breaks. I
know everything

Atha: I'm not afraid of you

Me: and yet your face says something else

Atha: just let us go. I promise I won't go to the cops. I need to see a doctor before
this becomes permanent

Me: lol I don't see how any of this is my problem

Smanga: you shot me Lwandiso. I'm going to kill you

He took out a knife from his pocket and came charging at me so I pulled the trigger. I
couldn't stop shooting. I think I fired over 15 shots at him before Jono took the gun
from my hand. I've never killed a person before today but I must admit, its thrilling.
The adrenaline, seeing the blood every where and hearing his cries of agony just
does something to me

Atha: fuck. Are you fucken crazy?

Me: I don't know. Am I? Lol

Mike: this fucker is definitely dead

Jono: good.

Dad: Soso are you good?

Me: I'm good taima

Atha: bruh Soso please let me go. I'm begging you. I'm sorry for what I did to Lwa
and you. It was the drugs. I'm clean now and I realize my mistakes. Please just let
me go. I won't go to the cops. I swear

Me: lol you are begging me? The great Athandwe Dlamini is begging me. Wow this
is a great day

Atha: I'm begging bruh. Please let me go

Me: did you know Lwa was pregnant when you kidnapped and drugged her? Did you
know you almost robbed me of being a father and now you just want me to let you go
just like that? Because now you've learned to beg

I kicked him on the face and he cried in agony

Mike: bruh put this bitch out of his misery

Me: nah not yet. For now, let's leave

Dad: and this dead body?

Me: leave it here. I'm human after all so I'm going to let Atha have a few days to say
goodbye to his cousin

Mike: that body will start decomposing in a few days

Me: not my problem. Let's go. Sho Atha.

My dad, uncle and brother all thought I had lost my mind and maybe I had but I didn't
care. I was enjoying every moment of watching him suffer. We got upstairs and I
went to take a shower. I stood under the water for a while just taking in everything
that just happened and when I was good and ready, I got out. Just in time since my
phone was ringing.
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Soso

I checked the caller ID on my phone and it was my mom. I can ignore the whole
world but I could never ignore the woman who raised me. I sat on the bed then
answered the phone

Me: mamami

Mom: mxm ubuya nini na Lwandiso?

Me: andaz mama. Maybe next week or next weekend

Her: ufuna ukubuya xa umntana esezelwe?

Me: umntana kabani?

Her: tchin umntanakho Lwandiso

Me: uzawfika month end umntana kalok mama

Her: uzawfika month end uyisalary okanye uyidebit order?

I didn't know how to respond to that so I didn't. Mna I was told ukuba owam umntana
uzawfika end of April so andaz umama uthetha ngantoni

Her: your daughter is coming earlier than expected. The doctor told Lwa that she
should be going into labour in a week's time

Me: what? Why didn't Lwa tell me that? When did she find out?

Her: how's about you call her and find out.

She hung up on me and I immediately started packing. I need to go home or else I'm
going to be in a fight of a life time. I packed all my clothes then went downstairs with
my bag

Mike: and then? Uyaphi?

Me: I have to go home. The baby is coming earlier than we thought so I need to be
with Lwa
Dad: uyahamba? Ngoku?

Me: ewe tata. Kunyanzelekile

Jono: and then what about the issue downstairs

Me: do whatever you want with him. I don't care anymore. Right now, all I care about
is my daughter

Mike: have you lost your mind? Not so longer ago you killed a man, whose body is
still in there with a paralyzed guy and you are just leaving

Me: yes. Ufuna ndenze nton? This is my child we are talking about. Whether Atha
lives or not, I don't care anymore.

Dad: I'm going with you. I don't trust you to drive in this state and your mother has
been on my case about going home

Mike: excuse me but I am the only one that sees that we are in the middle of a
mission and you guys can't just leave

Dad: you and Jono can finish this job off.

Jono: yeah, no doubt.

I waited for my dad for a few minutes then he came out with his bag as well and he
drove us home. I had to go in the house because my mom was waiting for me. We
walked in, greeted and sat down

Mom: where's Michael?

Dad: he stayed at Jono's

Mom: askies? You left my son with a gangster

Dad: Michael is not a child. He can handle himself

Mom: handle himself? And wena Lwandiso uyaphambana?

Me: hayi mama

Mom: kutheni ulapha? Why are you not at home with your wife?

Me: I just thought I should stay over here tonight then I'll go home tomorrow morning
Mom: well you thought wrong. Go home to your wife

Me: haw mama uyandigxotha?

Mom: just go please so my other son can come home tomorrow

Me: yho goodbye ke

I walked out to my car then drove to the house. I passed by the garage, bought
chocolates then headed home. I opened the gate, used my key to open the door and
found Jay watching TV. It was around 8:30pm

Jay: you are back

Me: yeah. Why didn't you guys tell me about the baby coming early?

Him: it wasn't my place to say anything.

Me: mxm whatever. Uphi uLwa?

Him: in your room

Me: the twins?

Him: sleeping

Me: ok

I made my way upstairs, opened the door to my room and found Lwa laying on the
bed. She wasn't asleep but she didn't even sit up when she saw me. I sat down next
to her and she just looked at me without saying anything

Me: hey

Lwa: hi

Me: uright?

She just looked at me then clicked her tongue. She was pissed off but how could I
blame her. I've been a dick the past couple of days

Lwa
When I saw Soso I was glad he was back but I wasn't going to show it since I was
also angry about the way he has been treating me since he left.

Me: are you hungry?

Soso: yes, but I was hoping we could talk before you go dish up for me

Me: we don't have anything to talk about

I got up but he pulled me towards him and made me sit next to him.

Him: I'm sorry about the past couple of weeks

Me: ok. Can I go now?

Him: yima kalok Lwa ndithetha nawe. Why didn't you tell me princess was going to
come early?

Me: musa ukungijwayela kabi Lwandiso. When was I supposed to tell you when you
don't answer my calls? That's not something to leave in a voicemail or a text

Him: suthetha nami kanjalo Lwa. I'm not in the mood for your disrespect

If he isn't in the mood to talk to me then why should we have this conversation in the
first place. I got up and he didn't hold me back this time

Me: are you coming?

Him: andizotyela edining room mna. You can bring the food up here

Me: then clearly you are not hungry because I'm going to put your food in the dining
room where everyone eats

I let out a chuckle then walked out but he didn't follow me. I dished up for him,
warmed the food then placed it on the dining table and walked back upstairs. I found
him in his boxers just sitting on the bed

Me: your food is in the dining room

I said this while changing into my night dress and not looking at him. He must have
gotten up because I felt his arms wrap around me from behind then he kissed my
neck

Me: hayi mahn Lwandiso go eat

Him: I want you

Me: well you can't have me

Him: we'll see about that

He pinned me against the wall with my hands above my head then removed my
panties with his other hand

Me: hayi fokof mahn Lwandiso yin ngawe?

It was like he wasn't hearing me at all. He started kissing and biting on my neck then
moved to smashing his lips on mine. The kiss was fast and heated and I could feel
his boner against my skin. I was still trying to fight him but deep down I knew I
wanted him.

Me: Lwandiso leave me alone.

He lifted me up then lowered me on to the bed and lifted my night dress.

Him: you are mine and only mine. Do you understand that?

Something was different about him. I couldn't pin point it right now but he seemed a
lot more possessive and dominant. He opened my legs then went down on me.
Making me moan loudly with every lick, flick and suck. Every time he inserted his
tongue in me, I felt like I was losing my mind

Him: do you still want me to stop?

I couldn't respond but my moans spoke for me. He helped me out of my night dress
then turned me on my side and entered me. The moment he went in me, I felt so
much satisfaction. It felt like I had been starving for a long time and this was my first
meal. He moved slowly in me as my moans matched is thrusts.

Me: aaaaah Soso baby

He started picking up the pace as I gripped on to the sheets. When I felt my orgasm
building up, I dug my nails into his thighs and scratched him.

Him: I love you baby

Moments after that he came then he held on to me from the side

Him: I'm sorry for the way I treated you, I'm sorry I was gone for so long but I'm back
now and I'm going to making everything right. I promise

I was still busy catching my breath and thinking whether its even safe to be having
sex so late in my pregnancy. What if the baby sufficates because of Soso's cum. The
thought just grossed me out so I wiped it out of my mind

Him: makaYandisa

Me: mmmm

Him: ndithetha nawe

Me: why were you even gone so long? Was it even still work related?

Him: yes, baby it was. I wasn't on holiday, I was working

Me: and it’s done now?

Him: yes. I'm all yours now

Me: good. I hated the way you were while you were away. I don't deserve to be
treated like that, especially not by you of all people

Him: I know sthandwa sam. It will never happen again. I promise you

He kissed my neck then my cheek and squeezed me. I let out a chuckled then he
started laughing

Me: uhlekani?

Him: hayi fokof mahn Lwandiso lol

He was trying to imitate me and he was failing at it.

Me: I don't sound like that

Him: lol but you do babe. Mama kaYandisa. You have to come up with a name for
her now

Me: how about Yandisa Alwandiswe Smith

Him: Alwandiswe Yandisa Mikaela Smith

Me: Mikaela?
Him: yeah. That was my birth mother's name

Me: ncoah baby I love it

I turned around to face him, pecked his lips then looked at him. Even though we fight
a million times over little things, it will never change how much I love him because
anything worth having is worth fighting for and we are definitely worth the fight

Me: go eat please

Him: ok my love then we can sleep because tomorrow I'm making up for lost time

I smiled as he got up to put his briefs on and shorts then he walked out the door. I
got up to take a quick shower then got back in bed. By the time Soso returned to
bed, I was already asleep but I felt his arms wrap around me and pulling me closer to
him

Soso

I made sure to wake up before everyone the next day so I can make breakfast and
also surprise the twins. I made chocolate chip pancakes for everyone then went to
wake the twins up

Loy: tata ubuyile

Me: ewe kwedin. Yiza sohlamba

Q: hlamba uwena?

Me: ewe ulele umama

Loy: uphi uUncle?

Me: uhambile

Loy: haw! Uhambile nyan?

Then Jason walked into their bathroom

Jay: morning I was about to come wake them up

Q: lol yaxoka tata

Me: hayi suthi ndyaxoka. Yithi ndiyaphosisa

Q: ngoba? Uyaxoka kalok tata. NanguUncle

Jay: umuntu omdala kaxoki. Uyaphosisa. Uyeva

Q: tjoh andiyiva mna lento

Me: give up Jay

Jay: lol I'm going to make breakfast

Me: I already did. I'm also going to take them to school today then when I get back,
you can feel free to go back home. You helped me while I was away and I really
appreciate it. It means a lot to me

Him: I'm was more than happy to help

I got the boys out the water, got them dressed and we went to have breakfast.
Mommy was already up packing their lunches while Jay set the table then we all had
our breakfast

Lwa: I hope you don't have something hectic planned. I just woke up and I'm already
tired

Me: lol nah just the spa and shopping for the baby

Jay: haven't you guys named her yet?

Me: we have but you will find out her name when she arrives

Jay: mxm you guys suck

After breakfast I took the twins to school then passed by the florist and bought a
bouquet of roses. I know I'm not forgiven yet so I still have to make up for what I did.
As I was driving back to the house, an SMS came through on my phone and when I
checked it, my heart nearly stopped. It was a bank notification telling me that R300
000 has been deposited in my acc
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Soso

Maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me. I looked at the SMS again and it was
really R300 000 but where did it come from? As I was still puzzled by all this, Mike
called

Me: ntwana

Mike: did you get the cash?

Me: yeah, I did but what's it for? And where did it come from?

He kept quiet. I was almost at the house and I needed this conversation to be over
before I enter the gate

Me: Mike thetha fondin

Him: its from Atha or his father. He said if we release him so he can get medical
attention then he will give us R1.5mil and he did so we split it.

Me: what? You let him go? As in he is alive and free? Usisdenge Mike. Fuck mahn

Him: suthi ndisisdenge whereas wena ubalekile. Andithi your daughter comes first so
we had to make a decision and we did

Me: this is going to come back to bite me. Fuck why didn't you run this past me first?

Him: run it past you when? You and dad left, remember and besides the money will
come in handy with the baby and everything

Me: jonga bruh andiyfuni lemali mna. I have my own money. Yeses this is a mess.
Did you call dad?

Him: not yet. I'll tell him when I get home later today. Sho neh I have to go

I hung up, threw my phone on the passenger seat then repeatedly hit the steering
wheel. This was not the plan, Atha was supposed to be dead by now not recovering
in the hospital. If he goes to the cops, I can kiss my freedom, my family and my
marriage goodbye. I was now in panic mode but I tried my best to hide it, I don't want
Lwa worrying about this. When I got to the house, her and Jason were watching the
food channel

Me: Jay bruh this is some gay ass shit. Watch soccer or something

Lwa: leave Jay alone. What do you have behind you?

Me: lol its a secret

She smiled as I gave her the roses then I kissed her cheek and pecked her lips

Her: wow baby these are gorgeous but what are they for?

Me: for you babe. Just to say sorry for everything

Her: thank you sthandwa sam. Let me put them in a vase

Jay: don't worry I'll do that for you

I sat down next to her then she put her feet on my lap and I gave her a foot rub

Her: thanks babe. Your mom is moving in after the baby is born

Me: but why?

Her: to help with the baby since you will still be working and stuff

Me: for how long?

Her: a month or two

Jay: so, no sex for you guys lol

Me: uyaphambana. Tchin this is my house, I will have sex when I want to

Her: we can't have sex until she is 3months

Me: what? Haai Lwa that's madness.

I'm not going to go 3months without getting some when I wake up next to her and
sleep next to her everyday. I will die from high sperm pressure apha. Around 10 Jay
left and we had the house all to ourselves

Me: let me go freshen up so we can leave

Lwa: what should I wear?

Me: comfortable clothes babe. We aren't going anywhere fancy

I kissed her cheek then went upstairs. I took a quick shower then wore black jeans, a
white v-neck T-shirt and white allstars. When we were done, I drove us to the spa for
treatments and I could tell that Lwa really needed this then afterwards we went out
for lunch

Lwa: you really are spoiling me today

Me: I'm making up for lost time and I'm saying sorry

She smiled then her phone rang

Lwa

I checked the caller ID and it was Siviwe. I thought twice about answer but I did
anyway

Me: hello

Siv: hey Lwa, how are you?

Me: I'm good and you?

Him: I've been better. I just wanted to let you know that we found Atha and Smanga.

Me: that's great. How are they?

Him: well Atha is in hospital and Smanga is dead

Me: what?

I gasped while covering my mouth. I looked at Soso and immediately wondered if he

had anything to do with this

Him: yeah and things are not so good with Atha. He is paralyzed

Me: paralyzed? Which hospital is he in?

Him: I'll send you the details. Please come see him if you can. He needs you
Me: I will let you if I can come that side. Oh my gosh, I never saw this coming.
Thanks for letting me know

I hung up and just zoned out. Yes, Atha has put me through hell but I loved him once
upon a time and he gave me my beautiful baby boys. He wasn't always a monster so
he really doesn't deserve this.

Soso: are you ok?

Me: Lwandiso

Him: baby

Me: uphi uSmanga Soso?

Him: how am I supposed to know?

Me: I'm not going to repeat myself. Where is uSmanga?

Him: yho hayike andaz ufuna ndithini ngok

Me: so, you go to Capetown with him and the day after you come back, he turns up
dead

Him: Smanga is dead? What happened?

Me: that's what I should be asking you since it was you and your brothers that were
plotting someone's death in December and you did say I know the person

His facial expressions changed. It was like I had touched a nerve and he looked
pissed off

Him: masambe

Me: no. I'm still eating and we are still talking. Tell me the truth Lwandiso, did you kill
Smanga or not?

Him: I didn't. Now can we go please? You'll get a doggy bag

Me: why are you in such a rush to get out of here? Who are you running away from?

Him: Jesus Christ Lwandile stop asking me stupid questions and just get up

He called the waitress over, settled the bill and we left. He was walking so fast that I
couldn't keep up with him. Kanti what are we running away from la?
We got to the car and he didn't come around to open my door so I just stood there

Him: get in the car

Me: how am I supposed to get in the if the door is locked? Must I squeeze through
the key hole?

Him: open the door and get in

Me: since when do I open my own door now?

I was getting irritated but not as much as he was. He came around to open the door

Him: there. Are you happy now?

Before I got the chance to answer, my water broke and he just gave me a puzzled
look

Him: why didn't you just pee at the restaurant if you wanted to pee?

Me: that's not pee you idiot. My water just broke

Him: nyan? Ok what should I do?

Me: how about you drive me to the hospital?

Him: why are you so calm? Are you sure that's not pee?

Me: just fucken drive to the hospital

He drove like a maniac to the hospital, I wasn't feeling any contractions yet so at
least I was the sane one in all of this. I got admitted while crazy daddy went to our
house to pick up the baby bag and my other things. After 10 mins or so I started
feeling the pain. On the 7th of April at 12:45pm I gave birth to a healthy, very light
skinned baby girl. Alwandiswe Yandisa Mikaela Smith

Soso

When I cut the cord and got to hold my princess in my arms, I felt complete. I looked
at her and instantly fell in love with her. She was perfect in every aspect of the word
and I'd go to the ends of the earth to protect her. No boy is ever going to come near
my princess or else he will die. When the nurses brought her back after bathing her, I
sat on the chair next to Lwa's bed holding my baby girl

Lwa: can I get a chance to hold her too?

Me: no, not yet. She is still bonding with her daddy. Hello my little princess. Daddy
loves you so much. Don't tell mommy but I love you more than I love her

Her: lol I heard that. She is so white hey

Me: lol I was expecting that but she is perfect.

I place my finger in her hand and she held it tightly. She is strong too. My parents,
my boys and my brothers came to see her and they loved her. I didn't want to share
her but Lwa forced me to

Mom: ncoah she is so precious. What's her name?

Me: Alwandiswe Yandisa Mikaela Smith

Dad: you named her after your mother?

Me: yeah

Mom: she would be so proud of the man you've become. I know I am. Ncoah my
granddaughter

Mike: come to your uncle baby girl

He took her from my mom and held her in his arms

Me: don't drop my daughter Mike

Mike: come on mahn give me a little credit here

Jay: so, when are you guys going home?

Lwa: tomorrow

Jay: Soso should just get himself admitted because it doesn't look like he is going to
survive

Loy: mama

Lwa: yah baby

Loy: inana yakho le?

Me: ewe. Usis wakho

Q: sis kaYoyiso?

Me: usis wakho nawe

Loy: uba igama lakhe?

Lwa: uYaya

Loyiso and Qhawe don't know how to pronounce their own names so there is no way
they are going to be able to say Mikaela's name. When visiting hours were over, my
family had to leave but I managed to stay for another hour

Me: thank you babe

Lwa: for what?

Me: for her. For the twins. For you being you.

Her: and for her sake and for the sake of the twins I hope you have nothing to do
with Smanga's death.

Me: can we not talk about this in front of her?

Her: but at some point, we will have to talk about it because I know something big
happened while you were away and it changed you

Me: I don't know what you are talking about

Nurse: we have to take the baby back to the nursery and you need to leave sir

I kissed my princess's forehead then gave her to the nurse

Me: baby I will see you tomorrow

Lwa and I shared a kiss then I left. I still had to fetch the twins from my parents'
house so I drove there.

Mom: tata kaMikaela

Loy: hayi khulu utata wam lo

He held on to my leg so I picked him up. We high fived then he rested his head on
my shoulder

Mom: lol you are in trouble here. These boys are too attached to you

Me: lol they will learn to share me. I love all my kids equally. Uphi uQhawe?

Mom: they went to your house with Mike and Jason to get clothes for you guys

Me: and I still have to buy stuff for the nursery tomorrow. Please come with me

Mom: of course, I will

Loy: tata

Me: ya boy

Loy: ndizolala nawe mna

Me: uzolala nobani uQhawe?

Loy: andaz. Utata wam wena

Mom: utata wakho noQhawe noYaya

Loy: hayi tata wam nodwa

Then he started crying. Yho this child though. I tried calming him down but he wasn't
having it so my mom took him and gave him juice

Mom: you are going to have to talk to them before Mikaela comes home or else they
are not going to warm up to her or want to share you

Me: lol I will talk to them. Where's dad anyway?

Her: you know your father lives in his study

I went to the study, knocked and walked in. He was sitting in front of his laptop

Dad: Lwandiso. I've been waiting for you

I sat down and he gave me a cigar and a glass of whiskey

Dad: welcome to fatherhood. You are a man now

Season 3

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Lwa

The following day Mikaela and I got discharged and it was her dad and her older
brothers that fetched us. I wasn't sure about putting Mikaela's car seat between
Loyiso and Qhawe but Soso told me he spoke to them and they understand that this
is their baby sister and they should love her. We all got in the car and drove home

Q: mama ilele inana yakho

Loy: asiyo inana, usisi lo

Soso: mxelele Loyiso. Uyamthanda usis wakho?

Loy: ewe tata. Yathanda mna

Soso: Qhawe

Q: yathanda nam tata

It was a cute moment to watch because clearly my big boys were going to be fine
with having a baby in the house. We got home and I was really exhausted. Soso's
mom was in the lounge when we walked in, I greeted then went to put Kaela down
since she was sleeping then I went to our room where I found Soso

Me: the nursery looks good. Thank you

Soso: mom helped me. Do you need anything?

Me: just a nap. Please watch Kaela in the mean time

Him: babe I can see that you are still uneasy about the Smanga thing

Me: does it matter? You don't want to tell me the truth angithi so what's the use of
talking about it?

Him: so, you are just going to be grumpy over this forever? We just had a baby Lwa,
a beautiful baby girl. I want to be happy. I want us to be happy

Me: Smanga was also someone's baby but you didn't hesitate to kill him. Atha is also
someone's baby and he might never walk again
Him: and why do you care?

I don't know this side of Lwandiso. How can one person show me so much love yet
have such a dark and twisted mind? Its like he is 2 different people and he is starting
to scare me. I fear for the safety of my kids and even my safety. I'm going to marry a
guy that can kill a man today and still bring me flowers and chocolates the next day.
If this doesn't push me over the edge, I guess nothing will

Me: ngicela ukulala Soso. I'm exhausted and this conversation isn't helping me at all.

Him: I don't even know why Atha's name still comes up in this house but I know I'm
going to put a stop to it. One way or the other

With that he clicked his tongue and walked out.

Soso

I got downstairs then threw myself on the couch and changed the channel from
cartoons to rugby

Loy: haw tata

Me: hambani nodlala phandle

Q: hayi funa ubuka opopayi

Me: ndithe phandle Qhawe

Next thing out of nowhere they started crying and honestly, I wasn't in the mood for
their nonsense

Mom: what's going on here?

Me: bayatefa aba. They are crying for no reason and if Mikaela wakes up because of
them ndizakubabetha

Mom: hayi suka don't take your frustrations out on the kids.

She took them to the kitchen while I continued watching my game. My phone rang
and it was Marcus.
Me: Marc wassup bruh?

Marc: we are in your your area and we want to finally meet your girl and your baby

Me: ngoku?

Him: yeah. Vula igate

I'm not in the mood for visitors but I opened the gate for them and they walked in
making a noise until they saw my mom. They greeted her then sat down on the
couch

Me: stop making a noise, there is a baby here

Luke: oh yah where is she?

Me: sleeping

Ntando: and your other kids? And your girl?

Me: Loyiso! Qhawe! Yizani

The came walking in, still angry at me so they just stood in the middle of the room.

Me: yizani

They walked towards me and I put them on my laps then I kissed their cheeks

Me: ningqumbele?

They didn't respond. They were basically ignored me then I started tickling them and
they started laughing

Me: ndiyanthanda evha

Them: thanda nami tata

Marc: yho this actually looks like fun. You are enjoying this daddy thing neh

Me: its the best thing that's ever happened to me. These are my boys Loyiso and
Qhawe

Luke: ukhipha ocream mjita

Me: you should see my daughter bruh. A day old and already the world's most
gorgeous baby.
Ntando: lol I can't wait until she grows up and you will have to start chasing boys all
over the place

Mom: Lwandiso go check on your daughter, I think she is awake. If she is, check her
diaper then give her this

Check her diaper? I've never changed a diaper in my life. I went to the nursery,
found her just chilling with her eyes half opened

Me: hello beautiful. You miss your daddy? Come to daddy

I picked her up, placed her on the changing table then looked at the instructions
outside the pampers box on how to put the diaper on her. When I thought I had
figured it out, I walked out with her to the guys who where having a good time with
Qhawe and Loyiso

Me: mama come check, I don't know if I did it right

My mom took Mikaela from me, placed her on the kitchen counter gently then
checked that her diaper was put on properly. Luckily, I got it right the first time and I
was actually so happy. I'm getting good at this dad thing

Marc: give her to me and let me see her

He took her and just played with her while she looked at him with no reaction. They
then passed her around amongst each other

Luke: she really is adorable but she doesn't look like you

Me: you are speaking nonsense, she is my photocopy mjita. Look properly

I took her from him then gave her her bottle. My friends started taking pictures of us
but I wasn't paying them much attention. I was more focused on the perfect little
person I get to call my own. She didn't stay awake for long so when she did fall
asleep, I took her upstairs to her mother who was fast asleep. I shook her a little then
she woke up

Lwa: what's going on?

Me: Yaya misses her mommy

She sat up on the bed then held her arms out for me to put Mikaela in them
Her: seriously Soso? You are waking up for a sleeping baby?

Me: kalok baby nami I miss you

Her: mxm unesdina yaz

She put Mikaela on the bed then went to freshen up in our bathroom. I took tons of
pictures of my baby while she slept. I can't get over her perfection. When Lwa came
back she was still not pleased with me

Me: my friends want to meet you

Her: why?

Me: what do you mean why? They don't know you and they want to meet you

Her: are you not going to kill these ones?

Me: that's a low blow babe and you know it.

Her: whatever. Asambe

I followed her downstairs as she went to take a seat in the lounge. I sat next to her
and put my arm around her

Me: sthandwa sam these are my friends. That's Luke and Marcus and this is Ntando.
Majita this is my wife Lwa

Them: nice to meet you Lwa

Lwa: like wise

Lwa

Soso's friends were hot and it kind of annoyed me that he wanted me to meet them a
day after I had given birth, I was feeling unattractive and ugly. Definitely not ready to
meet you people. After the intros I made my way to the kitchen. Soso's mom had
already prepared lunch and dished it up so I just took the plates to the dining room

Me: thank you ma

S's mom: aren't you exhausted?

Me: I was but I'm ok now

Her: you should get all the rest you need because she might get restless at night

Me: if she is then ngizovusa uSoso since he woke me up now

I left her in there and went to call Soso and his friends for lunch then I fed the twins.
After a few hours his friends left and he wanted to leave with them. He walked into
the nursery while I was pumping milk into a bottle

Soso: I'll be back baby. Just an hour max

Me: so, I'm supposed to take care of Mikaela on my own, bath the twins, feed them
and put them to bed on my own?

Him: its an hour. Ndizawubuya and help you with Kaela and the twins

Me: do what you want Lwandiso. Clearly what I say doesn't matter

Him: yima kalok Lwa. What's going on here? You are being so weird towards me

Me: go out with your friends Soso because clearly, they are more important than
your family.

Him: come to our room when you are done here.

With that being said, he walked out. I finished the pumping then got Kaela's bath
water ready but Soso's mom walked in as I was getting ready to bath her

S's mom: uzowumesula andithi? She is still too young for bathing twice a day. Just
bath her in the morning properly but in the evenings just wipe her

Me: ok ma.

She helped me with her then I gave her the bottle to feed her while I went to our
bedroom. I found Soso sitting on the bed busy on his phone. When I walked in, he
looked up at me

Soso: close the door. Actually, lock it

I did as requested then sat down next to him

Him: I think me and you need to clear a couple of things out. Firstly, this is our home
where we are raising our family which means I'm the head of this household and that
comes with a certain level of respect

Me: I do show you respect. All the time actually. Even in times when you don't
deserve it or you don't respect me, I still respect you

Him: you busy talking here while I'm talking to you and yet you tell me you show me
respect. Clearly, we have different understandings on what respect is. Anyway, as I
was saying, I don't want to ever hear Athandwe's name in this house or Smanga's
name.

Me: if that's your way of getting me to stop asking you what happened to them then it
won't work. I want to know what you did Soso

Him: what I did? Who said I did anything? All I did was protect myself and my family
but you are making it sound like I did something so horrible

Me: tell me what you did. Did you kidnap them? Did you kill Smanga?

Him: I killed Smanga in self defense.

Me: what? Don't try justifying the monster that you've become.

Him: monster? You are calling me a monster because I defended myself from a man
that was attacking me? You would have preferred that I die and he lives? Because
he is such an angel, right? Sundiqhela kakubi fondin

Its one thing to assume something but to have it confirmed to you is a different story.
I was never ready to hear that my husband to be is a cold-blooded murderer

Me: and what about uAtha? What did he do to you?

He looked at me like I just asked him the stupidest question in the world. I don't think
Soso still remembers that Atha is the biological father of the twins and that some day
that will have to come out so how will he explain to them what he has done to his
father and uncle?

Him: sundibuza ikaka. I wish it was Atha that I had killed because he deserves to die

Me: and what about Qhawe? What about Loyiso?

Season 3

Insert 5

Lwa

I don't even know when and how this conversation turned into a fight but here we are
screaming and shouting at each other like we have no sense. Soso looked at me
with so much pain and anger in his eyes that I felt I had to calculate my words
correctly before I end up against the wall with his hands around my throat. Yes, he
has never been violent towards me or hurt me physically but the man he is right now
is unpredictable so whatever happened while he was away changed him

Soso: Loyiso and Qhawe have a father who loves them, protects them and takes
care of them. Your problem is that you still have hope somewhere in your life that
Atha will change and be the guy you were once in love with and that's not going to
happen. That guy is gone but clearly you still have hope

Me: that's not true. I don't care what happens to Atha, I care about my kids

Him: stop using the kids as an excuse to care about your ex. If you still want him in
your life, say so. If you want him to be a father to the twins, say so and if you want to
go back to him, say so and I will let you go

When he said this, his voice wasn't loud and it didn't look like he was speaking out of
anger. He really meant what he was saying and I felt my eyes sting as tears
threatened to roll down

Him: why are you crying now?

Me: you don't want me anymore.

Him: yho hayike andaz ukuba ufuna ndithini ngok. I told you that I want us to be
happy. We just had a baby so the last thing I want is us to be fighting but kalok wena
ufuna answers to things we shouldn't be talking about. What I did has nothing to do
with us. I did it for us but I don't see the point in us talking about it

Me: I told you I'm not going to date a gangster let alone marry one and raise kids
with one
Him: and I told you I'm not a gangster. If me protecting my family makes me a
gangster then uphambene. You might have forgiven what Atha did but I haven't and I
never will. He tried to kill me, I was in hospital for over a month, had surgeries all
because he couldn't accept that he fucked up with you and lost you. Your ex is
childish and stupid but if that's the kind of man you want in your life, who am I to stop
you?

Me: but now how are you different from him? All the things he has done, you have
done as well so niyafana

It was like I had poured petrol in a blazing fire. He immediately got up and stepped
away from me. He looked so angry that now I knew I had pushed his buttons and
there was no going back

Him: you are an idiot Lwandile. Usisbhanxa nyan and I won't stand here and listen to
your stupidity. Mna ndifana noAtha? Everything I've done to him is the same stuff
that he did to you. The reason he is paralyzed is because I gave him the drugs that
he gave you. If my brothers hadn't rescued you, you and Mikaela would be the
paralyzed ones. I'm nothing like Atha, I'm not perfect but I'd never do the things he
has done to you to anyone but clearly you don't see that and you never will

He stormed out of the room without giving me a chance to respond and I didn't run
after him. I was smart enough to know that it wouldn't end well for me or us. I got in
the bathroom, took a bath then got dressed in pyjamas and went to check on my
kids. The twins were watching TV while Soso's mom was dishing up and Mikaela
was on the couch. Soso wasn't in sight

Me: uphi utata?

Loy: hambile

I took Mikaela to the kitchen, poured myself a glass of juice then just stood there

Me: akashongo ukuthi uyaphi uSoso ma?

S's mom: uthe he is going out with his friends. Akakuxelelanga?

Me: oh, he did mention it. It must have slipped my mind

The last thing I want is Soso's mom getting involved in our business. I want us to be
able to sort out our own problems like adults. When supper was ready, I placed
Kaela back on the couch and we all sat at the table. After supper I washed the
dishes, put the boys to bed then went to put Mikaela to sleep. I looked at her as I
rocked her and she really was her father's daughter. She was beautiful, small and so
fragile. Being around her was soothing which made me understand why her father is
so obsessed with her. I rocked her, sang for her and even played with her but she
wasn't falling asleep and at least she wasn't crying either. I was slowly falling asleep
and I was getting irritated because I shouldn't have to be doing this on my own. She
has a father who lives under this roof as well. Eventually I put my pride aside and
called Soso

Soso

When I heard my phone ring, I wasn't in the position to answer it. It was easter
weekend so Njalo was home and when I left the house earlier that night, I called her
and she was home so I went to her. I needed to clear my head but at the same time I
didn't want to be alone or with my boys. When I got to her house, she wasn't alone,
her mom and her son were there. I greeted then we went to chill in her room. I
wanted to get drunk and high so badly just to get my mind off everything

Njalo: you are making it a habit of coming here when you have problems at home

Me: are you complaining? Because if you don't want me here, I can leave.

Her: I'm not complaining. I'm just saying kalok. Phola Soso

Me: mxm. Don't you want to hit the beach or something? I want vodka and weed

She got up, walked towards her closet and pulled out a bottle of Absolut vodka and
threw it at me. I smiled to myself as I opened it and took my first sip

Her: just don't black out please because I don't want your wife on my case about me
taking advantage of her drunk husband

Me: mxm when have I ever passed out? So, the weed?
Her: you are going to have to do without it because I don't have it

We drank the vodka together, laughing, reminiscing about our past and just having a
care-free good time and that's when Lwa called. I looked at my phone for a long time
before I decided not to answer. I don't feel like being screamed at and being treated
like a monster for doing the right thing. She kept calling over and over again

Njalo: you should get that

Me: but I want to get you right now

Her: I don't want you when you are like this. I want you when you are sober and
aware of what you are doing. For now, I'll be the shoulder to cry on that you need but
I won't give you more than that.

Me: mxm you suck. I'm not going to have sex with Lwa for 3 months because of the
baby so you and I should get close

My phone rang again and this time I decided to answer

Me: hello

Lwa: you are such an asshole Lwandiso. How can you leave the whole night while I
asked you to help me with Mikaela?

Me: I'm coming

I hung up, put the phone in my pocket and continued drinking the vodka

Njalo: aren't you leaving?

Me: you know the first thing she said when I answered the phone is that I'm an
asshole. Im in no rush to go back to someone who doesn't appreciate me or the
things I do.

I moved closer to her and reached in for a kiss but she backed away and that pissed
me off

Me: mxm you think you are the only one with pussy in this country. Voetsek Njalo.

I took the bottle of vodka, my car keys and walked out. I wanted to call Ziya but her
and I aren't close so I just drove home. I made sure to drive slowly to avoid getting
into an accident. When I walked in to the house, it was pitch black so I walked
upstairs, falling a couple of times and then I saw light coming from the nursery. I
stumbled in, accidentally knocking the stroller over which gave Lwa a fright and
Mikaela started crying

Me: sshhh princess. Come to daddy

Lwa: you are crazy. I'm not giving her to you. You are drunk and the lord alone
knows where those hands have been.

Me: she is my baby so I can hold her even if I'm high.

I sat on the bed and just looked at them. I love them both so much but they are
driving me crazy. Well Lwa is driving me crazy because of all the hormones or
whatever. I don't know when and how but I must have passed out on the bed
because when I woke up in the morning, I was still in the nursery but Lwa and
Mikaela were not there. I wreaked of alcohol so I opened the windows then went to
our room. I found them asleep on my bed so I took a shower then got in bed with
them. I kissed my baby girl's forehead then pecked Lwa's lips which woke her up.
She gave me an unimpressed look as she got out of bed

Me: uyaphi baby?

Lwa: I have a baby Lwandiso, I have to pump milk for her

Me: OK I'm coming with you

She didn't respond so I followed her to the nursery and watched her do the whole
pumping thing

Me: baby I'm sorry about last night

Her: ubukuphi Lwandiso? And don't lie to me because I called both your brothers
and apparently you were with both of them even though Jason was at home and
Mike was out. So, they lied to me in order to cover for you

Me: I was with a friend. Jonga baby neh, I will watch Mikaela the whole day today
and the whole night. I'm really sorry about last night. It won't happen again

Her: what friend Soso? Were you with Ziya?

Me: no. Of course not. I was with a friend of mine from work. The girl I used to work
with in Jo'burg, Yolanda
Her: and yet you couldn't answer your phone

Me: Lwa, sthandwa sam its 6am, can we not start this day off with a fight?

I got up, kissed her forehead then leaned in for a kiss. We shared a slow kiss until I
broke it then looked at her

Me: I love you

Her: I love you too

Me: good. Now go feed our princess while I go check on the princes

Her: I'm sorry for everything I said last night and for swearing at you when I called. I
was just cranky because Mikaela didn't want to sleep. I know you hate me swearing
at you and I wasn't making the situation any easier

The guilt of everything I almost did last night started creeping in. Imagine had I slept
with Njalo, how shitty I'd be feeling right now. Its a good thing she turned me down

Me: its OK babe. I shouldn't have stormed out as well. Truce?

Her: lol truce. Now go check on the boys while I feed Kaela and bath her then she is
all yours

I kissed her cheek then walked out. Loyiso and Qhawe were still sleeping so I left
them and went back to my room.
Season 3

Insert 6

Soso

The next Tuesday I had to go back to work and I knew I had a lot of work to catch up
on which means a lot of late nights at the office. When I got out the shower, my
clothes were already ironed and placed on the hangers. The perks of having a wife
are really showing now. I got dressed then made my way downstairs where my mom
was feeding the twins while Lwa was feeding Mikaela.

Me: morning family

Them: morning

I sat down next to Lwa while I fixed my tie then kissed Kaela and Lwa

Lwa: please hold her while I get your breakfast ready

She gave her to me, got up and left us to play with each other. I made baby sounds,
tickled her and just bonded with her. I hated having to go back to work since it
means I have to leave my princess but I'm doing it for her and her brothers. When
my food was placed on the table, Lwa took Mikaela and I sat down to eat.

Mom: you are dropping the twins off at school today

Me: OK. I have an early meeting so I'll leave soon

Lwa: and Mikaela is getting a vaccination today. Are you going to come or should we
go without you?

Me: at what time?

Lwa: around 12ish

Me: I think I'll be there but I'll confirm later

I finished my breakfast, rinsed my mouth then grabbed my bag and car keys

Me: Loyiso! Qhawe! Masambe

They came running down the stairs but Lwa stopped them

Lwa: no running in the house. Come give mommy a kiss

She kissed their foreheads, pecked my lips and I kissed Kaela's face.

Me: I love you and you and you too mommy

Lwa: lol we love you too

After dropping the twins off at school, I headed to the office. The news of Smanga's
death was all over the office so the atmosphere was a bit sad

Me: morning Liz.

Liz: morning sir

Me: please call an emergency staff meeting at 8:30

Her: alright sir

I made my way to my office and called Mr Anderson. His secretary answered so I

asked her to put me through to him and she did

Mr A: Anderson hello

Me: good morning sir

Him: Mr Smith. How are you?

Me: I've been better sir and yourself?

Him: what's going on?

Me: we've lost one of our staff members to what seems like a tragic accident.
Smanga passed away last week

Him: oh dear. That's terrible news. My deepest condolences, I know you guys were
close

Close my foot. That idiot tried to kill me and I couldn't be happier about killing him.
Good riddance to bad rubbish

Me: thank you sir. I'm going to be holding interviews to fill the position and I was
thinking we should have a memorial service type of thing

Him: yes of course. You will let me know when you have finalized all the details

Me: alright. Talk soon sir

I hung up then got started on my work. Around 8:30 my secretary, Liz informed me
that the staff is waiting for me in the boardroom so I headed there.

Me: morning ladies and gentlemen

Them: morning sir

I briefed them on the Smanga issue and obviously there were a few tears from the
female staff members. I placed the responsibility of organizing the memorial service
on them then ended the meeting. We have a lot to catch up on when it comes to
work

Lwa

After Soso left, I bathed Kaela with the help of her grandmother then she fell asleep.
I also took a shower and as I got out, my phone was ringing. It was my mom.

