*FIERCE*

*INSERT 01*
*SABRINA*
I grab my bag

And pack a few things

Just a change of clothes for

tomorrow

Or whenever I decide to
return

When I visit him

I barely even want to come
back home

I just need a brake out of this

house

My mother and her mother

are getting on my nerves

So I know I need to leave

Before I burst

I put on my sneakers

And grab my bag with car

keys

I walk out my room locking it

And they’re in the lounge

Watching real housewives

Me : I am out

They look at me

As I rush to the door

Mom : and then ?

I turn holding the door
handle

Me : what ?

Mom : where are you going ?

Me : to my boyfriend’s , I’ll
be back tomorrow …maybe

She sighs
My grandmother turns back
to the TV

Mom : just like that ?

Me : mom please , let’s not

do this . I said I am leaving ,
you know where I went

I get out closing the door

I walk to my car and get in
driving out
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I get to his place

And I know he’s not home

yet
He has lectures

And since he’s working after

them

It’ll be a while before he

comes back

I use my key
It’s a good thing he gave it
to me

Because I would struggle

When I want to leave home

I get in

And the place is clean

I head upstairs to his room

And place my bag on the

bed

I take off my clothes

And put on his sweatpants

With his t-shirt

I walk back downstairs

And put on music

While I get busy with the

pots

Just something light and

simple

I am not really a fan

But I do cook for my man
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I’m all done cooking

I’m just busy on my laptop ,

checking my emails
The door opens

I am not startled

Because I know it’s him

I look at him as he walks in

He walks over

And pecks my cheek

I smile

Meli : this is a nice surprise

Me : babe …give me a proper

kiss

He laughs

I tilt my face
He leans over and we kiss

After a while he pulls out

And we lock eyes

Meli : have I told you how

much I love you today ?

I blush
Me : yes

Meli : well I just have to

again

Me : I am not complaining ,
at all

Meli : I love you

Me : man , you just do
everything right . I love you
tons

He places his car keys on the

table

Me : how was your day ?

Meli : hectic
Me : still working on the
contract ?

Meli : yeah , and it doesn’t

seem like we’re winning

Me : I can take a look if you

like

Meli : but babe you’re busy

with the pharmacy
I am helping out with his
pharmacy

That he just opened

I am not clued up

But I do pitch in where I can

He works hard
He’s studying

And doing an internship

Also the business he’s just

started

Me : and it’s doing well , I

can see what’s happening
with the property contract
He smiles

Meli : well thank you

I wink at him

And he laughs

Me : what you busy with ?

Me : checking for a reply on
the UCT application

Meli : without a doubt , you’ll

get in

Me : it worries me though

Meli : I have no doubt you’ll

get in , you worked hard
Me : not that per se

Meli : then ?

Me : the distance

Meli : and I’ll come see you ,

like we discussed this

Me : what if you …
Meli : no , I am not going to
allow you to do this . We
spoke about this , and
reached an agreement . They
accept you , and we’ll make
us work like we have been

I laugh

Me : we see each other

regularly , and it’s been easy
Meli : nothing is ever easy

I shake my head

Me : you never cease to

amaze me

I think God just created this

man for me
Not a lot of men would be
okay with this

Their girlfriends moving to

another city

While they remain behind

Of course , with distance

things are not easy
And sometimes that’s just
how temptations find a door

Meli : let me go take a

shower

Me : can I join you ?

He laughs

Meli : you’re busy

I get up

Me : this can wait

He laughs taking my hand

and we walk upstairs
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*MELISIZWE*
She trails down

With water dripping down

our bodies

And she gets down on her

knees

Stroking my dick
She lifts her eyes and we lock
eyes

Slowly she licks the tip with

her tongue

Me : fuck !

I grunt hard

I grab the back of her head

And she goes on to take the
whole length inside her head

I thrust in slowly

Making sure not to hurt her

She grabs on my thighs

Closing her eyes

And she moans

As I pick up my pace

Feeling my dick twitch inside

her mouth

I shoot up my seed inside of

her
And she licks me clean

I slowly move back

And smash my lips on hers

We kiss as my hands trail

down to her coochie

Rubbing my finger on her clit

She pulls out of the kiss

Throwing her head back

She lifts her leg and I hold it

with my free hand

And rub my dick on her

coochie open

Slowly I slide in
She welcomes me , moaning
in pleasure

I thrust in slowly

Going in deeper , tapping

her sweet spot

Sabrina : oh baby ….
She bites her lower lip

I place my hand on her neck

Slightly choking her

As I pound in harder ,
pinning her against the wall

Sabrina : oh shit ….right there

baby ….
I slide down her neck

Sucking hard on it

As her legs shiver

Sabrina : Ahhhh …..

She throws her head back

And she orgasms

I thrust through her orgasm

slowly

Our bodies clapping against

each other

And my dick jerks inside of

her , leaving my seed inside
of her
I let go of her leg

And hold her into my arms

Tilting her face and we kiss

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*COLLIN*
I take a sip of my coffee

And my mother keeps

throwing glances at me

I’ve been ignoring her

But she’s not giving me rest

I feel her eyes on me

She’s literally piercing
through me

I take a deep breath

And close my laptop

I look at her

And she looks down

Me : spit it out

She looks at me , like she

wasn’t starring at me just
now

Me : you have been starring

at me

Mom : really ?
Me ; okay , I’ll get going if
there’s nothing

She just nods

I get up and pack my things

Me : bye

Mom : have a productive day

I laugh grabbing my car keys
and laptop bag walking out

This woman is strange

But I know soon she will spit

out what’s eating her

Without a doubt , it has all to

do with me
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*FIERCE*
*INSERT 02*
*A WEEK LATER*
*SABRINA*
I finish the property contract

And send Meli an email

I get up and walk in the
kitchen

Making myself a snack

I can’t even eat

I should have gotten a

response by now
But nothing

I am so worried I might not

get accepted

I don’t want to study at UJ

My hope is at UCT

And I feel like I didn’t get

accepted
Why would they wait this
long to send a response ?

Besides , I think we all know

if any application takes
longer

You should know your

application was not
successful
Clearly , mine wasn’t
successful

Meli tried to make me feel

better

Hence I’ve been here all

week

I haven’t gone home

I know they would just stress
me worse

But as soon as he was out

the door

I fell back into my anxiety

Now I can’t even keep still

I can’t down anything

Hence I haven’t eaten until

this time

If only I had something to do

, just to distract myself

I would be keeping myself

busy with it
But now that I am done with
that contract

There’s nothing to do

At least it got my mind off

this thing

For a while

I walk back to the lounge

I binge on Tv just watching a
series , and it’s not even
helping

My laptop reports an email

I get up and grab it

Thinking it’s Meli

He has a tendency to
respond to any emails

I send to him with an email

as well instead of calling or
texting

But it’s not him

My palms sweat , as I see it’s

from UCT
I close my eyes saying a
short silent prayer

Crossing fingers and hoping

for the best

I read the email

And I don’t believe it

I pace around

Trying to wrap my head

around it

I read the email again

And I am not dreaming

As I pinch myself
I let out a scream

Me : oh my God !

I can’t believe this

I quickly close my laptop

And grab my car keys

I run out locking the door

And get into my car driving
out

There isn’t even traffic

But I feel like this car is not

going fast enough

After what feels like forever

I arrive and park next to his
car

I grab my laptop and get out

of the car locking it

I walk inside heading to

reception

Me : hi Lala
She looks at me with a smile

Lala : hey

Me : is he in ?

Lala : yes he’s in meeting ,

but he’s almost done

I sight a bit disappointed

Me : okay , I’ll wait

I move to the waiting area

taking a seat
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*MELISIZWE*
Me : excuse me

I answer the call

Me : Lala ?

Lala : Mr S , Ms Sabrina is
here

I chuckle

Me : send her up

I drop the call

Me : Uhm ….I think we have
covered up …

A slight knock comes at the

door

She didn’t waste time

Me : come in
She walks in

And I can just tell she’s in a

hurry

She must have even left the

house in a hurry

Judging by the way she’s

dressed
I look at the client

Me : please excuse me , HR
will get back to you before
the end of the day with the
contract signed

We shake hands

And she gets up walking out

Me : baby

I walk over to her

Sabrina : I’m sorry I disturbed

your meeting , I didn’t know
you were busy . Lala said I
can come through

Me : you matter more ,

what’s happening
She say nothing but opens
her laptop

I just watch , until she’s done

She turns it to me

I read the email

And she gets all teary

Me : baby …

I place the laptop on the

desk

And engulf her into my arms

, giving her a tight hug

Me : I am so proud of you
Sabrina : I didn’t think I’ll get
it

Me : come on , you did it

She laughs with tears

streaming down her face

Sabrina : thank you so much

for believing in me
I would be a fool not to
believe in her

Or what she wants

And seeing this reaction

I am certain I’ve made the

right decision to let her go
study
It clearly means so much to
her

She had to drive here to

show me in person

Instead of just calling or

waiting for me to get back
home

She truly deserves it

And being an uptight
boyfriend wouldn’t work

I am all for her

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*FIERCE*
*INSERT 03*
*SABRINA*
This feels like a damn dream
I took a chance and it paid
off

I didn’t even think it will

I could have studied

anywhere

In fact UFS in QwaQwa was

offering me a space
But I wanted UCT

That’s where I see myself

studying

And now that I got it

I am more than happy

I am so ready for this

As of Monday I have to leave

So I have to get my things in

order

Pack what I’ll need , and

what’s important

And look for accommodation

That’s also another thing I
have to talk to Meli about

I don’t know if I’m renting or

buying

Although I know what I want

I’ll just have to hear his

thoughts
I can’t just decide on my own
what I want

He has to be comfortable

And okay with my decision

as well

Best when it’s our decision

And not just mine

Once you commit yourself to
someone

Its no longer about you

And what you want

You always have to consider

the next person
Even though I would prefer
buying

I will most definitely be there

for plus four years

Might be a forever thing , if it

turns out I like the place

And who knows ?

Maybe he might join me as
well

But definitely that won’t be a

thing of the now

I still need a place though

I think buying is better than

renting
I want to be able to do what I
want with the space

As for my mother , I know

she won’t care

They might actually be happy

that I’m giving them space

We get along yes , but the

relationship isn’t so nice
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I walk in the lounge with a
plate of his food

Meli : thank you baby

Me : you’re welcome
I sit down and sip on my
drink

While he goes on to eat

And I let him finish

He takes his plate to the

kitchen

And comes back

He takes my glass and drink

Me : can we talk ?

Meli : sure

Me : about moving

Meli : don’t tell me you’re

having seconds thoughts
I smile

Me : what am I doing ? Will I

buy an apartment , or renting
?

Meli : what do you want ? I

want you to buy

I laugh
Meli : share

He chuckles

Me : no , I want to buy as
well . But still , I needed to
talk to you

He smiles taking my hand

into his
Meli : I appreciate it my love ,
but I’ll feel better knowing
you own the place

Me : okay then , I’ll start

looking

Meli : you’ll send me the

prices of what you like
I love being this man’s
girlfriend

And I wouldn’t change it for

anything
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*MELISIZWE*
This woman doesn’t waste
time
She’s already found a few
places she likes

I just think the one closer to

campus is much better

Even though it’s a bit steep

But I don’t mind because I

am paying and not her
Just as long as she will be
happy

She has her own money ,

she’s an independent woman

But it’s a man’s job to take

care of his woman

And you can’t say she has

her own money
Yes she has it

But her money is her money

And the money I make is for

her

I mean , a happy girlfriend

Means a healthy relationship

It’s just as simple as that
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*SABRINA*
I am actually more excited

Than I am nervous
I just hope I’ll settle in just
fine

Meli : I am going to miss you

insanely

I lift my head and look at him

Me : promise me , that we’ll

talk everyday . No matter
how busy our day gets , or
how tired we are ,
communication first baby

Meli : I promise you , don’t

worry yourself . I am not
looking at anyone besides
you

I smile

Me : I love you
Meli : and I love you

I lean over kissing him

It’s my last night with him

I have to go back home

So I can prepare myself

And get my things ready

But I’ll definitely spend the

night here before I leave
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*FIERCE*
*INSERT 04*
*SABRINA*
I am all packed

Flight ticket booked

I am all ready

Mom : I just hope you will

behave yourself there

She better not be trying to

give me the speech
My mother and I we’re just
so past that

I mean , she didn’t even raise

me

I can listen to her mother

Not her
This woman left me when I
was three years old

And she went cruising

around the world in a yatch

With some rich man

And when he died

She came back with money

And threw it at me

As she had always done

I mean , I know her money

Not her as a mother

We don’t have that mother

and daughter relationship
Me : why wouldn’t I ?

Mom : you will be far away

from home , I don’t
understand why you want to
study so far

Me : simple , so I can be far

She frowns
Me : sometimes you defeat
me , when you start wanting
to act like a mother

Mama : Sabrina !

She scolds

I look at her respectfully

Me : I am sorry

My mother looks at me
shaking her head

Mom : and I am your mother

, I don’t act to be one

Me : and there’s a difference

I turn and walk to my room

Before I get scolded worse
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*MELISIZWE*
Skhu : is that what I think it is
?

I laugh closing the box

Skhu : come on man , let me
see

I heave a sigh handing it to

him

He opens it and smiles

impressed
Skhu : so we’re there already
?

I nod

Skhu : and you’re certain ?

Me : yeah , I love her . I only

want her , and no one else
Skhu : you’re both young
though

Me : so ? There’s no age
restriction

Skhu : don’t get me wrong , I

am all for supporting you all
the way

Me : thank you
I take the box from him

Skhu : as long as you’re

ready , and certain . You have
my support

Me : thanks

He pulls the chair ans sits

down
Me : she’s leaving for Cape
Town on Monday

Skhu : she got in at UCT ?

Me : yeah

Skhu : congratulations to her

, you didn’t have a doubt
Me : I know my girl , and
she’s a damn genius . It was
gonna be their loss , if they
didn’t take her

He laughs

Skhu : I’ve never seen a man

this in love

I chuckle
Me : let love find you , and
you’ll understand

Skhu : I’ll rather not , I enjoy

my peaceful life . Without
anyone living just to annoy
me for their life

Me : you’re missing out , they

annoy us but we love it
He laughs

I grab the file and hand it to

him

Skhu : let me get going , let

me know how that goes like

Me : sure
He grabs the file and get up
walking out

I place the box in the drawer

Opening my laptop
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*COLLEN*
With varsity reopening

I am moving back to my
place

And ever since my mother

has been home

She has been avoiding me

I don’t know what’s wrong
with her

But I won’t wreck my brain

over that

When the time comes

And she is ready to talk she

will
I just hope it’s not something
serious

Like she is sick or something

Because if it’s something like

that

Then I would like to know

Me : I’ll be back in two weeks
or so

She looks at me

Mom : do come back home

I chuckle grabbing my car

keys

Me : I will
She’s talking as if I never do

Me : I’ll call when I get to my

place

Mom : are you in a rush ?

Me : no

I sit down
Yes I want to leave right now

So I can beat the traffic and

all

But if this is her wanting to

talk

Then I am listening
I will sit , even if I arrive late

Or get stuck in traffic

It’s fine

Mom : don’t be offended by

this

Me : okay
Mom : are you gay ?

I frown in confusion

And she’s just starring at me

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*FIERCE*
*INSERT 05*
*COLLEN*
Mom : I asked that you don’t
be offended

Me : I think I got that part

Mom : I am not insinuating

anything

Me : okay
Mom : I am just asking to
understand

Me : what gave the idea that

I am gay ?

