Drug: DMT

They were trying to show me as much as possible.  They were communicating in words.  They were like clowns or jokers or jesters or imps.  There were just so many of them doing their funny little thing.  I settled into it.  I was incredibly still and I felt like I was in an incredibly peaceful place.  Then there was a message telling me that I had been given a gift, that this space was mine and I could go there anytime.  I should feel blessed to have form, to live.  It went on forever.  There were blue hands, fluttering things, then thousands of things flew out of these blue hands.  I thought "What a show!"  It was really healing.

There are surprising and remarkable consistencies among volunteers' reports of contact with nonmaterial beings....  Volunteers find themselves on a bed or in a landing bay, research environment, or high-technology room.  The highly intelligent beings of this "other" world are interested in the subject, seemingly ready for his or her arrival and wasting no time in "getting to work."  There might be one particular being clearly in charge, directing the others.  Volunteers frequently comment about the emotional quality of the relationships: loving, caring, or professionally detached.
Their "business" appeared to be testing, examining, probing, and even modifying the volunteer's mind and body.  Sometimes testing came first, and after results were satisfactory, further interactions took place.  They also communicated with the volunteers, attempting to convey information by gestures, telepathy, or visual imagery.  The purpose of contact was uncertain, but several subjects felt a benevolent attempt on the beings' part to improve us individually or as a race.

There were four to five of them, and they were on me fast. As crazy as this sounds, they looked like saguaro cactuses, flexible, fluid, geometric, green. Not solid. They weren't benevolent, but they weren't nonbenevolent. They probed, really probed. They seemed to know time was limited. They wanted to know what I, this being who had shown up, was doing. I didn't answer. They knew.

it has the quality of an event because it does not touch the core observer.  You are not changed.  What's changed, is the sensory input is changed.  You are still who you are.  You don't think you're god.  You don't feel bad about yourself.  You are exactly who you were before you did it, with the same set of concerns, but you have been whisked into an alien dimension, one you never had imagined existed, or could have, a moment before have conceived of, and suddenly its one hundred percent in place, three hundred and sixty degrees around you.

Naturally, the fact that you're having this experience raises certain fundamental questions, such as "am I dead now, is that what's happened?"  And the entities say, they say, "Don't give way to amazement.  Don't flip out about how you can't believe it and its impossible and so forth, and so on, don't do that.  Just pay attention, pay attention to what we are doing, and what we are showing you."  And what they preach is a new dispensation of language.  A language that can be beheld.  And as you sit there you feel like a bubble form in your stomach and begin to make its way to your mouth, and when it comes out as a kind of a glossolalia, you discover that in that space you too can make jeweled objects with spinning interiors and reflexively rotating sub-themes and so forth and so on.

If one smokes a smaller amount of [this drug], say around [X] mg., they will tend to experience only the visual aspect of the high, without getting in touch with gnomes and discarnate entities. Following is a friend's description of [this drug] visuals produced by smoking [X] mg. doses every 20 to 30 minutes. "The vibration is still very strong at this level... At the peak of the [X] mg. tokes, brilliantly changing latticework becomes apparent within. A gooey liquid of phosphorescent brilliance knits itself into neon lattices of emerald green and iridescent blue against a molten gold background. Always changing, always new, always novel, these geometric storms of shape and color never cease to amaze me with their beauty and intricacy; something one can FEEL as well as see. Clouds of molten gold liquid, boiling, seethe into arabesques and chainwork networks. Each node of each net and lattice form a jeweled point of incredible pure color, all rotating and pulsating through the eyes, brain, and stomach, as one becomes a transparent electric ghost deciphering mysto-glyphs for eternity!"   
This next experience comes from a friend who smoked a full-strength dose. "The stuff hit me instantaneously. MILLIONS of brilliantly colored little 'skull clowns' swarmed me in a most visionary way while emitting crickling, tinging sounds which looked like violet sparks coming out of their mouths. These tiny skull clowns were laughing most musically as I died in the light. Melt down - feels like drowning and being electrocuted at the same time. Some fear is good though, and pretty soon the skull clown swarm had laughed me through death to a place of jeweled coiling roots and capillaries, swaying endlessly in a gem lit sea... The glowing, ember-like afterimage instantly swirls and shatters into blue and red sizzling domes that pinwheel ecstatically into a Creative, God-Thing with a trillion jeweled eyes that dissolves into an atomic ocean. This is the multi-eyed God that is my Creator, Master, Destroyer. I am nothing compared to this Thing which has no ego boundaries whatsoever and can turn into anything it damn well wishes, even death itself if it wants to!" 

Drug: TMA 

[this drug]... has variously been described as having potent hallucinatory effects and as leading to apparently hostile reactions.  More extensive appraisal of this compound in psychotherapeutic settings has confirmed the eyes-opened distortions and occasional hallucinatory phenomena, and strongly suggests that its characteristic property is one of causing projection, in the psychological sense, by the subject.  This can produce visual distortions, delusions (alterations in social perceptions), and sometimes apparently hostile projections which, however, have never led to any overt actions. 

The subject also saw several large catlike animals with "great fangs" which were green in colour.  He claimed that these animals were not molesting him, but were simply in his field of vision.  The subject described himself as being "in the middle of what I see".  The scenes were in three dimensions which the subject said were so exaggerated as to be almost unreal.

she said that she could still see the scene, but that it was changing, even though the stroboscope had been shut off immediately after this scene had been elicited.  The colours were beige, maroon and green.  The whole was in an exaggerated three dimensional form.  Then (with the stroboscope turned off) she saw cities which were large and displayed in front of her eyes as if she were flying over them in an aeroplane.  At this time the subject switched to designs seen on materials, which she kept describing in superlative terms.  She kept remarking that "this is what poets and artists and designers must take to get their inspiration".  She was talking excessively and continuously.  On suggestion she saw among other things, jet aircraft flying over a city, fields of flowers, and many pattern designs...
All her visions were in three dimensions.  She then presented hallucinations of being in various countries of the world, describing story book scenes from each country. 

About 5 hours after administration he would see in his hallucinations anything that was in the conversation at the moment.  He could do this with his eyes open or closed although he felt he saw more with his eyes closed.

Drug: 5-MeO-MIPT  

The speed of onset, the intense depersonalization and loss of immediate contact with one's surroundings, the impressive recall of early memories and the significance of these memories 

I became extremely disoriented from my normal sense of being a person in a body; I was lost in an undifferentiated mass of feeling and non-specific sensation. It was similar to the overwhelming feeling of [other drug] in quality and, as with that material, the peak phase lasted less than 30 minutes.

Even as the letters on the computer screen began to morph into characters from an alien alphabet, even as the patterning became so uncontrollable that I couldn't even see the text anywhere, I continued to type, hoping blindly that everything would be there to read when I sobered up. At some point during this typing, the computer froze, but I wasn't able to tell when this happened because the visuals completely occluded the screen.
While exploring my universe of extraordinary thoughts, I felt a thousand years elapse. When I say 'a thousand years,' I intend no metaphor; I really felt that I had experienced firsthand how very long - and yet also how very fleeting - a thousand years really were...  I experienced death, life, the cosmic, the microscopic, order, chaos, existence, nothingness...
I believed that I had just died and was now being reborn into another life. I lived a lifetime, then died again, and again, and again. Each death was an instant of infinitely compressed blackness and pain and non-personhood, and each life was a blinding swirl of birth and colors and smells and people and pleasure and pain and suffering and ultimate futility, followed by yet another excruciating death and rebirth...

Drug: LSD  

I remember looking at a finely detailed photograph of the Swiss Alps.  I had admired this photograph before, in my pre-[this drug] days an hour or an aeon ago, but now its precision became reality and the temperature plunged and fine crystals of snow whipped across my face and I circled like an eagle above the crags and snowy summits of the mountain top.  An expedition of climbers waved up at me and I lifted one talon to wave back...  
Timmy was the cat and the apocalyptic smell had issued from a single turd he had deposited in the middle of the floor.
I turned my attention from Timmy's tangible residues to Timmy himself.  He stretched himself with infinite grace and arched his back to begin - The Ballet.  Leaping through time and space, he hung like Nijinsky - suspended in the air for a millennium, and then, drifting languidly down to the ground, he pirouetted to a paw-licking standstill.  He then stretched out one paw in a tentative movement and propelled himself into a mighty spiral, whirling into cosmic dust, then up to his toes for a bow to his creation.
He was a cat no longer - but Indra, the primeval God dancing the cosmic dance in that time before time, setting up a rhythmic flux in non-being until it at last had attained to Life.  The animating waves of the Dance of Creation pulsed all around me and I could no longer refuse to join in the dance...

On the street: He thought taxi-cab drivers resembling grotesque charioteers were trying to run him down.  Glass buildings exploded before his eyes and the air around him became filled with countless fragments like flying crystalline needles and knife blades that he feared would slash him to ribbons.

and, looking into a mirror, "aged 2,000 years."  It was, she said, "a steady progression of aging.  I quickly aged through decades until I was a haggard and white-haired seventy, and then the deterioration really set in.  Hundreds of years of ruinous decline made their horrid inroads on my face and figure until at the age of 2,000 I was reduced to a wizened, waxened mummy, eyeless, toothless, and brainless."

taken by friends to a large department store...  S had seen the women around him as "a lot of broken down peacocks trailing bedraggled feathers"; as "clucking, complacent hens"; and, in the Tall Girls' division, as a bunch of "stringy, scrawny, beady-eyed ostriches."  He was led out of the store proclaiming amidst guffaws that "Bloomingdale's is a turned-on barnyard."

Seated in a restaurant where I have been many times before: ... The waiters, I remark, all seem to be pimps, thieves, cutthroats - in a film they surely would be pirates; the tablecloth appears to be worn, dirty and stained; and, across from us, I see great ugly red blotches on the face of a man who is drinking yellow wine and who frequently pauses to lick fat wet lips that are drooling...  a small gray creature, reeking of death and resembling a gargoyle, scurries past the stools lining the bar and is swallowed by a night that has pointed teeth and is yawning.

looked into a mirror and saw himself as the source of great circular loops of neon wires that entirely surrounded him.  The loops were many - "hundreds of thousands" - and consisted of his attachments to himself and to every aspect of his life - "memory loops, love loops, hate loops, eating loops, mental block loops."  Upon re-entering the living room he saw his wife and immediately became absorbed in studying her since she, too, appeared to him to be surrounded by her loops.

twenty-five year old librarian with her friend not using drug, in a national park: I first noticed the effects of the drug when I opened my compact and caught a glimpse of myself in the small mirror.  Staring back at me was an old, wizened face mottled with warts and whiskers.  The eyes were sunk deep in sockets, the mouth was puckered like the ring of an orange peel, and the skin was blotched by a dull brown color...
I noticed that D. had taken off his shirt and was watching me with his hands propped under his head.  He immediately struck me as a beautiful young man, although, in reality, he has an interesting, but not handsome face as understood in conventional terms.  "You're divine," I told him.  He held a flower in his mouth on which he seemed to be playing a seductive tune.  I imagined him as a young Greek god frolicking through the woodlands, piping his merry tune.  Wood nymphs, lake spirits, elfin gods, and all the animal life of the forest gamboled after him over the hills, dales, and streams.  I became a white dove turning slow cartwheels in the sky, watching the tiny figures recede into groves and emerge again on a luscious field.  It was one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen.  In the open meadow, he lay down gazing at the clouds as the sun waxed his limbs.  His band of followers had disappeared and a shower of rose petals fell from a magnificent rainbow, flecking his body with tiny flakes of all different colors.