Me: mama

Mom: Lwandile. Unjani sisi?

Me: ngiright mama wena unjani?

Her: siyaphila. Unjani ugirl wakho?

Me: akahluphi okwamanje

Her: kungcono ke. We are thinking of coming to see her this weekend. Me and your
brothers and your father

Me: that would be amazing. I miss you guys

Her: OK ke sisi sokubona ngeweekend

We hung up and my mood automatically switched to happy. I missed my family, I

haven't seen them in months and its still a bit of an adjustment having to go through
life without my mother holding my hand every step of the way. Its all part of growing
up I guess. After getting dressed I made my way downstairs and started cleaning the
house. Downstairs alone took me an hour and a half and then 3 hours later I was
done with the whole house. I was tired, Kaela was awake and she needed my
attention since her grandmother was showering

Me: are you hungry, baby? Hmmm or do you need to be changed?

She just looked at me with her half-closed eyes. I snapped a few pictures of her then
sent them to her dad, Nomz, Lolz, Pali, Enzo and Sedi. I knew all these people were
busy with work, except for Pali since she hasn’t found a job yet so she called me
back

Me: my friendship

Pali: yho you know how to keep a secret. When did she arrive?

Me: last week Wednesday. I thought Mike would have told you

Her: he didn't. She is so white mati.

Me: I know hey. Its like she isn't even mine

Her: she is too cute though. Can't wait to meet her

We continued with our catch-up session until the princess started crying

Me: we will talk later friend, I need to attend to this princess of mine

Her: alright. Kiss her for me. Tell her auntie Pali loves her

I hung up then picked Kaela up and went to my room with her

Me: lol but you love attention kodwa baby

I kissed her cheek then placed her on the bed while I freshened up and changed into
a long dress and cardigan. The weather was a bit gloomy so I had to change Kaela
into more warm clothes, packed her diaper bag then called her father

Liz: Anderson and sons, Lwandiso Smith's office good day

Me: hey Liz, it's Lwa. Please put me through to Lwandiso

Her: hold on a bit, how are you and the little one? When are you coming back?

Me: lol Liz though. I'm good hey, the little one is gorgeous. I will bring her to the
office soon
Her: you should. We need some cheer in this doomed office. I'm going to put you
through now

She put me through and Soso answered immediately

Soso: Smith hello

Me: uyakthanda ukuba formal

Him: lol sthandwa sam unjani?

Me: I'm tired and you?

Him: same here. I'm swamped with work

Me: oh, so you are not coming with us to the doctor?

Him: I'll be there babe. I'm actually going to leave the office now. I'll meet you guys
there

I ended the call and Soso's mom helped me buckle Mikaela up in her car seat then
she gave me a lunch box

S's mom: please give this to that workaholic husband of yours. I know he won't find
time to eat

Me: thanks ma. I should have done this but I was occupied with the house

Her: its OK. You are not superwoman and this is why I'm here. To help out

I flashed her a smile as I got into the car and drove to town. I actually thought Soso
would be late but to my surprise he was already waiting for us at the doctor's office.
He took Kaela from me as we walked in. The doctor did his thing, weighing her and
injecting her then the trouble started. She screamed so much that I felt my heart
hurting. I tried taking her from her father but he refused then hushed her himself and
put a soother in her mouth then she calmed down as we left the doctor's office

Me: your mom made you lunch so come take it before you go back to the office

Soso: my mom made me lunch or you did?

Me: lol she did. I didn't get a chance to. Kaela was being troublesome
He gave me Kaela as I gave him his lunch. I knew he was going to be home late
today so I kissed him goodbye and we went our separate ways

Soso

When everyone had left the office, that's when I really got down to business. I like
working when I'm alone and its peaceful. Around 9ish my phone rang but I didn't
know that number. I thought twice about answering but I did anyway

Me: Soso hello

Atha: sho bruh Soso.

Me: who is this?

Him: its Atha

I immediately felt uneasy. Why is Atha calling me so late at night? What could he
possibly want?

Me: ufuna nton kwedin?

Him: ndifuna ukuthi enkosi for sparing my life. I know its not something you wanted
to do but I'm glad you did anyway. I'll forever be grateful to you and your family. I've
really learned my lesson

Me: I don't believe you and I don't trust you so I'm not buying any of this

Him: its OK. I understand but I mean it from the bottom of my heart. I'd like you to be
present at Smanga's funeral as his boss of course

Me: his boss is Mr Anderson not me

Him: but he worked under you and despite you killing him, the family has forgiven
you

Me: killing him? I'm confused now. I'm not the one responsible for his death. I was
shocked as anyone else when I found out
I'm not stupid enough to start trusting Atha. For all I could know, he might be making
this call from the police station with cops listening and just waiting for me to confess
and they come and arrest me

Him: lol OK whatever you say. Did you get the money?

Me: that payment was from you? I told my bank to return it wherever it came from
because I don't know about it

He must have gotten annoyed because he hung up and I just laughed to myself. I'm
too old not to recognize a trap when I see one. This was a clear trap set by Atha and
he is an idiot if he thought I'd fall for it. Around 10ish I left the office and drove home.
Lwa and Mikaela were still awake so I warmed up my food, ate and then went to
them. I greeted them with kisses then took my princess

Me: hey baby girl. Why are troubling mommy so much? Hmmm

Lwa: I hope you washed your hands

Me: of course, I did. Now go sleep. I'll put her to sleep

Her: you just got back from work. Don't you need to rest?

Me: I'm also a father so I want to spend some time with her

Lwa left leaving me and my baby to bond. I sat on the rocking chair then put her on
my chest. Gosh I can't get over how small she is

Me: I love you so much baby girl. You are my reason for breathing and everything I
do each and everyday is for you, your brothers and your beautiful mommy. I love
your mommy too more especially because she gave me you. Please just do me one
little favor and don't grow up too fast. Daddy wants you to stay this small, precious
and fragile forever. You have given me a new sense of joy in my life that no one
could ever take away from me. You are a part of me as much as you are a part of
mommy. You are the most beautiful girl in the world and I'm going to make sure that I
teach you all I know about love so no boy can make you believe that he loves you
more
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Soso

After an hour or so Kaela fell asleep so I tucked her, kissed her then went to check
on her brothers who were also fast asleep. When I got to my room, Lwa was already
sleeping so I just took a quick shower then got in bed, wrapping my arms around her
and pulled her close to me

Lwa: is she asleep?

Me: yeah. You should sleep too

Her: goodnight my love

I kissed her neck then squeezed her

Me: goodnight baby. I love you

She didn't respond and I assumed she was fast asleep again. About 4 hours later, I
heard cries from the baby monitor and Lwa woke up to go attend to Kaela. I wasn't
going to wake up, I need my sleep so by the time my alarm went off, I was well
rested. I did my usual process of the morning and as usual, my clothes were waiting
for me when I got out the shower. I got dressed, made my way downstairs, ate
breakfast then left with the twins. When I got to the office, I was greeted by 2 police
officers and Liz

Liz: morning sir, these 2 gentlemen have been waiting for you

Me: thanks Liz. Shall we?

They followed me into my office, I'm not going to lie, I was a bit scared but I wasn't
going to show it. I sat down and so did they

Me: how may I help you gentlemen?

Cop1: I'm detective Madlala and this is detective Khumalo. We gave a few questions
to ask you about Smanga

Me: sure. If I can help in anyway I will

Khumalo: is it true that you were the last one to see him alive?

Me: I'm not really sure on that because if I'm not mistaken, Smanga died last week
and he left Capetown a month ago

Khumalo: and did he say where he was going?

Me: not specifically. I assumed he was making his way back here. I drove him to the
airport

Madlala: and you stayed in Capetown?

Me: yes, I did. I still had work to do there

Madlala: and when did you fly back?

Me: last week. You can verify all this with the airlines and the hotel I was staying in

Khumalo: we definitely will and for your sake, I hope your story checks out. Tell me
about your relationship with Athandwe Dlamini

My heart started racing and not because of the hotel and airline lie, that was properly
covered by uncle Jono but its this Atha question that was making me feel uneasy
because if they go as far as questioning Lwa, I'm fucked

Me: well we don't get along. He is my wife's ex but I have no issues with him

Madlala: that's not what he says. According to him, you two are sworn enemies

Me: we are not friends but I won't go as far as saying we are enemies. He has kids
with my wife which I'm raising since he turned his back on them so if we were
enemies, why would I raise my enemy's kids?

Khumalo: hmm I see Mr Smith. So, when last did you see him? Mr Dlamini that is

Me: is he dead too? I haven't seen him in ages. I think I last saw him 2 years ago.
We had an altercation at school in the library. I could be mistaken but I think that's
when I last saw him

Khumalo: and when last did you talk over the phone?
Me: he called me last night. Accusing me of killing Smanga and all sorts of other
things. I didn't take him seriously because he has a history of drug abuse so he could
have been high for all I know

They were writing down everything I said while recording it as well. After what felt
like forever, they left and I immediately got to work but I couldn't concentrate. What if
they go to my house and start questioning my wife?

Lwa

The rest of the week went by swiftly but I could tell that Lwandiso was offish and its
like the more I asked him about it, the more annoyed he would get so at some point I
just decided to stop asking. It was now Friday and my parents were coming over so I
woke up early, prepared everything for Soso then started cleaning the guest rooms,
changing sheets and stuff. I was playing music from my phone so when Soso walked
in, I didn't hear him, I just felt his arms wrap around my waist which gave me a fright

Soso: sorry I didn't mean to scare you

Me: its OK. Aren't you going to be late?

Him: I'm on my way now, just wanted to say bye and I'm taking you out for lunch
today.

Me: what's the occasion?

Him: since when do I need an occasion in order to take my wife out?

He kissed my cheek then pulled me in for a deeper kiss. He was slow and
passionate; the kiss was even giving me goosebumps and butterflies

Him: let me go before I get carried away.

Me: lol enjoy your day my love

Him: thanks baby. I'll see you later. Uthandwa ndim

Me: I love you more

I blew him a kiss then continued with what I was doing as he walked out. I took the
dirty linen to the laundry room, threw it into the washing machine then went to check
on my baby

S's mom: you are so busy this morning. You haven't even eaten and that's not good
since you are breastfeeding. Sit down

Me: I'll make food now ma then sit

Her: your food is already on the table. Eat while I put Yandisa to bed

Soso's mom isn't a fan of the Mikaela name so she calls her Yandisa and Soso let's
her be and I also don't mind. I ate, my breakfast, took a shower then rested.

S's mom: so, when are you and Lwandiso planning on having the wedding?

Me: he says in July but that's 3 months away and nothing has been planned yet. All
our focus has been on Mikae...I mean Yandisa

Her: when do you want to get married?

Me: around September...July is just too soon

Her: I agree with you fully. July is too soon. You guys need to still enjoy being
engaged and stop with the continuous fighting

I didn't respond to that, instead I just flashed her a smile. What could I have possibly
said to her? She is Lwandiso's mother so obviously she is going to take his side.
Around lunch time Soso came back and we left to town to have lunch. He was being
extra nice to me today, opening doors and pulling out chairs for me. He was making
me feel like a queen and I was enjoying every part of it

Me: I'm thinking of going back to work next month

He looked at me with shock on his face. You'd swear I just said something I shouldn't
have said

Soso: next month? What about Mikaela?

Me: we'll hire a nanny.

Him: there is a reason why maternity leave is 4months. Mikaela is still too small to
have a nanny and I don't want a stranger around my child while she is still so fragile.
Me: I'm bored at home Soso, the twins go to school and you go to work while I just
sit at home and do nothing

Him: do nothing? Well that's your choice because there is a lot you can do around
the house. You wake up in the morning, make breakfast, get my clothes ready, get
the twins ready, clean the house, take care of Mikaela, make me lunch, make the
twins lunch, fetch the twins from school, cook dinner and bath the kids. That's a full
day's work and you say you are bored

Me: so, I must be the maid and nanny

Him: no, its called being a wife and a mother. Look I'm not saying do it forever but at
least until Kaela is 4months old.

I didn't like the idea but I wasn't going to argue with him. He is my husband to be and
Kaela's father so his word goes. The waiter came to take our orders then brought our
drinks

Him: can I ask you something?

Me: yeah sure

Him: are you happy? Being with me. Do I still make you happy?

Me: yes, my love. I'm happy with you. I wouldn't want anyone else. I just want you

Him: OK sthandwa sam ndiyakuva. I just want you to be happy at all times. I've seen
enough of your tears to last me a life time. I never want to see you cry ever again. I
want our kids to learn the true meaning of love by watching our relationship and
marriage grow before their eyes. I love you Lwa and I'm not perfect, I'm far from it
and I make mistakes but that will never change how I feel about you. You and our
kids are my everything

He sounded so sincere that I felt myself getting emotional. This was no special
occasion, he hasn't done anything wrong but here he is professing his love for me. I
quickly wiped the tear that rolled down my eye. I didn't even know what to say after
that. A simple I love you too will not even come close to any expression I'd want to
make. He smiled at me then held my hand tightly while rubbing it. I looked at him for
a while just recalling everything we've been through, our highs and lows, our fights
and love making and of course our kids. Oh, our beautiful kids that we love so
dearly.

Me: you know how to be sweet sometimes Mr Smith. I appreciate you so much that
no amount of words could ever be enough to express my love for you. The lord has
blessed me so much by working his magic through you. When counting my
blessings, I count you and our kids twice because I couldn't imagine living life without
the 4 of you.

Our little romantic moment was interrupted by the waitress bringing our food. We
didn't waste time in digging in, we even made a toast at some point, just being silly
as always. After our lunch, he drove me home then went back to work. I was so
happy that I was even singing and dancing while preparing lunch. I was making my
parents' favorite meals because I wanted them to feel welcomed in my home.
Around 5ish they drove in and by the time they approached the door, I was already
waiting there. We shared hugs then I led them to the lounge

Mom: wow this house is gorgeous, look at the ceiling and the size of that TV. Yho
usebenzile umkhwenyana bo

Dad: impela nkoskazi.

I smiled to myself then poured juice for them and joined them in the lounge

Mom: uphi umuntu omusha bakithi. Ngifuna ukuzibonela yena

I went to fetch Mikaela while Soso's mom dished out for everyone. I gave her to my
mom and she could stop herself from staring at her

Mom: akasemhlophe bethuna ndze yena. Muhle bakithi Lwandile

Me: lol ngiyambongela. Ufana kakhulu nobaba wakhe

Dad: ngebala kuphela otherwise mina ngizibonela uLoyiso noQhawe la

Lwandiso walked in as my parents settled down to eat. He greeted Kaela and I with
forehead kisses then went to greet my parents before going to change

*
Soso

I changed into shorts and a T-shirt then went back downstairs and sat next to Lwa
while taking my princess from her

Lwa: awulambile?

Me: hayi sthandwa sam. I'll wait for dinner

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Soso

Being surrounded by family love is amazing and soothing to the soul, not to mention
relaxing. All this joy and laughter was even having an effect on me, making me forget
the hectic week I've had. We were all chilling in the lounge after having supper and
just talking

L's mom: I can't get over how big and beautiful this house is.

Me: thank you ma. We need all the space for the soccer team we are still going to
make

Lwa: lol yho you are on your own with that soccer team because I'm done making
kids

Mom: yet you are still so young. 2 more kids won't be so bad

Me: tell her mommy. That way we will have enough kids for a 5 a side soccer team

Lwa: awume neSoccer team yakho Soso. Ma nawe mama, you guys have 3 kids
each so why must I have more? Besides kids are expensive

Me: but I work and so do you. Money really isn't an issue here and you know it. I still
want another son and another daughter.

Lwa: give it some time

Lwa was sitting next to me so I put my arm around her, pulled her towards me then
kissed the side of her head. Her parents soon went to their room and so did my
mom. It was still quite early but you know old people. So, I was now left with Lwa and
the twins since Kaela was asleep too.

Lwa: I want to go out tomorrow

Me: go out with who?

Her: the family. We can show my parents around, have lunch or something. I don't
want to be couped up in the house all day tomorrow
Me: you and mom can do that, I've had a long week, I just want to chill indoors this
weekend and besides kuyabanda

She started sulking and giving me puppy dog eyes but I wasn't going to budge. I
need to rest and I need to catch up on work. She just needs to understand that

Her: its fine ke, I'll call Jason to come with us.

Me: you and Jason are all of a sudden, the best of friends, I hope nothing funny
happened while I was gone

Her: oh please. I was heavily pregnant and he is your brother so nothing funny could
ever happen

I pulled her closer to me, our faces were now centimeters away from each other

Me: good

Then I went in for a kiss, I had even forgotten that the twins were still there

Q: sies tata

I broke the kiss and we started laughing. I picked them up, put them between us then
we continued watching the cartoon's movie that was playing. Before long, they fell
asleep so I carried them to their room and by the time I got to my room, Lwa was
getting ready to take a bath

Me: can I join you?

Lwa: as long as you promise that you will behave

Me: lol I'll try but I'm not promising anything.

I stripped naked then went to fill up the bath tub with water and bubble bath. We both
got in, Lwa sat between my legs while I poured water all over her body then I pulled
her close to me and started planting wet kissed on her neck

Lwa: hayi baby, you said you will behave

Me: I said I'll try but I'm going to stop now since I know it won't get us anywhere

Her: I'm glad you know. Just 11 weeks to go then we can back to it

Me: what? Didn't the doctor say 6 weeks?

Her: medically its 6 weeks but culturally its 3months

All I heard was that culturally, it's torture. How am I supposed to wake up with a hard
on everyday and not get some for 12 weeks? I'm going to explode kalok. When the
water started getting cold, we got out, wrapped our bodies with towels and Lwa
rinsed the bathtub while I moisturized my body and got in bed. She joined me soon
after and we fell asleep a while later

Lwa

The next day I woke up around 5:00am, took a bath, got dressed then went to check
on my baby but she was fast asleep so I started cleaning this house but only
downstairs. When I was done, I got started on breakfast since I knew the whole
family will be up soon. I made everyone's favorites then placed all the food in the
warmer. It was a cold and rainy morning so I know Soso won't be waking up soon
but Kaela on the other hand woke up as I was finishing with the breakfast. I pumped
milk for her, feed her then bathed her and dressed her warmly

Loy: mama vukile mina

Me: morning boy. Uphi uQhawe?

Him: lele. Funa uhlala nawe

He looked at his little sister then at me and then back at her.

Me: OK hambo buka itv, ngyeza

I switched the TV on then took Kaela to my room and placed her next to Soso who
woke up the moment I put Kaela on the bed

Soso: why are you out of bed?

Me: because I had stuff to do. Please watch her

Him: what stuff? Its 7:30am and you already did stuff on a Saturday morning?

Me: lol calm down, its just cleaning and making food
Him: are the parents up?

Me: nah not yet

Him: so, come back to bed babe. Its cold

Me: Loy is up and I want to spend some time with him.

Him: mxm OK fine

Lwandiso likes acting like a baby when he doesn't get his way. Its like I'm raising four
kids instead of three. I kissed his cheek then left him with Mikaela. I took a fleece
blanket then got on the couch and cuddled with my son

Loy: yabona uSofia mama

We were watching Sofia The First so he was busy telling me about the characters
and what's going on. We spoke nonsense the whole time and before we knew it,
everyone was up

Mom: sanbona

Us: yebo

Dad: akusabandi kanje. How do you cope with this?

Me: there are floor heaters in the room. Let me go switch it on for you then I'll serve
breakfast

S's mom: and here I was thinking I was still going to make it

I made my way to the guest room my parents were using, switch the floor heater on
then washed Loyiso and Qhawe's faces before setting the table and serving
breakfast. We all ate together while Kaela laid on the couch

Soso: this is so good babe. Thank you

Me: my pleasure. Mama nobaba I was thinking we should go out for the day

Mom: in this weather? Oh no, I'd rather spend time with my grandkids

Me: haw mama, it will be good to go out

Dad: if the weather changes then I'd love to go and see oSmith
Soso: I don't mind taking you there, tata. Being surrounded by so many women can
make any man go crazy

We all gave him unimpressed looks and he just laughed. After breakfast I put the
dishes in the dishwasher then went to bath the twins. Soso walked in while I was
getting them dressed

Soso: your dad and I are going over to my parents' house. We will be back in time for
lunch

Me: but I was hoping we could spend the day in bed together and it was you that
said you want to spend the weekend indoors

Him: I know babe but I'm being a nice host and accommodating our guests. I'll be
back before you know it. He wrapped his arms around me from the back and kissed
my cheek

Me: come back with your dad and your brothers. I'll make sure to cook enough lunch
for everyone

Him: this is why I love you, you know how to think ahead

Me: lol I just miss Jason

Him: sundiqhela...actually I'm going to leave him. He knows how to make his own
lunch anyway

Me: lol you are so cute when you are jealous

He picked the boys up and they started laughing

Q: hamba nawe tata

Soso: siyamshiya umama?

Loy: madoda wodwa. Soli mama

Me: its fine. Ngizosala noYaya wam

Loy: yasala nam

Soso: hayi ndoda syahamba

I gave Soso the twins' jackets and they left. My mom was in the lounge carrying
Mikaela while Soso's mom was reading

Mom: so which name do you call her by?

Me: uma calls her Yandisa but Soso and I call her Mikaela or Kaela

Mom: niyasthanda islungu bakithi

S's mom: that's the same thing I said

Me: its her dad that wants her to be called that. The name has sentimental meaning
to him

Soso

When we arrived at my parents' house, my dad and my brothers were chilling in the
lounge

Me: molweni

Dad: hau uhamba uHadebe, bendingayaz ukuba ulapha. Uphilile ndoda?

They shook hands then my dad took Qhawe from me and put him on his lap

L's dad: ngiphilile bafo, yiwo nje amakhaza lawa

Mike: uzowaqhela tata

Me: why don't you guys visit my house vele? And wena Jason umfazi wam misses
you for some reason. I don't even know why

Jay: lol we will visit bro. Soon

Me: akhonto yasoon apha. She is making lunch and you guys are invited

Mike: Lwa is amazing. I can't wait. I'm even tired of Jason's cooking

Dad: Nam kwedin. Khawndibuyisela umfazi wam Lwandiso

Me: lol uzawbuya tata. In 3 weeks or so

Mike: how's my niece?

Me: you will see her later bruh.

My phone rang so I went to answer it in the kitchen, leaving Loy with Mike

Me: hello

Ziya: hey stranger

Me: lol unjani?

Her: I'd be a lot better if I could see you

Me: lol I'm a married man Ziya

Her: married men are allowed to have friends, right?

Me: they are but not friends that make their wives feel some type of way

Her: aaah that's a bummer but one drink wouldn't hurt. For old time sakes

Me: I guess not but I'll let you know when I'm available. I need to catch up on work
and I'm a dad again so I don't have time on my hands

Her: congrats on the baby. I might just pop by at your office while you are working
late Mr CEO

Me: lol bye Ziya

Her: bye Soso

I hung up and just laughed to myself. These women just won't leave me alone but I
enjoy the attention, I'm not going to lie. Its innocent after all

Loy: tata

I turned around and found Loy standing behind me so I picked him up and put him
on the counter

Loy: cela ikhekhe

Me: OK. Qhawe yizapha

Qhawe came running in and I also placed him on the counter then got cookies from
the cupboard then warmed milk for them and gave it to them.
Me: don't fall and call me when you are done

Them: OK tata

I went back to the men in the lounge

L's dad: you spoil these boys kodwa mkhwenyana

Me: lol if I don't, who will?

Dad: point taken. Whiskey anyone?

Jay: its so early for whiskey dad. Its not even 10am yet

Dad: early? Tell me ke Jason, what time do throats open?

We all burst into laughter as my dad poured each of us a glass of whiskey. Even Mr
"its too early for whiskey" had a glass in his hand. Spending the day with no women
was fun, we drank, smoked cigars and just talked nonsense. We were having so
much fun that we lost track of time. Lwa called around 2pm

Me: sthandwa sentliziyo yam, muntu othandwa ndim. Mama kaMikaela

Lwa: mxm musa ukuzincengela. Anisabuyi yin kanti? Lunch has been ready

Me: askies baby. We will be there now

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Lwa

It could have been my imagination but Soso sounded like he had been drinking and
if my suspicions are confirmed, I'm going to kill him. He knows how I feel about the
twins being around drunk people. After an hour, I heard cars pull up in the drive way
so Soso's mom and my mom helped with setting up the table. The men walking in
making the loudest noise you've ever heard

S's mom: kungxolelwa nton?

S's dad: uxolo lovie wam

Soso's parents are so cute sometimes, you'd swear they were experiencing teenage
love. Mike dropped himself on the couch while his dad kissed his mom, my dad
kissed my mom and my man planted kisses on my cheek. He didn't smell like alcohol
but the behavior was strange

Mike: yho hayike umuntu uzojongiswa iAll you need is love apha

Soso: mthande mthande umuntu wakho

He was singing off tune but our dads joined in and we started dancing in the dining
room. Being twirled around and hugged closely. The twins were even laughing and
clapping

S's mom: lol let's eat guys before Michael loses his mind

Jay: I was five to losing my mind as well

We all sat down around the table, my mom said a prayer then we started eating

Mike: where is my twin though?

Me: who is your twin?

Mike: Mikaela... You guys know deep down that you named her after me

Soso: umuncu sonny. Why would I name my daughter after your crazy ass?
S's dad: but Michael was named after your mother Lwandiso. I lost a bet with your
father so as a result, he got to name Michael and he named her after your mother

Me: ncoah that's so sweet. Your parents must have really loved each other

S's dad: yho they did. My brother was a true romantic, he made the rest of us look
bad

Me: I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree

I turned my head to look at my bae who was already pink from all the blushing. Naye
he is a romantic shame in his own special way. We had the rest of the lunch over a
crazy and funny conversation. Everyone engaged in it, sharing jokes and memories.
After lunch, Jay helped me collect the dishes and clear the table

Jay: so, I hear you miss me

Me: I do. You spent too much time here for me not to miss you and then you just
disappeared on me

Him: I'll start visiting more often, I promise

When we were done, we joined the rest of the family in the lounge. Mike was holding
Mikaela, I don't even know when she woke up but luckily, she wasn't crying. The rest
of the day went by quickly and in the evening, after supper, the Smith men left,
leaving the house as silent as it usually is. My parent went to bed, so did the twins so
only Mikaela was up. I wasn't going to sit in the nursery kubanda kanje so I took her
to our room and placed her on the bed next to her father

Soso: awufuni ulala today princess? Well you will keep daddy company while he
works

Me: you are going to work now?

Him: ewe I have work to catch up

Me: and it can't wait until tomorrow? Or do you have plans tomorrow?

Me: I want to spend time with my family ngomso so I'll do as much as I can now and
then I'll sleep when Yaya sleeps
I didn't respond, instead I took my clothes off, wrapped myself in a towel then went to
take a quick bath.

Soso

A month passed and it was now early May, the 7th to be exact and my princess was
turning a month old so after work, I passed by a bakery and bought a cake then went
home. I found my family in the lounge. Mom had gone back home today so it was
just the 5 of us.

Me: hey family

The twins ran to me the moment the saw the cake

Loy: birthday yam tata

Q: hayi birthday yam andithi tata

Me: lol yibirthday kaYaya

Loy: inana anayo ibirthday

Lwa: lol wonkumuntu unayo ibirthday Loyiso.

I placed the cake in the fridge then went to change in casual clothes. I was enjoying
my relationship lately, we were loving each other like crazy, bonding over our
daughter and not fighting. I appreciate the not fighting part the most. As I was
changing, Lwa walked in with Mikaela, placed her on the bed then wrapped her arms
around my waist. I kissed her forehead and she looked at me with a smile on her
face

Lwa: I love you

Me: hmm what do you want?

Her: lol so now I can't tell the man I love that I love him without me wanting
something

Me: lol I know you MaHadebe

I lowered my head and kissed her lips slowly but she picked up the pace and next
thing my hands were on her ass and her arms were around my neck. I felt myself
getting hard so I broke the kiss. Lwa still had her eyes closed and I know exactly
what that means

Her: why did you stop?

Me: because I don't want to get an erection for no reason when I know I can't get
some and because our daughter is in the room

Her: but I want you. I miss you

Me: lol have you even healed properly because 6 weeks isn't up yet

Her: well it still hurts when I pee kodwa only a little bit

Me: well in that case no Smith for you but I can see how thirsty you are so I'll make a
plan but later though

I put on a T-shirt, picked my princess up, kissed her mother then went back
downstairs to the twins who were watching Sophia the first. Honestly, I think that
show is for girls so I don't understand why Lwa let's them watch it. I changed the
channel to cartoon network and ben10 was playing. That's more like it. That's what
boys should watch

Q: Sophia tata kalok

Me: uyintombi wena?

Q: hayi yindonda mna

Me: amadoda abuka uben10 hayi uSophia

Loy: mnandi uSophia tata. Inana ifuna ukubuka uSophia

Lwa: baby just let them watch it. They like it

Me: that's the problem. I don't want to have gay sons here

Lwa: gay from watching Sophia? Seriously Lwandiso

Mikaela started crying so I gave her the bottle but she didn't want it. I tried rocking
her but she would keep quiet for a while then start crying again
Me: what's wrong baby? Huh? Ufuna umama? Akuthathe umama?

Lwa was already in the kitchen but she heard me and shouted back

Lwa: please check her diaper. She is most probably wet

Me: by the smell of it, she is most probably brown

I took her to the nursery, undressed her and yep she had pooped. I wasn't going to
change that

Me: Lwa please come

Lwa: I'm busy Soso, just change her please

Me: she pooped baby. Andizotshintsha amakaka mna. Not in this lifetime

Her: well I'm not leaving my pots to do something you can do. The wipes are in the
first drawer there.

Me: but babe come on. You can't expect me to touch amakaka

Her: lol she is your perfect little princess remember? Your princess that you love.
Perfect princesses poop too. Good luck and have fun

Me: lol uwrong yaz baby but its fine. I'll get you back for this

I covered my nose and mouth with one of her bandana bibs then went in. Yeah, no
Mikaela knows how to do damage with a smile on her face. I poured so much baby
powder, I even thought her nappy would be heavy. I got her dressed again and we
went back to watching TV.

Lwa: now was that so bad?

Me: lol all I'm saying is that your day is coming

Her: lol aww tata kaPrincess

Loy: tata wam

Lwa: learn to share baby.

Loy: OK
The twins have this thing of saying OK when I speak to them in English and they
don't understand what is being said to them. Later we had dinner, I bathed the boys
while Lwa bathed Kaela then we put the kids to bed and we also went to our room. I
took a quick shower while she took a bath. When she joined me in bed, she was
wearing pyjamas so I turned on the floor heater then got on top of her and started
kissing her while rubbing my hand on her queen over the PJs. She let out soft moans
as the kiss got heated. I helped her out of her PJs then planted wet kisses from her
neck all the way to her stomach

Lwa

I was starting to feel things I haven't felt in over a month. Truthfully speaking, I
wanted him deep inside me at that very moment and he sure was taking his time. He
slowly opened my legs then started blowing on to my queen. This sent shivers all
over my body. I didn't know whether to push his head deeper in between my legs or
to push it away. I clutched on to the sheets and moaned loudly

Me: please baby. I want you

He let out a soft chuckle and licked me, from the bottom to my clit then gently sucked
on it. I felt myself getting hornier, wetter and hungrier with ever touch he gave me.
He ate me out, licking and sucking all the right places. Even after I had my orgasm,
he didn't stop. It was like he was enjoying this more than I was because he was
moaning with me. After my third orgasm, he stopped then came up to me. His dick
was rock hard and I started feeling bad but before I could do anything about it, he
smashed his lips onto mine. I could still taste myself on him but I didn't break the kiss

Soso: I love you

Me: I love you more

He was dressed in just his briefs so I went under the covers, leaving a trail of kisses
on his stomach

Him: where are you going?

Me: lol shhhh

I slowly took his briefs off and his junior sprung to action. I still don't understand how
this thing fits in me sometimes. I sucked on his junior while playing with his balls

Him: ohh shiit baby

I gave it to him just how he likes it, slow at first then tight and fast towards the end.
He came but I didn't swallow. I'm breastfeeding so I can't take chances. So, after
spitting out his seeds, I brushed my teeth and went back to bed and we cuddled

Him: your head game is the shit babe. Damn I almost lost my soul there for a second

Me: lol you are just saying that

Him: never sthandwa sam. You really know your way around my dick

I hit him playfully. He was making me feel nasty and bitchy

Me: you are making me sound like such a freak

Him: but you are though. My sexy freak. A lady in the streets but a freak in the
bedroom

He kissed my cheek and I just melted same time. The way I still have a crush on my
boyfriend though. The butterflies are still there all the time

Him: how many more weeks before I can be allowed to make love to my wife?

Me: 8 weeks

Him: fuck that's a long time

Me: and you better not think of getting it elsewhere

Him: well unless Ciara offers. You'd have to understand nawe baby

Me: you are crazy.

Season 3

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Lwa

Two days later, which was a Friday, I received a call just after I had waved goodbye
to Soso and the twins. I didn't recognize the number but I answered anyway

Me: hello

The person on the other side of the line kept quiet but I could hear him/her breathing

Me: are you going to speak or not?

Voice: molo mama kaQhawe

My heart started racing because the voice sounded all too familiar but it can't be who
I think it is, he wouldn't be that stupid.

Me: who who is this?

Atha: are you telling me you don't recognize my voice?

His voice was calm, he didn't sound angry or anything like that. I remained silent for
a while. What does he want from me?

Him: Lwa are you still there? Please don't hang up on me. I just want us to talk

Me: I'm still here. What do you want to talk about?

Him: please come see me. I'm at my parents' house and I really want to see you

Me: Atha I can't. I have a family I need to focus on and Soso would kill the both of us
if I come see you

Him: Lwa he doesn't have to know. I promise you, I won't take up too much of your
time.

Me: and how am I supposed to trust you? How do I know that you won't hold me
hostage there just to get to Soso?

Him: that life is behind me. I lost so much because I was bitter and because of the
drugs. I just want to apologize to you in person. I owe you that much
I hadn't forgiven Atha for everything that he put me through, the kidnapping and
trying to kill Soso. Everyone has told me to accept the apology I never received but
its difficult when I'm still so angry at him so this could be my moment to find closure

Me: let me sleep on it. I'll get back to you

Mikaela started crying so I had to attend to her

Him: you have a baby?

Me: yeah. She is 1month now

Him: what's her name?

Me: Alwandiswe Mikaela Yandisa Smith

Him: beautiful names. I'm sure she is as beautiful as her mother

I smiled to myself, actually it was more than just a smile. I was blushing but why
though? I hate this guy

Me: I need to attend to her so I have to go

Him: alright. Please save my number and call me when you've made your decision

Me: OK

I hung up and went check on my baby. I fed her then bathed her and placed her in
the lounge on her playmat then started cleaning. I seriously need to talk to Soso
about getting a maid, this is tiring phela. By the time I was done, Kaela was asleep
so I just left her there and went to take a bath. Ever since I gave birth, I'm not a fan of
showers. I just enjoy sitting in the bubblebath and just relaxing. It was when I
remembered that I didn't take the baby monitor that I decided to get out of the water.
I wrapped my body in a towel and went downstairs to check on Kaela. My heart
stopped for a second when I didn't see her on her playmat. I checked under the
couches and nothing. I was now panicking, she is a month old so she can't crawl or
walk so obviously someone took her. When I didn't find her in the nursery, I
immediately called Soso

Soso: babe I'm in a meeting, I'll call you later

Me: Soso our baby

I was now in tears and breathing heavily

Him: Lwa calm down. What's wrong with our baby?

Me: she is missing Soso. I've looked everywhere and she isn't in the house

Him: baby you are not making sense. Just breath and tell me what's going on

I took in a deep breath and slowly exhaled. Trying my best to calm down

Me: I went to take a bath and when I came back down, she was gone

Just then Jason walked in through the sliding door which led to the pool area with
Mikaela in his arms. I immediately hung up the phone and rushed to him

Me: oh, thank you God my baby is OK

Jay: of course, she is. She was crying when I walked in so I took her outside for a bit

Me: how did you even get in?

My phone rang and it was Soso calling back

Me: baby

Soso: you don't get to call me while I'm in a meeting telling me our daughter is
missing and then you hang up on me

Me: I'm sorry babe but I found her. She was with Jason outside

I told him everything and then I let him get back to his meeting

Me: you scared me Jay. I thought someone took her

Jay: its OK, I just thought I should surprise you guys with a visit. I used my key to get
in

Mikaela was already asleep so I put her in the nursery and Jay had followed me but I
hadn't seen him so when I turned around, I bumped into him and my towel fell. So
here I was standing butt naked in front of my man's brother and our bodies were
basically centimeters apart. We stood like that for about 5 secs until I reached down
to pick my towel up but he stopped me by smashing his lips on to mine. I quickly
backed away, picked up my towel and literally ran to my bedroom and locked the
door. Oh my gosh what have I done? I got dressed and just stayed in my room.
*

Soso

When my meeting ended, that was the time when I got time to process everything
Lwa had told me. Why was Jason at my house without telling me? I understand that
he is family and he has the key to the house but that is still my house and I need to
know the people that come and go there. Anyway, I put it at the back of my mind for
the time being and got back to work. Around lunch time, my secretary knocked on
my door. I waved for her to come in and she did

Liz: sir, someone is here to see you, should I let them in?

Me: who is it?

Her: a Miss Ziyamthanda Phakathi

A smile crept on to my face as I packed my work away

Me: tell her to come in

Her: alright sir.

I got up and sat on the corner of my desk as Ziya walked in dressed in navy formal
shorts with a white see through blouse and navy blazer with nude heels. She looked
sexy and sophisticated

Me: Miss Phakathi. To what do I owe the pleasure

She sat down on the chair in front of my desk

Ziya: I thought I should bring you lunch since I haven't seen my friend in a while

Me: lol why thank you friend. I am actually hungry.

My office has a couch in it so we sat on the couch and had the lunch she had
brought me. We were having a light conversation with a lot of jokes in between so I
was laughing like crazy

Ziya: I have a small favor to ask

Me: hmm OK I'm listening

She got up, closed all the blinds in my office and locked the door

Me: Ziya what are you doing?

Her: nothing. Nothing at all

She then came and stood in front of of me, between my legs to be exact and started
stripping. By stripping, I don't mean just taking off her clothes but actually swaying
her hips and bouncing her ass type of stripping

Me: Ziya please stop this. I'm married, I love my wife and I'm not going to sleep with
you

Her: lol OK

She was now in just her red lacy thong, heels and bra. It took everything in me not to
just take her and fuck her on the couch right there and then. She held out her hand
to me, I gave her my hand and she smiled while she led me to my chair. She pushed
my on to the chair as she sat on my desk with her legs on either side of the chair

Ziya: the thing about me is that I don't beg a man for dick, if you don't want me then
so be it

Me: uh huh

I didn't even care about what she was saying, my eyes were focused on what was
between her legs. I think she realized that I wasn't listening so she closed her legs
and got off the desk, walked towards her bag, obviously shaking her ass all over the
place. I hated my dick at that moment because I was hard as fuck. I tried adjusting
my pants so my boner doesn't show but it was too late. She returned, placed a
vibrator on my table then sat on me, facing the door. I didn't want to touch but
somehow my hands landed on her thighs and she started twerking on me

Me: oh God Ziya please don't do this

Her: why are you punishing yourself Lwandiso? I can feel your rock-hard dick on my
ass… you want this

Me: I can't do it. I won't do this

She went back to her original position but the panties were now gone. Gosh why
does this always happen to me though? First it was Tumi and now its Ziya.
Her: are you sure you don't want any of this?

Her pussy was cleanly shaved and now glistering because she was wet. I tried
moving my chair back so I can stop this but she had her heels hooked on it. Next
thing she started fucking herself with the dildo while moaning. I'm not going to lie,
looking at her in that position on my desk was sexy as fuck. While taking in that
moment and fighting very hard not to be led to temptation, my phone rang. The
landline. I placed my hand on Ziya's mouth to block out her moans then answered

Me: Smith hello

Liz: sir Lwa is here to see you

Me: Lwa? Which Lwa?

Her: Lwa Hadebe sir

Me: fuck. Liz please stall her for 5 mins max

Her: eish OK sir

I dropped the phone and pulled Ziya off my desk

Ziya: what are you doing? I was about to cum

Me: you need to get dressed, my wife is outside

Her: and then I'll go where?

Me: that door over there is the store room, stay in there until I tell you its safe and for
your sake you better not make a single sound

While she took her stuff, I opened the blinds and the windows then sprayed some air
freshener because my office smelled like sex. When everything looked like it was
back to normal, I went out to Lwa.