She sighs

Mom : do you have a

girlfriend ?
Me : no

Mom : then maybe a

boyfriend ? Because I don’t
mind which one it is

I chuckle

Me : there’s none
She frowns

Mom : as in you’re not

dating ?

Me : yes , I am not dating .

And most importantly , I am
not gay . African women are
too gifted , I can’t ignore all
that
She laughs

Me : besides , I don’t have

those kind of feelings for
other men . So I am not gay
once again

Mom : okay , but why are

you not dating ?
Me : work keeps me busy ,
besides I haven’t met the
woman I want to settle with

Mom : but you’re busy out

there

I laugh

Me : let’s not go there

Mom : okay , I was just
asking . Because I have never
seen you with a woman

Me : nor have you ever seen

me with a man , stop with
these thoughts of yours

We laugh
I get up and grab my bag
with car keys

Me : I am gone

Mom : at least take good

better care of yourself , since
you don’t have a woman to
do that for you

Me : bye
I walk out laughing walking
to my car

Parents out there are not

encouraging their kids to
date

Yet here is mine

Very awkward
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*MELISIZWE*
I do last check ups

And I see no fault

I hope nothing goes wrong

I am sweating
I am kind of nervous

Not knowing how she will

react

With Sabrina you never know

She’s a woman of her own

mind
I just hope this is it

Because I have been thinking

about this for a few months

Hopefully she feels as I feel

I’ve been in love with this girl

for years

And we’ve been friends

I think it’s time to just take
things to the next level

At this stage in our

relationship

I believe we are there , to

take the next step

I know I am ready
This whole plan

It would work out much

better

If we’re both in it

Lights flash on the window ,

and I know it’s her
I take a deep breath

And anxiously walk to the

door

I don’t know how to react

If I should open the door for

her

Or just let her walk in

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*SABRINA*
I open the door

And walk in

He’s right by the door

And I look around

My jaw drops

Yes my man is the romantic

types

But he doesn’t do these kind

of gestures

It’s just not him

Me : babe

I look at him

He takes my hand and leads

me in

Me : what’s going on ?

He’s so nervous
Me : tell me what’s going on
?

Meli : it’s a date , our last

night before you leave

Me : wait …

I sigh
Me : if you want to dump me
, let me have you for one last
night . And when I get to
Cape Town , you can send
me a text . Dump me over a
text , because I don’t want to
hear your voice saying that .
When I come back , I’ll still
let you fill me up . Fucking all
my sane senses , and when I
leave you can’t continue
with your break up
He laughs

Meli : fuck this shit ! I am a

nervous wreck

Me : I can tell , so what’s

going on ?
Meli : I thought we’ll have
dinner first , but clearly I am
bad at this so ….

He moves back

And reaches in his back

pocket

He takes out a small black

box
He goes down on one knee

I swallow hard

He opens the box

And my eyes pop

Tears burn my eyes

Me : yes

He frowns

Me : you’re proposing right ?

He laughs

Meli : yes , but why are you

ruining it ?
Me : yes , I will marry you

He shakes his head

Taking my hand

He slides the ring on my ring

finger

And it’s a perfect fit

He gets up

Meli : you’re one awkward

woman

I laugh

As she smashes his lips on

mine

And we kiss
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*FIERCE*
*INSERT 06*
*MELISIZWE*
Now that all is said and done
I call so much better

And somehow relived

Even though I didn’t go as I

planned

Because I didn’t even say a

word
But what matters is that she
agreed

She said yes

I don’t care about the rest

I gently place her down on

the bed
And she slowly lifts up her
upper body

Taking my t-shirt off

And I lift her dress up

I move back unbuckling my

pants

Taking them off

Slowly pulling down her
panty

And I position myself in

between her thighs

I slide my hand down feeling

her moist

I rub my dick down her open

As she parts her legs further

I move up slightly , sliding

inside of her slowly

Filling her up

Sabrina : Ahhhh shit …baby …

She bites her lips grabbing
on sheets

As she takes the whole of me

inside of her

I thrust in harder and deeper

Tapping her sweet spot

She brings her hands to my
back

And she scratches me hard

As she coochie grips against

my dick

Wrapping around me

And her cum graces my dick

As she lets out screams of
pleasure
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*COLLEN*
I am glad the place is clean
At least I won’t have to do
any of that right now

I hope the aunt who helps

me

She will come tomorrow

That’s if she remembers it’s a

Monday
It’s been too stuffy in here

Without anyone opening the

door

Or all the Windows

Just two windows are

opened

And the rest are closed

So I am not living the scent

Even with the air fresheners

Just the fact that it was

closed for two weeks

I head upstairs with my bag

I just need a shower

And I’ll sleep

I’ll see the rest tomorrow

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*SABRINA*
I look at him

I’m so emotional

It feels like I am walking

away from what we have

Even though I know that’s

not the case
I just can’t help how I am
feeling

I take a deep breath

Meli : don’t cry , you’ll make

me cry

Me : I love you
He grins

Meli : I love you mama

Me : I love you so much ,

don’t ever forget that

Meli : don’t speak like you’re

leaving me forever

Me : I hate that I am leaving

Meli : remember why , that’s
the spirit

I just take embrace in his

arms

With my head on his chest

I am praying I don’t lose him

My flight gets called

And I slowly pull out of the

embrace

Me : bye

He cups my face smashing

his lips on mine

And we kiss
I am holding so tight on him

I just don’t want to let go

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It was just a bitter sweet
moment
Saying goodbye

I didn’t know it was gonna be

this hard

I was just too excited to leave

But now I already miss him

And the flight has just taken

off
No matter what may come

I’ll do everything in my
power

To make sure distance

doesn’t come in between us

That we keep the promises

we made it each other
And to him , I hope it’s the
same

Meli is not my first boyfriend

I’ve had a boyfriend before

him

My first love
But it feels like Meli was just
created for me

This one is mine and just

mine

He’s not even my virgin

breaker

What I feel for him

It isn’t based on such

I am truly just a girl in love

And I know that man loves

me

He doesn’t even know to say

I just know
Just by the look he gives me

No man has ever looked at

me like he does

And if it’s not a man looking

at me like that

Then I don’t want it

I take a deep breath

Closing my eyes

Two hours , is not long

But I could shut some eye

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 07*

*SABRINA*
I am so tired
I had to go to fetch the keys
from the estate agent

Talk about unprofessional

I barely even got any decent

sleep

The apartment was a bit

messy
And I had to clean

I couldn’t stand the mess

Now I only have an hour to

get ready

And make it to campus

All thanks to Meli for waking

me up
If he didn’t call

I’d probably still be asleep

even now

I head in the shower

And take a quick one

The weather is a bit pleasing

I’ll just put on something
light

Shorts and a vest

.
.
.
.
The campus is huge
But I seem to have found my
way around

It’s not all so bad

Just a bunch of student all

over

I’ve done my stuff

And now I’m all sorted

I’m just awaiting lessons on
Wednesday

At least I got tomorrow to

regroup

I check the time

And it’s just before 12:00

I head over to the parking lot

I should stop by the mall

And grab something to eat

And some groceries as well

As I reach my car another car

parks next to me
Just as I open my car

Noise erupts

I turn and look around

And it’s the car that just

drove in

Students are going crazy

More especially the girls

The guys are looking in

admiration

I watch as the driver walks

out

And damn !

I know my man is hot

But fuck !

He doesn’t even seem fazed

He just locks his car

And turns to find me staring

at him

I am not fazed either

He flashes a smile

God sometimes he takes his

time

When he create others

What a specimen!

Him : hi
I clear my throat

Me : hey

He chuckles and turns

around walking away

I smile getting in my car

I drive out of campus headed
to the mall
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
Liam : the girls are at it again
?

I laugh

Me : they don’t get tired

Liam : worse , with new ones
. It’s like a cycle all over every
year

Me : it’s tiring

Liam : you’re one of a kind , if

it were another …they would
have fucked half of campus ,
if not the whole of it . If girls
were throwing themselves on
them like this

Me : hey , I don’t even find

these girls attractive

He laughs

Liam : not even a single one

I open my mouth to say
something

But I stop and think for a

second

Me : no

He laughs
Liam : let me go , I’m at
admin

Me : see you around

He walks out

I lean back on my chair

As my mind trails off the

parking lot
She stared at me

But she wasn’t crazy like

everyone

I chuckle shaking my head

.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I push the trolley through the
isles getting what I need

I still need to go eat

Thought I’ll do groceries first

To avoid the long queues as

the day progress
I take out my phone and
make a call

After a few rings her answers

Meli : mama

Me : hey babe

Meli : hey , are you okay ?

Me : I am hungry

He laughs

Meli : you’re done ?

Me : yeah

Meli : okay , what do you feel

like ?
Me : ribs , buffalo wings or
something sticky

Meli : alright …

My phone beeps

I check the message

And it’s a bank notification

I laugh

Me : really ?

Meli ; yes , go eat

Me : babe … thank you , but I

was just telling you

Meli : and I sorted you out

Me : thank you

Meli : I’ll call you back

Me : I love you

Meli : I love you

I drop the call

And finish my shopping

I head over to the que

And someone taps my

shoulder

I am already annoyed

I turn back
And relax my face as I see it’s
a girl

Her : hi , I am sorry my name

is Bina . I think I saw you at
UCT earlier on

Me : Sabrina , probably . But I

barely watch my
surroundings well
Bina : no sweat , I just wanted
to say hi

Strange

Me : okay

She turns

Me : you wanna grab

something to eat ?
She turns and looks at me

Bina : yeah sure

She walks over

And we just chat as the line

moves along

She’s a second year

Must be very forward to just
approach me like this
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 08*
*A WEEK LATER*
*SABRINA*
This weekend I had plans to
head to to Joburg

Someone would think I am

crazy

I’ve been for a week

And already I want to there

I miss my man

I just want to feel him inside

of me

Just to have him fill me up

But dude has to go to

Limpopo for business
I am so bummed

Good thing I asked him first

Otherwise I would have gone

there

And find him leaving

I just have one lecture left for

the day
And I am done

I’ll probably be cooped up in

my apartment all weekend

Bina and I we’re cool

You can even say we’re

trying this friendship thing
But I can’t call it that yet

She’s a cool chick though

I head over to the cafeteria

And she’s already waiting for

me

I pull a chair and sit down

Bina : you look down

I sigh

Me : I miss my man

She laughs

Bina : you will not survive this

distance
Me : I will , just ….

And he walks in

You just can’t miss when he

walks in a room

Because the surrounding will

just tell you

Me : who is he ?
Bina : Collen Flay

Me : huh !

Bina : he’s a lecture , and

please you have a boyfriend

Me : mhm
Bina : don’t go there , you
can’t date your lecture

Me : if I didn’t utter the

words , don’t put them in my
mouth

I dart my eyes off of him

.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I head over to check in

Taking out my phone

I call her

And she quickly answers

Me : hey

Sabrina : man I miss you

Me : I miss you too baby ,

but I promise . I’ll make it up
to you okay ?.

She sighs
Sabrina : yeah , have you left
yet ?

Me : checking in

Sabrina : alright , I’ll probably

sleep throughout your flight .
But wake me up when you
arrive
Me : I will love , and I love
you okay ?

Sabrina : I love you

Me : okay , we’ll talk later

Sabrina : travel safe

Me : bye
I drop the call

I know she’s moody where

she is

But she will be okay

This distance doesn’t bother

me at all
The fact that just a week
she’s been gone

And she was ready to come

back

And all just to see me

My girl will always be mine

.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
I look at her as she walks to
her car

I open my car door

Still a few feet away

And she looks at me

As I walk over to my car

Me : we gotta stop meeting

like this

Her : don’t , but I don’t

believe in coincidences

Me : my sentiments
She smiles opening her door

She gets in and drives away

I take a deep breath

Getting in my car
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
For the first time ever

I am feeling so conflicted
with myself

I don’t even get what’s

happening

But I am an adult enough to

figure it all out
I don’t just wanna overthink
it

I’ll end up wrecking my brain

over this

I get inside my apartment

And take my sneakers off

Placing my bag on the couch

I sit down on the couch

I should cook

But I am lazy

And I’m lazy to get in the car

and drive again
I just end up laying down

I’ll just see myself when I

wake up

I don’t even want to watch

TV

It’s been a day

And my mood is down

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 09*
*COLLEN*
I find myself at home
My sister is out as usual

And my mother is all alone

Mom : it’s nice that you

visited

Me : I told you I’ll come

Mom : I haven’t cooked

Me : don’t worry , let’s go to
Gate way

She smiles

Me : what ?

Mom : are you going to spoil

me ?
Me : yes

Mom : say no more

She gets up

And rushes upstairs

I chuckle shaking my head

Her relationship with my
sister is not that good

She’s that one child who’s

gone out of control

She doesn’t listen to anyone

She doesn’t whatever the shit

she wants to do
And the fact that my father
left us

She blames my mother for it

Which is nonsense

That man met a woman

And left us for her

He didn’t just leave my
mother

He also left us

And she’s done everything in

her power to raise us

So I don’t get involved in

what my sister does
She’s only 19

And she already has two kids

from different father’s

My mother put her foot

down

And refused to raise the

babies
So the father’s took them

It’s a thing with her

She just doesn’t care about

anything

Not even her own future

After her first baby at 16

She dropped out of school

Her life is partying

Obviously she gets no

money from us

Definitely men sponsor her

I just don’t care

One thing about me

I don’t help someone who

doesn’t want the help

So she’s barely home

And I know my mother is

always mostly by herself
Hence I come home too
often

I have my own place

Because I just want to be

closer to campus

It’s quite a drive from here

And doing that everyday

Would just tire me

But I come home as often as

I can

So my mother doesn’t feel

like she’s alone

I know she gets lonely being

in this house all alone
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I shiver insanely

As I feel a shadow hoovering

over me

I open my eyes
And almost jump off the
couch

But he laughs

And I calm down

immediately

I would never think it’s him

Because he’s not supposed
to be here

This is not Limpopo

It’s that laugh that got to me

Me : what the fuck !

Meli : someday someone will

steal you
Me : don’t be crazy ! You
picked my lock

Meli : what ? You were not

answering , I knew you were
sleeping . I wasn’t going to
stay in the car for hours

Me : I swear I am dating a
criminal
I get up

And hug him

Me : you smell so good

He chuckles

And tilts his face

His lips gracing mine

We kiss

Meli : you ate ?

Me : I want you

He deep chuckles
Meli : let’s make it fast , so
we can go out eat

I pull him towards me

My hands already holding on

his pants

I unbucke them

As I lay down on the cough

And he pulls my shorts off

His shirt follows

And he gets down in

between my thighs

His finger slides down my

open
Meli : shit …

He grunts

I move my waist , sliding my

hand down

I grab his dick

And rub it against my open

Me : Ohhh fuck !

I waste no time sliding it in

And thrusts underneath him

He starts thrusting in

Meeting my thrusts

Me : Ohhh yeah !
I let out moans in pleasure

As he’s tapping deep inside

of me

Rolling my eyes back as I feel

the pleasure building up

And he groans going in

faster
I grab his ass cheeks

Pushing him down

Me : ahhh ….