Self-identity is completely lost, and the self and that which is outside the self fuse.  The ordinary subject-object relationships disappear, along with the conventional separateness of the external object.  The extension of this egolessness can culminate in union or communication with the divine

The sense of self or personal ego is utterly lost.  Awareness of individual identity evaporates.  "I" and "me" are no more.  Subject-object relationships dissolve, and the world is simply an extension of the body, or the mind.  The world shimmers, as if it were charged with a high-voltage current, and the subject feels he could melt into walls, trees, other persons.  It is not that the world lacks substance; it is real, but one is somehow coterminous with it.  And it is fluid, shifting.  One is keenly aware of the atomic substructure of reality...
As for identity, it is not really lost.  On the contrary, it is found; it is expanded to include all that is seen and all that is not seen.  What occurs is simply depersonalization.  The subject looks back on his pre-drug existence as some sort of game or make-believe in which, for some reason, he had felt called upon to assume the reduced identity or smaller self called "I."  Being had concentrated its attention at a single point in order to create, and play, the game of writer, banker, or cat burglar.  Or so it now seems...  Home at last, after that dreadful party, Being slips out of her stays, so to speak, and breathes an ontological sigh of celestial relief.  Consciousness is allowed to scatter, and the subject at last can be Himself again.
The subject is somehow united with the Ground of his Being, with the life force that has created the visible world.  He remembers.  And what he remembers is the true identity that underlies all the individual egos of the world.  He is one again with the universe, the eternal, the Absolute.
He has found himself again.  He is made whole again.  That which he once knew, he has remembered.

experience of cosmic unity.  Its basic characteristics are transcendence of the subject-object dichotomy, exceptionally strong positive affect (peace, tranquility, joy, serenity, and bliss), a special feeling of sacredness, transcendence of time and space, an experience of pure being, and a richness of insights of cosmic relevance.  Subjects frequently talk about timelessness of the present moment and say that they are in touch with infinity.  They refer to this experience as ineffable and emphasize the failure of linguistic symbols and the structure of our language to convey the nature of this event and its significance.  Descriptions of cosmic unity are usually full of paradoxes violating the basic laws and the very essence of Aristotelian logic.  An individual can, for example, talk about this experience as being contentless and yet all-containing; everything that he can possibly conceive seems to be included.  He refers to a complete loss of his ego and yet states that this consciousness has expanded to encompass the whole universe.  He feels awed, humbled, and utterly insignificant but, at the same time, has the feeling of an enormous achievement and experiences himself in cosmic proportions, sometimes to the extent of feeling identified with God.  He can perceive himself and the rest of the phenomenal world as existing and not existing at the same time; and the forms of material objects as being empty and emptiness as having a form.  The subject in this state feels that he has access to direct insightful knowledge and wisdom about matters of fundamental and universal significance.  Usually this does not involve concrete information about specific technical details that could be pragmatically utilized.  Rather, it is a complex revelatory insight into the essence of being and existence.  This insight is typically accompanied by feelings of certainty that such knowledge is ultimately more real and relevant than our concepts and perceptions regarding the world that we share in a usual state of consciousness.

The experience of cosmic unity is characterized by transcendence of the usual subject-object dichotomy.  The individual in this state becomes deeply aware of his or her unity with other people, nature, and the entire universe, and with the ultimate creative principle, or God.  This is accompanied by an overwhelming positive affect that can range from peace, serenity and bliss to an ecstatic rapture.  In this state the categories of space and time are transcended and subjects can perceive themselves as existing outside of the usual space-time continuum.  In the extreme, they may experience eternity and infinity within a period lasting seconds or minutes of actual clocktime.  Other typical characteristics of this state are a sense of sacredness and of ultimate insight into the true and real nature of existence.

I saw the center of the flower slowly eating away at the petals...  Then in a flash of insight I realized to my horror that the black thing was actually devouring me.  I was the flower and this foreign, creeping thing was eating me!  ...
I felt myself dissolving into the terrifying apparition, my body melting in waves into the core of blackness, my mind stripped of ego and life and, yes even death.  In one great crystal instant I realized that I was immortal.  I asked the question: "Am I dead?"  But the question had no meaning.  Meaning was meaningless.  Suddenly there was white light and the shimmering beauty of unity.  There was light everywhere, white light with a clarity beyond description.  I was dead and I was born and the exultation was pure and holy.  My lungs were bursting with the joyful song of being.  There was unity and life and the exquisite love that filled my being was unbounded.  My awareness was acute and complete.  I saw God and the devil and all the saints and I knew the truth.  I felt myself flowing into the cosmos, levitated beyond all restraint, liberated to swim in the blissful radiance of the heavenly visions.
I wanted to shout and sing of miraculous new life and sense and form, of the joyous beauty and the whole mad ecstasy of loveliness.  I knew and understood all there is to know and understand.  I was immortal, wise beyond wisdom, and capable of love, of all loves.  Every atom of my body and soul had seen and felt God.  The world was warmth and goodness.  There was no time, no place, no me.  There was only cosmic harmony.  It was all there in the white light.  With every fiber of my being I knew it was so.

... as I lay on a cot, and I did float downstream, leave my friends, the bed, the waves, myself, and the universe as I had known it, and passed through progressive visions each more ecstatic, powerful, and subtle than the prior ones.  The deeper I went, the more familiar and wonderful it was.  I felt I was going to my eternal home...
I died, it seemed, as completely as one can die and found myself at one with all that is, beyond space and time, birth and death, bathed in love - it was always changing - and then, the dualism even of this oneness gave way and mind opened to the experience of the clear light, of which, later, I could really say nothing but that the experience seemed to be the crowning glory of all that is and isn't.  I felt that I had experienced what a Hindu text described as greater than if ten thousand suns were to explode in the sky.  I don't know how I can say this because none of these experiences can be remembered any more than the Pacific Ocean can fit into a thimble, but I came back saying that the clear light was pure, unborn, ecstatic - things like that.  On that evening I emerged from the clear light into a calmer, perfect, absolute, vast clarity with no sense of identity or physicality in it, a state not characterized by any mundane attributes such as existence, experience, or anything.

The common denominator of this otherwise rich and ramified group of phenomena is the subject's feeling that his or her consciousness has expanded beyond the usual ego boundaries and has transcended the limitations of time and space...
Many experiences belonging to this category are interpreted by the subjects as regressions in historical time and explorations of their biological or spiritual past.  It is not unusual in psychedelic sessions to experience quite concrete and realistic episodes identified as fetal and embryonic memories.  Many subjects report vivid sequences on the level of cellular consciousness which seem to reflect their existence in the form of a sperm or ovum at the moment of conception.  Sometimes the regression appears to go even further and the individual has a convinced feeling of reliving memories from the lives of his or her ancestors, or even drawing on the racial and collective unconscious.  On occasion, [this drug] subjects report experiences in which they identify with various animal ancestors in the evolutionary pedigree or have a distinct feeling of reliving episodes from their existence in a previous incarnation.
Some other transpersonal phenomena involve transcendence of spatial rather than temporal barriers.  Here belong the experiences of merging with another person into a state of dual unity or completely identifying with him or her, turning into the consciousness of an entire group of persons or expanding one's consciousness to the extent that it seems to encompass all of mankind.  In a similar way, one can transcend the limits of the specifically human experience and tune in to what appears to be the consciousness of animals, plants, or even inanimate objects.  In the extreme, it is possible to experience the consciousness of all creation, of our planet, of the entire material universe...

To my great surprise, my ego identity was suddenly changed.  I was my mother at the age of three or four; it must have been the year 1902.  I was dressed up in a starched, fussy dress and hiding underneath the staircase; my eyes were dilated like those of a frightened animal, and I felt anxious and lonely.  I was covering my mouth with my hand, painfully aware that something terrible had just happened.  I had said something very bad, was criticized, and someone roughly put their hand over my mouth.  From my hideout, I could see a scene with many relatives - aunts and uncles, sitting on the porch of a frame house, in old-fashioned dresses characteristic of that time.  Everybody seemed to be talking, unmindful of me.  I had a sense of failure and felt overwhelmed by the unrealistic demands of the adults - to be good, to behave myself, to talk properly, not to get dirty - it seemed so impossible to please them.  I felt excluded, ostracized, and ashamed.

After some time I was able to recognize to my great surprise that I was a spermatozoid and that the explosive regular impulses were generated by a biological pacemaker and transmitted to a long flagella flashing in vibratory movements...
Experiencing myself as a spermatozoid competing for the egg, I was conscious of all the processes involved...  The consciousness of this spermatozoid was a whole autonomous microcosm, a universe of its own.  There was a clear awareness of the biochemical processes in the nucleoplasm; in a nebulous atmosphere I could recognize the structure of the chromosomes, individual genes, and molecules of DNA.  I could perceive their physiochemical configuration as being simultaneously elements of ancestral memories, primordial phylogenetic forms, nuclear forms of historical events, myths, and archetypal images.  Genetics, biochemistry, mythology, and history seemed to be inextricably interwoven and were just different aspects of the same phenomenon...
During the sperm race my consciousness was alternating between that of the sperm heading toward its destination and that of the egg with a vague but strong expectation of an overwhelming event.  At the time of conception these two split units of consciousness came together, and I was both germinal cells at the same time...
After the fusion of the germ cells the experience continued, still in the same hectic pace set by the sperm race.  In a condensed and accelerated way, I experienced embryogenesis following conception.  There was again the full conscious awareness of biochemical processes, cellular divisions, and tissue growth.  There were numerous tasks to be met and critical periods to overcome.  I was witnessing the differentiation of tissues and formation of new organs.  I became the branchial arches, the pulsating fetal heart, columns of liver cells, and cells of the intestinal mucous membrane.  An enormous release of energy and light accompanied the embryonal development.  I felt that this blinding golden glow had something to do with the biochemical energy involved in the precipitous growth of cells and tissues.  At one point, I had a very definite feeling of completion of the fetal development; this was experienced again as a great accomplishment - individual success as well as triumph of the creative force of nature. 

After we crossed the threshold of life and death, I found myself in an uncanny and frightening world.  It was filled with fluorescent ether of a strangely macabre nature.  There was no way of assessing whether the space involved was finite or infinite.  An endless number of souls of deceased human beings were suspended in the luminescent ether; in an atmosphere of peculiar distress and disquieting excitement, they were sending me nonverbal messages through some unidentifiable extrasensory channels.  They appeared unusually demanding, and it seemed as if they needed something from me.  In general, the atmosphere reminded me of the descriptions of the underworld that I had read in Greek literature.  But the objectivity and reality of the situation was beyond my imagination - it provoked a state of sheer and utter metaphysical horror that I cannot even start describing.  My father was present in this world as an astral body; since I entered this world in union with him, his astral body was as if superimposed over mine...  It was by far the most frightening experience of my life...