Me: Lwa you can come through

She followed me to my office and we sat on the couch

Me: this is a surprise. Where is Mikaela?

Lwa: I left her with Yolanda, the staff wanted to see her
I leaned over for a kiss and she met me half way. I kissed her hungrily while
grabbing her ass

Her: hmm someone missed me

If only she knew how badly I want to have sex right now. I continued kissing her then
moved to her neck and that's when she let out a moan. She was wearing a long
dress so I lifted it up and laid her on the couch then ripped her panties apart,
unbuckled my belt and unzipped my pants

Her: Soso we can't. We have to wait

Me: I know baby but I need this

Her: i haven't healed completely

Me: ndizoyifaka kancinci sthandwa sam

I didn't wait for the reply as I slowly inserted myself in her but I didn't go all the way
then started moving on top of her as she moaned. When her walls tightened around
my dick, I couldn't take it anymore so I went all the way and started ramming in

Her: ouch baby that hurts

Me: I'm almost done baby

The images of Ziya with her glistering shaved pussy and a vibrator deep inside her
crossed my mind and I came immediately

Me: I love you baby

I kissed her forehead and she pushed me off. She was angry with me

Her: you are so selfish Lwandiso. You know we shouldn't be having sex right now
but you just don't care about anyone else except for yourself.

Me: I'm sorry baby. I really am

She got up and there were blood stains on the couch.

Dammit Lwandiso, what did you do? She pulled her dress down and just stood in
front of me

Me: Lwa my love I'm sorry I hurt you. I didn't mean to. Please forgive me
Her: whatever Soso. I'm getting my baby and I'm leaving.

Me: baby please. Just wait a second. Can we talk?

I pulled her towards me and held her tightly. She was even crying and her tears were
wetting my shirt

Me: I'm sorry. I promise from now on I'll wait until Mikaela is 3 months.

Her: its fine. I forgive you

I kissed her forehead then let her go and cleaned the couch. I sat on my chair while
she sat on top of me

Me: I love you MaHadebe

Her: I love you too Smith

Me: and thank you for the visit but I want my princess now

I called Liz and she brought Mikaela in

Liz: he looks so much like Mr Smith. One could swear she is yours, sir

Me: lol she is mine

Lwa shot me a look. Our relationship is still on the downlow at work so she was
shocked at what I said but Liz was even more shocked

Liz: I thought you were engaged Lwa...actually its none of my business

Me: lol I'm kidding Elizabeth, she isn't mine

Liz: oh, OK let me leave you guys.

She walked out and Lwa was still giving me the deadly stare

Me: what?

Her: what the hell was that?

I ignored her and started playing with Kaela. I had even forgotten that Ziya was in the
store room until I heard something fall in there?

Lwa: what was that?

Me: uhm I don't know babe. Maybe it’s rats or something

Her: oh OK. Well we have to get going. I still have to fetch the twins

Me: OK my love and when I get home I want to hear about why Jason was in my
house without me being told

She immediately looked away. If I didn't know better, I'd swear she was feeling guilty
about something

Me: what are you not telling me MaHadebe?

Her: nothing. Nothing baby. Let us leave you to work

Me: hmm OK

I kissed Kaela's forehead and then walked them out. When we got to the car, I
hugged Lwa then kissed her cheek since we had an audience

Me: drive safely

I walked back into my office and found Ziya waiting for me by my desk. I took the
panties I had ripped off Lwa, put it against my nose and just smiled to myself before
putting it in the drawer

Ziya: you are an asshole Lwandiso

Me: haaibo ndenzeni ngoku?

Her: how could you fuck her while I'm in the storeroom? You gave her the erection I
created

Me: haaibo ntombazane you are calling me an asshole for making love to my wife?
Yho clearly the definition of asshole has changed

Her: nxaa fuck you

She took her bag and stormed out off my office. Some women are just crazy
Season 3

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Lwa

What happened with Jason was starting to affect my relationship with Soso,
especially because I couldn't bring myself to tell him what his brother and I did.
Where would I even start in breaking those news to him? Would he believe that it
was an accident, well I know it was an accident on my side, I don't know about Jay's.
Two weeks later I received a call from Soso's mom asking me to bring her the kids.
She was missing them and she wanted them to sleepover, it was a Friday anyway so
Soso and I agreed. Around 1ish I freshened up, wore grey leggings, a long-sleeved
T-shirt and a long coat with knee high boots. It was winter so it was cold. I packed a
bag for the twins and a bag for Mikaela then went to pick the twins up from school.
On our way to her house, I called Soso's mom

S's mom: hey Lwa

Me: hey ma, we are on our way

Her: OK sweetie, just call Jason to open up for you because I'm in town at the
moment and I'll only be back later on

My heart immediately started racing, I haven't seen or spoken to Jay since the
incident. After our kiss, I locked myself in my room until he left. He texted me saying
he is leaving and that's the only time I came out of my room. He didn't even
apologize for what he did

Me: is Mike there as well?

Her: no Mike is out of town with his father

Me: alright ma

My mood had immediately changed but I tried to keep my composure. When we got
to the gate, I texted Jay to open for us and he did

Q: sobona ukhulu?

Me: yes baby. Uyanikhumbula

Loy: yakhumbula nam

I unbuckled them out of their car seats, unbuckled Kaela as well then walked into the
house. The twins immediately ran to Jay when they saw him and I just put Mikaela
on the couch and went back to get the bags, as I turned around after closing the
boot, I bumped into Jay

Jay: why didn't you ask me to help?

Me: I can handle it, it's just bags

He stood in front of me without moving an inch and with his eyes locked on me. My
heart was racing, in fact I was actually uncomfortable

Me: please move

Him: can we talk for a sec?

Me: no. My kids are alone in the house, I don't have time to chitchat with you out
here

I went around him and took the bags upstairs then returned downstairs again to take
Mikaela to the room that used to belong to Soso

Me: please listen out for her when she wakes up, I put her in Soso's room

Jay: OK. Are you leaving ngok?

Me: yes. I have to go home and make dinner for my husband

I made sure to emphasize the husband part. He stared at me for a while and just let
out a soft chuckle

Him: you can't avoid this forever

Me: Qhawe! Loyiso! Hambani nodlala phandle

They knew better than to argue with me so they went to play in the backyard and I
sat down. Its now or never

Me: you said you want to talk, khuluma ke

Him: I want to talk about our kiss. I know you felt the chemistry between us
Me: firstly, it wasn't our kiss, it was your kiss since you ambushed me and secondly, I
felt nothing. I'm going to be married to your brother in a few months, please get your
shit together before then or else I'm going to tell him what you did

Him: you wouldn't tell him. If you wanted to tell him, you would have done so by now.
Lwa, I was there for you when your so called husband abandoned you while you
were heavily pregnant. I was the one that was going with you to doctor's
appointments, taking care of you and protecting you. It was all me not Soso and I
know we got close during that time. I tried to stay away but you said you missed me

Me: I missed your company but that doesn't mean I have feelings for you. What do
you take me for Jason?

Him: I'm not saying leave my brother for me but I want to get close to you as well.

Me: you make me sick bruh. You are really disgusting. Nxxaaa

I took my bag and walked out and went to my car and started the engine, he opened
for me and I drove to my house. I played music from my phone, the first Chris Brown
album and started cooking. I was singing along so loudly that I didnt hear Soso come
in. I got such a fright when he held my waist from behind. I jumped up and screamed

Soso: lol relax babe, its just me

He kissed my cheek then sat on the counter

Me: why are you home so early?

It was just after 3 and Soso usually gets home after 5

Him: I figured you might be lonely since the kids aren't here. Whatever you are
making smells nice by the way

Me: lol its dumplings and lamb stew

Him: can't wait. Let me go change then come keep you company

Me: OK baby

*
Soso

My wife is acting jumpy and my brother isn't taking any of my calls. I swear to God if
anything happened between them, I'm going to kill someone. I changed into grey
sweatpants and a blue sweater then took my phone and went back to the kitchen

Me: Lwandile

Lwa: Lwandiso

Me: remember the day you thought Mikaela was missing?

Her: ye-yes

Me: you said Jason had her right?

She nodded, she was keeping very little eye contact with me which got me worried

Me: why was Jason in my house without my knowledge?

Her: he said he wanted to surprise us

Me: oh OK. That's fine then

Lwa was basically shaking now and I knew something must have happened. I know
my brother, back in high school he slept with Luminjalo but I forgave the both of them
because I was crazy in love and I wasn't going to let a girl come between my brother
and I. He gave me the whole bros before hoes speech and because I was still a kid
back then, I bought it but I'm a grown man now so I won't fall for that crap. I decided
to test the waters with Lwa since she wasn't going to tell me what happened

Me: so, when were you planning on telling me that you and Jason slept together?

She immediately dropped the spoon and turned my direction. She was in tears which
immediately pissed me off

Her: i... we...I'm sorry Soso

Me: what the fuck Lwa? So, you did sleep with him?

Her: no baby. I didn't. My towel fell and he kissed me but that's where it ended. I
promise Soso, I'd never do that to you

Me: towel? what towel?

I felt my face burning, my veins were out and I was pissed off

Her: I had gotten out the bath, I thought I was alone and after I had put Mikaela
down, I bumped into him and my towel fell. I was going to tell you Soso

Me: but you didn't. You fucken didn't tell me. Is this why you were missing him?
Were you guys sleeping together while I was in East London? You better not lie to
Lwandile because I will fuck you up right now. You and that asshole boyfriend of
yours

She was crying her lungs out now and honestly, I didn't care, she should have told
me this the day it happened not two weeks later

Me: stop crying dammit and give me a fucken answer. Now

My voice was raised and I was shouting at her and she still didn't answer me. I
jumped off the counter, grabbed her by her shoulders and started shaking her

Me: answer me. Did you fuck my brother? Huh? Did you?

Her: you are hurting me Soso. Please stop

I smashed my lips onto hers and at first, she didn't respond but I parted her lips with
my tongue and she kissed me back. I ripped her tshirt, followed by her bra,
squeezed her boobs

Her: Soso stop. Please

Me: you are mine. Do you hear me? Only mine

I moved her against the wall, put her hands against the wall above her head and
held them down with my one hand then started kissing her neck, more like biting it
and leaving love bites. She was moaning now but still crying so I wiped her tears,
smashed her lips again

Me: mine

Tears were streaming down my eyes, images of Jason having his way with her
crossed my mind and as much as I tried not to get angry, I couldn't stop myself. I
ripped her legging and panties, lifted her one leg around my waist as I took my
sweatpants off and rammed into her. No foreplay at all
Lwa: aaah Soso

Her voice sounded like it was miles away. I fucked her hard against the wall, she
was moaning and screaming from the pleasure and the pain. She was now healed
but I'm a gifted man and when I ram in hard, there is no way you can't feel it. I pulled
her hair and buried myself in her neck

Me: You. Are. Mine. Only. Mine

With that I came and then pulled out of her. She dropped to the floor as I pulled my
sweatpants up then grabbed my car keys. She sat against the wall and the moment
she saw me leaving, she started screaming and crying out loud but I didn't stop. I
drove to my parents' house, I still had my remote so I drove in and walked in. My
mom was in the lounge with my kids and Judas was in the kitchen.

Mom: Soso? What are you doing here?

I walked right into the kitchen and punched him. He stumbled around but didn't fall so
I punched him again

Mom: Lwandiso what's gotten into you?

I was punching Jason and the idiot wasn't fighting back. He just let me beat him up
which annoyed me

Me: fight like a man, you asshole. You think you can put your filthy hands on my wife
and get away with it? Fight me like a man

Mom managed to pull me off him and his face was swollen and bleeding but I didn't
give a fuck. He deserved it

Mom: what have you done? Call an ambulance

Me: what have I done? Mna? Ask your son what he did. He kissed my wife.

Mom: Jason please tell me you didn't

Jay: I love her mom

Hearing that just triggered my rage all over again and I kicked him on his face and he
passed out. Loyiso and Qhawe were now crying in the lounge and so was Mikaela

Me: bros over hoes yamasimba nxaa

I spat on his face and walked out. My hands and my clothes had bloodstains on
them so I drove back to my house. That will teach him to ever mess with what
belongs to me. I got home, walked into my bedroom and found Lwa packing, I
walked passed her to go to the bathroom where I washed my hands then got out of
the dirty clothes. She wasn't crying anymore but she was pissed off

Me: uyaphi na Lwandile?

Her phone rang before she could give me an answer

Lwa: ma...he did what...oh my gosh is he OK...alright ma I'm coming

She looked at me with so much pain in her eyes

Me: ndithetha nawe fondin

Her: ngiyahamba. Ngiyekhaya Soso. I didn't sign up for this. You are a maniac.

Me: you are not going anywhere

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Lwa

I was pissed beyond words, I hate it it when Soso takes out his anger on me with
sex. Its frustrating and demeaning nje and I was really determined on going home,
clearly, we needed some time apart

Me: I wasn't asking you, I was telling you

Soso: I don't care but you are not going anywhere. We are married so this house is
your home

Me: we are not married, you paid lobola but asishadile mina nawe

Him: in the eyes of the ancestors we are married

He took out navy sweatpants and a long-sleeved T-shirt and got dressed. I still can't
believe he beat his brother up to a point of him getting hospitalized and being
unconscious. How do you beat someone that badly over a kiss? Yes, he was wrong
but he doesn't deserve this

Me: I'm fetching my kids from the hospital but when I get back, I'm leaving

Him: Lwandile ndithe awuyindawo.

I took my car keys and drove to the hospital where I found his mom with my kids,
who were also so emotional which confused me. I know Soso is crazy when he is
angry but he would never fight in front of the boys. They are only 2yrs old for
goodness sake

Me: sawubona ma

S's mom: molo Lwandile

Loy: thatha mama

I sat down then put Loy on my lap while his brother had his head on his
grandmother's lap and Mikaela was in her car seat on the floor fast asleep. She was
my main concern because she is too young and she might get sick from being here
Me: how is he?

S's mom: they haven't given me any feedback, last time I saw him, he was
unconscious with his face covered in blood and both his eyes swollen shut

Me: oh my...how could Soso do that to his own brother?

Her: Jason is my son and I love him with all my heart but he asked for it. He had no
right to kiss you and he made it worse by telling Lwandiso that he is in love with you

Did she just say Jason is in love with me? That's impossible and it doesn't make
sense. Jason can't be in love with me. I refuse to believe that

Me: ma I have to get Yandisa and the twins out of here. Please call me if anything
changes

Her: I will dear. Please don't be angry with Lwandiso, he means well

I nodded, got up, hugged her then took my kids home. They were quiet throughout
the journey which really worried. When we got home, Soso was watching TV so I put
Kaela's car seat in front of him and took my boys upstairs to bath them. While they
were in the bathtub, Soso stood by the door and they immediately got scared.

Me: Lwandiso what did you do to my kids?

Soso: nothing. Mikaela's crying so please attend to her. I'll finish bathing the boys

When I got up, Qhawe pulled my hand

Q: nahambi mama

Me: uzongeza utata boy

Loy: hayi mama nfuna wena

My sons were now really scared of Soso and I wasn't going to leave them with a man
they feared

Me: please warm up the milk that's in the fridge then pour it in one of her bottles and
feed her. I'll be there now now. Also check her diaper first

Soso: so much admin, you could just go and I finish up here

Me: they are scared of you Lwandiso. Can't you see that? Just get out of here and
attend to the one person in this house who still looks at you the same

He looked at me with sadness in his eyes and I immediately turned to finish bathing
the twins

Me: uyanthanda utata niyezwa?

Loy: yamoyika utata mna. Yabethana

Me: ubethe bani?

Q: uncle. Igazi mama

Me: ngeke anibethe nina. Uyanthanda and ningamoyiki. He wouldn't hurt you. Ok?

Them: ok mama.

Me: uzonthambisa. Ngiyogeza uYaya mina

Them: ok

I dried them and took them to their room and left them there then went downstairs.
Soso had just finished changing Kaela

Me: I'll take over. The boys need to be moisturized and dressed warmly so please go
do it

Him: are they not scared of me now?

Me: I spoke to them. Kodwa nawe what were you thinking? Gosh Soso you are so
irresponsible sometimes

Him: I wasn't thinking at the time

Me: just go upstairs before my sons get pneumonia

He walked out the nursery then I took Kaela to the kitchen and got her milk then fed
her. The boys and Soso made up quicker than I thought they would kodwa ke my
boys are easily forgiving. They sat in the lounge together watching cartoons while I
bathed Mikaela then I dished up for us and we ate as a family. I was still angry and
very adamant about leaving.

Soso: I'll wash the dishes. You put the kids to bed and then we can talk
Me: alright

I took the boys to bed, tucked them in and kissed their little faces

Me: I love you boys

Them: avu mama

I left their room, put sleeping Kaela in her cot then went upstairs with the baby
monitor. I took a quick shower then threw myself on the bed and Soso joined me a
while later

Soso: please don't leave. I'll do whatever you want me to do, just don't leave me
babe. I'm begging you

Me: do you even still recognize the person you've become? Lwandiso I'm not your
punching bag mina

He had a confused look on his face

Him: andisoze ndakubeka isandla mna Lwandile. I was raised better than that

Me: so, you beat me up with sex? Is that how you were taught?

He remained silent for a while and then took my hands into his

Him: I'm sorry Lwa. Its just that I love you so much that I never want to imagine
another man doing anything to you. Jason is an asshole and he got exactly what he
deserved but I shouldn't have shouted at you. I'm sorry MaHadebe. Ndicela uxolo
nyan sthandwa sam.

Me: I think we need some time apart. I'm scared to be around you Lwandiso and
unfortunately, I'm not Qhawe's age so I won't forget easily. I thought you were going
to hurt me today and I don't want to live my life in fear. I love you and I want to be
happy and not scared

Him: I'll make you happy baby. I promise. I'd never hurt you Lwandile, I promise you.
I swear on my parents' graves. Please baby just give me another chance. I won't let
you down again

I took in a deep breath and slowly exhaled. I love this guy with everything in me, I
could never leave him without hurting myself in the process but when will enough be
enough? We are always fighting and there is never peace in our home. Just screams
and shouting and that's not what I want to build my home and family on.

Me: asilale Soso

Him: do you still want to leave?

Me: I'll decide in the morning

He nodded then we got in bed, he pulled me close to him and tightly wrapped his
arms around me. It was like he was afraid that I might sneak out in the middle of the
night

Soso

I couldn't sleep a wink. I stayed up the whole night, just holding Lwa tightly. I had
really messed up this time and I have to work my ass off to regain her trust and for
her to feel happy and safe around me again. When the sun came up, I gently got out
of bed, trying my best not to wake her up, took a shower then went downstairs. I
made breakfast for her and the boys, put hers on a tray then went out into the
garden to find a flower. It was in the middle of winter so it was difficult but I managed
to find one pink rose. I put the rose on the tray then went back upstairs. I placed the
tray on the side table then softly pecked her lips. She slowly opened her eyes

Me: morning my angel

Lwa: morning Soso

Me: sit up. I made breakfast

Her: I have to check on Kaela first.

Me: I'll handle it. Just eat

I placed the tray on her lap, pecked her lips again then went to check on Kaela who
was wide awake but not crying

Me: morning princess

She smiled when she saw me. I changed her diaper then took her upstairs with the
breast pump and bottle

Me: say good morning mommy

Lwa: did you change her?

Me: yeah, I did but I think she is hungry so I brought the pump but finish eating first.

She ate while my princess and I played on the bed. Our other kids walked in as well
since the door wasn't closed. They got on the bed and started playing with Yaya

Me: look at them baby. They are happy here with the both of us. Please don't take
this away from me. I love my kids Lwandile

Lwa: ok fine. I won't go.

Me: enkosi sthandwa sam. I love you

I kissed her cheek before she took Mikaela to give her milk then my boys and I went
downstairs to have our breakfast. I bathed them and dressed them warmly. After
Lwa and Mikaela had bathed, we all sat in the movie room under blankets watching
movies all day. My kids were happy and so was Lwa which made me happy as well.
In the evening, my mom called

Me: ma

Mom: Lwandiso

Me: unjani mama?

Her: are you planning on coming to see your brother at the hospital anytime soon?

Me: no, I'm not.

Her: Lwandiso please mntanam. Xola kalok nyana wam

Me: andizokwazi mama. I will come see him after he gets discharged

Her: ok fine

I hung up and threw my phone on the seat in front of me. Lwa, who had her head on
my chest, lifted her head to look at me

Lwa: are you ok?

Me: I'll be fine. Give me a kiss

She looked up and we shared a slow kiss which I soon broke

Me: lol uzovusa izinto ezilele makaYaya

Her: lol you are so easy

Me: only to you baby.

Her: we need to get a maid Soso

Me: haa baby ufuna i3sum?

She hit my chest playfully and gave me an unimpressed look

Her: no. To clean the house. I can't do it while I still have to watch Mikaela

Me: ok baby. Whatever you want sthandwa sam. As long as you are happy

I kissed her forehead then squeezed her

Her: anything I want? Can I get a car?

Me: lol you are now pushing it MaHadebe

She let out a chuckled and we focused on the movie. The twins were fast asleep on
the couch and so was their sister. After a few hours we ordered pizza then I received
a text from Ntando wanting us to go out and I really wanted to go out namajita since I
haven't done it in a while

Lwa: what's wrong?

Me: nothing babe.

She took my phone and read the text kaNtando

Her: do you want to go out?

Me: nah I want to stay here with you guys

Her: liar. You can go out with your friends, babe, I don't mind

Me: are you sure?

Her: yeah just don't be out the whole night. I still need help with Mikaela
Me: enkosi my love. I'll be back by midnight.

I kissed her cheek then went to freshen up. Ntando texted me where we would be
meeting up so I wore a jacket, kissed my wife and kids and left
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Lwa

*3 MONTHS LATER*

Mikaela had just turned 4months and I was ready to get back to work. The past three
months have been hectic for me, between meeting up with the wedding planner,
nanny interviews and gym, I've been busy. The nanny I found was about 20years
older than me, well Phiwe advised me to get an older lady because these young
ones tend to focus more on our men than the job they are hired to do. I woke up
bright and early since I was going to start at the gym before going to work. I've been
working hard to get my body back and my personal trainer says I'm doing well. After
gym, I showered then got ready for work. As I was getting dressed, I felt a soft kiss
on my neck and hands on my waist. I blushed before turning around to lock eyes on
the love of my life. His beautiful pink lips curved into a smile the moment our eyes
locked

Soso: hey

Me: hey

He planted a kiss on my cheek before planting a soft peck on my lips

Him: breakfast is ready

Me: you made breakfast?

Him: yeah, you deserve a break every now and then. I pulled him closer and rested
my head on his chest as he wrapped his arms around me. Lord only knows how
lucky I am to have this perfectly imperfect man in my life. I took in his scent before I
got out of his embrace

Me: we are going to be late for work Mr Smith

Him: luckily for you Mrs Smith, you are married to the boss

I hit him playfully as we made our way downstairs where the twins were having
breakfast while MaRose was feeding Kaela. I kissed my little princes before sitting
down
MaRose: morning madam

Me: please call me Lwa ma and call Lwandiso by his name too. You are old enough
to be our mother, it isn't right to call us sir and madam

She flashed me a smile then nodded as I started on my breakfast. My phone rang

and it was Mike, Soso was the first one to look at it before I answered. We haven't
spoken to or about Jason since Soso beat him up. He was still cool with the rest of
his family and I guess they all understand why he did what he did. Anyway, I
answered the call as the boys and I headed to the car

Me: Michael Smith

Mike: Lwandile Smith

Me: unjani?

Him: I'm good man. Jonga neh, mom wants you guys to come over for dinner
tomorrow night. She wants to talk wedding stuff and she called Soso and he refused
so ndicela uthethe nendoda yakho please

I took in a deep breath and slowly exhaled. I don't like these situations because they
end up causing friction between my man and I

Me: yho Mike angithembisi lutho but ngizozama and because I'm willing to try,
please fetch your nephews from school today. I have an appointment with the
wedding planner

Him: lol uyand-user fondin but its fine, ndizowubalanda

Me: thanks, a mill

We hung up as I buckled the boys then went back in the house. I kissed my daughter
and she just giggled while drooling all over the place

Me: Baby I'm leaving neh. I'll see you at the office

Soso: OK babe. I'm right behind you nami

MaRose: why ningahambi ngemoto eyi one?

Me: ngisazobeka abantwana ecreche kqala. Bye bye Nana kamama

I kissed Kaela again then walked out. I have such deep separation issues with her
that I didn't have with the twins. Maybe its because I spent more time at home with
the twins than I did with her. She reminds me so much of my niece, Alwande
because she is a daddy's girl. I actually miss my family sometimes, especially my
brothers since I haven't seen them this year. Anyway, I dropped the twins off then
drove to the office and got to work. I was working under Yolanda which wasn't that
easy now that news has gotten out that Soso and I are getting married. She makes
me work extra hard and for long hours and I don't complain because I don't want her
thinking I take advantage because I'm getting married to the CEO.

Yoli: Lwandile we have a new financial advisor joining us. She is filling in Smanga's
position so I'm going to need you to do a coffee run.

Me: yes ma'am. Any special requests?

Her: cappuccino and espresso please. Strictly from Mugg and Bean

This lady is going to be the death of me. We have perfectly working state of the arts
coffee making machines in our office but I must now drive to Mugg and Bean with my
petrol for her and her so called new friend

Me: OK ma'am I'll get to it straight away

Her: good and I hope you finished the portfolios I gave you this morning. I don't care
that you are sleeping with the boss, I'm still your supervisor and I expect you to do
your job efficiently at all times.

Me: yes ma'am

Her: yes what? Yho Bawo sisbhanxa somntana lo.

Me: the portfolio is done.

I took my car keys and walked out of the office. I could feel the tears in my eyes but I
quickly wiped them off as I got to my car. I drove to get the coffees and immediately
drove back to the office. I think I took about 15mins but the moment I walked in, she
was getting ready to shout at me.

Her: so, you decided to take all day? Did they ask you to boil the water yourself?
Bring those coffees to the boardroom and stop staring at me.
I didn't even bother responding to her, I just followed her to the boardroom where this
new financial advisor and Lwandiso were seated. She had her back to me so I
couldn't see her face. I placed the coffees on the table

Me: morning Mr Smith, morning ma'am

She turned around and I almost laughed when I realized who the new financial
advisor was. She flashed me a smile before she got up to hug me

Pali: you are so formal mati, you are busy with good mornings here

Yolanda shot me a death stare but I didn't care. I hadn't seen my friend all year so
nje she can chill a bit

Yoli: thank you intern. You can leave us now

Pali: we will catch up at lunch time

I smiled then walked out. The boardrom was next to Soso's office which was next to
the front desk so I stopped there and spoke to Liz

Liz: you look horrible. What's wrong?

Me: Yolanda aka Cruella Deville is what's wrong. That woman is driving me crazy

Her: lol why don't you just report her?

Me: that's would please her so that she can tell the whole world that I'm sleeping with
the boss

Liz: bitch please, the whole world already knows. Yolanda should just get over it.
You and Mr S are a great couple and I'm still mad at you for not telling me. I thought
we were friends

Me: lol Liz come on, I've been apologizing since I got back. I'll take you out to lunch
today.

Her: lol good boss lady. Now go back to work before Cruella comes out that meeting

I smiled then went back to work. I can't believe Pali is going to be working here as
well, I wonder where she is staying and why Soso didn't tell me about it. After 30
mins Yolanda walked into her office and sat at her desk. Next thing the phone in my
office rang
Me: ASPE hello, Lwandile speaking

Yoli: my office. Now

She sounded irritated but I kept calm then went to her office. I knocked and she said
I must come in and I sat down and she got up and started walking around the office.
Obviously freaking me out

Her: how did you get this job Lwandile?

Me: excuse me?

Her: how did you get this job?

Me: I applied for it

Her: hmmm and who called you and told you about the interview? Did you even get
called or were you told in bed on a Sunday morning after a quickie with the boss?

Me: with all due respect Miss Ntabeni, if you don't stop harassing me, I will report
you to HR. I don't know what your issue is with me but if you don't want to work as
my supervisor then I'll be glad to ask for a transfer to another supervisor

She started clapping her hands and laughing sarcastically

Her: why go to HR when you can just go straight to the boss? Why act professional
when we both know that nothing about you being here is professional.

Me: are we done here? I have work to do

She waved her hands as a way of dismissing me and I walked out of her office. I was
pissed off and to make matters worse, I walked straight into Soso as I left Yolanda's
office. He was about to walk in but stopped when he saw my face

Soso: hey hey are you OK?

Me: not now Soso. Please

I walked to the bathroom, washed my face and did a few touch ups before heading
back to my desk. I started thinking that maybe Yolanda isn't the only one who thinks
the way she does. I'm sure more females in the office think I slept my way into this
internship. I played with my engagement ring, just twisting it around my finger over
and over again. I was basically day dreaming until Soso sat on my desk. He looked
at me before he summoned me into his office

Me: no Lwandiso, OK. I can handle this by myself. You are making matters worse

Soso: Miss Hadebe I am your boss and I want you in my office right now. He wasn't
smiling but he was authoritative. He was on boss mode so I followed him but when I
walked in, I didn't close the door

Him: close my door Miss Hadebe and take a seat

I did as my boss had said and sat in front of him then a few minutes later, Yolanda
walked in and sat next to me

Soso: ladies I don't have all day so one of you better start talking and tell me what's
going on here or else I will have no choice but to suspend the both of you

Me: nothing is going on

Soso: Miss Hadebe, I'm not blind nor am I stupid so please don't insult my
intelligence

Yoli: why call her Miss Hadebe? Just say baby or sweetheart. We all know about you
guys sleeping together

Soso immediately looked at me then at Yolanda then back at me

Soso: oh, I see what's going on here. Miss Hadebe please excuse us

I nodded then headed for the door

Soso

I sat down on my chair and stared at Yolanda. Has she lost her mind? I felt like
slapping her but I don't want to lose my job and I don't want to go to jail for assault
but if her and Lwa continue working together, I will be forced to put my hands on her
because clearly, she has no respect for me or for her fellow colleagues
Me: Miss Ntabeni please report to HR to collect your first written warning. I will not
tolerate this kind of behavior in this office. If you have issues with the intern assigned
to you, swap with someone else. Do we understand each other?
Season 3

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Soso

She looked at me with blank eyes as if she wanted to say something but she couldn't
find the words to say so I made it easier for her

Me: and if you don't want me to send you back to Jo'burg, you will apologize to Miss
Hadebe in writing and I hope I never have to have this conversation with you again.
Miss Hadebe didn't sleep her way into this internship, she applied and she was
interviewed just like everyone else. I played no part in her being here and as much
as I don't owe you an explanation, clearly you feel like you are important enough to
know what happens in the lives of your colleagues

Yoli: Lwand-

Me: its Mr Smith to you Miss Ntabeni and you can now get back to work

She nodded and walked out of my office then I called Liz and asked her to announce
a staff meeting after lunch time. I want to set the record straight with my staff so that
I don't have a repeat of what I just went through with Yolanda and I know its going to
come across as if I'm trying to protect Lwa or something but even if it were other staff
members, I'd still do the same. Anyway, when lunch time came, I drove to my mom's
house, Jason had moved out to his house since he wasn't renting it out this year so
when I parked outside, I walked in with ease. I found my parents in the lounge and I
sat down. I haven't been here since I fought with Jason and even after he was
discharged, I didn't come see him. As far as I'm concerned him and I are done. I
don't owe him anything and its for the best that we stay away from each other

Me: molweni

Them: molo nyana

Mom: to what do we owe the pleasure? I even forgot how your face looks since you
haven't been here in 3 months.

Me: uxolo mama I've been busy. Niphilile?

Dad: siyacenga nyana akukhonto. Unjani umntana nomakoti?

Me: baphilile. Uyaphangela ngoku uLwa so kukhona unanny

Mom: unanny otheni ndikhona?

Me: we also needed someone to clean the house so it was beneficial to get a
maid/nanny.

Mom: I see. How are the wedding preparations coming along?

Me: you'd have to ask Lwa. I just show up for fittings and payments.

Dad: that's how it should be kalok zinto zabafazi ezo

Mom: nonsense. You are coming to dinner, tomorrow right?

Me: yho andaz mama. Ndizakuxelela later emva kokuba sendithethile noLwa

Mom: hmmm I will call

She dished up for me and we ate over a light conversation. I appreciated that they
didn't bring up Jason

Lwa

As promised, I took Liz out for lunch and Pali joined us. We had lunch at Fishaways
and luckily Liz and Pali got along just fine

Liz: so, I have question, how long have you and Mr S been together?

Me: hmmm I think this is our second year. Yes, our second anniversary is next
month

Pali: and you guys are getting married next month?

Me: yep on our anniversary

Liz: wow where can I find myself a Mr S though and he is so hot. Doesn't he have a
brother?

Pali: he does and he is all mine

Liz gave us puzzled looks and Pali and I just laughed. There is a lot poor Liz doesn't
know shame but ke Pali and I go way back so she would have to understand. After
our lunch, we still had time before having to go back to the office so we did a bit of
window shopping

Liz: girls let's go out on Friday. A ladies' night type of thing.

Me: I'm down for that, I don't remember the last time I had a night out or even a night
away from the kids.

Pali: you asked to be a mom so now look at you. 22 and almost a wife and you have
3 kids. I could never

Me: lol wait until Mike wants kids then you will know my joy. I love my babies. No
doubt

When our lunch break was over, we went back to the office. Luckily for me, Yolanda
wasn't on my case any more. I did all my work then submitted it to her via email. I
didn't even want to see her but because I have to work with her, I still have to
communicate with her. When the clock struck 4pm, it was time to go home but
knowing Soso, he will be working late so as everyone was leaving, Pali and Soso
were still in their offices. I started at Soso's office. I knocked and he waved for me to
come in since he was on the phone. I waited for the call to be over

Soso: hey babe

Me: Mr Smith we are still in the office

We both smiled as he called me over to come sit on his lap.

Him: office hours are over.

He planted a kiss on my neck before I rested my head on his shoulder then we sat in
silence while he rubbed my back. For that moment I just wanted to be in his arms,
nothing was wrong but I wanted to inhale his scent then have his arms around me

Him: are you OK?

Me: yes, I am. Just tired

Him: its been a long day and for me its not even over
Me: need me to keep you company?

Him: lol and who will take care of our kids?

Me: ukhona uMaRose nje baby

Him: haayi Lwa uMaRose is not their mother, you are. I appreciate what you are
trying to do but our kids come first

Me: yeah, I know. I was just messing with you. I have to see the wedding planner
now anyway

Him: OK ke MaHadebe wam. Ndyakthanda evha

I nodded before planting a kiss on his soft lips then I got up getting ready to leave

Him: I'll see you when I get home

Me: don't be too late, I have a surprise for you.

I blew him a kiss and he chuckled softly as I walked out of his office straight into
Pali's

Me: shall we?

Pali: you sure took your time.

Me: lol I was just saying goodbye to hubby

We left the office and drove to wedding parlor where my planner and designer was.
We walked into her office, her secretary offered us drinks and we got down to
business

Lauryn: So Lwa, one more month then its wedding time. I hope you are still excited
and won't get cold feet because I'd never want my hard work to go to waste

Pali: I doubt that will happen, those two have been wanting to get married since I met
them

Lauryn: one could never be too sure when it comes to these young brides

She showed us her layout for option A and B. We had a back up plan just in case the
weather doesn't co-operate on the day of the wedding since I want a beach wedding.
I didn't want to have the traditional in a church type of wedding, not that I had
anything against church but I just wanted something different.

Lauryn: do you still want to have the reception at your house?

Me: yes. The backyard to be exact

Lauryn: I'll have to come see this backyard sometime next week so I can see how I
will work around it. That's all for today unless you want to add something else

Me: I still want to keep the original white and silver we spoke about but I don't know if
you can add a touch of sky blue here and there but not too much

Lauryn: OK I see where you are going with this and I'm sure I can make it work. I will
have something for you to look at when we meet again in two weeks

Me: thank you so much Lauryn. You are heaven sent

From Lauren's office, we made our way to Talent's boutique which was also in the
same building. Talent was my designer and only reason I was seeing him today is so
that Pali can have her fittings done. I'm having 4 bride's maids and a maid of honor
and Soso has 4 groom's men and his bestman. He had to replace Jason with his
cousin since they are still not talking and I doubt Jay will be at the wedding.

Talent: Lwa darling baby, how are you?

We shared a hug with him kissing my cheeks as well. He did the same with Pali

Me: I'm good my love and I'm glad you could fit me in at last minute but this lady over
here is one of my bride's maids so she needs to get her fittings

Talent: no problem my sugarplum. I'm always available for you.

He took out the sky blue and silver cocktail dress for Pali to try on and luckily it
wasn't too big. Just a few adjustments here and there

Pali: I love how these dresses are so modern and that each dress has a different
design

Me: all my bride's maids are different and unique so the dresses had to be as well

Pali: Sedi is going to love that boobtube one. It just screams her name
Me: lol and that's the one I chose for her

Talent: when is the rest of your entourage coming for fittings?

Me: mid month lovey. I'll make sure of it

Talent: good. I can't wait to see you in that beautiful gown I'm making you. You are
going to love it baby

Me: lol knowing your amazing work, I'm sure I will. My love we have to get going but I
will be in touch

Talent: anytime my fruit punch. Bluetooth kisses

We did the whole air kisses thing then we left

Pali: lol I like him. He is so vibey

Me: lol show me a gay person that isn't vibey. Anyway, where to?

Her: please drop me off at the Smith's. I'm staying there for now since I only got to
town yesterday and Mrs Smith refused for me to stay in a hotel

Me: lol that woman is an angel from above I tell you. She is just amazing

The rest of the drive was just us catching up. I haven't seen this person since
graduation in April and that was 4 months ago. We arrived at the Smith's and I could
hear my sons making a noise before we even entered the house.

Me: molweni ekhaya

Soso's mom was watching the food channel while his dad was reading the
newspaper and Mike was playing with the twins

S's mom: my two daughters. Ninjani?

Pali: exhausted ma

Pali was still shy around Mike's parents which was understandable shame since she
only met them once

S's mom: how was your first day at work?

Mike: I hope Soso didn't over work you

Pali: it was good actually. It can only get better I hope

Me: ma, next week we have to do the fittings for your mother of the groom dress. I
think my mom will be here as well for her fittings

S's mom: no problem sweetie as long as your designer will come here. Us Smiths
don't go to people, people come to us

We all broke into laughter. This woman was everything and more. This is why I love
being in her home, its always filled with laughter and love. The kind of home I aspire
to have after all the dust in my life has settled. When it started getting dark, the boys
and I had to leave because it was cold as well.

Me: boys masambeni

Q: hamba nokhulu andithi mama?

Me: uyaphi ukhulu manje?

Loy: hamba nathi

Me: nizobuye nibuye nizobona ukhulu. Asambe

Loy: yasala mina

Me: uqalile
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Lwa

After the whole family had to convince Loyiso that we had to leave, he agreed. I even
had to use Mikaela and told him that his baby sister was missing him and if he
doesn't go home, she will cry the whole night and if there is anyone who knows of
Mikaela's cries, it's Loyiso. I buckled them up in their car seats and drove home.
Luckily when I got home, it was still around 7pm so I still had time to cook. I took off
my heels and work clothes then changed into sweatpants and bae's hoodie. MaRose
was in the nursery bathing Mikaela. I stood at the door, just watching them

MaRose: awukhathele kodwa sisi?

Me: ngikhathele ngiyafa ma but ke mele ngiphekele umyeni wam nabantwana bami

Her: yebo ntombi

Me: uyivulile iheater?

Her: yebo. Kuyabanda impela ngalezizikhathi

I smiled before heading to the kitchen to start with the cooking. I wasn't up for being
in the kitchen for hours so I just grilled pork and sausage, made creamy mashed
potatoes, steamed vegetables with cheese sauce then made tomato gravy. By half
past 8 I was done so I dished up for everyone and left my husband's food in the
warmer. After we ate, I put the dishes in the dish washer then went to put the boys in
bed since MaRose bathed them while I was cooking.

Loy: cela istory mama

Me: nginfundele istory?

Them: yes please

I took one of their story books from the shelf and started reading it for them. By the
time I got to page 7, they were fast asleep. I kissed their little faces then went to take
a shower. When I got out, I was greeted by the handsome face of my bae and he
was holding our daughter
Me: you woke her up?

Soso: hell no. MaRose would kill me. She was still awake when I arrived which is a
good thing since I haven't seen her in a while

Me: lol you see her every morning

Him: OK let me say I haven't put her to bed in a while.

