CHAPTER 1.

This day is not suppose to be like this. What is suppose to be the happiest day of my parents lives has turned
out to be the worst. Just a week before my sister's "so called wedding" must take place, she left a letter
stating that she's not pregnant for the man she has to marry, she doesn't love him and she has eloped to marry
the father of her child. We don't know where she is and everyone has been calling her but her phone is
switched off but I think she changed her numbers.
My mom has been crying non stop all week and dad being him has been roaring like a caged lion because he
can be pretty strict sometimes....who am I kidding most of the time, so this behavior from my sister shook
everyone mostly my parents coz she's the apple of their eyes. So today is the day where the negotiations must
conclude and everyone is on edge coz we don't know what my dad is going to tell her fiance's family.
I'm lungi mazibuko, I'm 25 and I'm the second born, of Thuli and sipho mazibuko. My elder sister is nobuhle
mazibuko she's 30 the one who ran away and then our little brother thami mazibuko who's 20. My dad is 57,
mom is 50 and we live comfortably and we not rich or poor. We live in Mpumalanga province Standerton.
My dad is a correctional officer at the Department of Correctional Services. Mom is a teacher at a primary
school and my older sister was or is working in Joburg for some law firm as registry clerk and I work as a
secretary for some real estate company and my brother is studying civil engineering at TUT.
I know why you're wondering why I'm not living at my own place as I'm 25 well I tried but dad refused when
I told him and he said I'll leave this house the day I get married. I think it's because he wanted to control me.
They provide us with everything we need but it has never been a secret that nobuhle is their favourite child.
So you can imagine the shock they felt when they read that letter.
My brother found it, came to my room and we read it before we took it to them. Dad has been been mum
about it the whole week thinking buhle will show up before the week ends but she didn't so he had no choice
but to call our uncles and tell them what happend.
My uncles and dad have been discussing a way forward since they arrived in the morning because today my
sister's in-laws are coming to finalise the Amalobo negotiations. I know the in-laws of my sister are rich and
so is her fiancee. I have never seen him or heard of him but maybe my parents do but I'm not sure because my
sister came home one day and announced that there's a man who wants to marry her, he's rich and hearing that
my dad's ears started ringing and he agreed to start the lobola negotiations as soon as possible.
Mom told anyone and everyone that her daughter is going to marry a rich man from Joburg who lives in
Sandton. She was so excited and started to interview people who'll do the catering and decor because her
princess deserves only the best. She's in her bedroom right now because she said she thinks she's going to
have a heart attack.
We're in the kitchen and it's me, my cousin simphiwe I call her Sims then her mom who is my aunt. The mood
is sour and it's like someone has died and we're preparing for a funeral.
Sims: " Luh "
Me: " Sim" I look at her as I'm busy gratting the carrots

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Sims:" Buhle really ran away? "
Me:" You heard it yourself when dad read the letter again to everyone "
Sims:" She has always been selfish, look at what she did"
Me:" Shh... You dont want mommy dearest to her you say that"
Sims:" Oh It serves them right"
Me:" Obviously " We both giggle and mom enters the kitchen while we're giggling.
Mom:" You are all laughing because what is happening is funny?, what are you laughing at? " She asks
angrily
Sims:" So we must not laugh now because buhle ran our away?, it's not our fault aunt that she did yoh "
Mom:" Shut up simphiwe! , you are all so jealous of her. You knew that in this family she's the only one
who'll be more successful in anything more than all of you" She looks at me when she says those words.
Sometimes I wonder and ask myself why does my mother hate me so much. I keep quite, look down and
continue what I'm doing.
Sims:" Yeah right she got successful by getting pregnant for another man " She says rolls her eyes
Me:" Sim please don't say anything "
Sims:" Aunt shouldn't say that. We'll also be successful so when she says that it's like she's putting a curse on
us "
Mom:" That's why you have 2 kids with different fathers, it's that big mouth of yours that you open like your
legs. Where are their fathers hmm?, you see what I mean...jealousy" That shuts sims up and she tears up.
Mom leaves the kitchen and my aunts don't say anything, they just keep quiet because they scared of her.
Me:" I'm sorry sims, you know how mom can be"
Sims:" It's okay sis and she is right. Me and my big mouth don't know when to shut it" I hug her and we
continue to cook in silence. We can hear there's a disagreement in the living room about something and then
my uncle who's dads younger brother says " This is wrong sipho" Then at that moment we hear cars hooting
outside and the whole house goes dead quiet.

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Dad:" Why is everyone still in the kitchen, did you not hear the cars hooting outside?, go outside and
welcome them" We all go outside and start ululating, making happy noise. My mom is in her bedroom
sleeping I think, I don't know if she's allowed to be outside and shame I feel very sorry for her but there's
nothing I can do to make her feel better. Sims and I leave our aunts outside and other cousins and we go to the
kitchen to prepare refreshments for the elders.
Sims:" I wonder what's going to happen after they find out that buhle is gone"
Me:" I think they'll just ask for their money back and leave..... I mean there's nothing they can do".
Sims:" I hope so sis"
We finish preparing drinks and snacks then leave them on the table for our aunts to take them to the living
where everyone is sitted then we go to sit in my bedroom and my brother enters and closes the door behind
him.
Thami:" Guys why are you sitting here it's so hot, you should be outside under the tree shade"
Me:" It's also hot outside thami yoh and where were you because I haven't seen you since the morning."
Him:" I went to see my friends couldn't stand the tension in the house"
Sims:" Buhle and her drama, one day she's going to regret what she did"
Him:" I doubt the spoiled princess will regret it " We all laugh.
Me:" Let's take a walk and go to the shops, it's not like we're needed here"
Thami:" Yeah plus maybe we'll buy 12 savanah and hide them then we'll drink them here in your room luh "
Me:" I'll buy them but they shouldn't see us" I take my R300 on my purse then comb my afro then look at my
long sleeve orange maxi dress and I look good then we leave.
Thami:" Aw my beautiful yellow bone sister, if only it was you getting married I would been on top of the
world right now really happy! "
Me:" Ugh please, I need a boyfriend first then all of that will come later" We laugh
Thami:" what happened to Paul I thought you liked him? "
Me:" He got tired of me because you know how dad is and so he couldn't deal with it"
Thami:" He didn't deserve you and it's his loss" He puts his arm around my shoulder and the other around
sims shoulder we continue to walk.
Me:" Ncooh thanks lil bro" I pinch his cheek, he smacks my hand off and we laugh.
Thami:" I'm taller than you so I'm your big brother " I roll my eyes.
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The cars outside our yard, they are huge SUVs all in black color, yoh I have never seen such huge cars. We
pass them then go straight down the road to the shops. We are laughing making jokes and as we're walking
there's this huge Porsche car maroon matte in colour and it looks absolutely beautiful and out of place
because it is just standing there on it's own.
The windows are tinted and you can't see inside but you can make out the figures in the car. When thami sees
the car he makes all kinds noise praising the car and talking about all the stuff it has and does blah, blah, blah
and we laugh at him. As we pass the car about few minutes there's this thing that tells me to look back and I
do and see the window of the car we have passed has been rolled down. Someone has opened it and it feels
like they watching us and it freaks me out.
Me:" Guys maybe we should go back home, I don't feel safe"
Thami:" What's wrong luh? "
Me:" I don't know, there's this weird feeling like something bad is going to happen and it's scaring me "
Thami:" Why don't you guys go back and I'll go buy the stuff. Stay in your room and I'll find you guys there".
He kisses my forehead then leaves and we head back.
We pass that car again and I try to look inside but it's dark. We get home, go to my room and we can hear the
families arguing and it doesn't sound good at all.
Sims:" I think the in-laws have been told that their bride is M.I.A" She laughs but I just shrug my shoulders.
Me:" Cousin I have this feeling at the pit of my stomach that something bad is going to happen "
Sims:" Don't worry sis, the only thing bad that happens is gone and so we don't have to worry. They'll take
their money and go. Simple as that " She claps her hands.
Me:" I hope you are right sis " Right then my aunts come followed by my dad and one of them is crying.
Me:" Ncane what's wrong?"
Dad:" Both of you take these blankets and cover yourselfs and follow your aunt "
Me:" Dad what's going on you're scarring me? "
Dad:" Do as I say Lungi now!"
Sims:" Mama what's going on?"
Her:" I'm sorry Lungi I really am" She takes the big blankets and cover me with it and does the same to sims
and we're just standing there dumbfounded not really understanding what's going on.
She takes my hand and gives it to sims and we hold hands and she takes mine to hers.
Her:"follow me" She leaves I'm in the middle and sims is behind me. We follow her to the living room and it
gets quiet and I finally realise what is about to happen and my heart drops..... No!, God don't let it be
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please!.... Show me that I'm wrong.
Tears fall down on my face behind the blanket and I wipe them off because I know if dad sees them, he'll be
mad at me. They sit us down then I hear my uncle talk.
Uncle:" We hear your demands and it is the right thing to do. These are also the other beautiful flowers you
can choose to replace the one who disappointed all of us. Any of them would make a beautiful daughter in-
law." Oh my God it is really happening. My dad and uncles have decided that one of us is going to replace
ubuhle, how can they do this to us?. My tears won't stop falling
Someone:"we have another request here "
Uncle:" talk"
Someone:" Since your daughter has shamed us and disrespected our son, we want him to choose for himself
who will replace your daughter " huh?, what?
Dad:" But we haven't finished other matters" My dad says angrily
Someone:" That will follow after but for now we want our son to come and choose for himself "
Dad:" Fine. Tell him to come! ". The person leaves to go call my sister's fiancee. I move my hand under the
blanket and search for sims hand and I find it and hold it for dear life. I hear my uncle whisper next to me
Uncle:" I'm sorry my daughter but I know he's going to choose you". This time I don't try to hold back that I'm
crying and I just let it all out.
Dad:" Don't you dare embarrass me like your sister. Do you hear me Lungi? " I keep quiet
Dad:" Do you hear me Lungi? "
Me:"ye... Yes dad"
Dad:" Wipe those damn tears off " I do as he says but they continue to still fall.
The atmosphere changes when they get in. I haven't seen him but I feel him, his presence and aura is too
strong yoh I fell goosebumps covering my whole body and I shiver. I grip sims hand much harder then I hear
her winces I loosen my grip.
He is sitting down somewhere on my left I think because I can feel his eyes on the left side of my head like he
can see me through the blanket.
Uncle:" MaMtshali come on this side so you can take off the blankets off their heads so son in-law can
choose who he wants" I hear my aunt approaching
Person:" Cha" (No) the room goes quiet and I hold my breath thinking he doesn't want any of us and this and I
cross my fingers and pray that I'm right.
Uncle:" What do you mean no? "
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Him:" Ngikhetha lona " ( I choose her). I don't know if he pointed at sims or me and I just hope it's sims hw
chose.
Uncle:" Ok son, maMtshali lift off the blanket so he can see her "
Him:" I'll do it myself " His voice is not to deep but it's scary. I feel like I'm going to pass out. I feel sims
letting go of my hand and standing up and I breathe out deeply and I'm about to thank God that he didn't
choose me, when I feel the blanket being taken off my head and I close my eyes not wanting to open them
because I know I'm going to see the man who has just turned my life upside down.
Him:" Lungi" He says and I fall apart.

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Me:" No.... No dad please don't to this!" I'm crying
Him:" Look at me!" He says with so much authority that I open my eyes and lift my head to look at him and
see that he is standing and my face is on the same level with his crotch. If I were to kneel in front of him, his
crotch would be right on my face. I don't look at him, I just look down again kneeling then make my way to
my dad.
Me:" Baba...I don't want to marry my sister's fiancee please dad I'm begging you, I don't want to! ". I don't
care that I'm creating drama but there's no way I'm going to marry a man I don't know, even love and worse a
man who loves my sister and has slept with her.
Dad:" Stop being dramatic. We have concluded the negotiations and you will step in for your sister and
marry into this family, it is tradition and it has always been done. You and your husband will grow the
Gumede family tree with many children. Do you hear me lungi? " I shake my head no looking at him, straight
in his eyez . I know doing this, is very disrespectful and in front of people because it would seem that I do
not respect him as my father and the head of the whole family.
Dad:" Oh so you are disrespecting me in front of people, your in-laws!. You want them to say I didn't raise
you with values, morals and respect?."
Me:" Kodwa baba anina ndaba ukuth mina ngifunani, why ningaba buyiseli imali yabo babuyele emuva la
baqhamuka khona?" ( but dad you all don't care about what I want. Why don't you give them their money back
so they can go back to where they come from?).
My dad stands up and slaps me across the face so hard I see stars. I cover my face shocked not believing that
my dad has landed his hands on me like that.
Dad:" I tell you what to do and you want to tell me what I must do, who's the parent here? " He tries to slap
me again but my uncle stops him.
Uncle:" Bafo stop. She is still in shock because she didn't know that this was going to happen. Lungi my
child....." he comes and crouches down next to me and holds my face and wipes my tears and I hug him crying
my lungs out.
uncle:" .....shhhh, don't cry my child. it's tradition arranged marriages have been done since the time of our
ancestors, accept your husband. He will love you and you will learn to love him too. He will take care of
you, treat you like a queen that you are. The Gumede's will love you once they get to know what an amazing
young woman you are." I bury my face on his chest and he holds me tighter.
uncle:" I know this is very hard to accept but please do and I promise you, you won't regret it. You are our
only hope and I have put my faith in you so please don't disappoint us, you hear me Luh? ".
It's days like these I wish my father was the one holding me like this and saying all these things but I know
that will never happen. It will be always be wishful thinking and I hope my uncle is right that I won't regret it.
me:" yes uncle I hear you. I agree to marry him and I promise I won't disappoint you". I hear someone
ululating and then everyone on the house is happy I think excluding me.

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My uncle kissea my forehead and stands me up and all the while my 'husband ' to be has been silent and
watching the whole thing and I'm now embarrassed that he had to witness everything. My aunt takes me back
to my bedroom and when we pass the kitchen everyone goes silent. I get to my bedroom and I find my brother
and sims there. She closes the door and I just stand there numb, my mind going through 1000 directions.
I slide down the door and sit on the floor, head on my knees and arms around my legs. Sims comes and hugs
me and my brother too and I let it all out. They don't say anything and just hold me. I'm thankful that I have
them in my life because without them, I wouldn't know what to do right now.
Thami:" we got you luh...us against the world, the three musketeers"
Sims:" he's marrying us too you know, because we're a package. You can't marry one without the others" I
giggle
Thami:" Ew sims, I'm not gay but yeah we're a package, buy one get two free " we laugh
Thami:" in this case he bought one and got 3 for free....lucky son of a gun" I laugh loud through the tears and
thinking what have I gotten myself into. someone tries to open the door and we get up, it opens and it's my
mother.
Mom:" you got what you wanted heh?....my daughter's life. I always knew you were jealous of her but this is
too much. you are going to live the life she was meant to live? " I have seen her angry but this is something
else and why is she still blaming me for her daughters behaviour?.
Thami:" mama this is not right!, buhle left on her own and ran away so why are you blaming luh?" he asks her
getting annoyed
Mom:" shut up, I'm not talking to you "
Me:" why do you hate me so much mama, what did I ever do to you because you are all now punishing me for
something I didn't do? "
Mom:" you are the biggest mistake of my life lungi and I wish you were never born " I feel like I've been cut
into tiny pieces by a very sharp knife and tears that were starting to dry up fall down again.
sims:" nooo aunty...why ukhohlakale kanjena? ". ( nooo aunty, why are you this wicked? " she says with tears
on her eyes
Thami:" it's better that luh is getting married so she won't experience this abuse from you and dad. If it were
up to me she would leave this hell whole we call a home tonight with her husband". mom clicks her tongue
and leaves banging the door behind her.
Me:" Can you guys leave I'd like to be alone "
Sims:" no luh we won't leave you alone" I sit on my bed and I feel my eyes getting heavy because of this
headache that I'm suddenly having.
Thami:" Sims can you give us a few minutes alone? "

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Sims:" sure. I love you lungi and you are the best sister I've ever had and I'm here for you anytime " we hug
and she leaves.
Thami:" let's take this off, it looks like it's giving you a headache " he takes off my head wrap
Me:" you know...sometimes I think that I'm adopted because why would mom and dad hate me so much? "
Thami:" I used to think it too because you don't look like us , you have this huge soft curly afro and plus
you're a yellow bone" he smiles
Me:" you said used to so what changed?"
Thami:" uncle loves you luh like you're his daughter and he calls you 'Luh kababa'. I think maybe mom had an
affair with uncle then she fell pregnant with you? " uhh hold up, what is my brother saying?
Me:" maybe but mom?....no!. she loves dad too much to do that to him"
Thami:" we should ask uncle one day, I know he'll tell us the truth"
Me:" thank you bro I don't know what I would do without you"
Thami:" good thing I'm here and we won't get to find out. married or not I'll always be there for you" we hug.
Thami:" lungi if you don't want to do it then don't. I'll help you run away, I have some money saved up and
you can go to cape town or anywhere where they wont find you" I know he'll do that for me.
Me:" I know you mean well thami but I made a promise to dad and uncle that I won't disappoint them. If
anything I don't want to disappoint uncle at all"
Thami:" I knew you were going to say that and this is why I want to say this to you. Marry him, be happy and
make his life a living hell and the best one. He chose you for a reason, he could have chosen usimphiwe but
he didn't so that means he saw something good in you and he wants it and you in his life. maybe it's fate that
made things to happen like this. love him and make him really happy so much that he'll forget that there were
other women before you especially our sister"
Me:" but how do I do that. I don't even know him, his name or what he likes and he slept with our sister
thami!...how do I even begin to do that with him knowing he did that with our sister? "
Thami:" eish that is hard but you are a woman....you'll know what to do. Look don't stress about that now
you'll cross that bridge when you get to it "
Me:" Only if it were that easy thami "
Thami:" I'm sorry about what mom said. She should be happy and not taking out her anger and stress on you,
promise me that you'll be happy with Mbuso and if he does anything to hurt you let me know okay? "
Me:" wait, how do you know his name?"
Thami:" Because I met him the first time they were here"
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Me:" ok I promise I'll tell you. So this is it....i'm getting married to Mbuso Gumede I wonder when? "
Thami:" you want me to show you his picture?"
Me:" where did you get it?"
Thami:" outside when he was entering the yard, he' is tense"
Me:" yeah I felt it too " then we hear everyone in the house shouting , clapping and ululating, car hooters
going on and off.
Me:" here goes my life....I guess they are done" I tear up
Thami:" let me go outside and see" I nod, he leaves and I lay down on the bed and close my eyes. I must have
fallen asleep because I feel sims shaking me and her mom smiling looking at me with my other aunt.
Sims:" it's done...come now so you can help us dishi the food "
aunt:" I know everything went totally different and we weren't expecting it will end like this but I'm glad it's
you luh who's going to get married " she kisses my cheek then hugs me. Everyone seems happy but not me and
definitely not my parents.
Simsmom:" go wash your face and hold your head high when you get into the kitchen, so you can dish up for
your husband "I almost roll my eyes
Me:" thank you aunty" they leave us and we go to the bathroom and I wash my face. She takes out her make
up bag when I'm done and I look at her.
Me:" no make up sis, I want him to see me looking like this so he knows that I'm not happy at all "
Sims:" he's one lucky man to have you sis because I know you're going to make him really happy and I knew
he was going to choose you "
Me:" really sims and how did you know that? " I roll my eyes
Sims:" don't roll your eyes at me young lady " she says laughing
Sims:" well I knew coz he has been watching you the first time they came here. You didn't see him because
aunt was buy sending you up and down"
Me:" I never noticed but why would he when he was going to marry buhle? "
Sims:" I don't know cousin but the way he looked at you was different to how he looked at buhle. With you
there was hunger and something else and with her when I saw them talking last time he looked bored,
annoyed and mostly angry at her" she laughs
Me:" with buhle well never know the real reason why they were together and wanting to get married "
Sims:" I peeked at him when we were sitting in the living room and his eyes were on you the whole entire
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time" I snort and shake my head.
Me:" let's go before your mom shouts at us " I look at my face and I'm red. ears, nose, cheeks, my eyes red
and puffy.
Chapter 3 Continual.
We go to the kitchen and we find mbuso's aunt. When she sees me she smiles, her smile is warm and inviting
and I can't help it but smile a little. She comes to me and holds my hands.
Mbuso'saunt:" I know I'm not your mom or trying to take her place but I'm here for you too lungi. I'm mbuso's
aunt which means I'm your aunt too now and I'm aunt Lwethu. Let's go to the living so we can give you the
clothes you'll wear when you visit oGumede come".
I follow her to the living room and everyone is there excluding my mom and husband. My aunt ululates when
they see me and start singing, aunt lwethu sits me down the mat and then puts a lovely light blanket on my
shoulders.
Auntlwethu:" Whenever we visit your house or when you are going to visit any of the Gumede households
you must always have this around your shoulders.... " Everyone agrees and I nod
Auntlwethu:"this is a lovely head wrap which from now on you'll use to cover that beautiful hair of yours.
Since you are a new bride. You will always have these on you so every man out there will know you are
taken, you're someone's wife ". Everyone is pretty happy saying things like I look beautiful and I make a
beautiful Makoti hheh these people. I feel numb.... I'm numb. After that she stands me up and we leave the
living room and go to the kitchen.
Sims:" Yoh mtase you look so beautiful " I glare at her and she laughs
Auntlwethu:" Come, your husband is waiting for you. He wants to see you " She says smiling and excited.
Me:" Aunt kmele siphake... " ( we have to dish up)
Sims:" Go mtase I'll dish up" Sims hugs me and I leave with aunt lwethu and I'm so nervous
Me:" Does my dad know I'm going to him now? "
Auntlwethu:" Don't worry he knows " I see many people sitting in the garage drinking and having fun. We
pass them and go outside the yard and she takes me to that Porsche I saw earlier and stand outside the door.
Her:" I'll send simphiwe to come and get you when it's time. Use this time to get to know him" I nod. Before
she can open the area door, he opens it and climbs out.

Mbuso:" Thank you aunty for everything " He says and hugs her then looks at me
Mbuso:" Ngena " (Get in) He says like he's angry or annoyed God I don't know what's going on now. Hearing
that kind of tone just shuts me down, I get in the car and see there's a driver.... Really he has someone who
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Auntlwethu:" Walk me to the gate" She says to mbuso he closes my door and they leave
Me:" Sawubona"( good afternoon)
Driver:" Yebo maGumede" ( hello Mrs Gumede) then he keeps quiet no how are you? , or hello to you too? ,
something else but nothing yoh.
As I'm inside the car I can see clearly outside and I see mbuso's aunt lwethu talking like she's giving mbuso a
lecture. I wonder if it's about me or what. Maybe he doesn't want this too and he was forced..... God I'm
gonna be stuck with a man who'll hate me. My train of thought is disturbed when he gets in the car. He
breathes out deeply then looks at me and I don't look at him, I just stare at the drivers head gripping my hands
tight.
Him:"drive there" There.... There where? But I don't ask.

Mbuso:" You want some water? "

Me:" Yes please" I clear my voice because I hate how weak and scared I sound right now. He gives me a
bottle of water, I take making sure I don't touch him and I drink all of it.
Mbuso:" You must have been thirsty " He's looking at me and I don't say anything
Mbuso:" Lungi. Look at me!" I turn and look at him and I see he's a very handsome wow. It's like God and his
parents took time to make him, like they weren't in any hurry but there's something scary about him.
Mbuso:" I know I'm ugly but can you at least look at me, I won't bite" Ugly who?, nikka please!
Me:" Where are we going? "
Mbuso:" Are you scared of me lungi? " Ofcos I am but I shake my head no instead. He puffs out, shakes his
head like he's getting frustrated well so am I dude.
The car finally stops and I see we're at some huge house in town. The opens and he gets out first extends his
hand for me to take but I ignore it and get out. He smirks and raises his left eyebrow like really you ignored
my gesture?.
Mbuso:" I'll call you when I need you. Feel free to go anywhere " The driver nods and gets in the car, drives
out and the gate closes. He takes my hand, I try to pull it off but he holds it tight. We walk to the house and
enter through the sitting room then he let's go of my hand and turns and locks the door.
Mbuso:" I rented the house, so don't worry it's just the two of us" Like that makes me feel at ease yoh
Mbuso:" Come let's to the bedroom " Oh my God!. He already wants to sleep with me?
Me:" No. I'm not going there" I shake my head furiously and he looks at me like he's bored
Him:" It's either you come by choice or I make you and you don't want that trust me". My heart is beating so
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Mbuso:" I'm waiting" He puts his hands on his pockets and looks at me and I feel my tears threatening to
come out.
Mbuso:" I'm going upstairs, don't make me come and get you" He leaves me standing there and I cry. Why did
my sister have to run away and why did my dad allow this to happen? . I look upstairs then look at the door
we came in from and look upstairs again and I make my decision.
Running away would have been a better choice for me but I know it would have gotten me into trouble with
my dad and I promised my uncle and him that I wouldn't dissapoint them. I make my way up the stairs and I
see an open door and I get in then I hear water running in the en suite bathroom and I think maybe he's taking
a shower but I only see his jacket in the bed and I stand there awkwardly not knowing if I should sit on the
bed or what but nope I'm going to stand right here, there's no way I'm sitting on that bed.
He comes out of the bathroom still wearing his clothes but his shirt is bloody and he's carrying a first aid kit
on his left hand and his right hand is bleeding and he's covering it with a towel.
Me:" Oh my God what happened? " I rush to him and take the first aid kit from him and pull him back to the
bathroom and then I see he broke the vanity mirror... He punched it. I look at him and he's looking at me then I
take his hand and pull of the towel and see his hand is getting swollen. I open the tap and test it the water is
cold then take the bloody hand and rinse off the blood.
Me:" I don't see any glasses stuck.... Do you feel like there's some still left? "
Him:" No " I take my hands and his bloody one and feel if there's any glass there stuck in his skin but I feel
nothing then I wash it off under the tap then take the towel and dry it.
Me:" Sit here" He sits on top of the closed toilet bowl then I kneel in front of him and take the first Aid kit
and do what my mom taught me once like cleaning the wound and disinfect it. I can feel his eyes on me the
whole entire time, I even forgot that I was crying when he wipes my tears off my face with his other hand. I
won't look at him not when I feel this weak and vulnerable. His hands are strong and big like his one hand
can cover both of mine.

Me:" Nothing is broken and the swelling will go down. The cuts are not that deep they won't need stitching
but I have to cover it so it won't be infected "
Him:" Do it" That's all he says and I do. When I'm done I stand up
Me:" I'll go look for the broom to clean here" I go before he even answers and I look around the kitchen find
the broom, make my way up again then find him sitting on the bed. I sweep the glasses off, go to the kitchen
and dump them in the bin and then I stand there for what feels like forever because I'm scared of going up
there again. I wipe my tears off and make my way there again. I get in and stand next to the door and he looks
at me.
Him:" Come here" He says but not so gently
Me:" Please..... " I beg him
Him:" For the last time lungi come here!" This man scares me, his authoritive voice, just him. My feet carry
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me to him and I stand next to the bed then he looks at me.
Him:" Take off your shoes and get on bed" My eyes get big like bugs eyes and I just want to run out of here.
He stands up so fast I didn't see it coming and I fall flat on my ass crying more because of my embarrassment
now. He takes off my sandals one at a time then takes my hand and help me up.
Him:" Get on the bed I'll be back" He goes to the bathroom and I get my ass on that bed then he comes back
with a glass of water and two pills.
Him:" Drink it's for the headache " I take them and my hands are shaking and I'm thinking what if he wants to
drug me then have his way with me?
Him:" I won't drug you just drink it" I take his word and drink them after I'm done he takes the glass and puts
it on the dresser then takes off shirt and his shoes and lays on the bed and looks at me and I crawl to the
middle of the bed lay down facing away from him.
My body is shaking and I can't sstop myself. He drags my body close to his without any warning and I let out
a loud sob, cover my face and that sob turns into a whole lot of ugly crying. I feel him trying to turn me to
face him but I refuse and I fight him. He's stronger than me because he manages to turn me and I keep hitting
him with my fists and legs but he puts his legs on top of mine and cages me and holds me tight and I fist his
white t-shirt and bury my face on his chest and just cry.

Him:" I'm sorry I know you don't want this"

Me:" Then why do it.... Let me go please, I'm not the one you wanted" He's the only who can stop all of this
charade
Him:" You're the one I want and I'm not letting you go.... Ever" He says and I cry hard.
Him:" Shhhh it's okay, let it all out" He keeps saying that over and over again until my tears ssto falling only
hiccups left.
I feel warm, protected... Wow I love this feeling coz it feels good and the arms that are holding me are
holding me tight like they don't wanna let me go. This feels amazing and hmmm soft, it smells nice too. I rub
my face and I nip on that skin and it's soft, never had I ever had this kind of a dream and I don't want to wake
up. I don't nip at it again but kiss it this time and I get a tingly feeling all over my body and I sigh when I feel
something poking me in my stomach and that feels too real not like a dream. I move my hand towards that
thing poking me and I feel a hand stopping me and then it dawns on me that I'm not having a dream, it's really
happening and I freeze.
Him:" Open your eyes and look at me" I shake my head no but he puts his finger under my chin and moves it
up then I feel his breath on my face and I swallow then open my eyes and see I'm face to face with his mouth
that is full and juicy and I lick my lips.

Him:" Fuck don't do that" He says it like his mouth is dry, I lick them again... Damn what am I doing... This is
not me, nope no ways but it is me and I have no idea what I'm doing.
Him:" You're playing with fire and you'll get burned" His lips are close to mine and if I just move my head
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up again a little our lips would touch.

Me:" I'm not scared of fire " I tell him... Haibo lungi. He buries his hand on my hair and grips tight and I
make the uh sound because that hurt.

Him:" You don't know what you're talking about "

Me:" But I know enough to know that you want me" I point to his dick with my eyes
Him:" I'll break you"
Me:" I'm already broken. There's nothing more left" The phone rings before he answers me.
Him:" What?.., now?....why?.... Ok.... Yes" He hangs up and looks at me
Him:" We have to go back" We get off the bed and I go fix myself in the bathroom then we leave the house
and I see it's already dark.
Me:" Is my dad mad? " I ask him and he pulls me to him and I let him I don't know why or maybe it's that
moment we shared in the house. I lay my head on his chest.
Him:" He won't you ever lay his hands on you again, youre mine now. " I breath out but I'm still scared.
Me:" Will you hurt me? " I ask him looking straight at his eyes
Him:"I won't intentionally hurt you. I promise "
Me:" Thank you for not lying to me" Then he decides to kiss me. Lightly and softly and I gasp then he goes in
and kisses me deeply and I kiss him back and it feels amazing. His lips are soft and his mouth is warm and it
does things to my body then suddenly the door opens we break the kiss and my mom is standing there with
aunt lwethu and I turn red all over my face.
Auntlwethu:" You've been gone for 4 hours mbuso and I've been calling you! " She's mad.
Mbuso:" We were sleeping and I didn't hear the phone ring " He says it like it's not a big deal and worse if
all in front of my mom and she gasps and if looks could kill, I would be dead right now.

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CHAPTER 4.
Here I am at the court room with both my parents, younger brother and sister cousin, my uncle and his wife
then Mbuso with his parents and other family members. I can't believe I'm getting married and never have I
ever thought that it will be in a court room full of strangers and worse I'm getting married to a man I've only
met once, I don't know him and do not love.
Tears have been falling non stop since the weekend because my mother blamed me for buhle's disappearance
and when Mbuso said he didn't hear the phone because we were " Sleeping " When mbuso and hi s family
left and I got into the house I was met by a fist from my father when my mom told her that I had already slept
with umbuso. They didn't even let me explain what really happened and I still have a black eye from my
father.
When Mbuso and his family saw me they were shocked. I tried to cover the bruise but it wouldn't let me...
Being a yellow bone sucks sometimes. I wipe my face as the judge is busy talking about marriage and all you
can feel in the atmosphere is tension. Some of the people are happy but my parents, me and this man standing
next to me we are not. I can feel his anger, hatred and all of that is directed to me. I can't believe my parents
decided to sacrifice me just so their precious name won't be dragged through the mud.
Judge:" Please face each other and repeat after me.... Look at each other " We face each other, I lift my head
then look straight in his eyes and I see annoyance
Judge:" Now since you don't have any vows you wrote for yourselves, please repeat after me"
Mbuso:" Can you skip all of that and just go to the part where we say I do" I hear my cousin gasp in shock but
I'm not shocked at all.
Judge:" Lungi Mazibuko are you here at your own free will and no one is forcing you to be here to marry this
man. If so say yes and if not say no". The temperature in the room changes to like zero degrees despite that
it's summer. I think about what the judge says and 100℅ part of me doesn't want this at all but my family
didn't ask for this too.
Me:" I am here on my own free will" I answer and hear loud sighs and he asks mbuso the same question and
also gives the same answer I did.
Judge:" If there is anyone here who doesn't wish these two to get married speak now or forever hold your
peace" I look at my dad begging him one last time but he doesn't say anything just looks at me with no
emotion whatsoever.

Judge:" Please take her hands and repeat after me " My hands were tucked under my arms coz I'm so cold and
shaking so I pull them out and he takes them and I get shocked to feel that they are so warm. I thought they
would be cold just like how he looks.
Judge:" Do you Mbusowezwe Gumede take uLungile Mazibuko to be your wedded wife. To love and to
cherish. In sickness and in health. In good times and in bad times. For richer and for poor. Till death do you
apart? "

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Mbuso:" I do ". He doesn't even hesitate but answers looking at me like he's bored.
Judge:" Do you Lungile Mazibuko take Mbusowezwe Gumede to be your husband. To love and to hold. In
sickness and in health. In good times and in bad times. For richer and for poorer. Till death do you apart" I'm
literally shaking like I'm going faint.
Me:"I...I... I do" I say mbuso holds my hands tight .
Judge:" I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss your wife" I know he's not going to kiss me but
I'm wrong. He brings my body close to his, puts his hands on my face and kissss me but I don't kiss him back
coz my mouth is closed but then he bites me and I gasp then he takes that opportunity to get his tongue in me
and forces me to reciprocate. His kiss is hard but his lips are so soft and I almost moan but then he stops. I
hear giggles and I get so embarrassed
Judge:" I give you Mr and Mrs Gumede everyone " He starts to clap and soon everyone in the room joins him
and they all clap then they leave us with our witnesses. Mine is my cousin sims and his, is his brother.
We sign our marriage certificate and yes we are married in community of property... Which means what's
mine is his and what's his is mine. As of today I'm rich.... Don't know how rich I am but I am rich and that
doesn't make me feel at ease at all because for all I know he could be criminal. We leave the office and he's
with the same driver he was with on Friday. We sit in the backseat and the driver drives off. He is sitting
next to me and I'm looking outside the window as we pass building after building.
Mbuso:" I'm your husband now. You better get used to me" I ignore him
Mbuso:" How many times must I tell you to look at me when I'm talking to you"
Me:" Why are you doing this... What did I ever do to you? "
Mbuso:" Your sister fucked with a wrong man and unfortunately for you, you're the one who's gonna be
paying for her sins. I feel cold chills run down my back when he says that then my head starts aching.
Me:" Where are we going? "
Mbuso:" The hotel to have lunch with your family then after we fly to Joburg "
Me:" Fly how because we don't have an airport here? "
Mbuso:" You'll see, your dad hit you again? ". Yes and it's all your fault.
Me:" He didn't " He gives me oh really look. We arrive at the hotel and mbuso takes my hand, I try to pull it
off but he grips tight then opens the door. Everyone is here, they came here after they left us at the court. I
look around and see it's like some sort of wedding reception but it's so heartbreaking for me because I never
imagined the day I get married will be the saddest day of my life.
I feel like a part of me died today. My parents are sitting with my now in-laws and I don't see my uncle and
his wife anywhere and my heartbreaks even more. We go to them and sit down.
MaGumede:" Welcome to the family lungi. I'm glad to have another woman in the family " She hugs me
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smiling
Me:" Thank you ma" His dad smiles and looks at me like he feels sorry for me. My parents don't say
anything, I think they don't want to and I'm not sure if I want them to say anything.
Mbuso:" I know that this isn't what we expected to happen but because of buhle's actions I had to protect my
family's name and honor. So since we don't know anything about each other with my wife here, I was thinking
if you all can give us space and time to get to know each other, when we're ready we would invite all of you
over and have a family dinner" He wasn't asking for permission he was basically telling them.
MyDad:" We won't bother you. Take as much time as you need, even years if that's not enough" I couldn't
expect more from him because I know he doesn't care about me at all.
Fatherin-law:" We understand son. You and our daughter in-law can take as much time as you need and we
won't put pressure on you" his mom agrees
MaGumede:" But as for me and your aunt lwethu you can call us anytime, especially when Mbuso gives you
trouble. First thing in the morning I'll be there. Don't hesitate to call us ".
Me:" Thank you ma" I look at my mother and she looks like she wants to stick a knife on my eye "
Me:" Can I be excused, I want to talk to my brother and sister "
MaGumede:" Go ahead dear, mbuso will introduce you to your brother in-laws" We go to their table
Me:" Good afternoon " My brother stands up and hugs me tight. We hug for the longest then let go and I hug
Sims too.
Mbuso:" This is my brother Siyabonga and that is Zipho the last born ".
Me:" Nice to meet you both " I lift my hand to shake theirs
Siyabonga:" No hugs for us?.... Wow. " he says playfully then gives me a side hug
Zipho:" we are family and so we deserve those hugs too. Come here " My heart gets warm a little bit and I
smile for the first time today. He gives me a full tight hug like the one my brother gave me.
Mbuso:" That's enough zipho. Get yourself your own damn wife you can hug like that " The boys laugh. We
sit with them and the guys are talking and laughing and I'm playing with my food. I'm hungry but I can't eat and
this damn headache.
Sims:" Made you don't look good, drink some water "
Me:" Let's go to the ladies room" I stand then mbuso takes my hand
Mbuso:" Where are you going? "
Me:" To the ladies room. Do I need permission to go there.... Can I? " I know I've disrespected him, the
whole table gets quiet
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Mbuso:" You do. Go" Mxm we leave and as soon as I get inside the ladies room I pour water ony face.
Sims:" I can't believe he said that! " .
Me:" I feel like this is one big nightmare that I'm having. A series of bad dreams that continue to happen from
the last 2days and they are not going to stop anytime soon "
Sims:" He likes you luh, the way he looks at you wow"
Me:" Are you serious right now sims? " She's annoying me right now
Sims:" Seriously I have experience with men and I know when a man wants a woman and that man wants to
be in your pants so badb"
Me:" You know what?, I can't with you right now! "
Sims:" He's going to want to tap that ass tonight when you get to Joburg "
Me:" Oh my God just stop! . I don't need this and I didn't ask for this. My parents didn't even care whether I
wanted it or not. It should have been my choice not theirs and you're also busy telling me how mbuso wants
to to fuck me!..." I scream at her
Sims:" Ssshhh..... I'm sorry. It's not fair to you sis, I'm so sorry " We hug then I clean my face
Me:" Can you give me some pills the aching won't stop " She gives them to me and I drink.
Sims:" It's just stress sis, you'll be okay, hold on for me and be strong. You'll get through this " We leave and
go back to them.
Mbuso:"it's time to go I sigh then Sims and I hug and I wipe tears off her face.
Thami:" I'll see you soon okay and well talk on the phone everyday " He kisses my forehead and hugs me too.
I go to my parents and hug them too but they don't hug me back and it's fine.
Mom;" I hope he makes your life a living hell for stealing my daughters happiness "
Me;" How can you say that mama?...baba "
Dad:" Just go"
Mbuso:" Come lungi let's go" God he heard.
Me:" I love you both goodbye". We head inside the and I sit down and buckle up and close my eyes. The car
off it goes to somewhere just outside standerton like were going to Balfour but we take a gravel road that
leads to somewhere. He is looking at me like he's studying me
Him:" How bad is your headache? "
Me:" To a point where I can't open my eyes" He fishes out for something in the glove compactment and
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comes out with pills
Him:" They'll help with the headache drink" I drink them then he presses a button and my seat moves
backwards making it easier for me to sleep then I see him taking out his laptop and I close my eyes aand dose
off.
I feel someone shaking me softly, I open my eyes and see mbuso's face. I look around and see that we're
inside a small private jet that carries about 4 passangers. I don't remember getting inside the jet...he must
have carried me and I'm heavy.
Mbuso:" Wake up. We've landed "
Me:" Did you drug me? "
Him:" Why would I do that?, you had a headache and I was trying to get you some rest " I just nod. I unbuckle
then get up and make our way to the car, my whole body is stiff and the only thing I want to is fall face down
and sleep.
His phone keeps ringing and he declines all the calls. I won't ask who's calling because it's none of my
business. I can feel his eyes on me but I don't dare look at him because I'm scared of what's going to happen
when we get where he lives. He's so silent like he's not in the car with me or even breathing, I don't know
how he does that.
The drive continues for about forty five minutes then we enter a posh neighborhood of houses, the
architecture and lighting of the houses is out of this world and you can tell only the rich live here. Once we
enter the gate the drive continues for another ten minutes then the car drives straight into the garage and stops.
My heart is beating so fast I feel like I'm going to have a panick attack. He gets out of the car and Frank opens
my side of the door and I get out and just stand there.
Him:" Follow me" He looks at me and I look at Frank and I don't know for what reason maybe for protection
or assurance. He's waiting by the door and when he sees me coming he turns and I follow him.
That's all I've been doing since he turned my life upside down is to follow him. We enter what I know is the
kitchen but I don't get to look around because he's not giving me a chance and my head is bowed down too.
I'm not ready to face this reality that I'm now going to live but I made a choice and I have to stick to it.
We get on the stairs and I try to be as fast as him but my legs won't let me, so I stop and take off my wedges,
he stops too and waits for me and when I'm done I follow him again this house is huge. We stop at this door
and he opens it and heads for me to enter and the first thing I feel is how thick and soft the carpet is and I
almost sigh coz my feet enjoy it.
There's this huge bed it's a king size and the headboard almost takes the whole wall and there's some sort of
decoration of steel bars on the headboard, they are part of it....that's weird. His phone rings again and he
declines the call for the eleventh time it's not like I was counting and I wonder who's calling him.
Him:" There's an en suite bathroom and walk in closet there on your right, your clothes are also there with
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Me:" Ok"
Him:" Aren't you hungry because you didn't eat the whole day? "
Me:" I'm not hungry I just want to sleep"
Him:" Fine I'm going out. Dont wait up dear wife "
Me:" I don't care" He looks at me one last time before closing the door then a few minutes later I hear a
sports car driving out.
He's gone and I sigh deeply then make my way to the bathroom and take off all my clothes and get in the
shower. The water is just how I like it hot so I scrub myself clean. I want to cry but I'm too drained... I'm
exhausted.... I feel numb... I am numb.
I get done showering then wear my pj's then throw the many pillows on the bed on different directions of the
bedroom then get in bed. The sheets are silk, they smell fresh and clean. I bury my face on the pillow and
sleep like I'm dead on my stomach.
I'm still sleepy when I hear the shower is on and I look at the clock on the wall and it's 3am. He just got back
from wherever he was at and now he is washing off some woman's smell off of him. I hear the shower door
opening and so I lay on my stomach again and close my eyes so he won't notice that I'm alert of him.
I can't believe he's going to sleep in the same bed I'm sleeping on, why couldn't he just show me the guest
bedroom to use it and not have to worry if he's going to touch me and that thought makes me panick. He
switches off the lights, gets in the bed facing me and I can feel his fresh breath on my face and I know his
body is close, not too close but close enough because the moment he got in the bed I felt this warmth from
him.
I can feel his eyes on me and I don't know if may he's waiting for me to open them up or ask him where he
was at but I'm not going to do that. I turn my head and face the other side and he sighs faces the other way and
sleeps.
I don't know when I fell asleep but I'm awake because my body everyday at 5:30am automatically wakes me
up. I open my eyes and see mbuso is deep in sleep facing me. I go to the bathroom and do my morning routine
then go to the walk in closet and wear my under garments and long dress then leave the bedroom and mbuso
is still sleeping. I still remember the way to the kitchen and I get there and find a woman who's about in her
late fifties stirring something in the pot and she must the help I think.
Me:" Good morning ma " She turns and looks at me and smiles and her smile is warm
Her:" Good morning Mrs Gumede. I didn't realize madam will be up so e early "
Me:" I'm an early riser. My name is lungi mazibuko, oh sorry ma it's Gumede now "
Her:" Nice to meet you madam and I'm Sophie dlamini but you can call me madlamini "
Me:" Nice to meet you too ma and you can call me lungi not Mrs Gumede "