And he pounds in harder

My body fails me
As my lower body shakes

And I gush my cum all over

his dick

He goes on to thrust fast

Meli : ohh fuck …baby …

He sucks hard on my neck

And I feel it , as he pounds in
his seed inside of me
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
My mother being my mother

She wanted to shop first

I don’t know how many

stores we want to
And finally she’s done

Now we’re headed to eat

But I am not complaining

And I don’t mind

Because just as long as she’s

happy
All is well

We walk inside the

restaurant

And we’re ushered to our

table

We order
And as our drinks come

My eyes dart to the door

And there she is

With some guy

The way they look

Without a doubt , they’re
dating

She looks at me

And as usual she’s not

making a big deal out of it

I shift my attention back to

my mother
I just hope she didn’t see me
, looking at her

Because she will grill me

And it will just never end

Worse , I’ll be labelled

Looking at a woman walking

with her man
My mother has no filter

But she doesn’t look like she

saw me

Unless she did , and just

acting like she didn’t

She’s also capable of that , I

know her well
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 10*
*SABRINA*
I am so happy he came

So Limpopo was all just a lie

And he came to see me

I am happy I got to spend

the weekend with him

That’s all I wanted

Him making love to me

Us spending time together

Unfortunately , he is leaving

But I am still happy

nonetheless

I got to spend time with him

He’s taking an afternoon
flight

And I have to drop him at

the airport

He called a cab here

I don’t mind to drop him off

at the airport
Though I hate goodbyes

I know it’s going to hurt to

see him leave

But it is what it is

Me : you packed everything ?

Meli : left the sweatpants for

you
I laugh

Meli : thank you gor a great

weekend

Me : no , thank you for

coming baby

Meli : told you we’ll make it

I peck his lips

And he pulls me into a

deeper kiss

Meli : I’ll miss my flight

I laugh

Me : let’s go
I grab his bag

And he comes behind me

As we walk out

Heading to my car

We get in

And he drives to the airport

With his free hand on my
thighs

I am going to miss him

I keep stealing glances at

him

And he just chuckles saying

nothing
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
Me : why are you crying ?

I pull her closer

Wiping her tears off

Me : I love you mama

She looks at me

I chuckle

Me : you’re so cute
She laughs pecking my lips

Me : I’ll see you soon okay ?

She nods

Me : drive safe , don’t be

crying in the car while driving

Sabrina : I won’t
My flight gets called

I give her a hug

And a kiss one last time

Me : go , I’ll watch you

She laughs turning away

I’ll rather I watch her walk
away

Than her to watch me leave

She’s tough and all

But she’s still a baby at heart

And she loves hard

I know that’s why she’s
feeling emotional right now
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
My sister only decided to
come back home today
And I haven’t said anything
to her

All day

Now I am leaving going to

my place

I’ve already said goodbye to

my mother
She’s happy I spent the
weekend here

As I walk to my car

My sister approaches me

Kate : big brother

Me : Kate
I say opening the car door

Kate : I didn’t know you were

visiting

Me : I’ve been here since

Friday

Kate : oh

She laughs shamelessly

But I know that’s just bullshit

Kate : Uhm ….you look good

Me : mhm

I get inside the car

Kate : I …
I look at her

Kate : can I please ask for a

favour ?

Me : what do you want ?

I knew this was no talk

She knows I hate the kind of

life she lives
So I don’t entertain her
whatsoever

Kate : I need some money

Me : for what ?

Kate : I need …
Me : you need nothing , I buy
groceries . I buy you
cosmetics and clothes , so
you need nothing . I am not
going to give you money to
party

Kate : it’s not to party , I want

to visit the kids

I chuckle
Me : I’m 24 , and I don’t have
kids . You know why ?

She looks down fiddling with

her fingers

Me : because I can’t afford

kids , so if I don’t have
money to make babies . I
most definitely don’t have
money for your kids

Kate : and you wonder why I

live the life I live , it’s because
you and mom don’t support
me

Me : don’t tell me nonsense ,

go back to school and be a
child we’ll take responsibility
of you

I close the door and drive

out

One thing I don’t have

Is time for nonsense

I just don’t have it

And emotions don’t work on
me

Especially over nonsensical

things
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 11*
*TWO MONTHS LATER*
*SABRINA*
I walk in the cafeteria and sit
down

Bina walks in
And she walks over to our
table

She sits down

Bina : hey

Me : hi

We’re still vibing together

Bina : I am so tired

Me : you still have lectures , I

am leaving after this

Bina : lucky you

She looks at her watch

Bina : I’ll grab a sandwich
and bounce

Me : no sweat , please get

me a cooler

She goes on to buy food

I take out my phone

I am just chatting with Meli

I can’t wait for the week to
end

It’s holidays , and we’re

headed home

I’m mostly going for my baby

I’ll see them at home after a

week
I am like a man over
everything

That’s just me , I believe in a

man

Bina : here , I’ll see you

Me : bye
I take my cooler

And she walks out

I get up

And walk to my car

What do you know

This man , again has parked
next to my car

It’s like we’re fighting for the

shade

He’s leaning against his car

And I’m afraid

Even after this long

I still have those feels
whenever , I look at him

Me : hi

He lifts his eyes

I walk over to his car

And lean next to him

Collen : hey

Me : are you fighting me for

my shade or what Mr Flay

Collen : you can’t do that ,

when I don’t even know your
name
Me : meet me for drinks , and
you can know it

He raises his brow

Me : what ? A girl has never

asked you out for drinks ?

Collen : that’s bold

Me : you’ll let me know
where you stand , either that
or you can just ask my name

I move over from his car to

mine

Collen : well ….Cubana 4 pm

He gets into his car

I smile getting into my mine

And he lets me drive out first

.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
I wanna scold myself

On some what am I doing ?

But it’s even just hard to
second guess myself

That was just fucking bold

And when she turned to her

car

I just couldn’t let her be

Especially because no one
has ever approached me like
that

It’s been nine weeks of

insanity

Because we had moments

And she still kept her

distance
The same way I did mine

And now here we are

I don’t even want to put

much thought into it

I’ll see when I get there

I am not even worried if she
will pull up or not

She’s too bold not to

.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
Now that she will be coming
home , in a week or so
I think we should talk about
the engagement

The next step from here on

Just as my phone rings

And I’m still at the office

About to head to a meeting

I answer her call

Me : baby

Sabrina : babe , are you busy

?

Me : I have a few minutes

Sabrina : okay , so I am
heading out to Cubana

Me : nice

She laughs

Sabrina : don’t be mean

Me : no , you just never go

out . And it’s a good thing
Sabrina : I’ll call you

Me : if you make it , you

might be late and get home
tired

Sabrina : don’t test me

Me : if you ever do baby it’s

fine
Sabrina : I can’t wait to see
you

Me : me too

Sabrina : okay , let me get

ready . Don’t forget I love
you

I chuckle
Me : never , I love you too

She drops the call

I pick up the files

And walk out of the office

heading to the boardroom
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 12*
*SABRINA*
Nothing too formal

And I am glad he’s also just

in casual clothes

Jeans , sneakers and a t-shirt

And I’m just dressed the
same

Just with a crop top

Collen : am I still ought to

ask your name

I smile
Me : Sabrina

Collen : lovely name

Me : don’t

We laugh

And our drinks arrive

We’ve also ordered some
snacks

I don’t want a heavy meal

Just something light

Collen : so …why drinks ?

Me : you really want to know

?
Collen : yes

Me : for the past months ,

actually the first time we saw
each other . There’s been
something hanging in
between , and I have been
asking myself what’s that .
And I think I’ve finally figured
it out , I don’t like
uncertainties . Hence I waited
to figure it all

Collen : and what have you

figured ?

Me : that I want you

He raises his brow

I take a sip of my drink

Me : I am engaged , and I
love my fiancé very much

Collen : then ?

Me : you asked , and I

answered you

Collen : mhm …
He shakes his head

Me : just because I want you ,

that doesn’t mean I want to
break up with him

Collen : you want to fuck me

?

I shrug
He laughs

Collen : do I look like a side

nigga material to you mami ?

I smile

Me : never

Collen : mhm , I think we can

make a plan
Me : you don’t say ?

Collen : let’s finish and get

out of here

Me : say no more

We down our drinks

And I ask for a take away of
the snacks

I’ll definitely need to nibble

on this as the night goes on

We walk to my car

And he pins me his location

Collen : I’ll drive behind you

Me : okay

He grins and walks to his car

We drive out , and he drives

behind me

We finally get to the complex

And he lets me in first

I park on the parking lot

And he parks next to me

We get out of our cars

He walks over and takes my

hand as we walk to his
apartment
Walking inside

My eyes trail around

And well , it’s clean

I am not even comparing

anything

But I am impressed
Me : any woman I should
concern myself with ?

Collen : none whatsoever

Me : alright , I don’t like to

attach myself to people’s
things

Collen : and …
He laughs

Me : seriously , I didn’t hide

anything from you . I need to
warm these

Collen : this way

We walk to the kitchen

And he takes the takeaway
and plates it

He puts it in the microwave

He walks over to me

And picks me up

He places me on the kitchen

counter
Collen : I also don’t like
uncertainties

Me : well then , here I am

He smiles leaning over

Getting in between my
thighs
He places his hands on my
waist

Holding me tight

I lock my legs behind his

back

Places my hands on his

shoulders
As his lips grace mine and we
kiss

Shivers go all over my body

As I feel heated

And he deepens the kiss

I lift his t-shirt

And he pulls out of the kiss

His eyes slowly shut

He gets me down the

counter

As I look at his torso ,

admiring his masculine body
He slowly takes my clothes
off

While I unbucke his jeans

Staring deep into his eyes

.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
I bring her closer

As we kiss

Our naked bodies pressed

hard against each other

I lift her up , placing her legs

over my shoulders and back
As I plant soft kisses on her
clean shaved coochie

I nibble on her clit

As she places her hands , on

the back of my head

And I balance my hands on

her ass
Sucking on her clit , feeling
her get closer as her moans
get louder

Sabrina : Ohhhh …

Her thighs shivers against my

cheeks

And he cum graces my

tongue
I suck her clean , and place
her on the kitchen counter

I get in between her thighs ,

rubbing my dick on her
coochie slit

Sabrina : condom

I bite my lip
Sabrina : my pants

I chuckle and lean down ,

grabbing her pants

I take out the condoms

Sabrina : I come prepared

I laugh
Handing her one , she rips it

And slides it on my dick

I move closer , and slide her

slit

Sabrina : shit ….

She throws her head back

As I thrust in hard , and she
welcomes me

Stretching her apart

I lift her one leg over my

shoulder

And pound in harder

He coochie walks closing in
on my dick

And she cums

Sabrina : ahhh ….fuck …

We lock eyes , I bring her

closer

And we lock eyes

As I keep on thrusting

She lowers her eyes ,

watching the friction in
between our parts
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 13*
*SABRINA*
I feel like I will fall down

As he turns me around

And I place my hands on the

kitchen counter
From behind , she slides in
slowly

His hands on my ass

And he pounds in deeper

Me : ahhh ….oh my gosh ….

Tears burn my eyes as

pleasure just builds in
And I just can’t take it in

The more he pounds in

The more I just feel my body

failing me

He slides his under

underneath
And he rubs on my clit
viciously

I let out a scream of pleasure

Me : Ahhhh ….

I let out a gushing orgasm

Accompanied by squirting
And he slaps his dick so hard
on my coochie

And I just squirt more all

over his floor

As I calm down

He slides in again

I lift my head up
And he grabs my waist
pulling me up

My back pressed on his front

And he thrusts in

He lifts my leg

His hand sliding to my clit

I try to push him back

But he pulls me harder

Me : fuck …

I close my eyes as tears of

pleasure runs down my
cheeks
Collen : fuck …

He deep grunts

Me : Ahhhh

And his dick twitches inside

of

He fills up the condom

And he quickly pulls out as it
breaks

He runs his finger

underneath me

I am certain , his cum didn’t

make it inside of me

He turns me around
And picks me into his arms

Walking upstairs , to his

room I believe

As we kiss
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
I look at her

She looks so cute sleeping

We barely slept

Only in the early hours of the

morning

And she’s still asleep even

now

I am actually surprised
I thought by now she would
be awake running around

Grabbing her things and

leaving

But she looks so peaceful

I wanna get up

Make her some breakfast

But I don’t wanna leave her
side

I just can’t seem to bring

myself to get out of bed

I lay back down

And bring her head to my

chest slowly
Making sure not to wake her
up

I cuddle her in my arms

Placing a kiss on her

forehead
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I open my eyes

And I’m well aware where I

am

He’s staring at me

I feel his eyes on me

I slowly lift my eyes and look
at him

Me : hey

He smiles

Collen : hi

I yawn rubbing my eyes

Damn !

What a night !

My body is fucking feeling

the effects

Collen : you slept good ?

I laugh
Me : barely

He chuckles

Collen : no regrets ?

I smile

Me : what am I ? Four ?

He raises his brow

I guess that’s a thing with
him

Collen : I thought by now ,

you’ll be out of here

Me : are you getting rid of

me ?
Collen : no , but who knows ?
Maybe you’ve gotten me out
of your system now , and
you’ll run out of here saying
it’s a mistake

I chuckle sitting up

Me : I am not a child

Collen : so ?
Me : I stand by what I said , I
love my fiancé . I won’t leave
him , but I also want you

Collen : and I thought maybe

this was just lust , and
nothing deep

I laugh
Me : so you fucked me , and
you think I don’t want you
anymore ?

He shrugs

Me : I am not about that ,

but you can think about what
I said
Collen : I don’t want to be
some dirty secret

Me : I’ll never degrade you

like that , I just want you and
with my fiancé still in the
picture . Tell me what you
decide , so I don’t tell him
something I am not certain
about
I get up

Me : I need a shower , you

gonna join me ?

Collen : no need to ask

He gets up and walks to his

bathroom

We both walk in the shower

.
.
.
.
He looks at me

And I’m wondering if he

understands

Or he thinks he can pull a

fast one on me
Collen : honesty will be key
through out this whole
situation

Me : most definitely , of
course both ways . And if you
ever think you can’t , tell me .
I don’t expect any sort of
jealousy
Collen : I think I know what
I’m getting myself into

Me : alright , but you can’t

think you’ll mix me with
other girls

He laughs
Collen : I get that , but you’re
so certain of yourself . Will
your fiancé agree to this ?

Me : that’s for me to worry

about

Collen : and what if he says

no ?

Me : I’ll deal with it

He chuckles

Collen : let me stay out of it ,

but don’t drop me like a hot
potato . So to avoid all that ,
I’ll await to hear from you

Me : works fine

Collen : breakfast
Me : please

He gets up and walks in the

kitchen

I lean back on the couch

thinking hard

Meli is another issue right

now
I thought about Collen all
these months

But I didn’t think to this point

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 14*
*SABRINA*
I dial his number

And it rings for a while

He picks the call

Meli : baby
Me : hey love

I I get over the kitchen

counter

And sit down

Putting the phone on

speaker

Meli : tired ?
Me : yeah

Meli : it must have been a

night

I smile

Me : I miss you

Meli : just a few more days

Me : I just can’t wait to see
you , it feels like it’s been
long

It’s only been two weeks

since I last saw him

He does come around

When work isn’t too much

But now his pharmacy is
doing well

He’s even thinking of

ditching his job

But knowing him

It’s just an idea , when things

get hard
When he pulls himself up

He’s like , he can handle it all

Meli : we’ll make up , when

you come

I take a deep breath

Me : there’s something I
need to tell you

Meli : don’t scare me

I heave a sigh

Meli : you can’t tell me now ?

Me : no , I just want to see

Meli : as long as you’re not
dumping me

Me : no

He chuckles

Meli : okay , then . I can wait ,

as long as you’re okay . And
it’s nothing serious
Me : I ….