Me: that's better. Hungry?

Him: starving

I moisturized my body then wore a gown and slippers so I can go get his food. I took
the plate out the warmer, placed it on the tray with a wet cloth on the saucer and a
glass of orange juice. When I passed the lounge, MaRose was still watching Zee
world.

Me: goodnight ma. ULwandiso uzomlalisa uMikaela then he will bring you the baby
monitor

MaRose: OK sisi. Goodnight

I smiled as I walked upstairs. Lwandiso and Yandisa were still playing on the bed so
I gave Soso his food then took Yaya into my arms so daddy can eat

Me: awulelengani princess? Hmmm

She was just giggling all over the place. That's her favorite thing to do. Giggling and
drooling. I took a piece of sausage from Soso's plate and he just looked at me and
shook his head

Me: lol sharing is caring

Soso: not when it comes to my meat woman

Me: Lol I share my meat with you all the time

Him: lol no you don't. You can't finish your food then you give it to me

Me: same thing baby. Jonga neh sthandwa sam

Him: ndiyaz xa uthetha isiXhosa nami, I'm about to be asked for impossible favors or
I have to pay for something really expensive
Me: lol you know your wife too well Mr Smith. I was thinking its about time we got
Mikaela's ears pierced. She looks like a boy since she barely has hair

Him: no, she doesn't. She is beautiful. Next thing you are going to want to put a
weave on my baby's hair

Me: you need hair to have a weave and your baby doesn't have hair

Mikaela has more colored genes than she has black genes so manje the hair on her
head isn't as much as the hair the twins had but thankfully someone invented those
headbands with the flowers. She never goes anywhere without one

Him: fine but I will take her not you

Me: on Saturday since I'll be out of town with the boys

Him: out of town? Where to?

Me: I'm just going home for the day. I miss my brothers

Him: oh, go put my baby to sleep since she is already asleep. I need to shower

He kissed sleeping Mikaela before I took her to the nursery then took the monitor to
MaRose. I switched off all the lights, checked if the alarm is on and then went back
to our room. I took off the gown then got in bed in my birthday suit. I checked my
Facebook news feed and came across a picture of KK and Asemahle all lovey
dovey. They look so cute together and I must say my little brother has grown but I
just pray that he doesn't get that poor girl pregnant because Landile will kill him. A
few minutes later, Soso walked out of the bathroom with just a towel around his waist

Soso: are you sleeping already?

Me: nah. I'm waiting for you

I put my phone on the table then turned my attention to the gorgeous man who just
slipped into bed next to me. He pulled me towards him and made me rest my head
on his chest while he held me tightly

Him: so, babe have you decided on where you want to go for our honeymoon?

Me: uhm how about Cape Town?

Him: you want to keep it local?

Me: yeah why not? We are already spending so much on the wedding anyway

Him: lol you mean I'm already spending so much. Money isn't an issue my love. I
want us to go anywhere you want to go

Me: hmm OK then let's go to Miami

Him: Miami it is then sthandwa sam.

He kissed the tip of my nose while his hand traveled down to the space between my
legs. My breathing increased with every touch. He slowly parted my legs before just
running his fingers up and down my queen

Soso

I've been horny since the moment Lwa left the office, if I wasn't so busy with work, I
would have made love to her in my office. Every time I ran my fingers up and down
her pussy, her breathing quickened. She wanted me as much as I wanted her which
made sense since we haven't had sex in a while. Work has taken over my life. I
started planting kisses on her neck then inserted a finger in her pussy, she was
dripping wet. I moved my finger in and out while leaving wet kisses on her neck

Lwa: Lwandiso baby please

She was breathing heavily with every word she uttered

Me: yintoni baby?

Before she could respond, I insert a second finger then used my thumb to press on
her clit. She was now grinding on my fingers as if her life depended on it. I got on top
of her then started sucking and biting on her nipples. She let out a loud moan which I
silenced with a kiss. Our tongues dances in each other's mouths while she moaned
in between our kisses. When I couldn't take it anymore, I inserted uSmith into her
and she gasped loudly. I went in slowly until I was fully inside her then started
moving fast. She was grasping on to the sheets while screaming my name with
every thrust. I held her hands above her head with one hand then used the other one
to gently twist her nipples. She moaned again and when I felt her walls tighten
around my dick, I knew she was about to orgasm so I went slowly and around in
circles. I let go of her hands and she dug her nails in my back, scratching me like
crazy. That's when I knew she was cumming.

Me: come ride this dick baby

I got on my back and she got on me, slowly lowered herself on to me and started
moving back and forth while squeezing me in. I held on to her hips as I felt the taste
of heaven on my dick. I moved here back and forth before she pinned my hands
above my head and started bouncing on me. The more here ass and pussy bounced
up and down on my dick, I felt myself getting closer to exploding inside her. I was
groaning as I tried prolonging this round but I couldn't. Before I knew it, I exploded
deed inside her and her walls squeezed around my dick which drove me crazy since
my dick was still sensitive

Me: you are amazing. I love you

Her: lol I love you

She brought her face close to mine and we shared a slow kiss which led to my dick
getting hard almost immediately. I turned her around, put a pillow under her and
started pound her from the back. This was one of my favorite positions especially
because my wife has a big ass and in that position her ass is right there in front of
me. After our love making session, we got cleaned up and cuddled

Me: I'm so glad you decided on going on the injection after Mikaela was born. Best
decision ever

Her: lol I had to. I would be pregnant again if it was up to you

I kissed her forehead and we fell asleep. When the weekend finally arrived, Lwa left
to go home for the day and after MaRose bathed and dressed Mikaela, I buckled her
in her car seat and we went to town. I took her to Clicks to have her ears pierced.
When the nurse called us to go in, I picked her up and walked in with her. The nurse
was one of those young ones

Nurse: how may I help you guys?

Me: I'm here to get my princess's ears pierced

Her: how old is she?

Me: 4months old

Her: she is still too young. We are only permitted to pierce babies after they turn
6months old.

Me: really? I had no idea. Oh well thanks I guess

Her: you are welcome. Your daughter is beautiful and she looks like you

Me: lol is that your way of saying I'm beautiful?

She smiled which turned into a blush. Lol these young girls though.

Her: have a nice day Mr Smith

Me: thanks nurse

I walked out of Clicks and we went to Baby Boom and bought a few toys for Kaela. I
really didn't know what we were going to do today without mommy. She is too small
for me to know what to do with her so I just went to my parents' house. I walked into
the house with Mikaela in my arms. I almost dropped her when my eyes landed on
Jason in the lounge. He was sitting there with Mike and my dad

Me: molweni

Them: molo Soso

Dad: zisa umuntu wam kum

I gave Mikaela to him but I didn't sit down. I could feel my blood boiling when I
recalled how this scumbag told me he is in love with my wife. I felt like throwing
another punch his way

Me: where's mom?

Mike: upstairs. I think she is napping.

Jay: where is Lwa?

Me: askies?

Mike: Jason come on bruh. What the fuck mjita?

Dad: Michael!!

Mike: no tata reprimand Jason. He is going to get himself fucked up again

Me: Mike awundikhapha bruh

Dad: uzawubuya?

Me: andaz

I took Mikaela and walked out with her and Mike, I put her in the car seat and closed
the door

Mike: Soso calm down

Me: I'm going to kill him Mike. I swear to God, I'm going to kill your brother
Season 3

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Lwa

The drive home was long especially because of the boys wanting me to stop every
hour because they wanted to pee or they were hungry or thirsty. Traveling with these
two without Soso really is a drag but eventually we got home around 12pm. The
moment I opened the door, they ran to my brothers Sakhile and KK

Me: hey guys

KK: hey sis, its been a while

He got up to give me a hug and he was right, I haven't seen my brothers since
December and its now August

Sakhi: yaz I thought the only time we'd see you again would be next month at your
wedding

Sakhile's hug was tighter than KK's. He even lifted me up and spun me around.
Clearly nam I've been missed in this house.

Me: so what's new guys? I've missed you guys so much

KK: right back at you. I thought you were going to come with your daughter since we
haven't met her.

Me: it would have killed me to travel with all these kids without Soso but you will
meet her at the wedding

I caught up with my brothers while my kids played with their uncles. I've missed the
four walls of this house. I grew up in here and the memories are in every corner, the
love I have for every person in this family is beyond words. Our catching up moment
was disturbed by a call from Athandwe. He didn't hide his number today so I got up
and went to take the call in my room

Me: hello

Atha: hey Lwa, uright?

Me: yeah and you?

Him: I'm OK hey, can't complain

Then there was an awkward silence. It was like he was waiting on me to say
something and I wasn't going to do that. He must have a reason for calling so he
must just get to it

Him: I've been waiting on your call for 3 months now

Me: oh yeah. Eish ngakhohlwa yaz.

Him: wow OK. Uhm so does that mean you don't or rather you won't come see me?

I took in a deep breath and slowly exhaled. A part of me wanting to see for myself
the extent of the damage Soso did to him but the other part of me feared for her life.
This is the same guy that has put me through so much, has hurt me so badly and
basically single handedly destroyed the person I used to be.

Me: are you still at your parents' house?

Him: no. I'm at my grandmother's house now.

Me: alright I'll be there in a hour

Him: nyan? Are you serious?

I could here the excitement in his voice. It was like he was in disbelief and wasn't
expecting me to say that

Me: I'm serious

Him: alright see you then

We hung up and I just threw myself on the bed. What did I just agree to? If this gets
to Soso, I'm a dead woman walking but I'd rather face my demons now than have
them show up after we are married. Soso is my world, my life and I'd never want to
hurt him in any kind of way. That's just the kind of love I have for him and its all due
to the kind of man he is. Yes he isn't perfect, he has his flaws but I love him with
those flaws. I made my way downstairs and went to the kitchen to pour myself a
glass of water then I called Sakhile into the kitchen

Sakhi: wassup?

Me: I need a favor

Him: sure

Me: I'm going to leave now but I don't trust the person I'm going to so I'm going to
need you to follow me then park a distance away from the house

He had a confused look on his face. It was like he wasn't quite understanding what I
was saying

Him: who is this person you are going to and if you don't trust him then why are you
going there to begin with?

Me: its the twins' father.

Him: their biological father? Lwa are you crazy? Sis you are getting married in a
month, why are you still wanting to see this guy?

Me: for closure I guess or rather to just face my demons. Angaz Sakhile but what I
know is that I have to do this

Him: I'm not going to say I agree with all of this but fine. Its your life after all

Me: thanks

I took a bottle of water from the fridge, my bag and car keys then said bye to the
twins

Me: KK please watch them. I won't be long and make sure they don't break anything.

KK: alright but cone back with pizza or ribs

Me: alright little on. Sakhile let's go

I got in my car and he got in one of dad's cars and I drove to Atha's grandmother's
house. I was shaking the whole way there, second guessing if I'm even doing the
right thing by going to see him. I parked at the gate then called him

Atha: Lwa

Me: I'm at the gate

Him: Lihle is coming to open for you

Me: sho
I hung up and waiting then within seconds Lihle emerged from the door to open the
gate. She flashed me a smile and I smiled back. I drove in, parked the car then took
a deep breath before walking out. My heart was in my throat beating so fast, I
thought I would pass out. I was shaking from head to toe and the more I tried to keep
myself composed, the more the fear crept into my system. Lihle walked up to me,
gave me a hug and walked into the house with me. The house hasn't changed since
the last time I was there and by the looks of things, the elders were not here

Me: kukhona bani?

Lihle: mna nobhut' Atha noSbusi nobhut'Lu

I nodded as she led me to the lounge and the moment I walked in, our eyes met but I
quickly looked down. He was sitting on a wheelchair with a fleece blanket covering
his legs, he looked weak and defeated as if ushaywe umhlaba and he has no
intention of picking himself up. He had a beard and an afro but even through all that,
he was still hot. Looking at him still sent chills down my spine. I sat down on the
couch next to Lihle

Me: molweni

Lu: our long lost makoti, unjani?

Me: Lulonke awukahle. I'm good though and yourself?

Atha: you look beautiful

I tried not to smile but my face failed me as it lit up like a Christmas tree after he said
those words

Me: thank you

Atha: no need to thank me for telling the truth. I don't want to keep you long so can
we talk in my room?

Me: uhm sure

My voice was shaky and I'm sure everyone in the room could feel the tension. I got
up with the hope that he will lead me to the room but he didn't

Him: please push me

Despite everything he has ever done to me, my kids and Soso, at that moment I
honestly felt sorry for him. I know how much Atha hates depending on people but
here he is having to do it for the rest of his life. I pushed him to the room then closed
the door after. Ever since ngifikile la, I haven't looked at him in the eyes. I've been
avoiding any sort of eye contact with him because I know if I do, I will get emotional

Atha: please look at me

Me: Atha I can't

Him: ndiyakcela Lwa.

I could feel the tears threatening my eyes as all our memories flashed through my
mind. Coming here was a mistake. Old wounds suddenly feel so fresh and my heart
is bleeding right now.

Him: Lwa please just look at me. I can't do this without you looking at me

The moment my eyes landed on his, tears streamed down my cheeks, I tried wiping
them but there was no use because the more I wiped, the more they came out. Atha
slowly exhaled before taking his hand into mine. His touch sent an electric bolt to my
heart and I quickly took my hand away

Him: I'm sorry. Lwa I know I've done a lot of cruel and hurtful things to you, things
you didn't deserve and I'm truly sorry. When I broke up with you I thought I was
helping us because I didn't want to hurt you anymore but I was young and still
wanted to have fun. I didn't anticipate that you wouldn't come after me. I didn't think
you'd move on and replace me so quickly. Even when we broke up and I was with
Katli, I was still in love with you. Lwa I've always been in love with you and I made
one mistake which led to a few more and now I'm sitting on this chair with no
possibility of ever walking again. I have no one to blame apart from myself for where
I am today. I did this to myself all because I couldn't accept responsibility for my
actions. I've lost my friends, my kids and I lost you. The kind of things I did to you still
make my skin crawl from just thinking about it. I almost raped you, I drugged you and
put you and your child's life at risk and worst of all I was willing to let my worst enemy
rape you. Lunga was never my friend and deep down I'm sure nawe uyayaz lonto.
By now I was crying so much that I was struggling to breath. Having him replay all of
this to me, admitting the things he has done to me felt like he just ripped all the
plasters that were holding my heart together and just broke it all over again. I had
nothing to say to him and even if I wanted to say something, I wouldn't be able to
speak

Him: I'm not trying to get you back anymore because I know you would never come
back to me especially now that I'm a useless vegetable that can't even take a shit
without another person's help but I am asking for your forgiveness. I know I don't
deserve it but my days on earth are numbered and I'd like to die knowing that I at
least made right by you. Ndiyakucela MaHadebe, please find it in your heart to
forgive me

Me: what... What do you mean? Your days are numbered?

Him: Lwa this is not the life I want for myself, this is not the life God intended for me
to live and I'm not going to live my life depending on other people. I stayed with my
parents for a month before they sent me here because my mom says she doesn't
know how to take care of me. I'm 23yrs old Lwa, I shouldn't have people taking care
of me

Me: so, you are going to kill yourself?

Him: yes. On the 5th of September I'm going down to the railway lines and I'm going
to wait for a train then jump in front of it

I covered my mouth in shock and gasped loudly. The 5th of September is the day I'm
getting married on and this person has chosen it as the date for his appointment with
death

Me: why that date?

Him: I want to see my sons turn 3years old then do it. I can't do it on their birthday
month. Please don't look at me like that, don't feel sorry for me. My time is up

Me: and who are you to decided that your time is up? God created you, he gave you
life and never did he give you the power to take it away. So, what that you are in a
wheelchair? So, what that you now need help to do basic things? That doesn't
change the person you, your brain still functions so don't be a coward and take the
easy way out
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Atha

I looked at her while she shouted at me and as much as I wish I could say that her
words had an effect on the decision I had taken, I couldn't because I would be lying.
I've screwed up my life and there is no use in going back on the choices I've made. I
know Lwa meant well but it was her emotions and shock talking and not her mind
and at this moment I needed to hear her speak her mind. I needed to hear her blame
me to the shit I've put her through, for her to tell me she hates me for all the things
I've done to her and Soso. I didn't want her feeling sorry for me and just letting
everything slide because I'm now sitting in a wheelchair with no way forward

Me: there is nothing you can say that will change my mind. My mind is made up

Lwa: then why tell me? Why didn't you just do it without having to tell me? I'm sure
this is all part of your plan to fuck up my life like you always do. Dammit Athandwe,
you will always be an asshole and you will never change. The moment I start getting
over you, you bring shit up like this to derail me but guess what, its not going to work
this time around. I'm happy with Lwandiso and whether you live or die will make no
difference in my life. I'm getting married in a month and when Soso and I are married
and you are dead, I will change the twins' surname to Smith and it will be like you
never existed. We will forget you like we forget a neighborhood dog that gets hit by a
car

She was angry but for the wrong reasons. I wanted her to be angry at me for what I
did then forgive me so she can fully move on without having to watch her back at all
times but now she is angry at me for me wanting to kill myself. Yes, I may be a
selfish spoiled brat but I love my kids, they are my legacy so there is no way in hell
I'm going to let her raise them with the belief that Soso is their father whereas they
have my blood running through their veins.

Me: Lwa you would never do that. Those are my kids and as much as I'm OK with
you and Soso raising them, they will always have the Dlamini surname
Her: and how will you stop me from the grave? Angithi ufuna ukufa wena? I won't
have my sons tied to a coward that gave up on life. I'm raising my kids to believe in
themselves and for them to know that time heals all wounds and that with time,
everything passes. I'm raising my sons not to be quitters and never give up on life

I let out a soft sigh. Over the years I've forgotten how stubborn this woman is. I tilted
my head and looked at her trying to wipe the tears that were flowing down her
cheeks, she looks beautiful even when she is crying but that's not a sight I enjoying
seeing. I still love her so much but I've hurt her to a point whereby I know I could
never deserve her ever again.

Her: and yazini I'm not going to sit here and beg you not to kill yourself. If you feel
like you have nothing to live for then OK fine, its been nice knowing you

Me: Lwa please don't be angry at me. I didn't call you here to hurt you or cause you
more pain. I just wanted to say I'm sorry and ask, actually beg for your forgiveness.
Ndiyakucela chocolate chicken

She tried not to smile but she failed, I guess that name still has an effect on her.
Seeing her smile through the tears frustrated me because I just wanted to get up and
wipe her tears but I couldn't.

Me: yizapha

I patted my thighs indicating that she should come sit on me

Her: no haw. I'm fine sitting where I'm sitting

Me: I want to wipe your tears, I hate seeing you cry. Please just let me do this for you

Her: no Atha and besides I gained weight now since I gave birth 4months ago so I'm
heavy

Me: lol its not like I can feel it. Yiza kalok chocolate chicken

She smiled again and got up from the bed, sat on my thighs and wrapped her one
arm around my neck. I used my hand to wipe her tears and the moment my hand
touched her face, she closed her eyes. It was like she was scared of me or nervous

Me: I'm so sorry Lwa. So very sorry MaHadebe

My voice was soft because I meant every word and I needed her to believe me
Her: with all the pain you've caused me please don't add taking your life to the list. If
not for yourself then for uLoyiso noQhawe. They might not know about you but one
day they will and I don't want to tell them that their father ended his life. Please

Me: Lwa this life isn't easy

Her: which life is? You have all the money in the world, I'm sure you can find a doctor
that could help you. You are giving up to easily and that's not the Atha I knew and its
definitely not the Atha I fell in love with. You fought for months for me to start dating
you, the least you can do is put up the same battle for your life

And then people always questioned how and why I fell for this girl. I looked at her,
obviously she was still dodging the eye contact but I stared at her for a while. I knew
she didn't care about me anymore, all the things she was saying were for the sake of
Loyiso and Qhawe. I placed my hand around her waist and pulled her closer to me,
she looked at me for a second and then smiled before looking down

Me: uyandoyika?

She shook her head

Me: then why won't you look at me? I won't hurt you Lwa. I promise you

Her phone rang and she cleared her throat before answered it

Lwa: bhuti...yeah, I'm still OK...ngizophuma manje. Shap

Then she hung up and got up from my lap

Her: I have to get going. KK is watching my kids and I still have to drive back to PE

Me: please come see me again. I won't call you because I don't want to cause
problems between you and Soso so I'll wait on your call

Her: I can't promise anything but I'll try and please think about everything I said

Me: I will. Thank you you for coming

She nodded before wheeling me to the lounge. She hugged me goodbye and then
Lihle opened the gate for her. In the lounge I was now chilling with Lu who kept
stealing glances at me

Me: thetha fondin

Lu: how did you convince her to come here? Did you blackmail her?

Me: no. I asked her to come and she did

Him: that easily? Wow maybe she is still in love with you

Me: I highly doubt that. She is getting married in a month

Him: damn that's messed up. Jonga ntwana, you have Lwa back in your life, are you
sure about that plan of yours? Did you even tell her about it?

Me: yeah ndimxelele and she wasn't happy. She tried convincing me to change my
mind

Him: and did it work?

Me: no. I'm still ending my life next month Lulonke. Not even Lwa can change my
mind

Him: what if she brought your kids to come see you?

Me: fuck Lulonke don't you get it? I don't want my kids to see me like this. I didn't
even want Lwa to see me like this. She kept looking at me with eyes full of pity. I
don't want the world to pity me

Him: we don't pity you, asshole, we love you. Athandwe you are my brother, my only
brother so, excuse me if I'm not so chuffed about you wanting to end your life

Me: mxm whatever. I'm going to nap

Lwa

The drive home seemed longer than what it should have been and I was trying to
calm down throughout the whole time. I was still in disbelief over what Atha told me,
maybe he was lying, just trying to get my attention like he always does but there was
just something about the way he said it that made it all so believable. When we got
home, I rushed to the bathroom, washed my face and freshened up. I applied a bit of
make up then went back downstairs. I threw myself on the couch and sighed loudly
to the extent that Sakhile and KK turned to face me
Sakhi: was it worth it? Look at yourself sis, you look broken

Me: I'm fine or rather I'll be fine. Loyiso woza la

He came to me and I picked him up and put him next to me and squeezed him
tightly. How could Atha be so stupid and selfish? What am I supposed to tell these
kids?

Loy: ishhuu mama yalimaza

Me: askies Nana

I kissed his forehead but still didn't let him go

Me: KK please text Nami and tell him that I'm here and that he should come with
Phiwe and Alwande

KK: alright

Sakhi: you better snap out of that mood before Nami gets here because he won't buy
the story of you being OK while you look like this

Me: look like what? I look fine

Him: keep trying to convince yourself

I got up, poured yogurt, ice cream and ultra Mel for myself and then made the twins
noodles. Sakhile and KK fed them while I ate my dessert then I remembered that I
have another child so I called Soso to check on them

Soso: Lwandile

Me: baby

Him: uright?

Me: yeah and you? Did you get Mikaela's ears pierced? How is she?

Him: nah, they said I should bring her when she is 6months old and she is fine. We
are fine

He sounded agitated and knowing Soso, I know someone pissed him off

Me: what's wrong?

Him: nothing. We will talk when you get home. What time will you be back?

Me: around 7ish. I'm going to leave here around 4pm

Him: OK sizawuthetha xa ufika

Me: shap

We hung up and I continued with my delicious dessert. I was trying very hard to get
my mind off Athandwe and the more I tried, the more he crossed my mind. I really
hope he can pick himself up and get through this. It broke my heart to see him like
that. When I was done eating I took my bowl to the kitchen, rinsed it and went back
to the lounge. Nami and his family walked in through the door and the moment
Phiwe saw me, she screamed and rushed to hug me

Phiwe: awusemhle sana. Yho

Me: lol thank you sisters and you look gorgeous too.

I picked Alwande up and gave her a tight squeeze

Me: how are you princess?

Alwa: I'm fine.

Me: awusemdala bakithi

I put her down and she ran to the twins while I got a chance to hug my brother. I've
missed him the most since I'm closer to him than all my other brothers

Nami: you look good baby sis. How's my niece?

Me: gorgeous and growing way too fast.

Nami: you should have come with her and left these naughty ones in PE

KK: same thing I said

We all laughed and chilled together while catching up. Turns out Phiwe is expecting
baby number 2 and apparently Landile got into a serious relationship when the news
of my engagement reached his ears.
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Lwa

Being with my siblings really did brighten up my mood and it made me realize the
importance of family despite that we are all grown up and living our own different
lives. Sakhile and Nami were outside with the twins while Phiwe and I were catching
up in the lounge

Me: so, who is Laa's new girl?

She gave me a funny look before letting out a chuckle

Me: lol what's with the weird look skwiza?

Phiwe: since when do you care about Laa? Or are you jealous?

Me: lol jealous? Boo have you seen the man I'm marrying? He is the full package

Her: lol well speak of the devil

Me: Laa is here? Where?

Her: no sweetie, your man's car just parked outside

I got up from the couch and approached the door, I opened it and ngempela there
was Soso carrying sleeping Mikaela in his arms. Nami had already opened the gate
for him so I walked towards them, took my princess and just stared at Soso who
looking like he was ready to punch someone

Me: what are you guys doing here?

Soso: hey to you too Lwandile. Jonga neh ngizawubulisa oSakhile then you and I are
getting in the car and we are going to drive somewhere. We need to talk

My heart started racing. What if he knew that I went to see Atha. What if Atha told
him that I was there. Maybe it was all just part of his plan to ruin my relationship with
Soso

Me: couldn't this wait until I got home? And where am I supposed to leave Mikaela?
Him: no, it couldn't wait. I'm sure Phiwe wouldn't mind watching Alwandiswe for a
couple of hours.

OK this was freaking me out, Soso never refers to Mikaela as Alwandiswe. I got in
the house and Phiwe was so happy to see Kaela. She immediately took her from my
arms

Phiwe: oh my gosh Lwa, she is so cute. I love her and she is so white

Me: like father like daughter I guess

Soso: Lwandile

I don't even know when he walked in but I turned around and his eyes indicated that
we should leave

Me: sis please watch her for a bit. I'll be back

Phiwe: lol just don't be out here making more kids. Hey Soso

Soso: uxolo Phiwe, hey unjani?

Phiwe: ndiright wethu

He flashed her a smile as I got up and followed him into the car. He sped off and I
didn't say anything. I don't know what to say because he looked angry and I had no
idea why. He found a park and parked there. I was now literally shaking

Soso: Lwandile

Me: tata kaYandisa

Him: I want you to be honest with me

Me: about what?

Him: you and Jason

I slowly breathed out. I didn't even realize that I was holding my breath. At least he
doesn't know about Atha and that I went to see him

Me: what about Jason and I?

Him: what really happened between you guys? Please just tell me the truth before I
end up killing someone
Me: what I told you was the truth. He kissed me and that was it

Him: and while I was in East London? Did anything happen?

Me: no, of course not. Baby where is this coming from? I thought we passed this
already

Him: today Jason asked me where you are. It wasn't about the question but rather
how he asked it. He asked as if he already knew, like he was testing me or
something

I hate what Jason's actions have done to my relationship. Soso never used to be
insecure but now he drove 3 hours with a baby just to ask me something that clearly
could have waited until I got home. I took his hands into mine and looked him
straight in the eye

Me: I love you Lwandiso Shaun Smith and I'd never hurt or disrespect you like that.
Never in a million years. You brother is ju-

Him: that asshole is not my brother

Me: sthandwa sam Jason will always be your brother just like I'll always be
uMaHadebe wakho. Only yours

Him: and you'd never lie to me or keep secrets from me, right?

Me: never sthandwa sam

Him: ok now give me a kiss

I knew I was lying because I was keeping my visit to Atha's house a secret and that's
a secret I'm willing to go to the grave with. If he can get so angry over Jason asking
him a simple question, imagine what he'd do when he finds out I went to see my ex.

Him: I'm sorry for driving out here for something so silly but Jason really got to me.
He knew what buttons to press and he pressed them really well

Me: forget about him. Just focus on us. Just love me and trust me and we will be fine

Him: yeah, I guess so. I love you Lwa

Me: I love you too Soso

We shared a long slow passionate kiss before we broke it and he kissed the tip of
my noise followed by my forehead. I love him so much that keeping this one tiny
secret was hurting me but I know telling him will hurt us and that's not something I
want to do

Me: let's go get our kids and go home please

Him: ok baby.

Then he just sat there looking at me and smiling to himself. I looked at him with
questioning eyes but he just acted like he doesn't see me

Me: Lwandiso drive the car please

Him: ai umhle mahn baby wam. Yho

I just let out a chuckle before hitting him on his arm

Him: but you are a bully though.

He drove back to my parents' house and he chilled with the guys while I chilled with
Phiwe and Mikaela. I was even surprised that she was still awake since she loves
sleeping so much.

Me: hello Princess Kaela

She giggled as I planted a kiss on her face. This child looks so much like her father,
its ridiculous actually. All my kids don't look like me yaz, they all look like their fathers

Phiwe: please leave her behind, she is just too cute for words. These light brownish
goldish eyes just stole my heart

Me: lol make your own sisi

Her: lol I already have

She stuck her tongue out at me and I just laughed. I really hope their baby will be a
girl again, we have too many boys in this family. After a while Nami, Sakhile and
Soso walked in. My brothers couldn't wait to get their hands on their niece. Mikaela
always steals people's hearts, she is 10 times cuter than the twins. In the early
evening, my little family and I had to go back home. I dreaded the drive to PE
because I didn't feel like driving
Me: babe I'm going to leave my car, I'm too lazy to drive

Soso: and how will it get to home?

Me: bhut' Sakhile

Sakhi: baby sis

Me: please bring my car tomorrow? I'm going to leave it

Him: sure, sis no problem

Me: thanks. There. Problem solved

I buckled the kids into their car seats then took my seat in the front. I connected my
phone to the car via Bluetooth and played music. I was playing hip hop jams just to
keep the mood light

Soso: should we stop for food or will you cook when we get home

Me: let's stop for food. I'm too tired to cook and I'm craving braai'd meat

Him: let me just buy meat and we will have a braai when we get home. We can even
invite Pali and Mike

Me: sounds like a great idea babe

The rest of the drive home was chilled, we sang, laughed and stole a few kisses.
Atha was now at the back of my mind where he belongs and my attention was on
Soso. We got home and MaRose took the kids to go bath them while I poured myself
a glass of juice and dialed Pali's number. She answered after a few rings

Pali: my friendship

Me: how are you babe?

Her: bored out of my mind. Mike has been chilling with Jason all day and his parents
are not around

Me: well I'm going to save you from that boredom. Soso and I are having a braai so
you and Mike must come

Her: this is why you are my bestie. I'm going to freshen up then we will come

Me: lol see you then

I hung up then started on the pap and salads while Soso got the fire started up. I
played music and just had fun in my kitchen

MaRose: do you need any help?

Me: is Yandisa sleeping?

Her: yebo

Me: oh good. I need to freshen up before our guests arrive so please just watch the
pap

Her: OK sisi

I took my phone upstairs and started gettin undressed when my phone beeped
indicating that I had received a text. I checked it and it was from Atha

From: Atha>

Thank you again for today. It really meant a lot to me. Hope to see you again soon.
Love you always

I read the text and as I was about to delete it, the door opened and Soso walked it so
I just locked my phone and placed it on the table

Soso: you going to shower?

Me: uhm yeah just want to freshen up quickly before Mike and Pali get here

Him: oh OK. Uright? You seem a bit agitated

Me: I'm fine my love. I just need a shower. Do you want to join me?

Him: lol I thought you'd never ask.

He stripped then wrapped himself in a towel before joining me in the shower. We had
a quick shower without any funny business taking place. I got dressed in black
jeggings, a black vest and a denim long sleeved shirt then wore uggs while Soso
wore black sweatpants and a black hoodie with a white T-shirt underneath.

Soso: you like trying to watch with me

Me: lol but I got dressed first so technically you copied me

Him: have I told you how much I love you today?

Me: nope. You haven't.

Him: lol ai uzawuba strong skhokho

I hit him playfully on his arm and walked away from him but he gently pulled me
toward him and my head was now on his chest so I looked up at him and our eyes
locked. He smiled revealing his perfectly white teeth

Him: uyaphi?

Me: I'm leaving you

Him: you'd never do that to me. You love me way too much

He wasn't wrong there, I love him to the ends of the earth. He gently pecked my lips
before taking my hand in his and we walked downstairs where we found Pali and
Mike settling in the lounge

Mike: you guys are always making babies. We had to let ourselves in

Me: uyaphapha njalo wena Michael. My friend, how are you?

She got up to hug me and we headed to the kitchen while Soso and Mike checked
on the meat outside. We sat on the high-rise chairs by the counter and caught up

Me: so, friendship I went to see Atha today

Pali: what? Lwandile are you crazy? That guy is dangerous

Me: he is harmless now. He is even in a wheelchair

Her: Athandwe? Harmless? Are you hearing yourself? That guy will never be
harmless. You are putting yourself and your family at risk by even believing that for a
second

I kept quiet because Palesa didn't see the guy I saw today. Atha has changed and
he does feel bad for the things he has done. Everyone deserves a second chance,
no matter what they've done.
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Lwa

Weeks went by and Atha and I had gotten a bit close, not in a romantic way but in a
friendship way. He wants us to rebuild leya friendship that we had in high school
before we started dating. We would text each other almost all the time but obviously I
had to change the name in which I had saved his number because my phone doesn't
have a password and Soso has access to it. It was the third week of August and I
still failed at trying to convince him not to take his life. He said he felt like his time
had come and he was done with life so nam ke I left the topic because we'd end up
fighting every time we spoke about it. I woke up that Wednesday, took a shower then
went to prepare breakfast for my family. I made bacon, eggs, toast with melted
cheese then made lunches for the kids. Soso came down with the twins all dressed
up and ready to go

Soso: morning my love

I flashed him a smile as he kissed the side of my head

Me: morning sthandwa sam. Morning boys

Twins: morning mommy

I'm so glad that their English is so good, not that I mind them speaking Xhosa but I
just love that they are growing so fast. I sat them down at the table and then dug in. I
made sure to leave some food for MaRose since she was still bathing Kaela

Me: baby

All 3 of my boys looked up which made me laugh because I was referring to Soso
not Q or Loy.

Me: lol tata

Soso burst into laughter, that was his little inside joke with the boys and they enjoyed
torturing me shame

Soso: ndikumamele mama lol

Me: lol uyaphapha yaz. Jonga neh tata walelikhaya, ndicela ukuhamba early today
and take the rest of the week off

Him: why?

Me: wedding things kalok my love. Everything has to be finalized by next week

Him: kanene siyatshata in 2 weeks. Ndiyilibele nyan eyo

I looked at him with a very unimpressed looked and he just winked at me. I knew he
was kidding, well I hoped he was kidding. After breakfast I buckled the twins up,
grabbed my bag with all my stuff in it then kissed my daughter goodbye and drove to
the twins' daycare. I unbuckled them then walked in with them since I needed to talk
to their teacher about something. She saw me at the door and came to me with a
smile on her face. This woman is always smiling, I don't even think half the time, the
smile is genuine.

Miss Harris: morning Mrs Dlamini

I was taken back by the Mrs Dlamini part until I remembered that she is most
probably making an assumption since thats the surname the twins use

Me: uhm it's Mrs Smith actually

Her: oh, I just thought that...actually never mind. How may I help you?

Me: I'm going to be fetching the boys early today. There are a few things that I need
to do with them this afternoon

Her: will you be fetching them yourself or will you send someone?

Me: I'll fetch them myself.

Her: alright no problem

I smiled before making my way to my car. This little conversation with this lady made
me a little off schedule which resulted in me getting stuck in traffic and as a result, I
was 15mins late for work. I walked into the office and as per usual I had to report to
Yolanda first

Me: morning Miss Ntabeni. I'm so sorry that I'm late. I got stuck in traffic

Yoli: your work is on your desk and also check the emails I've sent you
Me: yes ma'am

As I turned to approached the door, she spoke to me again

Her: next time you realize that you are more than 5 mins late, don't bother coming in
to work

Seriously? Kazi eyani idrama ekseni kanje. Clearly someone didn't get it all this
morning but I nodded at her and walked out. I started on my work, calling clients,
filing documents and doing some admin work. At 11ish my phone rang and it was
private number but I knew who it was so I answered

Me: hello

Atha: morning, unjani?

Me: I'm good hey and wena?

Him: still wanna kill myself but I'm good despite it all

Me: thank you for ruining my day

Him: lol it was a joke kalok MaHadebe. Awudlaliswa na wena ngoku?

Me: well it was a crappy joke

Him: ndicela uxolo evha

Me: its fine

Him: I actually need a favor, that's why I called

Me: OK I'm listening

Him: I know I agreed ukuba we are going to take this thing slow since I'm trying to
gain your trust and all that but please send me a picture of Alwakhe and Awakhe. I
know its a lot to ask

Me: why not just call them Loyiso noQhawe?

Him: kalok those names were given to them by you and as much as they will always
be Loyiso and Qhawe since makhulu named them that, I like the meaning you
installed behind the names you gave them

I smiled to myself remembering the meanings I based their names on

Me: Alwakhe uthando lwethu and Awakhe umndeni wethu. Its fine, I will send you
their pictures but after lunch time because I have to get back to work now

Him: Enkosi my chocolate chicken

Me: lol stop that and bye

He laughed before I hung up. I daydreamed for a good 5mins after that call, just
reminiscing about our past, well the good parts only. I really hope my feelings for him
are not resurfacing, especially so close to my wedding. It was Pali's voice that
snapped me back to reality

Pali: I wonder who is on your mind that's making you smile like a lovestruck teenager

Me: lol it can only be my husband to be

OK I was lying but I couldn't exactly tell her that I was thinking about my ex because
she becomes judgmental everytime the Atha topic comes up and I was tired of
explaining why I feel as if Atha really has changed.

Her: hmm anyway what are your lunch plans?

Me: I have to pick Sedi up from the airport and then go see Talent for the fittings

Her: I'm definitely coming with you. I haven't seen that crazy girl in ages. I miss her

Me: makes the two of us my friendship

Her: and Lolz and Nomz? When are they getting here?

Me: Friday around lunch time. I have so much to do this week and next week. I
actually have to submit my leave application at HR before I leave at lunch time

Her: let me let you get back to work before Cruella Devile gives you a hard time. She
is already staring at us

Pali was right. Yoli was standing at her door looking at us with her arms folded. I got
back to work, finished all my work for the morning and at half 12 I packed my bag
and went to knock on Yoli's door. She told me to come in and I did. I placed a file on
her desk

Me: the rest of the reports have been emailed to you and I won't be returning after
lunch or for the rest of the week
She arched her eyebrow at me, folded her arms and leaned back on her chair

Yoli: reason being?

Me: I'm going on leave

Her: and what am I supposed to do? Do all the work myself?

Haibo kanti what does she get paid for? Ngiyajwayelwa nje la straight. I shrugged my
shoulders at her and walked out of her office with my bad bitch smile on. I walked to
Soso's office and knocked before he told me to come in

Soso: Miss Hadebe what may I do for you?

Me: sir I'm leaving now

He flashed me a smile and I was trying very hard to stay professional here and that
smile was leading me astray. He got up from his chair and sat on the corner of his
desk

Him: did you file a leave application with HR?

Me: yes, sir I did

Him: alright then Miss Hadebe, we shall see you back here on Monday

Me: yes sir, good day

I turned and walked out with an even bigger smile. This trying to be professional
thing is actually fun yaz. I stopped at Liz's desk still wearing my smile

Liz: I hope you didn't have a quickie in the boss's office

Me: lol Elizabeth! Mr Smith and I are very professional people. Please call Palesa's
office and tell her I'm ready

She gave me that "I don't believe you" look before calling Pali. Within minutes she
was at reception and we left. I picked up the twins before heading for the airport

Loy: mama ndibawela ishokholate

Me: ngenze njani ke mina mfanwami? Ngiyithenge?

Him: ewe kalok mama.

Q: cela kalok nawe Yoyiso

Me: mtshele wena Q. Mele acele and not make demands here

Pali: yho I'm so lost with this conversation. Can we just stick to English?

Me: lol you have to learn this language if you are planning on marrying into that
Smith family

The rest of the trip to the airport was pretty much chilled, just light conversation here
and there. We found Lesedi already waiting for us and the moment we got out the
car she started screaming. Now people were staring at us as if we were crazy but we
didn't care. We had a group hug before helping her load her luggage in my boot. My
polo really is too small and I need a new car as in yesterday day. I checked the time
and I still had time before our appointment with Talent so I drove us to the shopping
complex close to the boutique and we had lunch at spur. I had to accommodate the
twins as well.