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Her:" Mnumzane gave me strict instructions that I must call you either mrs gumede or madam " Who cares
what he said but it's his house and staff so I won't argue.
Me:" Madam will do, can I help you with anything" For now I say to myself
Her:" Sir said you'll tell me what to do around the house "
Me:" Just do what you've been doing ma but I'll clean our bedroom, do his laundry and I'll also cook "
Her:" Does that mean you're going to cut off my salary and the days I work? "
Me:" No ma I won't do that, you'll continue to get the same salary you've been getting. How many days do
you work here? "
Her:" Monday to Friday from 5:30am then on the weekends 7am to 2pm"
That's crazy why would mbuso work this woman such crazy hours
Me:" Do you have a family? "
Her:"I do madam. I have 5 grandkids that I live with" She takes out her phone and shows me their pictures
and they are all cute.
Me:" Your grandkids are beautiful "
Her:" thank you madam"
Me:" So when you're here this early who's watching them? "
Her:" The oldest who's 15. They understand that I have to work for them "
Me:" Where are their mother's if you do think me asking? "
Her:" They sometimes come home or call and sometimes they don't show up for months"
Me:" I'm sorry to hear that ma. How much is mbu....my husband paying you? "
Her:" Eh eish madam maybe you should ask him " What is she afraid of
Me:" I will. What do you use for transport? "
Her:" I take taxis madam" What?
Me:" Where do you live? "
Her:" Soweto at snake park "
Me:" It takes you how many taxis to get here? "
Her:" 3 madam sometimes 2" You does mbuso know where this woman lives and why is she using taxis
when he can get someone to take her home
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Me:" Excuse me for asking soany questions. I just want to know more about you since I'll be staying here.
You've worked how many years for him? "
Her;" I understand madam. It's going to be a year now " She stars to put everything on the kitchen table and
makes fresh coffee. I start to plate for myself when I hear doors opening and closing, more like someone
banging them closed, then hard thud footsteps like he's in a hurry... Like chill dude.
He gets in the kitchen and my breathing starts to change because I don't know what he's going to say. Will he
say something or ignore me. I feel him standing behind me then he turns the chair I'm sitting in and I see he's
only wearing pyjama pants and his chest is bare and he has that v-thing men have that leads to his crotch. He
tilts my head up with his finger and then gives me a kiss full on tthe mouth. I miss him back shocked at his
action.
Him:" Morning my lovely wife "
Me:" Morning my husband " He smirks
Him:" Madlamini unjani"
Her:" I'm good mnumzane " She leaves us alone in the kitchen.
Him:" I thought you were gone. I wake up and I'm alone in bed"
Me:" I'm an early riser" He turns to go sit on the opposite chair and I almost gasp loud but I close my mouth
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CHAPTER 5.
His back is full of scratches....nail scratches that can you only get from a woman who has long nails during
sex...oh wow I did suspect but seeing the evidence that he came home late because he was fucking
someone...kinda hurt a little. Here I am married to him, my life has changed but for him it seems as if nothing
has changed on his side.
He plates for himself, sits down, eats and totally ignores me. I guess that kiss was for show. I make an orange
juice, have scrambled eggs, bacon, bread and eat. The same door we came in yesterday opens then I see his
brothers and parents walking in. I get up so fast from the chair the realize my head is not covered but at least
I'm wearing a dress...it should count for something.

Me:" Good morning baba nomama, sanibonani bobhuti" The brothers greet back
Father in-laws:" Makoti wami omuhle unjani" ( my beautiful makoti how are you)
Me:" Ngiyaphila baba wena? " ( I'm good dad and you)
Him:" I will be once I eat"
Mother in-law:" Your dad is always grumpy in the morning. How are you makoti, we thought you might be
still sleeping " She comes and hugs me and hugs mbuso too and they all sit down.
Me:" I was hungry ma that's why I woke up early " Well it is the truth and I also didn't want mbuso to wake
up before me. Mbuso, his dad and brothers talk about work. I take the dishes and put them in front of
everyone.
Me:" What can I dish up for you baba?"
Him:" Everything that's here makoti" I do
MaGumede:" I'll dish for myself, sit down makoti and these two will dish for themselves " I sit down and we
eat.
Mbuso:" Baba I thought I asked you to give us space but you're all here, why?" The whole table gets quiet
Gumede:" We're all here because I wanted to talk to you about something before we leave for Cape Town
with your mom. We're taking a mini holiday and mbuso you will not tell me when or when not can I come to
my sons house siyezwana?! "
Mbuso:" Yebo baba, I was just asking " He says then stands up, turns his back and goes to open the fridge
and everyone's eyes are on his back then his brothers look at me like oh I know what you did last night, his
mom gasps and his dad looks at me.... Looks at my hands especially my nails and I know he knows. I quickly
put then on my lap under the table and look down. I can feel my face heating up turning red because of the
embarrassment. Mbuso pours himself some apple juice and notices that everyone is silent watching him. He
sits down slowly looking at his dad then at his brothers who are laughing.
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be he forgot or he simply doesn't care.
Gumede:" My daughter in-law, did you sleep well last night" Oh God
Me:"I did baba"
Gumede:" Hmmm. Can you please pour me coffee" What?, I stand up and take the fresh brewing coffee from
the machine and pour it for him. I'm standing next to him and he's looking at my hands.... Oh mbuso!
Gumede:" Add the creamer only 2 teaspoons " I add and stir. Iook at mbuso and he looks confused at his dad
and his mom continues to drink her tea looking down.

Me:" Can I be excused? "

Gumede:" Sit down and finish your breakfast" This man's big voice is so scary. I sit my ass down.
Mbuso:" Baba is something wrong....did lungi do something wrong? " His mother shakes her head looking at
him
Her:" You are a very smart man but sometimes you can be stupid mbuso yoh! "
Him:" Aw ma what did I do now?" He forgot
Gumede:" You really don't know or you're just disrespecting us here... Especially your wife? "
Mbuso:" What?, I really don't know what you're talking about and disrespect her how? " His voice starts to
get loud
Gumede:" Is that how now you talk to me mbuso?, raise your voice ever at me again and I'll punch you until
you get your senses back" He's as cool as a cucumber but his voice carries so much authority
Mbuso:"I'm sorry baba it will never happen again but I still don't know what wrong I did"
Gumede:" Did you share the same with your wife last night? " group open us and swallow me.
Mbuso:" With all due respect dad I cannot answer that"
Gumede:" Thought as much, well answer me this. Is she the one who put those scratches on your back? "
Mbuso's face goes all white then he looks at his mom, brothers then me and I look down. He stands next to
the fridge turns his body and sees his reflection and he says fuck softly. I go to "our" bedroom and look for
his T-shirt in the closet, come back with it and I give it to him and he takes it, wears it and sits down with his
head bowed down. I would think he is ashamed but hey I don't know this man.
Gumede:" What time did he come back lungi? and one thing you should know about your father in law is you
do not lie to me. We do not lie in this family we always tell the truth no matter what, do you hear me" First
time I hear my father in law call me by my name.
Me:" I hear you baba " I look at mbuso and he looks so guilty, sitting there like a school boy getting
reprimanded by his parents.
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Gumede:" When did he come home last night? "To lie or not to lie
Me:" I was asleep by the time he came back but I woke up when I heard the shower was on and I looked at
the clock and it was 3 am"
Gumede:" So the moment you landed and got home, you left your wife all alone in this house and left to do
disgusting things.....while you were supposed to be here comforting her but you were out making some
woman who's not your wife screaming your name mbuso!. At 3 am that's when a married man comes home? "
Mbuso:" It won't happen again baba. I'm sorry "
Gumede:" The very first day you got married, you left your wife to go and cheat? "
Mbuso:" I didn't cheat on her. We don't have that kind of relationship "
MaGumede:" You know I can just slap you right now mbuso. Wasn't it you who said you need time to get to
know each other?....or you were talking about sleeping with those cheap women you always sleep with
yeh?....talk man! "
Mbuso:" But mo. .... "
MaGumede:" Don't mom me man!. You are a married man now mbuso grow up. Forget about your bachelor
days they are gone. Focus on your wife here or else you'll lose one of the best things that has happened in
your life. Having her as your wife is good for you, you might not see it but I know it mbuso because I'm your
mother. Change your ways or let this poor girl go because she has been put through enough for something she
didn't do or asked to be part of. Do right by her. Lungi let's go upstairs " His mom doesn't wait for him to
answer. She dropped all of that on him...I wonder what his dad is going to say. We leave the men in the
kitchen.
Ma:" Did he show you around the house? "
Me:" No ma, he was going to show me today" I lie. The whole house has 8 bedrooms with en suite
bathrooms, ours has a beautiful verander, private lounge for what kodwa yoh, cold room, pantry room,
laundry room, gym, sitting, dining room that leads to the kitchen then basement has a very cosy almost
intimate like cinema room and garages outside, 2 cottages of which one of then maGumede says it's for
security.
Me:" It's a very beautiful house ma"
Ma:" And I hope you'll turn it into a home " I look down
Her:" I wanted to talk with you so let's sit " We sit at the sitting room
Me:" Ok ma"
Her:" I know you didn't choose this and to be here and it's okay to feel angry and hurt. I'm sorry you were
dragged into this without anyone considering your feelings and it was not fair from all of us" I tear up.
Her:" I wish I can say all the things that will make all of this okay but I what I know is mbuso could've have
walked away when he found out what your sister did but he didn't because he saw you and knew there was
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something about you and he wanted that for himself. We were shocked as you were when he told us that
you'll be the one who'll take your sister's place"
Her:" We may not know what his reasons are and if or maybe he's just being a selfish man and men can be
very selfish lungi. What he did last night was not right at all and he owes you an apology I know you're good
for him and you're exactly what he needs in his life. What am trying to say lungi is give this a chance my
child. Show umbuso the way and let him into your heart and I promise you, you won't regret it ".
Me:" I don't know how to do that ma. It's really hard and I didn't ask for all of this " I'm crying
Her:" Ssshhh I know it's hard and I'm sorry baby. It's going to be okay" She hugs me comforting me and I ask
myself again, why couldn't my mother be like this but I'm glad I have found another mother. Even though she's
my in-law she seems like she is a very carrying and loving woman and I'm glad to have a part of that.
Her:" Everything is going to work out, just give it time. Ubaba is talking with your husband and I'm sure he'll
get through him and hell change his ways and if not, I'm just a phone call away. You call me anytime you hear
me? "
Me:" I will ma. Thank you" She smiles.
Her:" You really are a beautiful woman lungi and you are going to make my son really happy and he won't
know what hit him. Between the two of us I'm glad it's you and not your sister " Heh I look at her shocked.
Her:" I always knew they weren't going to last. Don't look at me like that. . . . Look at how red you are... Go
wash your face. You'll find me in the kitchen, I'm sure my husband is ready to go" She smiles
Me:" Thank you again ma. I needed to hear that"
Her:" Remember that I'm always here for both of you. Marriage is hard lungi and you are going to need all
the support you can get and unfortunately for you it's going to be that much harder but I know you can do it
and pull through. The first year of marriage is always hard but after that everything gets betterand bearable.
Me:" Yes ma" She stands up and leaves. I go to our bedroom and wash my face quickly then look at the
mirror and you can tell I've been crying and I look like a mess. I go down stairs and I find his family about to
leave.
Gumede:" My daughter, your husband has something to say" I look at mbuso then he comes stands next to me
and takes my hands in his.
Him:" I'm sorry for what I did and it will never happen again. Will you forgive me? " I look at this man and
wonder if he's doing it just for show in front of his parents or he really means it.
Me:"I forgive you"
Him:" Thank you"
Gumede:" It's time for us to go. You two take care of each other with love and respect. We will see you soon
and you boys give them space" They agree.

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I hug my mother in law and his brothers and surprisingly my father in law hugs me too then they leave. It's
just the two of us again....well and madlamini too.
Mbuso:" Why didn't you tell me I had scratches on my back? "
Me:" Why?... I'm not the one who put them there" I go to the kitchen to clean up but find madlamini has
already cleaned so I go upstairs and he follows me
Mbuso:" Don't walk away from me when I'm talking to you! "
Me:" You don't get to tell me what to do or what not. I want to sleep in a separate bedroom "
Him:" I'm the man of this house and you'll do as I say" Huh this man... What year does he think this is?
Me:" Ok man of the house I want my own bedroom and privacy"
Him:"why that bed is big enough for the both of us "
Me:"I want my own bedroom so I won't hear or see and smell you, smelling like your girlfriend and coming
back at 3 am that's why "
Him;" You are my wife on paper only. Don't you dare start acting like we have a relationship because we
will not. I will do as I please as I have been doing before you " That hurt... Like really hurt me.
Me:" Then why am I here... Why did you marry me?! " I scream at him
Him:" To pay for you and your sisters sins and to make sure that she's going to pay, I'm going to make your
life as miserable as I can "
Me:" What?, I never did anything bad to you. I didn't even know you or even know about you until she came
home and said some man she's seeing wants to marry her. Why are you punishing me for her running away
and getting pregnant by someone else".
Him:" Stop lying because you knew and helped her. You both stole my 2million Rands!....where is my
money!?"

Me:" What?, 2 million rands?... Me and my sister stole 2 million rands from you?, that's crazy. I don't even
have half of that kind of money and I would never do something like that because I'm not a thief. You can
check my bank account and you'll see just how much I have ". I'm so in shock, I'm literally shaking and so I sit
on the bed hands on my head.
Him:" You such a good actress you know....the way you played my mom acting hurt and all while you knew it
was just an act "
Me:" It is not an act. I am hurt by all of this "

Him:" Just fucken stop it because I have proof!"

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Me:" What proof?...whatever proof you think you have on me is not real or true " He laughs
Him:" Of both of you planning the whole thing and sweetheart you are going to pay. You won't sleep in a
separate bedroom and you better get used to it because we are going to share that bed everyday and do what
married do... I'm going to have you soon" I feel sick to my stomach, how can a person be this cold and
heartless
Me:" I did nothing of such... I did not steal your money! "
Him:" You think I'm stupid neh, that I wouldn't investigate and I'm making all of this up?... Don't you dare
patronize! "
Me:" I hate you mbuso, I hate you!, I hate you! " I scream at him and he laughs
Him:" The feeling is mutual. You messed with the wrong man sweetheart " He then goes to the bathroom not
closing the door and showers. How did my life get to be this complicated, I don't know anything about the 2
million rands Jesus!. What did buhle do with this man's money and somehow involve me. I take my phone
and go down stairs passing madlamini carrying fresh clean laundry.
Me:" Ma about what I said earlier about mbuso's laundry, you can wash it and clean the room and cook
breakfast and lunch. I'll just cook dinner "
Her:" Ok madam" She takes out a handkerchief and gives it to me with pity on her face and I take it.
Me:" Thank you madlamini " I quickly leave before she asks me questions I have no answers to. Don't get me
wrong she sounds like a sweet woman but I don't want her in my business because she'll start getting
involved and forget she's here to make things much better for mbuso. I go to the cinema and switch off the
lights and sit in the dark. I like being in the dark coz I'm hidden. No one can see me, hurt me and it makes me
feel invisible. I try to call buhle but as always her number is on voice mail and I live a bunch of messages
and the last one I leave has me screaming at her and crying. I continue to cry uncontrollable and end up
falling asleep in there.
The smell of cooked meat wakes me up, my body is so stiff. I make my way upstairs and go to our bedroom
and take all of my clothes from the closet to the other bedroom and put them in the closet since it's going to be
my bedroom from now on and I don't care what he said. He's not here in the house, he must have went
somewhere. I take a hot bath and take my time and when I'm done I go to the kitchen and find madlamini
almost done with cooking. I look at the time and it's 2pm.
Me:" It smells amazing in here ma" She smiles
Her:" Thank you madam"
Me:" So much food for just 2 people "
Her:" Sir said he's going to come with some people so I must cook more food " I nod. I'm going to stay in my
bedroom because I don't want to disturb him and his friends. I eat my lunch then head to my bedroom and go
through my phone.
No messages from sims or my brother and well my parents won't bother calling me. I must call them which
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reminds me, I get on my laptop and type a resignation letter with immediate effect to my employer. They
didn't think about my life, my job and my friends well the only friend I have is my cousin sims but still.
Everyone I know is there and everything I've known in my life is all the way in Mpumalanga and I know
absolutely no one here. Ive been to Joburg many times and I know where the malls are and so I decide to go
there.
I download the Uber app and quickly change before mbuso comes back, take my bag and request for one
while I'm waiting and it says it's 5 minutes away.
Me:" Ma?...when did he say you can knock off since he's having a party? "
Her:" After I have prepared everything "
Me:" How far are you? "
Her:" I'm almost done madam"
Me:" Ok after you're done please go home because it's almost winter and it gets dark quickly and I want you
home safe. From now on you'll knock off at 4pm and on the weekends your off" My Uber driver is here
Her:"oh thank you very much madam" She's happy with that decision
Me:" Ok ma " Then I leave and head straight to the mall of Africa I mean where else. I spend my whole day
there and window shop then decide to go get something to eat at the steakhouse because I just love my meat
and order a glass of wine and have a lovely dinner.
I go watch John wick movie and by the time it's done 22:30pm then head home to face my fucked up life.
There are many cars parked outside and the music is too loud. Gosh I hope I'll be able to sleep. The security
stop the Uber driver and when they see it's me they tell him to drop me off here and he agrees and leaves. I
see a car coming then frank pulls up and opens the door for me and I get in.
Me:" Good evening Frank"
Hi:" Evening madam" We drive in and I prepare myself for what I'm about to face. I get off the car and open
the door and there are so many people there and the woman or girls almost a of them are half naked. I get
curious looks like who's this girl that didn't get the memo because I'm just wearing jeans and a sweater.
There's even a DJ playing, no wonder it's so noisy and it looks like I'm inside a club but I'm in this house...
My house?.
I pass people making my way upstairs but then I see mbuso with this girl who has her arms wrapped around
him and talking to him and he's looking at her smiling then he turns and sees that it's me then his face gets
filled with rage. He pushes the girl off of him and walks towards me and I don't know why I do it but I run
upstairs knocking off some people but I don't care then get to my bedroom and lock the door. Mbuso has this
scary thing about him that freaks me out... His aura nje scares me to death.
Him:" Open this door right now lungi! " His banging the door and I keep quiet
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Me:" Mbuso please, I had a long day and I just want to sleep. Go to your party and leave me alone ".
Him:" Who told you to come here?...fuck off and wait for me down stairs" He says to someone and I bet it's
that girl. He gets quiet for a few minutes then I see the door handle turn and the door opens. He closes it
behind him and and stands there looking at me shaking
Him:" Where were you?. Who told you, you can leave this house and who gave you that permission? " He
asks coming to where I'm standing now next to the dressing table
Me:" I don't need permission from you to go anywhere "
Him:" You forget that I own you until I say otherwise. So dear wife I own everything and I mean every little
thing about you is under my command and you will do everything I say"
Me:" Please mbuso I don't want this. I want to go home and back to my life. Please I didn't do anything to
you. I never stole from you " I tear up
Him:" The sooner you understand that You. Are. Not. Going. Anywhere, the sooner you'll get used to it and
those crocodile tears don't move me so they won't work on me. You stole my money and I'll show you the
proof" He thinks I'm pretending that my tears are fake... Why did buhle steal this man's money that I'm paying
for right now?.... I hate her!
Me:" Please just go. I want to sleep" There's no use fighting it. This is my reality and I have to accept it.
Him:" You didn't answer my question " He says getting closer
Me:" I went to the mall, I just wanted to get out of this house "
Him:" Look at me everytime when you're talking with me understand? " I nod and he raises his eyebrow
Me:" I understand "
Him:" You'll have a driver tomorrow who'll take you anywhere you want to go. Wherever you go he goes
with you. If I ever find out that you went somewhere without him there'll be hell to pay, do you understand
me?! "
Me:" Yes" I wipe the tears off my face and look at him
Him:" Why did you move your things out of our bedroom? "
Me:" That's not our bedroom mbuso it's yours. I just want my privacy that's why I moved "
Him:" Your privacy huh?, what about my privacy that you invaded when you stole my freaking
money?...you've got some nerve talking about privacy " He says so calm like it's nothing to him. Someone
knocks on the door and goes to it and opens it just a little
Him:" Fuck off Mel I'm busy" And closes the door on the persons face
Me:" I didn't steal.... "
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Him:" Shut the fuck up!. I don't want to hear it. I better find you in that bedroom when I come back or you'll
know me" He then leaves and I sit own a little then leave to his bedroom.
I take off my clothes and get into the shower and make the water hot and get under it and scrub, scrub, scrub
myself until my skin gets red and start to hurt but I don't leave. I'm used to people being hard and hating on me
meaning my mom, dad and sister and I've learned to deal with it and leave with it but what they did this time
and mbuso treating this way is all too much and I don't think I can take it anymore. I can take so much as a
person but with mbuso is whole entire different level because I think he's the one who's finally going to break
me coz I feel like I'm near that point. I get out, drink headache pills, brush my teeth, wear pj's then get in bed
and sleep.
Very loud moaning and groaning sounds wake me up. The house is quite and I think the party is over but I
guess its not over for some people who are having loud sex and I think it's mbuso and that girl.

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CHAPTER 6.
I get up and go to the bathroom and do my business then I hear the bedroom door opening and closing then
mbuso gets in the bathroom and sees me. He ignores me then takes off his clothes standing in front of me. I
quickly finish up before he gets naked in front of me, then wash my hands and I'm about to leave when he
blocks my way out.
Him:" I'm coming now, don't fall asleep " What??, oh hell no. He kisses my neck and leave not answering
him. I get in bed and face away from his side of the bed and cover myself up to my neck. The moaning and
groaning sounds haven't stopped and if mbuso is here then who are the people fucking... Maybe his friends.
The woman is now screaming " Yes baby, fuck me harder " God it's gonna be a long night. I see mbuso's
shadow and I close my eyes and goosebumps breakout all over my body and my heart beats fast.
Him:" Fuck they are so loud" He gets in the bed and switches the side lamp on and then I get shocked when
he drags my body to his in one swift move and I hold my breath. I feel his naked skin on my back coz my
pyjama top has risen up and then his hand goes under my top and connects with my skin and I hold my breath.
Him:" Breath out slowly or you'll pass out and we don't want that now do we" He says next to my ear and
damn my body shudders and my nipples peeble.
Him:" Clothes are not allowed in this bed sweet, let's take them off" He says getting up and moving off the
blankets and God... He is naked and I can't help myself and look at that happy trail that leads to that tool of
mass destruction and I suck my breath.
Me:" Mbuso.... Please" I beg him
Him:" Ssshhhhh" He kisses my ear and I feel his warm breath
Me:" I'm not ready " Honestly I'm not.
Him:" You're never going to be ready sweet " He says so sweet and tender that a sob escapes my mouth. He
takes his hands and runs them on my boobs and down to my nectar and rubs it with his right thumb and I let
him, it feels good and he's my husband right?, it was only in paper but now it's going to be official.
Me:" Just give me time and we'll do it "
Him:" You don't like this?.... It doesn't feel good?.... I know your mind doesn't want this but what about your
body.... It wants what I'm doing to it now and what I'm about to do to it ".
My top is off now and he is pulling my pants off and he taps on my hips so I can lift my butt and I do and off
they go and I'm completely naked. I try to cover my nectar but he takes my hands off and shake his head.
Him:" You're not going to hide yourself from me sweet. We're going to consummate our marriage now. Lights
on" He says loud and the whole bedroom gets bright. I cover my eyes and they are wet.
Him:" You are so beautiful " He says out loud and I doubt that he meant it for me to hear and I look at him
Him:" Yeah I said it. Even a blind man can feel and see your beauty and it's all mine to do as I wish. Take off
those hands on your face and look at me. Always look at me" I wipe my face before moving my hands.
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Him:" You're even more beautiful when you cry...open your legs " He gets between my thighs and roughly
separates my legs as he gets between them and looking at my nectar. I don't like shaving off all of my pubic
hair. I leave some of it and now I'm embarrassed as I see him looking at me there.
Him:" just how I like it " What?, he says proudly and starts to touch my legs rubbing his hands up and down
then does the same to my inner thighs and I squirm.
His hands move to my nectar and I hold my breath when he separates the lips of my pussy and I feel cool air
there then I feel one finger there brushing my clit and I know he feels how wet I am....my treacherous body.
He groans and continues to brush my clit with his thumb then his other hand goes to my boobs and feels them
one at a time and my nipples peeble hard then he pinches them at the same time as he enters me with his
finger and fingers me. My body gets off the bed arching.
Him:" You are so wet.... You want this as much as I do" My body has its own plans and as much as I don't
want this I'm enjoying it.
He brings his body on top of mine and his skin is so warm, his finger is still inside of me moving in and out
then he adds another one stretching me.
Me:" Aahh" He is kissing my neck and I'm sure I'm going to have marks on my neck tomorrow
Him:" Finally, she makes a sound" He says adding another finger and that's 3 yoh
Me:" aw.... " I try to pull out his hand but he takes both my hands in his and raises the over my head, pinning
them there tight.
Him:" Oh sweet my fingers are snug in here....you feel how wet you are? " He increases his pace moving
them in different directions and rubbing my clit and I start move my hips and I sweat because I know I'm
about to have an orgasm
Me:" Mbuso.....ah" He takes his hand off of mine and wraps it around my shoulders like he's holding me
down with it and also uses his body. He then presses his thumb on my clit and I moan out loud then he rubs it
softly with his warm hand and I'm just there if he can just..........then I feel him enter me hard, rough and fast
and I scream and hold him tight feeling like the bones of my lower body have come undone coz that's what it
feels like, like they just got broken, he freezes.
Him:" Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Lungi, you're a virgin?" My eyes are closed tight and I shake my head no because I
can't talk.
Him:" Look at me and tell me!. " He demands
Me:" I'm... I'm not a virgin okay" He shakes his head
Him:" How many guys have you slept with?" He asks pulling out then thrusts a little depeer than he was
before
Me;" What?... Aaaww"
Him:" How many guys have fucked you? " He asks getting angry and thrusting hard too
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Me:" Not too hard please, just one other than you "
Him:" How long was that and how many times" I can't believe he wants to talk about another man fucking me
while he's inside me...who does that?.
Me:" I don't want to talk about it mbuso just finish" He pulls out and I wince.
Him:" Get on your hands and knees. Face down ass up " He says seriously and I do then I feel him just
watching my behind then feel his rock hard long dick on my nectar rubbing it up and down. He separates my
butt cheeks and points his rigid member there and slowly enters me groaning... I feel full like he's all in me
and I moan in pleasure and slightly pain.

Him:" Relax your body, I'm just halfway. You can take all of me in you sweet. Just relax your muscles and
body " I listen to what he says and the moment I relax my body it feels better and he groans then pulls out then
thrusts in hard burying himself deep in me and I gasp in shock.
Me:" Aaahhhh, you're breaking me"
Him:" Ssshhhh you feel so amazing...fuck luh " He groans then moves his hips up and down and holds my butt
cheeks tight with his fingers deep in my skin and fucks me like a man that was starving and denied food. He
continues to fuck me and I'm just lost in the pleasure and pain. He rubs my clit making me more wet and I
arch my back giving him all of me.... It's that damn dick that's making me moan in pleasure and him groan.
Him:" How many times did he fuck you "
Me:" Aaahhh I don't know... 2 or 3 times I think....mmmm" He slaps both my butt cheeks hard then grabs my
waist tight with his hands and I'm near
Him:" [Link]? "Each word he says he thrusts and slaps my ass hard
Me:" Ahhh 3 times okay. Just 3 times 2 years ago " He changes his pace and hits that one spot over and over
again and thrusts hard again and slaps my ass and that pushes me over and I fall.....I have an out of body
intense orgasm I have never felt in my life. I let go calling his name at the top of my lungs. He gently catches
me in his arms coz my body feels heavy then he lays me on my stomach while he's still inside me and lays his
body on top of my wet one and gives me sweet kisses on my face and neck and ear then he gets his hand
between my legs and plays with my sensitive bud awakening it again.
Me:"mmmm oh God " I say moaning
Him:"yes sweet I'm your God " I move my hips and meet him thrust for thrust. I grip his dick inside me using
my pussy muscles and he loses it and gives me the fuck I will never forget and I know for sure I'm not gonna
be able to move off this bed tomorrow.
Him:" How far are you " He asks and his body starts to shake
Me:" I'm..... I'm aaaahhh"
Him:" Oh fuck..... Come with me now" He thrust seven more times then bites my neck and I come
uncontrollably hard with him at the same time calling his name again then his body falls on mine with all of
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his weight on me and damn how is it that his skin is always warm. He pulls out and I wince then feel his
warm seed on my thighs and then it dawns on me that we didn't use protection. He gets up and goes to the
bathroom and comes back.
Him:" Turn around" He says I open my legs and wince when he cleans me. I didn't expect that, I thought he'll
throw the towel at me to clean myself. His voice has gone very deep and gruff and I like it. Oh look at me
catching me feelings what's wrong with m. He cleans himself and I turn the other way when he gets in bed
and covers us with the blanket.
Him:" Does it hurt? " He asks
Me:" It does" He breathes out
Him:" Good " I freeze and feel my heart drop. But what did I expect?, that he would change after fucking
me?....I'm so naive. I'm not gonna cry.
Me:" I hate you "
Him:" Hate me all you want I don't care but your body enjoys my touch and what I just did. This was me
being nice to you and I was getting a taste of the 2 million pussy and I'm going to enjoy it "
Him:" I hope to God that the day when you learn the truth and realise what wrongs you have done to me, you
will regret it".
He doesn't say anything but I know he wants to so he turns and faces the other way. I close my eyes and fight
the tears that want to come out because I don't want to give him the satisfaction that he hurts me.... His words
hurts me. I was a fool to think he would hold me and comfort me. I just feel so alone. He takes me up again in
the following hours and after 3 more rounds he let's me sleep.

I wake up and it's later than I usually do and the sun is out and I'm alone in bed. I make the bed and make
myself a bath because I feel so sore. I take my time and when I'm done I go to the kitchen and I can hear
voices as I'm approaching, male voices and a female one.
I get to the kitchen and the first thing I see is a girl I mean woman, I think she's about the same age as I am.
She's skinny and she's sitting on top of one guy and he's kissing her neck and the other one is kissing her in the
lips, O wow...she's sandwiched between them and mbuso is watching them like he's enjoying the show they
are putting on and I'm just shocked because I have never seen something like this live.
Me:" Good morning " I say clearing my throat and they all turn, look at me and I just there looking awkward.
Mbuso stretches his hand for me to come to him and I do then he opens his legs for me to stand between them
and I do.
He pulls me real close, hands around my waist and my face next to his and I can smell his coffee breath over
face when he breathes and my body just melts... I don't know why. He kisses me full on the lips taking my
breath away and I kiss him back and for a moment forget about the people who are watching us dead silent.
Him:" Morning sweet, did they wake you up? " He asks....concerned?

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Me:" No they didn't "
Him:" Let me introduce you to the guys" he turns me around still holding me then I feel his hard dick on my
ass. Did I give him a boner or he got it from watching these 3?, I don't know.
Him:" This guy sitting down is Paul and the one standing up is Mike " I look at them and see they are tall and
dark skinned and almost same weight not sure but Paul has a tattoo that's visible on his neck and Mike has a
little scar on his left cheek and no facial hair. So who's the girl? and Paul has the same name as my ex.
Me:" Hi I'm lungi, nice to meet you " .
The girl:" Hi lungi, I'm Gugu" She says looking at me up and down, more like sizing me up..okay.
The guys are still looking at me like who are you and where you come from then Paul stands up upruntly and
Gugu almost falls but balances herself with Mike. He approaches and I don't know why but I pull back to
mbuso and he holds me tight.
Paul:" So this is the secret you've been keeping " He looks at me undressing me with his eyes and that makes
me feel very uncomfortable
Paul:" Are we going to share her too? " I gasp in shock and freeze. He is now just two steps away from me
then he lifts his hand like he wants to touch me.
Mbuso:" Touch her and I'll chop off both your hands" He says seriously and Paul laughs.
Mike:" Come on G, we've always shared and so what's special about her other than she's very and I mean
very beautiful and sexy as hell" So they share women?, does this mean they shared buhle too?
Mbuso:" Touch even one little hair on her, not only will I first chop off your hands but I'll also put a bullet
between your eyes " The way he says it sounds like it isn't even him and it's so scary. I feel cold chills from
the nape of my neck to my back.
Mike:" She's one of the women you always fuck, so we should also have a piece like we always do. I mean
we share our girls with you so it's only fair if you do the same" Mike says getting angry and I'm getting pale
from the things I'm hearing.
Mbuso:" Let it be the last time you both say something like this mike or so help me God. This is not some
piece of meat like that cheap girl between the two of you that you fucked under my wife's roof. Don't ever
talk about her like that. Do we understand each other?! "
Paul:" What?, your wife.... When did you get married? " He asks shocked
Mbuso:" That's none of your business, apologize to my wife and I'll tell uSiyabonga you were here.
Apologize to my wife then leave" He says very angry.
Paul:" We apologize maGumede we didn't mean any disrespect. Our old friend here didn't tell us that he's
married now. Please accept our apology.
Me:" I understand "
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Mike:" It will never happen again. G can we talk to you? " They leave the kitchen dragging the girl behind
them who gives me an evil look. Mbuso stands up behind me and kisses my cheek just as madlamini enters
the kitchen greeting going to the store room.
Him:" Are you okay?" He looks concerned.
Me:" I'm okay just shocked "
Him:" What shocked you? "
Me:" The things they said and how you reacted towards me in front of them. I thought..... "
Him:" My private life is my business and I don't want them in my business and you're my business. The other
things they said about me are not your concert" He turns me to face him.
Me:" Why did you pretend to care about me and act like that in front of them? " One minute he's kind and the
next he's as cold as ice.
Him:" Oh but I do care about you, because you're worth 2milllion and so I have to look after my investment.
When we're alone, you are the girl that stole from me but in front of other people we are a married couple
who's deeply in love with each other. Do we understand each other sweet? "
Me:" I don't want all of this [Link] me go or let me find work and I'll pay you back"
Him:" That's not how it works here. I make the rules and if I say jump, you ask how high. I have to get all my
money worth. You do as I say or there'll be he'll to pay sweet...don't try me ".
Me:" Please.... " My tears fall and now I know that I'm a prisoner here and there's nothing I can do.
Him:" You won't work ever. The only work you'll be doing is following my instructions doing as I say. I'll be
back, we have something to talk about" He kisses me on the mouth then leave.
I think about running away but where will I go coz I know he'll find me but why isn't he searching for her?....I
sit down and cover my face.
Madlamini:" Madam are you okay? "
Me:" I'm okay ma, I didn't sleep well ".
Her:" Let me make you some breakfast because the visitors finished it all and you'll feel better afterwards but
here's some rooibos tea "
Me:" Thanks ma" I drink it
Me:" I'm going to lay down. I'll have breakfast a little later "
Her:" Ok madam, do you want me to wake you? "
Me:" No ma. Have your breakfast and do what you usually do" She nods then I leave and hear voices then his
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voice in the study and he sounds very angry. I don't listen but go to our bedroom and sleep.
I feel kisses on my face, neck and hands on my boobs then stomach.... Oh no I'm still sore.
Me:" Mbuso....im still sore "
Him:"shhhh I'll be gentle "
Me:"you were rough before "
Him:" Let me make it better then "
Me:" But I.... " I don't get to finish as he undresses me then I noticed he's naked too. He looks at me then
separates my legs with his shoulders and then buries his whole face and muffs me like crazy, his tongue on
my nub biting and sucking it. I moan and hold his head, move my hips and ride his face.
My back arching now and again and hearing him groan drives me crazy and I come all over his face with my
body shaking. He muffs me till I come down then he turns me to lie on my side, lifts my left leg up holds me
tight to him then buries all of himself deep in me and I cry out in pain and pleasure. He doesn't give me time
to adjust to him inside me and starts to fuck me hard and I'm griping the duvet so tight coz he's not having
mercy on me.
Me:" Aaahhhh...be...gentle..." He slows down then pulls out. I'm in my back now and he's between my thighs.
He inserts his dick and looks at the parts that are now connecting us again then lifts his head and looks at me
then puts his whole body on top of mine then his hands on my afro grip me tight. He kisses me then fucks me
hard with long deep strokes and I feel like my womb is going to shift
Him:"ah fuck!, you feel amazing sweet... Your skin, the way you feel and taste how you fit me me
perfectly...ah fuck! "
He says that getting rough with every stroke he gives me and I start to cry coz now I'm not enjoying it.
Him:" Ssshhh we don't want madlamini to hear us now, do we sweet " He says muffing my cries with his
kisses. He's groaning and moaning like he's eating one of the most amazing things he's never tasted he then
moves my legs to his shoulders and his hands to my waist.