Out of nowhere I just feel

overwhelmed

Meli : mama ….talk to me

I smile emotionally

Me : I just want to feel you

fill me up so bad
He laughs

Meli : I swear , being horny

gets you crazy

I chuckle

Meli : I’ll call you after my

meeting
Me : I love you

Meli : I love you too baby

I drop the call

Me : this is crazy !

I get off the counter

And grab my laptop

I check flights online

And there’s one in three

hours

I check for seats available

And luckily there’s a few

I book a ticket
And make a call

On the second ring he

answers

Collen : mami ?

Me : can you take me to

airport , like in two hours or
so ? Please , if you are able
He chuckles

Collen : pin me your location

Me : thank you

Collen : sure

I drop the call

And head upstairs

I won’t pack much

Just a small bag

I still have clothes at home

At his place , I’ll wear his

I just hope I am ready for
what I am about to do

But right now , I just want to

be with him

In his arms
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
I know a lot of people ,
would think I am just an
insane guy

Getting it on with a woman

that’s engaged

And she’s not even hiding

that
But that’s exactly why

Because she didn’t hide it

Sometimes you find yourself

, attracted to someone

Who feels exactly the same

about you
Problem be that they’re with
someone else

You lose out on something

good you might have

Not knowing what taking a

chance might mean

So , I just want to see where

this will go
If it crashes bad , then I’ll
have no regrets of not trying

Just as long as it won’t cost

me

I don’t see a problem in

trying

And I am willing to
As much as it seems like a
crazy situation
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
Collen : should I be asking
when you’ll be back ?

Me : I am not certain , but it’ll

be before varsity opens

Collen : alright

I look at him with a smile

Me : why you asking ?

He chuckles

Me : you’re going to miss me

?

Collen : don’t

We laugh

I am taking a leap here

I don’t know how Meli will
welcome me

Considering that I didn’t

even tell him

But I don’t want to tell him

And I couldn’t wait for a few

days
Collen : so no calls ?

Me : don’t be silly , of course

you can call . But don’t call
me when I’m having sex

He laughs

Collen : what the fuck ?

Me : that would be insane ,
you don’t want to call me
and hear me moaning .
While another man is
sweating on top of me

Collen : I swear , this whole

thing is going to traumatize
me
Me : Nah , don’t think hard
about it

I lean over pecking his cheek

He laughs shaking his head

And brings his hand to mine

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 15*
*SABRINA*
Even in my absence

This place is always clean

I’m all for cleanliness

I can’t deal with a guy that’s
dirty

Or doesn’t look after his

place

And always expects someone

else to run after them

I just can’t
I put my bag in the bedroom

And change my clothes

I walk downstairs , pour

myself a glass of wine

And make something to eat

I’m cooking something light

I hope he doesn’t come back
home , already ate

While I am here slaving away

But I wouldn’t blame him

Because he doesn’t know I

am here

My phone rings
I take a sip of the wine

And answer

Me : hey

Bina : I hope it’s not a bad

time

Me : no , what’s up ?
Bina : you’ll probably think I
am insane

She laughs

Bina : but I could have sworn

the other day , when you left
and I had lectures . I was at
Cubana with my sneaky link ,
and I thought I saw someone
like you

I clear my throat

Bina : and that someone was

with Flay

Me : don’t you know me ?

Bina : that’s the thing , I
seriously think it’s you . But I
just had to ask you , before
making assumptions

Me : okay

Bina : I mean , I know Flay is

flames . But he comes
nothing to your man , that
guy is all kinds of
deliciousness . You wouldn’t
dare risk all of that , for Flay .
No ways

Me : yeah well , if I were to

get it with Collen . It would
be no one’s business , not
even you

Bina : oh wow ! Okay , but all

I am saying is that don’t go
there . You’re very lucky , to
have a guy like Meli

This one

She wants to bore me very

fast

She’s meg Meli once

When he last came to visit
me

Now she thinks she knows

him

Me : I make my own rules

hun , so let’s not go there
with each other
Bina : I hope you’re not
offended , but I just thought
I’ll advice you . Like someone
who cares about you

Me : please don’t , the last

thing you can ever do in your
life is give me advice . Don’t
do that

Bina : Sabri ….
Me : no , goodbye . And
don’t pull this shit ever again
, we’ll get on fine .

I drop the call

This is the shit why I don’t

have friends
I don’t want anyone in my
business

Because I don’t poke my

nose in anyone’s business
either

I down the glass of wine , I

sure need another glass

Or the whole fucking bottle

I put it in the sink

I don’t want to get drunk

Because I need to have this

conversation , sober minded
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I wrap up my meeting

And walk to my office

I pack my things

And walk out of the building

I get in my car
Just as my phone rings

I answer

Me : malume (uncle)

Uncle : I have been waiting

for your call

I chuckle
Me : hey , my day has been
crazy busy

Uncle : it’s been months now

, you can’t drag this . An
engagement ring , goes with
a bride price letter . Don’t
embarrass us , with 5 years
engagements

I laugh
Me : it won’t be like that ,
Sabrina is coming home in a
few days . And we will
arrange for this

Uncle : alright , do get back

to me . Don’t take forever

Me : I will call you tomorrow ,

I promise
Uncle : alright

I drop the call

And drive home

.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
As the door opens

I take a deep breath

Gathering myself

This is it

And there’s no turning back

I hate things that be left
hanging

So best I just get this over

and done with

Meli : babe

He is shocked

I walk over to him

Me : hey

Meli : what a nice surprise

He engulfs me in a hug

I hug him back

And tears burn my eyes

I just feel so emotional

Meli : why …

He moves back

Meli : okay , now you’re

scaring me

Me : I want to tell you

something
Meli : okay

He takes my hand and we sit

down

Meli : you scare me because

you’re about to cry , but you
also said you miss me

I smile
Me : I want you so bad

Meli : then have all of me

Me : but I also think we

should think first , because
you might be upset after this

Meli : what ?
Me : I …I met this guy …

Meli : we will talk about this

He picks up and walks

upstairs
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 16*
*SABRINA*
Meli : I understand you what
to talk baby , but not right
now

He pins me against the wall

My clothes are off

And so are his

He lifts my leg

And rubs his dick on my

open

I gasps

As I feel in entering , pushing

his whole length in
I try pushing him back

But he pins my arms over my

head

Against the wall

Me : fuck baby ….wait …

He pounds in harder
His whole length stretching
me apart

There’s feelings of pain and

pleasure

As I feel like deep in

Like he is poking my fucking

womb
I just scream in pleasure

Fighting to be released

But he is not budging

Meli : shit ….

He’s getting near

I know these grunts

He moves back

And grabs my neck

His lips gracing mine

And we kiss

He pulls me closer to the bed

And he turns me around

Parting my legs on all fours

And he takes it from behind

As I lay flat on the bed

Grabbing on the sheets

He’s not making love

But he’s fucking me

Hard and deep

I bite the sheets , to suppress

my moans

But I let go , as soon as a

wave of an orgasm hits me
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I remove the hair from her
face

And she slowly opens her

eyes
She looks so drained and
tired

Sabrina : I cooked

Me : let’s go eat

Sabrina : I can’t , I am
drained . I just want to sleep ,
but we have to talk
Me : okay , I’ll go dish up .
And come eat in here , I’ll
even feed you

She lets out a fade smile

I lean over and peck her lips

Me : I am coming
I get up and put on my
sweatpants

And walk downstairs

A ton of words are just going

through my head

But I want to hear this first

Before I reach any
conclusions

I dish up , and grab a bottle

of wine

It’s opened

So she must have had a glass

, when she got here
I head back upstairs

And she’s not sitting up

straight

I place the food and wine on

the nightstand

I sit down on the bed

Sabrina : I love , I love you so
much . And I don’t want to
lose you , I still want to marry
you and be your wife .
Nothing has changed , and
nothing ever will . Just
….when I got to UCT , I saw
this guy . Of course , I didn’t
see him anyhow then . Time
went by , we kept seeing
each other . But nothing ,
was going on . Just the more
I kept on seeing him , the
more I just felt whatever I felt
. And the more I just thought
about it , the more I just felt
somehow . The other day , I
saw him and I asked him out
. He shares what I feel , and
we decided to see where it
goes . I told him I am
engaged , and that I love you
. And there's no way , I am
leaving you for him
I take a deep breath

Me : you love him ?

Sabrina : I think

Me : so you’re not certain ?

Sabrina : I am certain that , I

want you and I want him . I
want both of you , and I
don’t want the other without
the other

Me : when did you figure all

this out ?

Sabrina : I had enough time ,

to gather my thoughts when
I was watching him from a
distance
Me : so now you’re saying ,
it’s either us together or
none ?

Sabrina : yes , I want both of

you . If it’s one without the
other , then …

She shakes her head

Me : what does he have ?

Sabrina : absolutely nothing

I chuckle

She’s smart

And she’s running away from

that
What does he have , that I
don’t have ?

She doesn’t want to be

caught in the middle of any
comparison

Me : you slept with him ?

Sabrina : yes , we used a

condom . It broke , just as he
was done . But I am certain ,
nothing got inside of me .
That’s why I wanted us to
speak , so you don’t feel
disgusted by me

Me : I am not disgusted by
you

That takes her by surprise

One thing I’ll always
appreciate about her , it’s the
honesty

Me : we’re engaged , how do

you figure we get married
while you’re in such a
situation ?

Sabrina : we can
Me : I don’t see how , so the
engagement is off until
further notice

Sabrina : and you’re just

going to decide that even on
my behalf ?

Me : I don’t see how I can

negotiate for a wife , yet
there’s another man in the
picture

Sabrina : and that’s your final

decision ?

Me : yes

Sabrina : and us ?

I shrug
Me : I thought maybe this is
lust , but seeing that you
slept together and you still
want him . Then I don’t know

Sabrina : okay , I’ll go home .

And you’ll let me know when
you know , and I’ll let him
know the same . Because
without you and me , there’s
no him and me
She gets up

Me : it’s late now

Sabrina : I am not going to

sleep here with you , when
you don’t even know where
you stand with me right now

I know she’s not kidding

I say nothing as she gets
dressed
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I have requested an Uber

It sucks not having my own

transport

I walk downstairs
And as I’m about to walk out
the door

My phone reports a message

I open it

And it’s from Collen

I chuckle with myself

It’s an HIV test

Dude is negative , like wow !

We actually should have

done this , before having sex

Condom and all

And I should have taken a
pregnancy test

But I’ll get to all this

tomorrow morning

I dial his number

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 17*
*SABRINA*
Collen : hey

Me : hey , you’re up and busy

late

He chuckles

Collen : I got the kit after

dropping you at the airport
Me : and why didn’t you just
get it while with me ? And
then we could have done it
together

Collen : no , I wanted you to

feel not pressured
Me : nonsense , in these day
and age that’s how
relationships are started

Collen : this is not …

Me : don’t

We laugh
Collen : is this not a bad time
?

Me : no

Collen : so everything went

well ?

Me : no , he says he doesn’t
know where he stands with
me right now . And he’s
called off the engagement

Collen : that’s a bit extreme

though

Me : not really , he’s entitled

to however he feels . I
respect that
Collen : so where are you
right now ?

Me : leaving , I’m waiting for

an Uber

Collen : it’s almost midnight

Me : yeah , I am not
spending the night with a
man who doesn’t know
where he stands with me . I
understood with you , but
with him it’s something else

I am not saying he is not

entitled to feel how he feels

Clearly he wasn’t expecting

this at all
But he’s called off the
engagement , just like that

That says a lot

He could even be done with

me right now as it

But yeah

If he’s done , then that’s it

I walk away , from both

I meant what I said

I want them both , and not

just one of them

I don’t know how to explain

how , or what I am feeling
Collen : should have told me
, I would have called
someone to come get you

Me : who ?

Collen : a friend , I’ll trust

your safety with a friend than
an Uber guy
Me : okay , if it’ll make you
feel better . But it’s late now

Collen : no , I’m already

calling him he will come .
Just pin me your location
there

I put the phone on loud

speaker
While I pin the location to
him

Collen : I got it , and he’s

actually bit far from Midrand
. So he will be there in 10
minutes , you can wait for
that long ?

Me : yeah
I mean , it’s not like I have a
choice

I also have fears of Uber’s

this late

But what can I do ?

.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I can tell she’s on a call

And it’s probably with him

The way her voice is so down

I can barely even hear what

she’s saying

I walk over to her

Me : tell him bye

She just stares at me

I grab the phone and place it

on my ear

Me : man , she will talk to

you tomorrow
Him : sure

He drops the call

I hold her hand

Me : let’s go back to bed

Sabrina : no
Me : what do you mean no ?
You have any idea what time
it is ?

Sabrina : I am well aware ,

and like I said I am leaving .
I’ll wait to hear from you

Me : stop this , you drop a

bomb on me . What did you
expect ?
Sabrina : that we talk , and
you don’t just decide on by
yourself . You called off the
engagement , without even
considering my word

Me : it’s late

Sabrina : I can see that , but I

am leaving
Me : so you leave me …what
about him ?

Sabrina : I told you , I lose

you then I don’t continue
anything with him

Me : and he knows that ?

Sabrina : yes , I made that
very clear

I clench my jaws

Me : what kind of a man is he

? A man that’s okay , to be
with someone’s woman

Sabrina : because it’s what I

want , and he’s willing to
give me that . You’re not
forced to , like you have
already called off the
engagement

I take a deep breath

Me : you just sprung this on

me
Sabrina : I know that , but
what is failing is from talking
? Absolutely nothing , so I’ll
give you what you need

He phone rings

Me : is it him ? Can he just

wait , I am trying to have a
conversation here with you .
He should just stop
Sabrina : his friend , that’s
picking me up

Me : you’re not leaving

Sabrina

Sabrina : I am leaving , please

don’t toy with my emotions .I
respect you enough , to be
honest to the core with you .
You what me to share a bed
with you , when you don’t
even know where you stand
with me . Next thing , middle
of the night you kick me out
of your house . Because you
can’t stand being near , or
you have made your mind
and I am not it . I’ll rather not
put you in such a position ,
best I leave
Me : why are you even saying
that ? I will never do you
dirty like that

Sabrina : I love you , but right

now I don’t think being here
is sane . You’re even slowly
getting agitated , I should
seriously get away from you .
Because if this was to work ,
there wouldn’t be any of this
. Jealousy between you two
She grabs her phone

And walks out with her small

bag that was on the couch

Me : fuck !

I lean by the wall , as I hear

the gate opening
And a minute later , the car
by the gate drives off
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 18*
*MELISIZWE*
This is crazy

I barely slept

I just couldn’t

Everything just feels so

surreal
I am still trying to wrap my
head around it all

As much as I want to be okay

I don’t understand how

Sabrina and I we were good

Well , at least I thought so

But now there’s another guy

And she’s serious , she wants

him

Then clearly , we were not

good as I thought we were

I don’t even know what to

make of this
I have been trying to call her

She’s not answering my calls

I don’t know if she’s okay

If she got home safe last

night

I am just worried about her

Because I know I shouldn’t
have let her leave , especially
that late

This is a mess

Now I don’t know what I’m

going to tell my uncle

I can’t just throw this on

them
The whole truth of why the
engagement is over

I don’t think I can be with

Sabrina , engaged to her

While she’s with another

man

I just can’t
It’s been this way

So I can try to think about

this

To wrap all of it around my

head
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I swear my life feels like a
fuck up right now

How did I even get here ?