Sedi: the minions are so grown up now and they are so tall for their age

Me: well I guess they got that from their father

Pali: speaking of their father

I gave Pali a nudge under the table before she could finish her sentence then she
kept quiet but Sedi shifted her eyes between Pali and myself

Sedi: spill it bitches

Me: haibo Sedi! Language

Sedi: askies but one of you bees better start talking

Pali: Lwa thinks Atha has changed

Sedi: changed? Changed into what? A vampire?

I almost chocked on my drink in laughter and Pali did actually choke and started
coughing

Q: soli auntie

Loy: ewe soli auntie Pili

Me: auntie Pali Loy

Pali: thank you boys

Sedi: can we just focus on the conversation at hand

Pali: ok fine. You know he got kidnapped right?

Sedi: Atha got kidnapped again? Mxm I wouldn't be surprised, he must have pissed
off the wrong people

Well my friends don't know that it was Soso that was behind Atha's kidnappings, well
except for Nomz. She knows everything

Pali: yes, anyway the kidnappers killed his cousin and drugged him. The effects of
the drug left him paralyzed.

Sedi: paralyzed? As in he is in a wheelchair? Atha in a wheelchair? Rhaaa he is

faking it

Me: haa aah Sedi he isn't faking

Sedi: and how would you know? Don't act like you've forgotten that he is the biggest
attention seeking guy on the planet. He is always trying to get your attention Lwa
Season 3

Insert 20

Lwa

The lunch with my friends continued with them throwing shade and judgment over
me entertaining Atha and honestly it got to a point where by it annoyed me.

Me: Lesedi we have to get to Talent and Palesa needs to get back to work

Sedi: using our full names won't change how we feel about the whole situation
you've started with Atha.

I ignored her and just settled the bill before grabbing my kids and walking out. They
followed me, Sedi said bye to Palesa, making plans for later then she walked into the
boutique after me. Talent was still busy with a client so we had to wait

Sedi: Lwa are you mad at me now?

Me: why would I be?

Her: friend, I love you and I won't let you walk into Atha's trap. He is playing you Lwa

Me: I'm not mad and can we please stop talking about this?

She nodded then started a whole new conversation with Qhawe, who was more than
happy to talk to her. After 15mins, Talent let us in

Talent: Lwa, baby, you are always bringing me gorgeous ladies, are you sure you
are not trying to change me into a straight man?

Me: lol maybe I am. Talent this is Palesa, Palesa this is Talent

They hugged, with Talent placing kisses on her cheeks then he took out the dress for
her to try on. It looked absolutely beautiful on her, it was figure hugging and it made
her boobs pop out

Me: I love your work baby. This is gorgeous

Talent: its all for you my sugar plum. So, Friday is the day you see your dress. You
better be excited
Before I could answer, my phone rang. I checked the caller ID and it was private
number

Me: excuse me guys, I have to take this

I stepped outside then answered the call

Me: hello

Atha: hey

Me: I haven't forgotten about the pictures

Him: that's not why I'm calling. I have a confession to make but please don't be mad

Confessions usually get me mad but I chose to just not say anything and wait for him
to get to it. I was already having a crappy day so if he adds to it, I might just lose my
mind

Him: Lwa

Me: hmmm

Him: I love you and I know my timing isn't ideal but my feelings are genuine. I love
you Lwa and I need to see you again

I wasn't surprised. He has been hinting that he still loves me but I never wanted to
confront it because where would it lead us? I'm getting married in 2 weeks with the
man I love and who loves me. I kept quiet and naye he was quiet. I need to put a
stop to this but how can I be harsh and mean to a man that has two weeks to live?
After my wedding day, I will never hear his voice again or see his face.

Me: I need to go Atha. I'll come see you tomorrow

Him: thanks, my chocolate chicken. I love you makaQhawe

Me: bye

I hung up, put my phone on silent then went back to Talent and Sedi who were
wrapping up what they were doing

Me: all done?

Sedi: yeah. Talent is still helping the minions into their suits
Me: alright

Her: was that him? On the phone

Me: him? Him who?

Her: Athandwe

Before I could answer, Talent walked in with my handsome little men, who looked
totally adorable. I snapped a few pictures before the changed.

Me: you have totally outdone yourself Talent. My babies look so cute

Talent: I just want to meet the man that made all these kids and just have him for
one night.

Me: lol Talent no. That's my boo

We shared a laugh then we had to leave. Sedi was going to be staying with us at the
house so I drove straight home.

Sedi: this is a gorgeous house. Soso really knows how to go for what he wants

Me: yeah, he does. Let me show you to the room you will be using

Just then MaRose walked in with my daughter who started giggling the moment she
saw me. She is just a ray of sunshine

Me: yiza kuMama nana

I took her ngamteketisa for a while and she just giggled and drooled like crazy

Sedi: she is gorgeous

Me: thank you friendship. Do you want to hold her?

Her: maybe later. I just want to lay down for now

She suddenly seemed offish but I wasn't going to push for an explanation. I showed
her to the room and then went to my room to chill with my daughter. I sat her on the
bed and we started taking selfies and videos then I made one of the pics my
WhatsApp profile pic. After that I changed into comfy clothes then dialed Noma's
number

Nomz: chomi
Me: unjani chomam?

Her: I'm broke and miserable

Me: you forgot dramatic. Listen ke chomam, I'm going to be at home tomorrow so if
you haven't booked your flight, I'll come back with you guys

Her: oh yes please chomi. I was even dreading asking Syanda for money

Me: lol I'll see you tomorrow chomi. Tell Lolz as well please

She agreed and we hung up. After an hour or so daddy walked in and Kaela almost
jumped off the bed. Umntanami ebene-excitement kababakhe. Soso's kissed me on
my cheek before taking his daughter and tossing her in the air

Me: she is going to throw up all over you

Soso: she wouldn't do that to her daddy.

He kissed her face before walking out with her and calling MaRose to take her then
he walked into our room and locked the door. He threw himself on the bed next to
me and just stared at me for a while

Me: what's going on?

Soso: nothing. I'm just looking at my beautiful fiancé who thinks I'm the stupidest
person in the world.

I sat up and looked at him. He didn't take his eyes off me during the whole time. I
had this confused look on my face because I didn't know what he was talking about.

Me: ukhuluma ngani?

Him: zisa iphone yakho kum

My eyes immediately widened. I hesitated so he took the phone himself and went
straight to my messages then stopped at Atha's texts which are saved as Akhile. He
went all the way to the first text he sent me and my heart jumped to my throat
because his name was on it

Him: andisosidenge mna Lwandile

Me: baby it’s not what you think. Please give me a chance to explain to you
Him: no. I don't want your explanations. I just wanted to show you that you are not as
smart as you think you are

He changed into sweatpants and a T-shirt then walked towards the door and
stopped before he walked out

Him: I want you out of here before I come back. Leave my kids and just go

Before I had a chance to respond, he walked out the door and went downstairs
where he took his car keys and walked out. Tears started building up in eyes as I sat
on my bed with a confused look on my face. I'm not going anywhere, I know he just
said that because he is still angry. There is no way Soso would kick me out, he loves
me way too much for that and that's not the kind of person he is. I immediately
deleted the texts, I don't know why since the person I was meant to hide them from
already saw them. I should have listened to my gut but my heart and compassion
took over where Atha was involved. I tried calling Soso but it just sent me straight to
voicemail so I left him and went downstairs to my kids. I chilled with the twins but my
mind was miles away.

Loy: mama

He was shaking me and it snapped me back to reality. I looked at him and he had
this annoyed look on his face

Me: askies nana. Uthini?

Him: ndoda mna mama asinana

Me: khuluma ke ndoda

Him: faka uSofia kalok mama

I took the remote and changed to Sofia the first and watched it with my babies. They
talked amongst themselves because I wasn't focusing on their conversation. When
Soso walked in, he didn't look surprised that I was still there. He placed the boxes of
pizza on the counter and then walked upstairs without saying a word to me. After a
few minutes Sedi came downstairs and threw herself on the couch

Sedi: so, you and hubby are spending the rest of the week at a hotel?

Me: huh?
Her: Soso is packing in your room. I thought you were there so I knocked and he
opened. He said you guys want to spend some time alone without the kids

Me: maybe he was planning on surprising me

I smiled faintly but my smile was far from real. Soso really wanted me out of here but
this is my home too so I'm not going anywhere. 30mins later he came down the
stairs with bags in his hands and put them in his car, I assume then walked in, took
Kaela from MaRose and played with her

Q: yahamba tata?

Soso: ewe boy. Ndizabuya

Q: hamba nawe

Soso: uzawusala nabani uYaya

Q: noYoyiso njena

Loy: sala nomama mna

He gave Kaela to MaRose then looked at me and I immediately looked away

Soso: MaHadebe sthandwa sam masambe

I looked at him and as much as I didn't want to make a scene, I knew if I let him drive
me out of this house, I'll never be back

Me: samba sobabili?

Him: ewe kalok baby wam

He took my hand and led me towards the door of my car. He got in the driver's seat
and I sat in the passenger seat. The drive was quiet and awkward, I didn't know
whether to speak or wait for him to talk first. He drove to a guesthouse, got keys then
led the way with the bags. He sat on the bed then patted next to him with his hand,
indicating I should sit next to him. I walked towards him and nervously sat next to
him.

Soso: bendingatshongo ukuba andifuni ukukufumana endlini xa ndibuya?

Me: baby we have to talk about this. It really isn't what you think
Him: so, you are not texting your ex all the time? You didn't lie to me about wanting
to go home so you can go see him? You didn't save his number under a different
name so I wouldn't find out? All of that didn't happen?

I took in a deep breath and tried touching him but he moved away. He was angry
and I was scared because Soso becomes a different person when he is pissed.

Me: I didn't lie to you. I didn't plan on seeing him. It just happened

Him: and the calls and texts also just happened? Sundigezela Lwandile

Me: he is going to die Soso. He wants to kill himself

Him: and how is that any of your concern? He wanted to kill me so if he wants to kill
himself, why do you go behind my back to entertain my enemy?

Me: I feel sorry for him OK. I have a heart Lwandiso and when I saw him sitting in
that chair, I felt sorry for him

Him: I'm done with you Lwa. You will never know what you want and honestly, I'm
done with this back and forth. You are acting like a high school child and I don't have
time for this. I don't want to be the reason you are not happy
Season 3

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Soso

I've thought this through from the moment I saw a change in Lwa's behavior. She
was spending more time on her phone than she was spending on me and that's the
first and only sign I needed to know that she was up to no good. The moment I told
her that I'm done with her, she broke down, started screaming and crying loudly but
what was the point? She was getting what she wanted, I was giving her the freedom
to do whatever she wants without having to hide it from me.

Lwa: Soso please you can't do this to me. I love you and I'm sorry. Please don't
leave me

Me: don't lie to me Lwa. You are not sorry, you are only sorry because you got
caught. I gave you everything and yet it wasn't enough for you. Clearly you like being
beaten, cheated on and having your life put in danger. Lwa, I gave you my whole life
and you threw it back in my face with no hesitation. That's the kind of person you
are. You are selfish and inconsiderate. You disgust me

I clicked my tongue before taking my phone and walking out. I got outside and called
a cab. I felt my tears rushing to my eyes but I quickly wiped them away because this
was not the time to be weak. It hurts to know that after everything I've done for her,
I'm still not enough for her. She would rather choose a useless asshole that's sitting
on a wheelchair instead of me. The person who loves her more than life its self.
Women can really be stupid sometimes but Atha will show his true colors and for her
sake I hope it won't be too late. My cab arrived as I was still deep in my thoughts. I
told the driver to take me to my parents' house. I wanted Mike and our friends to go
out and get drunk. When I got home, I paid him then walked in. Luckily my parents
weren't home so Mike was sitting with Pali

Me: hey guys

Mike: Soso ntwana ugrand?

Me: I'm top shayela boy. Pali, how are you?

Pali: I'm good.

Me: Mike call Ntando, Marc and Luke so we can go out. I feel like getting wasted

Mike: on a Wednesday? Wena?

Me: ewe kalok. Call them

Mike: OK sungxama fondin

He walked upstairs with his girlfriend while I made myself a sandwich. Lwa kept
calling and I kept ignoring her calls. I don't want to talk to her because despite what
she has been doing, I still love her with all my heart and soul but right now I don't
want to see her or talk to her. She really hurt me and its going to take a lot for me to
even want to speak to her, let alone want to marry her. After eating my sandwich, I
called Ziya. On a night like this, I don't want to surrounded by just my friends
because they will keep asking me questions I don't have answers to

Ziya: ufuna nton Lwandiso?

Him: ndifuna wena

Her: ai tsek mahn Soso

I haven't spoken to her since she was in my office and I told her to hide in the
storeroom so clearly, she was still mad at me about that

Me: my friends and I are going out tonight, do you want to join us?

Her: and why would I want to go out with you guys? Especially wena Lwandiso?

Me: usandiqumbela baby? Jonga kalok mabebeza, I'm going to take a cab to your
place and apologize nicely. How's that?

She stayed silent for a while before I could feel her wanting to giggle like a teenager
on the other side of the line

Her: I'll text you my address

Me: sho mntana...oh and make sure you are not wearing anything when I get there

I didn't wait for the response, I just hung up. I jumped off the counter and stood by
the bottom of the stairs

Me: MIKE! MICHEAL

Mike: sugxola bruh

Me: I'm going to leave in five minutes, you shall text me the club that you decide on
going too

Him: OK cool

Me: mayishiyeke icherry yakho

Him: ai Soso I can't do that

Me: its a boys' night kalok bruh and I want to fuck bitches so I don't want her there

Mike gave me the most confused look but I didn't entertain him, instead I just dialed
the cab number and waited. The cab arrived after 7mins and I directed him to the
address I had been given then called Ziya when I was at the gate. She opened the
gate for me, I paid the cab driver then walked through the gate and knocked on the
door. She opened for me while dressed in a short silk gown which showed her
gorgeous legs. I swallowed spit before going in through the door

Me: so, I don't get a hug?

Ziya: you didn't ask for one

She was giving me attitude which funny enough, I found to be quite sexy. She led
the way to the lounge and she made sure not to sit on the same couch I was sitting
on. She crossed her legs which revealed her thighs and I was distracted

Her: you said you want to apologize. I'm listening

Me: oh yeah. I'm sorry for that day at my office. I shouldn't have done that to you.
Ndicela uxolo evha

Her: OK. You can leave now

Me: do you at least forgive me?

Her: no

I got up and went to sit on the couch she was sitting on then brought her closer to
me and started whispering in her ear
Me: I want you. I want to rip that gown open then let my hand glide to your thighs
before sliding my fingers in your wet pussy.

She pressed her thighs together tightly and I knew she was getting turned on

Me: then I'm going to lay you down on this couch and suck your swollen clit while my
fingers dance inside your pussy. I want to fuck you on this couch right now

She let out a moan as she continued to press her thighs together. I untied her robe
and just as I had requested, she was naked underneath it. This woman's body
always turns me on within 5seconds. I slid my hand towards her inner thighs and she
slowly opened her legs while I also planted kisses on her neck which made her
moan. When my hand came into contact with her pussy, she was soaking wet. I
rubbed her clit between my thumb and my finger and she let out even louder moans
with my name in them. I laid her down on the couch without removing my fingers
from her. I finger fucked slowly and she kept grinding on my finger, hinting that she
wanted more which made me chuckle a bit. Then I started planting wet kisses from
her neck to her stomach while gently twisting her nipples between my fingers

Ziya: Lwandiso

The way she said my name was just sexy as fuck, it was soft and yearning. I parted
her legs then buried my head between them. By this time, my dick was rock hard
and fighting to get out of my pants. She pushed my head deeper between her legs
as I sucked on her swollen clit and gently biting it. I licked and sucked her until I
knew I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to fuck this woman as in yesterday. I
unzipped my pants, lowered them and my briefs then rubbed the tip of my dick on
the opening of her pussy

Me: are you on the pill?

Her: uh huh

Me: and you are clean? No viruses?

Her eyes immediately opened and she looked pissed. I know my question might
come across as disrespectful but I had to know

Her: what the fuck Lwandiso? What do you...aaaah

I didn't even wait for her to finish her sentence before I slammed into her and didn't
move. I lowered my head next to her ear and started nippling on it while she was
grinding from under me

Me: sorry about that. You were saying?

Her: what the hell do you take me for?

Me: you are a bitch Ziya. That's what I take you for so that's why I asked

Her: tsek Lwandiso. Get off me

She tried pushing me off but I took her arms and pinned them above her head and
started fucking her

Me: should I get off?

Her: aaaah don't...stop...please

I went into her hard and fast. I enjoyed the sounds the made, sounds of pleasure and
pain mixed together. When I felt her walls tightening around my dick I pulled out and
flipped her over

Her: what the fuck, I was about to cum

Me: shhh. You talk too much

She was now on her hands and knees with her back perfectly arching. Looking at
her ass in that position almost made me cum immediately. I inserted myself in her
soaking pussy and she moaned again. The aim wasn't to make love, the aim was to
fuck my anger and hurt away. I spanked her ass and she screamed which led to me
doing it over and over again.

Her: ouch Lwandiso it hurts

Me: this is what you wanted andithi? You wanted me to fuck you so now shut up.

I continued with my slamming into her and again when I felt her orgasm building up, i
pulled out of her then put her on top of me and picked her up and pinned her against
the wall with just one leg wrapped around me. I sucked on her neck and boobs while
rapidly fucking her and when I felt I was about to cum, I pulled out again

Me: get on your knees

Her: what for?

Me: just do it please

She obliged and looking at her in that position, being obedient and submissive just
almost drove me over the edge. I directed my dick to her mouth and she was
hesitant at first

Me: I'm a married man Ziya, I can't get home smelling like another woman's pussy.
Clean your mess up please

I placed the tip of my dick on her mouth and she opened. She sucked me gently
while caressing my balls. She wasn't as good as Lwa but she wasn't bad either. I
picked up the pace from my side and she started gagging but I didn't care. I fucked
her mouth until I came inside it and she started choking and rushed to the bathroom.
I laughed a little before getting dressed. I checked my phone and I had a text from
Mike and Lwa. Mike was telling me where I will meet them and I didn't bother
checking Lwa's text. I washed my hands in the kitchen sink, dried them with the
paper towels then called my cab. Ziya came back into the lounge still butt naked.
This woman is truly blessed with a beautiful body. She wasn't impressed to see me
all dressed up but she tried to hide it well

Her: leaving already?

Me: yeah. I still have to meet up with the guys for drinks

She moved closer to me, wrapped her arms around me before planting a soft peck
on my lips.

Her: I was thinking maybe we should go for round two before we leave

Me: maybe next time. I already called the cab

Her: next time? Soso I didn't cum?

Me: lol but I did. You will cum next time and don't wear any panties to the club. Oh,
and wear a dress

Her: mxm whatever

She tried walking away and I pulled her close to me then kissed her cheek. She is a
great fuck after all.
Season 3

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Soso

When my cab arrived, I told Ziya where she will find us then I left. This thing of
leaving my car at the house was a mistake. Now I'm busy paying cab fares the whole
night. On the way to the club, I kept reminiscing about the sex I just had with Ziya.
Thinking about it still made my dick twitch and tingle a little bit. Had I known that her
pussy was this good ngabe I hit that a long time ago

Driver: bruh we are here

I didn't even realize that we had arrived at the club. I paid then I got out the cab and
texted Mike to come out. He came out within minutes, we did our handshake and he
led me in

Mike: where are you coming from? Lwa has been looking for you

Me: fuck Lwa bruh. Where are you seated?

I followed him to our table then called the waiter over

Me: my brother ndicela undiphe a bottle of Jameson Select Reserve with Soda water
and lots of ice

Waiter: alright

He walked away and I focused my energy on my friends

Me: kutheni kuyiFathers day apha? Ziphi izifebe majita?

Ntando: I thought this was a boys’ night

Me: kwenzeka ntoni kwiBoys night kalok?

Luke: dude, are you OK?

Me: never been better ntwana yam

I saw a few hot girls sitting at a table with one bottle of Moet amongst the 6 of them
so I went over to them

Me: molweni girls

Them: hey

Me: ndinguShaun mna. Ningobani nina?

Girl 1: ndinguBabalwa mna, these are my friends Lani, Loot, Ash, Kay and Zee

Me: nice to meet you guys. Would you like to join us at our table over there? We
need a bit of female company

Babs: yeah sure.

They followed behind me while Mike organized one of the waiters to extend our
table. These girls were definitely still in varsity, probably first or second year but no
one was trying to date them, we all just wanted to have fun

Loot: so, do you guys work or go to school?

Marc: how old do we look to you?

Loot: maybe 22

Me: lol wow. We are 24, baby

She blushed a little and that's when I realized that these are kids.

Luke: how old are you?

Kay: 19 and 20. We are doing our second year

Just then Ziya texted that she is outside so I went to get her. She was dressed in a
black and yellow tight fitting short dressed. I gave her a hug then kissed her cheek

Me: you look beautiful Miss Phakati

She flashed me a smile then she took something out of her bag and gave it to me. I
opened my hand and realized that it was her lace panties

Ziya: as requested

I laughed then placed my hand on her waist and led her to our table but the guys
were moving

Me: and now?

Luke: we are moving to the booths. There are too many of us now
Me: alright.

I helped the girls with their drinks and when we got to the booth, I sat between Ziya
and Kay.

Me: ladies this is Ziya. Ziya that's Babs, Loot, Kay, Ash, Zee and Lani

They greeted each other, I didn't have to introduce her to the guys since they know
her from the beach last year

Me: what should I get you to drink?

Ziya: cranberry and vodka please

Me: coming right up

I went over to the bar to get the bottle of vodka and juice and that's when I felt a
hand on my waist. I turned around and it was Kay so I just smiled and pulled her
closer

Me: what's up Kay?

Kay: nothing. I was checking if you are managing

I was in varsity once upon a time so I know how varsity girls hint when they want you
and this little girl right here wanted me. She wasn't bad looking yena shame, its just
that she was a child.

Me: lol don't worry about it, sweetheart. I've got it covered

Her: is she your girlfriend?

Me: who? Ziya?

Her: yeah

Me: nah she isn't. Masambe

She followed me back to the table and the drinking started properly. My phone was
ringing nonstop until I decided to switch it off. I didn't need stress in my life at that
moment, I just wanted to have fun. I leaned over to Ziya's ear as I placed my hand
on her thigh

Me: still wanna cum?

She flushed as her cheeks turned red and she tried to close her thighs but I pushed
them apart. This woman's body was doing things to my dick. I planted a kiss on her
neck and she closed her eyes leaning back. The fact that there were so many people
around us made it even more thrilling. I could feel everyone's eyes on us but I didn't
care

Mike: ai mahn Soso kutheni ngoku?

Me: Mike, ntwana there are girls all over this table. Have fun mahn

As I slid my hand up Ziya's thighs, I felt a hand on my own thighs which made me
stop on my tracks. Kay was sliding her hand towards my dick and started rubbing it.
Oh, dear God have I died and gone to heaven? I lifted Ziya's dress but because it
was dark, no one could see what was going on under the table. I inserted my fingers
in her and she squealed but due to the music, no one heard.

Luke: Soso it’s getting late and Ziya looks sleepy

I looked at her and her eyes were shut but I knew it wasn't because she was sleepy,
it was because of my fingers that were deep in her pussy. She was soaking wet so
my fingers went in easily. So here I was finger fucking Ziya while Kay was rubbing
my dick, getting it harder with every rub. My thumb was working its magic on Ziya's
clit while my fingers were ramming in and out of her.

Me: lol she isn't sleepy bruh. Its most probably the vodka taking its toll on her. Don't
worry about her. I'll take care of her

I kissed her neck, gently biting it and that drove her over the edge as her walls
tightened around my fingers and she came. By the time I took my fingers out, they
were dripping wet. I kissed her cheek and she slowly opened her eyes, beaming
from ear to ear. I poured myself a glass of whiskey and immediately downed it then
got up to go to the bathroom. Since it was a weeknight, it wasn't packed. I walked in
as the only guy that was in there walked out. I washed my hands before unzipping
my pants to pee. As I was peeing, the last person I expected to see in the male
bathrooms walked in

Me: Kay, what are you doing here?

Kay: I saw what you did to Ziya

Me: I don't know what you talking about

She looked at my dick as I peed and she smiled to herself. OK that's creepy so I just
finished peeing and zipped up my pants

Her: Soso I want you

Me: lol join the queue baby girl.

Her: I'll suck your dick

Me: baby girl you are offering something I can get anywhere. Suka and let me get
out of here.

I left her in the bathroom and went back to the table. I checked the time and it was
2:30am. Yeah no, it was about time I called it a night.

Me: ladies and gents, I'm calling it a night. I still have work ngomso

Mike: how are you getting home?

Ziya: I'll drop him off

Mike: Soso?

Me: I'll be fine ntwana.

I fist bumped all my friends then hugged the chicks and walked out with Ziya. I was
drunk to another level but I could still keep my balance

Me: drop me off at the guest house

Ziya: which one?

I told her which one before passing out. I was woken up but the coldness of the air
con and Ziya shaking me. I rubbed my eyes then stretched and yawned.

Her: we are here

Me: alright. Thanks baby neh. You were amazing tonight.

I put my hand in my pocket to fish for the key but I found her panties instead so I
took them out

Me: these belong to you

Her: my gift to you

Me: lol thank you

I put them back in my pocket and walked out the car into the guest house. I struggled
with the key of the room until the door opened from the inside.

Lwa: Soso!! Thank God you are OK

I moved her out the way and started taking my clothes off

Her: where have you been all night?

Me: I definitely wasn't with my ex. Unlike you

I threw myself on the bed before I heard her reply and I passed out almost
immediately. After what felt like 10mins, I was woken up by someone shaking me. I
slowly opened my eyes in annoyance

Her: wake up, you are going to be late for work

Me: hmmm what time is it?

Her: half 6

I sat up and my head was so heavy and painful. Damn how much did I drink last
night? I got out of bed and I was naked. I wrapped my body in a towel then as I
picked my pants up to get my briefs, lace panties fell out of my pocket. Woah where
did they come from? They landed right in front of Lwa and she picked them up using
a pen and looked at me with tears in her eyes

Me: I'm going to shower

Her: what's this Lwandiso?

Me: ipantie leyo Lwandile

Her: its not mine

Me: bendingatshongo nami ukuba yeyakho kalok

Her: uyangijolela Soso?

Me: yho hayike ndicela ukohlamba fondin. I have to get to work

Her: we are still talking Lwandiso. Who is she?

Me: jonga Lwa, I said all I have to say to you yesterday. We are done talking phof ke
we are done mna nawe. Its over Lwa so whatever I did last night and who I did it with
is none of your business. Phuma kum

I walked into the bathroom and took a shower. I could hear her sobs coming from the
room but I wasn't going to comfort her. I needed space from her as soon as possible,
I don't know how its going to work considering that we work together and we have
children together. I don't care if she goes back to Atha but Loyiso and Qhawe will
always be my sons. After I finished showering, I got dressed while she sat on the
bed looking at me with red puffy eyes

Me: aren't you going to work?

Her: I'm on leave for the rest of the week

Me: oh, so what will you be doing today?

Her: I'm going to go home to fetch Lolz and Nomz

Me: what for?

Her: for the wedding fittings

Me: lol what wedding Lwandile? We are done. There won't be a wedding. Tchin
lomntana

Her: I'm not going to give up on us just like that. We love each other Soso and yes, I
made a mistake but I'm sorry baby

Me: mxm say hi to Atha when you go see him. I know theres no way you would go
home and not see him

Her: I won't be going to him.

Me: lol whatever.

I texted Ziya asking her to pick me up and she agreed so now I was waiting for her

Her: baby I just want you to know that I forgive you for whoever you slept with last
night
Me: I don't remember asking for your forgiveness. Lwa live your life and forget about
Lwandiso, I'm definitely going to forget about you. Go be with the person you feel
sorry for and leave me alone because how I feel doesn't matter to you
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Lwa

His words pierced through my heart like a spear. This guy spoke with so much
disregard for my feelings, he acted without considering the consequences of his
actions. Yes, I admit I was wrong for everything I did but I never cheated on him but
he has the audacity to come home to me drunk and with panties in his pockets. No
matter what I've done, its not enough to amount to the kind of disrespect he is giving
me

Me: I should forget about you? Where do I even start with that considering that we
share a life together. We have kids Lwandiso and we love each other

Soso: its funny how you remember all of this now whereas you left these kids with
your brother so that you can go to your ex. Fuck it Lwa yaz you are so selfish. I can't
deal with you

His phone beeped indicating an SMS then he started gathering his work things.
Clearly, he was about to leave

Him: I'll see you around. I don't know when and how because I'm going back to the
house after work

I just nodded because the lump in my throat wouldn't let me talk. Tears streamed
down my cheeks when he walked out without even a kiss goodbye. I want to fix this
but I don't even know where to start anymore, I know Soso loves me and he cares
about me, its just that he is still angry right now but do I wait for him to calm down or
do I keep pushing? Sometimes my life just moves faster than my years and I end up
stuck without a way forward. I spent the rest of the morning in bed, crying my eyes
out. My heart was breaking with every minute that passed and I didn't know what to
do in order to make it stop. Around 12, I got out of bed, took a shower and dressed in
black boyfriend jeans, a long-sleeved white T-shirt and black body warmer and white
sneakers. I applied my make up then tied my weave. I didn't look miserable at all so I
grabbed my phone and car keys then drove to the Smith residence. I needed to talk
to an elder about this before it gets out of hand. I called Soso's mother when I was
outside and she opened for me. I parked at the garage then knocked on the door
and went in

S's mom: wow this is a great surprise

We shared a hug before she led me to sit down in the lounge

Her: how are you my baby?

Me: I'm alright ma and you?

Her: what's wrong? You look far from alright?

You know when you are barely holding yourself together and then a person asks
what's wrong and you just break down? Well that was me at that moment. Tears just
uncontrollably fell on my cheeks and the more I tried wiping them, the more they fell.
She came to sit next to me and held me tightly while I cried in her arms.

Me: I messed up ma. He hates me now and he doesn't want me anymore

Her: shh baby. Its OK

She rubbed my back until I was composed again and I got out of her embrace only to
be met by her warm smile

Her: go wash your face so you can tell me what's going on

I nodded and headed to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked
horrible. My eyes were red and my make up was ruined. I washed my face, took in a
few deep breaths then went back to the lounge. She was already waiting for me with
a cup of tea

Her: here. This should calm you down

Me: thank you

I took a sip then placed it back on the table. She had her eyes on me the whole time
so I can't back out of this anymore

Her: uthi kutheni na mntanam?

Me: uLwandiso uyangizonda ma. He found out ukuthi I've been in contact with the
father of the twins and that I went to see him and now he wants nothing to do with
me. He ended things between us and went drinking the whole of last night

She leaned back on the couch and folded her arms across her chest. I was ashamed
to the point whereby I couldn't bring myself to look at her.

Her: Lwandile its never advisable to keep secrets from the man you love. Especially
so close to the wedding

Me: I know ma but there won't be a wedding. Soso doesn't want me anymore

Her: but do you blame him? I raised that boy and I know everything about him. He is
hurt so he won't talk to you about how he really feels because he doesn't trust you
anymore. You betrayed his trust

I sighed because this woman was telling me things i already knew. I want to fix this

Me: I know ma but how do I fix it? I love Soso so much and I can't lose him. I just felt
sorry for Atha, seeing him sitting on that chair wasn't easy because I knew the
person he used to be before the drugs took over his life. When he told me, he is
suicidal I thought of my kids. Yes, Soso is an amazing father to them but it is Atha's
blood that flows through their veins. Its not easy to accept that someone who has
given me so much could be no more in less than a month. He has changed and I
wanted to remember him without hating him because I don't want that hate to spill
over to my sons, who are a spitting image of him.

Now it was her that sighed while I continued to sip on my tea. It really was working in
calming me down. We sat in silence for what felt like forever until she broke the
silence

Her: baby you need to give him time to calm down and then sit him down and tell him
your reasons. My son loves you and as a result I love you too but I am Lwandiso's
mom before I am your mother-in-law so I'm disappointed in you but I'm not going to
shun you out. We are family now and family sticks together. You are good for him
and he is good too you. You guys might not believe in each other anymore but us as
the family believe in you

I smiled faintly as I finished the rest of my tea then took the cup to the kitchen
Me: so, do I cancel the wedding?

Her: of course not. You and Lwandiso are getting married in 2 weeks.

Me: but ma he sai-

Her: leave him to me. Continue with the wedding preparations

Me: OK ma I have to get going. Thank you for listening and the advice

Her: anytime sweetie. This is your home too as much as it is Lwandiso's home and
baby thank you for not mentioning that he cheated last night. You are a true wife for
that

I creased my eyebrows in confusion and she just smiled

Her: like I said, I know my son and how he behaves when he is hurt. Please be
patient with him. Love him even when he doesn't want you too and when it hurts you
to. It might not seem like it right now but he is worth it

Honestly, I didn't want to think about what he did last night and with who. I was
partially to blame for his behavior. Damn you Athandwe Dlamini. I curse the day you
came into my life. Anyway, I said my goodbyes to Mrs Smith then drove home, to my
parents' house. I still had to pick up Lolo and Noma. I plugged my phone to the car
with an aux cord and played the Justin Bieber album and drove the 3hr journey.
When I got home it was just after 4 and my mom was home preparing supper. She
was so happy to see me. We hugged before I offered to help her but she declined

Mom: to what do we owe this wonderful surprise?

Me: bengikukhumbule mama and ngizolanda oLolo

Her: for the fittings?

Me: yebo. Niyaphila?

Her: yebo sweetie. I've missed you

Me: me too mom.

Her: so how are you and Lwandiso? Konke kusahamba kahle?

Me: uhm yebo mama. Konke kuright

Her: OK ke sthandwa sam. I'm not going to keep you ke nam because you must
fetch your friends and still make it home to make supper for your husband

I smiled faintly just thinking about the so-called husband that wants nothing to do
with me right now. I was missing my kids so much and I'm sure they were missing
me as well but ke their father wants space and that's what I'm going to give him. Just
until Monday though. 4 days is more than enough. After my little catch up session
with mommy dearest, I called Noma telling her I'm on my way so she should be
ready. Luckily for me, her and Lolz were together. We hugged and they got got in the
car

Lolz: chomi unqabile rhaa

Me: I know chomam but its this life thing

Nomz: it gets in the way

Me: wazi kahle wena mngani. So how have you guys been? What's new?

Nomz: Lolothando has a new man that we all don't approve of

Lolz: Nomalanga stop it. This isn't the time

Me: oh, OK who is this new man and why don't you guys approve?

They both went silent. Haaibo Kanti ngikhuluma ngedwa yini?

Me: guys?

Lolz: when I'm ready chomi I'll tell you all about it. Everyone is just overreacting nje

Me: OK, do I at least know him?

Nomz: you definitely do babe

Me: hmmmm as long as its not any of my exes or brothers then I don't care who it is

Lolz: I'm glad to hear that

Nomz: I know Lwa, she will definitely mind but anyway I'm dropping it

My phone rang before I could say anything so I took the aux cord out and inserted
earphones and answered

Me: Lwandiso
Soso: uphi?

Me: I'm driving back to PE. Why?

Him: apparently Mikaela has been crying nonstop since we left last night. My
daughter hasn't slept a wink so I wanted to bring her to you

Me: babies can sense everything that's going on. Bringing her to me won't change
anything.

Him: so, what must I do? Leave her to cry her life away?

Me: is Sedi still there?

Him: I asked her to stay at my parents' house while we sort this out.

Me: oh, so we are sorting thing out?

Him: mxm tell me when you are back and I'll bring Mikaela

Me: shap

I hung up and played music again. The conversation in the car was light and fun. We
were catching up and they were telling me how much they can't wait to see the
princess and my house. I've missed these souls. I dropped them off at the guest
house, a different one from the one I was staying in. I didn't want them knowing my
business especially right now. After dropping them off, I went to the house. The
moment I drove through the gate, I could hear Mikaela screaming her lungs out. I
parked outside the garage and rushed in. Soso had her in his arms, trying to keep
her quiet. He looked surprised when he saw me but I didn't care, I just took my
daughter and tried soothing her.

Soso: I said I'll come to you

Me: so, you were going to drive with a screaming baby in the car?

After 10mins, Kaela started falling asleep. My baby's face was even red from all the
screaming she has been doing. I kissed her forehead then let her sleep
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Lwa

He kept his eyes glued on me without saying a single word and I didn't know what
my next move should be so I just walked past him and headed to the kitchen and
poured myself a glass of juice then sat on the high-rise chairs in the kitchen. He
walked in and sat next to me without saying anything which just made the whole set
up weird and awkward

Me: do you have something to say?

Soso: Lwandile why are you here?

Me: because my daughter needed me. I'm honestly not here for you. I'm going to
leave soon

Him: OK good.

He took a sip of my juice then got up and headed for the lounge. I took out my phone
and texted my friends in the whatsapp group. We agreed to meet up for breakfast
the next day. As much as I wanted to keep them out of my business, I needed my
friends to help me get through this. Soso and I are like strangers now yet I'm
expected to continue with the wedding preps whereas he doesn't even want to marry
me anymore. After 20mins, I finished my juice, rinsed my glass and placed it on the
sink then walked into the lounge. Soso was now watching a movie while Mikaela
slept on her sleeper on the couch

Me: Lwandiso where are my sons?

Soso: at my parents' house

Me: you split our family apart and yet you expect Yandisa to remain calm

He turned to face me with his arched eyebrows then clicked his tongue and
continued watching the movie

Me: ngikhuluma nawe nje Soso

Him: andizomamela ububhanxa mna Lwandile. Ndim ngoku osplit(e) ifamily?

Me: well you are that one that kicked me out of our home, cheated on me and then
sent the kids to your parents. Why didn't you send Mikaela as well? Did you want to
get rid of everyone that wasn't your blood

Yho it was like I had poked him in the eye with those words. He got up furious and
walked towards me and I walked back until my back hit the wall. He was furious,
chewing the inside of his mouth and clinching his jaws

Him: uthini Lwandile?

I didn't respond. If he hits me then so be it but I'm not going to take back what I said.
It makes no sense to send the twins away and keep Mikaela, who needs to be
around older people more than the twins. I knew he sent them away because they
are Atha's kids.

Him: you really want to see me pissed off neh? You are pushing my buttons because
you want to get a reaction from me. I will not hesitate to fuck you up Lwandile, ask
your boyfriend how good I am at fucking people up

Me: do it. If it will make you feel better then ngishaye. If it will make you listen to me
and forgive me then its fine Soso. Fuck me up.

Our voices were now raised which resulted in Mikaela waking up and crying her
lungs out

Us: You see what you did

Us: me? It was you

Then we paused for a second and looked at each other before laughing. I guess the
simultaneous talking got us laughing

Us: lol I'll get her

Soso: don't worry, I'll get her. You need to get going before it gets late. I don't like
you driving in the night

My smile soon turned into a frown. For a moment there I actually thought... Mxm
what did I even think vele? Soso wouldn't forgive me that easily. I took my bag and
car keys then moved closer to him so I could give my daughter her goodnight kiss. I
kissed her tiny lips and her forehead before planting a kiss on her father's cheek
Me: I'll see you around Soso

Him: alright. I'll bring the boys to see you ngomso

Me: thank you. Goodnight

He flashed me a smile as I walked towards the door. I drove out the gate with a
heavy heart. I wanted to cry but at the same time I wanted to hold it together. I drove
to McDonald's, bought food then drove to guest house. I ate before getting in bed
with my phone. I checked social media then played games until I fell asleep. I was
soon woken up by my vibrating phone from under the pillow. I took it out and
answered without checking the caller ID

Me: hmmmm

Soso: ulele?

I checked the time and it was 1:30am so he definitely knew I was asleep

Me: what do you want Soso?

Him: uhambe kakuhle?

Me: yeah. I'm sure you knew that when I answered the phone

Him: suba rude kalok Lwa. Ndiyakucheckisha tchin

I sat up because now my sleep was gone. I rubbed my eyes then switched the
bedside lamp on

Me: what's going on?

Him: I can't fall asleep. I'm not used to sleeping alone so ngoku ndisengxakini

Me: oh askies

Him: can I come over? I really need to sleep

I sighed loudly. First, he asks for space, kicks me out of his house twice then now he
wants to sleep next to me

Me: yeah, its fine

Him: OK please open the door because I'm outside.