Him:" Wrap your legs around dmy neck" I do and he gets deeper.
Me:" Mbuso.....ah, you're too deep" I don't if that excites him but he puts his face on my neck and bite me,
hands on my ass, nails digging on my skin then rubs my clit and I build up and moan.
Him:" You taste so good and I can't enough of your lovely pussy and it's all mine" He rubs, pinches then rubs
my clit again and I'm so wet.
I feel my orgasm coming so I untangle my legs on his shoulders then he streches my legs far apart and bangs
into me. We're both so sweaty, my skin hot and dripping of sweat. He pinches my clit lightly then softly slaps
it 3 more times and rubs it and I come hard screaming his name.
Him:" Fuck baby milk that dick with your greedy cunt...yes....oh shiiiiit...oh fuck! " He climaxes after me then
he falls on top of me then says something but I don't hear him coz he has fucked me back to sleep.
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Something is burning my skin so I open my eyes and it's the sun shining on my face. I turn and I'm sore
between my legs and they are stiff. I hear clicking sounds and look on my right and see mbuso on his laptop
typing fast and I can't stand the site of him. I get up groan and he looks at me.
Him:" You look thoroughly fucked and it suits you" I ignore him, go to the bathroom and shower quickly,
come back and find him still on the bed typing.
Him:" We need to talk. Sit. "
Me:" Can we talk later because I'm hungry
Him:" I wasn't asking. You'll eat when we're done talking " I sit my ass down.
Me:"I'm listening "
Him:" Let me tell you something about me. I make the rules and everyone follows them. Everyone lungi. No
one disagrees with me or say no to me" Ok he's scaring me
Him:" Rule number1: Anytime I call you pick up the phone. It doesn't matter where you are or what you're
doing or what time it is "
" Number 2: Thomas is your driver to take you anywhere you want to go. You do not take an Uber or taxi. If
you give Thomas problems you'll deal with me"
"Number 3: you won't discuss what happens here in this house with my family, your brother, your cousin and
my mother...especially her"
" Number 4: I will continue to do my business as I please and you won't question. Just accept it "
" Number 5: I will have you whenever and wherever I want and you won't refuse me. We will play the
perfect happy couple around everyone and especially my parents so they can see how madly in love we are
with each other " Im sitting here listening to this man telling me about his stupid rules that I have to follow.
Why should we pretend?, it's not like it's ever going to happen....right?. I hate what he's doing to me.
Him:" And lastly lungi you do not ever question me, not follow my rules or anything that I tell you to do and
you will never ever in your life disrespect me in front of anyone or even me here. You will respect me and I
demand it. You hear me? " He says seriously.
This man who's sitting in the bed Indian style like he's going to pray is scary. The way he talks to me is very
cold and it sends chills down my spine. I realise that fighting him is not going to change his mind to believe
me. I just have to accept that this is my reality and I'll have to pay for her debts.....thats what family does
right?, we protect each other and sometimes that means taking the blame and fall for someone.
Me:" I hear you. I'll follow your rules " He seems a bit shocked but quickly masks it.
Him:" Good. Now that is out of the way let's talk about the money you say you didn't steal"
Me:" Mbuso.... "

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Him:" I have the proof lungi. Here " He gives me the his laptop and the first thing I see is my bank account
statement. I look closely and it is my bank account and statements some going back to last year. My emails,
my text messages between buhle and I from my phone... But how no! . There are videos of me going to the
bank alone and in some I'm with buhle. Videos and videos, many emails talking, asking her how far she is
with forgering the documents, transactions from my back account from R50k cash to hundreds of thousands.
Everything in there points to me. But it wasn't me.... How did she do it?.
I can't believe it. Everytime she asked me to accompany her to the bank to withdraw money her boyfriend
sent so she could buy herself clothes and food?, and.... How did she get hold of my phone my bank pin
because I've never told her.... How?.
Mbuso is watching me as I'm going through everything and I feel numb. I feel sick... I want to vomit it I can't
move my legs. I'm shocked, of all the things have she has done to me or I thought she's capable of doing, this
wasn't one of them. I close the laptop and slowly get off the bed then run to the bathroom and vomit only
water coz I haven't had anything to eat. I get up, brush my teeth and leave the bathroom and find mbuso sitting
at the edge of the bed. I stand the and look at him and I'm so scared.
Him:" You still denying it? " I wrap my arms around myself and look down. I shake my head no and he stands
so fats I almost fall on my ass. he walks slowly towards me and I take a step back until he has backed me
against the wall.
Him:" Uthini? " ( what did you say? ) He's angry
Me:" I'm....I'm not denying it "
Him:" I want you to say it. Say what you did! " He roars angry
Me:" I...we stole your money" I choke up
Him:" Damn you lungi! , fucking damn you! " He does the unthinkable and warps his hand around my throat
choking me and I cry and hold his hand and try to pull his hand off my throat but I can't.
Me:" You're... Kill... Killing me" I say gasping for air then he lifts his hand and forms a fist and I scream and
cover my face thinking he's going to punch me but he punches the wall next toy face and I hear bones craking
and I swear I peed on myself a little. He let's go and I fall down and cry hysterically.
Him:" Fuuuck" He roars then leaves the bedroom banging the door and I wrap my arms tightly around my
legs crying.
Who is this man that buhle stole his money from because I doubt they were lovers. He doesn't look like a man
who's heart is broken but a man who wants Revenge. Blood.

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CHAPTER 7.
I don't know for how long ive been sitting here and still am when I hear him coming in and I get scared
shitless. He stands next to me not saying anything then he bends almost like he wants to touch me but I get
scared and scream burying my head on my legs.
Him:" Luh, Lungi I'm ....." He tries to touch me again
Me:" don't touch me, " I scream then stand up and I know he can see that I peed on myself. I go to the
bathroom and take of my clothes and get in the shower set the water really hot. The first touch doesn't sting
alot but the second one stings but it's bearable. I just sit down and let it fall on me.
The pain on my skin that I'm feeling from the hot water is nothing compared to what I feel inside. Never have
I ever been scared for my life like that because I seriously thought he was going to punch me on my face. I
saw another side of Mbuso today and I never ever want to experience it in my life. What am I saying because
it'sthe only side he has been showing me but today it's different. I saw a much more darker side of him.
I hear the shower door opening
Him:" what the hell Lungi! you'll give yourself burns all over body....., fuck this water is hot!" He curses then
gets in the shower and winces when the water touches him and then he switches the shower off.
Him:" come let's get you out of here " he says pulling me up and out of the shower and I let him. He takes the
a towel wraps it around me and another one he dries my hair. I'm scared of his touch but I don't want to show
him, I just want him to stop touching me. I'm only hiccuping now with my eyes closed.
He lifts me up and I moan in pain then he carries me to the bedroom and gently lays me down. I wince when
my back touches the duvet.
Him:" sleep on your stomach so you don't hurt your back. " I turn around and I feel that my body especially
my back is in pain but I don't say anything and just lay on my stomach.
I feel something really cold and it makes me wince and groan in pain
Him:" It's the Aloe Vera gel. It will heal your skin and make it better " he says
Me:" will it make my heart feel better and not hurt too? " I sniff. He stops and takes a deep breath then
continues applying it all over my back and it starts to feel a little better.
Him:" why did you make the water that hot. You could have seriously hurt yourself you know..... What were
you thinking luh? "
Me:" I just wanted the pain to stop. Nothing can hurt me more than you do " I bury my face on the pillow and
sniff some more. I feel him move up the bed like he wants to lay next to me and hold me but he decides
against it.
Him:" Luh, I'm sorry.....i wasn't going to hit you. I could never do that to you" he says it like it hurts him to
know what he almost did.
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Me:" can you leave. I want to be alone. "
Him:" No. I won't leave you alone like this. "
Me:" don't pretend as if you care about what you're doing to me coz you don't. So can you please just give me
sometime to be alone or I'll leave this bedroom!. " I scream at him
He stops, gets up and I think he's looking at me because he is quiet then I hear the bedroom door close softly.
I get off the bed and go wear my pyjamas and then get in bed again. I'm so hungry but I'm scared of how
madlamini is going to look at me because I'm pretty sure she heard us arguing.... Oh what the hell this is my
house too.
I go to the kitchen and look for my food in the microwave then sit down and eat. Madlamini is probably
somewhere in the house cleaning and Mbuso well I don't care where he is.
I hear Mbuso shouting for madlamini and she responds somewhere in the house then I don't hear what he's
asking her and it gets quiet for a while then I feel him behind him....his smell and I almost freeze. He stands
next to me real close and he smells really nice.
Him:" I was looking for you. Why aren't you in bed? ' madlamini enters the kitchen goes to the pantry to cook
for lunch.
Me:" I was hungry. " he sits down next to me, madlamini comes back and starts to cook pretending that we're
not here and like she's not feeling the tension between us.
Her:" can I make you something mnumzane? "
Him:" no ma I'm fine. " his voice is deep and when he's angry or shouting it's very scary and sexy at the same
time....God what is going on with me?.
Him: " do you need anything else she can make? " I shake my head no still looking at my food and not at him.
Him:" when you're done here come to my study, we still need to talk. " so you can hit me this time?.... no
dude.
Me:" we can talk here, now. " I eat.
Him:"Lungi what did I say about you following my rules and instructions? "
Me:" I'm coming!" I roll my eyes
Him:" now. " he says firmly
Me:" thanks ma " I stand up and follow him to his study and I sit down opposite him.
Me:" what did you want to talk about? "
Him:" I don't like your tone and lose that attitude." I want to roll my eyes but I don't.

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Me:" I'm listening "
Him:"I think you realised the times we've been intimate we didn't use any protection and so I'm just.... "
Me:" I'm on birth control and you're the only man I've slept with without a condom so don't worry I'm
clean.....but are you? ' I think he's shocked that I asked him that.
Him:" of cos I'm clean. I'll bring my results from my doctor "
Me:" Good because my sister was and is a hoe so I hope u used a condom every time you fucked her. Is that
all...can I go now?"
Him:" why are you on birth control if you weren't fucking anyone, or you lied to me?"
Me:" I didn't lie. I am because you never know who I might decide to fuck" I say glaring at him.
Him:" You take that back now!"
Me:" why?, you're fucking other people and God knows how many, so why can't I do the same?"
Him:" I swear luh if you dare let another man touch you I'll kill him first in front of you then you'll see what
I'll do to you!" why do I believe?.
Me:" so you get to fuck other women and I'm suppose to take it and keep quiet?....no!. we have an open
marriage right?, so it's fair if I also get a boyfriend" he stands up and comes towards me and I get up too. I'm
tired of getting intimidated by this man.
Him:" You really like getting under my skin huh sweet?, I dare you to try that and you'll see what I'll do to
this beautiful flawless skin you have. My hand is even twitching from wanting to spank you right here on my
desk then fuck you senseless until the only thing you can feel, breath and think about is me. Your pussy will
only get wet for me and no one else ". oh fuck I'm getting wet. why does hearing that turn me the fuck on?.
God have mercy on me. he sees my chest rising and falling
Him:" you look so flushed right on. I bet if I put my fingers in your cunt I'll find it wet. it will clench on my
fingers asking me fuck it, you want me to finger fuck you sweet and make that ache go away...you wanna
come and scream my name?"
Me:" just stop it okay!" he smirks then steps back raising his hands in surrender
Him:" When is your next appointment for birth control " huh?
Me: " why? " I ask him
Him:" because I want to know for sure that you're taking your pills or whatever that you use. "
Me:" oh...you think I'll trap you with a baby?" is he for real
Him:" Yes. " he says looking straight at me and I gasp in shock. I cannot believe he has just said that.

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Me:" don't worry I won't trap you with a kid or kids. I'll be mad crazy to want you to be the father of my kids.
The father of my kids will be nothing like you". wow Luh you standing up for yourself good girl.
Him:" and who said I wanted to have kids with You? ' he asks wanting to laugh and inside I really want to
cry.
Me:" the very same man who fucked me without wearing a condom, so don't worry I'll be keeping my eggs
locked tight where your sperm can't find them. Is that all you wanted to talk about?"
Him:" Yes it is. For now "
Me:" can I go now sir? ' he raises his eyebrow and smirks
Him: " you can go"
jerk i mumble to myself as I leave his office and go to the cinema and watch some cartoons. I love them and
they always make me feel better. I can't believe I was ready to let him fuck me again.
After that incident of him almost hitting me, he slept in the other bedroom and left me alone never wanted
sex. Mbuso demands sex, he always takes it and fucks me really hard and he makes sure I always come. At
least he's not being selfish in that department.
I'm bored out of my mind during the day and at night I always go to bed before Mbuso comes home and wake
up when he's gone to work. Sometimes he comes really late and I'll find myself waiting by my bedroom
window for his car to pull up and when he does I'll quickly get in bed.
Madlamini is suspicious of our relationship although she won't say anything but you can tell she wants too but
doesn't want to overstep and I respect that. I wish I could work but Mbuso wouldn't hear non of that when I
tried to talk to him about it a while ago so I could pay him back for the money I have allegedly stolen but he
point blank refused.
I talk to Sims and her kids and they always make me laugh and happy. I always look forward to their calls. I
haven't told her about what Mbuso is accusing me of because I know she'll be here and probably tell my
uncle and they will be all here and frankly I'm not ready for them to come here while things are still tense. I'm
a patient person and I know sooner or later Mbuso will know the truth on his own and I hope for my sake I'll
be able to forgive him. Thami well is having the time of his life in cape town and what he told me shocked.
He said Mbuso rented him an apartment of his own so he will focus on his studies and so he's not staying in
res anymore and Mbuso is also giving him monthly allowance and they talk almost everyday...wow I never
saw that coming. I don't talk to my parents after I tried many times to call them but they wouldn't answer my
calls. something is going on with them...something doesn't make sense and this thing of buhle stealing from
Mbuso makes me think my parents might know or they know something about it. was it all for show when my
mom pretended to be upset when buhle ran away, did she even run away or are they hiding her?.
Thomas takes me to the mall whenever I want to go and sometimes to company madlamini and i to do some
shopping. it is the only time i get to get out of this house. I talk to my brother and cousin and I miss them
dearly and I wonder if mbuso would agree if they could come visit for the weekend.....I just have to ask him.
Sometimes I wish I had friends here.

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I've been thinking about if maybe madlamini could knock off earlier than she usually does so she can be home
more and spend time with her grandkids but I'll have to talk to Mbuso when he gets home tonight. It's midday
and so I decide to bake some muffins and make a carrot cake, chocolate and vanilla before madlamini knocks
off so she can take some for the kids.
I lose myself and do what I love most and bake and the whole house smells really delicious. By 3 pm I'm
done so i pack some for madlamini and the kids, leave some for mbuso then put some in a beautiful tray and
put it on a dining room table with the vanilla cake then take my phone and dial.
Him:" Madam"
Me:" hi Thomas can you come to the kitchen please?"
Him:" coming madam " he hangs up then few minutes after that he gets in the house"
Me:" I'm in the kitchen" I shout
Him:" madam is something wrong ?" Thomas is tall but not to Mbuso's height, he's buff like he works out alot
, he's clean and dresses well.
Me:" nothing is wrong , I just wanted to ask if you and the guys at the security room would love some muffins
and cake to have before lunch? With coffee or tea because I don't really know who drinks what?"
Thomas is surprised I guess for what I'm doing or saying I don't know but he doesn't mask the surprise on his
face.
Him: " thank you madam the guys will really love them ." I wish he wouldn't call me madam
Me:" can you call them to come to the house and eat. There are five of them excluding you right?"
Him:" Yes madam but I can make the tea and coffee and we'll eat outside in the security room " oh why
doesn't he want to eat in here and I mean there's no space there, how will they put everything there.
Me:" You won't make any tea or coffee and you'll eat here on that dining table. Call them " I turn around and
leave him there.
Me:" madlamini? " I call her
Her:" yes madam " eish I hate that word
Me: " You know what the security guys drink. Can you help me make them some tea and coffee " I am
embarrassed that I don't know their names just Thomas only.
Her:" ok madam " apparently they are all coffee junkies and they drink it like crazy. We get everything ready
and as soon as we put everything down on the table they get in like they don't really want to. My heart drops
Me:" Sanibonani " I greet first I always do and I'm used to it.
Them:" yebo madam" they all say like they are singing then I notice that they are wearing all black outfits.
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Their suits and even shirts are all in black and they all look clean and you can tell those suits are expensive. I
wonder how much Mbuso pays them. I know Mbuso is rich looking at this house but I don't know what kind
of work he does as a business man.
Me: " please sit and enjoy yourselves. There's a bowl there to wash your hands and let me know if you need
anything else" they still standing there looking awkward and then?.
Them:" thank you madam " they all say and I leave so they can be free because they look uncomfortable
around me.
Madlamini:" madam it's my knock off time but I'll wait for these boys to finish then I'll go"
Me: " no ma it's okay you can go and I'll wash the dishes. But before you leave let's have a cup of tea with
muffins " she smiles and goes to make the tea but I stop her.
Me:" today I'm making tea for you ma, you just sit and enjoy " she does. I hear the guys are talking softy and I
can't hear what they are saying. I hope they like them. I serve madlamini her tea and muffins with a slice of
carrot cake and sit down opposite her and we eat in silence and it's not uncomfortable.
Her:" my kids have never made me tea. Only my grandkids " she says smiling sadly
Me:" well I'll be glad to make it for you now and then" I say smiling
Her:" no madam I was making a conversation. These muffins are really good and this cake wow" she giggles
Me:" thank you ma and i don't mind but its okay"
Thomas comes to the kitchen with another guy and they place the empty tray and mugs on the sink and start to
wash the mugs. madlamini and i just look at each other and I want to stop them but she shakes her head for me
to leave them. They wash and wipe them then place them perfectly then look at us.
Him:" we wanted to say thank you for the muffins and cake madam they were really great" says the other guy
who's like 21 or something
Me: " I'm glad you loved them" that makes me happy
Thomas:" all of us really appreciate what you shared with us madam. Thank you "
Me:" if you keep praising them like you did, I might just bake them for you guys every week and oh before I
forget can you take madlamini home "I see smiles on their faces when I say that.
Thomas: "Percy here will take her home "
Me:" thank you. " then they leave.
madlamini:" thank you madam but you shouldn't have. "
Me:" I should ma because you live far. I saved some for you and baked you too a chocolate cake to take
home to the kids"
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Her:" oh madam thank you, thank you very much they are going to love them and the cake wow." she comes
and hugs me tearing [Link] I'm touched because to me this is a small thing I have done.
Me:" enjoy it with the kids and tell me tomorrow what they thought of it. ' she smiles then washes her teacup
and goes. I'm left all alone in this big house.... Sigh.
I decide to cook for dinner before I go shower, so I make dumplings and mutton stew and let it simmer while
I go shower. The green salad I'll do it before plating.
I shower quickly and I notice in the mirror that I look bad like I had let myself go since I've been here and
that's because I have no one to impress but I shouldn't let myself be this drab person. I'm going to go to the
salon and do my hair.
My dumplings look really good and the stew tastes amazing it just needs 30 minutes then it will be perfect. I
take out my phone and decide to put some Sjava music and sing along making the salad. I look at the time and
it's 9 pm and I'm hungry. Mbuso is not home and I guess I'm going to be eating alone again. I dish up for both
of us, put his in the microwave and eat mine. I really wanted to talk to him and it's not like I can just call him
and say "hey, are you going to be home tonight or not? ".
Whenever I go to bed I don't switch off the lights in the house, he does that. I only switch them off in my
bedroom. Mbuso hasn't touched me for almost a month now and I've seen less of him. Maybe 10 times in a
month coz he comes when I'm asleep and leaves before I wake. I switch the lights off then wear my pjs and
get in bed and fall asleep.
I feel really cold hands and a cold body and I gasp in shock terrified.
Him:" don't be scared it's me" he says like he's exhausted and tired. I relax and breathe out.
Him:" take off your pjs. I told you no clothes in this bed " I take them off and throw them somewhere in the
bedroom. He gets off the bed and stands at the edge.
Him:" come here and get on your knees " oh God he's gonna be rough. I do as he says get on my hands and
knees and spread my legs ready for him to enter me even though I'm a little wet. He doesn't enter me but what
he does instead is he slaps both my butt cheeks hard and fast 6 times and I tear up grab the sheets tight. He
rubs and rubs my clit then thrusts into me hard and I cry out.
He isn't gentle at all, he fucks and fucks and fucks me taking my breath away and I'm holding tight to those
sheets burying my face on the mattress. He is angry about something I can feel it on his thrusts, the way he's
breathing and gripping me and I realise he's taking it out whatever frustration he's feeling on me and in my
body. Mbuso is very vocal when he fucks me but today it's different. I realise that this is about him wanting to
let go of something and get something in return also.
So I make it possible for him although he's fucking me like I'm a whore....who stole his money. I relax my
body and let him do whatever he wants to do and he does. He turns me around, I lay on my back and he
continues where he stopped and fucks me. I'll be lying if I said I'm enjoying because I'm not, even though I'm
wet. I can feel he is near because he digs his fingers in me and slams into me and I want to scream but I don't.
He lays his body on top of mine kissing me hungrily then groans but it's like something is preventing him from
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falling so I'll release him.
Me:" do whatever you want to do to me it's okay. I'll be fine " he stops and looks at me deep in my eyes and i
swear i saw regret in his eyes. he kisses me then starts to move again gently then he picks up his pace and
fucks me. He is sweating like crazy then he wraps his hand around my throat and squeezes lightly with every
thrust groaning. He squeezes again tight and I start to panic and slap his hands. That seems to throw him over
the edge because I feel him grow more inside me. I think he likes it because he squeezes some more still
fucking me then my fighting instincts take over and I hit his hands trying to get them off my throat then he
groans very loud and comes filling me with his seed and it's the last thing I remember.
He continues to do the same thing he's been doing. Going when I'm still sleeping and coming back when I'm
sleeping and him fucking me doggy style everyday for the whole month. I think he likes it that way or maybe
he just doesn't want to look at me. I have lost weight drastically and I think its because of the stress I've been
feeling and not being able to talk to Mbuso because he just fucks and then leaves me is adding to that and him
not saying anything about the food I always prepare for him, the cakes and muffins because he always eats
them but a simple appreciation from him would be nice and let me think that he doesn't care.
It's Friday morning just after 10 and yes he came at night turned me over, fucked me then went to sleep in the
other bedroom. I haven't slept with Mbuso in the same bed for the last four months. He is living his life as fun
as he wants to but I'm not allowed and frankly I don't care anymore. I get up, make my bed then shower and
head to the kitchen.
I find my breakfast made and I sit down and eat thinking about calling Mbuso so I can ask him if it's okay for
Sims and thami to come visit because I'm so miserable and phone calls are not enough anymore and I feel
like I'm going to lose my mind any minute.
I finish eating my breakfast then I decide to go to the mall to find good books to read read. I sms Thomas
telling him to be ready before getting my bag upstairs. I see him in the dining room looking at mbuso's family
photos and I think he's wondering why I'm not in any of them.
Me:" hi Thomas can we go?"
Him: " yes madam " he says opening the door, I follow him outside then I suddenly feel tired and hot and I
just want to lay down and close my eyes. I don't know what happens but my body gives out and I fall but
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I hear a sound that keeps on beeping then I breathe in and that smell hits me and I realise that I'm in a
hospital. What am I doing here and how did I get here?.....then I remember. I was feeling hot and I must have
passed out. Thomas is the one who brought me here so I look around expecting to see Mbuso but there is no
one I'm alone…as always. I look at myself and see that I'm still wearing my clothes so I get up and take out
the drip they have inserted in me then the door opens, a doctor comes in with a nurse.
Him:" Mrs Gumede you're awake, I'm Doctor Tambo. You took out the drip....naughty are we, how are you
feeling? " he says looking at a chart and smiling.
Me:“ I feel good....I'm just tired doctor ”
Doctor:“ for how long have you've been feeling like this? ” he takes that light thing and shines it on my eyes
one at a time.
Me:“ I don't know. A month maybe. Is there something wrong with me doc? ” I don't like what I'm feeling
now, I'm freaking out. He takes his finger places it on my wrist then feels my heartbeat.
Doctor:“ well how do I put this. You look exhausted like you're stressed, not eating and definitely not
sleeping at all. I think your husband should be here before I tell you this ” he says seriously... huh what's
going on here?
Me:“ doctor I'll be fine. I've been dealing with something that has been stressing me out but I'll take it easy.
You can tell me whatever it is and I'll let my husband know when I get home ”
Doctor:“ but it is important that he is also here he….”
Me:“ Doctor please!. We don't have that kind of marriage with my husband and I seriously doubt he's going
to show up here, so please just tell me so I can go home and rest ” I shout and beg him at the same time losing
my cool, he's shocked then gives me a sad smile.
Me:“ I'm sorry doc I didn't mean to snap at you” I say covering my face becauseI feel like everything is
getting too much for me.
Doctor:“ It's purely understandable Mrs Gumede for a woman who Is pregnant. Congratulations you are 6
weeks pregnant ” what? No! no! no! no! no!…….I can't be!.
Me:“ No doctor I can't be pregnant…..I'm on birth control! ” tears fall down.
Doctor“ These things happen especially when you are stressed because the stress affects your chemical
balance and so any drugs that you take may be affected because of the stress. If God has decided that it's time
then it is. Even science can't deny that but you know you have options. I'll prescribe some antibiotics and
vitamins for you and refer you to a gynea who will be able to help you should you decide to keep the
pregnancy or terminate.” I can't believe I'm actually pregnat. He is going to kill me, he's going to lose it!.
Doctor:“ Mrs gumede are you okay ” he asks concerned
Me:“ I'm….im fine. It's just that I can't believe someone is growing inside of me ” I put my hand on my
stomach and I have mixed feelings about this.
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Doctor:“ I'm sure you'll make a great mother. You're going to need all the support you can get with whatever
decision you decide to make. Remember Mrs gumede no stress please and you lost a huge amount of weight
and you need to get it back so you can be able to carry that child. No stress, no lifting of anything heavy. Eat
and rest. Here are your discharged forms and the details of the Gynecologist and the medicine you have to get
from the chemist, Goodluck.” he then leaves with the nurse following behind him and I'm all alone.
I look at my hand bag and its just next to my bed, I get up and leave the room and see that Thomas is talking
on the phone and he doesn't see me so I sneak out, going to the other direction as quickly as possible. I look
for my phone, find it then request an uber and within 3 minutes it is here. I get in and decide to book myself
into a hotel because I need time to think about what I'm going to do.
I pay for the night then I make my way to my room. I get in locking the door then shower. I don't even order
room service. I switch my phone off and get in bed but struggle to sleep because what I'm thinking is, what if
Mbuso was there and heard that I'm pregnant, what was he going to say or do?. Do I want to keep this
pregnancy, will it change things between me and Mbuso?, will I make a good mother like Sims?, will I love
my child unconditionally and do I know what unconditional love feels like because I have never felt it from
my own parents and the man I'm pregnant for. will he accept him or her, will he be happy that I'm the woman
whom he got pregnant?. Maybe if I sleep i will wake up tomorrow and realise that it was all just a nightmare
and I'm not really pregnant.
I wake up the next morning and I don't want to leave the hotel but I must. I shower then call an uber and then
checkout and make my way to Rivonia.
It drops me off outside the gate and the security guys let me in then get me in a car again that drops me off at
the front of the door. For some reason I'm nervous and I know it's because I don't know how Mbuso is going
react but I open the door and find him on the phone shouting at someone to look harder. I see that guy who
washed the dishes with Thomas who's name is Percy with two other security guys and in the dining room
there are 3 oh so very good looking men and one is on the phone, the other typing furiously on his laptop and
the other drinking whiskey so early this morning.
They stop talking when they see me and Mbuso turns also and looks at me fuming, he is fucking mad like he
hasn't slept the whole night. he looks raged, angry and I almost regret why I came back. I should have ran
away the moment I got a chance.
Mbuso:“ Where have you been Lungi ?” He sounds calm too calm but his posture says otherwise when he's
asking me that and it scares me. I don't answer him. I close the door behind me and face these men.
Me:“ Sanibonani " Mbuso folds his hands across his chest and looks at me.
Them:“ Sawubona nkosazana ” they all say at the same time….uh okay.
Me:“ Can I make you something to eat?” I have manners you know.
Oneguy: “ Madlamini is making us something but we would love to have your famous muffins” I nod then
make way to the kitchen and I know i have to pass mbuso and I'm scared. I look at him and he hasn't moved
ever since I got in.
Mbuso:“ you want me to repeat myself…okay I will. Where the fuck have you been!?” he's now shouting and
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his friends I think get silent.
Me:“ Mbuso please, I just wanted to get out of this house and breathe ” I move past him but he grabs me
halting me and I almost scream.
Him:“ get out of this house! What is fucken wrong with this house? ” tears fill my eyes
Me:" let me go please and we'll talk about it when we are alone Mbuso not now. I want to make them
something to eat".
Him:“ answer me. What's wrong with this house!?” he shouts
Me:“ You. You are everything that's wrong in this house and I wanted to be as far away from you as possible
” the house is dead quiet you'd swear that it's only me and Mbuso.
Him:“ what did you just say?. Where did you Go?, are you fucken cheating on me Lungi !? ” what how dare
he says that when he knows my every move.
Me:“ fuck off Mbuso you hear me. Fuck you! ” I try to pull away from him but he slaps me so hard across my
face and I fall down then my nose bleeds and I'm shocked that Mbuso has just hit me. I look at my bloody
hand then look at him and he is as shocked as I am. That was a klap, the kind that makes you see stars yoh.
tears blind me and I feel my face heating up from the klap.
Him:‘' Sweet……I'm sorry I'm really sorry…. I" he tries to touch me to get me up but I hold my hands out
stopping him.
Me: “ I went to a hotel after I got discharged from the hospital and slept there then I came straight here. I
wanted to be alone at a different environment. This is too much for me…." I use my shirt to wipe myself as I
get up.
Me:“…..you don't want me to work, you don't want me to have friends and I haven't seen my family for
almost 5 months now. I'm always in this house, you know my every move then you have some fucken nerve to
ask me if I'm cheating on you?. I don't give you trouble, I don't ask you any questions where you've been and
with who. Have I given you any reason that I might be doing something with someone because if I was I
wouldn't be this miserable. You came and turned my life outside down and for the worst. The only thing I
know and have received from you is pain and misery and it's all because of something I didn't do, that you
still accuse me of doing. Maybe if I was cheating then that person would give me what I don't have and that is
Love. ” He looks at me shocked and hurt not believing what I'm saying.
Me:“ you didn't come to the hospital to check up on me and to find out what is wrong. You don't ask me if I'm
okay or why I didn't let you know I'm not going to be sleeping here. It has always been about you and what
you want and you have never asked me what do I want, am I okay, am I happy or how do I feel and it's
because you don't care Mbuso, you don't. You take me whenever and wherever you want. You fuck me like
I'm a piece of shit yet still I give you all of me even though you continue to hurt me each and every time. I
can't do it anymore. I tried to make this house a warm home but you've made it very hard. I've reached my
breaking point and I knew it was going to be you who will finally break me. are you happy now Mbuso?. I'm
miserable and you have made good and kept on your promise of making my life a living hell. congratulations
you win, you have gotten your revenge.” I run to my bedroom and lock the door then wear my pyjamas and
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CHAPTER 8.
MBUSO.
I've been stuck in this boardroom since coming to work in the morning having meetings with all the
department heads and the share holders. Everyone bringing me up to speed since we are about to start the
new annual budget meeting and implementing the new ideas to grow the company.
My head is not in this meeting. I keep thinking about Luh and how I left her peacefully sleeping in the
morning. I search my pocket looking for my phone and I don't have it. I must have left it in my office. I look at
my assistant Sihle who's sitting next to me typing.
Me:" Go and get my phone in my office. I left it there"
Her:" It's here sir. I took it when you left it and put it on silent because you said you didn't want any
disturbance during the meeting" I look at her and try to remember when did I tell this girl to touch my phone
Me:" who the hell gave you permission to touch my phone and set it on silence? " it's only her who can hear
me.
Her:" Sir I thought.... "
Me:" Don't you ever and I mean ever touch my phone again"
Her:"I'm sorry sir, it won't happen again" I take my phone and look at it, no calls just emails that I meeed to
go through then I place it down and as soon as I do that, it flashes an incoming call from Thomas and I frown
Me:" Thomas? "
Thomas:" Boss?, madam fainted and we're in the hospital " I stand up so fast the while room gets quiet
Me:" what?, when?, where are you now? "
Him:" Sandton medi_clinic "
Me:" I'm coming now " I feel so cold right now my mind thinking of different reasons why she
fainted....God!. Frank comes in barging through the door.
Frank:" G. we have to go" the guys stand up and look at me
Themba:" G what's wrong? "
Me:" I'll explain later, will you take over the meeting " he nods
Bheka:" You need us to come with you? "
Me:" I'll call you guys if I need you "

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Mandla:" we'll take over. go fix whatever that needs your attention " I take my phone and call her and it
sends me straight to voicemail.
Me:" thanks guys " I leave them and follow Frank then we head to Sandton medi clinic. when we get to the
hospital I see Thomas looking frantic and scared. I get out of the car before Frank even parks and go to
Thomas who's coming towards us.
Me:" Take me to her"
Him:" Boss... "
Me:" what's wrong with her?, is she okay? "
Him:" Boss she's not here"
Me:" what do you mean she's not here, you took her here right? "
Him:" I did boss but when I went to her room after the doctor discharged her she...she was gone" I feel a
very cold chill go down my back.
Me:" what?, were you not suppose to watch over her and protect her? " I punch him hard then go inside and
look for the reception area and see a lady there.
Me:" Hi, My wife was here Mrs Lungi Gumede. I want to see the doctor that was treating her"
Her:" afternoon sir... uhm it was doctor tambo let me call him" she dials the speaks for a few minutes then
some doctor appears
Him:" you must be Mr Gumede? "
Me:" yes I am. what is wrong with my wife and when was she discharged "
Him:" as I told the other gentle here. she signed the papers after I discharged her then I left her in her room."
Me:" doctor what's wrong with wife? "
Him:" I'm sorry but I can't share that information with you but you need to take good her of her. she's
exhausted and needs to rest" fuck what does that mean?
Me:" Doctor please she's my wife. I need to know what's wrong with her so I can be able to help her "
Him:" I understand sir but I can't share that information with you because it is doctor and patient
confiditiality and so I can't diclose that. you need to ask her. Is there anything else? " This doctor won't share
what's wrong no matter what I say.
Me:" No. thanks doc for helping her" I shake his hand and he leaves.
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Him:" already done. let's go" I'm still pissed at thomas. how can he be this stupid?. we go to the security
room and I get in and the guys play the video and I see that she was picked up by an Uber 2 hours ago.
Me:" take the number plates of the Uber and send it to the guys in the house so we can find that Uber driver
and where he dropped her off"
Frank:" on it boss"
Me:" thanks guys. Thomas here will pay you for helping us " the security guys say thank you then we live.
I try to call her phone again but it still sends me to voicemail. The only thing going through my mind is,
where is she and is she okay. what if someone took her... that Uber driver he better have not done anything to
her because we know there are some of them who are sick fucks.
Frank:" boss, the guys have found where the Uber driver is and he's waiting for us"
Me:" let's go to him now" Thomas is already there with the driver at Fourways Mall. He's a young man 24 I
think.
Me:" Sho my outie "
Him:" Sho grootman" we shake hands
Me:" I'm looking for my wife, the one you picked up at Sandton medi-clinic. I just want to know where did
you drop her? " I take my phone and show him her pictures
Him:" I did pick her up grootman and I dropped her off at some hotel in bryanston grootman"
Me:" you wouldn't lie to me now would you... what's your name again? "
Him:" thato grootman". I'll even take you there myself grootman "
Me:" I'll ride with you, Frank and thomas will follow us" i get into his Uber with him and we leave.
Me:" how did she look when you fetched her, was she alone and was anyone waiting for her? "
Him:" she didn't talk grootman and I didn't see anyone waiting for her " I'm hoping and praying that well find
her there. we get there and he shows us the hotel we dropped her. Frank pays him then he leaves. we get
inside and i ask the reception lady to check her name and she does but it says she checked out after an hour.
we look at the security footage and see her walking out and disappearing among the people on the street. I
ask them to send us the footage and they do with a little bribe and I wonder if maybe someone bribed
someone to frame lungi. I'm freaking out.
I go home because I know I won't be able to concentrate at work. I get in and find madlamini waiting for
lungi I think. she stands up when she sees it's me. I throw my tie and jacket on the table and sit down because
I'm so stressed. What if Lungi has finally decided that she has had enough of me and left me. I take the vase
on the table and throw it on the wall and it break into pieces
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Me:" Thomas you had one job! , just one job!. Keep my wife safe at all times but what do you do you heh.
You fucken lose her! " I say screaming, I fold my shirt sleeves.
Me:" What if she's disoriented where she is, hurt, hungry. what if she gets kidnapped and raped...
Fuuucckkkk! Thomas. You better pray that she's not hurt wherever she is or so help me brother you're dead! "
Frank:" G come down. we'll find her"
Me:" Don't tell me to come down. My fucken wife is missing and I have no idea if she's okay where she is.
how do I protect her when she's not here?!.
Frank:" the guys are out there looking for her and soon they'll find something and we'll find her".
Me:" she can't leave me Frank, she can't. what will I do without her? " I sit down and cover my eyes and this
takes me back to when I used to see her sitting down like this and it hurts me everywhere, my mind and my
body.
Me:" you go and look for her and don't you dare come back without her. Fuuuuccckkkk!!!! " I scream leaving
them and go to our bedroom look for her pyjamas and then hold them to my face and smell them. They smell
her, everything in this bedroom smells like her. her scent is everywhere. I want her back.
I take her pyjamas and go to my study then open another secret door and close it. It's my secret room that no
one knows about and it has many screens and footages. Every room in this house has hidden cameras
excluding our bedroom and my office. I search for today's footage and look at my wife as she goes to the
kitchen and has her breakfast and you can see that her mind is somewhere else. she goes upstairs then comes
looks at the pictures thomas is looking at, with longing and I feel ashamed because there's not even a single
picture of her in this house and its all my fault.
They talk and then thomas opens the door for her and what happend....I will never forget. I play that part of
her fainting over and over again and the more I do it is the more I hate myself. I sit in there for hours and
watch Frank and thomas looking for me all over the house. I call her again and it still goes to voice mail. I
open my phone and go through all the photos I have of her and I really look at this women and know that she's
not capable of hurting anyone or even stealing something that big from someone. she doesn't have that in her.
My God.... what have I done. How could I be this stupid?!.
After midnight I finally leave the toom, head to our bedroom and leave her pyjamas where I found them then
go take a quick shower and head down stairs. I find Thomas, Frank my other security guys. I go to the
microwave to take my food then remember she's not here. she didn't cook. I go to the fridge and take a bottle
of water and sit down.
Me:" Nothing on the location where she could be? "
Percy:" Nothing boss. It stops at that hotel and I still think she's there because she turned off her location after
that Uber dropped her off at the hotel."
Frank:" we went there and searched all the rooms. she isn't there ".
Thomas:" Boss I'm so sorry. it will never happen again "