Drug: 5-MeO-DMT  

Within thirty seconds, there will be an onset of almost overwhelming psychedelic effects. You will be completely absorbed in a complex chemical event characterized by an overload of thoughts and perception, brief collapse of the EGO, and loss of the space-time continuum. Relax, breathe regularly, and flow with the experience. After two to three minutes, the initial intensity fades to a pleasant [other drug]-like sensation in which visual illusions, hallucinations, and perceptual distortions are common.

I can literally feel my mind exploding and expanding outward to encompass first the area near me, then the planet, and eventually the cosmos. This takes place over a span of 15 seconds or so.

it began with a fast-rising sense of excitement and wonder, with an undertone of "Now you've done it," but dominated by a sense of, "WOW, This Is IT!" There was a tremendous sense of speed and acceleration In perhaps 10 more seconds these feelings built to an intensity I had never experienced before. The entire universe imploded through my consciousness. It's as if the mind is capable of experiencing a very large number of objects, situations and feelings, but normally perceives them only one at a time. I felt that my mind was perceiving them all at once. There was no distance, no possibility of examining the experience. This was simply the most intense experience possible; a singularity, a white-out (as opposed to a black out), I have little memory of the state itself. I have no memory, for example, of whether my eyes were opened or closed. After some seconds or minutes, it started to fade and came to resemble a merely intense psychedelic state. Here I had the feeling, a visualization of being part of the universe of beings, all active in our daily, interwoven tasks, still moving at an incredible rate, and with a longing for a single group / organism awareness and transcendence. In a few more minutes it faded to an alert (+ one) state with an additional sense of awe and wonder, relief, and a strong feeling of gratitude toward the universe in general, for the experience.

It had the brightness of myriad suns, yet it was not on the same continuum with any light I knew from everyday life. It seemed to be pure consciousness, intelligence, and creative energy transcending all polarities. It was infinite and finite, divine and demonic, terrifying and ecstatic, creative and destructive-all that and much more. I had no concept, no categories for what I was witnessing.  I could not maintain a sense of separate existence in the face of such a force. My ordinary identity was shattered and dissolved; I became one with the Source.

My normal physical perceptions dissolved away from my awareness. My ears started to ring and I started to float off. I was acutely aware of a certain resonation of my aural perception, an electrical buzzing that fluctuated in synch with my visual perception. What I saw can only be described as a fantastically subtle multicolored phosphene, completely filling every area visually available. I say it in this way because I was simultaneously losing contact with my body, I could not tell if my eyes were open or shut, although I initially had the feeling that they were darting back and forth, from side to side. These feelings and sensations built up in intensity very quickly, a matter of seconds: I can remember this feeling of building intensity up to a point, and then I was not there in my body or in time. In the 10 to 15 minutes that my body was under the influence of the drug my mind was completely referenceless, there was no way for my consciousness to limit or gauge the stimuli my being was barraged with. I remember switching to a perception where the endless and intricate phosphene was love and the energy of light.

I beheld every thought that was going on everywhere in the universe and all possible realities while I was wracked out with this horrible ruthless love. It scared the hell out of me. When I could see again (15 minutes later) it was almost as if there was an echo of a thought in my head saying that I was given an extremely rare look at the true consciousness of it all. I've never been hit this hard since then.

A shattering annihilation, a feeling of being inside a nuclear explosion, being fragmented into countless tiny shards.  I felt as though I was being turned inside out, like my innards were extruding through my mouth...
Images of decapitation, dismemberment, disembowelment flashed by, in rapid succession, including an image of being run through the chest with a sword - yet there was no fear or horror associated with these images.  The following thoughts occurred: 'Death comes to all, now it's your turn, this is it, the termination.  Resistance is impossible and pointless besides - it's too late, the annihilation has already happened.'  As I gradually came back into my body, after ten minutes in real time, I felt bathed in pure joy and completely at peace with myself, the world and my death.

Drug: DPT  

At low-dose levels ([X]-[Y] mg.), the main phenomena of clinical relevance are an intensification of emotions, heightened fantasy activity, confrontation of previously repressed or denied aspects of the self, serious examination of life values and priorities, recovery of emotionally relevant positive or negative memories, and enhanced insight into personal dynamics...  Patients are usually able to maintain adequate reality contact at dose levels up to [Y] mg., whereas at higher dose levels, there is likely to be progressively greater loss of ego boundaries.  Also, at higher dosages there is an increased probability that the drug will produce abreaction and catharsis of repressed emotions, deeper states of psychological regression, activation of archetypal material and peak experiences that can have profound religious or philosophical significance for the patient.

I first went to a place that seemed to completely lack the qualities of this world as we know it.  I seemed to transcend time and space and I lost complete identification with the "real" world.  The experience seemed to me to be as if I was going from this world back to another world before this life had occurred...  The actual changing from this life to whatever was before this life seemed to be involved in a very bright silver mass of energy with very strong electrical current...  Strangely enough I felt that I had been in that mass of energy at one time before.  When I was there everything seemed to make sense...  It was a very beautiful world, one in which love was very much a part...  The basic theme that I perceived... was that life continues to go on and we are basically some form of essence from a Supreme Being and we are part of that Supreme Being...  We really don't have the final control per se over life or death.

A female subject... experienced herself in a visionary synagogue during the action of [this drug].  In the experiential sequence reported, she described being met by a wise old man she called God and taken by the hand to the ark in the front of the sanctuary where she was given a Torah to carry as a sign that, in her words, she was "forgiven" and had "come home."  

Another patient described a visionary scene of being on a mountaintop where he was embraced by two figures that he identified as Christ and the Holy Spirit.  Concomitant with this embrace, he claimed to have experienced an intuitive insight that, in spite of his cancer, life still somehow made sense and there was no ground for anxiety.  

We were listening to moody techno music.  With each change in beat, with each skitter of sampled noise, I saw a brand-new and extremely detailed demonic realm swirl before me in cobalt, scarlet, purple gossamer hues.  At moments there seemed to be some incredibly elegant yet violently orgiastic party taking place with beautiful females in evening gowns and men in Edwardian topcoats in the spacious parlors of a huge and opulent mansion.  At other times there seemed to be bat or butterfly-winged creatures - long and quivering antennaes, velvet coats and emerald eyes, stiletto talons - rising into otherworldly skies, wandering futuristic cities.  I had an impression of tremendous vanity.  "I" was being used as a mirror for [this drug] beings to admire themselves.  But their realm was far beyond what can be expressed in ordinary language in its speed of transmutation, its shivering quicksilver beauty.
The worlds revealed were like endless facets of a twirling diamond - I felt the real possibility of being trapped inside of those facets, a kind of soul-prison, for eternity.  That was the terror of it...
For a flicker of forever, I was imprisoned in a postmodern bar surrounded by gleaming mirrors with a hyperslick lounge lizard wearing a white mohawk and synthetic fabrics.  He was sitting at the bar, drinking a highball.  The graphics of this vision were high-res and hyperperfect.  Other shards of the [this drug] realm shared this sci-fi quality.  [this drug] was a postmodern demonic MTV psychedelic.
The sleek, rhythmical mesh of the music seemed woven into the lurid fabric of the darkness, the revelation of sinister forces coming to life behind my eyelids.
Like [other drug A], the level of visual organization of the [this drug] realm was far beyond anything that the synaptical wiring of my brain could create - it was, in its own peacock-feathery way, not just as real as this reality, but far more real, crackling with power.  I felt from the entities exploring my mind a kind of contempt, a disdain for human beings trapped in our pitifully unsophisticated domain, or meat realm.  They seemed somewhere between bemused and enraged that we had trespassed...
With my eyes opened, transformational energy seemed to be crawling over everything, flickering and receding like waves of sentient power - vampiric electricity.  My hands looked and felt like claws made out of wires.  When I opened my eyes on [other drug B], I also felt and saw energy passing like a wave form, but it was more human somehow.  Here the speed of the waves was much faster and more brutal than the [other drug B] flares.  The experience was unmammalian, futuristic, inhuman...
The word baroque doesn't even begin to describe the jaded emptiness and sublime beauty of that evanescent empire.  A little bit like soft candle-flimmer worlds one sees on [other drug C] and [other drug D], but etched in perfect solid-state reality - more than photographic.  The sleekness of the [this drug] dimension was beyond belief.

Drug: 5-MeO-DIPT  

[this drug] is an extremely potent material... the dose-to-response curve is extremely steep.
Orally: At lower doses ([X]-[Y]mg), [this drug] induces a warm, pleasant state in which tactile and aural sensations may also be enhanced. Many people have commented that at this dosage range it possesses wonderful aphrodesiac qualities. As the dosage increases past the [Y]mg mark, the effects become increasingly psychedelic, producing vivid visuals and mental phenomenon similar to [other drugs]. Taking over [Z]mg at once is not recommended... 

The visuals I have had at higher doses have been extremely intense, bright, 'swirly' extensions of the subtler visuals I get at lower doses. Sometimes on the substance my body feels like a flame or a wave, even if I am just sitting down. My thoughts are clear and lucid, not anxiety ridden.

[this drug] sure is a subtle drug. The dose-response curve seems to be very steep, with higher doses ([X] mgs +) giving a very high body load, but increasing the OEV's [open eyed visuals]

I had some great experiences, such as seeing Jesus come out of the wall, then turn into satan, reminding me of the duality of our existence.

The 'reverse spiral of my life' began. (My friend J said my eyes were open most of the time, so everything that occurred from this point on was apparently OEV's [open eyed visuals]). It all began with me being put into about 6 or so different settings, My classrooms at school, my office, my house, my car, parties I have attended recently, the dorm room I was currently tripping in and on my computer. I would enter a setting and see the people that belonged to that setting. I would see my mom and sister and dog at my house, I would see my boss and co-workers in the office...etc. I soon began to run through conversations and events that had occurred in the past week or so with these people. Every time I became bored of a certain setting I would take a big step in another direction of the room thus moving me into a different setting, and send me through an event that occurred that week in that setting. But I would always return back to the dorm room though. Soon events that had happened that week began to disappear, and events that happened a month ago began to cycle through my head. And soon enough these events disappeared as well and events that happened 3 months ago were going through my mind.

I found myself with feelings of paranoia, like someone was watching me. The motion trails very slightly disconcerting though with bright lights they became entertaining. Dark shadows were much more scary and disturbing. Looking up at clouds and into the trees in a forest, shapes started forming in a sinister manner. Dark angels, skulls, demonic butterflies, and evil looking faces were the only images I was seeing, though personally I was having a good time and was in a positive mood, it was very disconcerting.

Now the entire ground was shifting into different fractals. They looked like ice crystals, I searched for a 'ground zero' for the origin of these, but I did not find it. The snow in the cracks of the sidewalks also began bubbling, as if they were a baking soda volcano, like the ones I made in grade school. The corner of the roof over the porch was bending down...  I could look at my hand and see the different layers of my body. I could see my skin, underneath that were my nerves and then my blood vessels, under that I could see my muscles and bones. All of this just by staring at my hand (another friend later reported this happened to her too.) Also I saw red, orange and black skeletons of everything. Skeletons of fire. The shingles on the outside of the house had their own skeletons of fire. The red door on the house would change shades, and design on the outside of the door changed into otherworldly designs.

