心を持つ教師へ
This is my first letter to you,
I know that you receive lakhs
of letters each day,but none of them
were from me.So here I am writing
this to you ,my very first letter in my
four years of practice. It's impossible
compress fours years of my journey
with Gohonzon in one letter,but still
I will try my best in this letter to brief
it out.
Life has completely changed after I
have seen the Gohonzon. Despite
the fact that I am a fan of Japanese
Calligraphy and tankas,when I first
saw the Gohonzon, I thought that
it was trying to tell me something.
It was very conversive and mystic.
Sometimes I literally stop chanting
and look at the Gohonzon. I don't
know but I feel an awkward comfort
looking at the Gohonzon,I feel as if
I am talking to someone but yet
nobody is there. It was an abstract
attraction that drew me closer to the
Gohonzon.
When I first started chanting ,I felt the
resonance of Nam-Myo-Ho-Renge-
Kyo in my body,it was as if my soul
was made conscious of the Mystic
Law,especially after a rigorous
Daimoku ,the ringing of the bell feels
like someone is passing a cool thread
of ecstasy through my mind.
The silence of the silent prayer
feels like a conversation
between me and my inner buddha.
I believe that I found my inner peace
In the Gohonzon.
In one of my most unfavorable times
I read a passage from the Gosho
,practice “Suffer what there is to
suffer,
enjoy what there is to enjoy. Regard
both suffering and joy as facts of life,
and continue chanting Nam-myoho
-renge-kyo, no matter what happens.
How could this be anything other
than the boundless joy of the Law?”
First I had a shallow perspective to
life,an escapist to be exact.
I never participated in any stage
events in school,always the last
person to get into a line. An introvert.
To be exact,but this practice,and all
my fellow buddhas, had a very big
hand in removing my introversion.
I realise now the importance of home
visits. I used to visit each and every
member of this practice. Before my
first study in Zadenkai, I was really
nervous but then watching all the
known faces in the crowd ,dissipated
my anxiety. After doing the general
study .I realized that I actually
delivered something to an audience.
It might have been a known set of
people but yet I was happy that I got
rid of my social stagnancy.
The world is has become a purgatory
now.We ourselves have created
demons out of our self satisfaction.
Almost every human being is a
sufferer of these contingencies.
My sole determination is to make
every living being aware of it's inner
consciousness. I determine to
cleanse the karma of this world along
with my fellow bodhisattvas .I will
make sure ,that your prediction of
Kosen in 2030 becomes true
and the world becomes one.
I fervently direct my prayers for a
sole purpose of one true attainment
of Nirvana.
Thank you for reading my
letter so patiently.I will pray for you
and Kaneko sobo everyday.I hope
to see you soon in Japan.