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Me:" Thomas I really like you brother but right now, you really need to shut up before I punch you again ".
We all sit in silence waiting and waiting. The sun comes up then it's 8 am and madlamini is here. She greets
us and she can tell that lungi is not back. She gives me that disapproving look that parents give their kids
whenever they do something wrong. She goes to the kitchen and starts to make breakfast then the door opens
and I stand up fast thinking it's Luh but it's my three best friends.... fuck I don't need this! .
Themba:" She's still not back? "
Me:" No she's not. she disappeared in the street when she left that hotel."
Mandla:" and the doctor didn't say anything? "
Me:" patient and doctor fucken confiditiality "
Bheka:" I sent my guys as well to look for her... they'll find her G don't worry "
Themba:" I can't believe the first time we are going to meet her, we gonna meet her like this "
Bheka:" What exactly were you doing to this poor girl for her to faint from exhaustion? "
Mandla:" He was giving her too much dick, not giving her time to rest" they laugh
Me:" Fuck you! "
Themba:" She's safe, she'll be here and if not we are going on a shooting spree starting with that Uber driver
"
Bheka:" Nah, we start with this fool here Thomas" he points at him
Thomas:" I've said I'm sorry boss. madam outsmarted me"
Me:" Frank take thomas here before we all shoot him and go back to that hotel again. maybe you missed
something " they leave.
Themba:" you okay G? "
Me:" my wi.... my woman is missing and you're asking me if I'm okay?... fuck you Tee"They laugh at me
Themba:" Idiot. I need a drink" . Frank calls again telling me they can't find her and tell him if they come
back without her they are dead. They better look harder if they value their lives. As I'm shouting at Frank on
the phone, the door opens and here comes in my missing wife. I hang up then look at her.
Me:“ Where have you been Lungi ?” I ask her calmly but I'm furious inside. She looks at me scared and
doesn't answer me instead closes the door and faces us
Her:“ Sanibonani " I fold my hands across my chest and look at her.
TheGuys:“ Sawubona nkosazana ” they all say at the same time and I give them what the fuck look
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Her:“ Can I make you something to eat?” so she's going to ignore me and not answer me
Themba: “ Madlamini is making us something but we would love to have your famous muffins” She nods then
makes way to the kitchen and I'm standing here looking at her to tell me where the fuck she has been
Me:“ you want me to repeat myself…okay I will. Where the fuck have you been!?” I ask her furious because
she put her life in danger by being alone out there with no one to protect her.
Her:“ Mbuso please, I just wanted to get out of this house and breath ” she tries to move past me but I grab
her stopping her and wanting to fucken shake her for not giving a damn about her safety
Me:“ You wanted to get out of this house! What's wrong with this house? ”
Her:" let me go please and we'll talk about it when we are alone Mbuso not now. I want to make them
something to eat". I don't care about these fuckers here but about you lungi I don't say that
Me:“ answer me. What's wrong with this house!?” I shout.
Her:“ You. You are everything that's wrong in this house and I wanted to be as far away from you as possible
” the blood drains on my face
Me:“ what did you just say?. Where did you Go?, are you fucken cheating on me Lungi !? ” Ah fuck no what
did I just say!.
Her:“ fuck off Mbuso you hear me. Fuck you ” she tries to pull away from me but I don't know what happens
because the next thing I see is my hand connecting to her face and I slap her so hard across her face and she
falls down then her nose bleeds and I'm so shocked that I have layed my hand on her. Oh I'm deep shit!.
Me:‘' Sweet……I'm sorry I'm really sorry…. I" I try to help her get up but she stops me putting her hands out
in defence.
When she came through that door the only thing I wanted to do is to hold her, ask her if she's okay. Is she hurt,
hungry and what wrong with her so I can fix it.
I watch and listen her as she pours her heart out and tell me how much a screw up I am and how I have ruined
her life. Every word she says cuts me very deep because I know it is true. The only thing I want to do is hold
her and let her cry in my arms but I know that's the last thing she needs. All I have to do is let her say
everything she wants to say and take it like a man and then figure out how I'm going to fix this mess we're in
and most importantly is how am I going to put the pieces of her heart that I have broken.
I could feel she was unhappy everytime I touched her but she let me because she thought it is what she must
do because she owes me. Lungi has no mean bone in her which baffles me how is it that she's the one who
came up with this idea of convincing buhle to steal my money and she agreed because she knew I would fuck
her in my office then get the information. That bitch is going to pay when I get my hands on her.
Me“ leave us ” I say to Percy and they do. I'm left with my three best friends. I turn to go up the stairs but I
don't know what I'm going to day to her.
Themba: “ Don't go up there. She wants to be alone and you're the last person she wants to see ” I sit down
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and cover my face
Mandla“ You're fucked. You fucked up big time"
Bheka:“ She's not her sister and she's nothing like her Bafo. You need to fix this because that woman in there
loves you ”
Me:" I've never seen her like this. She's broken and it's all my fault ”
Mandla:“ did you see her at all or you just saw the woman who apparently stole your money?
Themba:“ you did say that's she's going to pay and I think she has. Let the poor girl go and live your life ”
Me:“ I'll never let her go ever!. ” that thought makes me want to kill someone
Bheka:“ She's been through enough G let her go ” here it goes
Me:“ we are married. ” they are shocked
Themba: “ wait what?, when, how and why don't we know about this ” I tell them what happend from when
we got at her parents house finding her sister gone and until now and my best friends are really disappointed
in me.
Bheka:“I knew there was something you we hiding but never did I think it was this ” he says disappointed.
Madlamini comes with breakfast and sets it on the table and the guys seat and eat and I can't stomach anything
because I'm so sick of myself.
Mandla“ this situation is more fucked up than I thought. You hid this from us because you knew we were
going to stop you. ”
Themba:“ how sure are you that she was also part of the plan to steal your money? ”
Me“ I thought I was sure because she finally confessed but now I'm not. ”
Bheka: "did she say how they did it and why? "
Me: “ No. She just said yes we stole your money.” they look at me like I'm crazy
Bheka:" When did you because this stupid dick?. 2 million rands I nothing to you, hell it's not even worth
this house and how much you pay these guys here and your company. We all know that this is not about the
money. so what's really going on G? "
Mandla:" It's about your damn stupid, bruised ego" he shakes his head
Themba: “ and that's when you almost punched her but today you finally did it. You hit her. I thought we
didn't hit women G?.”
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Themba:" Oh no brother you're apologizing to the wrong people. You have to ask her for forgiveness to her.
Look I'll look into this whole 2mil thing and see what really happend and I'll let you know."
Bheka: “ Do you love her ” what? I go pour myself a glass of whiskey then drink.
Me: “ I don't. I don't love her” I shake my head fast
Themba:“ if you were to find out that she didn't steal the money and she asks you to let her go, will you give
her a divorce? ”
Me: “ I'll never let her go. She's mine whether she stole it or not. She fits me perfectly, she brings out the
other side of me that I try to hide from women, but with her it's different. Everything is different with her and
I love that.”
Mandla: ‘ what if she meets someone else coz you told her your marriage is on paper only. What if he falls in
love with another guy? "
Me:" I'll kill any man who even thinks of touching her. I'll fucken kill them "
Mandla:" Your twisted self loves her and you kmow you do "
Themba:" So tell us.... Is she... You know" We all laugh
Me:" Yeah she is" I say proudly
Themba:" you lucky son of a gun"
Me:" Damn right I am"
Mandla:" Does she have another sister? "
Me:" Yeah her sister cousin but she's faisty that one"
Mandla:" Just how I like them"
Me:" That one is the type to choke you while you're sleeping if you piss her off" We laugh again
Mandla:" I'll fuck all of that faistiness out of her. Man I'll fuck her to submission "I shake my head
Me:" She is probably going to punch me when lungi tells her what I did"
Bheka: “ well you deserve it and please fix this mess you created before dad finds out. ”
Me: “ I will. ” they finish eating then leave and I go find madlamini and ask her to take the rest of the week
off and she happily agrees but she's worried about Lungi and I don't blame her because I know she blames
me. Yeah me and you both ma
I take my phone go through my contacts and look at that name starring at me on the screen. Not many things
terrify me and scare me but there are 4 people that absolutely terrify me. my parents and these other 2 people
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and I have to call one of them. I debate if I should call that person but I know that if I don't someone out there
might, so I make the call.
Them:" junior ." I feel my forehead sweating
Me:" I messed up...i think I really messed up" I think they stand up
Them:" I was waiting for your call. I know she was missing. Now how did the fuck that happen ? " Oh fuck
Me:" she fainted then went to the.... "
Them:" Don't you dare tell that! . I want to know how did she sneak past your guy. The man you promised me
would guard her like his life depends on it?!."
Me:" It was a mistake. " They laugh... that cold laugh that I hate and makes my blood run cold.
Them:" mistake about her life in danger?, do you know what could have happened between those hours of her
missing? "
Me:" I'm sorry I take full responsibility "
Them:" Did I not ask you to protect her?, did I not ask that you do everything in your power to make sure
she's always protected no matter what?. Did I not ask you to take her out of that hell whole she was living
under and take care of her for me?. I swear junior if I hear that you hurt her or did hurt herin anyway you're a
dead man walking". my throat gets dry.
Me:" it will never happen again I promise" they chuckle
Them:" be glad that there is someone else who watching over her too. Other wise we could be talking
another different story and someone might be dead.... you maybe" and I know they mean it.
Me:" who's also watching her and why didn't you tell me? "
Them:" I make the rules not you. where is that bitch buhle? "
Me:" someone is hiding her but I found a lead "
Them:" I want her dead " then the phone goes dead. Fuck. It's time I fixed my mistakes and be a man and
husband she needs.
My name is Mbuso Gumede I'm 36 years old, the first born of Nkosinathi and Owami Gumede. I have two
very annoying brothers Zipho and Siyabonga. I run a multi millionaire IT company Phakathwayo IT. I have a
master's in IT Computer science and Technology. My brothers work for me and my mom runs her own NGO
organisation and my dad is a doctor who recently retired.
I take a glass of whiskey and drink. I have to go upstairs and talk to my wife. Where do I even begin.

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Mbuso.
One day I was out with the guys and we went to this club they usually go to but it was my first time going
there. I saw this girl she looked good then we started flirting and it had been a while since i was with a
woman so then I fucked her that very same night in the club. Eveytime we went to that club she was always
there and I would fuck her everytime and then one day I took her to my house and fucked her there.
Tom told me to stay away from that girl because he said she was a gold digger and i did see that but I didn't
care because she was a great lay and to me that was it but it turned out to be the biggest mistake of my life,
taking her to my house that is. I shouldn't have done it because she started to come to my house unannounced
and it did bother me but then i I'll be using my dick and not brain and I'll take her to my office and i would
always fuck her there, until this one time I left her in my house to deal with something and I think it is then
that she went through my things and saw confidential papers.
I didn't notice that something was wrong until one day my accountant showed up at my office and asked me
how can 2 millions rands get transfered from my account and not inform him to get the papers ready. I was
shocked then did what i do best and used my I.T skills and boom all the paper trail led to Buhle and her
sister Lungi. I didn't know buhle like that because well what we had was a physical relationship and nothing
more. I never took time to investigate her and find out about her family. so when I decided to investigate I
found out that she has a beautiful younger sister.
Investigated so more and the more I investigated I found out shocking things about buhle's parents. I sent frank
to go to Standerton and follow lungi and her parents and record their every move. The paper trail and
messages started as them joking between themselves then it changed when buhle told lungi about me and how
rich i am then lungi said to the message, it read " well lets steal him and see if he notices. if he doesnt we'll
continue to do that until we leave him with nothing on his personal and business account. Then when he sees
what you did, you'll declare your undying love for him and tell him you wanted to be the only woman in his
life and so what you did was your way of getting his attention. Then he'll have no choice but to marry you"
and buhle being a gold digger she is agreed.
I coulnd't believe it so I called buhle to come over to my place and she did. She thought she was here to fuck
but I had other plans for her. I took her to guest bedroom and the moment i6 closed the door i slapped her,
choked her and kicked her a few times before I tied her up then took my belt and beat the shit out of her
asking her how the hell she has the guts to steal from me and she denied everything and blamed it on her
sister. I could feel the jealousy she had for her sister and it was sickning.
Buhle is an escourt girl. She's what others call a sophisticated call girl. she deals only with rich men. I didnt
know at the time i met her but found out during the time we were fucking and I didnt care because she has
never asked me for money and so I knew that she liked me more than I did and wanted more from me. So I
told her that she was going to work for me as a call girl and pay all my money back and if not i'm going to her
family and i'm going to take everything they own and then tell them that she's a prostitute and not working at a
law firm. She begged me not to and instead offered me her sister because they were in this together.
She said her father is expecting a rich man from somewhere to come and buy lungi off. Basically what she
said is " My father is going to sell lungi to some rich man whos expected to come within the next few
weeks". I was so shocked I couldnt belive what I was hearing. How could this man sell his own daughter and
I was disgusted. So I came up with this plan that I will tell my parents that I want to marry buhle and they
would believe me because twice they found me in compromising situation with her and so it wouldnt be hard
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to convince them. My family would then take the letter to her family and it is then that she will tell them about
how rich i am and after the first time my family comes she would be there but the second time she will go
missing on the week of the negotiations to come here to my house and so she can sign the paper work that she
agrees to work for me and then i'll save her sister and also make her pay too for stealing my money.
I made her sign the papers the next morning because I didn't trust her and she did then during the week i told
my family and that i was in a hurry to marry her because they want to marry her to someone else, I love her
and I don't want to lose her of which all of that were lies.
They didnt waste anytime because my mom has been nagging me about getting married. but first I had to go
and talk to her uncle because frank said the uncle is very close and protective of lungi and so I wanted to be
sure that lungi is really the mastermind behind stealing my money.
(Mbuso's flashback meeting with lungi's uncle.)
We arrive to this town and its okay not bad at all. Frank drives to the section where Lungi's uncle lives and
stops a few houses up the road.
Frank:" G. he lives at that house" frank points to a bid house, i think it has about 6 rooms, a garage and has a
very nice lawn outside. its abeautiful home.
Me:" is he home? "
frank:" yeah he is. You want me to come with you? " i laugh
Me:" you do know i can protect myself right? "
Frank:" and its my job to protect you. i dont care that you know how to " i shake my head
Me:" Ok mr body gaurd lets go "
we get out of the car and make our way to the Mazibuko home and we find the man of the house outside
reading a newspaper. He stops reading and looks at us then stands up and comes to us.
Him:" Not here. lets go" just like that?, frank and i look at each other confused
Me:" Sir, Mr Mazibuko...."
Him:" People like you never come in this location and especially my house. so it means one of my two
brothers daughters is in trouble or it's my nephew who's giving you trouble. so if I'm right lets get in that car
of yours to go talk somewhere and if I'm not feel free to enter my this yard.
Me:" we'll go to my car sir" we get into the car
Him:" ah mr bodygaurd, feel free to drive around " frank gives me what the fuck look and i almost chuckle.
this man sitting next to me is very intimidating and i dont get intimidated that easily.
Me:" sir my name is Mbuso Gumede and I'm here about uBuhle your niece" he shakes his head

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Him:" aw Phakathwayo. what did that child do now?"
Something tells me that I can trust this man and so I decide to tel him the whole truth about how I met buhle
and how she and her younger sister stole my money. He looks at me wanting to laugh.
Him:" Buhle has and always will be very manipulative. She's a very good lier and will say anything to get
out of trouble. The trouble that child has done will shock you and so this her stealing your money doesnt
shock me".
Me:" which is why I'm finding it hard to believe that it was all her sister's idea".
Him:" Lungi doesnt have a mean bone in her body. she doesnt even know how to lie, shes a bad lier and so
you want to tell me that my sweet niece stole your money?, are you fucking with me?"
Me:" Sir im serious.."
Him:" Boy listen to me and listen to me good. lungi didnt steal your money. buhle is the one who did and she
framed her and someone helped her do it. Now is that all you came to talk about?" i dont know if i should tell
him this. What if he doesnt believe what i'm going to say about her brother? but hell I've got nothing to lose.
Me:" there's something else. she said your brother is planning to sell lungi for one million rands to some men
who's expected to show up on the next coming week" he sits up straight looks at me and the next thing I see is
a gun on my face and I have no idea when it came from. Then frank stops the car taking his out and points it to
lungi's uncle
Him:" what the fuck did you just say?" he asks raged
frank:" put the gun down or I'll blow your brains off right here right now"
Him:" tell your bodygaurd here to drop his gun and continue to drive and if he doesnt I'll blow this car right
now".
Me:" we will be all blown then. Sir I'm serious about this. Frank put the gun down...now!" he does and so
does lungi's uncle. I take the laptop that's in the car and show him the part where buhle confesses about her
faher and the plans he has for lungi and what I think we must do. He is so angry, he's fucken raged.
Him:" so this is what will happen. you'll show up on the second time of the negotiations and you'll keep
buhle at your house in the meantime so she won't show up for the negotiations and ruin everything. I'll
convince my brother to let you marry lungi instead so she will be safe and not sold to whatever sick fuck he
wants to sell her to. I'll give you the money and you'll take it as the 2 million buhle stole and the 1 million he
will want."
What the actual fuck is going on here?. Who is this man and how the hell is he going to come up with 3
million rands. Something is going on here.
Me:" who are you exactly "
Him:" just a cleaner" then he laughs. i look at frank and he is spooked.

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Me:" how are you going to get that money because no offence sir..."
Him:" you stop it right there boy. Don't ask questions you are not ready to hear the answers of. I'll be in
touch." he opens the door
Him:" Next time you try to follow me frank don't be seen or I'll blow up that car!, and oh before I forget go to
someone to take that bomb off your igntion key before i change my mind" he closes the door laghing leaves us
looking dumfounded.
frank:" who the fuck is this man G"
Me:" I have no fucken idea" lets get out of here.
Lungis uncle watches them leave then he takes his phone and makes a call
Person:" victor"
UncleVictor:" We have a problem he wants to sell her to someone" he listens as the other person on the
phone curses and break things.
Person:" Tell me everything " he tells the other person what mbuso told him and they both come up with a
plan and then lungi's uncle calls mbuso.
There won't be any POV of Mbuso's because I'll be giving away some of the things that must still he revelead
to Lungi.

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My stomach keeps growling and I feel so hungry. I forgot I hadn't eaten anything since last night and when I
woke up today. I touch my stomach and it hits me again that i am pregnant. God what am I going to do
because he's going to kill me. I roll over and land on something or rather someone. I hold my breath while I
open my eyes and see Mbuso looking straight at me smiling and I'm shocked. why is he smiling, what is he so
happy about because i'm not happy and i can still feel that klap on my face.
I have never seen this man smile and his smile takes my breath away. He has a dimple on his left cheeck and
those pink full almost pink lips that drive me crazy whenever he kisses me. He has full very dark eyebrows
and full lashes and I'm so jealous. His cappuccino smooth skin bold head and that beard that has few silver
hairs. Mbuso has a great body he works out and he's very well toned not too toned like gym freaks but we'll
enough and I love his tall sexy body that has that v-thing on their lower stomach going straight to that long
thick dick. God!.
Him: " breathe out before you faint on me" his breath hits my face as he talks and I swear I get wet or I was
wet before he even said anything. I breath out and look at him.
Him:" you must be hungry. I can hear your stomach growling " I panic and take my hand off but he pulls me
very close to him and I feel his rigid member and I swallow.
Me: " Mbuso...."
Him: ' shhhh let's feed you first, get up. ' I do and he brings me a plate full of English breakfast with water
and juice and I eat. He's looking at me differently and I feel very weird I just wish he would leave me alone.
Me" did madlamini make this?"
Him:" no i did" i look at him shocked
Him:" you dont believe me?"
Me: " no i dont. are you not hungry? "
Him: " No. I did eat something earlier " I don't believe him so I cut a piece of pancake with bacon and eggs
and take it to his mouth
Me: " open. " I say and he smiles, a full blown smile God he's so beautiful.
Him: " you want to feed me?"
Me:" I know youre hungry so open your mouth" he stands up and goes to the bathroom and comes with a wet
cloth then takes my hands and wipes them the he wipes his too.
Him:" use your hands to feed me" oh ok. i take the food and bring it to his mouth then he opens up and i put it
in he takes it from my fingers then i feel his tongue on my fingers nibbling. he does the same and feeds me too
and we're just silent eating the food and watching each other. It feels so amazing like its the most intimate
thing we have ever done to each other. When he swallows, when he drinks the juice and his adams apple
goes up and down I look at it and i just want to put my tongue in there and feel it moving up and down my
mouth, yeah im crazy. He feeds me until I get full and can't eat anything more.

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Me:" I'm full, I cant swallow anything else"
Him:" you sure?"
Me:" I am" . We both get silent and I know we can't ignore the elephant in the room. He takes the tray off the
bed and puts it on the dressing table then goes to the bathroom and I the hear water running the he comes
back.
Him:" come and get in the bath" i get up and take off my clothes and I look at my stomach again and I know
its too early for it to show so he won't notice anything. I go to the bathroom and get in the bath and it smells
nice. I sigh when I get in and close my eyes.
Him:" can I join you?" I keep quiet and look at him
Me:" you can if you want"
Him:" I am asking you if I can join you and if it's okay"
Me:" get in mbuso " he takes off his clothes then joins me and gets behind me then drags my body to his, my
back connecting with his front. He washes my back with his hands then his hands come to my front, raps them
around me and lays my head to his chest.
Him:" what did the doctor say, what caused you to faint"
Me:' you are the reason I fainted. You stress me" he breathes out loud
Him:" I know I do and I just dont know what to do and how to do this"
Me:" this what?, this marriage?. I'm the one whos been doing something to make it work and what is it
exactly that you did besides hurting me and abusing me evrytime?"
Him:" abusing you?, i wasn't abusing you. Yes I was a little rough sometimes but I never abused you lungi" I
chuckle
Me:" of cause you'll say that because an abuser will say that. Tell me mbuso what have you done to find
buhle so she can also pay as I am paying. when is she going to get slapped and choked?"
Him:" luh please dont talk like that. She is still missing but Themba said he'll checkout this thing of the
money. There are people who are looking for her and she will be found and she is going to pay for what she
did as you say she framed you".
Me:" let me tell you something about my sister. she's the type to get anything she wants and she'll do
whatever it takes for that to happen. Shes the type of ' if I cant have it, so will you'. everything has to be hers
and hers alone. She's smart but uses her smartness for wrong things and reasons." I move away from him, turn
and face him.
Me:" I dont know the kind of relationship you both have or had but I know you didnt love her. You are not a
man suffering from betrayal and a broken heart but you are out for blood and revenge and I'm the tool you
will use until you get it out of your system"

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Him:" your sister isn't the person you think she is."
Me:" shes not what?. a liar, manipulator, a conniving bitch, a fraud , a thief. she's not all those things?"
Him:" she is all of those things. I thought maybe you are going to say good things about her"
Me:" oh but there are good things I can say about her. She used to love me when we grew up, would look out
for me, did6nt want any boys around me. She was my big sister and I loved her. I was her own personal doll.
She would dress me up and take me to her friends to show me off. But things changed she started pulling
away from me and changed towards me and I knew that it was our mom's doing. She has always been jealous
of our relationship and her wish happend and we grew apart with buhle, but the were times when she will
come back from joburg take me shopping with her,so all the things sisters would do and we'll go to the bank
to withdraw the money you sent her, you her boyfriend. What puzzled me is that she will always withdraw
huge amounts of money and give some to my parents. Mbuso have you asked yourself why our house is that
big and beautiful and both my parents drive the latest Mercedes and even buhle drives a Q7 and she's
working at a law firm and she's not even a lawyer. My mom's a teacher and dad's a warder and you think I
stole your money". he stays quiet listening to me
Me:" You and buhle would have made a great couple because you're both fucked up. Do you ever regret the
things you do to me?, do you feel anything in that cold heart of yours mbuso?. Do you remember what you
said to me when we laid in bed as i was crying in your arms the day we first met?" he looks nervous then
moves forward to me tries to touch me
Me:" dont mbuso. do you remember what I asked you and what you said? " he stops.
Him:" I said alot of things that day. I dont remember?" I sigh disappointed.
Me:" of cause you dont remember because it didn't mean anything to you but to me it did".
Him:" luh I dont how to do this, it wasn't suppose to be like this" I suddenly get angry
Me:" How was it suppose to be like hmm?!, why didnt you call the police and get me arrested?, why aren't
the police involved and searching for my sister? "
Him:" I dont deal with the police. I deal with things in my own way"
Me:" who doesn't deal with the police?, unless.....oh my God" I get out of the bath fast and almost slip and
fall then run to the guest bedroom.
Him:" what are you doing?, youll hurt yourself" he says running after me and I close the door and lock it
before he tries to open it.
Me:" youre a criminal. That is why the police were never invloved. oh my God what did i get myself into?!"
Him:" lungi I'm not a criminal okay?. open the door so we can talk like adults"
Me:" dont lie to me. if you're not a criminal then why do you have bodyguards and drivers. Only criminals do
that."

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Him:" my job is dangerous luh. I have to have people protecting me at all times and all those i..i care about
too"
Me:" you dont care about me, so why are you protecting me?"
Him:" I do care about you and I always want to keep you safe and protected"
Me:" and who's protecting me agaisnt you because you're as bad as the ones you are being protected from"
Him:" We all have people who are watching over us lungi and as bad as this sounds but I am protecting you"
Me:" well then answer me this honestly"
Him:" I'll try "
Me:" no you will answer me this."
Him:" ok I will "
Me:" do you really believe that I stole your money?"
Him:" lungi please!."
Me:" No answer me!" I shout
Him:" NO!. I dont okay? Fuck! " i stand there looking at the door shocked. I open the door and see him
standing there stark naked
Me:" what did you just say?"
Him:" I dont believe you stole the money. This whole thing stinks of your fucken sister" he says looking at me
Me:" when did you come to the realisation that I didnt?"
Him:" I've already said enough and I'm not going to say anything more"
Me:" I deserve to know. This is my whole life we're talking about"
Him:" I can't tell you that okay. just fucken leave it!" he says getting frustrated
Me:" I'm not leaving it. tell me now!" i scream at him
Him:" Its fucken bigger than the both of us okay!. Fuck luh "
Me:" what does that mean, its bigger than the both of us?"
Him:" you dont fucken listen dont you?. I said leave it"
Me:" ok I"ll leave it then. I want a divorce. I want out" He looks at me like i'm crazy and start to laugh. he
actually laughs a deep belly laugh then stops. Tears roll down my eyes as I see him laughing tears and all like
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i'm tickling him or hes watching something funny. I'm that something funny because he's looking at me.
Him:" sweet you're not going anywhere because if you leave this marriage and house you're dead"
Me:" then you might as well kill me now because I'm leaving this house and I want a divorce".
Him:" I mean it when I say you will be dead. It's not going to be me who kills you but your parents"
Me:" you sick fuck!. You now realise that I want nothing to do with you then you think you better accuse my
parents of wanting to kill me so I wont leave you and this sham of a marriage, what is wrong with you?."
Him:" They are not your parents lungi". he says seriously and I look at him and laugh. i'6m the one who's
laughing now. I laugh and laugh. He watches me then comes getting closer to me slowly then my laugh turns
to hiccups then sniffs then cries.
Me:" you know I thought maybe we'll have a chance and make this work but the more I get to know you is the
more I get disgusted of you. How can you say something like that?"
Him:" look at yourself and look at them, the whole family lungi. You look like no one in that family. Even
your extended family members and grandparents look nothing like you".
Me:" maybe they adopted me. Many kids get adopted and its okay but you dont have to accuse them of
wanting to do something like this." I choke up
Him:" they didn't adopt you. They killed your mother and stole you lungi." he looks at me and I see sadness,
regret, remorse in his eyes and see the truth too.
Me:" Nooooooooooooo......God no!, No, No!" i fall on my knees and cry and he holds me.

This can't be true. Why would they kill my mother and not kill me too but decide to raise me as one of their
kids. What kind of people are these?. Where was my father when all of this was happening and where is he
and is he even alive. Did my mother's family know about me?
Me:" I want Frank to go to Standerton to get my uncle. I want him here.... I want Sims and thami here too "
Him:" I thought we would use this time to talk and fix things between us "
Me:" Talk mbuso?. There's no talking. I want out of this marriage. We had time to talk and try to fix things
between us but you we're out and fucking God knows how many women and now you want to fix things?.
Hell no!.
Him:" Luh please! "
Me:" I want my family here before the end of this day Mbuso do you hear me? "
Him:" Why don't I send Frank to go fetch sims and thami then your uncle will come over after some time? "
Me:" no. you're scared that he's going to see how you've been treating me right?, well I don't care mbuso. I
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want answers and I know he's the only one who'll tell me truth. Do I have to call him myself or you'll go and
tell Frank.
Him:" I'll go. let's get you dressed up and warm" He picks me up and takes me to our bedroom, lotions my
body then I go and wear my clothes and leave him getting dressed.
I go to the kitchen and start preparing dinner for my family. I keep sniffing and wiping my tears off
Him:" we can order take aways. you don't have to cook" he says sitting down and watching me
Me:" leave me alone and get my family here"
Him:" don't cut yourself please. " I ignore him and continue chopping.
He looks at me wanting to say something but Frank enters the kitchen
Him:" afternoon Madam "
Me:" Hi Frank "
Him:" I need to talk to Frank in my office before he leaves "
Me:" ok " he sighs then they leave. I breathe out deeply and put a hand on my stomach. what am I going to do.
I want out of this marriage and mbuso out of my life but now I'm pregnant for him. Am I going to keep this
pregnancy?, do I even want to keep it and what about this marriage? "
My trian of thought is disturbed when I hear a phone vibrating and I look up and see mbuso forgot his phone
on the table. Do I look at it or take it to him. We always hear don't ever touch a man's phone because you
might find and see what your looking for but what do I have to lose.... nothing.
I look around and see if he heard it or coming to fetch it but no, so I take it and see that his screen saver is a
picture of me sleeping. I slide across then It unlocks because it doesn't have a pin. Who doesn't put a pin on
their phone. I see a message from an unsaved number so I click on it and it says
Message:" This is getting too much for me and I'm losing my mind. The lies have to stop so I think it's time
we tell her about us " I feel my heart almost stopping. I read the message again and again and I can't believe
what I'm reading. This has to be buhle... it is her. These two have been playing me and laughing behind my
back and stressing me out.
Him:" have you seen my phone, I think i...." He says getting in the kitchen and sees me holding his and he
freaks out
Him:" what are you doing with my phone luh? "
Me:" You fucken bastard!. how can you do this to me? " I scream at him
Him:" what are you talking about? "
Me:" This you fucken bastard! " I throw the phone at him and he ducks then I throw the pan, knife, food at him
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and he runs out of the kitchen ducking and I scream loud and cry uncontrollable.
Why does everything have to be hard for me. why can't I get just a moment of peace. For once in my life I just
want to be loved. Why did they kill my mother?, what did they gain from killing her and who's my father?.
Could my uncle be my father and is that why he loves me?. Oh God I'm not related to sims and thami my
brother. It hurts everything just hurts.I feel him pick me up and take me to our bedroom and lay me down on
the bed.
Him:" Drink this. It will calm you down and help you sleep"
Me:" Is it harmful? "
Him:" No it's not. you'll just sleep". I take it and drink it then close my eyes and sleep.
I feel kisses on my eyelids and cheeks and that smell and my heart melts and I giggle. I didn't realise how
much I missed her. I open my eyes and see my beautiful cousin laying next to me with her beautiful smile and
big eyes.... yeah she's not my cousin and that thought makes my heart break and I sniff.
Sims:" I'm here now sis don't cry..." I turn and look at her and tears just cloud my eyes and I cry. She hugs me
as I cry into her arms. I can feel her chest moving up and down and I know she's crying with me. I hold her
tight and I know that whether we're related or not. Simphiwe is the best sister I've ever had.
Me:" I love you a lot you know" she laughs
Her:" Ofcause you do dummy because you know I'm very special."
Me:" Where is thami? " he's busy with exams but he's gonna be here as soon as he's done".
Her:" I missed you, you know " she says sniffing
Me:" you didn't come with them? " I look at her.
Her:" No they are visiting their fathers and I would have left them even if they were with me because I knew
you we're going to ask me to come".
Me:" I miss them "
Her:" they miss you too. we all did".
Me:" I know they missed me and my cooking because I'm the only who knows how to cook. What were you
feeding my kids Sims ? " we both laugh
Her:" oh come on they are still alive ok and the food they ate didn't kill them plus we would take aways and
fast food"
Me:" I hope they are not skinny" I say giggling

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My body feels so relaxed and warm hmm i love it. I can't remember the last time i slept like this because it
feels so good. I sigh then open my eyes and i see a pair of brown eyes looking at me and then a very hard
thing poking me. That's why I feel so good, its because I slept on top of mbuso. He kisses my nose then my
lips.
Him:" good morning sweet "
Me:" morning, how did i end up here "
Him:" you fell asleep after the second movie, so i took you to bed and we slept "
Me:" ok and how did I end up sleeping on top of you? "
Him:" well you kept on touching my dick then when I tried to touch you, you slapped my hands then when I
stop and finally get some sleep you decide to get on top of me and sleep".
Me:" why didn't you move me to the bed?"
Him:" you looked so peaceful and relaxed and I loved feeling you sleep on my arms. It reminded me of that
day when you were crying as I held you and you slept in my arms and when you started nipping on my neck
thinking you having a dream" I giggle
Me:" it was nice a dream and it felt good "
Him:" hmmm "
Me:" you're getting hard "
Him:" I've been hard the whole night sweet. Why won't you touch me? "
Me:" I am touching you " I'm playing with his beard
Him:" you know what I mean, when we're intimate " I try to get off him but he holds me
Me:" my uncle is coming today and I'm nervous " he takes a deep breath then breathes out.
Him:" don't remind me and don't change the subject "
Me:" you won't let me touch because you always fuck me. you dont want to look at me that's why you fuck me
from behind " he quickly changes positions and now i'm beneath him
Him:" I always want to look at you while I fuck you but I couldn't and wouldn't allow myself because of the
guilt I feel when I always look at you".
Me:" what are you feeling guilty about ?" he doesn't answer me but instead kisses me.
Me:" mb...."
Him:" sshhh let me touch you and make your body sing "
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Me:" lock the door " I want the damn dick, I'm so horny
Him:" I did lock the door when I took you to bed, wouldn't want to make that mistake of your cousin seeing
me giving you what you need"
He takes off all my clothes then looks at me like its the first time he's seeing me naked, then takes off his
pyjama pants and his dick springs free and I see his dick is leaking with precum and i just want to run my
tongue on it. I look at him and he's looking at me smiling and I smile back. I dont know but something is
shifting between us.
I crawl and get off the bed then stand next to him. He opens his arms and holds me. we stand there naked, my
head on his chest listening to his heartbeat beat. His hands touch my ass then he lifts me up like I weigh
nothing. I wrap my legs around his waist and arms around his neck
Him:" you were a size 36 and now I think you're 32. you lost so much weight because of me. I'm sorry sweet,
i'll.... "
Me:" sshhh lets not ruin the moment and talk about that "
I bring my face and kiss him deeply. he moans and starts to kneed my ass grabbing it tight and grinds his dick
on my clit and i moan, he groans and I hold him tight and kiss the living day lights out of him. My body
always melts at his touch and I can't help myself. Feeling his dick against my wet folds and it touching my clit
makes me so wet and I know he can feel my wetness.
Me:" mmmm... put me down "
Him:" Baby please..." he puts me down and I look at him and smile
Me:" ssshhhh"
I get down on my knees and come face to face with his proud, protruding member facing upwards above his
belly button . Mbuso has a type of dick that is like almost a banana shape, its thick long and oh so very
yummy. My mouth waters from just loking at it and I lick my lips then take my hand and wrap it around his
dick but my hand can't wrap all around it, just half of it and he stands still.
Him:" Baby you dont have to do it " he says touching my hand that's on his dick
Me:" I want to " i pull his hand off and look at him as I move my thumb over the head of his dick and he
swallows. I move it around smearing the precum all over it then move my hand all the way down to his pubic
hair then bring my face down close to his dick and swallow his dick and it streches my jaw making me open
my mouth wide then I move my tongue around it and tease that opening on his dickhead and he groans.
I pull my face up and look at him again, the go down on him again and he groans then I feel his hand on head
making me go deeper and I moan making a mmmmm sound and he curses.
I take my other hand and put it on his balls and start touching them softly, feeling them in my hand and it feels
so good having him in my mouth but his pressing my head hard making me struggle to breath a little and he
notices because he moves his hand off my head and brings it to my face and massages my jaw
Him:" relax your jaw your baby and breath through your nose " i do that and he continues to massage my jaw

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then he flexis his hips and moves them a little at controlled pace and i moan again, move my head up and
down using my lips and tongue all around it and it feels so good.
I can feel that i'm very wet, my boobs feels heavy, my nipples are hard and my body is screaming to get some
release but what I'm doing is not for me but for him. I suck that dick like i'm eating ice-cream and my
favourite lollypop then I pull it out of my mouth and it pops out making that pop sound.
Me:" move your legs apart a little " he does and i move my head again and take his balls in my mouth,
sucking them softly and he groans and i continue to suck on them then feel him tense and so i5 stop, go back to
his dick again and take him to my mouth wrapping both my hands around it moving them up and down and
lose myself pleasuring him. He holds my head and start to move his hips and fucks my mouth softly and I
enjoy every thrust he makes, I move my hands off his dick and put them on his tight ass with my nails and he
groans.
His movements get hastly and I moan again making that mmmmm sounds, he groans, goes deep in me and I
feel my nose touching his pubic hair, then he comes filling me with his tasteless cum and I try to swallow
most of it but some comes out of my mouth.
He breathes hard like he's struggling to get air on his lungs then he picks me up and takes me to bed kissing
me, his tongue down my throat and I love it. He lays down with me on top of him
Him:" get your butt on my face" huh?
Me:" what ?"
Him:" fuck my face baby "I've never done this before but how hard can it be, it will be like ridind a dick
right?". I get both my thighs on either side of his head, look down and see that he is face to face with my
pussy. My hands hold on tight to the steel bars on the bed then i bring my ass down and then i feel his hands
on my ass bringing it to his face then feel his tongue on my wet folds and I moan. He holds my waist tight and
eats me, his soft tongue on the entrance of my pussy, my clit, all over my vagina sucking me good and I can't
help myself but scream out loud because it feels good, his beard tickling me on my ass, tongue on my clit
sucking me softly and damn i move my hips and ride that face holding tight to those steel bars and now i
understand why they are on the headboard.
He continues to suck ny clit and i feel myself getting near then I feel his thumb going to the back door and I
almost freeze but he bites my clit a little and i moan, he rubs around outside my back door presses on it at the
same time his tongue presses on my clit then moves it side to side and it makes me lose control and Ii come
all over his face screaming his name.
He takes me to his arms then lays me down on my back while I'm still feeling my orgasm then enters me and
looks at me.
Him:" Youre the best thing that has ever happend in my life" he says and thrusts deep and i moan then i touch
his back, those shoulders, arms and finally his ass and grab it tight pushing him deep in me.
Him:" you're perfect in everyway and don't ever let anyone change you...even me " he continues to thrust
deep and i moan
Him:" I'm sorry for everything i have put you through " he kisses me and i close my eyes

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Him:" look at me baby, don't shut me out please " I look at him and see that he is sad, like he wants to cry and
that makes me hurt
Him:" I wish I can turn back time fix things, say things I should have said so I can have this moment right here
and now for life. Wake up to it everyday of my life...." his pace changes and he starts to move. His thrusts are
deep, long and hard like he is giving me all of him and wants nothing left behind and it makes me cry because
it feels like he is saying goodbye to me. He wraps both his arms around me, kisses me with his eyes closed
and i'm looking at him and see tears on his eyelids.
Me:" mbuso...." he shuts me up with a kiss and continues to make love to me and I cry on his arms holding
tight to him and he continues to make love to me until we come together. We stay like that, holding each other
like it's the last time because it feels like it.