Drug: Psilocin  

At very low doses, the visual effects of [this drug] are very subtle.  Colors become more vivid and light takes on a luminous, ethereal quality.  Slight distortions in the visual field present themselves, but only subtly.
As the dosage and strength of [this drug] increase, so do the visual effects.  At slightly higher doses...  Objects also begin to visually flow and melt with movement being the most defining characteristic of these visuals.  All the world becomes movement, change, and flow.  Light becomes extremely beautiful at this point and can be endlessly engrossing.
At still higher doses and potency the visuals become even stronger.  Patterns of flow, movement, and change are no longer confided to the surface of objects, but can fill all of the visual space of a person's perception...
At these doses, it is common to perceive oneself as embodied in these different patterns as the normal sense of one's physical body is transcended.  Spiritual explorers may feel themselves as geometric shapes filling a room or extending on out into space.  Scenes may also begin to unfold in these visions, complete with characters, architecture, and other places and other times.  The geometric forms can also coalesce into definite figures or personas that may interact with the visionary or may present a form of communication.
At the highest doses, the physical world melts away and one becomes completely immersed in the visionary world of [this drug].  Profound states of consciousness are reached therein and revelations and awakenings are common.  Deep levels of synaesthesia are also reached where sounds, colors, smells, movements, and all the senses cross over into each other, opening the visionary up to radically altered ways of experiencing and appreciating the senses and their methods of processing information.
The visual aspects of [this drug] are beautiful and can be infinitely engrossing.  They fill the world with a profound sense of wonder and awe, revealing the magic and mystery that embraces all things.  Nature takes on a deep living quality and all things are perceived as expressive, alive, and intelligent.  It is a true opening to the mystical powers of the mind and human awareness.

The sense that all is One, that I experienced the essence of the Universe

To cease to 'BE', as I understand it, was not frightening. It was safe and much greater than I have words for or understanding of. Whatever is larger than the state of being is what was holding me.

The feeling of no boundaries - where I didn't know where I ended and my surroundings began. Somehow I was able to comprehend what oneness is.

The breath of God/wind/and my breath are all the same...

The part that continues to stick out for me was 'knowing' and 'seeing' and 'experiencing' with every sense and fiber of my being that all things are connected.

The complete and utter loss of self... The sense of unity was awesome...

The visions had started. They reached a plateau of intensity deep in the night, and they continued at that level until about 4 o'clock... We were never more wide awake, and the visions came whether our eyes were opened or closed. They emerged from the center of the field of vision, opening up as they came, now rushing, now slowly, at the pace that our will chose. They were in vivid color, always harmonious. They began with art motifs, angular such as might decorate carpets or textiles or wallpaper or the drawing board of an architect. Then they evolved into palaces with courts, arcades, gardens--resplendent palaces all laid over with semiprecious stones. Then I saw a mythological beast drawing a regal chariot. Later it was though the walls of our house had dissolved, and my spirit had flown forth, and I was suspended in mid-air viewing landscapes of mountains, with camel caravans advancing slowly across the slopes, the mountains rising tier above tier to the very heavens. Three days latter, when I repeated the same experience in the same room with the same [persons], instead of mountains I saw river estuaries, pellucid water flowing through an endless expanse of reeds down to a measureless sea, all by the pastel light of a horizontal sun. This time a human figure appeared, a woman in primitive costume, standing and staring across the water, enigmatic, beautiful, like a sculpture except that she breathed and was wearing woven colored garments. It seemed as though I was viewing a world of which I was not a part and with which I could not hope to establish contact. There I was, poised in space, a disembodied eye, invisible, incorporeal, seeing but not seen.

Drug: 2C-B  

an intoxication state which is, in normal subjects, of short duration and of greatly increased sensory enhancement, but which does not superimpose hallucinogenesis....
a ... state of intoxication, one quite separate and distinct from that usually associated with the "psychotomimetic" or "hallucinogenic" drug.  Rather than showing signs of stimulation, the subject becomes passive and relaxed and is aware of an integration of sensory perception with emotional state (although not experiencing the lassitude characteristic of [other drug]).  Except for the consistent perceptual enhancement noted, there are no effects that can be called hallucinogenic.  At these dose levels there is a considerable euphoria with an increased body awareness and increased receptiveness of visual, auditory, olifactory, and tactile sensation.  The integration of sensory and emotional states induces in most subjects a feeling of security and an ability to cope with incidents and experiences that might have led, with drugs such as [other drug], to a state of anxiety and possible panic.

At high doses (above [X] mgs.), [this drug] is intensely hallucinogenic, and, like any major psychedelic, can be frightening for certain people.  In small doses, it becomes a mild sensory enhancer but does not have the strongly empathogenic qualities that [other drug] has.

[T]mg - A feeling of things being slightly 'different', a mild sort of buzz and generally quite relaxing. Thoughts remain pretty logical and rational. This dose is quite nice as a general pick-me-up or something to take before a social occasion. 
[U]mg - One definitely knows that the world has changed. Colours seem slightly brighter, thought processes become more trippy. Music sounds much better. All very manageable. I wouldn't of course recommend driving, but I have found myself quite capable of doing so at this dose. 
[V]mg - Multiply the last paragraph by two. Slight morphing and patterning starts to become evident. Objects start to seem much more rounded and organic. Various physical symptoms such as a slight rise in body temperature, slight thirst, increased heart beat. Sensuality starts to get quite pronounced. 
[W]mg - Approaching the true shores of psychedelia. Strong patterning effects (though these tend to decrease the more one uses this compound). Body often feels really great, sensual, and co-ordinated, but not a good idea to drive a vehicle in this state. With eyes closed there is much shifting colour, internal imagery and a general state of pleasant reverie. Excellent empathogenic interaction with others. 
[X]mg - A true psychedelic state that could be aptly described as a sort of blend of a comparatively low dose of [other drug] and [other drug]. 
[Y]-[Z]mg - Very Powerful psychedelic effects. With eyes closed one enters into all sorts of visionary realms, however one's sense of time is not terribly affected as is usually the case with most other major psychedelics.

I saw Escher things in the ceiling design... the displays seen in the bark of the eucalyptus trees, and the torment and fear (of others? of themselves?) in the faces of those who were walking towards us, were as dramatic as anything I had seen in the art galleries.

I looked up at the nearest mountain, and through the darkness I saw a shimmering psychedelic pattern forming out of the rocks. The visuals were already more pronounced and forceful than [other drug]. As soon as I looked at the mountain, I was peaking. I turned back and peered at the fire...  inside the burning & crackling firewood were millions of individual objects all demanding my vision at once. The fire was truly alive and I saw each aspect of the flames and the base of the flames as they rose up....  Many colors of the rainbow were being exerted from the power of the flames, and it was the most awesome fire I had ever seen.
Once I got settled in, and really opened my eyes to the stars, all I could say was 'Oh my god'. I was transported into my own world, surrounded by a spherical globe of light. Each of the stars were playing 'connect-the-dots' with others, and they all formed the outer edges of 'my' known universe. A slang term for [this drug] was dubbed '[this drug]' when it became popular in the early/mid 90's, and I realized why. The dictionary definition of that word is 'A means of connection, a link or tie.' and 'The core or center', and that made perfect sense to me. I was the center of the universe in which everything around me was linked to one another. Every feeling, emotion, particle of energy, was all streaming and reflecting through the universe with one another. This was the deepest moment of my trip and I just laid there with my mouth hanging open, arms stretched...

My depth perception was so off that I could not solidly distinguish between which trees were close and which one were far away, and they shifted in between each other and changed distances as we were watching them. The small branches greatly resembled fractals at the top where they bled in with the sky and the spaces between the twigs and branches in the body of the trees resembled octagonal prisms. In fact all the general hallucinations were geometric, leaning more towards circular, hexagonal or octagonal.

Still pictures on computer screens were flowing like liquid. In fact, that is probably the best way to describe the visuals. Fluid. Liquid. Tracing, without too much randomness. An example....I looked out upon Market Street in SF (my friends live on the top of Twin Peaks-beautiful view) and was able to view most of the San Francisco bay area. All the street lights were glowing a soft yellow light. This was normal...this exactly existed. This didn't: beside each yellow street light was an accompanying purple light. These lights, in tandom, would start to swirl in circular patterns, like fireflies....hundreds of them. When it became too chaotic, they would snap back to their original position...and repeat. My description does not give it justice...

With open eyes, the hallucinations were very unpleasant (both aesthetically and emotionally ugly). Multiple outline images formed around objects or people and were made up of small angular geometric components. Colors were ugly blue-greens and oranges, not very bright, rather grey-toned. Unlike [other drug] 'time-slicing' (our term) or 'trails' (Stafford's term), the multiple images were incoherent; 'trails' tend to leave a track like a meteor, [this drug] multiimages were scattered around the object like dozens of TV ghosts. At points in the bathroom tile, edges of walls or window frames, ugly little geometric forms appeared to crawl out. Visuals became more intense and more ugly during the peak hour--they squirmed in an icky, disjointed fashion.

On most hallucinogens, you can make things move if you stare at em for a bit, but in this world, EVERYTHING is moving and doesn't stop. Which made me start to feel motion sickness. I saw 4 foot flourescent spheres float by with intricate fractal patterns on them. Our 'guide' ... was flipping tv channels and ... then proceeded to wheel of fortune where I can swear the people were in the middle of the living room and letters were flying by us.

As I looked up at the wall something began to change immeasurably. Neon DNA-like strands began to grow out of the wall and get bigger and bigger. Some of them were about the thickness of a tree trunk, all different colours, glowing, metallic.

Drug: 2C-E 

There was a strange devil-angel pairing. As I was being told of the ecstatic white-light ascent of my partner into the God-space of an out-of-body experience, I was fighting my way out of a brown ooze.  She saw the young Jesus at the bottom of a ladder drifting upwards step by step to some taking-off place, and I saw all the funny gargoyles around the base of the ladder surrounded by picnic bunting.  For me it was the 4th of July, rather than Easter!

I was a two-year-old child on my father's lap, being instructed with love in the Russian words that illustrated the alphabet, from a child's book of Russian letters.  I heard my father say the letter, then the word, and I was repeating both while squirming in his lap...
This was not a memory of being two years old in my father's lap; this was actually being two years old in his lap.  I was looking out of two-year-old eyes at the pages of the book and I could see the colored letters on the paper, in a room which was extremely high and wide and long.

The view out of the window was unreal. The garden was painted on the window, and every petal of flower and tuft of grass and leaf of tree was carefully sculptured in fine strokes of oil paint on the surface of the glass. It was not out there; it was right here in front of me. The woman who was watering the plants was completely frozen, immobilized by Vermeer. And when I looked again, she was in a different place, but again frozen. I was destined to become the eternal museum viewer.

Drug: DIPT  

Wild effects noted in an hour.  Remarkable changes in sounds heard. My wife's voice is basso, as if she had a cold -- my ears with slight pressure as if my tubes were clogged but they aren't.  Radio voices are all low, music out of key.  Piano sounds like a bar-room disaster.  The telephone ringing sounds partly underwater.