He hung up before I got a chance to respond. I put on my silk gown then went to
open the front door and there he was, wearing his gorgeous smile but I wasn't going
to smile back. I moved out the way as he walked in then ngakhiya umnyango and
followed him into the bedroom

Him: uxolo MaHadebe ngokukvusa.

Me: mmm

I took the gown off and got in the bed, he took his clothes off and remained in his
briefs then joined me in bed. I had my back to him and he was laying on his back
facing up. As I slowly drifted off to sleep, I heard him call my name

Me: mmmm

Him: yizapha

I ignored him because I wanted to sleep not cuddle

Him: MaHadebe yizapha kalok

I slowly turned around and he snaked his arm around my waist and brought me
closer to him. I put my head on his chest and he kept his arm around me. He kissed
my forehead while rubbing my back

Him: you hurt me Lwandile. You hurt me really badly

Yho hayike was Lwandiso being serious right now? Its almost 2am and he wants to
have this conversation. I wasn't going to say anything, I'm going to let him talk and
then sleep

Him: you forgot about me the moment Atha came back into your life. You made me
feel like all I'll ever be to you is a place holder for Atha. That given the chance, you
would go back to him in a split second. I understand that you guys were friends for a
long time and you dated for a while as well and maybe you haven't completely gotten
over him. I've done everything in my power to show you that I love you but that's not
enough for you. I don't want to marry you while you are still so confused.

Me: I'm not confused. Its you that I want. I swear to you, its you that I love
Him: and Atha? You can't deny that usamthanda. Don't lie to yourself because you
want to please me. It won't help either of us. Just be honest with yourself and be
honest with me.

How could he think that I still love Atha? Since when does feeling sorry for someone
lead to a person falling in love with them? This is crazy. I don't love Atha, I love
Soso. I just felt sorry for him. That's all there is to it. I just wish people could stop
saying I love Atha when I don't. Its starting to annoy me

Me: I don't love him. I really don't love him

Him: I hope you are being honest with yourself because if along the line, it comes out
that you lied to me, I'll never forgive you. I can't go through this again. You turned me
into someone I'm not, I told you I'd never cheat on you and I was keeping that
promise until last night. I hate hurting you Lwa and I hate seeing you cry

Oh, so he really did cheat on me. I tried getting up but he held me tighter. I wanted to
look him in the eyes and find who it was that he fucked while I laid in bed crying my
eyes out and worried sick about him.

Me: who is she?

Him: Lwa it doesn't matter now. I still want space, we both have a lot of stuff to figure
out.

Me: and the kids? They are my biggest worry

Him: I'll take them to my parents' house. Mikaela and MaRose as well and the
reason I didn't take her there in the first place is because she was crying nonstop
and mom said its because she needed her mother. It doesn't mean I love the boys
any less

Me: oh

Him: yeah. Masilale MaHadebe

Me: great idea

He kissed my forehead and I slowly drifted off to sleep. It felt weird at first but I was
too tired to analyze the situation. He must have turned around in the middle of the
night because when I woke up in the morning, he had his arms around me and
holding me tightly. I was now on my side. His scent was all over the room and it
brought a smile to my face. Can this part of our relationship come to an end so we
can get back to loving each other the way we are meant to? I tried getting out of the
bed and he held me tighter then kissed my neck.

I turned around and he was still fast asleep. Soso's reflexes are on some other level
but luckily his alarm went off and he stretched to switched it off before getting up.

Soso: morning

Me: uhm hey

He went to the bathroom to wash his face then came out and started getting dressed

Me: are you leaving?

Him: yeah. I need to go back to the house to shower and get dressed

Me: oh OK

He got fully dressed then got on the bed, I was under the covers and he was on top
of them. He kissed my forehead then looked at me, I smiled and looked away

Him: kutheni ublusha ekseni fondin? Uright

I burst into laughter as my cheeks turned pink. I covered my mouth with my hand
and continued laughing

Him: lol awusemhle MaHadebe. Ndiyahamba ngoku neh but ndizawubuya xa

ndiphuma emsebenzini. Ndizoza noLoyiso noQhawe

Me: lol OK.

He kissed the tip of my nose and I blushed again. What was happening here? What's
wrong with my face right now?

Him: lol I'll see you later. Ndikhuphe kalok

I got up, put my gown on and wore my slippers then walked him to the main door. It
was still early so it was dark and cold. I clutched my gown close to my chest to feel
warmer.

Me: OK this is goodbye. Kuyabanda la

Him: yiza ndiphuze before I go

Me: huh? I thought we are broken up

He pulled me closer to him then hugged me. I swear Soso gives the world's best
hugs. He pulled out from the hug then pecked my lips

Him: lol stop blushing tchin. Go back inside before you catch a cold

I waved goodbye then walked back into the house and got in bed. I tried sleeping
again but I couldn't, the bed suddenly felt bigger, colder and emptier. I cuddled the
pillow he was sleeping on which still had his scent. He isn't perfect, he messed up, I
messed up as well but we love each other.
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Soso

I drove all the way to the house with a bit of a smile andaz noba kutheni because
mna ndisasifuna ispace, ingxaki yam ukuba Lwa is my life. There are certain things I
can't do without her and last night showed me how true that is. Anyway, I parked
outside the garage, unlocked the front door then made my way upstairs. I took a
shower, moisturized my body then wore my boxers and vest and made my way to
the laundry room. MaRose walked in dressed in a gown and holding a pan and
dishing up spoon. I laughed like crazy when I saw her

MaRose: yho bhuti undothusile. Bendicinga ukuna kungeni isela

Me: lol ubuzombetha ngespoon ma?

She looked at the things she was holding and started laughing as well. She looked
funny nyan, like those people from the movies abangakwaz ukubetha abantu

Me: you can go back to bed ma. Akukhonto

Her: zisa apha ndikuncede

Me: usure?

Her: ewe. Go eat

I smiled before walking out the laundry room and into the kitchen. I poured myself a
bowl of cereal and sat on the counter. It was 7am and I was really early but I guess
its better to be early than late. Just as I was rinsing my bowl, my phone rang. I
checked the caller ID and it was Ziya. I declined the call but she kept calling.

MaRose: nansi ishirt yakho.

She handed me my shirt and my chinos the I kissed her cheek

Me: enkosi ma. Undincendile

She smiled before walking towards the nursery and I walked upstairs to get dressed.
By the time I was done, it was 7:30am but I decided to head to the office anyway. I
walked into the nursery and the screaming princess was fast asleep. She looked so
beautiful and so much like her mother. I kissed her little face then I snapped a few
pictures of her then I left. I played la album ka Emtee and jammed to Roll Up as I
drove to the office. I was the first person there so I settled in my office and admired
my gorgeous princess then I forwarded the pictures to her mom who called me back
almost immediately

Me: morning beautiful

I could sense her blushing on the other side of the line as she let out a chuckle

Lwa: lol what's going on with you today? You so different from how you were
yesterday

Me: lol ndihappy mahn Lwa, ndiyeke. Uyambona ubhabha wethu ukuba mhle nyan

Her: ngimkhumbule yaz. She looks so peaceful in her sleep

Me: yeah and not screaming for once. Anyway, what are you doing today?

Her: breakfast with the girls then I'm seeing my boys later today

Me: so, no lunch plans?

Her: nah not yet

Me: jonga please meet me for lunch. I want to put everything to bed. I just want us to
talk without screaming and shouting at each other

Her: alright. I'm OK with that

Me: enkosi MaHadebe. Ubenemini emnandi mntana. Wonwabe ne

Her: lol enjoy your day too Lwandiso

I hung up and started on my work. The rest of the stuff started walking in a few
minutes later.

Lwa

After my call with Soso, put my phone in the charger and got out of bed. I took a
shower then wore light blue cropped high rise jeans, a peach long sleeved hooded
top and white roshe Nike sneakers. I applied my make up and pink lipstick then
called Lolz

Lolz: I hope you are on your way

Me: lol are you guys even ready yet?

Her: well I am but of course Noma isn't

Me: lol OK I'll fetch Palesa and Lesedi first then come get you guys

Her: great idea. See you now now love

Me: mcwa mcwa boo

I hung up grabbed my bag with all my essentials, locked up and drove to the Smith
residence. Sadly, I knew my boys will be in school so I won't see them. I parked at
the gate then called Mrs Smith to open for me and I walked in. When I got to the
door, I took a deep breath, put a smile on my face then walked in.

Me: good morning family

S's mom: morning sweetie. You look good

We shared a hug then I dropped myself on the couch, since my friends weren't done
yet

Me: how are the boys? I hope they are not troublesome

Her: they are sweet little angels but they miss their mother. They ask for you every
few hours. Especially Loyiso

Me: lol he has always been a mama's boy shame but I do miss them. Soso promised
to bring them later today

Her: oh, so you guys are talking?

Me: yes, I guess we are but obviously we still have a long way to go

Her: marriage isn't a sprint dear, its a marathon. Take your time baby

Just then my friends came downstairs looking lavishing. We shared hugs then said
our goodbyes to Mrs Smith

Sedi: babe what's going on with you and your bae?

Me: nothing why?

Her: uhm you left and your daughter cried all night then he came back alone the next
day and asked me to stay at your parents' house

Me: he came back alone because I had to fetch Nomz and Lolz. Soso and I are fine

Pali: well Mike tells me th-

Me: guys can we not spend our morning analyzing my relationship. Kea le kopa tu

Them: fine

The rest of the drive to the guest house was a quiet one. I called Nomz as we were
approaching the guest house and they were ready. When I arrived, they were
already standing outside. They got in the car and I drove to town

Lolz: Pali and Sedi. Its good to see you guys again

Pali: it's been a while

Sedi: I hope I find a man while I'm this side. This single life is tough on me guys

Lolz: isn't Jason still single?

I choked on my saliva when I heard that name. I haven't heard it in a while yaz and I
was caught by surprise

Nomz: are you OK?

Me: hmmm just had a tickle in my throat. So where are we having breakfast?

Them: spur

Me: lol OK choir.

We kept the conversation light until we got to spur. The waitress took our orders and
then the interrogation began

Nomz: I want to see Kaela after this breakfast

Lolz: why didn't you bring her?

Me: aibo guys its too cold.

Well that was a blatant lie because it wasn't that cold but I'd have to get Soso's
permission for such things right now because uhlala naye okwamanje

Sedi: well in that case, we can go to your house after breakfast and see her

Me: uhm I'll check with Soso first

Nomz: kanti isn't that your house as well?

Pali: I guess its a matter of the head of the household has to approve first

Sedi: death by head of the household

We all burst into laughter as the waitress brought our food. It felt good to be
surrounded by my friends. It brought back the days of varsity and high school. I felt a
sense of belonging since I've been sort of an island this year, just being on my own
but now I have my besties

Lolz: call Soso girl. We want to see Mikaela kalok or ndizomfounela ngokwami

Me: call down.

I took my phone out and dialed Soso's number and put the phone against my ear

Nomz: loudspeaker chomam

Lolz: Ai tchin Nomalanga

Me: mtshele Lolz

Soso picked up on the second ring and I smiled at the sound of his voice. Yho I feel
like a teenager experiencing her first crush.

Soso: mama kaYandisa

Me: tata wabo

Him: miss me already?

Me: lol you wish. The girls want to see Mikaela, do you mind if we go to the house for
a few hours? I promise we won't stay lo-

Him: relax Lwa. That's your house as much as it is mine. I don't mind having your
friends there.
Me: alright thanks

Him: no need to thank me. We are still on for lunch, right?

Me: yeah, we are

Him: OK MaHadebe ndizakubona ngoko

We hung up and my attention turned to the girls

Nomz: and? Utheni?

Me: we will go to her after breakfast. I just hope she is awake

Pali: well I have to go work after breakfast so you guys have fun

Lolz: kanene uyaphangela wena Pali

Nomz: nami ngiyasebenza nje

Sedi: even me

Lolz: OK guys I get it, I'm the only unemployed one here

Me: lol uyaphapha nje

Lolz: we better get wine sometime today. I've been sober for too long.

We all laughed and continued eating. After breakfast, I dropped Pali off at the office
then drove to the house. When we got there, MaRose was still cleaning so we chilled
outside and Yandisa was still sleeping so it worked out

Nomz: mngani uyashada nje ngempela in two weeks.

I smiled because that is still in Soso's hands. He still hasn't said he wants me, all I've
been hearing is how much he doesn't want to marry me but I'm still keeping hope
alive.

Sedi: we have to throw you a kitchen party since we didn't throw you a baby shower
for the princess

Lolz: with strippers I hope

Sedi: lol o rata bashemane Lolz

Nomz: I wonder what Laa would say about that

Me: askies? Did you say Laa as in Landile? The one and only Landile

Nomz: yep girl. The one and only. Your Laa

Lolz: tchin Noma he isn't her Laa

Me: you guys are dating?

Nomz: I told you ukuthi you are going to mind

Me: aibo I don't mind. I'm just shocked. I'm happy for you Lolz

Nomz: I just hope she doesn't turn out to be Aviwe 2.0. Ngiyamaz uLandile mina, he
will always love you Lwa.

Lolz: seriously Nomz? Mxm uyadika rhaa

She stormed into the house and I just gave Noma the "what the fuck" look and she
just shrugged her shoulders. Then MaRose came out to us to tell us that she is done
and Yandi is up so she is going to bath her. We walked into the house and sat in the
lounge

Sedi: Vuzu please

Me: of course, babe. I'm going to check on Lolz

I handed her the remote then went to knock on the bathroom door. I knocked a few
times before she opened for me. I walked in, sat on the edge of the bathtub while
she sat on the toilet seat. She had been crying and I don't know why because her
and Nomz are always going at each other, she should be used to it by now

Me: are you OK?

She nodded while wiping her face

Me: you sure?

Lolz: ewe. I didn't want you to find out the way you did. Bendizokuxelela ngokwam.

Me: it fine mahn. Its not like Laa and I were ever a thing but please don't take
Noma's words lightly. Uyaz ukuthi kwenzekani kuAviwe and then she started hating
me. I don't want you to hate me
Her: seriously Lwa? Did you ever stop for a second to think that Laa got over you?
Gosh you are so full of yourself.

She got up and left me in the bathroom. Yho haike ngizamile so if this blows up in
her face then angizingeni. I got out the bathroom to join the others in the lounge.
There was clear tension between Lolz and I and I wasn't going to speak up shame.
I've said all I wanted to say about lento yakhe noLaa.
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Lwa

My friends couldn't help but fall in love with Mikaela, its just how my baby is shame.
They took pictures and videos of her and she behaved throughout the whole time

Nomz: I think I want a baby now guys. Yandisa is beyond adorable

Me: have one chomi. Babies are a blessing

I said this while kissing my daughter's forehead. She was busy with her teether and
paying no attention to me

Sedi: are you still going to have more kids? Or are you done now?

Me: maybe one more. Hopefully another girl then I'll be done but that will be in
5years or so. Definitely not now

Lolz got up to take Kaela and I gave her to her. She was still sending a bad vibe
towards me and honestly, I didn't care. I was over her little tantrum earlier. Around 12
my phone rang and it was Soso so I went to take the call in the kitchen

Me: hello

Soso: hey did I catch you at a bad time?

Me: nah not at all. What's up?

Him: ohk uhm let's meet at Panarotti's in 20mins

Me: OK I'll be there

Him: you sure you are OK? You sound offish

Me: Lwandiso I'm fine

Him: alright

I hung up, rushed upstairs to freshen up and decided to change my shoes. I wore
nude heels instead but now the shoes didn't match the top so I change into a black
and white long-sleeved crop top and a black long cardigan. I checked myself in the
mirror and I was good to go. I made my way downstairs and all the heads turned
Sedi: where are we going?

Me: I am meeting my husband to be for lunch

Nomz: gosh you guys are too adorable for words.

Lolz: its what people in relationships do all the time, its not that cute

I raised my eyebrows at her and she didn't bother looking my way so I ignored her. I
grabbed my phone and my car keys then kissed my daughter and headed for the
door

Me: guys please behave.

Sedi: bring wine babe

Me: alright I will

I blew them air kisses then walked out. I got in my car and drove to town. Soso was
already there because I saw his car in the parking lot which means I'm late. I
checked myself again on the mirror in the car, took in a deep breath then got out.
The walk towards Panarotti's felt so long, my heart was in my throat and I started
getting nervous. When I saw him sitting at the table, I walked towards him, flashed
him a smile then sat down

Me: sorry I'm late

Soso: its OK. I haven't been waiting long. You look beautiful by the way

I smiled while lowering my head. My cheeks were turning pink all over again.

Him: lol you look like a teenager

Me: lol uyaphapha

We ordered pasta and drinks then after the waiter left us, he took my hands into his
hands and looked at me, I looked away

Him: ndicela undijonge Lwandile

I slowly lifted my head and looked at him. Those gorgeous golden-brown eyes
captured my soul and I immediately got lost in them. It made it worse when he
smiled, his perfectly white teeth got my heart racing
Him: ndicela uxolo for not acting like a man when I should have. Two wrongs don't
make a right, they create more problems that could have been easily avoided.

I knew he was talking about whoever he fucked that night, the person he is hiding
from me for whatever reason.

Me: can I ask you something?

Him: anything

Me: remember the time Njalo came to your parents' house and you comforted her
because she was in a bad space or something?

He sighed loudly before nodding his head and breaking the eye contact we had.
Maybe he knew where I was going with this but I was going to continue anyway

Me: imagine if I went on a rampage and fucked a random person after that, would
you have forgiven me?

He removed his hand from mine then used both his hands to secure his head while
he looked at me without responding

Me: would you have forgiven me Lwandiso?

Him: most probably not

Me: so why expect me to forgive something you wouldn't forgive? It has become a
habit with you, when we fight or have problems, you leave me at home to find
comfort between the legs of another woman

Him: that's not true. I find comfort between your legs but it was you that told me that
you are not my punching bag andithi?

Me: so now its my fault that you cheated on me? Seriously Soso?

I clapped once before leaning back and folding my arms across my chest. Now I've
heard it all

Him: jonga Lwa when I'm pissed off, I want to take out my frustrations just like every
normal person so either I punch something or someone or I fuck someone. Its just
the way I am and all along its been you that I've been fucking but you said I'm
disrespecting you by doing it. I wasn't going to hit you so I left. I have issues fondin
but I hate cheating because I wouldn't want to be cheated on

The waiter brought our food and I dug in almost immediately but Soso didn't eat.
Instead he just looked at me like he was anticipating an answer from me

Me: what?

Him: are you not going to say anything?

Me: who was it? Who did you fuck?

Him: why does it matter?

Me: I want to know. Angithi we are putting this issue to bed so ngifuna ukwazi

He sighed loudly for the second time in less then an hour then bowed his head in
shame

Him: it was Ziya

My eyes immediately shot wide open. Now I see why he didn't want to tell me who it
was. I love Lwandiso but honestly sometimes he can be a real idiot

Me: oh, wow I hope you used a condom especially considering Ziya's history with
sugar daddies

He took a gulp of his juice then his eyes wandered the room.

Me: Lwandiso you did use a condom, right?

Him: I pulled out

Me: what the fuck? Yho ungehlule Lwandiso. Ai udom ngempela. What if she gave
you a disease? What if you made her pregnant? You really are on a mission to
destroy us yaz

Him: I pulled out andithi ndiyakuxelela. I didn't have condoms on me, its not like I
was planning on cheating that night

Me: hmmm
I continued eating my pasta without paying any attention to him. I didn't have any
tears left in me and what would crying change? I'm in love with a selfish bastard that
only thinks with his penis when he is angry.

Him: look I'll take an HIV test if it will make you feel better and I got those emergency
ARVs phezolo. I'm clean baby. I promise

Me: for your sake I really hope you are because I will leave you. You and Ziya will
sail off into the sunset together because I will not settle for the mess you have
started

Him: lol yes ma'am. I love you baby and I really am sorry.

Me: I know and I know

Him: you can come home now

Me: nah. Ngizobuya Monday

Him: haw baby I thought we were good now

Me: we are good. I just need time that's all

Him: oh

We had the rest of our lunch in an awkward silence. When we were done he settled
the bill and we walked out towards our cars. I unlocked my car and he held my arm
and pulled me towards him then held me tightly before kissing my head. He let out a
sniff and I knew he was crying. One thing about my man is that he hardly gets
emotional. It takes a lot for him to shed a tear

Him: I'm sorry Lwa. I really am sorry. Tell me what I have to do to make this right and
I'll do it. Please

Me: take the day off. Let's go back to the guest house and just spend some alone
time together

Him: what about your friends? You can't desert them like that.

Me: Lwandiso we need this. I can't forgive you overnight but I do love you and I don't
see myself with anyone apart from you so can we just take this one day at a time. My
friends will have to understand. I'll just reschedule with Talent
Him: or you could tell him to go to the house.

He kissed my forehead and I look up to meet his gaze. His eyes were watery but he
smiled through it.

Him: enkosi baby.

Me: I didn't say I forgive you. I'm just taking it one day at a time

Him: OK but usandithanda andithi?

Me: asambe Soso.

I got in my car and he got in his then he followed me to the guest house. I called
Talent and he agreed to go to the house for Nomz and Lolz fittings and I'll have to do
mine on Monday since today was already Friday. Anyway, he parked next to me and
we walked in together. I sat on the bed and he sat next to me

Me: my friends are going to be so mad at me

Him: ndikuxelele kodwa baby

Me: they will be fine

Him: OK so where to from here?

Me: I'll come home on Monday. In the mean time, we are burying everything after the
HIV results come back

He gave me that "are you serious" look and I was dead serious. I'm not putting my
life in danger because of his stupidity.

Him: ndiyakukhumbula kalok baby.

Me: HIV results first then we can have that conversation

Him: lol but are we good though? Right now?

Me: you've asked that question 20 times already in different ways and my answer is
still the same. One day at a time.

He leaned in for a kiss and I met him halfway. How I've been longing for these lips
though and the moment our lips touched my heart started racing again and I pulled
out of the kiss. We laid on the bed cuddling and talking nonsense which included a
lot of laughs here and there. He tickled me a lot and I was laughing like a little girl

Him: I've missed this. I never want this to end mamazi. I want to be this happy with
you all the time so please marry me. I promise I'll be the man that you want

Me: let's not talk about serious things okwamanje please. Let's just enjoy the
moment

He started getting a worried look on his face and I knew exactly what it meant. So, I
put him out of his misery

Me: Lwandiso

Him: Lwandile

Me: ngisakuthanda. A lot. But you need to start appreciating my love for you. I'm not
always going to be around so if I start feeling unappreciated, I will take my kids and
go home. We have a good thing going and we love each other. That's all that
matters. Yes, trust has been broken but if we work on it, we can rebuild it and be
good all the time. I'll come home on Monday and we will take it from there. OK?

He smiled then nodded and pecked my lips. I rested on his chest with his arms
around me. I wanted this moment to last forever but sadly it couldn't because at
some point he had to fetch my kids and I had to fetch my friends but we made sure
to enjoy it while it lasted.

Him: I love you MaHadebe

Me: I love you too Smith

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Soso

The next two weeks flew by quite quickly. Lwa and I were good again, well I could
tell that she hasn't completely forgiven me but we were not fighting anymore and she
had moved back into the house. The twins turned 3 a week ago and Lwa and I
hosted a party for them which made my boys really happy and of course I got them
lots of presents. Today was the 3rd of September, 2 days before Lwa and I say I do.
I woke up to her trying to sneak in a kiss. I flashed a smile and looked her and she
smiled shyly

Me: I caught you in the act Mrs Smith

Lwa: lol I don't know what you are talking about. I was removing an eye lash from
your eyes. I didn't want it to get in your eye

I pulled her towards me and smashed my lips on to her and we shared a long slow
kiss then I broke it before it got heated

Me: morning beautiful

She smiled again shyly, she honestly looked like a teenager. She was happy and
blushing almost all the time which made me happy. I'm my happiest when she is
happy as well. We stayed in our cuddling position without exchanging any words
between us. Ndaze ndacimela mna, just enjoying the moment but seconds later I felt
Lwa shaking me

Her: hayi baby wake up

Me: andilalanga kalok MaHadebe, ndiyacinga

Her: yeah right. Get up and go take a shower. I'm going downstairs to prepare
breakfast for everyone

Her whole family was here staying with us so it was a bit crowded but the twins loved
it since Alwande was here as well so they had someone to play with. I wanted to let
her go but the raging boner I had couldn't allow me to

Me: yima kalok baby. Its still early and mna ndikukhumbule
Her: how can you miss me when I'm here?

Me: uJunior misses his queen.

We haven't had sex in a month. Ever since I slept with Ziya, she has been denying
me access to her queen even though my test results stated that I was negative. I
pulled her on the bed and got on top of her, making sure that my junior is directly on
her queen then started moving on top of her while planting kisses on her neck

Her: hayi Lwandiso suka kimi. I need to go make breakfast

Me: this will be my breakfast. Ndiyakucela baby, ndizoyifaka kancinci. I just want to
feel the heat

Ndandixoka. If she gave me access, I'm shoving my whole dick into her cervix, its
been way too long

Her: maybe later. Suka

She pushed me off, fixed her gown then looked for her slippers around the room

Me: but baby iwrong lento. Jonga uJunior ustressed njani

She came towards me, planted a kiss on my cheek and walked out the room. I
squirmed around the bed, slamming my fists on the bed in frustration. After a while, I
got in the bathroom, took my clothes off, turned the water on and walked into the
shower booth. My boner wasn't planning on going down. I placed my hand on it and
started rubbing it. Images of my wife popped in my mind as I rubbed my dick harder
and faster until I shot my cum on the glass of the shower booth. After that I was fine
enough to shower then cleaned the shower booth. I can't leave evidence of such in
the bathroom I share with my wife. When I was done showering, I got dressed in
caramel chino shorts and a baby blue v-neck T-shirt and Adidas flip-flops. I sprayed
my cologne, put on my black leather wrist watch and made my way downstairs.
Ndafumana iintwana zami zijonge icartoons with their cousin and little sister. Kaela
could sit on her own now so she was making baby sounds and not focusing on the
TV

Me: molweni

Twins: molo tata

Lwande: molo lume

Kaela: dadadadadada

My princess is always the highlight of my morning. She couldn't speak but she made
these baby noises of hers that sounded a lot like dad. I kissed the older kids then
picked Kaela up and went to the kitchen. MaRose was preparing her porridge.

Me: molo MaRose

MaRose: molo sana lwami. Uright?

Me: ewe ndiright ma, unjani?

Her: ndiphilile

Me: ndizomtyisa ngokwam uYandisa

She smiled before handing me the bowl of baby cereal. I kissed my baby girl's cheek
as I sat down in the dinning area to feed her. I scooped the first spoon and she
opened wide but the moment the porridge touched her tongue, she spat it out,
resulting in my T-shirt being covered in baby food

Me: Mikaela you are making daddy dirty. Eat your food

She looked at me and started giggling, clearly mocking me. The rest of the feeding
didn't get any easier. She clearly doesn't like this porridge but give her yogurt and
custard and she will want to like the bowl. By the time I was done, I had more
porridge on my T-shirt than she had in her stomach

Me: Loyiso

Loy: tata wam

Me: yiza kum

He came running into the dinning area

Him: umdaka tata

Me: I know boy. Yiya kuGogo kaYaya akunike iwaslap kaYaya

The way the twins are so territorial, they call MaRose uGogo kaYaya but my parents
and Lwa's parents are their grandparents but not Yandisa's grandparents. After a
while he came back with the wet cloth which I used to wipe Kaela's face and hands
then I went into the kitchen to put the bowl in the sink. Lwa took one look at me and
started laughing like crazy

Lwa: lol you and your princess are always making a mess

Me: lol she didn't like daddy's T-shirt without the porridge deco. Andithi baby. Andithi
nana kaSoso. Yithi Soso nana.

She giggled and added drool onto my already dirty shirt. Yho this child thixo. I took
her to MaRose and went upstairs to change my T-shirt.

Lwa

I was starting to feel bad for not having sex with Soso, its not like I wasn't horny
because trust me when I say my queen was yearning for his touch and more
especially the touch of his junior but I was going to hold on until our wedding night. I
want to be so hungry for him that night that he feels obliged to make long everlasting
love to me for the whole night. After he disappeared out the kitchen with his
daughter, I finished up making the breakfast then KK came downstairs just in time to
set the table

KK: morning sis

Me: morning little one. Are the parents up?

Him: nah. Not yet. Bhut' Nami and sis Phiwe are up though

Me: OK good. I'll just keep mom and dad's breakfast in the oven. Please set the
table

Him: OK

I gave him the plates and cutlery. Everyone was going to dish up for themselves so I
placed the serving dishes on the table then placed the two jugs of juice as well. Soso
came down with my brothers and Phiwe who was starting to show. She was 4
months pregnant with a baby boy.
Phiwe: you should have woken me up to help you sis

Me: hell no. Firstly you are a guest in my home and secondly you are pregnant

Nami: uyezwa baby. Kuthiwa guest in my home lol

Me: musa ukuphapha Onami

We all sat around the table with the kids and MaRose, Kaela was on her uncle's lap.
She liked Sakhile more than all her other uncles. Anyway, I said grace and we all
dug in. After breakfast, I placed all the dishes in the dishwasher and started it while I
went upstairs to change. I changed into black jeggings, a white loose T-shirt and
black and gold thong sandals. I applied minimum makeup with my watermelon
labello. I was meeting up with the girls for our final fittings with Talent. Soso walked
in as I was checking myself out and he started whistling. He wrapped his arms
around my waist from the back and slowly blew hot air on my neck which
immediately gave me goosebumps

Soso: you look gorgeous baby

Me: lol thank you my love. What are you doing today?

Him: fittings, checking on the catering and cake tasting then later I'm meeting up with
the pastor

Me: such a busy day. I'll see you at the cake tasting ke muntu wam

I grabbed my bag, phone and car keys then headed for the door

Him: so awuzondiphuza ngoku?

I smiled faintly which led to a mini blush session. God, I love this man though. He
gives me the most amazing butterflies in the world. I walked back to him, wrapped
my arms around his neck and his hands immediately went for my butt, giving it a
gentle squeeze while my lips made contact with his. He slowly parted his warm lips
and we shared a short kiss which I broke then pecked his lips. He smiled which
made me smile then I walked away but not before he playfully spanked my ass. I
walked out the room smiling from ear to ear and bumped into my parents

Mom: you are glowingly beautiful

Dad: abantu abamithi abaglowayo

Me: lol and happy people dad.

I kissed both their cheeks then we walked downstairs together. I took their food out
the oven and served them then took Mikaela, the twins and Alwande followed behind
me

Phiwe: ndiyashiyeka mna?

Me: lol asambe babe. The more the merrier

Soso: in your polo?

Me: eish ngcela ungboleka eyakho imoto baby

Dad: take my car princess. uLwandiso naye uzobe ehamba nabantu

Me: thanks dad

I rushed over to the dinning table, where he was still having his breakfast, and kissed
his cheek then took the car keys and left mine. My dad's car is a Renault Koleos so
the kids fit perfectly in the backseat. I connected my phone to the car via Bluetooth
then played music

Phiwe: so how are the nerves?

Me: they haven't kicked in yet yaz. I think its because of all the drama we had to go
through to get here.

Her: lol there is always drama. Men are full of drama phof they can't keep it in their
pants

Lwande: keep what mommy?

Me: lol I'm looking forward to the answer you are going to give her

Phiwe: haayi Alwande ncokola noLoyiso apho

Lwande: but mom

Phiwe: ndizakbetha

Lwande: I'm going to tell dad

Me: your daughter is such a daddy's girl

I wanted to say spoilt brat but considering the way Loyiso sometimes behaves, I'm
not one to point fingers. When we got to the boutique, all my girls were there so we
shared hugs then Palesa picked Loyiso up, Sedi took Mikaela and Nomz took
Qhawe while Lolz took Alwande's hand and we walked in. We did the fittings ke and I
got to try my dress on for the second time and I still can't get over how gorgeous it is.
It had a lace finish at the top until the boob area and it was a mermaid dress with
little bling. It was simple, beautiful and elegant.

Loy: muhle mama

Me: ncoah thank you my boy.

Sedi helped Mikaela into her dress, it was similar to mine.

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Soso

When we arrived at my designer's place, the excitement was in the air amongst my
guys. It was myself, my dad, Mike, Ntando, Marcus, Luke and my cousin Brandon.
Mike is my best man and the rest are groomsmen except for my dad of course. We
did our fittings, took tons of pics. My suit was a 3-piece silver grey suit with a
turquoise double-breasted waistcoat and turquoise pocket squares. The groomsmen
were in black pants and silver-grey single-breasted waistcoats whereas Mike's suit
was similar to mine, only difference is that he didn't have a waistcoat. After the
fittings were done, we went to spur for an early lunch and bonding session. We got
there, the waiter led us to our table then took our drinks orders, we all ordered
alcohol and it wasnt even 12pm yet but I wasn't going to say anything.

Dad: so, who is planning the bachelor party?

Me: lol why taima? You want to come?

Dad: lol you want your mom to kill me?

Mike: Ntando and I are handling it. You are going to have the time of your life Soso
bruh

Me: wena noNtando? Now I know for sure that it will be crazy

Ntando: come Saturday morning, you are not even going to want to get married.

Me: lol never bruh. I love my wife like crazy ntwana

My phone rang and it was Lwa, I laughed to myself since I was just talking about her

Me: speak of the angel. Excuse me guys

Marc: it’s speak of the devil wena

Me: dude you've met Lwa, there is nothing devilish ngalomntana

I got out the booth and headed for the door, spur was full so it was too loud. By the
time I got outside, the phone had stopped ringing so I had to call back
Lwa: Lwandiso

Me: mkami

Her: lol in 48hrs time

Me: 48hrs and counting

Her: lol what time are we heading to the caterers?

Me: in 2 hrs sthandwa sam. I'm having lunch with the guys right now then we will
head there straight after

Her: please don't be late and don't be drunk

Me: lol andisonxila mna baby. I can control my liquor

Her: that's the scary part. OK I'll see you then

Me: ndixelele kalok

Her: ndikuxelele nton?

She sounded so cute trying to speak Isixhosa with a Zulu accent. It just made me
want to pull her out of the phone and kiss her. Crazy right?!

Me: ndixelele ukuba uyandithanda

Her: lol who said I love you?

Me: lol baby mahn

Her: lol I love you Soso

Me: uthandwa ndim my love

We made kissing sounds then we hung up. I stared at my wallpaper which is a

picture of us and just smiled to myself for a few seconds before heading into the
restaurant.

Luke: you took forever, did she change her mind about marrying you?

Me: fondin have you seen me? Show me a woman that wouldn't want to marry me.
Ndimhle bruh, uyandibona nawe

Luke: tsek andiboninto apha. Andisostabane mna

We all broke into laughter as we sipped on our alcohol. By the time our food arrived,
we were on our third round of drinks and talking nonsense with my boys. When I saw
that some of them were getting tipsy, I settled the bill and we left. The last thing I
need today is Lwa fighting with me because my friends are drunk. We drove in a
convoy to the caterers, bumping Nasty C all the way there. When we arrived, the
girls, parents and Lwa's family were there and Jason was also there. I tried not to get
pissed off but my anger was winning this battle, especially because I wasn't sober. I
parked outside the venue but I didn't get out the car. Instead I texted my mom and
asked her to come to my car. As I waited, my dad knocked on my window, I rolled
the window down but didn't look at him

Dad: are you ok?

Me: ewe tata. Ndimele umama

Him: alright kwedin

I rolled the window up again and ndanqenqa and waited for my mom while trying
very hard to calm down. The more I looked at Jason's car, the more my anger levels
rose. I clinched my jaws and chewed the insides of my cheeks. After what felt like
forever, the passenger door opened and mom got in

Mom: is everything ok?

Me: mama kutheni uJason elapha?

My question came out as a stern whisper. I wasnt going to raise my voice to the
woman that raised me, never in a million years and no matter how angry I am, I still
showed her the utmost level of respect.

Mom: he said he wants to fix things between you guys before Saturday. He doesn't
want to miss his brother’s wedding. You don't have to forgive him Lwandiso but the
least you can do is hear him out

I let out a heavy sigh then massaged the temples of my head. I'm clearly being
tested apha. I nodded then we both got out the car. When we got inside, they were
already serving the food so I planted a kiss on my lovely wife-to-be then took Qhawe
and sat down with him sitting on my lap. We made small talk nentwana yam while we
ate. Everyone engaged in a convo with each other and I wasn't going to entertain it.
Jason was 3 seats away from me and a seat away from Lwa. He would have small
talk with her every now and then and it really pissed me off. After dessert, we were
served the cakes. Our wedding cake has 5 different flavors for each tier. The
parents' cakes are fruit cakes and so is the cake we are supposed to keep for
Kaela's first birthday.

L's dad: nizowathini amakhekhe angaka?

Lwa: they will be served to the guests and some we will eat later, after the
honeymoon or something

Lolz: where is the honeymoon?

Me: Miami

Nomz: please put me in your suitcase guys. Please. I love Miami

Everyone broke into laughter except me. I couldn't wait to get out of here

Jay: Soso can we talk

I looked up at him and laughed sarcastically. He can't be serious

Mom: Lwandiso. Please

I sighed then gave Qhawe to her and got up, walked towards the door with Jason
following right behind me. I leaned against my car with my hands in my pockets

Jay: 2 more days until the big day

Me: that's what you wanted to talk about?

He cleared his throat and took a long pause

Him: uhm no. I wanted to apologize to you bro. I was out of line and I'm sorry

Me: hmmmm

Him: you are my brother and I shouldn't have looked at Lwa in anyway except as a
sister. I'd like to come to your wedding.

Me: so, who was it? Was it mom? Did she tell you to apologize since your behavior
has separated the family? Jonga ngqawa come if you want to, I don't care but know
that I will never forgive you for laying your filthy mouth on my girl. You know she
sucked my dick the morning you kissed her? So how does my cum taste?

I chuckled before leaving him there and walking into the venue. Obviously, Jason
and I will always be brothers but we will never be boys again.

Lwa

Judging by the mood Soso was in when he walked in, it was clear as daylight that he
was not please with Jason being here and when they stepped out to talk outside, I
got up with the intention to go with them. I know my man when he is pissed and last
time these two spoke, Jason ended up unconscious in hospital

S's mom: let them be sweetie, they need to sort this out on their own

Me: but ma you kno-

Her: I trust him not to do anything crazy, you should too.

Mom: ok, what's next on the agenda?

I sighed and dropped myself onto the chair. My eyes refused to leave the door. They
were taking too long to come back in

Mom: ngikhuluma nawe Lwandile

Me: askies mama, what was that?

Her: what do you still have to do?

Me: nothing. That's all for today. The rest is being handled by the wedding planner

Just then Soso walked in with a crooked smile on his face and Jason wasn't behind
him. He sat down and finished the rest of his cake without saying a single word to
anyone. After everything was done, we went our separate ways. Lolz has Landile’s
car for the weekend since he is only coming on Saturday with Enzo and Asemahle.
When I arrived at the house, I went straight upstairs into our bedroom and threw
myself on the bed. I was tired and too full. As I was about to fall asleep, my phone
rang and I answered it without looking at the caller ID
Me: hello

Siv: hey mother of my nephews

I removed my phone from my ear and looked at the caller ID. It was Lulonke, Atha's
cousin. Oh gosh not today.

Me: hey Siviwe, unjani?

Him: ey mfethu, jonga we just entered PE, please give us directions to your house

Me: us? Who is us and why do you want to come to my house?

Him: I'm with Atha, Lu notata kaSmanga.

Me: yho let me call you back

Him: sharp

He hung up and I literally jumped out of bed and ran downstairs. Soso was playing
FIFA with my brothers while my mom was chatting to MaRose in the dinning area
and I couldn't see my dad anywhere.

Me: Lwandiso ngcela ukukubona in our room please

Soso: ok baby. After this game, I'm coming

I took the joystick from Sakhile's hand and paused the game. They all looked at me
and protested but I wasn't in the mood for waiting

Me: it can't wait until you finish the game

He placed the joystick on the couch then followed me into the room

Soso: kutheni na baby wandinxamisa

Me: I just received a call from Atha's cousin

Him: ufuna nton?

I told him everything Siviwe had said and I was expecting Soso to be pissed but he
wasn't. He was too chilled for my liking

Him: give them the directions

Me: are you sure?

Him: yeah. I'll call my dad in the mean time

I did as I was told then went to give my parents the heads up as to what's going on
then asked Sakhile and KK to take the twins out. I don't want them to be here for this
but Soso had a different plan in motion

Soso: babe we can't keep hiding this forever. Maybe they want to see the twins so
sending them away won't help. Let's just see what they want and take it from there

I nodded. I was in panic mode because I know what Soso is capable of and if Atha
mentions what Soso has done to him, my parents will never see him the same again.
Soso saw the panic in my eyes and just wrapped his arms around me then kissed
my forehead

Him: relax babe. Its going to be ok. They won't take our sons away from us. That I'm
sure off

Me: you don't know that family Soso, they might just be coming here to take my kids.