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Mbuso gets up and goes to the bathroom and i turn and face the other way wiping my tears off. He comes
back picks me up and we get into the shower and he washes my whole body quietly and I do the same. We
finish getting dressed and everything and still no one is talking and it makes me wonder what is my uncle
going to say that mbuso knows and is making him nervous.
Me:" what is it that is scaring you? "
Him:" will you hold me " he looks so vulnerable right now and I dont like it at all. I don't like this weak man
that i'm seeing in front of me. I go to him and we we hug. He kisses me on the forehead then looks at me,
takes my hand we leave the bedroom and go downstairs and find sims stuffing her face with food.
Her:" good day love birds " she says smiling
Me:" hey sis "
Mbuso:" hi " he says low and we both look at him
Sims:" you look bad mbuso, did luh not give you some cause I swear I heard her scream your name more than
once "
Me:" ew sims you were listening? "
Her:" hell no i was passing by coming to the kitchen and you decided to scream his name at that exact
moment. Yoh luh youre loud "
Me:" shut up" I say getting shy and mbuso looks at me and smiles, a sad smile.
Me:" you're eating yesterday's left overs? "
Her:" it's food and it still tastes good"
Me:" you want me to make you something? " I look at mbuso
Him:" yeah but i'll be in my office. I have to call frank and find out how far they are from here with your
uncle "
Me:" ok " he kisses my cheek then leaves us.
Sims:" what happend, he looks so sad?"
Me:" I think he wants us to break up and get a divorce " I take things out and start to cook
Her:" what?, why, "
Me:" I dont know. I think it is something to do with uncle and I also told him that I want a divorce "
Her:" oh luh, I know he treated you like shit but do you really want that divorce? "
Me:" we dont love each other sims and i think he is hiding some things from me "
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Her:" maybe he is stressed that he can't find your sister "
Me:" maybe. I can't wait for uncle to get here because I need answers and he's the only one who'll give them
to me "
Her:" what's going on luh? "
Me:" I don't know sims, i don't know "
Me:" sims what did you mean when you said there's something different about mbuso "
Her:" the way he looked at you the first timen was different to how he looked at you now "
Me:" maybe it was lust and you did say that he wanted to be in my pants so bad and so when he did, that
spark left because he got what he wanted "
Her:" you guys make a good looking couple though "
Me:" that's all we're good at "
Her:" and having great sex too "
Me:" shut up sims man " I throw the lettuce at her
Voice:" there are kids who would give anything to have that lettuce " I turn around and see my uncle looking
good and smiling. Mbuso is standing next to him. I stand there and look at this man i've always adored and
loved and thought that when i get married i would like to marry a man who is like him.
Me:" bab' umncane " I smile back
Him:" Luh kababa " I walk slowly to him, stand next to him and look at him.
Me:" How are you uncle? "
Him:" I'm good now that i"m here with you " he opens his arms for me and I hug him. I've always loved his
hugs because they are warm and fuzzy.
Me:" Come, lets get you settled in and then get you something to eat "
Him:" I want to talk to your husband first. We will come eat when we're done "
Him:" I'm so happy to see you "
Me:" nami baba " ( me too dad ) he hugs me again
Him:" and you?, aren't you going to hug me? " he says looking at sms and she comes and hugs him too then
uncle and mbuso leave. There is tension between them and its tense.
Me:" can you help me make them sandwiches while i'm still cooking "

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sims:" okay " sims makes coffee and I make sandwiches because I dont want my uncle to die of food
poisoning from sims.
Me:" I wonder what are they talking about there "
Her:" I dont wanna know. I'm going to take a bath and maybe a nap. I feel so full "
Me:" as you should because you stuffed yourself with that food " she leaves I take the tray and put it on the
dining table and the coffee aswell then head to mbuso's office. As I get closer I hear someone groaning in
pain, my uncle is shouting at him and mbuso is quiet.
I quietly open the door and see my uncle holding mbuso by his throat and by the way mbuso is bigger and
taller than my uncle and I realise that mbuso is letting him beat him. I get so shocked when I see so much
blood
Me:" Uncle what are you doing? , why are you hitting him ?"
mbuso's face is bloody, his clothes and my uncle's aswell.
Him:" get out lungi and close the door " he says angrily
Me:" why are you hitting him though?" I ask him knowing very well why
Him:" look at you lungi, just look at you!, you lost weight, you go missing, he has a nerve to put his hands on
you, who the hell does he think he is? "
Me:" he's my husband uncle. The one you told me to marry! "
Mbuso:" lungi leave us, I'm okay " he says struggling to talk
Me:" no, i'm not leaving. I want the truth. The lies and secrets must stop now!. "
Mbuso:" she's right, it all must stop now "
Uncle:" shut up mbuso. Lungi go to the kitchen we are coming now "
Me:" promise me you won't hit him again " my uncle nods
Me:" mbuso go clean yourself up then come downstairs " he also nods.
I leave them and go to the living room and sit down. Sims shouts from the kitchen
Her:" your food is burning luh "
Me:" switch off the stove sims " I dont have energy to cook anymore. She comes to the living room and sits
next to me.
Her:" what's going on luh and please don't tell me you don't know "
Me:" we'll both find out what's really going on " mbuso comes first and has showered and changed, his face
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looks really bad. He stands next to the fire place and doesn't sit down then my uncle follows too and has
changed his clothes.
Me:" after I came back from the hospital, I went to the hotel and spent the night there and then the following
morning I came back home and we had a fight and he hit me. I told him I wanted out that I want a divorce but
he said I couldn't leave because there's a price on my head by my parents. He said that my parents are not my
biological parents but people who murdered my mother and then stole me." sims gasps shocked looking at my
uncle
Me:" so who am I uncle, who are my parents, why was my mother killed and where is my father? " I ask him
looking at his eyes.
Him: where do I even start lungi? "
Me:" at the very beggining "
Uncle:" Mbuso is the one who should start "
Me:" start talking mbuso, i'm listening "
Him:" I am a hacker lungi, It's what i'm good at. I met buhle at a club and we started having a physical
relationship....." he goes to explain how he and buhle met and how i am involved in stealing the 2 milliom.
Mbuso:" It didnt make sense that you would steal my money just for the fun of it and so buhle can get married
to me once I find out because she was trying to get my attention and then I decided to investigate who buhle
really is and I found out that she has been asking about me, where I live and where I hang out...things like
that. So I went to see your uncle and told him what happend and he told me that you couldn't do something
like that but buhle is very capable of doing it and much more ".
Me:" so you knew from the beggining that i was innocent ?"
Him:" I wasn't hundred percent sure so I digged some more and found out that buhle cloned your phone and
laptop. She took your original phone and gave you a fake one looking exactly like yours and had everything
your original one had and did the same with your laptop. That's why there we messages from "you" but not
really you. She also made a fake I.d with your names and date of birth but used her picture. She made a
private back account same as your account number and that's how she got to transfer the money from my
laptop to her account using your information. She is working with someone who is used to dealing with these
things and we believe that person to be the man you call dad who raised you "
I cannot believe what i'm hearing, buhle did what with my dad?
Me:" how did she know your passwords and everything ?"
Him:" They put a hidden camera in my office "
Me:" why not clone your laptop like mine? "
Him:" because I'm a hacker and I would have noticed and she knew I didnt have cameras in my office " my
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Me:" she did all of that and you still wanted to marry her?....it doesn't make sense " he looks at me then looks
at my uncle and I look at them both then my uncle looks down and mbuso comes and sits on the other side of
me on the couch.
Him:" she also said something else when I confronted her...." he takes my hands in his
Me:" what did she say ? "
Him:" she said that your....her dad was planning to sell you to some man for one million rands "
" what?! " both sims and I say at the same time and I stand up
Me:" and you believed her?.....no they wouldnt do that uncle? " I keep shaking my head no
Uncle:" let him finish lungi "
Mbuso:" she swore that she's telling the truth and she was scared for you lungi and so she offered you to me.
We made this plan that i'll tell my family that I want to marry her and because they had found us having sex a
couple of times so it wouldn't be hard to convince them, then my family would go the first time for the
negotiations she will be there but the second time she will go missing and come here to my house but she
never showed up and is still missing. Then that will force your dad to force you to take buhle's place but it
was never about her. It was was about saving you and I told your uncle what buhle said " oh my God I was
going to be sold for one million rands to God knows who?, tears cloud my eyes and fall.
Uncle:" when mbuso told me what buhle did and what my brother is palnning to do, I offered to pay him back
the 2 million and give him the one million he will use to pay for the lobola negotiations..."
Me:" what?, did you take it mbuso?..did you take it all and still accuse me of stealing from you? " i ask him
screaming
Mbuso:" I didn't take any of it. I refused and used my own money to pay for the lobola negotiations " he says
with his hands on his head
Me:" Is it true uncle, he really didnt take the money? "
Uncle:" He didn't lungi. He used his own money "
Me:" How much did you buy me for ? "
Sims:" lungi dont say that " she says crying
Him:" I didn't buy you lungi. I was trying to save you but i ended up hurting you in the process "
Me:" how much did he buy me for uncle...HOW MUCH? " i scream
Uncle:" calm down lungi "
Me" HOW MUCH? "
Uncle:" he paid 2 million rands for you ". I look at mbuso and he's not looking at me
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Me:" Why would you pay so much money for me mbuso knowing i didn't steal any money from you or owe
you anythinhg, why did you marry me? "
Uncle:" we were worried that, the person who was promised you will come back and want you back and so
we thought that it is better mbuso marries you " they did what
Me:" So they decided to plan my life. Why didn't you take me somewhere to live other than standerton and
not tell anyone uncle where I am in case that person comes looking for me ? "
Uncle:" we were not sure who we were dealing with and how connected they are "
Me:" This marriage that we have mbuso is it real or I'm still here because you're protecting me from him "
Mbuso:" he is no longer a problem. He is dead "
Me:" how do you know that? "
Mbuso:" because i looked for him and killed him" he says not even blinking and I feel cold chills run all over
body and the hair on the back of my neck stand.
Me:" you killed a man for me mbuso why? " i choke up crying
Him:" someone had to do it lungi because you wouldn't be safe and why not me "
Me:" Do you...do you hate me for what you did? "
Him:" I could never hate you luh never "
Me:" what happens to this marriage since he is dead and I no longer need protection " he looks at my uncle
Him:" There is no marriage lungi ? " I feel a piece of my heart being crushed
Me:" so.....so you want us to divorce "
Him:" no I don't want that "
Me:" talk mbuso man, how do you mean? "
Him:" we didn't get married luh, everything was a fake. ask your uncle here, he's the one who came with the
idea of us getting fake married " I look at my uncle and see the truth written all over his face and I feel
betrayal of the worst kind.
Me:" why uncle?, why would you do this to me ? " I ask him crying
Uncle:" we thought we were protecting you. I told mbuso and he agreed, it's not like he was innocent in all of
this. The judge is a friend and the marriage certificate you signed was fake. that's why you never got the real
one from home affairs or change your surname "
Me:" so the only thing real here is that a man was killed for my protection and everything else is a lie. My
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whole life is a lie, my name, my marriage....I could have walked away from all the abuse i endured, I...."
Me:" Wait....who sent you that message mbuso ?" i ask him
Him:" your brother "
Me:" What!....thami? "
Him:" your real bother luh " what?

Me:" my what?,....uncle what is mbuso talking about? "

Uncle:" Lungi dear, I have to tell you something but before I do that, there are people who must be here too "
Me:" no!. Tell me what's going and i'll decide if those people must be here or not "
Uncle:" lungi for you to understand and have everything out in the open, they must be here please " he says
pleading with me
Me:" ok fine " he takes out his cellphone and calls whoever that is, whether it's my real brother or someone
else I don't know "
Uncle:" where are you guys?...ok...uhm not sure, i'm coming " he looks at me then hangs up.
He goes to the hallway to open the door. I keep pacing up and down because I don't know what to do with
myself. Whether to sit down or stand up. I feel like i'm going to faint at any moment.
Mbuso:" sit down luh, you don't look good " i ignore him
I can't believe I have a brother and they all decided to hide that from me and what else do I not know. Do I
know my uncle?, do I know the man i've been sleeping with, do I even know myself?. I hear footsteps of
people coming to the living room and I stop pacing and brace myself for whatever i'm about to face.
The first person I see is my uncle followed by these two men I dont know, have never seen and met in my
life. They stand next to my uncle and the older man looks at me shocked. Both of them look at me shocked i
feel something happening in my body and i can't expalin it. One is older and he limps a little when he walks
and the other one is either the same age as mbuso or older. They look alike...like father and son and i look
like them. He must be my father and that must be my brother. Wow tears cloud my eyes then i hear sims
Sims:" oh my God, you look like them...that's so freaky "
Uncle:" shut up simphiwe. Lungi? "
Older man:" no Victor, let me take it from here ". He walks towards me and I stand there frozen. He sands
close but not too close.
Him:" my name is Zakes Ngcobo, I am your father and this here is your older brother Sicelo Ngcobo....."

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Me:" who am I? "
Ngcobo:" You are my one......one and only daughter, Lungile Ngcobo not mazibuko. You.....you and your
brother are my only children ". he gets teary
Me:" who was my mother?, why was she killed? and why did they steal only me. Why did't you try to find
me, do you know how I grew up?, the emotinal abuse I received everyday and constantly being hated for
reasons I did not know. Slaps I would get from the woman I thought was my mother?, why did you let me be
raised by my mother's killers, why didnt they kill me too with her, why did you let me go why?! why! why!
why! " I get loud with every question, screaming at him crying loud and uncontrollable then I feel his arms
around me comforting me and i cry hard.
Ngcobo:" sshhh don't cry my baby....I'm here now. All is going to be well. Lets sit down " he leads me to the
chair and we sit down with him facing me and he wipes my tears off
Ngcobo:" I was studying Agricultural Sciences and on my last year at the university when I met your mother
and you look exactly like her. It's like i'm seeing her but seeing you".He says that looking at me touching my
face with both his hands and kisses my forehead.
Him:" she was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. So I courted her, she gave me a run around for
sometime and then she finally agreed and we started dating as you now call it then during school holidays
that same year I sent my family to send a letter to her family in Newcastle and I payed lobola for her. I didnt
want any guy to steal her from me and so I made my move quickly. They accepted but said she will finish her
studies first before we conclude the negotiations and so I waited and I was patient, well half of the time " he
smiles and you can see the love he had for her and still has and it warms my heart.
" She was studying teaching and she was very passionate about it. she was a very passionate person and it's
what I loved most about her. She was had this friend that I didn't like but your mother was a kind person she
didn't want to see the bad in people. I was working back at our farm and would travel to and from Durban to
see her every weekend after I graduated. She eventually graduated and as soon as she did we finished paying
the amalobolo and we had a traditional wedding and after that a white traditional wedding too because she
wanted it and to me it didn't matter because we were already married. "
Him:" We got our own place and she found a job in Ladysmith and worked there as a teacher and then we
had Sicelo after a year in our marriage..."
Sicelo:" wow dad you didn't waste anytime " he says chuckling
Ngcobo:" Scelo man "
Ngcobo:" your mother was still friends with this woman from joburg Thulisile and she will always show up
at our house unannounced and I did mind but she was your mothers best friend and I told her that I didnt like
this woman and she said I 'dont like anyone so I let it go because she believed everyone had some good in
them then one day she came to visit with her husband late a night and what shocked me was, she never
invited your mother to her wedding and she mad an excuse and said it was a spare of the moment thing and
your mother was hurt but understood and i didn't believe her. "
" they stayed for about 3 days then left and would not visit for about 4 months and then show up again and we
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never went to visit them and i didn't want to because I didnt trust that man around my family. After 5 years
living in ladysmith the business was growing fast on our farms and then I decided to go to Durban and
manage everything from there since I was the older brother and then we built our offices in durban and I
moved my family there then when Sicelo was 12 years old we dicided to have another baby you and then you
were born when he was 13 years old ".
Ngcobo:" thuli and her husband Sipho showed up again at our doorstep when you were 2 years and I was
mad at your mother that she told her where we live but she said she didnt and I just knew something was
wrong because that day they showed up she was jittery like something was wrong with her. You were fussy
that day from when you woke up. I asked your mother what was really going on with thuli and she said they
were in trouble and needed some help with money and that's when i found out that whenever she came to
visit she would borrow money from your mother and not pay it back and the total amount was almost R50000
and I was livid with her so I went and asked then how much do they want and they said they needed R20000
and I gave them R50000 and told them in the morning I want them gone and out of our lives forever ".
" We had dinner and slept then late at night I heard your mother and thuli shouting and fighting in the house
and when I got there thuli had a knife and had just stabbed your mother on her stomach and when I tried to
rush to her a gunshot were fired and hit me on my arm and leg and i fell. I screamed and tried to go your
mother but her husband shot me again on my other leg and thuli continued to stab your mother many times to
death and she died immediately. when they saw that I can't move, they asked where do I keep the money I
told them I had given them all the money I had in the house but they didn't belive me so they went to sicelo's
room and came back with him, with a gun pointed on his head and he cried when he saw your mother dead
and me bleeding to death and I was so scared for both of you. I told them I had a safe and where to find it,
thuli had a gun on sicelo's head and you were in your room crying histerically "
Ngcobo:" sipho phoned another man, told him to come to the house and when that man showed up he was
carrying two 20 litre bottles of something and it smelled like petrol. I have never been terrified in my like
how I was that day. I saw my wife being stabbed to death by a woman she thought was her best fried and
now they were going to burn us all in the house, my kids we're going to get burned and I couldn't have that.
Sipho left thuli and told that man to start pouring the petrol all over the house and that man did that and came
back with three other 20 bottle containers and poured the rest of it in the house and on us too. Sipho took thuli
and they went to the safety box to get the rest of the money and it was just me and sicelo and so I told him to
go and get you in your room and run away with you, because the police were going to take a long time to get
here. He was so scared but got up and left with petrol all over his body to go and get you but then I heard a
gun shot and I knew they had shot him and was probably dead, then they came back running and said they shot
sicelo he is dead then they lit the house on fire and had to get out before the neighours saw the house was on
fire then he shot me again then left us like that to die.
" The fire was approaching fast and I tried to get up but I couldn't and so I crawled as hard as I can but then
the smoke was too much and the fire was hot and I just asked God to make you and your brothers death quick
because I didn't want you to feel any pain and that was the last thing I remembered "
Tears were flowing down his face and and mine. my mother was murdered like an animal, she continued to
stab her even when she saw she was dead. how could she?, how could I have ever said I loved that woman
and wanted her love so bad...how could I betray my mother like? "
Sicelo:" I woke up at a hospital and I was all alone. I had lost my memory and I was taken to live at an
orphange and I grew up there until I was kicked out at 18. They used to call me Philasande Msizi I don't
know who gave me that name but I used it. I used to have nightmares about fire, a voice of a child cying and a
man's voice saying I should take my sister and run away. I looked for jobs and would get small one's until I
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got a permanent job as a driver for some big produce company. There was this old man I used to drive with,
he would ask me questions about where i'm from and where I grew up and I will tell him that I couldn't
remember growing and he would say that I look like people from a family in Ladysmith and he would one
day take me there and he did when I was 25"
Ngcobo:" when I woke up I was at the hospital in ladysmith and had no idea how i got from durban to
ladysmith. They told me you had all died and i died too that day when i heard you both didn't survive. I
couldn't even bury you because the house was burnt beyond, everything was gone. When I lost my family I
lost eveything, then your uncles decided to go collect your spirits and cleanse the yard and then my brother
took over the business and managed it because i was a mess. Your mother would come to me in my dreams
always crying and when I would go and consult they would tell me she wants her kids and can't find them. It
was hard and everyday I thought about killing myself because there was nothing i was living for and I wanted
to help her too by looking for our kids ".
" Then one day I woke up and decided that i'm going to kill myself. I had my gun loaded and went to another
room and sat there for hours and just when i had the courage to pull the trigger I heard voices outside and
people screaming. I left room and I saw this young man being surrounded by my family and as I got closer I
could not believe I was looking at Sicelo standing there looking shocked as he saw me approaching. I thought
I had finally gone crazy but I went to him and touched him. He was real then I lifted his the t-shirt he was
wearing and looked for his birthmark and saw it. You have it too just below your left breast ".
Sicelo:" I knew he was my father the moment I saw him. I felt it and I think you felt it too. I owe my life to
that man who took me to my family because without him I don't know what could have happend to me. We
bought him a house, 2 cars for him and his wife then gave him 5 cows and he ritired and I still visit him. A
ceremony was done for me and I started getting my memory back but then I would always hear you crying
when I slept and it would haunt me. I started investigating about mom's friend and her husband and for years
there was nothing and it was like they never existed but I didn't give up. Then one day I had a lead about their
daughter and I had her followed around and then that's when I found out about you and I knew you were my
sister because you looked like our mom then i had you followed too but I couldn't get you alone because there
was someone following you and only to find out it was mbuso's man, so I approached him and we made a
plan to get your D.N.A and frank got it from some resturant you went to with your uhm cousin I guess and I
had it tested agaisn't me and dad and it came a hundred percent correct that you're my sister and that's when I
told dad about you and we came and spent a week in standerton watching you and you never noticed us but
we were also careful that you do not see us."
Scelo:" dad wanted to take you away but we couldn't because that would make the mazibuko's suspicious
because you would have asked them about us and they would figure it out that we are still alive and not dead.
As we were still in standerton my dad saw a man he thought he will never see again, a man that brought the
petrol and poured it all over us and the whole house and burnt our mother's body to ashes "
Me:" who is it?, who was it ?"
Dad:" it was the man pretending to be your uncle. Victor " my face goes what and and i feel my heart stop
Me:" what?, no! no! no!. uncle tell me its not true? "
Uncle:"..............."
Me:" tell me its not true!......, say something!, why are you quiet? "
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Him:" I'm so sorry...I was young and... "
Me:" Shut up. You burnt my mother's body to ashes, you lied to my face everyday saying you love me but you
were busy nursing your gulty conscious.... how could you?. I loved you and took you as my father but you
were also part of the plan to kill me and my whole family.... "
Sims:" I'm so sorry luh. I never knew or I would have told you what was going on. I'm so sorry " she says
crying
Me:" sims I need some water I.....I can't.... I can't breath, I.." lights out.

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My bladder is full and I feel pressed, i remeber that I fainted. I can't believe my uncle...he's not even my
uncle. I can't believe he and them burnt my mother's body to ashes. I wanted the man I was going to marry to
be just like him because i thought he was an honest, loving man and like a father to me. I open my eyes and
see that i am in our bedroom...yeah right there's nothing of mine here.
Voice:" Mrs gumede finally you're awake " When did he get here
Me:" Doctor Tambo. How did you get here? "
Doctor:" well your husband sent his men to come and get me " I Iook around and see that my dad, brother,
mbuso, sims and victor are all here.
Me:" uncle what happend after you left us in the fire? "
Mbuso:" doc can you give us a few minutes, simphiwe can you go and make him some coffee? "
Sims:" follow me yummy doc " she takes his hand and they leave
Victor:" my brother told me to make sure the house is burnt down with all of you inside and they left. I went
upstairs and took you and your brother out of the house then your dad and your mother's body. I put you in my
car and and wrapped your mothers body in plastic and duck tape and put her in the boot of the car then took
sicelo too because he was still breathing and then I called the police and ambulance for your father and left. I
dropped sicelo at a hospital and drove off "
Me:" what did you do to my mother's body "
Victor:" I had heard thuli say she lived in Ladysmith and her in-laws lived there so I drove there the whole
night with you crying and when I got to ladysmith I saw there was a livestock farm and so I stopped the car
and took out my shovel and dug a grave for your mother and buried her there because I had hoped someone
will find her and notify the police and then we left "
Me:" dad did you find mom's grave? "
Dad:" after i saw victor he took us there, we first got lost because he couldn't remember then after 8 hours
we finally found it and she was buried at another farm from a family we knew. We dug her grave and gave
her a proper goodbye, she's buried at our family plot and we'll take you there ".
Me:" how did I end up staying with them and not you? "
Victor:" my girlfriend then, helped me raise you and you stayed with her for two years then one day I went to
visit you guys and my brother followed me because after what happend to your family I stayed away from
them. when I got into the house a few minutes later he got in and when he saw you, he wanted to kill you
because he thought you were dead but I begged him and told him you're still a child and wouldn't remember
and it was either I let you live with them so they can watch you or kill you and I couldn't let that happen and
so he took you "
Me:" uncle I need some time to process this because I don't know what to feel "

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Victor:" I undestand lungi. I hope that one day you will forgive me for what I did to you and you're family "
he says
Mbuso:" please tell the doctor to come "
Uncle:" I will. Zakes we will talk " they shake hands and he leaves.
Dad:" how are you feeling "
Me:" It's alot to take in " the doctor gets in smiling and i bet that smile has sims all over it
Mbuso:" Doctor for the last time, what's wrong with her? " I get up before the doctor answers and run to the
bathroom and throw up nothing because I had not eaten anything. I feel tired and I'm exhausted. I feel mbuso
brushing my back remaining quiet. I'm so scared of telling him that i'm expecting his baby because I don't
know how he's going to react.
I flush the toilet and get up and brush my teeth and mbuso is still there not saying anything. I leave the
bathroom and I see the doctor's disapproving look on his face as I sit on the bed
Doctor:" Mrs Gumede I told you to rest and no stress. when did you last did you eat? "
Me:" I woke up late and I was cooking, I was going to have something to eat but then..."
Dad:" I'll go and make you something to eat. sicelo come "
Me:" baba i'll make it " he looks at me and smiles
Dad:" you called me dad "
Me:" and for the first time in my life it feels right? " i say smiling. he comes and gives me hug then kisses
both my cheeks and sicelo kisses my forehead and they leave me with mbuso and the doctor.
Mbuso:" I'm worried about you, you keep fainting luh, I know you said it's the stress doc but what's really
going on? "
Me:" I'm pregnant mbuso. I'm having your baby, we are going to be parents " he looks at me shocked then
looks at the doctor
Mbuso:" Is the stress affecting the baby...my baby? "
Doctor:" If she keeps getting stressed, not eat properly and doesn't rest she will lose the baby "
Mbuso:" what can I do to make sure that doesn't happen? " is he excited that we're having this baby?.
Doctor:" don't stress her. She needs to gain weight and rest. Did you get and take the medicine I prescribed
for you ? "
Me:" I forgot to get them doctor " he writes something down

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Doctor:" here is the prescription and the gynae's number and remember you have options mrs gumede.
Goodluck and call me if you need anything else "
Mbuso:" thank you doc " he shakes his hand and the doctor leaves.
Me:" I'm sorry, I never lied when I said i'm on birth control. I just don't know what happend, I mean.."
Mbuso:" stop luh. I treated you like trash and I used you for my own selfish needs because I'm like that. I use
woman and then discared them like nothing. I knew you were innocent from the begging yet still I accused
you because at first I enjoyed watching you looking scared of me and it gave me a kick....that's how twistee I
am. I treated you bad because you were slowly getting under my skin and making me feel things I have never
felt and It scares me to death "
Me:" you're not twisted mbuso. you just dont know how to love "
Him:" love luh, my parents have been together for 45 years and married for 20. I've seen how my father
treated my mother and he worships the ground she walks on, he loves her and she loves him. I don't know if I
can do that and be that person to...you"
Me:" you are your own person and not like your dad mbuso. If you won't open your heart how will you know
that you can or cannot be that person. What are you scared of mbuso? "
Him:" I'm scared of you. I'm scared that i'll give you my heart and then one day you'll wake up and realise
that you deserve someone who's better than me. Someone who's never lied, manipulated, kept secrets and hit
you. You'll realise that I'm not worthy of you and it terrifies me. I'm scared that you'll hurt me and so I hurt
you first "
Me:" you did all those things because you wanted to push me away and not get close to you, so when I find
out the truth it will be easier for me to walk away from you? "
Him:" I didn't want to treat you good, make you fall inlove with me while I'm keeping so many things fom you
but I couldn't stay away from you. I tried to just fuck you and not care but everytime I did I cared deeply and
it hurt me to know that I hurt you by just fucking you and leaving you and not giving you my time " am I falling
for him, have i fallen for him?.
Me:" It did hurt me....alot. Sometimes I would wish that you would just hold me all through the the night, let
me sleep in your arms and wake up next to you and kiss you good morning but it never happend ". I sigh sadly
Him:" I would come back after you have slept and I would watch you sleeping everyday. I'll take pictures of
you and look at them when I'm at work. I'm sorry I couldn't be the man you deserve ".
Me:" and now we are going to be having a baby "
Him:" I know and whatever you decide I'll suport you "
Me:" what do you mean mbuso, whatever decision I take you'll support me?, don't you want this baby? "
Him:" After everything I put you through I'll understand if you don't want to keep the baby. You were already
pregnant when I hit you luh God what is wrong with me? "

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Me:" I am keeping this baby and we're having it. You were wrong to put your hands on me and you better not
or else my dad is going to kill you "
Him:" but still I shouldn't have done it "
Me:" you didn't know I was pregnant and that doesn't mean it was okay to hit me "
Him:" I promise I'll never do it again "
Me:" So you're not mad that I'm pregnant? "
Him:" not mad but scared. "
Me:" I'm scared too. So what now?, what happens between us "
Him:" I think we should stop whatever that was happening and focus on the baby and me paying the damages
"
Me:" I think so too. How are you going to explain everything to your family? "
Him:" I'm sick of the lies so I'm going to tell them the truth "
Me:" yeah do that. Why did you send thami money and get him his own apartment? "
Him:" I did that because he's a good kid who's bright and loves you and I knew that you would appreciate it
and I did with sims and her kids because you love them. I would hear it everytime you spoke with them over
the phone "
Me:" thank you "
Him:" no thank you luh for making me want to be a better person. I'm gonna be there for you and the baby "
Me:" so this is goodbye? "
Him:" no its not. I want you to go stay and reconnect with your family because you never had that and now
that you do you must be around them and enjoy it. Be happy and not cry but when you cry it should be tears of
joy "
Me:" yeah " he lays down and looks at me
Him:" I know it's not my place but please listen to me. forgive your uncle, he made mistakes but tried the best
he knew how to fix them and it wasn't his idea in the first place but his brother and his wife. Forgive him..us
for your peace of mind and because you're not the type to hold grudges ".
Me:" I know and i'll try ".
Him:" don't change for anyone luh because you are one in a million and I'm glad I got a chance to know you
even though I blew it up but I'm happy that I have a part of me that will aways connect me to you. Can I feel
your stomach? " I nod
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Me:" thank you for saying that and I'm happy that we are going to have a baby together "
Him:" but I feel nothing in your stomach "
Me:" it's just a fetus and not yet a baby " I say giggling
Him:" I love it when you laugh, your whole face transforms and your smile reaches your eyes "
Me:" stop making me blush " I smile
Him:" so what about a quickie before you guys leave "
Me:" oh no mister. Take me to kitchen and feed me, your baby and I are hungry " ke kisses my stomach then
kisses me and we get up.
Him:" I'm gonna miss you and you know you're always welcome here at any time Mrs gumede" I laugh
Me:" I'm gonna miss you too Mr gumede " we both laugh and hug tight and I look at this bedroom one last
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After we left joburg we came straight to Ladysmith and sims came with us too. I was scared that I wasn't
going to be accepted but the whole family was excited because my father had told them about me and that I
was alive and not dead as they thought. They took me to my mother's grave and it was a better sweet moment
being there and I didn't cry as much as thought I was going to because I was thinking about the baby and when
I was there listening to my dad and brother tell her about me I felt a sense of belonging and peace. I saw her
pictures and yes I looked like her, I have her eyes and smile.
I have an aunt and two uncles, one of the uncles is the one who took over the business after dad and the other
one lives in Johanessburg handling the business there. I have 4 male cousins and 2 female cousins who have
2 kids each and married. I have a good relationship with all of them but i'm most close to my aunt another
than my dad and brother and she has no kids and she treats me like her own daughter. She's the last born in
the family even though she's 40, never married and dad is very protective over her and I call her ma not
aunty.
There was a welcoming ceremony for me and the whole Ngcobo family was there including their business
assocciates and it was beautiful and I told mbuso about the ceremony and he was happy but wouldn't come
because he didn't want to disrespect my father and the whole family while he is still have to pay the damages
for me getting pregnant. I was scared to tell dad I was pregnant but he told me he suspected that I was and he
was happy and told the rest of the family and I have literally been treated like a baby of the family and I'm
loving every moment. My brother well, he had mixed feelings about it and I didn't blame him.
I talk to mbuso everyday and he would send me R20000 every month for my needs and for whatever the baby
would want as I'm pregnant. I told him it wasn't necessary because my dad and brother make sure I have
evrything I need. Sims left after the welcoming ceremony and I miss her, I told thami a week after I have left
what happend he was shocked and broke down and I haven't gotten hold of him since that day and so I
decided to give him some space to process everything. My father invited uncle victor but he didn't show up
because he still feels I hate him and won't forgive him but I feel like I have forgiven him even though I haven't
said it to him but I know I will, I just need to have courage. Yes he did hurt me but he made sure I was
always taken care of and honestly if my father can forgive and make peace with him, I can too.
My brother lives in Durban and works there but he has been coming home every weekend since I have been
here and we are bonding everytime. Today is thursday and it's my first appointmen with the doctor and
mbuso is coming with me to see the doctor. I'm going to be seeing my baby for the first time and I'm excited.
I'm almost four months pregnant and starting to show and I haven't seen mbuso since I left. I wake up, make
my bed even though we have aunties who help in the house but i like doing things for myself. I do my morning
routine and go to the kitchen and find my handsome dad drinking tea and reading a newspaper..." Isolezwe ".

Me:" sawubona baba " (morning daddy ) I hug him on his shoulders and kiss his cheek and he smiles.
Baba:" I'm never going to get enough of hearing those words, morning baby did you sleep well? "
Me:" I did dad. what are we having for breakfast? "
Him:" ask your aunt?, you woke up early today where are you going? "
Me:" baba I told you on sunday that it's my first doctors appointment today, don't you remember ? " my aunt
comes to the kitchen singing

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Her:" Morning baby "
Me: morning ma. what are we having? "
Dad:" I'm coming with you " I look at mah asking for her help with dad
Mah:" Zakes you know you cant' go, she's going with her babby daddy "
Me:" baby daddy mah? " I say embarrased and dad has stopped reading the newspaper looking at me
unimpressed
Her:" Well what do I call him because he's not your boyfriend " she says laughing. She knows the whole
story between me and mbuso
Dad:" what exactly is this boy's intentions with you? "
Me:" I don't know dad. We made a decision to break up and so we can both focus on ourselves "
Him:" My daughter will not raise a child alone. He must fix himself, man up and take care of his family "
Mah:" or else we will raise this child and he will not see her or him " i give her aren't you suppose to be on
my side look
Me:" Ngiyezwa baba " ( yes dad )
Mah:" Oh I can't wait i'm so excited, I hope it's a girl "
Dad:" me too. I can't wait to spoil her and do all the things I never got the chance to do for you " he says
sadly
Me:" I'm here now dad and we have a second chance and I'll always be your little girl " I take his hand
Dad:" that's why I am taking my baby girl to her doctor's appointment and I'm going to see my first grandbaby
since your brother won't settle down and get married " mah laughs, I give up . At that exact moment big
brother walks to the kitchen looking like he didn't sleep.
Him:" morning family " we greet back, he kisses me and mah on our cheeks and he reakes of alcohol and
brushes our dad's head and dad slaps his hand off and we laugh
Dad:" don't touch me with those hands because I don't know where they were and inside of what yesterday "
my brother chokes on his water and I flush same time....my dad guys.
Mah:" bhuti?, we have a child here! "
Dad:" She's not a child and she's pregnant and she knows what i'm talking about " but I thought he was happy
that I am
Sicelo:" I was only drinking dad, i didn't...."

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Mah:" Oh please spare us, we don't want to hear about your sex life "
Me:" mah I'm hungry "
Her:" what would you like to have? "
Me:" can you make me your famous soft porrige, I love it "
Mah:" ok baby "
Sicelo:" you mean the baby likes it "
Me:" when did you get here? "
Him:" late last night, didn't want to wake you up "
Me:" ncoooh you missed me " i say pinching his cheek
Him:" you wish. I came because I want to see my nephew or niece " he says touching my stomach
Mah:" Well since everyone is going, I might aswell go too " I sit there quiet because I can't believe I'm
finally receiving the love I have always longed for and sometimes it feels like I'll wake up and all of this
would be gone and taken away from me again.