I don’t fucking understand it

I didn’t suspect this , not
even once

I snap pictures of the tests

I don’t even know , who to

send them to first

But maybe Meli will just lose

it
So I send them to Collen

And I dial his number

I see he’s been trying to call

me

I left my phone

When I went to the

pharmacy
Meli : baby ?

Why the confusion

Me : I got your missed calls

He sighs

Meli : please , come see me .

Please let’s talk , I am trying
to understand this whole
thing

I don’t know what to say

I don’t think I want to talk

Meli : okay , give me his

number

Me : why ?
Meli : because I want to talk
to him , man go man

Me : I’ll ask him

I drop the call and also send

him the picture of the tests

Just as my phone rings

I take a deep breath
answering

Collen : hey

Me : hi

Collen : so this is real ?

Me : as real as it gets
Collen : wow

Me : you know it’s his , right

?

Collen : yeah …yeah I know

Me : think hard about it

Collen : is it supposed to be
like that ? I mean , chances it
could have been either of
ours

Me : yeah , clearly I came like

this

Collen : it doesn’t matter

I let out a smile

Me : he wants your number

Collen : it’s okay , give it to
him

I laugh

Me : no , I don’t trust that

Collen : okay fine , you call

the shots . But just trust me
I heave a sigh

Me : okay

Collen : don’t think hard ,

you know you don’t need the
stress

Me : good luck to me , trying

to avoid the stress
Collen : no , that will be up to
us . We gotta make sure , we
don’t stress you

This is crazy !

I can’t believe it’s him talking

like this

Or maybe it’s because this is

new to him
With Meli it’s hard

Because we’ve been together

longer
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I look at the picture

I’m guessing now , they both

know each other’s statuses

I want to talk to her about

the other one

But I want to talk to him as

well
But I think her and I should
talk

And hear if this changes

anything

I dial her number and she

answers

I guess she wasn’t ignoring

As I thought she was

Sabrina : hey

Me : hi , I think we should
really talk

Sabrina : I am going to
Menlyn mall

Me : I’ll come pick you up

Sabrina : I was gonna call a
cab

Me : I’ll come pick you up

Sabrina : okay

Me : I’ll get ready

Sabrina : bye
She drops the call

I get up making the bed I

walk in the shower
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
As much as I don’t want to
talk

I know right now we have to

I can’t avoid that

I am already done getting

ready
I was ready to leave

But now I’ll wait for him to

come
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 19*
*MELISIZWE*
There’s never been a time ,
where things were awkward
between us

But the whole drive from her

home

To the mall

It was the most awkward

ever
No one said anything to
anyone

It was just silence , and

tension

I can’t believe this is us now

We haven’t talked
She ordered , and I just don’t
feel like eating anything

Sabrina : so ?

Me : say I don’t want you

with him ?

Sabrina : we’ll co- parent

I chuckle
Me : this is crazy , you’ll really
give up on us . And deny our
child , a chance of being
raised by both parents . All
because of this man ?

Sabrina : I can make that

decision , the same way you
decided to call off the
engagement . Imagine if I
had already told my family
this

I heave a sigh

Me : we are where we are

because of this

Sabrina : okay , I take the

blame …
Me : I am not blaming you ,
I’m just trying to understand
. What’s missing here ?

Sabrina : nothing , he has his

place and you have yours

You know , right now I think I

am starting to understand
Exactly how women feel ,
when they find out their man
is cheating

Or a man brings another

woman , to their home

Sabrina : no one is better

than the other
Me : why are you doing this ?
If everything is that good
with us , then why ?

Sabrina : I want him , so I’ll

rather have him the right way
. Or would you rather , we
portray our perfect
relationship . And I keep on
cheating on you with him ?
Damn !

That’s my girl for you

No filter for shit

Me : I don’t understand this

Sabrina : you satisfy me , I

am happy . Nothing is
missing , there’s nowhere
you’re lacking . Don’t grow
insecurities because of this ,
because I am not forcing you
or him . If you want to walk
away , simply just do so

Me : so that’s what you want

?

Sabrina : I don’t want to

break up with you
Me : you can’t do this to us ,
if it’s sex the fuck him until
he’s out of your system

She smiles

Sabrina : I am carrying your

child , you think I’ll sleep with
him ? I will not do that , so
what you must know is that
whatever you decide you’ll
still fuck me . For the whole
fucking 7 months , while I am
carrying your baby . You will
have to fuck me , even if you
break up with me

I look at her

And to be honest , I don’t

know what to say
Sabrina : I won’t sleep with
any other man except you ,
so after your baby is born we
can take our losses

Me : what happens with the

baby ?

Sabrina : you decide that

I heave a sigh

Me : the engagement might

be off , but I’ll come and do
right for the baby . Because I
want her using my surname

Sabrina : fine , you’ll have to

do that while I am still home

Me : okay
I don’t want to say anything
more

About us , that’s something

else

But for my baby , that’s

settled
I just wish things weren’t like
this

So we can raise our child

together

But yeah !

It is what it is

I am just so defeated
Sabrina : I will send you his
number

Mhm !

So he agreed

I really don’t get what his

end goal is with this
No sane guy would get
himself , in a situation like
this

And actually be okay with it

Unless he knows something I

don’t
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
Sabrina : I am tired

Me : you want to have a

massage

She laughs

Sabrina : I can’t afford that

Me : okay
Sabrina : anyways , we talked

Me : and ?

Sabrina : it’s a mess , but he’s

going to take responsibility
for the baby

Me : that’s good

Sabrina : yeah , I guess

Me : and if he doesn’t give in
, then what ?

Sabrina : we’ll co-parent

Me : and me ?

She laughs
Sabrina : you what ? We’ll be
done

Me : am I gonna co-parent
too ?

She laughs

Me : come on , I have a share

on this baby . I was here
already , when we all knew
Sabrina : insane !

Me : in all honesty , I won’t

be dropped aside . I am
thinking I’ll also co-parent

Sabrina : I don’t see that

happening
Me : well , it’ll definitely
happen

Sabrina : you know

something I don’t ?

I can’t say

It doesn’t seem like she

knows , he’s coming here
He called earlier on

And said he wants to see me

tomorrow morning

Me : no

Sabrina : you’re very strange

I think so too
Because what is this ?

What am I doing ?
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I can’t believe this shit
I’m on a flight now , headed
to Cape Town

For a trip I didn’t even

fucking intend for

But it doesn’t seem like I

have a choice

If I want this , done and over

with
I have to do this

So I can understand this

whole shit , from his
perspective

Because I just don’t fucking

get it now

Men don’t do this shit

They just don’t

How are you a man , and you

do this ?

And it’s just sane and normal

to you ?

It just doesn’t
This guy is fucking with me

I would maybe understand if

he was being lied to , or
being misled

But he knows the truth

He fucking knows the truth ,

yet he thinks this is what he
wants
It doesn’t make sense to me
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 20*
*MELISIZWE*
I look at this guy

And I don’t see , what has

Sabrina so hooked on him

I am not saying he’s ugly

Or that I am better than him

But I just don’t get it

I am not even comparing

looks

Me : you know she’s

pregnant with my child

Collen : yes
Me : then why are you not
just walking away ?

Collen : look man , she came

to me already pregnant…

Me : and I am here in the

picture , it’s not like I ran
away and she needs
someone to step in
Collen : I know that

Me : then what’s this ? Why

are you with my girlfriend ,
when you know I’m in the
picture ?

Collen : because she wants to

be with me
Me : that’s disrespectful to
me

Collen : no , I don’t think it is

. Do you think , I wouldn’t
think it’s also disrespectful of
her to say she wants me but
she’s with someone else ?

Me : I am speaking for me ,
not her
Collen : so am I

I chuckle

Me : what do you think this is

? We share a girl , and then
what ?

Collen : she’s with us because

she wants us , I don’t know
about you but I also want to
be with her

Me : pregnant and all ?

Collen : yes , we share a girl .

She can be pregnant with
either of our kids , that’s not
a flag to walk away

This is crazy
No man will settle for this

Unless this is how white men

are wired

But men are men

Despite any skin colour

Me : I am failing to
understand this

Collen : that’s
understandable

Me : and you understand it ?

Collen : it’s quite simple , I

am not loosing a woman just
because she’s with another
man

I chuckle

This is a first

Me : why can’t you find your

own ?
Collen : what if she’s the one
that’s mine ?

Me : she can’t be yours ,

while she is mine

Collen : and she wants me

Insane !
Me : so she gave you power ,
by this notion that she wants
you ?

Collen : not entirely

Me : I don’t know what you

think you’re going to get out
of this , that maybe I’ll walk
away and you’ll get in
Collen : she already told me ,
without you and her there’s
no me and her

Me : that’s the thing ,

because she says she wants
us both . And if she can’t ,
then she won’t be with either
of us . So you think , that’s
your card . Man , she’s been
with me without you before .
And guess what ? She can
He shrugs

Me : I think this is useless ,

and not taking us anywhere .
Stay away from the mother
of my child

Collen : I can respect you to a

point , but you’re not going
to dictate to me . We share a
woman , and now we all havs
a baby to raise

Me : man , stay the fuck away

from my child . If you so
badly want one for yourself ,
then don’t shoot blanks

He chuckles
Collen : I shoot anything but
blanks

Me : this is done

Collen : make up your mind ,

I am not walking away with
or without you and that’s
that

What the fuck !

Me : how do you suppose we
explain this to people ?

Collen : I don’t know about

you , but I don’t explain
myself to anyone for shit

He gets up grabbing his car

keys
And takes out his wallet

Me : I’ll settle the bill

He chuckles

Collen : I’ll compensate on it

on our child

I clench my jaws , he walks

out of the restaurant
This guy cannot be mentally
stable
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I answer the call

Me : hello
Meli : you’re certain , this is
what you want ? Me and him

Me : yes

Meli : okay

I frown

Me : okay what ?
Meli : I am tired , this back
and forth . So you can do
what you want , we’ll see if it
works . But I don’t know how
you’ll explain this to people

Me : babe , I don’t think I

owe anyone to explain
myself
Meli : fine , at least you and
him share the same
sentiments

Me : what ?

Meli : I saw him and …

Me : you saw him where ?

Meli : I came to Cape Town

Me : you what ?

Meli : it doesn’t matter , I’m

catching a flight back . You
do your thing , and hopefully
it’ll work for you . For now ,
I’ll call my uncle and explain
the baby issue . We’ll attend
to it , before you come back
as you said
Me : thank you

Meli : just know I don’t fully

get this

Me : I understand , I love you

Meli : I love you too , come

by the house . I want to see
you
I smile

I didn’t think he will say he

loves me back

Me : okay

Meli : I’ll see you soon

Me : bye
I drop the call

And call Collen

Collen : hey

Me : hi , why didn’t you tell

me Melisizwe is coming ?

He chuckles
Collen : I thought he will tell
you

Me : well he didn’t , what if

you two had killed each
other ?

Collen : never , we talked

Me : and ? I am guessing it
went well , because he’s
saying he’s cool

Collen : I can’t exactly say

that , but we understood
where we stand

Me : which is where ?

He laughs
Collen : that’s for us to know
, you worry yourself about
our baby and your polyandry

I can’t help but laugh

Collen : it’s good to hear you

laugh
Me : let me go feed us ,
you’re crazy

Collen : bye

I drop the call

And walk in the kitchen

I don’t know what my

mother is going to say
When she hears I am
pregnant
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 21*
*MELISIZWE*
Voice : Meli hi

I turn back

And it’s Bina

Me : hey

Bina : I thought it is you

I chuckle
Bina : wow , you look so
good

Me : thanks

Bina : you’re here to see

Sabrina ?

Me : no , she’s in Joburg
Bina : oh , she’s already left ?
I didn’t know

Me : I thought you are

friends

She laughs

Bina : yeah well , she must

have left in a hurry
Me : so you haven’t talked ?

Bina : we have , but I don’t

think she’s herself

Me : oh

Bina : yeah , it must have

been about what I said

Me : okay , girl quarrels

Bina : not really , just about
Collen Flay . A lecture

Me : okay

Bina : she must have thought

, I am accusing her or
something . But imagine had
it be someone else , from
variety who saw them
together ? She has a very
handsome boyfriend , some
girls are just lucky . I know
Flay is handsome , but you’re
a ten out of ten minus
absolutely nothing . And well
, girls are crazy over him . But
Sabrina , has you . I wouldn’t
even smile with another guy ,
if I was dating you
Me : wow okay , that was a
mouthful

She giggles

Bina : I hope you don’t think ,

I am trying to come between
you

Me : you can never

She swallows

Bina : maybe you should talk

to her , because even in a
long distance relationship
honesty and loyalty is still
important

Me : yeah , but we’re cool .

And I know all about Collen
Bina : oh ?

And there it is

What is wrong with people

today ?

You know someone is with

someone

Yet here you are

This one should just get it on
, with Collen

They will definitely hit it off

They deserve each other

Bina : okay well , it’s nice

seeing you . You should visit
more
Me : oh , and by the way my
name is Melisizwe . Not Meli
to you , bye

I turn and walk to my car

.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
Mom : do you ever just stay
home ?

I laugh

Me : I am coming back

I walk out the door

Just as my phone rings

I heave a sigh answering

Me : hey

Bina : hi , are you good ?

Me : yeah

Bina : wow , I bumped into

your man
Me : oh , that’s nice

Bina : yeah , we chatted a bit

Me : okay

Bina : yeah , well I was just

checking in

Me : Bina , I know you . What

did you say to him ?
Bina : this and that , it wasn’t
nothing crazy

Me : about Collen ?

Bina : is that what he said ?

Me : he said nothing

Bina : I didn’t
The nervous laugh , it says it
all

Me : okay then , bye

I drop the call

This girl !
Now I see , more and more
why I don’t have friends

Sadly for her , even if we

don’t work out

Meli won’t date her

And that’s just that

.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I am tired

Taking two flights to and fro

It’s no joke
Now , I don’t even see why I
even bothered

Me : you should use the

other car , while you’re here

Sabrina : thank you , so Bina

called me

I chuckled
Me : that one should stay the
fuck away from me

Sabrina : she wants you

Me : I don’t want her

She laughs

Me : I am definitely , getting
myself a white chick
She rolls her eyes

Sabrina : just as long , as it

won’t be someone who will
become a step mother to my
child . When you find a
woman , find someone who
will be a mother to our child .
Then I will be at peace , not a
step mother
Me : that man of yours is
claiming my child

Sabrina : that’s not possible ,

how will he do that ?

I shrug

Sabrina : that’s crazy

I just watch her

I am wondering , how did

she even get here

And what makes her think ,

this whole thing can work

But the more I just think

about it
The more confused , I just
become
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*SEVEN MONTHS LATER*
*INSERT 22*
*SABRINA*
The best feeling ever

Is holding this little person in

my arms
I am a mother

I brought a human being ,

into this world

My greatest achievement

And I am proud of myself

I look at them
The tension is just too much

I look at my mother

Me : can we please have a

moment

Mom : I don’t understand

what this is , Meli is the
father of your baby and he
paid damages even …
Me : mom please

She’s whispering

But , I don’t want to do this

with her

Mom : why are you doing

this ? Two men can’t marry
you , I have no problem with
Collen but this is not his child

Me : please , give us space

She sighs shaking her head

And she walks out of the

ward

Me : can we talk ?
They both look at me

Me : come closer , I don’t

want to make noise . The
baby is sleeping

They both walk closer

And they sit on the chairs

next to the bed
Me : it’s been seven months ,
and I think we all have seen
how we tried to make this
work . But you guys , are just
in my way at every turn . It’s
clear , you don’t want to be
with me together .
Unfortunately , I can’t be
with one of you without the
other
Meli : you were with me
without him that’s …

Me : enough , I am talking
now . So I am tired of this ,
so I am letting you both go .
It’s over , we’re done . I love
you both , but I can’t do this .
I have a son to think of now ,
and you two I don’t want to
stress myself
Meli : just like that ? Why
can’t you just let him go ?