Abrupt sounds have golden spikes attached to them as after-sounds, but I can't focus in on any other sensory changes.  I moved into a completely quiet environment and there don't appear to be any effects of any kind.  If I were deaf, this would have been an inactive compound.

Everything was auditory, and I can only describe it with a '!'

a definite change in hearing was observed.  There was a decrease in high frequency acuity with an unusual tonal shift of all frequencies to a lower pitch.  Voices sounded very similar to a single side-band radio signal which had been mistuned to the low side of the center frequency.  All familiar sounds became foreign, including the chewing of food.  No effects were noted with respect to clarity of speech, and both comprehension and interpretation were normal.  Music was rendered completely disharmonious although single tones sounded normal.  There were no changes in vision, taste, smell, appetite, vital signs, or motor coordination.

there was a feeling of foreboding. The light was there, but [this drug] was the body of Satan.  The voices of people were extremely distorted -- males sounded like frogs -- children sounded like they were talking through synthesizers to imitate outer space people in science fiction movies.  In fact I felt that I was somehow sent into an anti-universe where everything looked the same as normal but was a cold and empty imitation.  I felt I was a fallen angel.

Drug: MDA  

a vivid personal experience, about twenty-five years ago...  Forty-five minutes after the second dosage of [this drug], when I was seated in a room by myself, not smoking, and where there was no possible source of smoke rings, an abundance of curling gray smoke rings was readily observed in the environment whenever a relaxed approach to subjective observation was used. Visually, these had complete reality; and it seemed quite unnecessary to test their properties because it was surely known and fully appreciated that the source of the visual phenomena could not be external to the body.
When I concentrated my attention on the details of the curling gray forms by trying to note how they would be affected by passing a finger through their apparent field, they melted away. Then, when I relaxed again, the smoke rings were there. I was as certain they were really there as I am now sure that my head is on top of my body...
No hallucinatory colors in any form were observed, nor was there any notable relative change in the observation of colors in the environment.
[Person A]: The only hallucinatory phenomena, as far as I know, were the gray smoke rings, and these had a reality, as I said, that left no question. I sat there and watched them.
[Person B]: were they moving?
[Person A]: They tended to move slightly, in slow motion.
[Person B]: If you turned your head, did they move with your head?
[Person A]: No, they filled the air around me. When I paid attention to them, they would disappear. Then I would relax, and they would appear again. This phenomenon was repeated many times.
[Person B]: They weren't in the periphery, when you tuned to face them? Did they disappear when you tuned to look at them? Would they go, like one of those little things in one's vitrieous?
[Person A]: No, it was nothing of that kind. There were a great many of them.
[Person B]: There were many, many rings?
[Person A]: The visual field was filled.
[Person B]: Many small rings or one big ring?
[Person A]: They were fairly uniform in size.

In spite of the expectation that [this drug] would be a hallucinogen, none of the subjects reported hallucinations, perceptual distortions, or eye-closed imagery within the dosages employed.  Yet a similarity was pointed out by all participants between [this drug] and their previous experience with [other drug].  It was stated that both drugs had brought about an intensification of feelings, a facilitation of self-insight, a heightened empathy or aesthetic enjoyment at some point during the intoxication...
it affects the feelings in a way which is comparable to that observed with hallucinogens, but it does not bring about the perceptual phenomena, depersonalization, or disturbances of thought which characterize those substances.

This was first described pharmacologically by [Person A] (11) who reported visual effects at some X mg.  Subsequent experience (12) on a more extensive number of subjects has shown modest, if any, distortion or change of either visual or auditory perception, but rather a pronounced increase in emotional effect, which has proved to be of considerable value in psychotherapy.

[this drug]... is characterized mainly by its effects of feeling enhancement, sharpening of attention, increased fluency in associations and communication...  Yet the quality that makes [this drug, other drug X, other drug Y, and other drug Z] valuable to psychotherapy is that of facilitating access to otherwise unconscious processes, feelings, or thoughts, a quality that deserves to be called "psychedelic" in the sense of the word intended by Osmond: "mind-manifesting."  Since they differ from the hallucinogens in that they do not bring about the perceptual phenomena, depersonalization, or changes in thinking characteristic of the latter and yet share with them an intensification of awareness, they might well be called non-psychotomimetic psychedelics.

[Person A]'s experience was mainly one of heightened introspection and attention, but at the time of the onset of subjective effects he saw illusory smoke rings about him, which led him to believe that [this drug] would be a hallucinogen in sufficient amounts.  From my own research with the drug, this does not quite appear to be the case.  In a first study designed to describe its effects in normal individuals, not one of the eight subjects reported hallucinations, visual distortions, color enhancement, or mental imagery, while all of them evidenced other pronounced reactions: enhancement of feelings, increased communication, and heightened reflectiveness, which led to a concern with their own problems and those of society or mankind.

One aspect of this experience is it entails the sensing of the immediate reality. In contrast with the person under the effect of [other drug], who is prone to see gods or devils, impersonal forces being manifested through his personal existence, here the individual's consciousness is centered on the unique qualities of his tactile, proprioceptive, auditory, and other sensations. And these by no means show demons or abstract principals, but the subject's particular reality. Records of [this drug] sessions abound in such discovery of particulars, which are often clues to unresolved past situation.

2) Linton-Lang Questionnaire as modified by Ludwig-Levine. - Table 3 lists the means and percentages of items endorsed on the categories of the Questionnaire.  The major effects of [this drug] are in the area of seeing new or changed meaning in experience (Meaning Change 45%).  The drug produces only minimal changes in the sense of body awareness (Body Image Change 14%), while alterations in perception of the external environment are practically non-existent (Perceptual Change 5%).  There is a moderate alteration in the perception of time (Disturbed Time Sense 29%).  The low score on the Loss of Control Scale (14%) indicates that drug action at this dose level is not experienced as overwhelming or unmanageable.

Judging from a summation of the impressions obtained from the questionnaire responses and clinical observations, [this drug] facilitates a state of mind characterized by increased introspectiveness, heightened self-awareness and greater intuitiveness and was associated with emotional states that were described as those of relaxation, acceptance, calmness and serenity.  More intense emotional reactions were reported by a few of the subjects.  However, they did not feel overwhelmed by, or unable to maintain perspective about their condition.  Intense fear and anxiety reactions rarely occurred at this dose level.  In some, the drug appeared to induce a state of greater openness in which the individual's responsiveness to music was enhanced and the capacity for rapport and empathy increased.  For many of the subjects, the experience took on the overtones of deep personal and philosophical-religious meaning.

Our initial experiences with small doses in this population confirmed [Person]'s observation that material from the personal history of the patient was brought into the foreground during the period of drug action.  The reliving of childhood experiences appears to have a unique quality under the effects of [this drug].  The ego functions are intact and provide a sense of perspective often lacking in the same type of experiences under the effects of other psychedelics ([A] or [B]).  The patient maintains an awareness of the present reality and the fact that this is an experience from the past... 

Medium doses produced a notable increase in the intensity of external catharsis and a decrease in the facility with which the experience could be shared verbally as it was taking place.  The majority of patients were able to communicate verbally during experiences at this dose range; however, there was much more of a tendency to remain within the experience rather than describe it as it was taking place...  There was a dramatic increase in experiences of an archetypal nature.  Visions were reported with greater frequency and mystical experiences occurred with ego-transcendent aspects not encountered in low doses.

High doses of [this drug]...  Patients tended to be more absorbed in the unfolding of inner experience, less verbal, and more prone to intense catharsis.  Visions were reported frequently and transcendental-mystical experiences increased in frequency and intensity.

Because [this drug] affects the senses minimally, everything appears as it does usually.  There are no hallucinations, illusions, or distortions, simply a great aura of peace and calm and well-being.  It is not possible to pretend, as it often is with hallucinatory drugs, that the experience is coming from without.  Clearly, all the important effects, including the ability to be free of anxiety and desire, are part of the human repertory, often unexpressed, to be sure, but there nonetheless.

The subjective effects generally noted are quite unlike those commonly associated with psychotomimetic drugs.  There is little perceptual phenomena, depersonalization, or disturbances of thought, which usually characterize these latter drugs.  There is a minimal loss of ability to concentrate on and perform relatively complex visual-motor tasks.  Rather, there is an intensification of feelings, a facilitation of self-insight, and the creation of a state of mind that allows increased introspectiveness and insight...

Within this context of mixed action, there is one substance that stands unique within the psychedelic category.  This material is [this drug].  By and large, this drug does not produce profound sensory disruption or hallucinations.  Of all the so-called substituted amphetamine type hallucinogens, [this drug] has remained popular and in high demand among recreational drug users.  Although it does not generally produce hallucinations, it is unique because it powerfully enhances emotions and empathy.  [this drug] earned a street reputation as the love drug, largely due to this latter quality.  During the effects of the drug, subjects experience a sense of amplified emotions, empathy and a powerful emotional bond with other persons present.
[this drug] has pharmacological properties, both in laboratory animals and in biochemical assays, that clearly distinguish it from hallucinogenic substances such as [other drug]...
Thus, one may see that the classification of [this drug] as a hallucinogen was based more on legal and enforcement concerns, than on animal or human pharmacology...
[this drug] itself is really a unique compound among the so-called hallucinogens.  It is not generally used for its hallucinogenic effect, but rather for its affect-enhancing qualities.  One wonders whether it should be called a hallucinogen at all, based on its unusual pharmacology...

Drug: DOET  

[this drug] produced a marked decrease in the proportion of high frequency associations... The decline in high frequency associations under [this drug] was related to an increase in low and medium strength association, with no increase in idiosyncratic associations...  The [this drug] subjects produced less common, but not bizarre, associations.  Strikingly, these less common associations under [this drug] were as reproducible (97.5 percent) as the high frequency baseline associations (94 percent).  Usually, uncommon associations are not reproduced as readily as high frequency associations (3).  This suggests that the highly reproducible "uncommon" associations produced by [this drug] are meaningful to the subjects but not normally accessible to consciousness.  This finding accords with the enhanced "insight" reported by subjects under [this drug].

The lowest dose of [this drug] employed was readily distinguished from placebo (Table IV).  The total subjective effects scores for the Ss receiving lowest doses of [this drug] were 7 times greater than those of Ss receiving placebo.  The total subjective effect scores of Ss receiving medium and high doses were higher than those of Ss receiving lowest doses, although the difference was not statistically significant.  In no Ss was there any evidence of perceptual distortion or cognitive impairment.  Thus in doses 5 times greater than the dose at which subjective effects could be clearly discerned, [this drug] was neither hallucinogenic nor psychotomimetic.

The visual effects reported under [this drug] consisted of "closed-eye" imagery; there were no perceptual distortions or hallucinations.

No hallucinogenic effects or distortions of visual perception were detected in any subjects with eyes opened.  Several subjects described vivid imagery when they closed their eyes.

Our results indicate that over a 5-fold range of dosage, [this drug] is able to produce significant subjective effects, the most prominent of which are a mild euphoria and enhanced self-awareness.  These occur in the absence of hallucinogenic or psychotomimetic effects.  At 5 times the minimal perceptible dose of [other drug] or other psychedelic drugs, marked hallucinogenic or psychotomimetic changes are usually observed.  This would indicate that [this drug] differs qualitatively in its spectrum of psychological effects from most other "psychedelic" agents.  Indeed, it is possible that in terms of its subjective effects, [this drug] ought not to be classified along with the other psychedelic agents.