Mah:" baby you okay ? " she asks me

Me:" I'm okay mah "
Dad:" don't you want us to come with you? " he's hurt, I stand up and go sit on his lap
Me:" I want all of you there daddy and I'm happy you want to experience everything with me " I hug him
Sicelo:" then why do you look so sad baby sis? "
Mah:" she's scared " I look at her smile
Me:" I'm happy and scared mah. I feel like I will wake up and find that it was all a dream and just wishful
thinking "
Dad:" don't be scared baby. No one is going to take you away from us ever again and all of this is....us, its a
reality we never thought we would live but here we are today "
Me:" I'm thankful to have all of you in my life and I love you "
Sicelo:" It's okay to miss thami too and uncle victor "
Me:" thami won't take my calls and I haven't talked to uncle victor but I will " thami wont' take my calls and
I'm worried about him

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Sicelo:" I'll get somenone to look for him and see if he's safe "
Me:" Thank you " my phone rings and it's mbuso "

Me:" uhmmm excuse me I need to take this " I leave them and go to the sitting room
Me:" Hello? "
Mbuso:"..........."
Me:" mbuso? "
Him:" hey, how are you baby mama? " i giggle
Me:" oh really now?, I'm okay baby daddy and you? "
Him :" I have arrived and can't wait to see you and our baby "
Me:" I can't wait to see you too "
Him:" what time must I pick you up? "
Me:" uhmm about that..."
Him:" what's wrong ? "
Me:" nothing is wrong. It's just that mah, dad and my brother are coming along "
Him:" I knew they would want to and I would have been shocked if they didn't want to come "
Me:" you're okay with it? "
Him:" I am baby, they missed out on your childhood and for them it's their way of making up and catching on
everything "
Me:" yeah you're right. I like the new you " i smile
Him:" I want to be the man you'll be proud of. Why don't you join me for breakfast then we'll go together to
the doctor. They'll find us there "
Me:" I don't think dad is going to allow that? "
Him:" ask your brother, he won't say no "
Me:" he's worse than dad "
Him:" he loves you and can't say no to you. I'll send you the name of the resturant " he hangs up. Mbuso wants
my brother to punch him again. I get up and turn and see my brother standing there with his arms crossed.

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Me:" bhut' wami omuhle engimthandayo kakhulu " ( my handsome brother that I love very much )

Him:" no. " he says smiling shaking his head

Me:" but i haven't said anything and you're already saying no? "
Him:" what do you want? "
Me:" can we go and have breakfast somewhere "
Him:" mah made your favourite porrige, the one you wanted "
Me:" I don't want it anymore "
Him:" I know you want to go see mbuso and we'll go only because there's something I need to talk to him
about "
Me:" what's wrong? "
Him:" just business stuff "
Me:" brother please don't hit him again "
Him:" I won't, go tell mah and dad we're going out, I'm going to change " I go to the kitchen and mah has
dished up for me. I sit down and eat.
Mah:" baby daddy on the phone? "
Me:" mah please " i smile and eat my porrige
Her:" I knew it was him when a smile lit your face up "
Me:" he asked me to go have breakfast with him, can i go? "
Her:" what about your appointment? "
Me:" you will come and we'll meet there "
Sicelo:" huh you're eating? "
Me:" I'm done "
Mah:" go, I'll tell your dad I sent you to the mall " I stand up and kiss her cheek then we go.
Sicelo:" where are you meeting him "
Me:" here " I show him the address and we drive there silently
Me:" are you okay big brother? "

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Him:" I'm okay luh. It's just that the Mazibuko's are in hiding. They vanished the same day we came here but I
have a friend of mine looking for them and he just sent me a message and said they are in Cape town "
Me:" are we all safe from them? "
Him:" very safe. I don't want you worrying about them and stressing. Promise me "
Me:" I won't I promise "
We get to the resturant and head inside and I don't see him. A pretty young girl comes to us.
Her:" good morning my name is thenjiwe. Mr Ngcobo please go to that door and you'll find someone waiting
for you and you Miss Ngcobo please follow me " she says smiling
Sicelo:" you're crazy if you think I'm going to send my sister in there alone. Come Luh, lead the way thenjiwe
" he takes my hand and we follow her and she takes us to the back of the resturant and it's so beautiful
because there are flowers and water fountain there and some people having breakfast
Me:" wow this place is nice "
Sicelo:" I've never been here before and I like it " she shows us to the table and we sit down
Me:" can you go sit somewhere because you're cramping my style big brother " i say giggling
Him:" i'll leave when I see him coming " I roll my eyes and laugh then my brother stops and looks behind me
land I follow his eyes and I can't help it but smile.
Him:" I saw this beautiful lady entering the restuarant looking beautiful but something was missing and I
knew what was missing. This resturant is also a flourist shop so I asked them to make flowers for you
because I knew you will love them" he gives them to me and kisses my cheek. It's a whole buckee of lillies
and then he looks at my brother
Sicelo:" ok fine, I'll be inside but I'm not leaving without you and you better behave Gumede " then he leaves
us.
Me:" Thank you for the flowers I love them " I put them on the side
Him:" My name is Mbuso Gumede and you are? "
Me:" Lungile Ngcobo, nice to meet you Mr Gumede "
Him:" mr gumede is my dad. Call me mbuso "
Me:" and you can call me Luh " thenjiwe comes and we order and I order english breakfast without eggs
because I can't stand them and he orders the same.
Him:" beautiful name and it suits you because you're very beautiful and glowing "
Me:" Thank you, it must be the pregnancy "
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Him:" wow, who's the lucky guy "
Me:" baby daddy is the lucky guy "
Him:" that's his name? " he laughs
Me:" yeah my family calls him that " i smile
Him:" is he in the picture or? "
Me:" We dicided to to break up and work on ourselves "
Him:" what if he misses you and wants things to work out between you two "
Me:" If he has worked on himself and sort out his issues and proved to me that he can be the man I can
depend on, trust and worthy of me then we'll talk about getting back together "
Him:" I'm attending therapy luh and I told my family the whole truth and my mother is not talking to me and I
don't blame her " the food comes and I dig in.
Me:" she'll come around after she has calmed down. I'm glad you're attending therapy beacuse that's very
important "
Him:" I had to face some things about me like my abusive beviour to you and..."
Me:" mbuso it's okay. I forgave you and you need to forgive yourself too and let some issues go ".
Him:" my therapist said the same thing too "
Me:" my dad asked me what are your intensions with us because I won't be raising a baby alone "
Him:" I'm here and I'm not going anywhere " and mumbles something I can't hear
Me:" what was that? "
Him:" nothing baby "
We chat, laugh and talk about many things and I'm starting to see a side of mbuso I never thought I would ever
see and I like it. It's 12:30 pm and our appointment is at 13:00 pm.
Me:" I had a wonderful lunch, thank you "
Him:" I enjoyed your company and lunch too "
Me:" lets go it's almost time and I don't want to upset dad "
Him:" yeah or he'll give me trouble next week " huh?
Me:" what's going on next week? "

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Him:" I meant next time baby. lets go " I take my flowers with me, he pays the bill and we meet my brother
outside his car.
Him:" finally, dad and mah are already on their way lets go "
Mbuso:" I'll meet you there, I want to have a word with your brother " he kisses my cheek and i get in and
open the backseat window and hear my brother say
Sicelo:" I found buhle. She's at my house in durban "

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I have mixed feelings about what I'm hearing. I'm angry, I'm hurt and I feel mad at her, I know she lied and
framed me and that hurt but what if she didn't do all those things where could I have been right now?. I could
have been living with that unknown man, I wouldn't have met mbuso, I wouldn't have known my family and I
wouldn't have been caring this precious cargo that I love so much.
I want to see her and confront her. I want her to look me in the eye and tell me why she did the things she did
to me. Would she lie and blame it on her parents?, will she say they made her do it. I want her to see that I
have toughned up, I'm no longer that meek and sweet lungi she knew, the one she used to walk all over on
because living with mbuso made me have a thick skin and taught me alot of things.
Sicelo gets in the car and we drive out and I'm just thinking if, will I give her a bitch slap when I see her or
will I just listen to her telling me all her lies....I despise liers, why can't just people tell you the truth and hurt
you with it and not tell you lies just to make you feel better... I hate it.
Sicelo:" you're awfully quiet, what's wrong? "
Me:" Brother what do you really think of me? "
Him:" What kind of question is that? "
Me:" just answer me "
Him:" I think you're one tough cookie, smart as hell, have a kind heart and a big one, you don't like to see
people feeling bad or hurt. You are very forgiving and sees the good in everyone and you always hope for the
best in every situation ".
Me:" thank you for saying that, but do you think I'm weak and I let people walk all over me? "
Him:" where are all these questions coming from luh? "
Me:" just thinking out loud "
Him:" having a big heart and being a forgiving person doesn't make you weak Luh. Sometimes people will
use your kindness for their own selfish reasons but you my sister, you're nothing like a weak person. I don't
know how you grew up but from what you told us luh it was hard. Not receiving any kind of love but
emotional abuse always is hard, if you were a weak person you would have ran away, thrown yourself to
everyman and sold yourself. You would have turned into drugs and be an alcoholic but here you are strong
and beautiful. You have scars that still need to be healed and we are here to help you heal every step of the
way. If there's anyone I know who deserves all the love and happiness in the world it's you baby sis and I'll
make sure as your big brother that you're always loved and protected. You and my niece " I wipe a tear off
and kiss his cheek.
Me:" You're the best big brother ever. I love you " we stop outside the doctors office and he gets out, comes
and opens my backseat door and I get out then he takes me into his arms and he hugs me tight and I hug him
back. Mbuso has arrived and he's watching us then mah and dad pull up too.
Him:" I know I don't tell you everyday but I want you to know that I love you very much and I don't ever want
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to lose you again " that's so beautiful, so this is why people go crazy over their siblings because of the love
and protectiveness they have for each other?, I thought I had that with thami but this here is the best ting ever
and not even close to what I have with thami.
Me:" just so you know I'll kick any woman's butt if they ever hurt you in any kind of way " I feel him smiling
Him:" you and aunty are the only women I love and it's going to stay that way " I giggle
Me:" for now " we laugh
Dad:" If I had to die tomorrow I'll die a very happy man. I love you my children.....very much " I break the
hug and go hug him too.
Mah:" lets go inside I'm sure the doctor is waiting for us " I look at mbuso and he's just standing there looking
all broody and silent and my nipples get hard. It's like he can see me and knows what I'm feeling because he
winks at me smirks and I smile. Mbuso has this thing of making me feel shy like I'm still a teenager.
We all go inside and mbuso follows behind with my brother and I give my brother a thank you smile and he
rolls his eyes and I laugh.
Dad:" I'm so happy to see that you're excited "
Me:" I've got my whole family here to share the whole experience, who wouldn't be "
ReceptionLady:" Oh my....uhm sorry Good afternoon and welcome to DR Preston's office and my name is
Candy and how may I help you? "she says starring at the men
Me:" Hi I'm Lungi Ngcobo and we're all here for my 13:00 pm appointment "
Her:" all of them are here for you? " she looks at my dad and I see something in her eyes...hell no sis my dad
is not a blesser
Me:" yes all of us " she looks shocked then her eyes move to my brother and mbuso....I don't like that.
Her:" Please follow me " she walks infront of us shaking her ass and I look at mah and we both laugh. She
takes us to the office and we get in.
Her:" Please go to that room over there and wear this, pee in the cup and bring it with you and I'll let the
doctor know that you're here. Can I get you anything else, water, tea and coffee ? " she patts her hair
Me:" we're fine thank you "
Her:" oh ok, I'll go let the doctor know and remember I'm just outside should you need anything " she leaves
Mah:" who names their child Candy because that sounds like a stripper name? " me and mah laugh and the
men are quiet yoh. I go to the room she directed me too, change then come back and sit on that chair like bed.
The doctor gets in with a huge smile on his face and he looks so stylish and I smile.

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Him:" Hi fam, I'm Doctor Preston but you can call me Dr Pres and you miss ngcobo mommy to be how are
you doing? " I love him
Me:" please call me luh and I'm excited doctor, these are my parents, my brother and baby daddy " He smiles
Him:" oh my...they are so manly " my dad looks uncomfortable and the guys just don't care and me and mah
just wants to laugh at dad.
Him:" Baby daddy come and sit next to mommy here and hold her hand, mommy lay down and lets see this
little human " mbuso looks at my dad first like he's asking for permission and my dad nods then he sits and
takes my hand.
Doctor Pres checks my urine, writes something down and the start to touch my stomach and press down on
the sides not hard just soft and asks me if I feel any pains and I tell him no then takes a stethoscope and
moves it around my stomach and for a moment I get scared because he is very serious and I look at mah.
Him:" can you please lift up the top " I do as he says
Him:" you'll feel some coldness from the gel " he splashes it on my stomach and its cold yoh
Me:" oh it's so cold "
Him:" sorry doll.....fam please look at the screen " he says and takes that sonogram machine mouse as I call it
and moves it around my stomach and I see what looks like a baby's body and I look at mbuso and he's looking
at the screen and has a little smile on his face then he looks at me and mouths thank you and squeezes my
hand.
Doctor:" oh there you are... why are you hiding youself....oh fam look at that little body..." he points to the
screen with his other hand showing us the head and body
Me:" ncoooh my baby is sucking her thumb "
Mah:" that's so cute baby " she has tears on her eyes and I tear up too
Doctor:" lets hear the heartbeat " he moves the machine again searching for the heartbeat and finds it and I
feel this overwhelming love I feel for her or him.
Dad:" that sound right there is life. A life growing inside of you baby. Thank you for sharing this moment
with us " he pats mbuso on his shoulder.
Doctor:" what a lovely family, you guys should adopt me " he says
Me:" thank you doc and you're part of the family from today "
Him:" don't kick me out when I start showing up on sunday for lunch. All seven colours " we laugh, my
doctor is extra
Mah:" you can visit anytime doctor "
Him:" I'll hold you to that. Now tell me mommy and baby daddy, do you want to know the gender so I can
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start to plan the baby shower " huh?
Me:" I don't want to know. I want it to be a surprise, mbuso what do you think "
Him:" whatever you want baby....uh I mean yeah, I want what you want "
Sicelo:" What if we all want to know?, dad, mah you want to know right? "
Mah:" No I dont want to know because as soon as I do I'm going to start buying clothes no ". she's so happy
Me:" dad ? "
Him:" I want to know too but I'm too excited and I know i'll tell you and start thinking of names " mbuso
gives me a do you hear that look and i giggle
Me:" are you okay with my brother knowing ? "
Mbuso:" what if the good doctor here blurts it out one day out of excitement ? "
Doctor:" I'm good at keeping secrets and I swear on my grandmothers grave I won't tell her, scouts honor "
Dad:" saze sazifaka nkos' yam " ( what have we gotten ourselves into) we laugh
Me:" ok you brother you better keep it from me and I swear if i get even an idea from you and the doctor
what we are having I'm going to kill you "
Sicelo:" I swear, scouts honor too " we all laugh. He moves the machine again and he stops and smiles
Mbuso:" so there's nothing wrong with the baby, everything is fine? "
Doctor:" The baby is all fine and healthy and growing. I read her file dr tambo sent me and I see she's doing
better now and we have to continue to keep it that way until the little one arrives. Eat healthy, take your
medicine and no stress and you can have sex mommy with baby daddy because that's healthy but not anything
too rough that will....." oh my God can the ground open up and swallow me in.
Dad:" that's my cue to go. I'll be outside " dad leaves and mah laughs.
DrPres:" oops I forgot daddy is here, sorry guys. let me print these out and you all want copies right? " I nod.
He cleans my stomach and I go and change to my dress and comeback.
DrPres:" here's the prescription medicine you have to take and please anytime you think something is wrong
or you're not feeling well and or you have any questions please don't hesitate to call me. Give me your phone
" I give it to him and saves his contacts.
Me:" Thank you doc for the wonderful experience " He gives us the printout of the baby's sonogram and
whispers something to my brother oh yes the baby's gender and they both smile and look at me and I frown.
Him:" the pleasure is all mine. I'll call you so the three of us can have a lunch sometime " I hug him and we
leave.

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Mbuso:" what just happend in there? "
Sicelo:" bro I'm still confused "
Mah:" we have just gotten ourselves a new member of the family and I love him " we both laugh and I stay
behind with mbuso
Him:" are you happy ? "
Me:" I'm so happy and I feel like I'm ontop of the world " I say touching my stomach.
Him:" the world is yours baby " he too touches my stomach
Me:" are you happy too ? "
Him:" Spend the night with me tomorrow and I'll show you how happy you and my baby make me "
Me:" I can't sneak out mbuso "
Him:" Talk to your aunt baby, she'll make a plan, I miss you Luh "
Me:" okay, I'll try " He kisses my cheek and I go to my parents car and we leave.
Today is the day I'm going to get me some loving and honestly I can't wait to share my body again with mbuso
because I can see that he is trying to be a better person and not the man I first met and even though things
we're not great at first I'm glad we are at this point in our lives. I haven't talked to mah about asking her if she
could make an excuse for me to not be in the house so dad won't be suspicious.
I'm staring at myself in the mirror trying different dresses to wear for tonight and I'm just not feeling them,
they all just look drab and not good at all. I need to go shopping...Yes I'll ask mah to accompany to shop and
we'll use mbuso's money because I haven't touched it yet.
I leave my bedroom and head to hers and I hear her singing and God she has a beautiful and she loves to sing
and I could listen to her everyday. I open her door and she's sorting out her closet.
Me:" mami ? " she turns and gives me her dashing smile and I smile back
Her:" my beautiful babies, you're hungry ? "
Me:" I'm still full mami "
Her:" what's wrong then? " she patts the bed for me to sit down
Me:" nothing, I just thought that maybe you'd like to go shopping with me. I need new clothes and we can
spend mbuso's money "
Her:" I like the sound of that and no offence but honestly your wadrobe depresses me " I take the pillow and
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Me:" Huh, my clothes are fine " I laugh she's right though
Her:" Luh you have to match your bank account and look like it. you need a serious make-over " this is my
chance to ask her
Me:" uh mami I need, can I ask you for a favour "
Her:" well you're past the age of us having your first sex talk, you're already pregnant so we can't talk about
you missing your periods and so out with it? "
Me:" I...well mbuso, he asked me if I can spend the night with him and I don't want dad to know or you but I
can't sneak out because I don't want to disrespect you "
Her:" Luh you know you're old enough to do as you want but I'm pleased to hear and see that you respect us
and you want our approval even though we didn't raise you. As much as I hate to say it, the mazibuko's did
this one thing right with you and that is showing respect always "
Me:" it was uncle victor mah, without him being there for me always, I would have ran away or maybe did
something else worse. I miss him "
Her:" Call him and I don't worry you'll see baby daddy and spend the night with him, God knows one of us
needs to get laid " she sighs
Me:" mah..." we laugh
Her:" what?, I'm still young luh leave me alone "
Me:" eww I don't want to think about you getting laid "
Her:" lets go shopping and spend mbuso's money "
We leave the house and go to town and I thought we'll be going to the mall but mah takes me to some store
and I realise she's taking me to a beatique...wow I've never been to one. We get inside and find this lovely
middle aged woman and she looks beautiful. She introduced herself and mah tells her I need new maternity
clothes and she takes me to the fitting room and I try fitting different types of clothes and I must they are
beautiful, you can tell they are expensive and I feel like a million rands.
After shopping mah takes me to the spa and I get pampered and I come out feeling like a brand new person
and I feel like it's the new me. We have a late lunch and mah books us into a hotel to " spend the night " and
we get a honey moon suit with a bedroom and living room, dining room in the same room. She told dad that
we are having a girls time and wanted to spend some time alone and dad at first didn't like the idea and said
no, we can have it at home because the house is big and we won't even notice that he's there but mah said no.
He finally agreed after I promised him that we'll call him if anything goes wrong.
I have just finished bathing and I'm so excited for what is waiting for me. My aunt helps me get dressed and
she can't stop telling me how beautiful I am. I phoned mbuso and told him where to fetch me and he sounded
excited.
Me:" mah stop or else my head will get big and explode " she laughs
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Her:" I feel like I'm getting you ready for your first date and I'm a proud mami "
Me:" Technically you are. I have never gone out on a date with mbuso, this will be our second date since we
had one yesterday "
Her:" Well enjoy your date and have lots of sex but not to much " we laugh
Me:" mah " the door bell rings, I look at myself one last time and look at mah, shes drinking a glass of red
wine and I could use one right now because I'm nervous and excited. She goes and opens the door making
sure the first thing mbuso sees when she opens the door is me. He is holding to buckee of flowers, lilies for
and roses for mah and a small gift bag, he gets in and stands halfway across from me, looks at me from my
feet to my head and he looks impressed, he smirks then looks at my aunt.
Him:" thank you aunty for making this night possibe, these roses are for you and this bag just to say thank you
" my aunt actualy blushes...wow
Her:" thank you mbuso. Luh I'll take these for you " I nod and she takes both flowers and her gift bag and goes
to the bedroom.
Him:" Wow you look absolutely beautiful, didn't know you can clean up this well " he says coming to me and
kissing both my cheeks.
Me:" thank you and yes I clean up pretty good. You didn't disappoint too because you look amazing " he's
wearing a navy suit and a black shirt and he looks handsome.
Him:" I can't wait to rip that dress off your body but first I have to feed you and my baby lets go " I am
wearing a black silk dress that fits me perfectly not tight but showcases my curves and baby bump
Me:" mah?, we're leaving " she peeks at us from the bedroom
Mah:" enjoy guys and don't make another baby. I love you baby and mbuso please bring back my child in one
peace " mbuso nods
Me:" we won't and I love you too " we leave, get in the car and it drives off.
Me:" where are we going? "

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BUHLE.
Oh God what is happening, there's someone definetley following and I have no idea who it is because I have
crossed so many people. I'm in the mall alone and I was here to do some shopping, when I noticed someone
was in every store I went into and I know it can't be a coincedence. I have been following people around and
I know what to do to not get noticed and this guy is doing a great job.
I go to this beatique and look around for clothes, take a few and go to the changing rooms. I take off the
clothes I was wearing and put them inside my bag and put on the new ones from the store and open the door
but some girl blocks my way.
Her:" Oh I'm sorry I thought there was no one " she giggles
Me:" what can I help you with? "
Her:" can you please help me and zip the dress, i'm struggling with it "
Me:" ok turn around " she does and I zip the dress and it looks good on her.
Her:" thank you very much and I almost forgot something "
Me:" what " she's annoying me now, she turns and looks at me serious and I frown
Her:" this, you bitch! " she blows something like a powder on my face blinding me and I scream choking
from that stuff but she covers my mouth and nose with something that smells sharp and realise she's drugging
me and I lose consciousness.
My body feels heavy like I was hit with a tons of bricks and I can't move my body. I groan and open my eyes
and see that i'm somewhere I don't know, I'm sleeping on this very uncomfortable bed. The room is small,
there are no windows and it's dark and there's also a toilet in there. I know that one of the many people I have
scammed finally tracked me down and I'm scared.
I don't know how they found me because I always change my look so no one can recognise me and find me
but whoever did must have been following me for some time. I think mbuso finally found me and I know that
he now knows the truth and he's going to kill me.
Where are my parents when I need them?, thet disappeared on me and left me alone to fend for myself. They
are now rich from my body, benefiting from it, I'm living this life because I learned from them. At first I was
scared but then my mother would take me with her whenever she had a job to do.
They started coaching me from when I was 16, I sold my virginity for ten thousand and ever since then I was
hooked. I didn't know men paid that much for sex and for different things you would let them do to you and I
have done scary and crazy stuff.
I feel cold water being thrown at me and I scream gasping in shock
Me:" what the fuck is this? "
Voice:" this isn't a hotel, wake the fuck up. You busy day dreaming " says a voice I don't know
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Me:" who the fuck are you and what do you want from me? "
Him:" Bitch who told you to talk?, get up "
Me:" No one tells me what to do asshole "
Him:" get up and take off your damn clothes "
Me:" make me asshole " this mother fucker laughs and he doesn't scare me
Him:" don't make me do it "
Me:" or what you'll beat me up?, give it your best asshole "
Him:" call me asshole one more time and you'll regret it "
Me:" I can see I'm getting under your skin asshole " I laugh and suddenly I feel a punch on my face and it
hurts but it's not that bad and I laugh at him. I don't know who this mother fucker is but he doesn't scare me
not even one bit "
Me:" you punch like a bitch, even I punch harder than you "
Him:" get up and take off your clothes "
Me:" come and take them off asshole, you know you want to " I get up and sit on the bed, somehow that punch
did something to my body.
Him:" I'm giving you one last chance. get up and take off your clothes "
Me:" read my lips asshole, FUCK YOU "
He grabs my braids pulls it tight and I can feel some coming off with my hair and I scream. He drags me off
the bed and I fall down on the floor damn those tiles are cold. I scratch his hand with my nails trying to stop
him but he grabs tighter and more braids come off with my hair but I don't cry, I won't give him that
satisfaction.
He lets go and walks to somewhere in the room, takes something then comes back and throws the water all
over my body then whips me with a cane hard, like he is using all of his strength on me and I scream and cry.
I try to crawl away from him but I feel his right shoe on my back stepping hard, pushing me down on the floor
comntinues to whip my ass, my thighs, my legs then my whole back and my clothes tear up. The cane now is
kissing my skin and scream loud God I feel like I'm going to pass out. He's not talking but continues to whip
me and finding somewhere new where the cane hasn't touched me.
He stops then turns me around, I kick him on his face and he punches me, I feel my jaw snapping. He whips
my whole front and I try to curl up like a baby but he whips my arms making it hard. The only sound you can
hear in the room is the cane kissing my skin and me screaming. This mother fucker can use a whip damn it
hurts like hell.

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Me:" I'm sorry for whatever I did to you please stop "
Him:" you will be sorry by the time I'm done with you "
Me:" I've had enough please " this mother fucker has no mercy and because he is still whipping me and my
whole boy is feels hot and it hurts and I'm bleeding. I lay still and take every strike he lashes on my body and
I keep saying I'm sorry. He finally stops and he doesn't sound like he's out of breath from what he was doing.
He walks somewhere then the room gets bright with light. My one eye is swollen and my face feels numb. I
move my head so I can see the person who's doing this to me. He turns and looks at me and I get the shock of
my life. Oh my GOD NO! This is worse than I thought
Him:" Cat got your tongue? " He says laughing at me and I look at him the best I can and see that he is bloody,
his suit is covered in my blood and the cane he's holding is also dripping of my blood. He looks mad as hell
and I know I'll be lucky if I get out of here alive. He is here for revenge.
Me:" w....who are you? "
Him:" Who do you think I am? "
Me:" Lungi doesn't have a brother "
Him:" but she does nobuhle " he says my name in a funny way it irritates me, it's like he's making fun of my
name. My parents named me nobuhle because I am beautiful but this man here doesn't even get strucked by
my beauty. Mam love me and they always tell me I am beautful so why isn't he affected?.
Me:" My father said the whole family is dead. You are dead! "
Him:" where are your parents? "
Me:" I don't know, even if I did I wouldn't tell you "
Him:" I can make you "
Me:" give it your best shot asshole "
Him:" you never learn do you? "
Me:" I've had worse " he smirks
Him:" Celeste? " he calls out some women's name and a woman enters and it's the same bitch that drugged
me. she winks at me
Her:" the bitch is awake " she laughs
Him:" cutt off all her hair then take her to sleep in the torture room. I want her to sleep next to the things that
will be used on her body and I want her wide awake. She's a junkie and tomorrow she'll do anything to get a
fix "

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Celeste:" yes boss " she looks at me bites her lips, fuck she's a lesbian. I can seduce her and maybe fuck her
so she can get me out of this place...yes that's what I'll do.
This man has the same features lungi has and there's no doubt that he's her brother and he's alive and could
that also mean that their father is alive. Is that why mom and dad disappeared because they know that
Ngcobo's are alive. Am I the only who going to pay and maybe pay for their sins...no it can't be, I won't take
the fall.
He leaves us then another man enters holding scissors, gives them to celeste, presses my body down then
celeste cuts off my braids with my hair. I don't care I will grow it back and she also takes off my torn clothes
off me. Even though my body is red with blood and has lashes all over but I know I still look good, even
celeste is lookingb at me with lust in her eyes.
Celeste:" I'm going to call a doctor tomorrow who's going to come and take off all that plastic you have on
your body...damn you gonna look like a mess. Take her to the dungen " she laughs and I hate her.
This guy grabs me then puts me over his shoulder then leaves the room with celeste leading the way. They
walk for sometime passing many doors then she opens some door with a key and we get it and they guy
throws me down rough and I groan in pain.
Celeste:" I'm scared for what's goiung to happen to you tomorrow "
Me:" what if I have something you want, that could get me out of here? "
Celeste:" something like what? "
Me:" me. Both of you can fuck me anyway you want then when you're done you let me go " she looks at the
guy and they both smile
Celeste:" just like that?, anything we want? "
Me:" yes. You can fuck me anywhere and do anything in and on my body "
Celeste:" I would fuck every chick I hate than to fuck that rotten cunt of yours. I would rather get straight than
to fuck you stupid bitch. The boss did say you were going to offer your body because that's the only thing
you're good at. Dumb bitch " she says that then they leave locking the door behind them.
I look around that dungen and it's full of different tools, some I have seen and some I have never. They scare
me to death and for the first time in my life I am scared because I never saw this coming. That Lungi's family
woill find me because I knew mbuso will give up on finding me once he gets his full with lungi. I wonder
where lungi is and how far they are with mbuso because the last time I talked to my parents they said she is
still living with mbuso.
I thought things will work out with mbuso but I saw that he didn't love me and it made me mad. We could
have been a great couple because I know the things he likes in bed. He's a freak and most of the time
wouldfuck me with his friends. He used to share me and I didn't mind because it was my kind of thing too. He
fucked me only 3 times when it was just the two of us and I would want more of that most of the time but he
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I don't think Lungi can satisfy him the way he wants and needs because she's boring. She's the type that will
want a man to take lead in the bed and not lead. Mbuso wants a woman like me, who knows how to pleasure
a man or women.... I remember the times he would have me and another woman at the same time but I most
loved when he was sharing me with someone else I miss his dick.
Tomorrow I'm going to tell lungi's brother that it was all mbuso's idea because he wanted to fuck the both of
us and be in a relationship with sisters. He will believe me I know.
My body hurts like hell, it hurts everywhere. I didn't have a good night because I was sleeping on the floor,
they failed to even give me a sleeping sponge to sleep on because they want to treat me like an animal. They
forget I'm still human like all of them and they should treat me as such because I did lungi a favor by lying
because she could have been sold to some monster like my dad had planned.
I'm shaking, I need a fix, I'm thirsty I want something to drink, I'm hungry too and I need to use the toilet too. I
get up and go bang on the door. I keep banging the door until my hand hurts. I need a bath, I need to look good
like how I usaully do. If only this asshole will come and I'll offer him my pussy because men are weak. As
soon as they see a good looking body and you open your legs that's the only thing they'll think of and see. Men
let their dicks control them so I'm going to do everything in my power to get out of her. My pussy has worked
and made me so much money, it hasn't failed me and it's not going to start now.
Me:" open this damn door now!, I need to use the toilet and hungry! ". I stop and listen if someone is there or
even coming
Me:" Help!.......somebody help me! " I listen nothing
Me:" someone wants to kill me, help me please " I bang the doot again but no answer
Me:" where is that asshole?, open this damn door! " I bang and bang and bang but no one answers. I scream
frustrated.
Someone is unlocking the door and I know who it is, it's that lesbian bitch. I bet if that guy was alone and I
offered him my pussy he would have taken it and I would have been home by now and at my house and I don't
even know where I'm at. I stand up and watch who's going to open the door and it's that celeste bitch but he's
not alone. She's with Mbuso, lungi's brother and other 3 guys that have some features lungi's brother
has....who are those guys ?.
Wow I have seen men... handsome men, good looking drop dead gorgeous men but they all have nothing
against all these men here standing before me. There's this dark aura thing surrounding them and it gives me
cold chills that makes my skin crawl. Was I full of myself yesterday that I failed to notice how this man looks
and this dark thing he has when he looks at me. I refuse to let them intimidate me, I'm the woman here and I
hold all the power...yes my pussy...the power of pussy!. I'm naked and I know they can still see that I'm gifted
because I paid so much money to look this good.
Mbuso walks towards me and I can't read his face. He has changed, he looks more rough, more manly, more
handsome God why did I steal from him. I could have been waking up on his arms everyday. I thought i was
going to lie to that asshole about mbuso and but now I see that I can't.
Mbuso:" we meet again nobuhle " his hands are on his pockets
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Me:" Thank God you're here, I knew you would come and rescue me from this man mbuso " I rush to him so
he can hug me but he roughly pushes me and I fall down ouch.
Mbuso:" don't you dare fucken touch me! "
Me:" but mbuso...."
Mbuso:" Where are your parents? "
Me:" I don't know!, just like I told that Idiot over there! " I shout at him
Him:" you know vey well where they are, so tell me where the fuck are your parents!"
Me:" fuck you mbuso. I told you I don't know! "
Him:" you know, lungi once said fuck you mbuso and I slapped her, she fell and bled. Now imagine what I'm
going to do to you, what we're all going to do to you "
Me:' I don't have to imagine because you have done it to me before. You fucked me with other men so I know
" I shake my ass and they all laugh
Him:" worst mistake of my life but I got out one of the best things to ever happen in my life out of meeting
you and that is Lungi "
Me:" she's soon going to bore you, she can't give you what you need, what you crave " His face changes
Him:" ENOUGH!. Don't you ever talk about her like that. She's more woman than you could ever be. She's
not a prostitute and not a junkie. Celeste take her to the chair "
Me:" no what chair?, where are you taking me? "
Celeste tries to take my hand but I slap it away and she smiles like she was expecting it because she throws a
huge punch on my face and I stagger back. This bitch wants a fight and I'll give it to her, I don't care how hurt
my body feels. I'm not going down without a fight.
Me:" you want to fight me bitch come on then "
Celeste:" oooh I'mma smack that fake good looking ass " then men laugh amused.
She laughs, throws another punch on my face and I see stars ok I wasn't ready. She circles me like I'm her
prey then kickes me and I fall and land on my stomach then she sits on my back and hits my ass hard with her
open palm, smacking me where there are bruises and it stings hard. I flinch and and try to get up but someone
kicks me on my face and I blackout.
I feel cold things being placed around my body and I open my eyes and see that guy from yesterday who took
me to this room placing wires on my body. I'm sitting on a chair, my feet are inside a steel basin that has
water inside and my hands are over my head cuffed on the steel chair im sitting on. No!, they are going to
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Me:" NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!... please don't "
Mbuso:" Shut up. Sicelo turn the machine on "
Lungi's brother turns the machine on and I feel my whole body get stiff from the electric shock that runs all
through my veins and body. I scream because the kind of pain I'm feeling compares to nothing I have ever
felt, I scream and scream and scream and they don't stop.
Me:" ok , ok ok. stop I have had enough ".
Mbuso:" who helped you get access to lungi's accounts and clone all her devices? "
Me:" I don't know, dad got someone to do everything. I just agreed " i'm gasping for air to breathe
Sicelo:" where are your parents? "
Me:" I don't know, I swear I don't know "
Mbuso:" do you think this is a joke? "
Me:" I fucken told you I don't know, get me off this thing now "
Sicelo:" EY VOETSEK WENA SFEBE " ( FUCK YOU BITCH ) he turns the machine on again and now it
feels way worse than thet first turned it on and I scream so loud because I'm in so much and I end up peeing
on myself releasing every drop I've been holding.
Mbuso:" I'm going to ask you one last fucken time. Where are your parents? "
Me:" I...I don't know " mbuso takes out his gun, cocks it and then points it on my head
Him:" I'm going to count to 3 and if you don't tell me where they are I'm going to blow your brains off "
Sicelo:" bitch you better talk "
Me:" I don't know "
Mbuso:" KHULUMA SFEBE! " ( BITCH TALK! )
Me:" I don't know " mbuso looks at me like he's going to lose it then he shoots me on my thigh and I scream
Me:" you fucken shot me ! "
Mbuso:" and I'll shoot you again if you don't tell me where they are "
Me:" I don't know I swear "
Mbuso:" it's time you met your ancerstors bitch " he points it again at me
Me:" nooooooooo please " he shoots me again on my shoulder and I scream