Me : why can’t you just

understand , I don’t want to
be with one of you without
the other ?

He keeps quite
Me : you did right by your
child , and he will use your
surname as agreed . Me and
you both we’ll just co-parent

The eye Meli gives me

Me : I don’t want to deny ,

how Collen has been
supportive throughout the
pregnancy . Not only with
money , but he’s been there
all the way . I am not taking
anything away from you , but
truth of the matter is that he
played his part in all this

Collen : thank you

I smile
Me : that’s all , so now we’re
just parents to our son . You
can move on with your lives ,
date other people . I don’t
mind , just as long as we’ll
have a peaceful co-parenting
relationship

Meli : are you done ?

Me : no , I am taking my son
to Cape Town with me . I still
have a degree to finish , and
you will get me a nanny . A
stay in nanny , so I can be
able to focus on school

Meli : fine

Me : you will see him ,

whenever you want . During
recess , I’ll definitely bring
him so you can see him more
. When he’s older , and he
can visit on his own then you
will have visitation rights

Meli : okay

He’s angry

But he knows that this is it

Because he’s more stubborn
than Collen is

I am not saying Collen is

better

They’re just the same

Meli is just worse

Me : we tried , and it didn’t
work

Meli : excuse me

He gets up and walks out

Collen : I am sorry

Me : it’s okay
Collen : I know me and him
did this , you didn’t fail at
nothing

I nod , as tears burn my eyes

Collen : hey ….

He gets up , and sits on the

bed
He brings me to him , careful
not to hurt me

And he hugs me

Collen : I am sorry , but we

love you . We do love you ,
and maybe that’s why we just
can’t work it out . Because
we love you
Me : I love you both so much
, and ….

I shake my head , as I feel a

painful lump on my throat
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I turn back , seeing he’s
comforting her

It fucking hurts

Voice : Melisizwe

I look at her mother

Ms Nyathi : can we please

talk ?
I sit down on the chairs
opposite her

Ms Nyathi : I have always

liked you , and I never
thought you weren’t good
for my daughter . I had
hopes , that maybe some day
you two will get married . But
now I don’t understand this ,
how do you let her be with
another man carrying your
child and …

Me : ma , with all due respect

it’s what she wanted . And I
didn’t want to lose her , but
he also didn’t want to lose
her . It’s like we have been
trying to explain it to the
families
Ms Nyathi : and none of us
are understanding this

Me : I understand , but he
loves her and you can’t deny
that

Ms Nyathi : we have seen

that , but this is not how
things are done
Me : its really okay ma , right
now the three of us will just
co-parent . Whether I like it
or not , he’s a part of our
lives now

Ms Nyathi : co-parent ?

Me : yes , Sabrina said she

can’t do this anymore
Ms Nyathi : what ?

She claps once

Ms Nyathi : she just gave

birth hormones are messing
with her

Me : no , Collen and I have

made thing hard and difficult
for her . I understand why
she can’t anymore

Ms Nyathi : what was she

thinking will happen ?
Polygamy is a thing for men ,
not little girls

Me : she’s still the mother of

my child , and I love her .
Please excuse me
I get up

Ms Nyathi : don’t give up

I smile faintly

Maybe this woman doesn’t

know her daughter
Once Sabrina makes her
mind about something ,
there’s no changing it

So I know we’re over

It has just been hard

I really tired as well

But even the pressure from
our families

It was just too much

No one understood this

And they kept pulling us at

every chance they got

I think , I more than the two

Let everyone just get to me
more

And I felt like I am weak

For even agreeing to this , to

begin with
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 23*
*SABRINA*
This breastfeeding thing , it
feels so awkward

I feel strange when the baby

pulls on my nipples
I just hope it won’t take a
while to get used to it

The door opens and Meli

walks in

I don’t even know when

Collen left

Because I fell asleep last

night , and he was still here
He walks over

And places the takeaway bag

he’s holding down

Meli : hi

Me : hey
He leans over and pecks my
lips

I am taken aback by that

Meli : what ?

Me : what are you doing

kissing me ?

He chuckles moving back

Meli : you broke up with me ,
you never said I shouldn’t
kiss you . Besides , if Collen
still gets to kiss you so can I

Oh wow !

So he saw that yesterday

Me : it’s not a competition

He chuckles

He touches Luvuyo’s cheeks

And he slightly opens his

eyes , and closes them again

Meli : looks like he loves

food
Me : I think all babies are like
that

Meli : who eats this early ?

Me : babies

Meli : he’s going to be fat

Me : don’t say that

He frowns

Meli : how are you feeling ?

Me : I’m okay

Meli : well , I am not

Me : I didn’t ask you

He laughs
Meli : exactly why I am telling
you , how do you be okay
after being dumped ?

Me : imagine me , who lost

two men

He shrugs
Me : I am hurting as well ,
but I’ll get over it

Meli : so you’re serious , you

won’t even mind us dating
other people ?

Me : not at all , I still love you

. But I can’t have you , you
deserve to be happy . It will
be selfish , to want to keep
you , yet you can’t co-exist
with each other

He sighs

Me : is there someone you

like ?

Meli : I have just gotten out

of a relationship , just
yesterday . I was not looking
I smile

Meli : since we’re all co-

parenting , does he also get
visitation rights ?

Me : the things you ask me

Meli : I just want to know , so

I can make peace
Me : yes he does , but only
when the baby gets older .
Now he’s still young , you’ll
only get to see him at my
house

His silence , I don’t know

what it means

Me : you asked
Meli : yeah , I guess I’ll get
used to it . As long as I won’t
be the one explaining to
Luvuyo

I laugh

Me : say what you want ,

you’re his dad so is Collen
Meli : he should make his
own

Me : don’t test him , because

he will

Meli : how ? Unless he will be

hitting it with you

I laugh
Me : where do you think I’ll
be getting sex ?

Meli : where have you been

getting it ?

Me : because I was pregnant

with your child

Meli : well , that’s where

you’ll still get it
He’s crazy !
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
Mom : the baby is cute , I
don’t deny that . But I still fail
to understand , why you’re
doing this to yourself . Why
can’t you find yourself
another girl ?

Me : because I don’t want

another girl , I want this one .
And if I can’t have her , then I
don’t want anyone else

Mom : I don’t have a

problem with Sabrina , but I
feel like she’s using you .
How does she let you take
responsibility of another
man’s child ?

Me : that was my choice ,

and is still is

Mom : this will never make

sense to me

Me : and I don’t expect it to

Mom : you’re old enough ,
you make your own choices

Me : I’ll call you later , I have

to go

Mom : to see them ?

Me : yes
She sighs

Me : bye mom

Mom : I wish you can choose

better for yourself

Me : I am

Mom : it’s pointless , so

goodbye
I drop the call

I have long made with the

fact that our families will
never understand , nor
accept this

I don’t let my mother bother

me at all
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
Mom : I told you this was
crazy , and you’re just
embarrassing me . How do
you let such a good man ,
like Meli slip though your
fingers ?

Me : then he’s a good man

who deserves someone
better , not me

Mom : you will regret this , I

am telling you

Me : that’s fine
My mother depresses me

Hence I won’t stay here

I am taking my son , and

we’re leaving

As soon as we get
discharged
I won’t stand for this
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
Skhu : make me understand ,
how do you buy a woman
who has put you through so
much a whole German car ?

I laugh
Skhu : is she that good ?

Me : don’t talk nonsense

Skhu : then what ? Cause

there must be something
about her , you and this
white boy have tasted
something the rest of us
haven’t
Me : I bought her the car ,
because she gave birth to my
son

Skhu : thank her with flowers

, not this beast

Me : flowers die , she

deserves this
Skhu : and the white boy will
buy her a mansion

We laugh

Me : that’s fine , she will live

comfortably in a mansion
with my son . Not cramped
up , in an apartment

He shakes his head

Skhu : this , I have never seen
nor heard of

I shrug , calling the car

dealership

When she gets to Cape Town

she will find her car ready
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 24*
*FIVE YEARS LATER*
*MELISIZWE*
Me : dude come on , we’re
going to be late

Luvo : I am done

Me : done how , when you’re

still packing your sneakers ?
Luvo : but I am done

I heave a sigh

Me : if we miss our flight ,

you’ll explain to mommy
how that happened

Luvo : daddy
I look at him

Luvo : please answer

Me : yes

Luvo : I am visiting dad right

?

Me : who said that ?

Luvo : we’re going to Cape
Town , so I might as well

Me : did you talk to him

about that ?

Luvo : no , but he’s going to

be cool about it

Me : let’s go
Luvo : one second

Me : Luvo , I am leaving .I
don’t understand why you’re
packing so much , you have
clothes where you are going

He just stares at me

I walk out of his bedroom

I have never met a guy that’s
so slow like him

My phone rings

I let out a smile answering

Me : hey

Sabrina : tell me you have

left the house
I laugh

Me : no

Sabrina : don’t be late

Me : blame your son

Sabrina : you should have

helped him , pack last night
Me : he’s fussy mama , I just
can’t deal with all of that

Luvo : don’t ruin my

reputation , I’m done let’s go
. Finish your call , you can’t
drive and speak on the
phone
He walks past me pulling his
suitcase and walks out

Sabrina laughs

Me : mama , you see what I

am dealing with ?

Sabrina : bye

She drops the call

I shake my head heaving a
sigh
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
Bina : will both your men be
there ?

I look at her
Bina : I am just asking , I
mean one would think
they’ve gotten over you it’s
been years . But it doesn’t
seem like it

Me : and what makes you say

so ?
Bina : Meli bought you a
German car , Collen bought
you a mansion in Camps Bay
a year later . Third year , he
bought you a mustang . Meli
bought you a plot , you built
apartments and you’re
renting them . Not to say
how much they keep spoiling
you

Me : I chose well
Bina : but still , they should
have at least moved on

I laugh

Me : according to who ?

She shrugs
She’s still hung on Meli even
now

And she thinks I don’t know ,

she slept with him

After that he told me right

away

I wasn’t even bothered

Guy ditched her

She’s still sour over that

I am surprised , she didn’t

even tell me that

Me : no one held them from

moving on
Bina : but they’re still stuck
from you , and you entertain
them too much . That’s why
they’re so stuck

Me : that’s their business

Bina : why haven’t you dated

anyone ?

Me : for what ?
Bina : why do people date
Sabrina ? Maybe if you move
on , then they will as well

Me : I am not looking

Bina : mhm , I can’t believe

they’re still stuck on you .
Even after everything ,
making two guys date you
I laugh

Me : why are you bothered ?

What’s it to you ?

Bina : I am just saying

Me : well , please finish up . I

have to pick up Luvo and his
father at the airport
Bina : it’s make up , I have to
perfect it

Me : then maybe you should

have perfected it at your
house

My phone rings

I pick up
Me : hey

Collen : mami

I chuckle

Me : what ?

Collen : don’t say what me ,

are you done ?
Me : yes

Collen : alright , I am headed

to the airport

Me : for what ?

Collen : I’m going to pick up

your guest
I laugh

Me : so he’s my guest now ?

Collen : don’t be silly , he’s

coming for you

Me : don’t bore me , does he

know you’re coming ?
Collen : I am doing it for
myself , not him

Me : goodbye

He laughs dropping the call

I look at Bina and she’s

looking at me

Me : let’s go
Bina : but I am still …

Me : had you been doing

your make up , instead of
just staring at me listening to
my conversation you would
have been done

I grab my bag and car keys

Me : let’s go

Bina : this looks half done

Me : you’ll figure yourself out

Bina : okay , I’ll finish it the

car

Me : not my car hun

She thinks I am joking with
her

Because she keeps on

squeezing herself in my life

Even when I try to push her

away

She just doesn’t go away

Maybe she thinks being
closer to me , will get her
Meli
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 25*
*COLLEN*
I came here

But I just hope Meli , doesn’t

read this somehow
I know he still gets jealous
over Sabrina

The same as I do

So I don’t blame him at all

We’re both just the same

No one is better
But he might think I came
here , so she doesn’t come
pick them up

But that’s not the case

I just want her to have

enough time to finish

So she’s not late

We can afford to be late

But she can’t

Hence I came

So , I hope he doesn’t make

it what it’s not

He will still get to see her

I know that for certain

The relationship has been

somewhat over the years

I mean , even after the

breakup

I know I have gotten it with

her
On more than once

I don’t know about him

But I can’t say he hasn’t

either

There were times she would

be in Joburg
I never know what happens

And she was at his house

Yes , it was about the baby

But still , they lived together

So anything is always
possible on situations like
that
Because it would be times
like when I get the baby

And she will come to my

house

One thing leads to another

And after that , we just move

from there
But it doesn’t erase that it
has happened yes

They walk out

And Luvo smiles looking at

me

One thing about our son ,

he’s not confused at all
And I love him as my son

Not , I love him like a son

He is my son

And I regard him as one

Luvo : dad
He runs to me

I crouch down hugging him

Me : it’s like you grow each

time I see you

He laughs

Luvo : you look good

Me : thanks , it’s what you
chose

He nods his head

Luvo : I am impressed

I laugh

He is very proud of himself

Meli : hey man

We shake hands

Me : hey

Meli : I didn’t know you were

picking us up

I hope this doesn’t go there

Me : last minute thing ,
wanted to give Sabrina
enough time to get done

Meli : alright

We head to my car

Luvo : I take the front seat ,

it’s my seat
Meli : suit yourself

We all get in the car

And I drive

Me : where to ?

Luvo : I am going to you

I chuckle
Meli : are you not going to
ask ?

Luvo shakes his head

Luvo : logic daddy , would

you ask to go to your own
home ?

I laugh
Meli : sometimes you talk a
lot

He shakes his head

Meli : I am sleeping at the

hotel

Me : I’ll drop you after

Meli : I will find my way

He thinks I am a child

There’s no finding his way ,

to no hotel

He knows exactly where he is

going
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
We are slightly a bit late

But we made it

Traffic , was just a bit bad

But we made it

And I’m happy , we’re not

missing the important part
What we came here for

I am so proud of this woman

She has come so far

And she’s still yet to achieve

more

That much I know

She wants more than this

And knowing her , she will

reach where she wants to get

When her name is called

And she goes to receive her

degree
We’re all just proud of her

Even though her mother and

grandmother are not here

But she knows she has

support

And the three of us , are here

cheering her high
It’s insane

I never thought Collen and I

would get to this point

Whereby we coexist , for her

sake and Luvo

We’re not friends

But we make it work

At times I wonder how it
would have been

Had we made it work , the

time we had the woman

Because now , we don’t have

her

And I regret loosing her

I will never love another
woman

The same way as I love this

woman

And I know he still loves her

About her , it’s not even an

ask
Because she told us , she will
always love us

I guess , that’s the case with

us all

In love , but can’t be with

each other

It’s a sad situation

.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
The first of many

And I am so happy

Seeing my baby there , with

his fathers cheering me
It gave me joy , I cannot even
describe

I am so happy they’re all here

, supporting me

It means so much to me

And I appreciate them

Even Bina is here

As she said , she’s supporting
me

I don’t know how true that is

Or maybe she’s here ,

because Meli is here

You never know

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 26*
*SABRINA*
Me : I’ll see you tomorrow
okay ?