Him: shhh baby, I won't let that happen. No one is taking the twins.

After an hour or so, there was a hoot at the gate and Soso got up to open
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Lwa

My whole body was shaking, I didn't want these people in my home or even near my
kids. My family and Soso's family were seated in the lounge, I was holding Mikaela
and the twins were sitting next to where Soso was seated before he went to open the
gate and door. Within a few minutes, the Dlamini's walked in with Siviwe pushing
Atha's wheelchair. The moment they entered through the doorway, I felt myself
getting sick, running out of breath and shaking like a leaf. They sat down then I got
up with my mom and headed for the kitchen. I made refreshments and snacks.

Mom: sweetie relax before you break all these glasses, these people haven't even
said what they are here for but you are already thinking the worst

I nodded because I knew if I opened my mouth, I would burst into tears. I placed
everything on a tray then took it to the lounge and placed it on the coffee table

Me: sanibonani

Them: molweni ekhaya.

Soso: ndithemba nihambe kakuhle

A's uncle: ewe sihambe kakuhle. Mna ndinguMalume kaAthandwe. NguSiviwe lo and
ndiyethemba niyamaz uAthandwe

Everyone nodded, I had no reaction. I want them to say their piece and leave already

S's dad: how can we help you?

A's uncle: bendithemba ukuba singathetha nomndeni wakwaHadebe qha

Dad: ngokucabanga kwam into esihlanganisayo nabantu bomndeni wakho

ileziyngane uLoyiso noQhawe.

A's uncle: ewe kunjalo

Dad: then kumele babekhona abantu bakwaSmith ngoba yibona abakhulisa

leziyngane
The Dlamini's looked at each other then Atha shook his head.

Atha: these are my children and the reason we are here is because I'm here to fetch
them. Lwa is getting married and she has her own child with Soso now so what's the
point in her holding on to my kids

I blinked away the tears that had formed in my eyes then sat up

Me: don't talk about me like I'm not here. If you want to talk to me, direct your words
to me and not everyone else

Atha: andizothetha nawe izinto zamadoda. Ungumfazi andithi wena?!

Yeses alikho igama engilizonda njengokubizwa ngomfazi. I just find the word
insulting and offensive nje. Rather refer to me as umuntu wesfazane then ukuthi
ungibize ngomfazi. I got up from the couch ngoba Mikaela was getting restless. The
moment I got up, the twins jumped off the couch and ran to me

Atha: Loyiso yizapha kutatakho

Loy: awusiye utatam. Nangu utatam

Ingane yam yakhomba uSoso kwangathi someone just slapped Atha with a brick on
his face. He was at a lost for words and the twins followed me to MaRose's room. I
knocked before she came to the door and opened it with a warm smile on her face
and I returned the smile

Me: Ma please watch them, Yandisa is getting restless and kukhona abantu abadala
ngale

MaRose: alright sisi.

She took the kids then I closed the door and went back to the lounge. Now this little
conference had my undivided attention

Atha: bendisatsho ukuba ndizothatha abantwana bami.

Me: awunabantwana wena la

Soso: my love please calm down

Atha: listen to indoda yakho Lwandile because I'm not leaving here without my kids. I
paid damages for these kids, they belong with me
A's uncle: ewe kunjalo MaHadebe. Nam ndandipha kubhatalwa inhlawulo.
Zinkwenkwe zakwaDlamini ezi

Dad: aningitshela bahlobo ukuthi ukuhlawula kusho ukuthini? Because ngokwazi

kwami inhlawulo ikhokhelwa ukuthi you have damaged our daughter and you are
asking for our forgiveness.

S's dad: ewe nami ndiyaz imele okho

Atha: OK have it your way then. Tell me how much I must pay so I can take my sons
and I will pay it

I felt my anger brewing from the depths of my heart and Soso saw that I was pissed
so he just held my hand and gave it a little squeeze

Soso: khawume kwedini usuke kokwenu wakhwela imoto yakho, bakuqhubela

wayizisa apha ngoba uzothatha abantwana? Abantwana abatheni abo? Uyayaz
nokuba yimalini ipampers okanye iTin yobisi? Phof ke abatyi nabisi oLoyiso abanxibi
pampers but awuyaz lonto wena. Abakwaz labantwana

Soso was now fed up with Atha's bullshit and so was everyone. Angaz nokuthi
uzothini lana ngoba he should be getting ready to die somewhere close to his family

Soso

Andzokwaz ukuvumela lechap izondigezela kwam. Libala mchanam. Ndifuna

ahambe apha endaz ukuba ndingubani. He stared at me while his uncle looked at
him with a confused look on his face. Its like he was unaware of what his nephew
has done to Lwa and these kids

A's uncle: khanimeni zihloba, I'm confused. Kanene ngubani oyingxaki apha?
Athandwe khawuthethe kwedin

Atha didn't respond, he just kept shifting his gaze between me and Lwa.
Embarrassment was written all over his face. I leaned back on the couch and folded
my arms in front of my chest

A's uncle: thetha Athandwe

Atha: ndaxabana noLwa sohlukana

Lwa: ungakhulumi indaba ewuhalf bhuti. Tell your uncle everything. Tell him how you
started taking drugs and told me to raise my children with my boyfriend ngoba they
are no longer your kids. Tell him how I came to you countless times to try and get
you to be in their lives and you refused over and over again. I even called you when
they were in hospital and you didn't give a damn. So, don't you dare walk into the
home I share with my husband and talk nonsense in front of my family. Don't you
dare

Tears were already streaming down her cheeks, they were not tears of pain but
rather tears of rage and anger. He must just thank his lucky stars that Lwa didn't
mention that he kidnapped her and tried to rape her because had she mentioned
that, her dad and her brothers were going to give him his death wish sooner than
later.

Atha: are you going to bring that up every chance you get? I've apologized to you,
I'm sitting on this chair because of the mistakes I made. I've paid for my mistakes
and now I want to have my kids in my life

Me: lol you are funny yaz Athandwe, hilarious in fact. Khange utsho wena ukuba you
want to commit suicide? Ngoku ulapha uzothetha ikaka nomkam. Uyadika fondin.
Mna andisazi kalok ukuba undifuna nton. Ufuna ubomi bam ngoku and ntwana yam
you keep asking for it and mna ndizokunika lanto oyifunayo.

Dad: hayi Soso calm down nyana wam. Kukho abantu abadala apha. Yiba nembeko

I chose to remain silent for the rest of this little meeting and let the elders take over.
I've said my peice.

L's dad: Lwandile noLwandiso ngicela nisishiye kancane. Sonibiza uma sesinidinga

I nodded, took Lwa's hand and headed upstairs naye.

Me: ugrand sthandwa sam?

She nodded. I kissed her forehead as we walked into our bedroom, closing the door
behind us. She wasn't ok. She was trying to stay strong but I know my Lwa and I
know she was faking it.
Me: talk to me. What's on your mind?

Her: I will fight them tooth and nail for my sons. Athandwe is selfish, my sons don't
know him and I don't want them to know him. This whole fiasco is going to confuse
my kids

I pulled her towards me, her head landed on my chest then I kissed the top of her
head and held her tightly

Me: everything is going to be OK. Our families will put those Dlamini people in their
place and they will leave with their tails between their legs.

Her: they paid damages though and my family is traditional so that clearly means
something to them.

Me: how much did their pay?

Her: angsazi but it was a lot of money because when Atha turned his back in us, that
money managed to help us for a few months

Me: can't I just pay them their money back, I take the kids and we change their
surname and move on with our lives?

She exhaled loudly but didn't give me an answer. That's how fed up I am with this
Atha kid, I should have killed him when I had a chance then we wouldn't be in this
mess we are in now. This kid will never let go of Lwa and I know he is doing this on
purpose, trying to mess with her mind 2 days before our wedding. He is indirectly
trying to stop her from marrying me kanti this kid doesn't know what I'm capable of.
He might just not make it home today if this stupid meeting doesn't end in the way
that will please me. I was so lost in my own thoughts that I didn't hear ukuba uLwa
uthetha nam

Lwa: Lwandiso

Me: hmmm

Her: are you even listening to me?

Me: sorry babe. What was that?

Her: the wedding planner just texted me, we have to go check out the area at the
beach we will be using
Me: ngoku?

Her: yep. She is only available now

Me: and then sizawuthini ngalenhlanganiso epha?

She shrugged her shoulders.

Atha

I watched as the woman that owns my heart walked up the stairs with this man that
doesn't deserve her. When I found out that Lwa was getting married the same day I
had scheduled my suicide, I felt like she was celebrating my death and that she was
going to wipe out any memory of me like she said she would when I told her what my
plans for the 5th were so I had to do something. If she marries this guy then it will be
all over, she will be gone forever with my sons, my blood and my heirs. After Soso
and Lwa left the room, all eyes turned on me.

L's dad: I'm not going to allow you to take these kids away from the only parents they
know.

Atha: with all due respect Bab' Hadebe, these are my kids and they need to know
their real father.

L's mom: no one is disputing that but they don't know you and at the age they are at,
they don't need any confusion.

Siv: uxolo bantu abadala but I have an idea

We all turned our attention to loSiviwe who was speaking for the first time since we
got here

Uncle: thetha kwedin

Siv: if Atha is serious about being a father to the twins again, how about he gets
introduced to them as icousin kaSoso or something so that he can visit when he
wants and get to know the kids then when they are old enough to understand, they
will be sat down and told the truth
The elders nodded in agreement but I didn't like this idea. It seems like no one
understands my pain. Its not about the damn kids, its about me and Lwa. I'm the
person she is supposed to end up with not this Chris Brown wannabe cheese boy.

Uncle: that seems fair.

L's mom: it does but Lwa would have to agree to this as well

Me: mxm masambeni

Uncle: kutheni ngoku mhlekazi?

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Atha

Uncle: kutheni ngoku mhlekazi? Lento abakunika yona is better than what you had
when we came here

I shot a death stare at my uncle then let out a sarcastic laugh

Me: better? Okukhonto ebetter apha. I don't want murders to raise my sons. I don't
want my sons to turn out like anyone in that filthy Smith family

Uncle: hayi Athandwe mntanam. Suthetha ngalohlobo.

Me: ngobani malume? Yinyani kalok.

S's dad: ndibona kubetter ukuba nihambe ngoku. Ndyaqonda ukuba unyana
unomsindo but he is crossing the line

L's dad: yho ngigeza izandla ngawe Athandwe. Kazi umntanam wayeboneni kuwe

I wasn't going to disrespect Lwa's father because he is the father of the mother of my
children but as for Soso's family, I don't give a flying fuck about them. My cousin and
my uncle got on their feet, shook hands with the elders

Uncle: enkosi zihlobo ngexesha lenu.

L's dad: sizokhuluma noLwandile about the idea of introducing Atha to the twins then
we will let you know

Uncle: enkosi kakhulu tatuHadebe.

L's dad: ukhule mahn Athandwe, awusesiyo ingane manje.

I faked a smile then nodded before shaking his hand. Siviwe pushed my wheelchair
out the door then helped me get in the car. The gate opened and we drove out with
my uncle hooting before we were out the gate just to say goodbye I guess.

Siv: bruh what is wrong with you? You ruined this whole thing for yourself

Me: I achieved what I wanted to achieve. I have Lwa's attention

Siv: is that all you care about? She is in love with another man, she is marrying
another man and I don't think, actually I know for a fact that you don't stand a chance
with her. Just let her go

Me: let her go? Are you hearing yourself? I love that girl more than life itself. Fuck it,
she is my life and I will fight for her until my last dying breath

My uncle turned to look at me then shook his head and continued driving. I didn't
expect him to understand, I didn't expect either of them to understand because
clearly none of them have ever loved someone the way I love Lwa.

Me: malume I think we should book rooms at a hotel, I want to stay until the 6th

Uncle: the 6th? Ngoba kutheni?

Me: kalok ngfuna ukwazi ukuba uzawthini uLwa about Siviwe's idea.

The look he gave me told me that he doesn't believe me but I didn't care. I had a
plan up my sleeve and its going to be put into action one way or another. My uncle
drove us to the closest hotel we could find, we did all the admin then settled in our
rooms. I was sharing my room with Siviwe for obvious reasons.

Lwa

About 45mins later, we heard the gate open then we looked at each other,
simultaneously shrugged our shoulders but didn't break our little cuddling session. I
was really hoping that it was the Dlamini's that were leaving ngoba to be honest, i
had no more energy left in me to fight with Athandwe. Soso and I decided to go
downstairs just to survey the coast. We found our parents seated in silence in the
lounge. There was so much tension in the air that I was even regretting walking
down the stairs. We sat down then my dad lifted his eyes to look at us

Me: what happened?

Dad: uAthandwe ufuna izingane zakhe

Me: well he isn't going to get them. I'm not changing my mind over that
Dad: yaz he said something interesting just before they left

Me: something interesting? Like what?

Him: he said he doesn't want his sons to be raised by murderers. What did he mean
by that Lwandile?

My heart jumped to my throat and I slowly turned my head to Soso whose eyes and
emotions were unreadable

Dad: ngikhuluma nawe Lwandile

Me: angaz baba.

My voice came out as a whisper because I wasn't even sure of the answer I was
giving and the way I said it was unbelievable. Even I wouldn't believe it if it was said
to me

Dad: I didn't raise you to lie to me. Musa ukungenza islima ngoba ngizokhipha
ibhande mina manje ngikubhambhabule. Uwumfazi le kwaSmith hayi kimi. You are
still my child and I will beat you

I swallowed spit as my eyes got watery. My dad doesn't make empty threats so I
knew ukuthi he meant every word.

Soso: tatuHadebe uAthandwe ubhema iziyobisi, he doesn't know how to differentiate

between fantasy and reality. I'm not a murderer and you know your daughter isnt one
either

Dad: I’m not so sure of what I know or don't know anymore but what I'm sure of is
that uLwandile is lying to me

Me: baba angiqambi wona amanga. Angaz ngempela ukuthi ukhuluma ngan uAtha

My dad just clicked his tongue and got up from the couch then walked up the stairs.
My tears rolled down my cheeks the moment he took the first step. Soso pulled me
closer to him but I got out of his embrace then locked eyes with my mom. The look
she had on her face was new to me; she was hurt, disappointed and ashamed. I
shook my head as a means of showing her that Atha was lying but she didn't buy it.
Instead she just kept this new and unfamiliar look glued on me. I was saved by my
ringing phone. I sniffed, cleared my throat, wiped the tears and answered it
Me: hello

Lauryn: Lwa hey, did you get my text?

Me: text?

Then I remembered the text about meeting her at the beach with Soso

Me: uhm we are on our way now

Her: alright. See you soon

I hung up then turned to Soso who seemed like he was miles away

Me: Lwandiso

He turned his gaze on me and smiled faintly

Soso: baby

Me: that was Lauryn. We have to go to the beach right now

He cleared his throat then got up to take his car keys

Me: siyabuya. There are some wedding things that we still have to sort out

S's mom: alright sweetie but stop by my house when you come back. We are also
going to leave now

Me: OK ma

They said their goodbyes to my mom then we walked out together. The drive to the
beach was a quiet one, I was in my own world and so was Soso. We did all we had
to do there then he drove us to his parent's house. They were seated in the lounge
when we entered but Soso's dad soon got up and Soso followed him while I sat
down next to his mother

S's mom: is everything in order for Saturday?

Me: yebo ma

She nodded while flashing me a comforting smile

Her: I want to tell you a little story

I nodded in approval
Her: when I was 16 I fell in love for the first time with a boy that I knew wasn't good
for me. This boy was from a wealthy family that had a bad reputation and this boy
was a lot older than I was. He was 21 at the time, a real bad boy and the most
wanted boy in our community. When this boy asked me to be his girlfriend, I was a
bit skeptical at first because firstly I knew my parents would be against it and
secondly because of his reputation but my heart had chosen him and there was no
use in me denying it. This guy and I dated for 2 years before I fell pregnant. My
parents kicked me out of their house and disowned me. I was lost, confused,
homeless and pregnant while still in high school. This guy that got me pregnant took
me in, took care of me since he had a lot of money which he never told me where he
got it from. Every time I asked him, he avoided the question. After our son was born,
we got married and only then did he let me in on his gangster lifestyle. I'm not going
to lie to you and say I wasn't scared because I feared for every moment he wasn't by
my side but I stayed with him because I love him

The more she reminisced about her past, she glowed and smiled with happiness
plastered on her face. You could see that she really did love her husband despite the
life he lived but why was she telling me this two days before my wedding?!

Me: that's a beautiful story ma. You and Mr Smith really do love each other

Her: very much so. The reason I'm telling you this is because I want to show you that
being a Smith wife isn't for the faint hearted or the disloyal. In this family we stick
together no matter what happens, we love and protect each other and we never
betray one another. Being a Smith wife requires courage and understanding. What
you did today in front of your parents showed us that Soso didn't make a mistake by
choosing you to be his wife. You are a perfect fit

Perfect fit she says? I know there is nothing perfect in the world. Soso and I have our
problems, we have our fights and issues so we were the furthest thing from perfect
but I understood where she was coming from. We shared a hug which left me feeling
warm and fuzzy. I wonder if I will receive the same kind of hug from my own mother
when I get to the house. I hated that being a Smith wife might cost me the
relationship I have with my parents. After all was said and done, we said our
goodbyes then drive to the house. Ukufika kwethu, we were welcomed by the smell
of lamb stew. My mom was in the kitchen with MaRose while the kids played in front
of the TV. My house didn't feel like a home because of the tension. I joined my
brothers in the lounge where they were watching a movie

Me: y'all have been scarce today

Sakhi: sis, what did you do to the parents?

He was whispering, clearly not wanting mom to hear

Me: nothing why?

Nami: dad wants to leave

Me: leave? Haibo guys I'm getting married in 2 days

Sakhi: lower your voice. He is really pissed. He even said there won't be a wedding.
He wants you to stay away from the Smiths

Me: stay away? Where is he?

Nami: upstairs

I got up from the couch and literally ran up the stairs. I knocked on the door of the
guestroom he was using

Dad: ngena

I took in a deep breath then slowly walked in. I found him on the bed, busy on his
phone

Me: baba

He looked up at me then placed the phone on the table next to the bed. I sat on the
edge of the bed but didn't look at him

Me: baba ngicela ungahambi. Ngiyashada baba and ngiyakudinga

Dad: you are not marrying into a family I don't trust Lwandile

Me: kodwa baba ngiyamthanda uLwandiso and naye uyangthanda. Please baba,
Lwandiso's family is trustworthy

Him: ababulali Lwandile. They killed Atha's cousin and they are the reason why Atha
is on a wheelchair. Just because Lwandiso was jealous of Athandwe
I immediately lifted my head and stared at my father. How could the wisest man I
know be so easily fooled?
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Lwa

I know Atha is a lying, scheming asshole but this was taking it too far. My dad
sounded adamant about me not marrying Lwandiso but I wasn't going to take this
laying down. If Atha wants to fight dirty then him and I are going to war. I got up from
the edge of the bed and went to kneel in front of my father. Tears streamed down my
cheeks as I begged him

Me: baba that's a lie. Lwandiso isn't a petty person. You know him baba, he wouldn't
do that

Dad: and why would Athandwe lie?

Me: baba, are you listening to yourself? Atha is always up to no good, he lies all the
time to get his way

My words came out as a shout and my dad looked at me with his one eyebrow
cocked. I knew right then that I had crossed the line

Him: watch your tone Lwandile, I'm not your friend. Lalela you are not marrying that
boy. Finish and klaar. Pack your things because we are leaving first thing tomorrow
morning.

What was wrong with this man? You can't just decide to uproot my life and expect
me to be OK with it. I have the utmost respect for my parents and I've always
believed that they know what's best for me but this time, my dad has it all twisted

Me: baba you don't even want to hear my side of the story or Lwandiso's for that
matter.

Him: what side of the story could you possibly have that would make me trust you
again? You've embarrassed me Lwandile and caused shame to this family by
bringing a gangster and a murderer into our lives. You know how I feel about izinto
ezibheke eceleni but you went on and defied me. Do you want to end up dead as
well? Is that what you want to achieve?
I was still on my knees in front of my father, with tears covering my face but he felt
no compassion towards me. He just threw his harsh words at me then took his
phone and busied himself with it

Him: sesiqedile lana. Your mother is already packing for the kids so I suggest you go
pack your things as well.

I got up from the floor, wiped my tears with the back of my hand then headed for the
door but stopped before opening it

Me: I'm not leaving with you and if it means you disown me because of choosing the
man I love over the guy that has made my life a living hell then fine. So be it. Atha is
lying and ukwenza islima just to spite Soso but if you choose to believe the man that
almost raped your daughter and almost killed your granddaughter then so be it.

With that I walked out, I didn't even wait for a response. I was done trying to beg my
father to see reason, I was done defending myself because he chooses to believe a
good for nothing asshole instead of his own daughter and I was sure as hell done
with his lectures and harsh words. I walked into my room, locked the door and just
buried my face on my pillow. I cried my heart out, starting with silent sobs which
turned into loud, heart breaking cries. I was crying for everything I've held in since
the last time I cried, I cried for the shit Soso has put me through, I cried for
everything Atha has done to try and destroy me and my relationship and I cried for
how my parents had looked at me after the rubbish Atha had told them. It was all too
much for me and the louder my cries got, I felt knocks on the door. At first it was my
brothers, all three of them but I didn't open. Even if I did, bengizothini kubo? I was
struggling to breath properly, now imagine how difficult talking would be. Next at the
door was Lwandiso and my man didn't give up. He stood at the door for over an
hour, begging me to open the door but the more I heard his voice, the more my tears
ran down my face but at least the loud cries had stopped. After 2hrs, I must have
fallen asleep because when I woke up, it was dark outside. I checked the time, it was
half past 9. How long was I asleep for? I got up, closed the curtains then went into
the bathroom. Ngachama then washed my hands and my face. My eyes were red
and swollen and my face was red ngokwayo. I got out the bathroom with the
intention of going to check on my kids but when I opened the door, I got the shock of
my life when I found Lwandiso sleeping outside my door. I kneeled down, shook him
gently and he opened his eyes. He smiled faintly then sat up and rubbed his eyes

Soso: hey

Me: hi

Him: uright?

I nodded. He pulled out his arm and asked me to help him up. I stood up then pulled
him up and the moment he was on his feet, he pulled me towards him and held me
tightly before placing a kiss on my forehead.

Him: uyaphi?

I cleared my throat then tried to get out of his embrace but he wouldn't let me

Him: you don't need to leave my arms in order to answer me

Me: I was going to get a glass of water then check on my kids

Him: OK I'm coming with you

He held my hand then we walked downstairs, the lights were still on and everyone
was watching TV. No wonder Soso wanted to accompany me

Loy: mama

He jumped up from the floor and ran to me. I picked him up and walked into the
kitchen with him in my arms

Me: awulelengani?

Loy: ndbuka imovie nooLume nokuku

Me: imovie ethini?

I placed him next to his father who was already seated on the counter then warmed
up my food and poured myself a glass of water, mixed it with sugar and downed it

Soso: kutheni usela istruggle juice na baby? Ikhona ijuice

Me: I just need it to calm me down.

Loy: mama ndiyakthanda mna evha. Sukhala kaloku

I sniffed then wiped the tears that had formed in my eyes. My sons get me so
emotional at times. I kissed his forehead then he pouted his lips at me wanting me to
kiss him on his lips. I know Loyiso hates getting kissed so this was a little strange

Soso: uncamisa umama boy? Iyancamisa ngoku indoda?

Loy: umamam akekho kahle. Ndfuna anwabe umamam yikho ndimncamisa

I smiled as I took my food out the microwave

Me: sengiright manje boy. I promise

I kissed him again then Soso put him on the floor and told him to go sit down where
he was while he followed me into the dining room and sat down next to me. I took
one spoon of my food then placed the spoon on the plate and he took a spoonful as
well and ate. I looked at him and creased my eyebrows then he smiled. My man has
a warm and beautiful smile and its contagious ngoba I found myself smiling as well

Me: uyangsukela Soso

Soso: okwam ngokwakho sthandwa sam and vice versa

I smiled again as I continued eating, well we were eating my food together using one
spoon

Him: ndineworry ngawe baby. Andiyithandanga lento yokuba abantwana bethu

bakuve ukhala ngalohlobo. It tore my heart in pieces because I couldn't get to you, I
couldn't hold you and it felt like I was failing you and our kids. uLoyiso noQhawe
kakade bendibuza ukuba kuqhubeka nton ngomama and I couldn't give them an
answer because andiyaz nam

I looked up from my plate and my eyes met his worry felt eyes. I immediately placed
my hand on his cheek and brought him closer to my face then pecked his lips

Me: I'm sorry Lwandiso

Him: andifuni ucele uxolo, I want you to tell me what's going on. One minute you
were fine and then next minute you are locked in our room crying.

I let out a sigh and continued eating without uttering a single word. When I was done,
I rinsed my plate in the sink then placed it on the rake of dishes and went to the
nursery to check on my daughter and again Soso followed me. Luckily, she was
awake and MaRose was feeding her mashed potatoes

Me: Ma, do you mind if I take over?

MaRose: no problem sisi

She handed my princess to me then walked out. Soso sat on the bed while I sat on
the chair. I fed Mikaela while her father just sat there and stared at us. I knew he
wanted me to talk but how am I supposed to tell him what my father said? He will
lose it and I know Soso when he is angry, he is disrespectful and doesn't care about
what he does. He will just make matters worse

Soso: Lwandile?

Me: Baby

Him: thetha nam fondin. Kwenzeke nton?

Me: can we not do this right now? I just want to bond with my daughter

I looked down at her, her golden-brown eyes met mine and I just smile and she
laughed

Him: umenza nton umntanam?

Me: lol nothing. She is enjoying her mother's company

Our little bonding session was interrupted by KK walking in

KK: Lwa uyakbiza umama

Me: ngisafunza ingane ngyeza

Soso: letha umntana kum Lwa, ndizamtyisa ngokwam

I looked at him and he cocked his eyebrow and stared back at me. Mxm I got up,
gave him his daughter then walked out the door with KK

Me: ufunani umawakho?

KK: lol angaz

Me: uphi ubaba?

Him: still in his room

I nodded then when we got to the lounge, he sat down and I went to the dining area
and sat opposite my mom. I didn't look at her but just bowed my head

Mom: Lwandile

Me: ma

Her: have you packed?

Me: packed? Ngiyaphi?

Her: utheni ubaba kuwe?

Me: angiyindawo mina mama

With that said, I lifted my head up and looked at her and she shook her head

Her: so, you are going against your father's instructions? Are you no longer his child?

Me: with all due respect mama, I love Lwandiso, we have children together. I can't
just take his kids and leave for no valid reason.

Her: no valid reason? He is a murderer Lwandile

Me: no, he isn't

Her: so, he didn't kill Smanga?

I kept quiet. I was getting annoyed by this thing of Lwandiso being referred to as a
murderer

Me: he killed Smanga because Smanga tried to kill him. It was in self defense

She looked at me with cocked eyebrows. She folded her arms in front of her chest
and leaned back on the chair

Her: self defense? Khuluma Lwandile

I told her sonke istory sika Smanga and Soso, from the time Smanga messed from
the breaks of Soso's car to the time Soso held them hostage and killed Smanga. She
covered her mouth with her hands and said a short prayer
Her: how could you want to spend the rest of your life with such a ruthless man?
Uzokubulala lomuntu Lwandile. I wasn't sure of your father's decision but now
ngivumelelana naye even more.

Me: mama Soso has never laid a hand on me which is not what I can say for Atha.
Atha drugged me, kidnapped me and almost raped me with his friend.
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Me: its his fault that my daughter was almost born with disformalities. It was because
of his drugs. I hate Atha with every fiber of my being but ngamxolela because I had
to free myself. That's the kind of man that you and dad are choosing to believe over
me. Yes, I admit that it was wrong to keep Soso's actions from you but he is my
husband and as much as I don't know everything that goes on in your marriage, you
don't need to know everything that goes on in mine. I love Lwandiso and I know he
won't do anything to hurt me or the kids. He loves us and his actions were because
he was trying to protect us. He is a good man mama. Please don't force me to leave
him because I won't, you will lose me before I will ever consider leaving him

She was now in tears. All this was new information to her because I chose not to
have my parents involved in the kidnapping. I didn't want to worry them but now it
was about to time. I was forced to be weak and involve my parents in my problems

Mom: oh, kodwa nkosi yam ngomntanam. I'm so sorry you had to go through that on
your own but why ungashongo Lwandile? I would have been on the first flight out to
be by your side

Me: that's the thing mama, I wasn't on my own. Soso was by my side every step of
the way. He really isn't bad mama

She got up from her seat and wrapped her arms around me. Her tears dropped on
my face and I wiped them. I didn't have any tears left in me, I had nothing to cry for
anymore. I just want my parents to understand that this is my life and I know my man
more than they do. She let go of me and looked at me, her eyes were still wet and I
smiled and she smiled back at me.

Her: ngizokhuluma nobab'wakho and make him understand everything

Me: don't waste your breath mama. I told him and he doesn't believe me

She seemed shocked but also in disbelief. She shook her head and started crying all
over again
Her: ai ngeke baby. He has to believe you. Maybe awumtshelanga kahle. Your father
loves you more than anything in this world. Ngizokhuluma naye mina. Please baby
don't hate him, he is just confused. Give him time. Ngiyakcela nana

Me: time? I don't have time mama. I'm getting married in two days and I would love
nothing more than my father to walk me down the aisle but him refusing to do that
won't stop me from getting married. Even if it means I walk down the aisle ngedwa,
anginandaba

Her: yehlisa umoya Lwandile. Ngizokhuluma nobaba wakho. Sizokhuluma ekseni ke

mntanam

She kissed my forehead then gave me another tight squeeze

Her: your strength is impeccable Lwandile.

I nodded then flashed her a smile. She walked up the stairs and I remain seated in
the dining area. How was I going to get through the next two day? They are
supposed to be the happiest days of my life but I'm drowning in stress. Why is it that
I always have to go through trials and trying times before I can be happy? I'm tired of
fighting for things that other people have easily. I wish I could say I curse the day
Atha came into my life but then I look at my two beautiful boys and I see the good in
the evil man he has become. I covered my face with my hands and sighed deeply. I
was drained, both emotionally and physically. I was tired of crying and hurting, my
heart was literally tired. I needed God to cut me some slack. Yes, bra G, point
proven, you made a strong woman in me, I've passed every test you've given me
and now the reward needs to come. I've turned every lemon life has thrown my way
into lemonade and now I have enough lemonade to quench the thirst of the whole
planet. My thoughts were interrupted when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I removed my
hands from my face and turned my head. I smiled when I saw Nami's face. He sat
down next to me then took my hands in his and kissed them

Nami: baby sis

Me: big bro

Him: you good?

I nodded with a smile on my face but it didn't look like he was buying my story
Him: itaima lithi siyavaya ksasa

Me: oh

Him: but we decided to stay and support you. We are your brothers and we love you

Just then KK and Sakhile joined us. I looked at them, shifting my eyes from Nami to
KK to Sakhile

Sakhi: itaima licasukile sho, but he will realize his mistake and come to his senses

KK: and in the mean time, we shall hold you down

I let out a soft chuckle and my brothers joined in. We lightened up the conversation
and spoke about nonsense and cracked jokes. Sakhile has a girlfriend now that he is
planning on bringing to the wedding, apparently, she looks like Nomzama Mbatha,
well that's according to KK. KK now has another girlfriend apart from Asemahle and
he got caught cheating so he is walking on the grace of forgiveness. Hanging with
my brothers made me realize how much I was missing them ever since I left home.
Just then I smelt a very familiar scent before I felt his cold lips on my neck

Soso: I want to know your secret majita?

Nami: secret?

Soso: ewe secret to making my wife laugh like this?

KK: sorry Ta LDS, its a family secret

We all burst into laughter once more and Soso sat on top of me

Me: uyasinda Lwandiso

Sakhi: is this our cue to leave?

Soso: lol of course not bruh

He got off me and sat next to KK. We spent an hour or so just talking and laughing
and just bonding. Around midnight, I took my sons to their room since they were
asleep on the floor. I took Loyiso and Soso took Qhawe

Me: goodnight guys

Them: goodnight sis

I walked up the stairs, tucked my son in and Soso did the same then we both gave
them kisses and we walked out their rooms, leaving their doors slightly ajar. When
we got to our room, I placed my phone on the side table then started taking my
clothes off

Soso: uyohlamba?

Me: yeah

Him: awufuni ndikuhlambe?

I chuckled softly until I saw that he was serious

Me: userious yini?

Him: ewe

I agreed then we followed each other into our bathroom, he opened the taps in the
shower booth then put his hand in to feel for the temperature while I brushed my
teeth. He waited for me to finish then took my hand and we walked into the booth.
He took the sponge, poured shower gel onto it then rubbed it on me, starting from
my neck. He extended my arm towards him and scrubbed it clean then moved on to
the other one. I was chuckling the whole time

Soso: turn around my baby. I want to see your figure

He was singing this and I just burst into laughter but followed his instruction then I
heard him moaning to himself

Him: kodwa thixo how did I get this lucky?

Me: lol please focus

He laughed then started scrubbing my back and moved lower to my buttocks and
gently gave it a squeeze. I felt myself getting wet down there so I quickly turned
around. I was greeted by his king which was standing at attention. Looking at it made
me wetter and I knew right there and then that I wanted him. My eyes moved from
his abs to his king and back to his face. He moved closed to me and I moved back
until I was against the wall

Him: lol how am I supposed to wash you if you keep running away
Me: lol mxm I'm not running away

He dropped the sponge then moved his hands onto my hips. I immediately felt my
body getting goosebumps from his first touch and I closed my eyes

Me: Lwandiso

His name came out as a moan

Him: baby

He moved his hand to my queen then gently cupped it while his thumb ran up and
down my slit

Me: baby we can't.

Him: ndiyaz baby and I understand sthandwa sam

He cuffed his hand around both my hands then pinned them above my head and
started biting on my neck before moving to my earlobe. He took it between his teeth
then gently bit it and a moan escaped my lips

Him: vula kalok baby

I parted my legs and he inserted his finger into my already soaked queen and I
moaned again, louder this time. He finger fucked me and I started grinding against
his finger then he inserted a second one and I lost it. I lifted my leg up and wrapped
my leg around his waist then he pulled his fingers out. I gasped out loudly and shot
my eyes open

Him: lol let's behave baby. Sizohlamba apha

Me: but baby

Him: hayi baby, we will make love on our wedding night.

I was so close to my orgasm and it was driving me crazy. His every touch made me
want to just jump him but he wouldn't let me. When he was done giving me a bath, I
wrapped a towel around myself but he quickly removed it then lifted me up and
carried me to our bed and laid me down

Him: ndikuthambise?
Me: baby ngiyakcela. Please make love to me

Him: andizokwazi baby. We made a deal kalok

I sat up on the bed and just looked at him. I wanted him so badly. The ache in my
queen was unbearable, it needed to be serviced

Me: is this pay back for this morning?

He came to me, smashed his lips onto mine, slowly inserting his tongue into my
mouth and I sucked on it then wrapped my arms around his neck. After a while I
pulled out of the kiss and looked at him. Lord knows how much I love this man and
anyone who would see him would understand why

Me: please make love to me. Please

Him: baby I don't want to break the promise you've made to yourself, I want us to
wait until we are married but I'm going to kiss each and every each of your beautiful
body until you cum.

I smiled just as he planted a kiss on my left boob, gently sucking on it and biting my
nipples. He inserted his fingers back into my queen then lifted his head up

Him: you are so wet baby

Me: its all for you baby

He continued planting kisses until he got to my queen where he sucked on my clit

gently and I lost it. I held his head in that position and when he stuck his tongue in
my queen and I quickly closed my legs which resulted in him gently hitting my thighs

Him: suvala amathanga baby. Ndvulele

His voice was husky and so sexy. He continued with the amazing thing he was doing
between my legs and before I knew it, I was gripping the sheets and shaking like
crazy as my orgasm took over me. When I was eventually calm, he lifted his head
from between my legs and came to my face and pecked my lips. I could still taste
myself on his lips

Him: uright ngoku?

Me: yebo baby. Thank you

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Soso

The next day I woke up naked with the love of my life resting her head on my chest
fast asleep. I took this moment to fully admire her, she really was beautiful, even in
her sleep. I slowly reached for my phone which was on the side table and checked
the time. It was 7:40am which means her parents are most probably up and so are
the older kids. I slowly lifted her from my chest, trying very hard not to wake her up
then I got up from the bed, wore my briefs and shorts and vest then headed to the
bathroom. I took a piss, washed my face and brushed my teeth then walked
downstairs where I found my father-in-law watching the news but there was no one
else in sight

Me: molo tata

He turned his head around and looked at me before nodding

L's dad: yebo Lwandiso. Awuzohlala lapha sixoxe

I slowly walked into the lounge and sat down then he turned down the volume on the
TV and adjusted the way he was seated

Him: you are aware that I only have one daughter, right? Yes, I have been blessed
with a lot of children but I only have one daughter

Me: ewe tata

Him: that means I will protect my daughter from anything and anyone I feel might not
be good for her

I nodded but didn't say anything. I knew where this conversation was going and I
was ready for it

Him: I don't doubt your love for my daughter and your children but I do doubt your
capabilities of being the type of man that she deserves. Love makes people do crazy
things and I don't want my daughter to find herself in the life of crime just because
she is doing it in the name of love
Me: with all due respect tata uHadebe but are you accusing me of living a life of
crime?

Him: last time I checked murder was a crime

I sighed loudly then moved forward and sat at the edge of the couch. I looked up at
him and kept eye contact with him

Him: murder is a crime, so is attempted murder, kidnapping, indecent assault and

drugging someone. My actions were justified because I was defending myself from
an imminent attack but what justifications did Atha give you for the crimes he
administered on your daughter?

He creased his eyebrows and stared at me for a while before uttering a response

Him: I'm not saying Atha is an angel, he has his own mistakes

Mistakes? Is this man even listening to himself? I know for a fact that if anyone tried
to hurt my daughter in any kind of way, that person would know me very well. I would
never try to justify the actions of a man who brings harm to my family. Never

Me: yho ndithule andithethi. So, what's the way forward?

Him: I don't want to lose my daughter but I also don't like her marrying you so I will
let her marry you but I will be watching you Smith. If you harm even one hair on her
head, I will kill you.

Me: luckily it won't come to that because I would never lay a hand on a woman.
Anyway, enkosi for giving us your blessings, I'm sure Lwa will also be happy

He nodded and turned the volume up on the TV, I guess lencoko ibisigqibiwe. I got
up and made my way to the kitchen, poured myself a glass of juice and when I was
about to get started on breakfast, MaRose walked in with Mikaela

Me: molo mama

MaRose: molo sana lwami

Me: unjani ma? Hello bhabha zam

I took Mikaela into my arms, kissed her lips and cheeks then she rested her head on
my shoulder
Me: ma ndicela wenze ukutya. uLwa had a hectic night and ndfuna aphumule
kancinci

Her: akukho ngxaki mntanam

Me: enkosi mama

She had been preparing Kaela's cereal so she gave me the bowl and spoon and I
made my way to the pool area outside to feed her. My little one needed fresh air.

Lwa

I was woken up from my deep slumber by the annoying sound of my ringtone. I

reached for it and answered without looking at the caller ID

Me: hmmm

Laa: morning beautiful

I immediately shot my eyes wide open and sat up on the bed. I removed the phone
from my ear and checked the caller ID and it was indeed Laa that was calling

Me: Landile?

Him: yep. Unjani beautiful stranger?

My cheeks flushed as I blushed a little. This guy and his smooth talks

Me: I'm good and you?

Him: I'd be amazing if you joined me for breakfast

Me: wait, are you in PE?

Him: yeah. You didn't think I'd miss your wedding now, did you?

Me: lol aw angaz phela people change when they get into relationships

He kept quiet for a few seconds then let out a sigh

Him: so, spur at 10am?

Me: yeah, I'll be there

Him: see you soon beautiful

I blushed once more then hung up. It was still early but because there were guests in
the house, I decided to get up. I washed my face, brushed my teeth then wore my
nightdress and gown over it and my slippers. When I got downstairs, MaRose was
already serving breakfast to everyone.