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Me:" God I'm dying, I'm dying.....aaahhhh " I cry
Mbuso:" you are going to die if you dont tell me where are your fucken parents! " he is mad, he is livid
Sicelo:" Junior stop!, you're going to kill her "
Mbuso:" and you don't want her dead?, were you not the same person who was breathing down my neck
wanting her dead? "
Sicelo:" I want her dead too but death right now will be too easy for her. She needs to suffer "
Sbusiso:" we can't kill her, she first needs to tell us where that moron sipho and his wife are at then we kill
her infront of them "
Philane:" Celeste lets uncuff her and take her off that chair "
Mbuso:" no leave her there!. Tell me first where they are or no one in this room is going to save you. No one!
"
Me:" I don't know " he points it on my forehead and I hear the guys scream then he pulls the trigger and I hear
a gun shot and I pee on myself again because I think I'm dead but then I open my eyes and see I'm still
alive.....oh God I'm not dead, I swear I saw my whole life flash before my eyes.
Mbuso:" where are they? " who the fuck is mbuso?
Me:" the last time I talked to them they said they are visiting thami for a few weeks because they are on
leave. I tried calling them but their phones are on voicemail. I swear " I'm in pain and I'm struggling to
breath....I'm dying and nobody cares
Mbuso:" I'm not going to kill you because that's easy and you still need to work for me. Remember the
contact you signed?....yes it's legit and binding ".
Me:" I'll do anything please don't kill me "
Mlungisi:" guys the doctor is here should I tell him to come in? "
Sicelo:" Celeste go keep him company, we can't trust this bitch...she'll talk to someone and maybe run away "
Mbuso:" don't worry about that I have a plan to make sure she doesn't. Buhle do you remember that time you
were 18 and something happend? "
What?, noooooo, he can't know. Nobody knows even my parents don't know. I made sure I kept it to
myself.....how did mbuso find out? "
Me:" please mbuso I'm sorry about everything I have done to you and lungi. I'm sorry lungi's family, I'm sorry
"
Mbuso:" I'm going to sell you bitch, like how you and your parents planned to sell lungi. Your buyer is
already here and waiting for you "
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What no!, this is the last thing I want to happen to me...Mbuso can't sell me.
Me:" mbuso please you can't traffic me please! "
Mbuso:" I'm doing the same thing you and your parents do to other people. I'm giving a taste of your own
medicine. Mlungisi, get the doctor here. You won't die bitch, not on my watch "
Sicelo:" I can't wait to see how you're going to look after all those implants you have on your body come
out...." he laughs
Sbusiso:" ugly ass looking bitch "
Sicelo:" all things get trafficked , even the plastic you have inside your body is trafficked. You're going to
enjoy being used because you like using people. You like using your body and smart mouth to get what you
want but now is the end of the road for you ".
Why can't I just die. Why didn't mbuso just kill me because there is no way I'm going to survive being sold
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MBUSO.
I want to kill this bitch so bad but I can't because she has to pay for everything they have ever done to lungi. I
don't believe that her parents are with Thami, after everything I'm doing for that boy he better be not messing
with me because I won't hesitate to kill him if he's protecting them and maybe them being there with him
might explain why he's not picking up lungi's calls. He's not picking up even my calls considering I'm the one
who's paying for his fees since his parents stopped paying them without telling him or giving him a reason
why.
He called me crying, telling me they are refusing to release his results because his parents have not paid for
the whole semester and he didn't know that they haven't. I helped because I knew he was one person who
loved lungi and always protected her and so I hope he has not betrayed luh by helping his parents because luh
told him everything and he asked for sometime to figure things out and I hope he wasn't lying when he said
that. I hope he didn't confront them because I think they will get anyone out of their way who tried to cross
them or even confront them.
I take my phone and call him again but this time it says the number doesn't exist. Thami I hope you're not in
trouble or you have joined your parents in scamming people because that will kill lungi and she will blame
herself for not trying to protect him and then get stressed and put her life and the baby'd life in danger and I
can't have that. I can't have her knowing that we have found buhle because she will want to come to get
answers and whether she gets them or not, they are still going to upset her and I don't want that for her. I'll
protect her from everyone and everything if I must.
I watch luh's cousins take buhle to the other room to get the bullets taken out and those silicones she has on
her body. I wonder how is she going to use her body since the doctor is going to take out all that plastic and
he's also going to insert a chip in her so we can always keep an eye on her and know where she'll always be.
for someone whon used her looks to get what she wants, this is going to be a huge blow to her beauty and that
damn ego.
Me:" God I hate that bitch, I wish I can just kill her and get this over and done with "
Sicelo:" I want to kill all of them "
Me:" I need a drink "
Sicelo:" me too, we all do "
Me:" but I need to wash off this blood first, can I use your bathroom "
Sicelo:" yeah, let me show you to the guest bedroom " he shows me where the bedroom is then leaves. I take
my phone and call frank to bring me my extra clothes that are in the car. I go to the shower and shower
quickly and change to my clothes that frank left in the bed. I go to the living room and find the brothers
drinking. I make myself a glass too.
Me:" where's celeste ? "
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Me:" found thami yet? "
Sicelo:" mluh where is thami ? "
Mlungisi:" He seems to have just disappeard too. His phone is not working and he hasn't been attending
classes for 2 months now "
Me:" I think they took thami by force, he can't just disappear "
Sicelo:" I think so too "
Sbusiso:" but why would they do that because he's their child ? "
Me:" they might use him for something "
Philane:" like what? "
Me:" to hurt lungi because they know she loves him "
Sicelo:" I just want the woman who stabbed my mother repeatedly, I want her husband to watch me while I
peel her skin while she's alive and hear her scream, like how my dad watched his wife being killed infront of
him "
Sbusiso:" they can't die, I think we should make his wife our worker. She sells her body and make us money,
we feed her with drugs and make her a junkie".
Me:" we'll do that " my phone rings and I look at it and smile because it's my beautiful pregnant fiancee.
Me:" baby " she giggles, I love the sound of her laughter
Her:" Phakathwayo " I grin
Me:" My love " she laughs
Her:" boo, how are you ? " yep I'm her boo
Me:" I miss you baby, what are you doing? "
Her:" I'm in bed, still sleepy " I look at the time and I'ts 11:30 am
Me:" are you feeling okay ? " the guys look at me
Her:" No, I'm not feeling good "
Me:" what's wrong?, is the baby okay? " I stand up and scelo stands next me puts his big head next to he
phone and listens and I givce him what the fuck look
Her:" the baby is okay mbuso okay, I'm the one who's not feeling good! " huh...I'm confused and why is she
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Me:" ok baby then tell me what's wrong "
Her:" I'M HORNY OK! "
Sicelo:" oh fuck no, I did not want to hear this "
Me:" serves you right for listening to my conversation " I laugh at him
Luh:" oh my God mbuso you have me on loud speaker and my brother heard! " she screams
Me:" baby I didn't put you on loud speaker..... "
Her:" That's my brother's voice I know it, wait you're in Durban with my brother ? " I mouth fuck you to her
brother then leave and go to the guest bedroom
Me:" uh yes, but baby.... " she won't let me finish
Her:" you're there to see her aren't you? "
Me:" see who? " how did she know
Her:" you know very well who, Buhle!. My brother told you she's at his house and you both kept it from me "
Me:" baby don't say it like that, yes I'm here and we kept it from you because we didn't want you to stress
thinking about her "
Her:" when were you going to tell me then, after she's dead?. Are you going to kill her too " Fuck! I knew I
shouldn't have told her that I killed someone for her.
Me:" I don't like what you're trying to imply and I'm not going to have this conversation with you over the
phone "
Her:" but...."
Me:" are you still horny or not? "
Her:" don't change the conversation "
Me:" the reason you called me was to tell me that you're horny right? "
Her:" yes I was "
Me:" and now you're not "
Her:" well...I still am "
Me:" I could be fucking that accusation right out of you, on your hands and knees. Go lock your door and turn
the t.v volume on " I lock mine too
Her:" I've done it " she sighs
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Me:" what are you wearing? "
Her:" I'm wearing nothing " I can hear her smiling
Me:" Lay on your back, bring your knees up and open your legs " her breathing is changing
Her:" ok, "
Me:" put the phone on loud speaker and put it next to your head so I can hear you breathe " she shuffles
around
Her:" you're on loud speaker "
Me:" ok baby, I want you to listen to me and do as I say ok "
Her:" ok....ok " she takes a deep breath in and out
Me:" Close your eyes, imagine I'm next to you and looking at your beautiful body. Take your hands and put
them on those lovely soft boobs and play with them, pinch those nipples with your index finger and
thumb....yes baby just like that, take your right thumb and put it in your mouth and suck on it.....yes baby, now
take it out and flick your nipple like your switching the light on and off... oohhh yes, now squeeze those
nipples a little hard but not too much....you like that baby ? " fuck her sweet moans are making my dick hard,
I go to the bathroom and take off pants and my dick springs free leaking of precum fuck.
Her:" yeees I like it "
Me:" take your right hand and put it in between your pussy lips and open them with your middle finger and
index finger....yes baby just like that....your dripping, all that wetness fuuuckk! I can feel how wet you are,
your pussy dripping all that sweet nectar juice and I just want to bury my whole face and suck all those sweet
juices and feel them on tongue and go down my throat " she's moaning and panting I grab my dick hard and
move it up and down
Me:" play with that clit baby, rub it soft with your middle finger yes......just like that, pinch those nipples
with your left hand...yes they are hard, they want my warm mouth to suckle, just like that clit. It wants my
warm breath, my warm mouth to nibble and suckle... yes. My tongue to flick it up and down, take those
fingers and slide them to your wet pussy that wants my dick....yes put them inside and grip them tight using
your pussy muscles and move them in and out....yes baby, now take your thumb and play with your clit...yes
just like that "
Her:" OOOHHHH yes!, ooohhh God! " I concetrate on her breathing and the sounds she's making and picture
her doing everything I'm telling her to do then grab my dick more tight and continue to give myself a handjob.
Me:" Yes baby just like that.....fuck!, take your other hand and put it ontop of your right hand and fuck
yourself....yes baby open those legs wide, picture me moving in and out ot that wet pussy, fuck yes move your
left hand to your clit and rub it while your other hand is going in and out of that juicy pussy....yes baby your
almost there, rub that clit fast and pump those fingers hard in and out.....yes baby just like that....you're alost
there, rub that clit....yes baby......FUUUCCCKKK COME FOR ME! " She comes screaming my name and
moaning and I squeeze my dick and pump it three times then come hard all over my hand..., Fuck!.

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Me:" baby? "
Her:"................"
Me:" baby are you okay?.........."
Her:".........." I hear her snoring soflty and I laugh soflty not waking her up. I can't believe she fell asleep. I
take a quick shower then go join the guys. I find them eating and a young lady comes and serves us.
Me:" that's your housekeeper? "
Sicelo:" shut up fool, were you jacking off? " they laugh and I laugh too
Me:" nah I was your sister scream my name " they stop laughing then throw knifes at me
Me:" Ya'll started it and if those knifes stab me and kill me your sister will hate you "
Sicelo:" What happend to buhle when she was 18 ? "
Me:" She ran away then came back a year later "
Sicelo:" why did she run and where was she ? "
Me:" she fell pregnant and went to live with her friend. Her parents don't know because they thought she was
working because she used to send money every month. I guess it's the money she used to save since she
started 'working' "
Sicelo:" why didnt she tell them she was pregnant ? "
Me:" I don't know but my guess is that maybe she was scared that they'll make her go and have anabortion. So
maybe she thinks it's better to run away, have the baby, and ask her friend to raise it as hers ".
Sicelo:" who is the baby's father? "
Me:" I don't know who the father of the child is but I bet it's daddy dearest "
Philane:" what?, you think he touched her?, his own daughter ? "
Me:" he's not her father and I think he found out then started touching her, she gets scared and doesn't tell
mommy and decides to run away "
Mlungisi:" no wonder she's messed up "
Me:" her secret was safe until her friend started blackmailing her then she goes to her and finds out that her
friend has hidden her child because she refused to pay the money "
Sbusiso:" so her friend took her kid somewhere where buhle didn't know ? "
Me:" yes. she confronts her, they fight and she kills her and pays someone to get rid of the body "

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Sicelo:" how did you find out ? "
Me:" well I asked someone and they shared the information of when buhle disappeare for a year. The rest I
had to pay to get people to talk "
Sicelo:" that family is messed up. I'm glad my sister didn't get twisted like them "
Me:" they shielded her in someways and It's Victor's doing "
Sicelo:" he did the best he could trying to make up and I'll always be grateful for that "
Me:" me and you brother "
Sicelo:" where's the child? "
Me:" still looking " I know where the child is, for now I'm keeping it to myself.
LUNGI.
I blink then close my eyes because the sun is shinning bright on my face, I smile then roll over and look at the
love of my life and think of all the wicked things he did to my body last night. I thought I'll be tired but I'm
not, I'm just hungry. I kiss him then look at him and he doesn't stir. I get out of bed, go the bathroom and when
I'm done I wear a robe and go downstairs and find fresh breakfast. I look around the house and there's no one,
maybe frank brought it.
I take the eggs and cover them with a plate because I can't stand that smell then sit down start to eat. I was
scared when I first found out that I was expecting because I thought I was going to get sick with morning
sickness like sims but I haven't and I guess I'm one of the lucky one's who don't get morning sickeness. I
thought I'll hate mbuso, cry all the time but I'm still me. I guess my baby is going to be sweet like me. I have
to ask dad kind of baby was I.
I smile and get sad at the same time. I have no baby pictures of me and my mom together. I know she was
going to be the best grandmother ever but I have my aunt and I'm blessed to have her in my life. When I was
growing I always thought that me and buhle we were going to experience preganancy together and she'll tell
me that she's going to be the best aunt....but then life happend. I feel a kiss on my hair and I smile
Me:" morning handsome "
Him:" morning baby and my other baby "
Me:" how did you sleep "
Him:" great baby but I was hoping to get a morning glory "
Me:" I was hungry "
Him:" I can see, how do you feel this morning "
Me:" I'm great "
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Him:" You like the house? "
Me:" It looks beautiful and I like that It's surrounded by trees "
Him:" I brought it for you " he says biting an apple, I almost choke.
Me:" say what now? "
Him:" The house is yours baby? "
Me:" why did buy me a house? "
Him:" because I want to and I can "
Me:" but I like being at my parents house "
Him:" I know. look I brought this house because I want you to have your own space when you need sometime
alone and when we come to visit your family here. I don't want to sleep in the same house your father is
sleeping in " I giggle
Me:" hey now he's my dad and what's wrong with sleeping in his house? "
Him:" baby I wont be comfortable, I'll be sleeping with one eye open and I won't be able to make you scream
my name and you know yourself baby you're a screamer and now imagine, I fuck you at night then in the
morning I'll have to look your dad in the eye knowing I fucked his daughter under his roof while he was
there....no baby I don't want to die " I laugh
Me:" ok fine I hear you "
Him:" so you're not mad ? "
Me:" no boo, you have a valid reasons but he's not gonna like it "
Him:" you don't have to tell him now...just after my family has came and spoke with your family "
Me:" But you didn't propose "
Him:" baby I have to go and ask your dad for your hand in marriage and I'm terrified "
Me:" don't worry, he won't kill you "
Hi:" are you done eating? "
Me:" yes, I have to go before dad show's up at the hotel "
Him:" frank brought you changing clothes he got from your aunt "
Me:" thank you boo " I kiss him and go the bedroom and he follows me and I take off the robe
Him:" baby? "
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Me:" no mbuso I have to go " he comes and start kissing my neck touching my boobs
Him:" I'll be quick baby I promise "
Me:" you be quick?, please " well...........Three rounds later I'm tired. Mbuso drops me off at the hotel and my
aunt is already waiting for me and she looks like she had a good time alone with that wine.
Me:" good day mami "
Her:" hey baby lets go home, I have a serious hangover and I need some meat "
Me:" why don't we have brunch here then we'll go home later "
Her:" You want your dad to come and pick us up like we're kids?, no thank you " We drive back home and I
tell her all about what happend and she's very excicted for me and I'm so happy.
FEW WEEKS LATER.
Mah:" Luh... baby wake up we're here "
Me:" already ? "
Mah:" yes we're here "
Me:" do they know we're coming? "
Her:" no baby they don't know "
Me:" what if mbuso is not here mah? "
Her:" did you tell him we we're coming ? "
Me:" I didn't "
Her:" then they will call him and we'll wait because he has to be here "
We are outside mbuso's home in Pietermaritzburg. I don't see the reason why we had to come here but they
said it's tradition and a must so I'm here with mah and my other two aunts who are my uncles wives. Our
driver opens the doors we get out and I follow my aunts who are leading the way. They covered me with this
huge blanket that is covering my body and face and i'm sweating like crazy. My other aunt is holding my hand
leading me.
We stop and they press the gate buzzer I think, then I hear someone talking on the other side of the buzzer
Person:" Yes? "
Mah:" can you please let us in?, we are here about one of your sons "
Person:" come in "

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Mah:" who is that rude person luh? " she's annoyed
Me:" I don't know mah "
They let us in and we walk for a few minutes then I hear mbuso's aunt's voice.
AuntLwethu:" follow me " she says rudely yoh!. We follow her and we get inside the house and continue to
follow her.
Auntlwethu:" you can sit down " they do and I look around inside my blanket to see where my chair is but
there's none.
Mah:" my daughter needs to sit down too, where's her chair? "
Auntlwethu:" she'll sit down there on the floor? " huh?
Mah:" what? "
Auntlwethu:" sit down on the floor girlie " my God I struggle to sit my heavy ass on floor then my aunt helps
me sit down and it's very uncomfortable.
Mah:" Are you crazy?, you can't sit her down on that cold tile floor!" mah can't be fighting with mbuso's aunt
because she's soon going to be my in-law and I don't want her to treat me bad.
Auntlwethu:" this is not her mother's house, it's my brothers house "
Mah:" where are the other members of this family ? "
Auntlwethu:" they'll be here at any moment "
Mah:" please tell them to hurry we don't have all day "
Auntlwethu:" You're welcome to leave right now and go back to whatever whole you crawled out of "
I wish mah would just keep quiet and not entertain mbuso's aunt because she seems to be in a bad mood
today. she's nothing like how I first met her. I hear footsteps of people coming and I get nervous.
Voice:" Oh we have guests how wonderful, good afternoon " It's mbuso's dad and they sit down. I wonder
where is mbuso "
Mah:" good afternoon Gumede family "
MaGumede:" this is a beautiful surprise. Aunty you didn't offer them something to drink? " mbuso's mom ask
her
Auntlwethu:" they said they are fine " wow
Mah:" She threatened to poison us, so no thank you. We don't want anything offered by her and we're are not
here for that " I almost giggle
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MaGumede:" How can we help you then? "
Mah:" We are the Ngcobo's and we come from Ladysmith. These are my brothers wives and this is my
brothers daughter that we have brought here. Inja yenu seyidle amaqanda wethu " ( your dog has eaten our
eggs ) wow mah
Auntlwethu:" don't call my brother's kids dogs!. Lonondindwa ingabe uyazi ngempela ukuthi lengane
ayithwele eyalana ekhaya? " ( is this bitch sure that the baby she's carrying belongs to this family? ). I'm
speechless
Gumede:" Lwethu! "
Mah:" Don't you dare call my daughter a bitch. You will pay dearly for calling her such names "
MaGumede:" please forgive my sister inlaw. She has no filter " the tiles are cold, I'm very uncomfortable
and my back is starting to have cramps and this blanket God I just want to get it off me and throw it away
Gumede:" we have three boys in this family. Did she say who is it that has gotten her pregnant? "
Mah:" Mbuso Gumede, your first born son is the one that has forced his way in my brothers kraal "
MaGumede:" how far is she? "
Mah:" She's five months pregant "
Auntlwethu:" YOOOOH!, and she waited all this time why?, did she take this pregnancy and point it to
another family because she wasn't sure right? " she claps her hands , yoh this woman.
Mah:" you should ask your son those questions if you don't know " my cramps are starting to get a little intese
but nothing I can't handle. I take a deep breath out
Gumede:" where is mbuso mamakhe? "
MaGumede:" let me call him babakhe "mbuso's mom stands up and leaves.
Auntlwethu:" uncover yourself girlie. I want to see the girl who claims mbuso has gotten her pregnant " my
aunt takes the blanket off and I'm so bloody sweaty
Mah:" baby are you okay? "
Auntlwethu:" Lungi?, aren't you and mbuso married and since when are you a Ngcobo? " she asks shocked
then nervously giggles
Me:" I'm okay mah " I wipe my forehead. Mbuso's mom comes back with mbuso's brothers and I don't see
mbuso
Mah:" where is mbuso? "
MaGumede:" he's coming....oh there he is "
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Auntlwethu:" mbuso....."
Mbuso:" baby?,......Mama how can you sit her down on the floor like this? " he asks then gets me up and sits
me on the couch, damn my back I breathe out again
MaGumede:" I thought she was sitting on a mat mbuso "
Me:" I'm fine mbuso "
Mah:" you're not fine baby you're sweating and your face is getting red "
Me:" I'm just feeling hot mah that's all. Can we finish then go? "
MaGumede:" bonga go get lungi a glass of cold water "
Mbuso:" dad we all know I'm there one who got lungi here pregnant and I told you guys. Lungi why didn't you
tell me you were coming "
Gumede:" they had to follow tradition mbuso so our ancestors will recognise the baby, accept it and protect
it because it is one of our own " the cramps are strong now and I'm struggling to hide the pain.
MaGumede:" Lungi?, is mbuso the father of that child your carrying? "
Me:" He is ma " I look at mbuso and he smiles. Siyabonga gives me bottled water and I drink it.
MaGumede:" mbuso do you accept that you're the one responsible for this pregnancy, that the baby she's
carrying is ours? "
Mbuso:" she's carrying the next generation of the gumede's. My baby " he kisses my forehead then looks at me
worringly
Gumede:" we accept that we are responsible and have to pay for the damage our son has done. Our family
will be in contact with your family ".
Mah:" thank you mr gumede but we have to leave now my daughter is not feeling well "
Me:" take me to the hospital.....I feel cramps on my back and around my stomach " I hold my stomach and
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Mah, mbuso's mom, my aunts and mbuso's aunt ask me a bunch of questions at the same time and I don't know
which one to answer first. Mbuso can see that I'm getting frustrated because he picks me up quickly, carries
me out the living and walks somewhere then I hear the car engine running.
Mbuso:" watch your head baby " he says then put me down on the backseat and I groan. Mbuso's mom and
mah get in the backseat with me and mah holds my hand. The car reverses and off it goes.
Mah:" Can you feel the baby moving? "
Me:" I've never felt the baby moving, is that why I'm having cramps? "
MaGumede:" no lungi some babies start to play around their mom's stomach when they are six months and
some from four months, so please don't stress " mah wipes my forehead and I can feel she's tense. The pain
keeps getting worse and I groan
Me:" please God I can't lose my baby....I can't lose my baby " tears fall and mbuso's mother starts praying
and we keep quiet and say Amen when she's done.
Mah:" you won't lose your baby luh " she wipes my tears
Me:" where is mbuso mah? "
Mah:" he's driving luh "
Mbuso:" I'm here baby "
Me" I'm sorry.....I'm so sorry, I tried not to stress and worry and now I'm having cramps and I don't know
why.....I didn't do anything wrong I swear " my body is so hot and feels like it's on fire
Mbuso:" Luh listen to me. None of this is your fault baby, you are a strong woman and you have been doing
absolutely great. I want you to be the strong woman I know you are because our baby needs us right now.
Think of all the positive memories you have and just focus on that. Your mom is right here next to you baby,
all the people who love you. Nothing is going to happen to our baby, she's probably just playing and wants us
to notice her. Everything is going to be fine, you hear me baby? "
Me:" I hear you boo " I sniff
MaGumede:" are we there yet? " the car stops then mbuso shouts, there's commotion outside, mah and his
mom get out of the car then I shift and move close to the door then mbuso lifts me and puts me on the
wheelchair and the nurses wheel me in me and take me to the room, undress me then I wear the hospital
gown, I lye down then they put a drip in me then takes my blood pressure. The other nurse asks them a bunch
of questions and writes down.
Doctor:" Miss Ngcobo I'm Doctor Tim. I see that your five months pregnant and you're in pain, tell me where
it hurts " The doctor checks my pulse, my eyes, asks me to open my mouth and say 'a' and I do then he injects
something on my arm.
Doctor:" The injection I have just given you is to help your body temperature to be at it's normal and you'll
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start to cool down and feel better ".
Me:" I'm feeling pain on my back, my waist and under my ribs and my stomach hurts " he takes his
stethoscope and moves it on my stomach then splashes a gel on my stomach takes the ultra sound machine and
moves it around
Doctor:" Lets see what we have right here, here's the heartbeat wow very strong, oh there you are little one
sucking your thumb and hmmmm..." I hear my baby's heartbeat and I feel a huge weight being lifted off my
shoulders
Gumede:" what was wrong doctor?, why was she in pain ? "
Doctor:" this litlle......"
Mbuso:" doc don't tell us the baby's gender, we want to be surprised "
Doctor:" and I almost ruined the surprise. The reason you were in pain is because your baby is growing and
as the baby grows, your uretas is pushing under your ribs making space for the baby to grow well so that's
why you were in pain and your temperature was going to rise because of the pain you were feeling ".
Mbuso:" and her back pain? "
Doctor:" Your high blood pressure is high and it is making your baby to be in distress. You are going to have
an early labour and have a premature baby if you continue to have stress. Avoid stressful situations and
people who stress you. I'm going to have to put you on bed rest at home and your doctor will monitor you and
see how you're doing. If your high blood pressure doesn't come down then he'll have no choice but to
hospitalize you and monitor you there "
Me:" I hear you doctor " I don't want to be bedridden in the hospital
Doctor:" a word of advise miss ngcobo. You seem to be holding on to something and it is stressing you, you
need to forgive where you must and let things go and focus only on your pregnancy and enjoy it and not let
anyone ruin this moment for you because you are going to be bringing in life. Eat healthy and do small
execrises nothing heavy and strainious and please family don't stress these people"
Mbuso:" thank you doctor "
Doctor:" I'm keeping her for the night. You'll take her home tomorrow "
Them:" thank you doctor " mah and magumede say
Doctor:" I'm going to let doctor preston know that his patient is here. Please excuse me and I'm giving you
just ten minutes then you need to leave "
The doctor leaves us and I look at mbuso and he looks so down and stressed. He's probably blaming himself
and thinks maybe I haven't really forgave him and I did.
Me:" mbuso I'm worried about thami because it's not like him to just disappear and you wont tell me what
have you done with buhle because I know, that time you were at my brother's house she was there too. Both
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of you are keeping secrets and I thought I want to see her but I know now seeing her is going to upset me and
I don't want to have this baby before time, so I've decided that I'll see her after I have delivered our baby "
MaGumede:" You're doing the right thing lungi "
Mbuso:" We're still looking for thami and I promise you I'm going to find him and bring him to you. Are you
hungry? "
Me:" yes I am, Can I please have hot chocolate with marshmallows and lots of chocolate cream cookies and
well cooked big juicy steak, potatoes with lots of butter they way mah cooks them and red grape juice ice
cold "
Mah:" ok but where am I going to make you potaoes luh? "
MaGumede:" don't be silly we're family and your welcome in my house and you can cook your famous
potatoes. Babakhe here will make your steak while mbuso stays here with you. We will go home and cook
for you then zipho and siyabonga will bring you hot chocolate and cookies "
Mbuso:" but baby the doctor said eat healthy...all of that food you want is not healthy "
Me:' are you trying to get me upset mbuso?. Your baby wants all of that okay?, now leave me alone "
Mah:" mbuso shut up "
Me:" Mah did you call dad? "
Mah:" one of your aunts did and I called him back "
Me:" what did you say and is he upset ? "
Mah:" I told him that you were'nt feeling well so we decided to take you to the hospital just to be sure that
nothing is wrong. He wanted to come but I told him that the doctor wants to monitor you for the night and if
anything changes I'll let him know and he's worried about you but understood that we'll see him tomorrow ".
Me:" ok ".
Mah:" we are going now, get some rest " I nod and they leave.
Mbuso sits on the edge of the bed then we look at each other. He takes my hand in his then kisses it then
sighs.
Mbuso:" I worry about you baby "
Me:" I'm fine, don't worry "
Mbuso:" I'm thinking of kidnapping you and take you away from here then we'll come come back when the
baby is born "
Me:" dad won't like that and I want to be around everyone "
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Mbuso:" I know. I want to take away everything that is stressing you and fix what I can "
Me:" find thami and bring him home to me then "
Mbuso:" I'll find him I promise "
Me:" I hope they didn't do anything to hurt him. baby? "
Him:"We're not going to talk about people who are going upset you. Whatever questions you have I'll glady
answer them after the baby is born baby I promise "
Me:" that's four months from now "
Him:" I was thinking " really? he changes the subject
Me:" about? "
Him:" where are we going to live once we get married "
Me:" I don't have a ring on my finger " I smile
Him:" I know...after we get married where are we going to live "
Me:" I don't want to go back to that house "
Him:"ok we'll buy another one. You really hate that house "
Me:" I do because it reminds me of bad things that happend between us and I don't want to live in Joburg "
Him:" what?, why? "
Me:" I don't like it and I want to be closer to my family "
Him:" hmmm.....where would you like to live then ? "
Me:" Durban. I want to live there "
Him:" then start looking for your house then "
Me:" really?, just like that....you'll move to durban ? "
Him:" I'll move anywhere for you and we have offices in Durban. I'll move the headquarters this side and ask
themba to relocate to joburg and manage the business there. "
Me:" I can't believe it...what about madlamini ? "
Him:" themba will move to the house if he wants and madlamini will work for him. I won't leave her without
a job "
Me:" thank you boo for doing that "
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Him:" she misses you , you know ?"
Me:" I must call her and invite her over with her grandkids. We'll spend sometime on the farm, I'm sure she
will love it "
Him:" She's gonna be happy to hear from you "
Me:" yeah I just left without telling her.....she's gonna be surprised to see that I'm pregnant " I smile
Him:" call her tomorrow when you're home and I will also call thomas and percy to go pick her up with the
kids "
Me:" thank you boo " I give him a kiss and we kiss deeply then someone clears their throat and we look up
it's the doctor
Doctor:" No sex on the hospital bed, I'm kidding but please we don't want her to get too excited. I wanted to
ask how you're feeling miss ngcobo? " he checks my pulse again and puts a thermometer under my arm to
check my temperature.
Me:" I'm good doctor, I feel so much better "
Him:" your temperature is down and your heart beat is steady. So everything looks good for now "
Me:" doctor when am I going to start feeling my baby playing? "
Him:" for every woman experiencing the pregnancy is different but I'm sure you are going to feel them
playing anytime soon...."
" what ? " mbuso and I say at the same time
Doctor:" ooops...slip of a tongue "
Me:" doctor I'm having one baby, we even saw him or her on the sonogram screen " I'm shocked and happy at
the same time
Doctor:" him or her is hiding themselves. I felt two hearbeats on the sonogram. It was too strong to be just
that of one baby, so when I listened carefully I noticed both of them were beating at the exact same time and
at the exact pace. I've never seen someting like that, It's like the one sucking the thumb is protecting their
sibling" that's so beautiful my babies
Mbuso:" wow doctor thank you "
Doctor:" my pleasure. Have a good evening " he leaves us and we look at each other shocked and we laugh
Me:" wow I'm carrying two big heads "
Mbuso:" you love this big head and those big heads " we laugh
Me:" are we going to tell them ? "
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Mbuso:" lets keep it between us and we'll ask preston to keep it to himself too and not tell anyone "
Me:" great idea, I'm so excited "
He feels my stomach with his hands then lays his head on it and start to recite his clan names and as he
continues I feel movement around my stomach and mbuso stops and the babies stop moving too then he
continues and they play around and continue to do even after he stops.
Me:" I love you " I kis him
Him:" I love you and I love you more baby " he hugs me tight.
His phone vibrates and he takes it out, opens the text message and I try not to look but I see the message and
it's from my brother and it says
" We have a problem, call me " He sighs and looks at me
Mbuso:" I have to call your brother he says something is wrong " I didn't think he was going to tell me.
Me:" Ok call him" He leaves the room and I'm left wondering what is that huge problem they have.
SICELO.
There's is nothing I wouldn't for the people I love especially my sister, I will make sure that nothing hurts her
ever again including her mbuso. It is the only reason why buhle is still alive because if we kill her luh will
never forgive us and I don't want her to to hate mbuso because she loves him and the two of them deserve
their happily ever after. We moved buhle to somewhere safe where she won't escape and where her parents
won't find her.
I can't believe buhle is not sipho's daughter and him raping her might be the reason why she's so messed up.
Her mother was suppose to protect her but she didn't and made it possible for that pervert to touch her. I hope
he never touched luh because death is the last thing he will wish comes before we're even done with him.
People really have messed up parents like that who use their children like that make them think that their
body is the only thing they have that is good an and they must use it to get what they want.
I know uncle Victor made sure that she's always protected and even though they wanted to sell her and
couldn't because mbuso came and saved her and killed the man who was suppose to buy her but I can't help
and think that they had other plans for lungi because she's the one who isn't their child and she's the one who
was suppose to be like buhle...be messed up and everything. What were their plans exactly for my sister?...
My phone rings and it's dad
Me:" Mapholoba " ( their clan name )
Dad:" seun " ( son )
Me:" konke kuhamba kahle? " ( is everything okay ? ) "
Dad:" my contact has just called, he says the mazibuko's are in newcastle staying with someone "

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Me:" what?, they were just under our noses this whole time? "
Dad:" they knew that we were not going to look for them there "
Me:" OK , so when are going to get them "
Dad:" Relax, they arrived two days ago. We have to let them settle in and make them think that we won't
come. My guy is watching them twenty four seven, they won't escape us this time "
Me:" dad these people are smart, we have to get them now before they go missing again because you know
they won't stay at newcastle for long "
Dad:" I'll send you their pictures, they did plastic surgery and you wont be able to recognise them. They think
no one knows it's them so we must be careful and let them relax then we'll catch them when they least expect
it "
Me:" How many people are watching them? "
Dad:" ten of our best guys seun, don't worry "
Me:" keep me updated then "
Dad:" where is their daughter ? "
Me:" she's somewhere safe "
Dad:" mbuso that girl better not escape "
Me:" she won't dad I promise. I'm on my way there now to see her "
Dad:" ok. we'll talk later then "
Me:" sure grandpa "
Dad:" you do realise that your almost fourty and you have nothing "
Me:" I have my company dad, I have luh, aunty, you and my nephew or niece. You're all the people I need "
Dad:" You are going to die an old sad man who has no wife or kids if you keep running away from
commitment "
Me:" Dad you're still single, I haven't seen you with any woman since mom died "
Dad:" your mom was my soulmate and I don't think I'll ever find someone like her "
Me:" ofcause you won't find someone like her, but maybe you'll find someone better. You deserve to be
happy dad and I don't want you to die alone "
Dad:" I have found all my kids, I'm happy and now I'm looking forward to meeting my grandchild then maybe

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God will keep me until I meet your kids and then watch both of you get married and then I'll die a happy man
and be reunited with your mother "
Me:" I wish when I meet someone I will get to experience the type of love you and mom had. It was special
and one of a kind...I miss her dad especiallly now that we found my baby sister "
Dad:" I miss her too seun and she's happy that we are all united. You need to start looking for a right woman
you are not getting younger. You don't want to start palying with your first born when your fourty and second
born fourty five "
Me:" I know dad, I know " I chuckle
Dad:" we'll talk later then "
Me:" ok dad, bye " he hungs up and I groan. We always have the same conversation everytime we talk on the
phone. I leave the office, get in the car and drive, I wonder if buhle and celeste haven't killed each other
because they fight like a married couple. The security lets me through and I park the car and get in the house.
The first thing I see is buhle kneeling down on the floor and wiping it wearing a maids uniform and celeste is
sitting on the couch directing her where to wipe. The uniform she's wearing is so short you can actually see
her sagging butt and she looks black and blue. Damn mbuso must have really beat her up pretty bad and she
looks like her whole body hurts.
Me:" what is going on? " I'm shocked because I wonder what happend that got buhle to be this obedient.
Celeste:" boss, how's it going ? "
Me:" good, why is she wiping the floor? " buhle doesn't even acknowledge me and continues to wipe the
floor.
Celeste:" mbuso happend. That son of a gun can use sjambok boss yoh!, you should have seen him beating her
up with it. For a moment I thought he was going to use it on me too " she shrugs her body
Me:" when did he come ? "
Celeste:" yesterday morning. Buhle started calling him names because she was upset that ya'll took out her
implants, demanded drugs then threw hot coffee on mbuso and he calmly went to his car and came back with
a sjambok and started whipping her. I think he whipped out her stubborness and smart mouth because she
started calling him bhuti (big brother ) mbuso and begged him to stop and she'll never disrepect him again.
Boss I hope your sister never makes him that angry "
Me:" I'll fucken kill him if he ever puts his hands on my sister like that. Did he give her any medicine? "
Celeste:" the doctor came and gave her some medicine "
Me:" buhle can you not piss off mbuso because I'm sure he is close to killing you and one more smart
comment out of your smart mouth he's going to kill you " she stops and looks at me
Buhle:" I promise I will behave, please don't let him beat me again....it's too much now and my body can't
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take any more beatings and I look like a mess. No man will ever look at me again " she sounds so sad
She's right when she says she looks like a mess. We told the doctor to just take out the implants and stitch
where he took out the silicones. Her body is botched, skin sagging and being a crack whore is not helping her
at all.
Me:" when did you have your last fix? "
Buhle:" she won't give it to me, she said I must wipe this whole floor then she'll give me some "
Celeste:" Mbuso said I shouldn't give you any but you busy twitching around me is driving me insane so I'll
give you some. You see I'm the only nice one here " buhle ignores her and continues to wipe the floor.
Me:" I came to see if you two haven't killed each other and I'm glad someone is behaving between the two of
you. Give her a fix after she's done and give her something long to cover all that fucking sagging skin "
Celeste:" sure boss, where are you going now ? "
Me:" none of your business "
Celeste:" someone needs to get laid " she laughs
Me:" I'm out of here. "
I leave these two and go to a club me and my bothers frequent at and find them already there sitting at our
favourite spot with some girls dancing and they are almost wearing close to nothing and my brothers are
concerntrating on these girls and you can tell they look like hungry students. I ignore them and order myself a
drink and look around the club and It looks full. My mind keeps going to the conversation I had with dad
about me settling down and I know he is right. It has been weighing heavly on my mind that I need to settle
down and have a family of my own.
When I go home there is no one to come too and it feels lonely....I do feel lonely sometimes and I want
someone to share my life with but when I think about what hapend to mom and dad and him losing his
soulmate, it scares me to nthink it might happen to me too and I don't know if I can handle that but I have to
try someday and have faith.
I always watch mbuso and see whenever he talks about my sister or read messages she sent him, his face
lights up and I can see that he really loves her. He came to me and asked for her hand in marriage and I
promised to kill him should she ever cry because of him or do anything that will hurt her or cause her harm,
he promised he will do his best not to hurt in anyway then I agreed because she loves him. The only problem
now he is facing is going to ask dad and knowing my dad he is going to make mbuso sweat it out before he
gives him his blessings to marry his only daughter.
I wonder if someone's dad will aslo make me sweat it out like how dad is going to do with mbuso but first
Inhave to find that someone then worry about the rest later. He wants to make her his wife as soon as
possible and that somehow makes me want to have my own family. As I'm busy thinking and drinking my
eyes land on these girls that have just entered the club and I watch them, they are three and two of them look
like they are already drunk.

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My phone vibrates and I take it out and it's a message from celeste.
" Buhle is high and she says he has a child with mbuso "
Fuck no!...I'm going to kill that bitch if she's lying, she's not going ruin my sister's happiness never!. I send
celeste an sms and tell her to record buhle and I'll see her tomorrow then send mbuso ans sms too and he
calls
Me:" mbuso what did you do, you fool ? "
Him:" what are you talking about? "
Me:" get your ass right here tomorrow "
Him:" I have to take your sister home tomorrow because she's at the hospital "
Me:" why what happend and why didn't you tell me? "
Him:" nothing to worry about, the doctor said baby was playing that's why luh was experiencing pain "
Me:" after you drop her off get your ass here in durban " I hang up...Fuck I don't need this stress right now. I
gulp down my drink and order another one and continue to watch those girls dancing.