Luvo : okay

Me : come , give me a hug

I lean down hugging him

Me : I love you

Luvo : I love you too

Me : behave

He laughs
Luvo : I’m always behaving
please

At times I think I gave birth

to an old soul

For a year year old , he’s a lot

He’s not even at school yet

But it’s like he’s doing a
certain grade

Meli says it’s because he’s

attending preschool , with
multiracial kids

But I think he’s just a smart

kid
Collen : go wait for me in the
car champ

He takes the car keys from

Collen

Luvo : don’t be long

Collen laughs

Collen : I won’t
Luvo : bye mommy

Me : bye baby

I wave at him

He goes to the car

Collen walks closer to me

Me : what ?

I ask with a smile

Collen : I miss you

Me : here I am

Collen : we have a crowd , I

can’t do that
I laugh

Me : don’t be disgusting

Collen : I can’t help it

Me : well please , get a hold

of yourself

Collen : but I really do miss

you
Me : find a woman , I don’t
even like her

I laugh

Me : that’s a shame

Collen : I’ll be back

Me : don’t
Collen : mhm

I am not entertaining this

Me : thank you for coming

today , it means a lot to me

Collen : I am proud of you ,

and I have a surprise for you
Me : oh ?

Collen : yeah , but I’ll be back

I laugh

He pecks my cheek and

walks away

I watch as he gets in the car

and drives out
It’s been a day

And I am tired

I just want to sleep

But I have to call my mother

And check on my
grandmother
Her health is not good as of
late

But it’s understandable

She is old now , reaching 80

years

And old age sicknesses , it’s

just one after the other
Hence they didn’t make it to
my graduation

But I know if she could , she

would have come

My phone rings

I walk in the house closing

the door
I grab my phone

And heave a sigh seeing it’s

Bina

Me : hey

Bina : hi , you just

disappeared
Me : I did not disappear , the
ceremony was done

Bina : so where are you ?

I roll my eyes

Me : getting into bed

Bina : so early ?
Me : I am tired

Bina : oh ! I thought the baby

daddy will be there

Me : for what ?

Bina : Uhm …never mind

Me : bye
I drop the call shaking my
head

This girl !

I am sure she wanted to

come here

Only because in her tiny

mind , she thinks Meli is here
.
.
.
.
I am woken up by the door

I fell asleep on the couch

I get up and check the time

It’s just before midnight

I sure was tired

I open the door

As annoyed as I am

I should have known he was

serious

Me : I am sleeping
I move back making way for
him

He walks in and locks the

door

Me : what ….

Collen : Luvo is with his

grandmother , she’s visiting
and she knows I’m out .
Don’t scold me

I smile

Me : I wasn’t …

He picks me up

I let out a scream with a

laugh
Me : like …

He smashes his lips on mine

I kiss him back

And he places me down on

the couch

Getting in between my legs

I lock my legs behind his
back

As he slows pulls my t-shirt

off

And he moves up

Pulling my pants and panty

out
I’m panting so hard

My coochie is throbbing

He takes his shirt off

I unbucke his pants , pulling

them down

And he goes down on me

Sucking the fuck out of me

My moans fill my lounge

As I feel pleasure , gushing

through out my body

And he sucks my cum clean

Lifting his head

And turns me around , I
place my hands on the couch
arm rest

He rubs his dick on my

coochie

Before he slides the tip in

And I go lower down ,
pressing my upper body on
the couch

As I move my ass and hips

back

And he thrusts in meeting

my pace
Collen : fuck mami …I fucking
missed you

Me : fuck me baby

He increases his pace

As I grab my ass cheeks

And he goes on deeper

I bite my lower lip

As I feel pleasure building up

Collen : oh shit …

He slaps my ass cheeks

And he goes in harder and

slower
Me : ah ….ah …ohhhh fuck
….yes baby ….oh yes ….

And he deep grunts , as I

cum

He slides out his dick

Ans slowly pushes it back in

Without a doubt , he’s cum

And he’s pushing his cum
inside of me

I turn my head looking at

him

He grabs my neck , capturing

my lips into his
And he picks me up walking
to my bedroom
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 27*
*SABRINA*
I slowly open my eyes

And my body is drained

I sure like to forget how
Collen is like

A night of sex , with him

When you wake up you

always feel the consequences

I turn around , and he’s not

in bed
I just lazily chuckle

Me : I can’t believe this

I slowly get up

And walk to the bathroom

I take a shower

I have no plans today

But I want to go see Luvo

I don’t know when Meli is

going back to Joburg

Because it seems like Luvo is

visiting Collen

After my shower , I put on a

summer short dress
And just sandals

A nice greasy breakfast

would slap right now

But I am lazy to cook

So I’ll have to go out , just to

get something to eat
I make the bed

And walk downstairs making

a call

Luvo : hi mommy

Me : hey baby , you’re

already awake ?

What time is it ?
Luvo : yes , granny is doing
dad’s garden . I am helping
her

Me : oh okay

Luvo : and dad is making

breakfast , it’s punishment
for going for a jog and not
telling granny . She scolded
him when he came back , it
was very funny . But he didn’t
look like he was out for a jog
…

Yhoh

Me : okay baby , I’ll see you

soon okay ?

Luvo : okay mommy

Me : I love you

Luvo : I love you too

I drop the call

This child , he just doesn’t

know when to stop talking

It’s too much

Seems like someone was
caught

His mother must have played

along

Just so Luvo doesn’t know he

didn’t sleep at home

My phone rings and it’s him

Me : the nerve to even call
me

He laughs

Collen : I made breakfast , so

I’ll see you soon

He drops the call

Just like that

I open the food warmer

And indeed he made

breakfast

I see a vase by the window ,

with fresh flowers

I let out a smile

I grab the flowers , and
there’s a note

With an address

And he says to meet him

there in two hours

Maybe it’s the surprise he

was talking about
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
Mom : why don’t you just
settle with Sabrina ?

I look at her

Mom : you just can’t seem to

stay away from her
Me : I have

Mom : don’t lie to me

I keep quite

Mom : just settle , because

there’s no hope here

I laugh
Me : I don’t want to settle

Mom : you can’t seem to

move on

Me : there’s no such

Mom : will you play this

sneaking around until when ?
Forever maybe ?
Me : I am not sneaking
around , I just didn’t want
Luvo to ask me questions

Mom : I am not Luvo

I smile

Me : I know that
Mom : while you’re busy
playing this game with her ,
just know you’re not getting
any younger

Talks like this are just

depressing

And knowing my mother ,

she just doesn’t care
So I won’t say much about
this

She sighs

Me : I am not sneaking
around with Sabrina

Mom : lie all you want , it’s

not my business
Me : then what’s wrong ?

Mom : it’s your sister

I say nothing

Waiting to hear what she

says

Mom : the centre called ,

she’s not getting better
I take a deep breath

Me : how can she not get

better ? She’s in a rehab ,
they claimed to be the best

Mom : I don’t know , but …

She shakes her head

Kate got worse as years went
by

She started doing drugs

And selling her body

Her baby daddies , filed for

sole custody of their kids

And she lost it

She’s been in rehab for 13
months

It doesn’t make sense , when

they say she’s not getting
better

They’re supposed to help her

I pay a lot of money for this

Not only was it the drugs

But she also got suicidal

She overdosed twice , and

was also self harming herself

The last straw was when she

tried to hang herself
She’s not just in rehab

But she’s also getting

counselling

I don’t expect to hear such

news

This is just frustrating

Unless we were too late

And we took time to admit
her

And seek help for her

I was just tired of her , so I

ignored most things she did
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 28*
*SABRINA*
I look at them

I am not shocked

But , I don’t believe this

I feel like they’re pranking

me
And soon they will laugh
their ass off

I mean , these two guys are

capable of anything

And if there’s one thing I am

certain of , is that they do go
all the way out
When it comes to me

But this , no ways

Me : okay , someone drop

the bomb

Meli : what do you mean ?

Me : this is a joke right ?

Collen : who jokes with
millions

Okay !

Definitely not Collen

But no , I don’t believe this

Me : you …you two don’t

even like each other
Collen : we don’t have to , we
did this for you

Meli : and when it comes to

you , and our son . Nothing
will stop us , from coming
together . And putting our
differences aside

Oh my God !
They’re really serious

I look at them again

And tears burn my eyes

Collen : don’t cry

I shake my head , tears just

streaming down my face
What does one say to this ?

I mean , they bought me a

whole hotel

Not just a hotel

But they rebranded , and

renovated
Like everything

And it’s a brand new

complete hotel

That’s just ready to open ans

function again

I am out of words

I don’t know what to say

How do I even begin to
thank them for this ?

What do I say ?

What do I do ?

Meli : you deserve this mama

I want to stop crying

But I can’t

It’s all tears of joy

.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
When it comes to her
Nothing beats seeing her
happy

And appreciating what has

been done for her

I left a while back

Leaving her and Collen at the

hotel
I’m meeting with Bina

She called asking to see me

I am not interested

But here I am

Bina : thank you for coming

Me : yeah , what’s this ?

Bina : I will be honest , and I

won’t waste your time

Me : you better not be trying

your luck with me , don’t
come with a baby lie here

She smiles
Bina : come on , I am not that
stupid . We used to
protection , and I wasn’t
lying when I said I’m ok
contraceptives

Me : okay then , what’s this ?

Bina : you’re a very nice man

Melisizwe , and you deserve
so much better . I for on love
you , and I would give
anything to be with you . I
don’t know what’s this about
Sabrina , that you just can’t
detach yourself from her .
But I’ll tell you this , she
doesn’t love you . And I don’t
think she ever did

Me : and you think I deserve

you ?
Bina : maybe , maybe not .
But I can’t pretend anymore

Me : we slept together , and

it meant nothing to me .
That’s where it ended

Bina : why are you doing this

? Sabrina will never take you
back , even if you buy her the
moon . She will never ,
because she doesn’t
appreciate you

Desperation on a woman is a
turnoff

Me : I am a man , and I chase

. I don’t like to be chased ,
you look and sound pathetic
right now . You’re a snake ,
and very dangerous . You’re
fake friends , with the mother
of my son because you want
me . And it’s jealousy , let me
free you for free . I will never
end up with you ever , not
even if you were the last
woman on earth

She swallows hard

Her eyes glistening with tears

Me : I am not your friend ,
don’t ever call me again

I get up as my phone rings

Me : mama ?

Sabrina : where are you ?

Me : I’m on my way to the
hotel

Sabrina : okay , I am coming

I open my car

Me : alone ?

She laughs
Sabrina : what kind of a
question is that ?

Me : I just have to know what

to prepare myself for

Sabrina : don’t be silly , I’ll

see you

Me : bye
I drop the call

And drive out of the parking

space , headed to the hotel

I wanted to go to her house

yesterday

But something just stopped

me
I am glad she’s coming to
see me right now

I wouldn’t feel comfortable

also

Wanting to crash in a house ,

she was bought by another
man

I am a man
And I still have my pride

I don’t know why she’s

coming to see me

But I am excited

The mere fact that I will be

with her
Just me and her

No Collen or anyone else for

that matter

I step on the accelerator

Hoping to get to the hotel ,

before she gets there

Just so I can shower

.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I spent enough time with
Collen

And I just feel like Meli left

way too soon
Even before I can thank them
properly

What they have done for me

I lack the words

But I still want to thank them

So they know I appreciate

them
I did with Collen

So I don’t want to shut Meli

out

Because he also played his

part , in that I’m bought a
hotel

As a graduation present
Really , I think I should just
graduate more

If it means , it comes with

such perks

My hard work is paying off

And they’re noticing

Not only it is for me

But that’s Luvo’s legacy as

well
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 29*
*MELISIZWE*
I open the door for her

She walks in

And I just can’t get how

beautiful she looks

Sabrina : I didn’t disturb you

?

Me : no
Sabrina : you left too soon , I
just wanted to thank you

I smile

Me : you deserve that

Sabrina : well , I didn’t see it

coming
I chuckle

Me : I know you will make a

success out of it , like
everything you touch

She smiles and walks over to

the bed

She sits down taking her

heels off
Me : should I get you
something to drink ?

Sabrina : just water , I am

tired

Me : then you should rest

Sabrina : I’m definitely
resting the next few days ,
whole Luvo is still with Collen

I grab a bottle of water

And pour in the glass

I walk over to the bed and

hand it to her
Sabrina : thank you

I watch as she downs the

glass

Sabrina : what ?

Me : you’re so beautiful

Sabrina : oh please , I’ll choke

on this water
I take the glass from her

And place it down on the

floor

I lean down

Hoovering her with my upper

body
Sabrina : Meli …

She says so softly , loosing

her breath

Me : please …

I capture her lips into mine

And we slowly kiss

As I push her down the bed

Balancing myself on top of

her

Getting in between her legs

I grab her arms

Intertwining our fingers

together
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I am so annoyed with myself
right now

He looks at me as I walk from

the shower
Meli : mama …

Me : please no , I am so over
this . We shouldn’t have slept
together , this back and forth
is so annoying . We have a
five year old child , yet we’re
still acting like kids ourselves
. We're not together
anymore , and we should just
stop sleeping together
Meli : you didn’t like the sex
?

Me : is that all you’re worried

about ? It’s not even about
that , we will never sleep
together ever again . We’re
done
I grab my clothes and put
them on

Meli : I am sorry

Me : no , don’t apologize .
Just don’t ever try this ever
again , I’m just your ex and
your son’s mother that’s it
Meli : can we at least talk
about this ?

Me : no , wether you move

on or not that’s your
business . But this will never
happen again

Meli : wait ….do you have

someone ?
Me : no , and I don’t intend
to . Not that I owe you
anything , just I can’t have
the two men I love . So I am
not interested

I grab my bag

Meli : I …

He heaves a sigh
Meli : I am sorry

Me : bye , call me only when

it’s about Luvo . Nothing else

Meli : is this only about me ,

or Collen as well ?

Me : must you always bring

him up ?
Meli : I am just asking

Me : goodbye Meli

I walk out of the hotel room

heading to my car

He did nothing wrong

But I entertain both of them
so much

To a point they don’t care

we’ve broken up

They know I’ll just gladly

sleep with them

I feel like a cheap whore right

now
Yesterday it was Collen

Today it’s Meli

I am so done , passing myself

in between them
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I don’t fucking understand
what I did wrong

Because I thought we both

wanted this

But as soon as we were done

She was just off

She went straight for the
shower

And I could see something

was wrong

I just don’t understand

Maybe my performance was

whack !
But I know myself

And I trust myself

She’s never even complained

once

Unless she thinks I am taking

advantage of her
And I am using her

Which is not even the case

I try calling her , but she

doesn’t answer her phone

I know it’s because she

doesn’t want to talk to me

I can’t even ask Collen

It’ll be like I am rubbing this
in his face

I am so fucking screwed , to
be honest

I wish I knew how to fix this

Maybe there’s a chance

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*FOUR MONTHS LATER*
*INSERT 30*
*SABRINA*
I just have a thing for
screwing myself over
And now here I am

And again , stuck with these

two

I look at them

And place the test on the

table

Collen : you’re pregnant ?

Meli smiles

Me : yes

Meli : wow

Collen : how far along ?

Me : four months
Meli : when did you find all
this ?

Me : a month ago , and I

went to see a doctor he
confirmed

Meli : a month ago and you

kept quite all this time ?
Me : yes , I kept quite for my
reasons

Meli : you didn’t think I

needed to know ?