Me: morning everyone

Them: morning

Me: Loy, uphi utata?

Loy: phandle mama

I turned on my heels to go outside but my dad stopped me and summoned me to sit

down and I did as he had asked

Dad: ngikhulumile nomama wakho noLwandiso

I didn't say anything, angaz noma he wanted me to say something or not

Him: ngifuna ukuxolisa mntanam for jumping to conclusions and not hearing you out.

Me: OK

Him: I'm not happy about you wanting to marry Soso but I'm not going to stop you

Me: thank you

Him: we will discuss everything else after the wedding.

I just wanted this conversation to come to an end already and it didn't look like my
father was going to stop talking anytime soon so I cut him off

Me: its fine baba. Everything is fine. I understand your concerns and they are
justified but right now I just want to focus on my wedding day

Mom: that's understandable

I nodded then smiled. I watched as my family ate their breakfast and since I wasn't
eating I went to take Kaela from her dad so he can eat. I found him playing with his
daughter, tossing her in the air and laughing with her
Me: I see you guys are having fun without me

Soso: morning babe

He kissed my cheek then pecked my lips. I also pecked Kaela's lips and she just
looked at me

Me: my love, breakfast is served in the house, you should go eat

Him: have you eaten?

Me: no. I'm having breakfast with Landile and Asemahle and most probably with Lolo
as well

He looked at me with cocked eyebrows and I just stared back at him

Me: his girlfriend will be there so I know he won't try anything funny

Him: he better not because I will hurt him

I laughed until I saw that he wasn't laughing which means he meant every word he
was saying. He even tilted his head to the side and didn't remove his eyes from me

Me: uhm… OK then. Letha ingane yam so we can go bath

I took Kaela from her father then walked into the house and as I walked up the stairs,
the kids followed me

Me: niqedile ukudla?

Lwande: yes auntie. Can I play with Yaya?

Me: we are going to bath. You can play with her when she is done bathing

After bathing I wore black leggings with a white T-shirt and white sneakers. I applied
my makeup and topped it with dark maroon matte lipstick then packed my things into
my bag and made my way downstairs

KK: you look good sis

Me: thank you little one. I have a date with your girl

KK had a puzzled look on his face and I just laughed at him. Soso came to my side
and asked to walk me out then handed me his car keys
Soso: take my car

Me: are you sure?

Him: ewe. I want to get your car washed and most probably when you come back, I
won't be here so Mike will come get the car later today

Me: you going to be staying at your parents' house?

Him: yeah so next time I see you will be when we promise to give ourselves to each
other for the rest of our lives. I can't wait for you to finally be Mrs Smith

I smiled then wrapped my arms around his neck and brought his face to mine and
our lips locked. We shared a slow passionate kiss which he soon broke

Him: go before you are late for your breakfast. I love you Lwandile Hadebe. You are
my heart

Me: I love you more baby. I'll see you at the alter

Him: I'll be the one in the blue and silver suit wearing my heart on my sleeve

I smiled, pecked his lips then got into the car and drove off to town. I called Enzo as I
entered town but he didn't answer then I called Laa and told me he was already
waiting for me. I parked at the parkings, grabbed my bag and walked out. I found him
seated alone and he got up when he saw me then gave me a hug. He smelt
heavenly even if I do say so myself. I sat down opposite him and he stared at me
without saying a word but just wearing a smile on his face

Me: lol what's wrong?

Laa: who said anything is wrong? Im just admiring your beauty

Me: aibo Landile, you are dating my friend

He sighed the same sigh he sighed over the phone earlier that morning

Him: angijoli with your friend Lwa. I wouldn't do that, I'm not crazy

Me: so, you are saying she is lying?

Before he could answer, a waitress came to take our orders and then walked away
Him: she isn't lying, she is in denial. We hooked up a couple of times and she just
assumed we are dating.

I knew it and my conscience is clear because I warned Lolo about Landile and she
bit my head off. Landile isn't the dating type, we all knew it but Lolo is in denial. We
had our breakfast over a catch-up session and after 30mins or so Enzo and
Asemahle joined us. I screamed when I saw them and gave them hugs.

Enzo: buddy bae. Angisakwaz

Me: I know hey. You are such a stranger, you don't even know your daughter

Enzo: work is hectic bae but I'll meet her today

Mahle: you have a daughter sis Lwa?

Me: yebo baby girl, you will see her later on.

After having breakfast, Laa went to pick up the girls while I drove home and Enzo
drove behind me. It was already after 1pm when I got to the house and all the guys
were gone; only my mom, my kids, MaRose and Phiwe were left behind. I walked in
with Asemahle and Enzo, they greeted everyone then we sat in the lounge

Me: MaRose ngicela ungilethela uYandisa

MaRose: OK sis and should I organize you some snacks?

Me: yebo ma

She walked away and Enzo just looked at me

Me: what?

Enzo: you have a nanny; a house and you are getting married. You are adulting
buddy

Me: and I'm 22. So young but ngoba ngithanda izinto here I am
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Lwa

When Landile arrived with Noma, Lolo, Pali and Sedi, we were all chilling outside
with the kids. They had wine with them so my mom took the kids and we had a mini
party outside. During this whole time, Lolz couldn't keep her hands off Laa which
honestly made her look desperate but I wasn't going to say anything about it. It
wasn't my place after all

Enzo: buddy we are going to leave you soon

Laa: yeah, we have to join the other guys for the bachelor party

I looked at them with an unimpressed look but they just laughed at me. I remember
specifically saying that I don't want Soso having any of those crazy bachelor parties

Enzo: don't look so worried, I'll make sure he behaves but in the mean time, I got you
a little something something

Just then the bell rang and I got up to go open. I looked at Enzo with my eyebrows
creased together and he just smiled. The smile was a naughty one

Laa: lol you should probably get that

Me: what are you guys up to?

Enzo: lol lutho buddy. Siyahamba thina manje

He walked up to me, gave me a tight hug then I hugged Laa and we approached the
door

Enzo: Enjoy buddy bae

With that said, he winked at me and opened the door to find 3 male strippers
dressed as firemen. These guys had bodies to die for and I caught myself staring at
them. After they walked in, Enzo and Laa laughed and walked out

*
Soso

I woke up on my wedding day with the worst hangover I've ever had and with a
naked girl in my bed. I slowly rubbed my eyes and sat up to look at the person who
had interrupted my sleep

Luke: Soso bruh wake up, we have an hour to get ready and be at the beach on time

Me: beach? What beach?

Him: lol you are getting married ntwana

Me: oh shit

I turned to look at the girl who was laying next to me then lifted the covers to see that
I was naked as well with a condom half rolled on my dick. My face immediately
changed. Did I? Nah but I would remember if I did. I shook the girl, trying to wake her
up but she took her time

Me: did we fuck?

Her: you don't remember?

Me: I wouldn't ask if I did

Her: nah we didn't. I wanted to but you kept telling me about some chick called Lwa
that you love

Me: and the condom?

Her: that's was me trying to convince you. I rolled it up with my mouth but you
passed out in the process

I smiled to myself, it was more of a relief kind of smile. I got up from the bed, looked
for my clothes but only found my briefs and boxers then got dressed and left the
room. I took a shower, had strong black coffee while I got dressed. We were all
getting dressed in the lounge, just so we get done quicker and we can help each
other. Just then the chick I woke up next to entered the lounge, looking lost as ever.
My brother and my friends exchanged looks before all staring at me

Me: yintoni?

Mike: lol one last smash before you get married?

I fixed my tie, wore my blazer than looked for my shoes

Ntando: please tell me you did it

Me: guys I wouldn't cheat on the woman I'm marrying, especially the night before our
wedding

Marcus looked at me with a gapped mouth. He was either in disbelief or he thought I

was lying. At 10:10am, my phone rang from the kitchen, I rushed to it, smiled when I
saw the caller ID then answered

Me: the most beautiful woman in the world

Lwa: the most beautiful man in the world

Me: handsome baby not beautiful

Her: uright?

Me: ewe sthandwa sam. Wena?

Her: I'm nervous but I'm also excited. Ukuphi manje? You should be at the beach
already

Me: lol I'll be there my love. I wouldn't miss our wedding

The gents called me from the background so I soon had to hang up. We said our I
love yous and I hung up. When I walked back into the lounge everyone was fully
dressed and ready to leave

Me: guys uphi lamntana?

Brandon: she left bro

We locked up my parents' house then drove to my house. That's where our convoy
will start. When we got to the house, the women had already left so we just parked
our cars then got into the hired cars. I was driven in a matte black G63 AMG while
the rest of the guys traveled in Porsches, Lamborghinis and BMWs. We arrived at
the beach just a few minutes before the service was meant to start. My mom came to
our cars the moment we parked

Mom: you guys are late

Me: but we are here. How's my wife? How gorgeous does she look?

Her: come come. Forget all that, we need to start already. Change the shoes

We changed into flip flops then made our way to the set up. It all looked amazing,
the view, the alter and chairs...it all looked perfect

Lwa

When I got the message that they were ready for us, I took a deep breath and slowly
exhaled. I had been sitting in the car with my dad the whole time and I must admit
that the nerves were overshadowing the excitement

Dad: let's go princess

I nodded then he got out the car and came to open my door then helped me out the
car. He kissed my forehead then looked at me for a few seconds

Him: you look beautiful sweetheart

Me: thank you daddy

He took my hand as we approached where the service was going to take place.
Everyone stood up as we approached and then from a distance away I saw the love
of my life, my king, my lover and my best friend looking all sorts of sexy standing at
the alter waiting for me. Dad tightened his grip on my hand and it hit me that this
wasn't so easy for him. I am his only daughter and now he has to give me away at
such a young age so of course he had his fears and they were understandable. The
time came for him to give my hand to Soso and he hesitated for a while

Dad: Smith

Soso: yes sir

Dad: this is my whole world that I'm placing in your hands and mfana wam I do hope
your hands are strong and steady because if you drop her and she gets hurt, I won't
mind spending the rest of my days in jail for killing you

Soso: they are steady sir

He kissed the side of my head then handed me to Soso who kissed my cheek then
we approached the pastor. The service went on until we had to get to the vows, I
hadn't written anything because I wanted to speak from the heart. I wanted the
feelings I felt at that moment to be the ones that speak for me, not the feelings I felt
yesterday or a week before. Soso took my left hand, kissed it then looked into my
eyes with a slight smile which made me smile

Soso: you look beautiful sthandwa sam

I blushed and turned away but he made me look at him

Him: our journey hasn't been easy but its been beautiful. Every curve, every bump
and every turn has been worth it because of the love you've shown me even when I
knew I didn't deserve it. I love you Lwandile Hadebe and I will continue to show you
the kind of love you deserve and proving my love to you with every waking day. I
promise to protect you, provide for you and respect you and love you so our kids can
learn love from us. Thank you for making me a man and a father to the world's best
children. I love you

He slipped the ring into my finger then kissed it. I was trying very hard not to cry but
my emotions were failing me. I took his hand with the ring slightly slipped into his
hand. I stared at it for a while then lifted my head to look at him

Me: yho now how am i supposed to beat that?

Everyone laughed and Soso whispered "you can't" to me which made me laugh as
well

Me: but ke baby, yabona everything you said? Same to you tatakhe

Again, everyone broke in laughter then I got serious

Me: Lwandiso Shaun Smith, you are my everything, my sunshine, my storm and sun
rise. I look at you and ask myself how I got this lucky to have a man who loves me
the way you do. God really hasn't forgotten about me. Myeni wam this is a new
journey that we are about to take, neither of us has done this before so we will learn
along the way and we will teach each other the ways of making a marriage a
success, our way. I promise to love you, take care of you and our kids and to be
submissive and respectful to you and I also promise that no matter how tough it gets,
I'll never leave your side. I love you so much

It suddenly felt like everyone had disappeared and the only people left were myself
and this beautiful man before me. I slipped the ring deeper into his finger and just
stared at him. How is it even humanly possible to love someone so much? Our little
moment was disturbed by a gun shot. I froze in that moment as everyone got down
to the ground. I looked up at where it had come from then I saw Atha sitting on his
wheelchair looking back at me.

Soso: Lwa get down

He pulled me down and that's when I felt a slight stinging sensation on my stomach. I
gently touched it and I felt that my dress was wet but I didn't understand what got me
wet ngoba we were far from the beach. I lifted my hand to my face and that's when I
realised that it was covered in blood.

Me: Lwandiso

Him: babe

Me: I'm bleeding

Him: what? Where?

Me: my stomach. I think I got shot

I was running out of breath but it wasn't sore, just stinging then I passed out

Soso

The moment I realized that that idiot Atha had shot my wife, I lost it. I didn't care that
he had a gun or not, I walked straight to him. He had no option. He couldn't walk so
he just pointed the gun at me and I didn't care, if Lwa dies, what the hell do I have to
live for? I walked all the way up to him and threw my first punch which landed him on
the floor. His nose was bleeding and his lip was busted. He screamed in agony and I
was deaf to his screams. I kicked him a couple of times then placed my foot on his
throat, took the hand that was holding the gun and aimed the gun at his head...
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Soso

I looked at him struggling to breath under the pressure of my knee and I didn't feel an
ounce of remorse. I wanted him to die a slow painful death. I've spared his life for
long enough and this is how he repays me? By shooting my wife in front of our kids,
in front of our family and on a day which is supposed to be our wedding day.

Mike: Soso don't do this, be the bigger man ntwana. Lwa needs you right now

And then the reality of my wife covered in blood hit me and I released my foot from
Atha's throat then looked at him while he coughed in the attempt of getting his
breathing to be normal again. I fixed my suit, walked towards the alter where the
paramedics were busy with Lwa but before I had even walked a sizeable distance, I
heard a gun shot from behind which gave me a fright and immediately got to the
ground. After that there was silence. I turned around to find Atha laying on the
ground in a pool of blood and Jason standing a few meters away holding a gun.

Me: and then? Jason there are innocent people here

Jay: he was about to shoot you

Me: I don't have energy for this right now.

I rushed to Lwa's side and the paramedics were getting ready to take her away

Me: where are you taking my wife?

Param: to the hospital sir. You wife has lost a lot of blood and she needs serious
medical attention

I nodded and followed right behind them but I was stopped in my tracks by Loyiso

Loy: tata funa umama

Me: ndizawbuya naye umama boy. Hamba kukuku ngok

Him: ulimele umama. Ndilbonile igazi

I picked him up then walked towards where the rest of the family was. His brother
and his sister were with Lwa's parents so I gave Loyiso to my dad

Dad: qina nyana wam

I nodded then ran to my car. I was curious to know whether Atha survived but I didn't
care because the one person I cared about is Lwa. I drove to the hospital like a
maniac only to be told to wait in the waiting room. They wouldn't tell me anything
which frustrated me more. An hour later I was joined by Mike and my friends

Marc: how is the Mrs doing?

Me: andaz. They haven't told me anything

He nodded and we all sat down and waited in silence. Everyone was busy on their
phones and I was just lost in my thoughts. I can't lose Lwa. Not today. I wouldn't
survive without her, what would I tell our kids? Mikaela is still so young, she needs
her mother. My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of Mike's phone ringing. He
excused himself and answered it a distance away from us. I checked the time and
saw that almost 3hrs had passed and not a single hospital employee has come to
us. I got up and punched the wall which made the gents jump up

Ntando: Soso don't do this to yourself

Me: this is frustrating and no one is telling me anything. I just want to know that she
is OK

Mike returned as my temper was cooling off. He looked a bit absentminded but I
wasn't going to ask. I have enough problems of my own

Luke: Mike what's up?

Mike: Jason has been arrested

Me: arrested? For what?

Mike: attempted murder

Me: attempted? So that asshole survived? Yeses that guy's ancestors work overtime

After 5 long hours the doctors came out to us and I immediately got up

Dr: Smith?
Me: yes. How is she doc?

Dr: sit down Mr Smith

Me: I'd rather stand. Just tell me how my wife is doing

Dr: I'm really going to need you to sit down.

Mike: Soso please sit

I clicked my tongue then sat down. The doctor took a few deep breathes and I knew
it wasn't going to be good news

Dr: your wife lost a lot of blood and her injuries are quite critical. We were unable to
remove the bullet

I felt my heart jump to my throat. I suddenly wasn't able to speak and I wasn't
understanding anything the doctor was saying

Dr: the bullet is too close to her spine and removing it might result in spinal damage
which could result in your wife being paralyzed

I couldn't take anymore of this. I needed to get out of here. I can't stand to listen to
this doctor as he kills every bit of hope I have. I got up and walked towards my car,
opened it, got in and locked myself inside. I rested my head on the steering wheel
and the tears just involuntarily rolled down my cheeks. Andizokwazi anymore, I can't
take this. When things start looking good for us, there is always something that will
tear us down and try to break our faith. I'm tired of fighting things I don't even know.
After a while I picked myself up then drove home. I opened the date then parked
outside the garage. Now I have to look at my kids, Lwa's parents and family and
break the news to them. I got out the car and slowly opened the door. Everyone
turned to look at me as I slowly walked towards the lounge where everyone was
seated except MaRose and the kids. They all waited for me to sit down before
throwing their questions at me

L's mom: how's my baby? Is she awake yet?

I slowly shook my head before burying it in my hands. My own mother gently rubbed
my back as I tried to stop the tears in my eyes then I told them what the doctor had
said
L's dad: this is all my fault. I got my own daughter shot. I should have listened to her
when she said Atha wasn't all that he made himself out to be. Now my one and only
daughter is laying lifeless in the hospital because of me.

His wife held him while trying to calm him down.

L's dad: I invited him to the wedding because...

I didn't let him finish because I jumped from my seat and held him against the wall
using his shirt. At that moment I didn't care that he was my elder and my wife's
father, I wanted to kill him

Dad: Lwandiso nyana wam yehlisa umoya. Let go of TatuHadebe

His words fell on deaf ears as I stared into the eyes of the man who brought my
enemy to my wedding. I hated him so much and I wasn't going to hide it

Me: I want you out of my house right now. I have no room for traitors and back
stabbers in my life.

Mom: Soso calm down. You can't kick him out, he is family

Me: family? This good for nothing excuse of a man is no family of mine

I clicked my tongue then went upstairs to my room. The room was filled with Lwa's
scent, everything about it just reminded me of what happened earlier today. I took
my clothes off then got in the shower. I sat on the shower floor while the water ran on
my head and onto my body. I stayed there for almost an hour then got up, washed
my body and turned the tap off. I grabbed my towel and walked out to the room.
Ndathambisa then ndakhupha ijean yeguess emnyama neT-shirt emnyama
ndanxiba then wore my black sneakers, sprayed my cologne, put my black leather
wrist watch on, grabbed my phone and walked out. I stopped at the nursery where
my boys where sleeping on the bed and my princess was sleeping in the cot. I stared
at them while leaning against the door frame then suddenly I felt a squeeze on my
shoulder. I turned around and saw Enzo

Enzo: uzobaright uLwa

I didn't respond, I just stared at my babies. I walked in and planted kisses on their
foreheads then walked towards the door again. Enzo was still standing there
Enzo: you heading to the hospital?

I nodded then walked past him

Enzo: I'm coming with you

KK: nam

The rest of the family wanted to come as well so we drove there with my parents in
my car and Lwa's family in the other cars

Mom: Lwandiso

Me: mama

Her: you should apologize to tatuHadebe

Me: asoze

Dad: hayi Lwandiso. We didn't raise you to disrespect your elders

Me: ndiyayaz but kalok tata respect is earned and utatuHadebe has lost mine.
Kutheni eInviter uAtha emtshadweni wam? What for? I'm sure he wanted Atha to kill
me and I blame him wholeheartedly for Lwa being in hospital

Mom tried saying something but dad told her to let me be. Ukufika kwethu
esbhedlela, the doctor wasixelela ukuba we can't all go in. Only 5 people at a time so
we let the Hadebes go in first since my family was larger. Kalok Enzo noLandile
bakhona nabo and I wanted to go in ndodwa. After 10 minutes, they came out and
mom, dad, Mike, Enzo and Landile went in.

Nami: what happened to Atha?

I shrugged my shoulders then shifted my gaze to Lwa's dad and clicked my tongue.
Uyandicabukisa lotata fock mahn. Ndabashiya ndaya to the cafe just to pass time. I
bought orange juice then returned when everyone was out. I took in a deep breath
and walked to the room my beautiful wife was in. She was connected to breathing
machines and she was no longer in her wedding dress. She looked peaceful and still
ever so beautiful. I didn't know what to do or say to her so I just sat down and took
her hand. The tears started flowing down my cheeks and I knew I'd get emotional
which is why I wanted to be alone when I went in
Me: ndiyakuthanda MaHadebe and I can't wait for you to wake up so we can start
our lives together. Ndiyakucela sthandwa sam. Ndicela uvuke

I got up, planted a kiss on her now dry lips and another on her forehead then walked
out the room. I cleared my throat as I approached the family

Me: shall we?

My parents nodded and we went to the different cars and I dropped them off at their
house and drove to my house. When I arrived, Lwa's family was still all over my
house so I just walked up the stairs, opened the linen closet, pulled out a fleece
blanket then opened the door to one of the guest rooms, walked in and threw myself
on the bed. I stayed awake while thinking about the beautiful lady that laid in hospital
right now who owns my heart. Lwa doesn't deserve this and as long as Atha still
breaths, Lwa and I will never find peace. I tossed and turned for hours without finding
any sleep. I decided to go downstairs for a glass of warm milk and muffins. I figured
everyone else was asleep since ixesha bekungu 3am so I just walked out the room
in just my boxers. As I walked down the stairs, I realized that someone else was up

Me: hey Lolz

Lolz: hey Soso

Me: can't sleep?

She shook her head and judging by the redness of her eyes, she had been crying. I
walked into the kitchen, poured milk into two glasses then put it in the microwave,
warmed it for 45secs then placed 6 muffins on a plate and waited for the milk. When
the microwave made the sound, which indicated that it was done, I took the glasses
out, placed them on a tray with the plate of muffins and headed to the lounge

Me: have some. they might help you sleep

Lolz: thanks, Soso

We ate in silence until after a while she broke it

Her: can I ask you something?

Me: sure
Her: what is it about me that just makes guys want to leave me after sleeping with
me? first it was Chris, then your brother and now its Laa. Am I cursed or something?
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Soso

Weeks turned into months without Lwa waking up. The doctors had informed me that
there was nothing more they could do since everything was fine and it was all in
Lwa's hands now. Atha on the other hand was found dead in his hospital bed just a
few days after being admitted. I still have no idea who is behind it but rumor has it
that it was Lwa's brothers. The date is 23 December, 3 months 2 weeks and 4 days
since Lwa was admitted in hospital. The kids and I have been coming to see her
everyday and everyday the twins would ask me when their mommy was going to
wake up while Mikaela was just too young to understand. She was now 8 months old
and such a naughty and busy baby. I woke up early, took a shower then went
downstairs where I found my mom feeding Kaela

Me: morning mom. Morning princess

I kissed their heads then headed for the kitchen but I stopped in my tracks when I
heard my mom speak

Mom: your food is in the microwave

Me: I'm not hungry ma but thanks

Her: look at yourself my boy, I'm losing you with every day that passes. I don't
remember the last time you ate a proper meal and you've lost so much weight
because of that

I sighed loudly because my mom was being dramatic. Yes, I've lost a few pants sizes
over the last couple of months but it wasn't that bad. I went to take my food out the
microwave, took a streak of bacon and a cocktail cheese sausage then poured
myself a glass of water and went back to the dinning area

Me: Loyiso! Qhawe!

They came running in with MaRose right behind them. She greeted then helped
them put their sneakers

Loy: sobona umama?

Me: ewe my boy

Q: uzovuka namuhla?

Me: andaz boy

He nodded and focused on his shoes. I hated what this whole thing was doing to my
kids. Lwa is all these kids know, yes, they know and love me but she is their mom
and she understands them way more than I do. After breakfast I fastened the kids'
seatbelts then got in the driver's seat

Me: ready guys?

Kaela: Dada

She showed me her 8 teeth smile with her eyes half closed. My baby has small eyes
so when she smiles, they close halfway. She looks so much like me but I see so
much of my mom in her, my birth mother that is

Loy: masambe kalok tata

I snapped out of my little dream world and started the ignition of the car then drove to
the hospital. We walked out the car and into the hospital and the way we were here
all the time, the nurses knew us on a first name basis. I was holding Mikaela and
Loyiso was holding his brother's hand

Nurse Aphile: the cutest boys in the world

My sons giggled as she picked Qhawe up

Me: morning nurse

I smiled and she followed with her smile that revealed her silver tooth. It didn't look
ghetto on her it actually looked cute. She was the shy type but she loved my kids
and they loved her too

Q: uvukile umama yanti?

She looked down and I knew that nothing had change. I flashed her another smile,
this one was weaker than the one I had before

Me: masambe Qhawe

She gently put him down and we went to Lwa's room. I removed the dead flowers,
threw them in the bin then put the ones I had arrived with. I removed the crust from
her eyes and applied Vaseline on her dry lips then gently pecked them. The twins
imitated me and placed pecks on their mom's lips

Aphile: you really love her neh

I didn't even realize that she had followed us into the room. I turned to face her then
nodded

Me: she is my everything. I don't even want to begin imagining life without her

Her: wow. Any other guy would have given up by now but you come in everyday to
change her flowers, apply Vaseline on her lips and talk to her. She is really lucky

I smiled to myself because this lady doesn't know that I'm the lucky one, I'm the one
that has hurt her in the worst way but she has continued to love me and stayed with
me regardless of that

Me: I'm the lucky one. I just wish she could just wake up already. I miss the sound of
her voice more than anything else

Her: hmm let me give you some privacy

Loy: hamba nawe yanti

Me: hayi boy uAuntie uyasebenza

Aphile: I don't mind taking them. I'm sure you need time alone with your wife

Me: are you sure?

She nodded while taking Qhawe and Loyiso's hands. She left Kaela because she is
daddy's princess and she doesn't go anywhere without daddy. She has been sitting
on Lwa's legs the whole time and crawling all over her

Me: yiza kum bhabha

Kae: mama dada

Me: yiza kalok nana

She giggled until I took her and placed her on my lap then took Lwa's hand into mine
Me: ndiyakukhumbula maHadebe wam. Vuka kalok sthandwa sam. I can't do this
thing called life without you anymore. We need you as your family. You should see
how grown Yandisa is now, she can almost walk and she broke your favorite vase
the other day. Lol uyaybona mos le epha ngase dining? Ifile ngok. So much has
happened my love. I love you so much nanazi yam

I quickly wiped the tears that were rolling down my cheeks. After an hour, I took my
princess and we went to look for the princes. We found them at reception, I thanked
the nurses then Aphile offered to walk us out. She helped me buckle the kids up

Me: enkosi sisi

Aphile: pleasure. Jonga Soso, if ever you need someone to help you with the kids,
feel free to give me a call

Me: uyaphangela kalok wethu, how would you help?

Her: I'm going on leave ngomso until mid Jan

She handed me a paper with her number on it, I was hesitant at first but she insisted
that I take it and I did. We said our goodbyes and I drove off

Two days later it was Christmas and there was nothing merry about it. MaRose was
with her family and the kids were at my parents' house so I was at my house alone. I
was woken up by the sound of my phone, I searched for it under my pillow with my
eyes closed and answered without checking the caller ID

Me: hello

Aphile: molo tata wamawele

I removed the phone from my ear, checked the caller ID to confirm that it indeed was
Aphile

Me: unjani?

Her: I'm great. Merry Christmas Lwandiso

Me: Merry Christmas to you too.

Then there was an awkward silence. I cleared my throat which made her speak up
Her: I was calling to invite you to church. I don't know whether it's your thing but it
can't hurt

I shuffled around the bed then sat up thinking of the politest way to turn down this
offer. I wasn't in the mood for strangers, I just want to be alone with my miseries then
go spend Christmas with my wife

Me: uhm I have plans with my family then I'm going to go visit my wife at the hospital

Her: ohhh

She sounded a little disappointed. If I didn't know better I'd think this lady has a crush
on me but sadly for her, I'm not interested. She was cute and all that but I just want
my Lwa to wake up

Me: askies neh but enjoy church

Her: thanks. I'll pray for you like I always do

With that said, she hung up. I placed my phone on the other pillow then ndanqenqa
ebhedini just going through my thoughts. Around 10am I dragged myself out of bed
and made my way downstairs. I poured coco pops into a bowl without milk then went
to watch TV. I placed my feet in the coffee table then quickly removed them when I
thought of Lwa telling me to get my feet of her table. I let out a chuckle then switched
to cartoons. I needed a distraction just to get over this day. I watched cartoons for 2
hrs then went to shower and wore caramel chinos folded at the bottom, white boot
allstars and a black T-shirt. Ndafaka iwatch yam yebrown leather, took my phone,
walked out the house and drove to the hospital. Lwa was still the same, I did my
usual then chilled with her for 2hrs and as always, I got emotional. I never thought I'd
find myself in this situation, spending my Christmas at a hospital while umuntu wam
elele looking lifeless. It hurts more than words could express, I feel so empty without
her presence, its like I'm an empty shell just passing through the days. I look at my
kids and feel like such a failure, I've tried to keep life as normal as possible for them
but each and everyday they wake up asking for mommy. I can't take it anymore, I'm
a man but I'm barely strong enough for myself, how much more for my little Kaela
and the twins? After the 2hrs, I left, bought food at KFC then drove home and as I
was settling with my bucket of chicken, there was a knock at the door. I ignored but
the person wouldn't give up so I went to open. I was caught by surprise when I saw
who was at the door

Me: what are you doing here?

She smiled, showing me her silver tooth

Aphile: can I come in?

She had Tupperware containers with her. I moved out the way and she walked in

Me: how do know where I live?

Her: don't be mad but I checked your wife's file. Is that the kitchen?

She made her way to the kitchen before I responded

Me: you did what? Why would you do that?

Her: where are the plates?

I pointed at the cupboard with the plates and she took them out and started dishing
up for us. I'm talking seven colors and all sorts of salads. She warmed up the food
while I looked at her with questioning eyes

Her: relax torho Soso, andisostalker. I promise you

Me: I didn't say you were. I have plans though

Her: hmmmm

Me: I swear to you

The microwave beeped and she took the food out and went to the lounge

Me: uhm no eating in the lounge. My wife's rules

She nodded then placed the food on the dining table then sat opposite me. I really
wasn't hungry but I didn't want to be rude. I dug in and the food was good

Me: hmmm this is good food

She smiled then nodded and continued eating. After the lunch, I loaded the
dishwasher while she channel hopped then I joined her

Me: what's your deal Aphile? Uyayaz ukuba nditshadile fondin.

Her: yeah, I know

Me: so why are you here?

Her: just helping a friend out. You need it wethu

Me: lol sizichomi ngoku?

She smiled again, shyly this time. Ucute mahn nalomntana, ngathi mncinci phof

Me: enkosi chomam evha

She smiled again and nodded. She chose a movie then we watched it. It was a
comedy and we were laughing like crazy. I'd catch her every now and then staring at
me.
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Soso

As time went by, my friendship with Aphile grew and we became really close. She
has been there for me and my kids, sometimes I'd leave the kids with her when I
want to see Lwa on my own and she would cook for us since MaRose is still on
leave. I woke up on the 31st, bathed my kids and then dropped them off at my
parents' house and drove to the hospital. My phone rang as I was still driving. It was
Aphile

Me: chomam

Aphile: hey friend, uright?

Me: ewe ndiright. Unjani wena?

Her: I'm good. I hear you are driving, I hope you are bringing my babies to me

Me: lol abantwana bakho neh. Nah I'm going to the hospital, I left them with my
parents

Her: oh great. I hope you don't have plans tonight because there is a braai at home
and I'd like you to come

Me: definitely I'll be there. Just text me the directions.

Her: cool

I pulled up at the hospital so I had to hang up. I grabbed the flowers and walked into
the hospital, I greeted everyone at the reception area then when I opened the door to
Lwa's room, the doctor was busy with her. He turned his head when he saw me and
flashed me a smile

Doc: morning Mr Smith

Me: morning doc. How is she today?

He moved away from the bed and I was greeted by the most beautiful smile that I've
been missing over the past couple of months. I immediately rushed to her bedside
Me: baby you are awake.

I turned to the doctor

Me: why didn't anyone call me? When did she wake up? Is she OK?

Lwa: baby calm down. I'm OK

I helped her sit up then placed a pillow behind her back so she will be comfortable
then she cleared her throat. I poured her a glass of water and handed it to her

Lwa: thank you baby. I asked the doctor not to call you because I needed to
familiarize myself with my surroundings

I was so happy that she is finally awake, that she is back to me, to us and I was still
in disbelief. I couldn't wait for the doctor to leave so I can spend time with my wife.
The doctor did all the tests and then he left. I didn't even wait for him to be out the
door before I smashed my lips on to Lwa's and she smiled throughout the kiss then
wanted to pull back. I placed my hand at the back of her head and brought her even
closer to me and continued with the kiss until I felt my dick tingle then I broke the kiss

Me: hmmm how I've missed these juicy lips of yours

Lwa: I've missed you too. You and the kids. Where are my kids Lwandiso?

She had a bit of panic in her voice and I just smiled and kissed her forehead. Our
moment was interrupted by the sound of my phone. I checked the caller ID and the
moment I saw Aphile's number, I immediately switched my phone off. For some
strange reason I was feeling guilty for the call, I don't even know why because
nothing ever happened between Aphile and I.

Lwa: who was that?

Me: no one important. Ndiyakwethembisa baby. Shifta kalok baby, I want to get
close to you

She smiled, almost blushing and then made space for me. I got on the bed then
made her place her head on my chest and held her tightly

Me: undixelele xa ndikuthunika uyeva nanazi

I kissed her head then she nodded

*

Lwa

When I woke up, my throat was dry and everything was just dark. I didn't know
where I was and I was terrified. I saw water on my bedside so I poured a glass then
put a straw in the glass and took a sip. After a minute or two, I realized that I was at
the hospital so I buzzed the nurse and she came rushing in, followed by the doctor

Nurse: good evening Mrs Smith

Me: Mrs Smith? Sorry but I'm Mis-

Then memory of my wedding day, getting shot and seeing Atha came back to me
then I immediately panicked

Doc: I'm going to need you to calm down Mrs Smith

It felt so strange hearing that title, its going to require a whole lot of getting used to.
The doctor checked my blood pressure and my temperature

Doc: your blood pressure is a little high so please try not to stress too much because
you might slip into a coma again. I will get reception to call your husband and inform
him that you are awake

Me: uhm no, please don't tell him yet. Let's wait for tomorrow

Him: as you wish

I nodded as tears filled my eyes. The doctor left and I was now with just the nurse

Me: sorry sister, can you please tell me what date it is?

Nurse: it's the 30th of December

Me: what?

I've been asleep for almost 4months. How is that even possible? I touched my
stomach and felt a scar. I lifted my hospital dress and saw that I had I scar there.
Tears rolled down my cheeks. I can't wait to face Atha and watch him and the police
take him to jail, that's if he isn't in jail already. The nurses organized food for me and
I ate a bit then left it. I didn't have much of an appetite but I ate because I still had
medication to take. After eating, I pushed the food tray away and just closed my
eyes. I wasn't sleeping but I was just lost in my thoughts. Whatever went wrong with
Atha? How could he shoot me when he claims that he loves me, why cause me so
much hurt and in the presence of my family and my sons? What would have
happened if one of those bullets had hit the twins? Yeses I would have killed him
with my own hands. While I was resting my eyes, two nurses walked in and the
moment they saw that my eyes were closed, they must have assumed that I was
sleeping. I was about to open my eyes and sit up when I heard their conversation

Nurse1: ndiyakuxelela wethu, she woke up today. Shame poor Aphile

Nurse2: poor Aphile my nonexistent testicles. She knows that Smith is married and
she still went after him. What did she expect? That his wife was never going to wake
up?

Nurse1: I still feel bad for her. She will be so devastated

I shuffled around then yawned and sat up

Nurse2: you are up Lwandile. Ndizise izipilisi zakho

I flashed her a fake smile, took the pills and threw them in my mouth then took a gulp
of water

Nurse1: well then goodnight

I smiled again as I placed the covers over my head. Who is this Aphile person and
what's the deal ngaye noSoso? I swear if Soso has been cheating on me, this
marriage will be over before it even starts. I tossed and turned throughout the night
until the pills knocked me out and, in the morning, I was woken up by a different
nurse with the doctor. They did their check up and tests then the nurse left while the
doctor stayed

Me: when do you think I can go home doc?

Doc: in a week max

Me: I can't wait

Just then the door opened, I couldn't see who was at the door since the doctor was
blocking my view but within seconds his scent filled the room and the sound of his
voice sent chills down my spine. I'd missed him so much but his voice wasn't strange
because its like I could hear it while I was in the coma and as much as I couldn't
make out what he was saying but I could hear his voice. When he saw that I'm
awake, he literally dropped the flowers that he was holding and rushed to my side.
He looked drop dead gorgeous in his denim shorts, baby blue v-neck short sleeved
tight-fitting T-shirt and white Adidas sneakers. If I had the strength, I would have
jumped out the bed and straight into his arms. When his phone rang and he declined
the call, I knew something was up but I didn't want to be too obvious about it. When
he got in bed with me and I placed my head on his chest while his arm was snaked
around my waist, I didn't care about what had happened while I was in a coma
because this absolutely gorgeous and sexy man was all mine.

Soso: sthandwa sam

Me: hmmm

Him: I missed you so much. Its been such a sad and hurtful time without you. I
wished everyday that it was me that was shot and not you. You are my everything
mamakhe and ndicela uxolo ngokuthi azange ndakukhusela. I failed you within
minutes of being your husband. Please find it in your heart to forgive me

I felt wetness drop on the top of my head and I lifted myself from his embrace to look
at him and he was crying. Not just light crying but sobbing crying

Me: hey, baby its not your fault. There was nothing you could do. I don't blame you,
no one does.

I lifted my head to his then gently pecked his lips but he pulled me in for a deeper
kiss which left me feeling a little damp between my legs. I moaned in his mouth and
broke the kiss when I felt his erection on my inner thigh

Him: I can't wait to take you home and make love to you. I have a lot of releasing to
do and feeling your hot skin against me isn't helping one bit

If only he knew how much I was in heat and in need of his touch in every part of my
body. We spent the rest of the day just talking and catching up. Every time the
nurses tried to kick him out, he refused. The only thing that led to him leaving was
the pills taking their toll on me and I started getting drowsy

Me: baby, I'm getting sleepy

Him: its OK my love. I'll go get you food and snacks wena just rest

I nodded, he got out of bed, adjusted his shorts then kissed my forehead

Him: I love you so much Lwandile. You are my everything baby wam

I smiled, slightly blushing of course. My man is gorgeous when he is so vulnerable.

Its cute and sexy at the same time

Me: I love you more babe. I'll see you tomorrow

Him: tomorrow? Why tomorrow?

Me: its New Year’s Eve, I'm sure you have plans

Him: I do. With my gorgeous wife and our kids right here. No one and nothing are
more important than you guys. Lala Mrs me. I'll be back later

He blew me a kiss which I caught and placed on my heart. The minute he walked
out, I grabbed the pillow he was resting on and cuddled with it then drifted off to
dreamworld. I love my king and our princes and princess.
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Lwa

*5 years later*

Soso: come on babe we really have to get going. Our flight is in an hour and we still
have to drop off the kids at my parents' house

Me: that's easy for you to say that, you not the one that is carrying 2 babies in your
stomach

He walked up to me, stopping me from packing, then he took my hands in his, got on
his knees and kissed my belly and his kids kicked me

Him: and I thank you everyday for blessing me with this gift of fatherhood again. You
look absolutely gorgeous my love

I was dressed in a pink maxi dress with my slippers and my weave was tied in a
messy bun.

Me: stand up baby so you can help me pack

Just then there was a knock at our door. The knock was soft and I knew it was
Yandisa so Soso went to open the door

Yandi: morning daddy. Morning mommy

Me: morning baby. Have you packed?

Yandi: yep but the suitcase is too small mommy. I need a big one

Me: Lwandiso please go look at what your child packed and how she packed

He picked his daughter up and left our room while I finished packing. Soso was
finally taking me on the honeymoon we were supposed to go on after getting married
but life got in the way. We were going to Miami for a week. I finished packing, got
everything in check then went to check on the boys. I walked to their room and found
them trying to close the suitcase

Me: did you guys pack or did you just throw clothes in?
Loy: we packed mommy. The suitcase is too small

Q: mom can't we go to malum Sakhile's house? Its more fun there

Me: since when don't you like uncle Mike and aunt Pali? I thought you lo