Although [this drug]'s unique dose-response characteristics reported here differ markedly from other "psychedelic" drugs, further studies at higher dose levels of [this drug] would be needed before one could ascertain whether [this drug] is qualitatively rather than only quantitatively different from other psychedelic agents.

intense and immediate response - with an overwhelming effect equated to at least [X dose of other drug]. None of the [Person]'s "non hallucinogenic" energizer - this was dramatically hallucinogenic and disruptive	

10/9/77 12:15 PM S1 = [0:00] effects at [1:15] - emotional interaction with Joe - unfair - alone at [2:15] intensely stoned [2:30] to +++ - the psychosis of 2-carbon - completely - except that there is much sensory distortion. [3:30] onto bed with radio - mental construction with eyes closed - often, walls fall in [5:15] to hill top - sensory interpretation is wild - but comfortable. [5:45] eat with some success - mental is straightening up, but sensory is still wild. Lakshmi is wrong - this is an [other drug]-like psychotomimetic, + psychosis aspects. [8:15] sanity OK - sensory still wild. Rotate K.R. flask without touching it. Hose on patio can be twisted at will, mentally. [12:00] try bed - no sleep, next AM - strange - but perhaps due to no sleep. Next afternoon - pretty much OK. A wild and not to unpleasant +++ - at least the sensor provides some reward for the psychosis.

Very, very reminiscent of indole effects, in patterning against white ceiling.

There is much, too much, movement with my eyes closed. And an awful lot there with my eyes open. The movement on the concrete floor in the basement when I went downstairs for wood for the fireplace, was too much. I felt almost sea-sick.

At modest levels, [this drug] has the reputation of being a cognitive enhancer and is largely free of those sensory distortions ...  The higher levels mentioned here have never been put into the published literature. It must be noted that there is a considerable variation of individual responses to this material. The effective dose range stated is quite broad. Some people are quite sensitive.

Drug: MEM  

wavering and flickering in the visual field, and a relatively long-lasting euphoria.

I explored [this drug] quite thoroughly in the [X] to [Y] milligram area, in these early years, and found it to be a most impressive psychedelic.  In 1977, I went up to [Z] milligrams and found it not to be the profound self-analysis drug I had hoped it would be...  I learned to recommend dosages in the [X]-[Y] milligrams area...

My first trial of [this drug] ... was not overly impressive. It revealed the characteristics of a good psychedelic, but demonstrated nothing to indicate an advantage over a number of other good compounds.

When I listened to music, I right away forgot what the last song was, and even couldn't manage to remember it when I tried to.  Also after thinking of one thing, and moving on to the next, the thing I had thought a moment ago felt distant.  During this time, my husband told me that I was unfair to his brother and mother.  I didn't feel offended by his comments about me.  It was discussed in a matter-of-fact way, which didn't bother me at all.
I felt quite normal.  It seemed that the thoughts that normally would trouble me didn't matter to me or trouble me or distract me.  I also didn't actually have a lot of thoughts.  But the thoughts I had were quite nice and straightforward.  It's simple and comfortable.  I felt quite like the normal state without drug, only more comfortable.  There was no dark feeling...
My thought about this drug is that it seems to make me more with the essence of myself.  The things I really care about were closer to me, and the things that don't agree with me were more distant, and they didn't bother me (even the things that bother me often in the normal state).  I was with the matter of myself, more together.  This was nice, and simple, it seemed to filter some thoughts out (the thoughts that don't agree with my heart).  I didn't feel empty.

I felt strengthless.  And the more pronounced change was that I could not muster one single thought in my brain or feel anything.  The music I usually like could not touch me at all.  I always enjoy thinking, and being unable to think was so obvious that it upset me.  I felt my brain was empty, blank.  I was worried that I might be overdosed.  Then I checked reality, and I didn't feel I was blown away, so it was good.  Then I thought that I might actually be able to think, I just wasn't able to feel I could think.  So I decided to try to fall asleep, since there wasn't any thought in my brain that could distract me, I should be able to sleep.  I was in a dozing state, but I noticed it was more empty with my eyes closed, so occasionally I opened my eyes to have a reality check because after some time with my eyes closed I felt the emptiness was just a bit too much.  It was less empty with my eyes open, even though there were not a lot of things going on in my brain either.  Music felt a little far.  I could have a little chat with my husband, and the chat seemed normal, even though it didn't have a lot of contents.  There was no or little visual effect. The drug is simple, and it didn't have a dark tone on it.  So I was comfortable most of the time.

The feeling was clear, and normal.  After the transition, I was mostly bored and restless, and needed something to do.  Sex was good, though difficult.  At about five hours we went to watch movies because I was bored and restless.  I think my dose was a little too high, whereas my wife really liked it, and was relaxed, comfortable, and not bored.

It was a pretty empty experience, devoid of thoughts or feelings, meaningless.

The breakthrough I had was the following day (and this seems to be the way [this drug] operates, i.e., first the energy and expansion, next day insight) was of the highest value and importance for me. I was given a methodology for dealing with my shadow parts. No small gift. And I did it all alone and the results were immediate. I am so grateful.

The ascent was rapid and for the first hour I tended to an inward fantasying with a distinct sensual tinge. There was a persistent queasiness that never left me, and it contrasted oddly with a good feeling of outward articulation and lucidity which succeeded in coming to the fore after the introverted first hour.

Clear imaging, thinking. Intense yet serene. Good feeling of pleasantness and some euphoria. 

The effects of the [Y] milligrams were muted by another drug experiment yesterday morning, and I never got much over a plus 1. There is an erotic nature, tactile sensitivity perhaps not as delicate as with [other drug], but it is there. At the 2 hour point, an additional [X] milligrams increased the body impact (a distinct tremor and sensitivity) but somehow not a lot more mental. I have been compromised by yesterday.

Drug: DOI  

There was a nice spacey light-headedness for a few hours, and time seemed to move quite slowly. Then a generic sadness came over me, as I reminisced about earlier days (recalling pleasures now gone) and wondered if I would be allowed to be here on the Farm when I am old and not important. There is so much to be done, and I cannot do it all, and no one else cares.

The general nature of the experience was depressing, with a sad view of life. There was no way I could connect with my emotions. Even my sadness was vague.

This is a clear, clean psychedelic. The eyes-closed imagery is excellent, with clearly delineated patterns, pictures, and colors. Perfect for an artist, and next time I'll devote some time to painting.

I was at a full crashing +++ for about three or four hours. There was none of the [other drug] sparkle, but there were moments of 'light-headedness' where one could move sideways with reality. I could leave where I was right over there, and come over here and get a strange but authentic view of where the 'there' was that I had left. It would be out-of-body, except that the body came over here with me rather than staying there. This doesn't make sense now, but it sure did then. There was no trace of body impact, and I slept late that evening, but with some guardedness due to the intense imagery. This was no more intense than with [X] milligrams, but it was a little bit more to the unreal side.

I began to feel my spiritual world, my mind became transparent.  I have no judgment, or emotions attached to the things that come to me.  So my mind was transparent; what comes to me passes through me.  I also felt I was just in the space the music was playing, not the one of a moment ago, not the future one.  It is in this moment.  As the music changes, the space changes, there was no trace of the old piece, right at the moment, no time lag, no speculation for the future.  My inner side it seems doesn't bring things to me, what I noticed is from the outside, like I process the outside information as it is.
The flowers looked beautiful, much more beautiful than usual.  They have a presence that is so distinctive, with great detail.  But the beauty is not all.  It is how we can view flowers, how we can be with them that is fantastic.  It's almost like Buddha's vision.  It's so easy to achieve to be with them.  I just look at them long enough, then everything starts to float, the space is moving, until only me and flowers are steady.  The flowers are so in front of me, just bare flowers with their unbelievable presence and beauty which is so intense so detailed so calm that it's almost menacing; and just bare me, facing each other, shining through each other.  We are in our space, this is an alternate world moment (as profound as an out of body experience, this one is in another space with my body and my mind, totally there, and it's brief) some cosmic feeling, but it's not scary, it's totally beautiful, like in Buddha's presence.  It's a space with just me and flowers looking at each other, there is no other distraction.  The surroundings are floating, me and flowers are the fixation of each other's stare and all our soul and mind are just on each other.  I did it again and again.  And I could stop when I wanted to stop (just relax my attention).  It's just so fantastic.  When my mind felt less transparent, I began to feel sad that the people I love could not see it.
We went out for a walk to a park.  The world I saw was just beautiful.  The plants' presence, every leaf, every tiny twig, the pine tree, I felt that I have ignored so much beauty in my daily life.

today's experience produced a fantastic appreciation of beauty, like what I have read about for [other drug A], but never experienced before, better than what I have experienced on [other drug A or B].  I saw the flowers in all their detail, and greatly enjoyed their beauty.

Drug: DOB  

In clinical evaluation it proved to enhance effectively both emotional and intellectual perception, without the imagery and perceptual distortions commonly encountered with many of the chemically related psychotomimetics.

It is apparent from table I that there is an increase of both intellectual and emotional stimulation with dosages up to [X] mg, whereas perceptual enhancement seemed not to be dose dependant.  Perceptual distortion did not occur at any dose level.
In general the effects of [this drug] were the enhancement of intellectual and emotional thinking together with an increase in the level of fluency and attention while maintaining full communication capabilities.  This compound is therefore similar to [other drug A] except that here the subjects were more active and had greater contact with the environment.  The sense of added significance in ordinary events and motivation toward introspection were similar to that of the hallucinogens such as [other drug B], but with a complete lack of imagery or perceptual distortion.  This compound on the basis of these preliminary trials would appear to be potentially as useful an adjunct to psychotherapy as [other drug A].
 
The effective oral dosage of [this drug] is [Y]-[Z] mg of the racemate or [X]-[Y] mg of the "R" isomer.  The chronology of effects is extremely long-lived.  The first awareness of change is noted in about an hour and full intoxication is rarely achieved until the three or four hour point.  During the plateau (4th to 10th hour) there is rich fantasy and easy access to personal problems (eyes closed) but little visual distortion.  A gradual descent follows with achievement of starting baseline levels at the 24th to 36th hour following ingestion.

There was a distinct enhancement of visual perception, and some strengthening of colors. A clean, cold feeling of wind on the skin. I felt an enriched emotional affect, a comfortable and good feeling...