Collen : can we just talk like

adults here , and stop with
the bickering

I heave a sigh
Meli : you’re here , I am even
wondering why you’re here

Me : just stop , I asked both

of you here . Don’t start
acting better

He’s just been bitter

Ever since I distanced myself
away from them

I don’t know what’s his deal

Because this relationship

didn’t even work , because of
him

Me : I don’t know who is the

father
Collen : but how ? You’re
four months

Meli : which means it’s mine

Collen : how ?

Me : I don’t know who is the

father
Meli : but you slept with me

Me : it could actually be
Collens , because I slept with
him first

Meli : what ?

Me : the day of the

graduation , he spent the
night . And of course , the
following day after the
seeing the hotel it was you

I take a deep breath

Meli : you just love doing this

don’t you ? You’ve been
sleeping with him also ?

Me : I don’t want anything to

do with you both , I’ve kept
my distance all these months
. And I want it to remain the
same , until this baby is born
and DNA tests are done

Collen : you can’t expect me

to stay away from my child

Me : I am asking , because
having you both near me is
just a disaster . I just wanted
to let you know , so you’re
aware

Meli : just do whatever you

want Sabrina , I am over this .
But if that’s my child , you
won’t keep me away

Me : don’t speak nonsense ,

when have I ever kept you
away from your child ?
He gets up

Meli : I am done with this

And he walks out

Every damn time , he just

walks out
Me : I guess the conversation
is done

I look at Collen

Collen : every doctor

appointment , I will be there .
I’ll increase the monthly
allowance

He gets up
Collen : no stress

I let out a fade smile

He walks past me

I look down as tears stream

down my face
I feel like my heart is
betraying me right now

And I have lost

I am startled as I feel his

presence next to me

I lift my head wiping my

tears off
Me : you ….I thought you ..

He says nothing but sits

down next to me

And he brings me over to

him , laying my head on his
chest

I can’t help but just tear up

.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
I know we’re not together
anymore

She’s made that clear very

well

And the distance she kept

It meant she was serious

I stayed away as well

And respected that

But I was happy now , that

she’s carrying my second
child

And she goes to tell me

I fucked her , while she had
Collen’s sperms inside of her

I wonder just how many

times , I have slept with her

And she had already slept

with him

I am pissed
I look at Bina

Me : get up , it’s getting late

She looks at me

She’s just another fucked

decision I’ve just made
All because I am pissed at
Sabrina

I don’t understand why she

just can’t close her legs

Now Collen thinks me and

him are just the same

Sabrina is making that guy

disrespect me
Me : did you not hear me ?

Bina : I know you’re angry ,

and it’s probably because of
Sabrina

Me : what ?

Bina : I know she’s pregnant

Me : you have to reason
talking about Sabrina

Bina : when will you see she

doesn’t love you ? She’s
going to drop you hot like a
potato , I am telling you .
Next thing you’ll hear that
she’s with another man
I sit down on the edge of the
bed

Bina : but I am here …

Me : hey …I told you , I’ll

never committ to you

Bina : oh ? But I’m good

enough when you have
problems , you call me so
you can release

Me : at least you understand

that part

Bina : no wonder Sabrina is

doing this to you , you’re
such a weak man . You
fucking disgust me , even
Collen is more of a man than
you’ll ever be

I look at her

Bina : you’re a weakling

Me : get out , before I get

arrested for shit
She clicks her tongue getting
up

I heave a sigh , feeling such a

banging headache
.
.
.
.
I don’t even know why I am
back here
But here I am

And the gate is not closed

As I am about to drive in

I see Collen’s car is still here

Me : wow !
I shake my head

I chuckle not believing this

Then the fool must be me

I reverse and drive back to

the hotel

I am getting my shit and

leaving this place
They can stay here and be
whatever the fuck they want

I am done
.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 31*
*TWO YEARS LATER*
*SABRINA*
I open the bedroom door

And they don’t even move

Me : guys !

They all look at me

Me : I will not be late

because of you , I have to
drop you to the airport . And
still attend to a meeting

Luvo : we’re done

Me : look at your face , you

look like a ghost and you tell
me you’re done

Luvo : Katelyn wanted to do

my make up
Me : Luvo please , work with
me champ

Katelyn : mommy see

Me : yes baby , but this make

up … whatever has to finish
now . Luvo grab wipes and
wipe your face please
Luvo : okay

He gets up

And walks to my bedroom

Me : come lets go

I walk in and grab their bags

They follow behind

Me : no running on the stairs

They just nod their heads

I walk outside to the car

I put their bags in the boot

Me : come
They get in the car , and I
strap them on their seats

Luvo walks out the door and

comes to the car

Me : strap yourself in

He laughs

Luvo : yes
I turn and walk back in the
house

Grabbing my laptop bag and

handbag

I lock and head to the car ,

driving to the airport
.
.
.
.
I answer my phone

Me : hey

Meli : hey , have they

boarded yet ?

Me : yes
Meli : okay , I’ll be at the
airport when they arrive

Me : alright , and if Katelyn

gives you problems please
don’t hesitate to call me

Meli : I think they will be fine

, she’s a bit shy yes but
they’ll be fine
Me : okay

Meli : so , still won’t tell me

where you’re going ?

I laugh

Me : no , bye

I drop the call , checking the

time on my phone
I hope I won’t be the one
missing my flight

I walk to the parking , and

get in my car driving to the
office
.
.
.
.
*COLLEN*
Mom : when will you be back
?

Me : in a week or two

Mom : oh okay

I laugh

Me : don’t look at me like

that
Mom : I didn’t say anything

Me : you don’t have to

Mom : Kate’s kids are coming

, so I will not be here bored
all by myself

I laugh
Me : that’s good

Things got very bad with

Kate

And eventually she didn’t

make it

My mother was badly

affected by that
So I decided to make things
okay with the baby daddies

So they let her have the kids

during holidays

Me : I will call you when I

arrive
Mom : why don’t you say we
? It’s not like it’s a secret to
me , like it is to eveyone else

I laugh

Me : mom please , I have to

go by

I grab my suitcase and walk

out
I take out my phone and
send a text

“We’ll meet at the airport”

The uber is already waiting

for me at the gate
.
.
.
.
*MELISIZWE*
These kids , it’s like they keep
growing every time I see
them

I make sure Kegan is

strapped in well

Me : stay still buddy

He giggles

I close the door

Me : Luvo , earpods off so

you can pay attention to
your brother

Luvo : can’t I just sit with

Katelyn ?
I laugh

Me : no chance buddy

He closes the door taking his

earpods out

I get in the drivers seat

And drive out of the airport

I look at Katelyn , she has her
head bowed down

She’s fiddling with her

fingers

Me : hey princess

She looks at me smiling shyly

Katelyn : hi did
Me : I missed you

Katelyn : me too

I chuckle

Me : and you look very

beautiful

Katelyn : thanks
Me : your hair is very nice

Katelyn : mommy did it

Me : oh , mommy is very
good

Kegan : she’s going overseas

I look at him through the
mirror

Me : did she tell me where

she’s going , and with who ?

Kegan : she …

Luvo : she didn’t say , and

please don’t use us to pry . If
you want to know anything
ask her , she’s your baby
mama . Or just wait , until
she tells you when she’s
ready

I frown

I didn’t anticipate him

interfering in this
conversation
He’s just too smart for his
pants

It’s a lot
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
I feel like I’m an unorganised
person today

Busy running around

Now that the meeting is
wrapped up , I feel like I can
breathe

But I still have to get to the

airport

I hope I’ll be able to beat

traffic
Me : thank you team , and I
am trusting you all not to
disappoint me

We all get up packing our

things

Lucy : ma’am your husband

has sent a car to pick you
Me : oh , thanks . I didn’t
know

She smiles

Lucy : and he said a driver

will come pick your car and
take it to your house

Me : a lifesaver
Lucy : enjoy your
honeymoon , and don’t
worry about work

Me : thank you

One less thing to worry

about

Driving to the airport myself

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 32*
*MELISIZWE*
I look at them , watching
Luvo take out their bags
from the car

I wonder if Sabrina has

already boarded

Luvo : I am done
Me : come here

They all walk over

Me : so since you didn’t want

to tell me about your mother
, does the same apply with
what happens here ?

Luvo : what do you mean ?

Me : if she asks you
something , you won’t tell
her

He shrugs

Me : what …what’s that ?

Luvo : depends wether you

want us to tell her or not
I heave a sigh

Me : fine , there’s someone I

want you to meet

Luvo : like a girlfriend ?

I sigh

Me : yeah
Luvo : oh , she better be nice
otherwise …

Me : hey …hey can we just

get to know her first ?

Luvo : okay

Kegan : what’s a girlfriend ?

I look at him

Katelyn : it is like mommy

and …

Luvo quickly picks her up

And she keeps quite

Me : what’s all this ?

Luvo : please help us with the
bags

He says walking inside the

house

I look at Kegan , and he’s

also just looking at me

Me : does mommy have a

girlfriend ?
He shrugs

Kegan : I don’t know a

girlfriend

Me : mhm , okay

I grab their bags and he

follows me inside
I just hope they will get
along

Otherwise , as it was said

.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
Me : hey
We briefly hug

And kiss

I smile pulling out of the kiss

Me : why didn’t you tell me ,

we’re traveling with a private
jet ? I wouldn’t have run
around like a headless
chicken all day long ,
thinking we’ll miss our flight

Me : let me call Meli , and

check on the kids

He grabs my bags to the jet

I dial Meli , after a few rings

he answers
Me : heh

Meli : thought you left

already , I would have called

Me : about to board

Meli : so you even taught

your kids to lie ?

I laugh
Me : I just wanted to hear if
you got them , and they
arrived safe

Meli : they’re good , I was

already at the airport when
they arrived

Me : okay thank you

Voice : is that mom ?

Meli : yes

Luvo : let me speak with her

Meli : but I am still talking

Luvo : I’ll be quick

Meli : okay , don’t go telling
her things that don’t concern
her

What could it be , that

doesn’t concern me ?

Luvo : hi mommy

Me : hey baby , are you all

okay ?
Luvo : yes , we’re good

Me : okay , please behave

and help your father

Luvo : his girlfriend is here

Me : girlfriend ?

Luvo : yeah
Me : oh okay

Luvo : is dad with you ?

I heave a sigh

Luvo : don’t worry , I’m near

the door . No one is listening

I laugh
Me : he’s already inside the
plane

Luvo : okay , will you still

have the big wedding when
you come back ?

Me : yes we will , with all of

you there
Luvo : alright

Me : I will call you guys okay

?

Luvo : okay we love you

Me : I love all of you

Luvo : I am giving daddy his

phone back
Me : okay

Meli : there’s something I

need to tell you

Me : okay ?

I am sure it’s about the

girlfriend
I am wondering if it’s not
Bina

Especially after the drama

she caused me

As if I sent Meli to fuck with

her

I don’t even know where she

is right now
Meli : I am seeing someone

Me : oh wow

Meli : yeah , I hope there will

be no drama

Me : from who ? I long told

you , I just don’t want my
kids being mistreated
Meli : she knew about them

Me : still , doesn’t mean she

will appreciate all three kids

Meli : they’re all mine

Me : okay
Meli : you won’t even ask
who it is ?

I laugh

Me : if you want me to know

you will tell me

Meli : wow , when you move

you move and you don’t
even care . I hope the next
one knows better

Me : so will you tell or not ?

He sighs

Meli : it’s Lala

Me : thee Lala , the
receptionist from the
company you worked for ?

Meli : yes , she’s the sale’s

director now at the new
pharmacy

Now I am shocked
I never thought him and Lala
could date

Meli : before the twins were

born

Me : wow , well I am happy

for you . Lala is a good
person

He laughs
Meli : what kind of a baby
mama are you without
drama ?

Me : don’t be crazy , greet

Lala for me . I have to go , I
have something to tell you as
well but you’ll wait until I am
back . And please don’t ask
me anything right now
Meli : what ? You’re with a
boyfriend I don’t know on
this trip of hours ?

Me : I laugh , wait until I am

back Sokhulu bye

I drop the call

And walk inside the jet

.
.
.
.
*FIERCE*
*INSERT 33*
*MELISIZWE*
Lala : and what did she say ,
when you told her about me
?
I peck her lips

Me : she’s congratulating us

She sighs

Me : why were you worried ?

Lala : I knew her well , when

she was still dating you
I chuckle

Me : yeah , and life

happened . I am even
surprised she didn’t end up
with Collen

Lala : why him ? You both

got dumped

I laugh
Me : he did so much during
the pregnancy of the twins , I
just wasn’t myself and I was
angry

Lala : one would even say he

loved her more than you did
, because I am sure he was
also angry . Imagine had he
found out both kids are not
his , and meanwhile he’s the
one who’s been there ?

Me : yeah , that would have

been fucked up

Lala : but now , you have one

and he has one that made
things easy surely

Me : yeah
Lala : would you be angry
though , if she did end up
with him ?

Me : maybe back then , but

now I just want her to be
happy as well . And if it’s with
him , I am fine . He’s a great
guy , and a great dad
She smiles

Lala : I love what you three

have , parenting like this it’s
just beautiful

Me : now you’ll be a part of

that , so if or when we have
our own kids you must know
Collen will also be their
father . He seems to want all
my sperms

She laughs

Lala : that’s beautiful though

Me : I am glad though this is

out of the way
Lala : me too , and that
Sabrina is not offended

Me : I think she’s even relived

, it’s someone she knows .
She will not worry about the
kids being mistreated

She smiles
Lala : you told me everything
, before I even committed .
You see all three kids as
yours , not just the two . So I
have no reason to treat your
princess differently

I pull her closer

Me : you’re just the best

Lala : I love you

Me : and I love you

I think in the end all this

worked fine

I still love Sabrina

And probably , I will always

love her
But I have moved on from
her

And Lala is the woman I want

to build a future with

She’s accepted me as I am

With all my kids

I couldn’t have asked for
more
.
.
.
.
*SABRINA*
He looks at me and smiles
Me : I love you so much , and
I appreciate you more than
life itself

Collen : come here

I walk over to him

And sit on his lap

Collen : I love you much
more Mrs Flay

I smile

Me : your son was asking if

we will still have the big
wedding , when we get back
home

He chuckles
Collen : can we trust them
not to say anything , before
we actually tell everyone ?

Me : mhm we can only hope

Collen : it’s been two years ,

he might feel betrayed
Me : he’s moved on , so have
we . And that’s all that
matters , now the focus is
raising our kids

Collen : okay , we will deal

with all that when we get
back . No stress on this
honeymoon , because you
actually deserve it . Your
mother kept it to herself ,
lets trust our team will keep
it to themselves as well

I laugh

I am actually surprised by
mother didn’t say anything

Because we kept everything

private
And we got married just
before I gave birth to the
twins

Meli was still angry

And I didn’t need drama

from him

We still didn’t know they

were even twins
But Collen didn’t care

He just wanted me , and he

wasn’t backing down

Since from the day Meli

walked out upset

He stayed , and he never left

My heart just grew more and
more for him

I found myself just being

content , and I stopped
fighting

What man would have

married a woman like me ?
He found me with another
man’s child , and loved the
child like his

I was pregnant again , not

knowing it’s his child or not

But he still asked me to

marry him
And when I have birth , that’s
only when we found out
there were twins

And it came out they’re

fraternal twins

I don’t regret anything at this

moment
Even when I thought I was
done

It turned out I hadn’t even

begun

But here I am happy

And very much content

And I’m happy for Meli

It just wasn’t meant to be

Even if maybe I’m the reason

, things turned out how they
did

But it is what it is

At the end , I wish him and

Lala happiness
.
.
.
.
*THE END*