Well now I have been thinking a lot. I went camping this weekend down in Missouri and I got to do a lot of deep thought. Also I just found out that this guy, Charlie decided he was going to move to Utah all of a sudden. He just joined my chuch, and I was looking forward to hanging out with him, but nothing was tying him down so he decided to just up and move. Things happen though right. Well anyways. I think I have decided what I am going to do with all this job stuff. I am going to apply for the job with the RAID team. I am most likely going to get it. Then I am going to save as much money as possible while I am in the Three year lock in. After that I will decide whether to stay in it, or get out of the AGR program. If I get out I will take all the money I saved and just do college, or if family is in mind at that time, used the money towards that, but I still want to do college too.
I also just talked to Brad my friend from California. I am so confused about him. Sometimes I wish I could just go be with him. Other times I am so confused. I am really attracted to him, but there is just one thing. I am very into religion, and I want to only marry someone of the same religion because it goes along with what I believe. I dont think he would ever fully accept it, and that makes me very sad. I dont know what to think about guys any more. There is also one other guy that I think some day I could marry. He is on a mission right now for our church. That is definately the plus there. Same religion. Who knows what he will think in two years when he gets back, and I do write him, not as often as I should. We cannot talk of such things right now with eachother because he is on his mission, and that makes it very dificult to know what he is thinking completely. oh well I have said enough for one day.