Taken at 10:15 AM: The music didn't appeal to me, most of the time I could just ignore it.  Around 1:15 PM, I noticed that music was a bit complicated.  It seemed that there were a lot of elements, even though sometimes I could feel the voice had a lot of feelings.  I didn't care about music.  And I felt I was shut out, kind of like nothing was going on.  I complained to him that music was too complicated and I wanted him to change it.  So he changed the music.
I am not sure if the transition period was passed at that moment.  After he changed the music, I felt really good.  I was high.  For one moment, I felt it's like I was in my parents' hands, in their loving presence.  I was relaxed, no worries.  It felt warm, stable.  I felt good all the rest of the experience.  But it also seemed that that's the most I felt. 
I went to take a shower.  Even though I could focus on thinking something, there were not a lot of contents.  I also laughed when I tried to think of the movie we watched the night before.  All the thoughts were brief. 
I didn't feel as empty as I felt in the [other drug] experience.  But there was not a lot going on in my mind.   It's quite simple.  It's not rich at all, kind of boring.  Food didn't taste interesting, but edible.
At about 6 PM, we went to watch a movie. We tried to watch one, but it seemed that we could not follow it readily, so we watched some part of a comedy again, and I laughed a lot.  After that I was down to the baseline enough to watch a more complicated movie.  At that time, I noticed the world was more expansive and more connected and richer than what I felt when I was high on the drug.

There was ... an incredible Moebius strip representation of reality at the intellectual level. I was able to enter into personal problems easily, and get out again when I chose to.

About three hours into this I had a severe cramp, and had a near fainting response to the pain, and yet there was no pain!  I felt that I was very near a loss of consciousness, and this was most disturbing.  There were flashes of depersonalization.  I saw rings around the moon with prismatic colors, and there were long-lasting "after-images" following any viewings of points of light.

This was a complex, but a very good day...  Wunnerful. It's been one heck of a good experiment, and I can't understand why we waited nine years to try this gorgeous stuff.  Without going into the cosmic and delicious details, let's just say it's a great material and a good level.

There was a grey, iron weight on my soul.
I'm stoned out of my gourd.  No fun, no fun.  Wonder if there's going to be a glimmer of hope anywhere in this.
The image I'm getting is of an awful cosmic indifference.
I haven't been paying attention to the effects, actually, because I've been too busy with concepts and thoughts and all that there kind of stuff.
Everything around me was dancing a little at the edges and flowing in the center...

[Person A]: I'm surprised that [this drug] hasn't worked well.
[Person B]: We've tried it, and some of them will say, "Yeah, it was a nice trip but I get more out of __ or I'd rather have __." It doesn't do anything more for me than one of these others. I like to keep it down to just a few.

Drug: DOM  

They speak of a maelstrom of relentless energy...  The energy seems to manifest itself physically.  "You feel like your body is a conductor for tens of thousands of volts," said a user.  "I was desperate for a ground."  People tripping on [this drug] physically tremble with the energy sensation.  It is a stretching, quivering shaking experience.

As used on the street in the 1960s, in doses of [Y] to [Z] mg, it is like [other drug A] combined with [other drug B] but longer-lasting than either.  The effects continue for so long, ebbing and returning, that the user may think he will never recover.  It seems that [this drug] produces more adverse reactions, including flashbacks and prolonged psychosis, than most other [other drug B]-like drugs.  At doses of [W] to [X] mg used experimentally, the effects are much milder and not nearly so long-lasting.

I feel I am paying a physical price... I am still shaky as if my body had had a vigorous drug blow

heavy body - largely unpleasant

I was aware, off and on, of the energy tremor.  It was still strong, but I was getting used to it.

a bit too much physical. 

When I took [X] mg a few years ago I had a wonderful experience, one of the best psychedelic experiences ever.  But [Y] mg today was an agonizing overdose that I had to endure for six hours, before a gradual awakening over a period of a few more hours, which at no point led to anything good.  Seems that it is dangerous to push this drug to higher doses, and what a difference 10% can make!!!  ... a crushing, shattering, painful overdose.  During the worst of that overdose, I feared that it might cause some kind of neurological damage.

The body tremor feels like poisoning, there is no escaping the feeling of being disabilitated, but at least there is no nausea.

The sympathomimetic influences on the autonomous organs are very intense, with the patient having an extremely dry mouth, awareness of a rapid heart beat, and pupillary dilation with photophobia and difficulty of accommodation.

the physiological effects of [this drug] are much more intense than with [other drug A].  The patient has a rapid heart rate, widely dilated pupils with photophobia and an extremely dry mouth.  A somewhat similar intoxication picture can be seen with [other drug B] intoxication...
Because of the intense physiological and psychological effects of [this drug], there appears to be a higher incidence of acute panic reactions associated with the drug experience than with other psychotomimetic drugs including [other drug A].  This increased incidence, appears to be related to the duration of the reaction (e.g., the patient feels the reactions will never end and he is going "crazy"), also the intensity of the [other drug C]-like peripheral effects, and misinterpretation of psycho-physiological effects (e.g., the patient feels his rapid heartbeat and shortness of breath are a heart attack)...
...widely dilated pupils, rapid heart rate, dry mouth and fine motor tremor...
It appears that the effects of [this drug] are like a combination of [other drug C] and [other drug A] with the hallucinogenic effects of the drug very often putting the peripheral [other drug C]-like physiological effects out of perspective, with subsequent interpretation of these effects as life threatening...

The predominant findings were evidence of sympathetic stimulation: pupillary dilatation, increased deep tendon reflexes, tremor and increased pulse rate

In low doses, this compound produces a mild euphoria.  Doses greater than [X] milligrams may cause pronounced hallucinogenic effects lasting about 8 hours and similar to those produced by hallucinogenic doses of [other drug A], [other drug B], and [other drug C].

A key to survival in the [this drug] experience seems to be an ability to surrender to the energy flow of the drug.  Resisting the rush or holding back can lead, many report, to an incredibly frustrating, up-tight experience.

[this drug] seems to lack the disorientation of [other drug A].  Although the audio and visual hallucinations are vivid, a girl explained, "everything looks like it does when you're straight.  It's like being on the other side of a glass wall.  There also seems to be less identity confusion than under [other drug A].  You know who you are," she said.

Mood elevation at 2-3 hrs. After 3 hours, emotional effects become more pronounced, enhancement of color also. Very little distortion of perception, no disorientation, no creeping or flowing, but color enhancement considerable. The emotional content and empathy for others was closer to [other drug A] than to [other drug B], a welcome change.

Terry, evaluated [X] milligrams. and reported an extraordinary mood elevation, with no indication of any nausea whatsoever.  In the third hour, he found a pronounced enhancement of odors and of emotional interactions, with a richness of empathy.

In the middle of the experience I found that I was able to separate components of complex things so as to evaluate them separately. There is no need to respect their normal purpose. The sharpness of observation is enhanced, but one can focus at every different depth of a thing or a concept. Colors are not just brighter; there are more of them. There is a profoundness of meaning inherent in anything that moves. A line of thought or a bit of personal history ties the thinker to the objects that had been thought of, or once experienced. It is this relationship that will prove productive. Not like in a movie which is circular in its totalness, but as in true life where the future is the result of your own involvement with everything about you.

The subjective effects of the two dose levels of [this drug] resembled those of [other drug] and were distinguishable by blind analyses of tape transcripts from placebo.  There was a moderate euphoria and subjective reports of enhanced self-awareness.
There were no hallucinogenic or psychotomimetic effects in any subjects.  The only perceptual effects were reports of "closed-eye" imagery...

there were no hallucinogenic or psychotomimetic effects.  The only perceptual effects were "closed eye imagery" occurring in 3 of the 6 Ss.

our subjects did not report experiencing any visual hallucinations.  However, the subjects reported various psychological effects such as visual imagery, body sensation and mood changes, an increase in thought processes, minimal feelings of depersonalization, and some distortion in time perception.

there were no hallucinations or perceptual distortions reported during regularly taped interviews or at any time during the experiment.

Heightened sense of hearing, smell was prevalent throughout the day. Visual senses also heightened. Spring seemed to be busting out all over. Laughter almost uncontrollable, with a fabulous floor show going on most of the day. It didn't take much food to fill me up, but I kept on eating anyway. Everything tasted delicious.

It is more arousing (like [other drug A]) than depressing (like [other drug B])... Then at the fourth hour, it went totally outside of me. I saw the clouds towards the west. THE CLOUDS!!! No visual experience has ever been like this. The meaning of color has just changed completely, there are pulsations, and pastels are extremely pastel. And now the oranges are coming into play. It is a beautiful experience. Of all past joys, [other drug C], [other drug D], [other drug E], [other drug F], this ranks number one. Normally I have no color effects with [other drug D]. A dynamic experience. Feels good, too.

the effects were noted at about half an hour, and between 1-1/2 and 3 hours there was a matter-of-fact but impressive recounting of visual and interpretative effects similar to those of [other drug A].  It wasn't until his fifth hour that these really broke through, and his notes are replete with superlatives.  For him, there were colors and textures without precedent, as he had no past experience with color effects from [other drug A].

Effects came on smoothly with enhanced perception - magnification of light, color, odors. Very pleasant and beautiful, except for some dragging negative feeling. All increased to high intensity - both the beauty, and at times the negativity. The enhancement of beauty and heightened perception was the greatest I have ever experienced, with the one single exception of not feeling close to the celestial level. The negative feelings at times grew to considerable intensity. This seemed to be mostly repressed anger at ___. At times the negativity disappeared completely, and I broke through to most enjoyable, even hilarious experiences. I alternated about 50-50 between joy and discomfort.

There is a rich curly-imaged eyes-closed show that interlocks closely with music. It is occasionally an off-beat fantasy and not directly knit together, and even occasionally unenjoyable. But always intense and completely appropriate to the music... Overall a rolling +++...

It felt like in the season when all the fruits ripen; the world was golden, and it was so full of life.  We sat looking out in our yard.  It was such a heavenly place, the peaceful world connected with my tranquil consciousness.  It was so perfect.  Then I looked at the flowers.  The flowers had that inner glow, shimmering, and I could also sense that the fragrance was seeping from their inside. They were so un-intrusive, so modest. As long as we paid attention to them, they showed their beauty and life to us.  They were the most beautiful flowers I have ever seen.

The first 4.5 hours felt like an agonizing overdose.  I'm surprised, because last time I took [X] mg and had one of the best experiences ever.  But after 4.5 hours it settled down to an absolutely beautiful experience.
These are the feelings that life should give to everyone, the genuine joy of life, the sweetness of it, the richness of it.  It's the happiness exuding from your inner heart.  When you fall in love or have a high achievement, a spark suddenly lights your life; but this joy is more like a sea from within, not a spark from without.  It's very meaningful, loving, and genuine.  It's like the happiness of a home, a perfect world where there is no harm..., it's so secure, content, so free, and peaceful. 
There are a lot of details when I have this feeling.  It's like coming home to your mother's arms, the smoke from the chimney when the dinner is getting ready, the bustle in the street, and raindrops on the roof.  It's everything come to your life and you feel it and it registers in your mind and is cherished within your heart.  It's just lively.  It's abundant.   There is the feeling of abundance and richness, a bit elegant, a perfect world, I saw things more artistic.

If on this page I shall have expressed it to you then it is true that [this drug] has the glory and the doom sealed up in it. All that's needed to unseal it is to surround it with a warm living human for a few hours. For that human for those hours all the dark things are made clear.

The development was extremely rapid, something more like [other drug] than previously remembered. The body tremor feels like poisoning, there is no escaping the feeling of being disabilitated, but at least there is no nausea. This transition ended and the trauma cleared completely at about the second hour. The music was exceptional, the erotic was exceptional, the fantasy was exceptional.