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SOMEWHERE IN DURBAN.
I'm running really late this morning and I was suppose to have opened the shop by now its 6:30 am and we
open at 6 am, when we have a function to prepare for but someone was just being difficult and I didn't sleep
at all last night God just thinking about it....let me not go there. I park my car outside the shop and see my two
best friends and co-workers have arrived. I'm not going to hear the end of me being late again.
Me:" guys sorry I'm late " I unlock the door and we get inside, they don't say anything and I can feel their eyes
drilling a whole on the back of my head. I make my way to the small kitchen we have and start preparing for
the platters for 40 people we are suppose to deliver for at 10 am at some office where they having a business
breakfast meeting and the platters are all different.
Me:" Guys I apologised now...please don't give me the silent treatment " I turn around and look at them and
they are just standing there folding their arms.
Karabo:" Ayanda this can't go on anymore " she says and I sigh.
Me:" Not now karabo please....it's still early " I look at both of them
Lilly:" the time is never right with you aya...look at you...you're a mess "

Me:" I know friend " I look down and cover my face beacuse I really feel like crying. I feel their arms
hugging me and I hug them back, telling myself I'm not going to cry.
Me:" I know it's hard guys but please don't give up on me because I really need you and can't do this without
you. I'll fix it I promise you"
Lilly:" We know you will but I hope really soon ayanda before he fixes you for good " that's what really
scares me
Karabo:" But we'll kill him before he kills you and we'll hide his body"

Lilly:" we'll burn him first the chop him to pieces and dump them all around south africa so no one will find
him " we all laugh because I know they'll do it and I love them to bits.
Me:" You guys are crazy and I love you just the way you are " we break the hug
Lilly:" why don't you take a cup of coffee and get yourself together then come back "

Me:" Thanks guys I owe you alot...I'll be back " I go to the office we share, make coffee and go through my
phone and no messages from him. I say a silent thank you to God that my boyfriend hasn't phoned me....yet. I
drink my coffee silently then finsh and join the girls. We prepare everything quickly cause yesterday before
we left we had some preparations done so we won't do too much this morning, and by nine am we are done.
Me:"Lets load up guys and deliver." We are excited because the business is only a year old, so getting clients
sometimes is not easy as we had hoped but we're hoping that since other business man and business women
that will be there where we are going to deliver the platters, they'll enjoy our food and ask for us to cater for
their future business functions aswell.
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We arrive at the office and a receptionist takes us to the other side of boardroom and we place all the platers
and drinks then leave.
ReceptionLady:" Here is the other half of the check and thank you for your services "

Me:" Thank you and please don't forget to recommend our business to other people and also you guys can
call us anytime whenever you need us "
ReceptionLady:" we'll do " we shake hands with her and leave.
Karabo:" Done for today....so why don't we go to Mug and Bean and have late breakfast " she suggests and
we all agree and drive there and order
Lilli:" It's friday today so any plans guys? " she asks as were eating
Me:" Nope..no going out for me...I need to rest " I tell them
Lilly:" What happend yesterday....how bad was it? "

Me:" Same as always, it wasn't that bad " I lie to my friends and I feel bad
Lilly:" I dont understand why can't you just leave him "
Me:" You know lilly that leaving a guy like tshepo is not easy....he hangs out with gangsters and you know
how... how scary he can be " I blink fast so they won't see I'm tearing up.
Karabo:" Eish I know girl, I just wish he showed you that side of him when you first started going out" I wish
he did too.
Lilly:" One day he'll meet his match and I'm just surprised that he hasn't broken something in your body yet" I
don't say anything because I know for sure he has broken my ribs and he phoned his doctor friend for help
and give me something and I hid that from them.
Karabo:" Maybe he'll meet more than his match"
Me:" I curse the day I met him " I really do

Karabo:" he doesn't deserve you, and you my friend one day you'll meet someone who'll be worthy to call
you theirs." I place my hand on top of hers
Me:" Yeah right....the day I get out of this situationship I'm not jumping into any relationship, I'm going to stay
single for aslong as I want " we all laugh and we continue talking about everything. I don't check my phone
because I just want to enjoy being with my friends.
Me:" You know what....we should go out and celebrate, I'ts been a while since we went dancing and I think
we should do a sleep over after the club " They squeek and people look at our table and we laugh.
Karabo:" and I know just the place...It's new and they opening it tonight "

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Lilly:" hell yes we are and lilly we're sleeping at your place tonight "
Karabo:"so why don't we go and do a little shopping for tonight and tomorrow " we agree then pay the bill
and leave but first we go and check shop and tell security of the building that we'll be back on monday and
leave.
We go shopping aand I buy a black long loose sleeveless jumpsuit and lilly buys a freakem dress that barely
covers her ass and thando cause she's tall she also buys a freakem dress that exposes her long legs. we leave
the mall and head to my place and I take all the things I'm going to need for the weekend and leave going to
karabo's place so she'll collect her things too and then go to lilly's place where we are going to spend the
weekend. We arrive and they get started on the wine that was on lilly's fridge.
Lilly:" You want a glass of wine?"
Me:" still too early, I'm going to nap guys. wake me up at 5 so I can cook before we leave, we can't drink on
an empty stomachs "
Karabo: " we are starting the party now "
Me:" alcoholics " we laugh and I leave them and go to thando's spare bedroom. Lilly has a sugar daddy that
pays this flat for her and has asked her to stop working because he says he'll take care of her but you know
these man they are unpredictable.
My name is Ayanda Sibiya and I'm 27, originally from witbank, both my parents are dead and I was their
only child. I lived with my grandmother then she died and then I had to live with my father's brother who took
over my parent's house when they passed away. I lived with him and his family until he kicked me out the
second year after I finished my matric. I was doing piece jobs by then and I had managed to save some money
that I will use to go to durban and start a new life.
I met karabo and lilly when we were all working at kfc. Most of the time we would work the same shifts and
so we bonded and became great friends. When I told them that my uncle has given two weeks to get out of his
'house' they were shocked and then I told them that I am leaving Witbank and going to be living in durban and
they said they are coming with me because we come from fucked up families and no one will miss us.
With the money we had, we managed to get a place to rent. We struggled to get jobs because we were knew
in the big city and didn't know that much of it but we get piece jobs, part-time jobs here and there and
sometimes we would go for 3 months jobless and sometimes one of us or both would find jobs. I consider
these girls my family and I'll do anything for them that's how tight and close we are.
I later found a job at Jet, karabo got a job at KFC and lilly was working Spur. We moved out of the place we
lived at when we first relocated when we found better jobs. I found a job at woolworths later that year and
the income was a little bit better cause it made a difference and we went to the CICP to register a catering
business.
Then one lucky day we met this lady who was relocating to joburg and asked us if we wanted to rent a flat
and we agreed because she knew lilly from work and so we moved to her place and we lived there. lilly met
her sugar daddy and he took over and payed the flat 6 months in advance and it was a huge stress reliaver
and we we were so ngrateful.
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This one time we went to mug and bean and there were some guys sitting behind us they arrived after us.
When we finshed eating one of them asked if he could pay for our bill because he said and I quote "Beautiful
women like you are suppose to be spoiled dined and pampered so please ladies allow me to pay your bill "
and we agreed little did I know what I was getting myself into.

He asked to take me out and he was charming so I agreed and we dated and the first 5 months were good then
on our seventh month he showed me his true colours. It's a year now since I've been with him. My friends
know that he physically abuses me slaps here and there but they don't know how bad it gets. It sounds easy
when someone sasy why don't you just get out and leave him but when someone has a hold on you
emotionally...you not going anywhere.
His name is Tshepo and he is 37, he lives at his own place and works for a delivery company, they deliver
expensive furniture that is imported by private clients, the company he works for specialises in that. I have
my own place that I rent it's not fancy just a one bedroom flat with a kitchennete and siting room as well as
the bathroom.
I hear someone calling my name and I can't make out who it is. They shake me roughly this time and I panick
and scream
Lilly:" ayanda! ayanda!, It's me....shhhhh don't cry" I feel disoriented, who's crying now?
Me:" Lilly what's wrong why are you crying? " her face is full of tears
Lilly:" you were screaming for him to stop...kicking you...you were screaming in pain aya" oh God she hugs
me and cries
Me:" hey I was just having a nightmare...don't cry now " I look around the room and see Karabo standing
there looking at me like she wants to kill me and tears are falling down her face.
Me:" karabo....." lilly continues to cry
Karabo:" WHAT AYANDA WHAT?!....we know how bad he hits you okay...we've seen the marks on your
back...yes we know...." she's shouting. " you want tshepo to kill you and take you away from us huh.....look at
you....you miserable ever since you met that scumbag and you're proctect him "
Me:" what NO!, I'm not protecting him! "
Karabo:" yes you are!, everytime we ask you if he hits you or what's really going on...you lie! lie! and lie!.
Why ayanda why!? " I've never seen her this angry
Me:" You don't understand " I say tears rolling down my face
Karabo:" Then make me...make us understand please aya " I look at my friends no my sisters and see what I
have done to them by bringing this man into our lives and it breaks my heart knowing that I hurt them by
keeping things from him.
Me:" he has anger issues and he takes them out on me. I don't say anything because I know it's going to hurt
you guys more than it does me and I don't want that for you."

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Lilly:"but you want it for yourself...right?"
Me:" No " I cry
Karabo:" well I'm not going to lose a sister and one of my best friends, I'll be damned if that happens "

Me:" you're not going to lose me guys " I'm nor sure about that
Karabo:" we already have. You're not happy aya, the laughs and smiles you share with us don't reach your
beautiful eyes...you are always tense and panick whenever he phones you" she breathes out deeply, wipes her
eyes and gets on the bed with us and we hold hands
Lilly:" you have to choose aya. It's either your life and us or him."
Me:" It's you guys always " I tell them.
Karabo:" then break up with him and we'll even come with you so you won't be alone and won't be able to
convince you otherwise "
Me: "I will, on monday I'll call him to come at lilly's place, I promise " I know its the right thing to do and
I'm going to do it. I'm tired of livin my life in fear.
Me:" I love you guys and thank you for being here " we hug
Them:" we love you too "
Karabo:" uhm is this te part where we are suppose to kiss and fuck each other? "
Me:" eeewwwww " I say we all laugh our asses off
Me:" let me go cook so we can eat before we hit the club "
Lilly:" already did...it's seven pm now and you needed the rest " God I'm blessed to have these girls in my
life.
Me:" Thanks guys lets go eat and get ready " we leave the the bedroom and eat steak, gravy and pap...hey
don't judge us, we love our pap.
Karabo and lilly take the bathroom first and I'm the last one, so by the time I get out of the bath, they almost
halfway done and I start getting ready dressing up and do my make up. I hear my phone beep and I know it's
tshepo and for a minute I panick. I look at it see 3 missed calls from him and I delete them and the message
before I even read it because I know it's nothing good.
Karabo:" Aya come out!, we gonna find the club full if we don't leave now" she can be impatient sometimes.
Me:" Coming I'm almost done" I finish dressing up, wearing my wedge sandals with my jumpsuit and then I
take my purse and see if all I'm going to need is inside it then leave.

Lilly:" I wish you'd wear tight clothes you know....you have a great body aya like damn....not that loose thing
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you wearing"
Me:"Stop it, I love what I'm wearing and I feel comfortable"
Lilly:" But...."
Karabo:" no lindi leave her alone, lets go guys" i giggle
Me:" Damn ya'll look hot yeses" we laugh. Lilly is tall and she's wearing that freakem dress and 6 inch
stilettos and a peruvian weave wow, and karabo is short, she's a size 32 and also wearing heels but they not
tall because if she doesn't wear them sometimes she looks like a 18 year old and she hates that.
Karabo:"You too look hot...now let's take these shots and go shake our asses" we drink shots of vodka neat
and i feel my throat getting warm.
Me:" damn this is strong....the uber is here guys...we are not driving because we are going to get drunk. lets
go bitches and turn up! " we scream and leave the apartment and the uber driver takes us to the "Mile High
Club".
We get there and the line of people waiting to get in is long.
Me:" Oh look at the line...there's no ways are we getting in "
Lilly:" Relax I know those bouncers, just follow me bitches "
Karabo:" I'm not surprised" she says and so we follow lilly and stand infront of the other group of girls.
Lilly:" Hey boys " she greets the bouncers and they look at us
"hey you!..can't you see that you have to wait in the line like the rest of us" says some girl who did the whole
contour thing wrong.

Bouncer1:" Ah my girl lilly how you doing baby?" we look at each with karabo
Lilly:" Beautiful as always you know me " she says
Bouncer2:" we sure do and your friends are gorgeous too" he looks at us from head to toe and looks at the
jumper i'm wearing for too long and i start to feel uncorfortable and the other bouncer elbows him

Bouncer1:" I have just the perfect table for you...follow me" then he presses an earpiece and tells someone to
come in the front and the other girl loses it and calls us all kinds of names but we don't hear as we get inside
and we're swallowed by the music inside.
Me:" Wow this place is amazing....it even has a second floor" karabo says
Bouncer:" V.I.P only on the second floor"
Lilly:" thanks mark for getting us in " so the bouncer's name is Mark ohk, I thought he might have a scary
name since he's big and strong
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Him:" anything for you baby girl " he smiles at lilly and I get a sense that there's more going on between these
two and we are going to ask her. He takes us just below a v.i.p area above us that has a glass wall but you
can't see inside maybe it's the office I tell myself.
Mark:" Sorry girls I can't take you to the vip..this is the best I can do "
Me:" thank you mark we are grateful " I smile and he seems to look at me like he's trying to read me or sees
something and I don't know what and I just don't like it.
Mark:" Let me know if you guys need anything. I'll send my girl tina here to get you something, enjoy your
night ladies" lilly kisses his cheek and the he leaves us and we sit down.
Karabo:" ok what was that about? "
Me:" please do tell us " I stare at her
Karabo:" no I meant him looking at you like that " she corrects me
Me:" I know it freaked me out too" I honestly say
Lilly:" He's a good guy. I've known him for a year, so don't worry about him...he's just protective thats all "
huh?
Me:" protective of what lilly?....God I hope you didn't tell him anything about me?"
Lilly:" It might have slipped up okay and I was worried and so I ended up telling him about tshepo "
Me:" I could kill you right ! "
Lilly:" I'm sorry okay. I'm just scared of losing you I'm sorry "
Me:"I know you mean well. I'm sorry for snapping at you " damn liily and talking about my business.
Lilly:" We can't let that scumbag ruin our night "

Karabo:" ncoooh look at you guys....group hug" we laugh and hug then the waitress comes and we order a
bottle of champagne, we can afford it.
We see the girls we left outside passing by us and going to the vip area and their leader gives us a look and
smirks and they all laugh looking at our direction.
Lilly:"I don't like her "
Karabo:" she's just an ugly bitch wearing all that heavy make up to hide that alcoholic face she has under
there." we burst out laughing really hard
Me:" lets not mind them guys, were are here to have a good time." we click cheers to that and right on que the
dj plays rihanna's song cheers to freaking weekend and we stand up with our glasses and start singing loud
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with the song and dancing to it too. The Dj keeps them coming playing one after another and we're singing
non-stop. Man it feels so good to be out with your friends and having a good time and not stressing....but
deep down I am a little. I know tshepo is going to be pissed that I didn't answer his calls and call him back
and I am scared.
karabo:" hey don't do that, don't think about him" this one she knows me
Me:" I'm not " she raises her eyebrow and I laugh
Me:" ok I'll stop" we don't leave our table, we dance there, just chilling having a great time and guys come to
ask if they'll join us but we decline nicely and they leave us alone. It's now midnight and we're feeling hungry
so we order a meat platter
Me:" guys when are we leaving? " I ask them
Lilly:" 2 am " I laugh shaking my head because if it was up to her we'd stay there the whole night and leave in
the morning, thats how much she loves clubs and dancing.
Me:" I'm going to the ladies to powder my nose, would you ladies like to join me ? " I ask them twanging
Karabo:" we good for now ma'lady " she slurs terribly and we crack up. I ask one of the bouncers where's
the ladies room and shows me and make my way there and there's a line and I really wanna go I can't wait
that long.
I come back and make my way to the v.i.p area and ask the bouncer if I could use the ladies room there but he
refuses and I sigh and turn back when he stops me and lets me pass to use the ladies room there and I get
inside and do my business, wash my hands then leave the toilet and collide with that contour gone bad girl
and she pushes me out of the way and I just look ar her...like how old are we?.
I ignore her and I'm about to turn when I feel this shudder from the back of my neck going all over my body
and my skin gets covered in goosepumbs and I freeze not understanding what is going on because this is a
different one and not the one I get when tshepo gets next to me or touches where i just want to crawl out of
my skin and runaway.
This one feels different. I look behind me but all I can see is a passage that is a little dim and there are doors,
I shake my head and push her and walk away and go to where we are sitting. We eat the meat platter and its
kinda okay but hey...then karabo opens another bottle of champagne and we continue to drink. I look at the
time and see it 1:30 am and I know we have to go now.
Me:" Guys we're drunk now so it's time we go home "
Karabo:" yeah...you right...lets go bitches " she's drunk. I waive at the waiter and he comes at our table.
Me:" uhm we'd like to pay our bill "
Waiter:" ma'am everything is on the house. Someone payed your bill" what hell no, we're going to be
kidnaped or owe someone and i don't want that. Fuck is it Tshepo who has paid the bill...Fuck, I'm fucked
Me:"thank you but we had already have our own transport and thank whoever paid our bill " he nods and
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leaves.
The girls and I leave the club and when we get outside we see mark standing next to a huge SUV.
Mark:" girls I 'll be taking you home. Your uber driver was paid so don't worry and I'll sleep better knowing
I left you home where you're safe."
Me:" can we trust him lilly? " I might be drunk but not that drunk to go with a stranger who just happens to
offer us a lift
Lilly:" yes we can don't worry friend" so we get inside with mark driving and he takes us home. We arrive at
lilly's place which he already knows because he didn't ask for direction and we get inside the elevator and
then the flat.
karabo:" thanks mark baby " she says giggling
Me:" thank you marh, good night mark " go sleep in the spare bedroom and karabo doses off as soon as she's
under the covers but before I sleep I check my phone and see 8 missed calls and 10 messages from tshepo
and I delete all of them, then I hear groaning sounds and oh damn lilly and mark are fucking... I fall asleep
hearing those sounds.

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My head is pounding and I feel like a mess and my mouth is dry, it feel like its been filled with cotton. I turn
on my side but I can't because karabo has taken most of the bed.
Me:" Ugh that's why I hate sharing a bed with you cause you kick " she giggles and I do too.
Karabo:" morning sunshine " she says
Me:" morning, how long have you been awake? "
Her:" not long, was awaken by your phone ringing non-stop "

Me:" ugh tshepo? " she nods

Her:" you know he's pissed wherever the hell he is " she says
Me:" I know and I can't ignore him forever. I have to breakup with him today "
Her:" that's my girl and we'll be right here with you" I shake my head no, and get off the bed.
Me:" no karabo. I have to do this alone, I don't want him thinking it's you guys who want me to break up with
him."
Her:" I'm just scared of what he'll do to you when you tell him it's over"
Me:" If I see any signs that he's losing it, I'll immediately call you guys."
Her:" and we'll bring mark with us " she says and we both giggle
Me:" I heard them last night going at it " I say blushing
Her:" oh my god and I missed out damn " she can shock you sometimes.
Me:" what were you going to do? " I ask her
Her:" watch them of course" we both laugh then we hear lilly shouting
Lilly:" Stop talking about my escapedes and come eat you shits " we laugh and we find her stuffing her face
with bacon and it smells amazing
Me:" look who got it all this morning" she smiles not even denying it
Karabo:" oh! oh! oh! mark yes right there, yeeeesssss" she says moving her hips up and down the chair and
we laugh
Lilly:" karabo why are so etxra yeah? " thando asks her, we laugh and I look at the time it's 11 am

Karabo:" I am what I am" she says eating bacon. I leave them and go to the bathroom and shower quickly
then brush my teeth come back find them still eating, I sit down and join them.
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Me:" After brunch I'm going to my place to break things off with tshepo" I breathe out deeply
Lilly:" you want us to come with you? "
Me:" no but I'll call you if I see him losing it" I tell them
Lilly:" not if, when."
Me:" I'll be fine, don't worry and you missy what is happening between you and mark?" she laughs
Lilly:" nothing is going on. we hook up now and then"
Karabo:" what?...how come we don't know? "
Lilly:" because you guys don't live with me anymore that's why " she rolls her eyes
Me:" what about papa smurf? " we laugh cause thats the nickname I gave him. Lilly's sugar daddy has silver
hair and beard so he reminded of papa smurf the cartoons
Lilly:" he won't find out and if he does so what, he's married " she shrugs and we don't say anything. We've
had this conversation with her about being the other woman but she doesn't mind....so yeah its none of our
business.
Me:" Let me go guys I'll call and let you know" they nod and I leave. I get inside my car and check my phone
and see he phoned again and since it was on silent I didn't hear it and it's not like I was going to answer it
anyway.
I drive to my place and call him on the way on loud speaker but it rings and goes straight to voicemail. I see
his car parked outside the flat I live in and my heart drops. He's sitting in the car smoking and he sees me. I
park my car, and get out, take my bag and try to lock it but the keys fall because I'm trembling. He also gets
out of the car and locks it and waits for me to finish then I feel him standing behind me not saying anything
and that freaks me out.
Him:" you ok baby? " he asks me and I nod
Me:" yes...I'm okay" I lie. He takes my keys and bag, holds my hand and we go to the flat. He unlocks the
door we get in then he closes it not saying anything and takes me to the bedroom. This is unlike him because
what I expected is him slapping me on the face the moment he closed that door. He takes off his shoes and I'm
just standing there not knowing what to do.
Him:" Come lets nap, I didn't sleep last night" he gets on my bed and lays down facing up and looks at me
Him:" baby come I'm not going to sleep alone" he says
Me:" Tshepo we need to talk I...." I try to talk but he interupts me
Him:" Can we sleep first then eat and then we can talk " he says bored or tired I don't know so I let it go but
the other part of my brain is telling me to tell him now that it's over and the other not so smart part of my
brain ignores that. I'm wearing yoga pants and a long sleeve top and sneakers so I take the sneakers off and
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get in bed with him. I lay with my back to his front and he drags my body close to his and I tense and shake.
Him:" Stop doing that, everytime I touch you or hold you, you tense up and I don't like it" he says like that
hurts him..yeah right like its my fault that I feel or do that. He starts kissimg my neck and I feel his dick
getting hard and he presses it on my ass. God I don't want to do it.
Me:" Tshepo....." he rolls me to my back and gets between my legs and in my mind I'm screaming no don't
touch me and I don't want to do this but my lips remain closed.
Him:" shhh I missed you and I just want to feel you" I try to talk but he silences me with a kiss and doesn't
stop. He tries to take off my top but I grip it to stop him then he looks at me and I can see he's trying really
hard not to get but he's demeaner says otherwise so I let him take it off along with all of my clothes and I lay
there naked, still waiting for the blows but they never come.
he takes off his clothes aswell and then takes out a condom on my side table and sheathes himself. He opens
my legs and gets between them and start kissing me and those kisses and the way he's holding me reminds me
of the first time we slept together and I feel tears covering me eyes.
Him:" I'm going to make you feel so good baby" he says
He kisses me from my breasts to my stomach and down there and for the first time ever he goes down on me
and eats me. I try to get my body to relax but my mind won't let me because I hate every single thing he's
doing. I skwirm and try to push off his face but he holds me tight still eating me and I fake my orgasm then he
quickly moves up my body and enters me slow and I close my eyes. He buries his hands on my hair and
kisses me deeply and sofly and I can taste myself on him, and he's still moving in and out of me slowly.

Me:" what's going on, why are you being like this?" I ask him tearing up.
Him:" I'm just showing you how much I love you" he changes the pace and flexes his hips and ass and starts
to fuck me fast and I start to shake my body faking my orgasm covering my face then he comes groaning loud.
We lay there not saying anything then he gets up and goes to the bathroom to flush the condom, comes with a
wet towel and cleans me and he's never done that before I always clean myself.
Him:" Lets go get something to eat then we'll talk" I nod and he wears his clothes and I wear mine too but he
stops me ."Why don't you wear that dress I like" he says
Me:" it's not that hot for me to wear that dress " I tell him
Him:" I know baby but it's warm outside and we'll be back before it starts getting chilly "
Me:" ok " I keep asking myself why he wants me wear that dress or maybe he's hoping for another round.
I wear it and then take my bag cause I know my phone is inside then we leave. We take my car he's the one
that's driving and he plays metro fm, the ride is silent we don't talk and I'm growing very uncomfortable with
every passing moment and I try to read him to see where his head is at but it's like he has closed off. We go
to nandos drive through, he orders for both of us as always and then we leave. He takes the direction to his
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Me:" I thought we were going back to my place tshepo? " he looks at me smiles and the hair on the back of
my neck stands and I know its bad.
Him:" there's something I have to do, it's going to be quick and then we'll go to your place" he holds my hand
and kisses it. He drives in and parks his car, gets out and I stay in inside.
Me:" I'll wait here, you go ahead " he looks at me like I'm crazy and comes on my side of the car opens the
door and drags me outside and I take my back with me.
Him:" I want a second round too, please come ?"
Me:" No! " I shake my head and stand still but he holds my hand tightly and drag me inside the house and
locks the door behind me, I try to pull my arm but it's too tight then I feel a hot full slap across my face and I
stagger and see stars. I cover my face but he punches my stomach and I fall on my knees, scream for someone
to help me but I know, no one is going to help me.

Me:'' Tshepo please...don't beat me anymore I can't take it" I beg him crying
Him:"You stupid bitch (punch) you thought I would just let it go huh" he continues to kick and and punch me
where ever his hands and feet land on my body.

Me:" It's over tshepo...I'm done with you, you can't keep using me as your punching bag" I tell him
Him:" You piece of shit!, (punch) frigid bitch! (punch)..where the fuck were you? (kick), I phoned you (kick)
and you ignore my calls (kick) huh...let me show what I do to someone who ignores me" he brutally kicks and
punches me all over.
I cry my eyes out and try to run but I feel his shoe on my back holding me down then I feel a kiss of a leather
belt on my back and I scream try to tug it free from him but he's much stronger than me. He beats me black
and blue and I feel like I'm going to die, I'm tired of fighting and begging him to stop and I just lay there as he
continues to....to whip me with his belt, my body and face hurts so much and I can't even move.

Him:" Answer me you stinking whore..." he laughs and I cry hard...had not accepted to go on a date with him
I wouldn't have met this man and be going through this.
He continues to call me names and asks me where I went, why didn't I tell him, who did I fuck with my cold
vagina who'd want this cold vagina like its dead and I don't answer him which pisses him off even more. He
beats me until my dress is teared up and sticking on my skin. I stop crying and just take the beating, I feel very
hot and my lungs hurt from just breathing and I notice that I'm covered in blood and the floor too.
Him"I love you and you know that...It's you who makes me do this...it's all your fault and you have to make it
up to me.." I don't hear the rest of what he says as I pass out.
I'm awaken when I feel cold water all over my body and I scream because my whole body hurts and it burns
very bad. I open my eyes and see that I'm in his shower and one of my eyes won't open because its swollen
shut.
Him:" I thought you were dead...oh God I thought I killed you" I cough out blood and it hurts.

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He picks me up roughly not caring that I'm hurt and throws me on top of the bed facing up and I notice that I'm
naked. He takes off his pants and underwear and gets on top of me and I try to move but my body can't move
at all and I just cry. He enters me roughly and I'm dry it hurts so much and he starts to rape me so rough I
think I'm bleeding down there and then comes and start laughing like crazy and all I can do is watch him
crying my eyes out.
Him:" At least your good for one thing....opening your legs" he slaps my thighs and gets off the bed and he
goes into the shower and showers, comes out and wears clean clothes looking at me laughing and shaking his
head.
Him:" I'll be back just wait there, exactly as you are..I'm going to see my woman I bet she's worried about
me, so I can't keep her waiting" he then leaves. I hear his car driving out and I try to move but its like every
bone in my flesh is breaking and broken....God why did I agree to come with him and sleep with him..why
did I allow this man into my life?, this is all my fault.
I try move again and this time I do and I fall off the bed and wince. I try to crawl but I just hurt myself more,
so I drag my body to the dining room on my stomach and then see my bag. I get to it afraid that tshepo is going
to be here at any moment and kill me this time. I open it and and look for my phone and when I don't find it I
panick but try again and I find it this time and I speed dial 1 and it rings
Karabo:" Ayanda? "
Me:" HELP ME!...HELP....I'M AT HIS PLACE COME NOW "

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MBUSO.
I'm going out of my mind trying to figure out what the hell sicelo is talking about. He can't be upset that I
whiped buhle because she started it and it is her fault that I ended up beating her. I hope that fool is not
developing feelings for buhle because I want that gitl out of my life and luh's life. I had to tell the people I
was going to sell buhle too, to wait and that I'll let them know when.
Luh:" boo? "
Me:" baby? " we are at our place in Ladysmith, we arrived two hours ago. After they discharged her I took
my family and drove us there. Her dad called her and gave us few hours then he's coming to fetch his
daughter and I still have to ask him for his blessings to allow me to marry her daughter and he might say no
and I don't think luh would marry me without her father's blessing and I wouldn't want that either. If he says
no I'll just have to prove to him that I'm worthy of his daughter's love. I love this woman and I'm tired of not
waking up and she's not next to me.
Her:" mbuso you're doing this again, zoning out when I'm talking with you " she's cute when she's annoyed I
pull her close and kiss her
Me:" I'm sorry baby, It's thinking about our future and how perfect I want it to be for you, for us and our kids
"
Her:" It's up to us to make it perfect boo. We have to believe in our love and know that it is strong and it can
survive anything. We have to be trust each other, have each other's backs, be truthful and honest with each
other mbuso no matter what "
Me:" where were you all my life lungile "
Her:" fate bought us together "
Me:" buhle?, no ways baby " she cracks up
Her:" no boo. Fate used her to bring you to me and then it gave me my family. I have to thank buhle because
she saved my life "
Me:" when our babies are born then you too can meet up and talk to her but for now, I'll make sure stays
away from you "
Her:" promise me you won't kill her mbuso because I know you "
Me:".......fine I won't kill her "
Her:" I love you mbuso and I don't want you to go back to the way you were when we first met. That person
was angry and I don't like that mbuso, promise me you won't change and go back to your old arrogant self "
she giggles, man I love this woman
Me:" I promise I won't go back to my arrogant old self "

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Her:" that's the second promise you're making to me and you better keep this one "
Me:" I know I once promised you that I wasn't going to intentionally hurt you and I'm giving that promise
again. I swear I won't hurt you ever again "
Her:" I believe you "
Me:" I love you Mashiyamahle " She blushes
Her:" I love you too zdaddy "
Me:" hmm...I'm your dzaddy? " I giggle
Her:" yes you are "
Me:" come here...." we kiss and I'm about to take off her clothes when her phone rings and I groan frustrated
because I really want to get some.
Her:" Dad......ok? " he's already here...this man wants me to die from blue balls, she hangs up then looks at
my dick and laughs
Me:" oh you laughing at me? "
Her:" dad is here outside, go let him in while I wash my face "
Me:" does he know this is your house ? "
Her:" no, he thinks it's yours "
Me:" you have to tell him luh "
Her:" you bought me this house and so you tell him "
Me:" let me go before he thinks I'm banging you " she giggles and I get off the bed and fix my hardon then
leave.
I open the gate and he drives in with his car then I meet him halfway when he gets out of the car.
Me:" Good afternoon Mapholoba "
Him:" junior gumede, how are you ? " we shake hands, ok this is good.
Me:" I'm good and happy "
Him:" I see because you have my daughter all to yourself, you want her to cohibitate with you? "
Me:" No sir. Actually I wanted to talk to you about something. I was going to come to your house and ask you
Sir...... "
Him:" mbuso talk? "
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Me:" can we get in the house and sit down "
Him:" the house you brought my daughter? " fuck he knows
Me:" yes sir and I was going to tell you about it now, too " he shakes his head like he's defeated
Him:" fine, lead the way " we get inside the house and I lead him to the empty living room then straight to the
kitchen because that's the only place that has chairs.
Me:" please sit down "
Him:" when are you furnishing it? "
Me:" I told her to hire an interior designer and furnish it whatever way she likes...whatever makes her happy
"
HIim:" hmmm "
Me:" uhm sir. I know me meeting your daughter was under very unfortunate circumstances and things were
just messed up and there are many things I could have done to avoid most of the things I did to her and I
would like to fix all of that and do things the right way if you would allow me the chance " I look at him and
he's looking at me not even blinking
Him:" I'm listening, continue " this man is very intimidating like my dad.
Me:" Sir with your permission I'm asking for your daughter's hand in marriage. I would love to marry your
daughter and make her my wife and build a home with her and make you a grandfather of many grandkids " I
see a ghost smile when I say the last part.
Him:" are you serious about what you're asking mbuso ? "
Me:" with every being on my body sir "
Him:" and if I say no, what are you going to do ? "
Me:" it would break my heart sir I'm not going to lie, but I won't give up on asking you again because I will
prove myself to her and to you that I love her. I will do anything to protect her and I will give anything to see
her always happy. I will prove to you that I'm worthy to be loved by her and that I deserve her to be in my
life because I lost her once because I took her for granted and it was the worst time of my life and I don't
ever want to go through that ever again. My life doesn't make sense without her sir. Please allow me to marry
your daughter ". fuck I'm sweating, I wipe my forehead and look at him.
Him:" go and get lungi " I get up and turn but I see her coming and she smiles and has tears in her eyes, she
was listening. She comes to me and hugs me then looks at me and I wipe her tears. She goes and kisses her
dad on the cheek then we sit down hold hands and look at her dad.
Mapholoba:" Lungile, yesterday I received a letter from the Gumede family. They are requesting a meeting
with me and your uncles and I accepted the letter and told them we will be incontact with them. Mbuso has
asked me for your hand in marriage and before I give him my answer, I would like to talk to you first "
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Him:" Lungile my child, finding you again has brought joy in my life that I never thought I will ever feel again
and I thank god and my ancerstors that we found each other again and it was because of this man sitting next
you, the man who's child you're carrying and I don't know if I have ever said it but thank you mbuso. Thank
you for saving her and doing what you thought was best and sorry for the pressure I put you on." I never
thought I would hear luh's father say this and I'm pleased.
Me:" thank you sir "
Him:" I'm also sorry my child for the things we did to you thinking that we're making right decisions but it
was wrong of us to make decisions without thinking about your feelings, so that's why I want you to tell me
how you feel about this man who wants to marry you ".
Luh:" I forgive him dad for everything and I have put it behind me because it is our past. The man I know
now is completely different to the man I knew then. I know that he loves me without a shadow of doubt and I
believe in him. I know he will do everything in his power to always make us happy and put us first in his life
before anything else. I respect him, I love him dad and I want to be his wife " I'm looking at her all this time,
listening to her and I believe that my ancerstors came through for me when I met lungi.
Him:" I'm happy to hear that you are happy my child. Mbuso uLungile is my child and so please don't hurt her
ever again, she has two dad's. You know she comes from a very rich family even though she didn't grow up
rich but but my daughter forgets that she is rich. You know that she can have everything she wants and needs
and she'll never want for anything. She's a humble person like her mother and that makes her very vunrable
and people will take advantage of that and you must protect her from such people "
Him:" what you both want is not a child's play. When you do this you go all the way for life, traditional
wedding and a white one if you both want it. I don't want to keep both of you from being happy and being
with each other and I want my daughter to be happy and she chooses to be happy with you so I won't deny
you that. I've lived a long empty life and now I just want to be happy with all of my kids and that includes
you too mbuso because you are part of this family now. You have my blessings to get married.
Me:" thank you Mapholoba, thank you vey much! " I stand up and shake his hand but he hugs me... a man
hug.
Luh:" thank you daddy, I love you " she hug him too
Him:" I'm going to ask one thing though "
Us:" anything " we look at each other and laugh.
Him:" can you get married before the baby is born? " I look at luh and she looks
Luh:" dad I'm due in four months and planning a wedding is stressful "
Me:" your mom, my mom, simphiwe, your aunts are all there even your doctor...tell them what you want and
leave the rest to them "
Mapholoba:" I almost forgot the doctor " he shakes his head smiling
Luh:" that's a great idea plus preston is coming to check up on me today....thank you boo and dad we'll have a
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wedding before the baby is born "
Him:" thank you. Now lets go, you need to eat and rest " I walk them out to the car then her dad gives us some
privacy
Me:" I love you and thank you for what you said to your dad "
Her:" I meant every word I said to him. I love you too " I kiss her cheeck open the door for her, she gets in
the car and off they go.
That went better than I thought and a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Now I have to go to
durban and find out what the hell is going on.

MBUSO.
To say I just love Lungi is an understatement. I really love that woman and I'll forever be grateful that she
gave me a second chance to be part of her life again and the children we are going to have. I meant every
word I said to her father and I don't want to make him dislike me or not trust me with his daughters life. I'll
move heaven and earth to give her what she wants or take away everything that hurts or harms her.
I drive in to the house Sicelo and I bought and we placed buhle there with celeste so she can watch her and
the security guys and she better be not the reason why I'm here or whatever sicelo thinks I did to her because
I'm seriously tired of her and her bullshit. I get in the house and find sicelo sitting down and looking
miserable
Me:" what's wrong fool?, you look so miserable " I chuckle
Him:" fool is your ass "
Me:" what's wrong bro "
Him:" I'll tell you later, right now we have a problem or rather you have a problem "
Me:" is buhle dead ? "
Him:" no she's not "
Me:" then what is bro ? "
Him:" I was at a club last night and received a text message from celeste telling me that buhle is high...."
Me:" I told celeste not give her any, why did she do it? "
Him" brother ask her okay, as I was telling you before you kindly interupted me. She says that she has a kid
with you " I laugh shaking my head because this bitch is way more delisional than I thought.
Me:" this bitch is fucked up. where the fuck is she "

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Him:" do you know what this shit is going to do to luh ?, bro why did you fuck that bitch raw ? " he shouts
Me:" man I've never fucked that bitch raw!.... and you believed her lies bro? "
Him:" she was high and you know how it is when you're high, you start spilling secrets "
Me:" did I not tell you that Investigated that bitch and found that she has a child and it didn't cross your mind
that if I had a kid with her I would have found out and told you ? "
Him:" bro you know how conniving this bitch is and keeping secrets is in her D.N.A ."
Me:" I don't have a fucken child with that bitch! and where the fuck is she ! "
Him:" bro come down first before you confront her "
Me:" don't tell me to calm down scelo. Can you imagine if you had written what buhle said on the text
message you sent and your sister happend to see it, would you be telling me to calm down scelo?. We could
be talking about something different now and the doctor said not to stress her and this was going to make her
maybe lose my...fuuck!. buhle get your ass down here now!!!!! "
God why did I promise luh that I won't kill this bitch because her skeaming and conniving ass won't stop here
from spreading lies and causing problems between me and luh.
Sicelo:" I'm sorry I believed her bro but you understand why I had to assume that "
Me:" Sicelo we've known each other almost the same time as I knew your sister and me and you, we got
close. As a friend and your future brother in-law I thought you knew me better than that. You have seen me
fucking up with your sister and I confided in you most of the things my three best friends don't know about
because you understand me better and I think you know me better than them too during the time we have
known each other. I know I have a past with buhle and I realise that it is always going to haunt me for the rest
of my life But for you to just assume brother and believe this shit she's saying, it fucken sucks "
Sicelo:" I panicked because luh was the only person I thought is going to get hurt. look bro you're more than
my sisters husband to be because I consider you as my other brother, my best friend too and we are
connected by blood now which means we're always going to be in each other's cases and throats. I'm sorry
bro " we hug it out
Me:" you fucken ass, I don't need this stress. I need to be focusing on my wife and kid, not this bullshit!. "
Him:" fuck I know okay, lets deal with buhle but we can't kill her "
Me:" I know " I sigh
Him:" we need to teach her a lesson "
Me:" maybe she's doing this because she wants a reaction from me, from us ".
Him:" clearly. let me go get her, she's sleeping "

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This bitch wants me to die of stress before I even see my kids and play with them. I sit down and close my
eyes and think of my beautiful and pregnant wife. She said yes, her brother said yes and her father said yes so
yes she is my wife. I just need to propose and give her a ring not a big one because luh is not flashy like look
at me I have money. I love that but it doesn't mean that I won't give her my money because I do and I want
her to use my money and blow it on whatever makes her happy. I need to find a ring that fits her like a queen
she is.
Sicelo:" she has locked herself in the bathroom and refuses to come out "
Me:" and you couldn't kick the door open?, dude what's wrong with you ? "
Him:" I'll tell you later, lets get this bitch "
We head upstairs and honestly I don't know what's going on with scelo because his mind is not here. I need to
talk with him and find out what's bothering him. We get in the bathroom and it looks like a mess, like it hasn't
been cleaned in weeks. I try to open the bathroom door but it's locked. I wonder what she's doing there, she
better not try to kill herself.
Me:" nobuhle open the door " I ask her knocking and talking calm and not the way she expected.
Her:" I'm in the loo mbuso what do you want? "
Me:" to talk nobuhle. I have a message for you from luh " it's a lie
Her:" what did she say? "
Me:" you should read it for yourself, open the door "
Her:" I hope you're not lying to me "
Me:" I'm not lying, open the door nobuhle "
I see the door handle turning and it clicks open then it slowly opens and she peeks, looking at us. This bitch
is fucking exhausting me seriously.
Me:" come out and sit on the bed " she looks at us suspiciously then comes out and sits on the bed.
Her:" what's going on, why are you here? "
Me:" you sent for me. You told sicelo that there's something you want to confess to me and so I'm here to hear
what you have to say "
Her:" I didn't talk to him and what did I say that involves you? "
Me:" so he's lying, you didn't say anything? "
Her:" I never said anything to him " she looks down
Sicelo:" you're calling me a lier buhle? "
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Her:" I didn't say that "
Me:" ok lets stop this bullshit. sicelo call celeste here now " I take out my gun and point it to her head, he
leaves.
Her:" what the fuck did you want to say to me ? "
Her:" nothing I swear "
Me:" you have five minutes to talk or else I'm blowing your brains off " Celeste comes in with mbuso
looking like she had a rough night.

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SICELO.
We are in the living now and all our clothes are wet from drowning buhle. I look at mbuso and he looks
exhausted and deep in thought. What buhle said and did is really messed up and I think....no, I know it really
fucked mbuso up. He looks deep in thought like he's not