The subject who received [X] mg experienced a pronounced hallucinogenic effect like that which might occur after taking a hallucinogenic dose of [other drug].  Ten hours after taking the drug, he described the preceding experience, "The first effect came during lunch (2 hours after administration of the drug) when I started staring at the orange sherbet which was beautiful, brilliant orange, falling disorganizedly like a whirlpool. ...  Later (5 hours after taking the drug), I began shrinking, and water in the glass on the table was getting bigger and moving toward me, coming to envelop me. ...  I was really scared. ...  I saw a witch doctor, then a horse on the wall. ...  Then the ceiling started moving up and down and was purple and yellow. ...  I felt I was losing control."

The actions of [this drug] at [X] and [Z] mg. were similar and resembled those of [W] mg. of [other drug].  Although [this drug] at these doses produced no pseudo-hallucinations or hallucinations, there was some "closed-eye" imagery.  In a previous study we reported that one subject had a hallucinogenic experience after ingesting [Y] mg of [this drug].  The six [this drug] subjects in the present study and six others in a [Place] study (4,12) reported no hallucinogenic effects a comparable dose.

30 min
Blurred vision
Voices distant, echo effect
1 hour 
Visual illusions
Increased contrasts
Increased colors
Multiple surfaces
Increased after-images
Light patterns, eyes closed
Objects vibrate
Hearing more acute, voices echo-like
Sounds perceived as lights
11/2 hrs
Visual illusions
Same, plus
Halos around objects
Colored patterns, eyes open
Increased peripheral vision
Stroboscopic effects
Time sense distorted, time meaningless
2 hrs
Same, plus
Kaleidoscopic patterns
Spatial distortions
Difficulty focussing
21/2 hrs
Same, plus
Objects move
Surfaces undulate
Patterns from sounds
3 hrs
Same, plus
Altered perspectives
Distorted body image
Awareness of skeletal structure
4 hrs
Same, plus
Faces distorted
Enhanced sensory experiences
5 hrs
Most perceptual effects Still present, but waning
6 hrs
Definite waning of all perceptual effects
7 hrs
Most effects dissipated

Blurred vision
Double or multiple images
Vibration of objects
Visual hallucinations
Shapes distorted
Objects appeared lighter
Colors more vivid
Body looked distorted
Details stood out
Contrasts increased 
Time slower subjectively
Hearing increased	

Drug: 2C-T-2  

Data were collected on 40 subjects who took [this drug] for the first time and eight subjects who took [other drug] for the first time...
Both drugs are active over a dose range of [X] to [Y] mg, with [this drug] being somewhat more potent.  They are similar in effect and reach full intensity in approximately two hours, with a useful working plateau near maximum intensity lasting about five hours.  The descent is quite gradual and generally euphoric, providing several additional hours of heightened clarity that may be used to reflect on the prior experiences.  Consequently, an entire day is devoted to the experience.  While the action of the two drugs is similar, [other drug] is somewhat more intense and perhaps a bit longer acting.  An interesting property of both drugs is that, should the initial dose prove inadequate, additional doses may be taken as late as five hours into the experience with an immediate increase in effect.
In terms of activity, both of these drugs elicit empathic qualities, which led to free communication and feelings of well-being.  At the same time, they have emotional-releasing qualities that afford exploration of repressed feelings, personal dynamics, and a wide range of thought levels, including the mystical levels of consciousness.
About one-fifth of the subjects reported physical side effects usually associated with hallucinogenic drugs, including transient muscle tension, nausea, and increased heart rate and temperature.  While sometimes distracting, such symptoms did not interfere in most cases with the eventual enjoyment and constructive utilization of the experience.  Nothing was observed that would contraindicate further use of these substances.
About 60% of the subjects reported that their performance improved on such items as clarity of thought, flow of insights, communication with others, visual perception, and perception of a universal level of meaning and significance.  About 10% felt that their performance on such items worsened.  Forty-one subjects said that they would repeat the experience, while four other subjects would not.

[this drug] ... is active over a dose range of [X] to [Y] m.g. It reaches full intensity in approximately two hours, with a useful working plateau near maximum intensity of about five hours. The descent is gradual and generally euphoric, providing several additional hours of heightened clarity to ponder about and assimilate the events of the day. While preserving some of the centering effects of [other drug A], for most subjects it results in more emotional opening and permits a wider exploration of inner feelings and freedom of thought. In this regard it is considerably more like [other drug B], although free of the driving effect of the latter. The [this drug] subject is also less likely to fall into holes of deeply repressed material. The long duration of peak effects provides the opportunity to explore a variety of interests and perceptions. [this drug] promises to be a more powerful working material than [other drug A]. While permitting a greater range of exploration, it also permits repressed material to surface more readily, sometimes without the saving, centering quality of [other drug A]. This can at times be uncomfortable.

I can recall thoughts and clear patterns, have stronger drive to hold center.

Maintain clear head and eyes. Still maintain clear visual quality and good
integration.

Relationship to this substance was positive and enriching. However, I do not perceive the need to explore with this substance again.

Insights into emotional needs, clarification of Out-of-Body goals (following Monroe Institute techniques). Outstanding warmth of human interactions, as well as my own openness. Retinal imagery was fascinating but less so than human interactions, so I preferred eyes open.

Fantastic. Had a fully conscious confrontation with illusion of separation, birth of reality. High level insight into patients and key relationship. Great increase in energy and aliveness. Vast frontiers available.

Discovered repressing masculine side to attract boys. Greater commitment in relationship, clarity on what needs doing. Daughter observed that I looked and felt better.

Slightly dizzy looking at rushing water.

Some periods of blurred vision.

Overwhelming, little heavy on physical symptoms, next day very clear, good insights. Liked drive.

Uncomfortable, unable to focus attention, stay in body. Tired next day and not slowed down in three weeks. No clear insights.

Wonderfully expansive takeoff. Rocky, sensitive, continued deep work, love the energy.

Effects of experience continued several days -- visuals, powerful dreams, insights with patients. Functioning not inhibited.

Mind and body into balance and clarity. Increase of human warmth and
understanding, self-appreciation, regard for creation. Listening skills enhanced.

Smooth transition, unnoticeable physical change, wonderful love feeling, truthful insights. Changes: improved self-image, confidence gained with others, ability to take leadership, general sense of well being, expanded view of consciousness. Headache after.

Enjoyed feeling of group cohesion, felt down during descent, poor
communication with husband made me despondent. No continued elated feeling afterwards as with other substances.

After initial nausea, great feeling of flow within body, ease with people, grateful for gifts within people. Great desire not to dwell in pain, carry fears on. Experience them and move on. Renewed feeling of love and desire in relationship. Nurtured self. Accepted a gift and received the benefits.

Energized, peaceful. Greater clarity in work. Flow of insights two days after, taking look at contractions in my life.

Felt resistance created nausea. Changes: Much more open to new things, less thinking and talking, more doing. Meditated first time, deeply affected by Buddhist tape when coming down, dispelled doubts of Buddhist philosophy. Much more aware of body and processes.

A synchronous event foreseen in experience, very pleasant surprise. Closer to others, repressed personal issues surfaced and resolved with new insights and perspective.  Each moment an eternity of bliss, intimations of intense beauty, quiet joy. No words. Intense relaxed good feeling at core and all levels. Clarity, precise happiness.

Heightened awareness after the experience of importance of forgiveness, trust, unconditional love. During the experience I felt blissful, peace with self, world, and life force. Not new but perhaps more sustained.

Not much aware of drug effect. Brief feeling of beauty and clarity of the day, possibly drug related.

Very beneficial for long term insights of order to life, clarity of emotions and direction. Grateful for opportunity to experience altered state and bring out truth quicker.

Relief in coming face to face with fear, willingness to ask for help from God and other people, optimism, forgiveness for self for buying into ego fears. Pressure sensitivity in solar plexus.

Very positive experience. Two initiations, first to group communion, second to nature and higher consciousness. Less dependent on one person, more self love. Sustained through serious setback at work.

Opening to new insights.

Broke through isolation and unacceptance, joined team. Saw feeling of
superiority. Continuing new insights about relationships after the experience.

Group participation improved after this experience.

Experience very physical -- catapulted into present moment in unusual and forceful way. Incredible sensitivity to others, ground, beings. Kinship with plants, life; watching a bee a thrilling experience. Bit of crash after, strained interpersonal relations, non-specific aggregate of anger, sometimes hard to restrain. Passed a day later, felt a better man as result of experience.

Following day filled with new thoughts and perceptions.  Formed a high supported by the bliss of the journey. End of week desire to hold onto the ecstasy led to a downer. Experience in letting go. When didn't try to hold thought traveled into areas of bliss. Caring, perceptive, understanding guide I believe an important factor.

Changes: Permission to be self, express feelings and thoughts. Trust sharing truth with others, life, people, and self, keep heart open to life. Receive and give love.  Give up protecting, encourage others to share. No judgment allows seeing love/Divine within other. Danced a lot; in dance all there is. When my hands touched guide we merged deeply, like deep Samadhi. Very tuned into people afterward. Speak truth each moment, trust good will follow.

Renewed understanding of my path and its goal!

Very long lasting. Visual effects 9 hours, major effects 7 hours.

Low dose worked surprisingly well to open up to core of being; great love, open heart. No noticeable changes. Moments of transitory uncertainty, especially on taking supplement. Supplemental dosage pushed through this.

More grounded in center, calm and relaxed. Very mellow experience. Headache later, went away with potassium. Able to go within, gained insight and understanding.

I don't feel this for fully an hour, but when I do it is quite a weight. It feels good to work it through. It is OK to be with pain. You can't eliminate it. And it is OK to contact your deep pools of anger. And all of it stems from the lack of acknowledgment. All the macho carrying on, the fights, the wars, are ways of demanding attention, and getting even for not having had it in one's life. I am experiencing more deeply than ever before the importance of acknowledging and deeply honoring each human being. And I was able to go through and resolve some judgments with particular persons.

Today I was badly in need of the help that might possibly come from this material, and today it was my ally. I sorely needed the type of help that it afforded. The result was to work off the heavy feeling of tiredness and lack of motivation that had been hounding me. The next day I felt that I had dropped my burden.

There is a neutralness to this. I am at the maximum, and I am asking myself, 'Am I enjoying this?' And the answer is, 'No, I am experiencing it.' Enjoyment seems beside the point. It is a rather intensely matter-of-fact +3. Is it interesting? Yes, but mostly in expectation of further developments. Is it inspiring? No. Is it negative? No. Am I glad I took it? Yes. Not glad. Satisfied and contented. This is a controlled +3. No threat. The body is all right. Not superbly healthy--but OK. Of no interest, either way. If I were to define the body's state, I would have to define it in image. The image is of a not comfortable state of being clenched. Clenched? Well, carefully bound in control.

Very vivid fantasy images, eyes closed, but no blurring of lines between "reality" and fantasy. Some yellow-grey patterns a la [other drug]...  Erotic lovely. Good material for unknown number of possible uses. Can explore for a long time. Better try [X] milligrams next time.

I was at a +++ in an hour! It is most difficult to do even ordinary things. I took notes but now I can't find them. This is much too high for anything creative, such as looking at pictures or trying to read. Talking is OK. And to my surprise I was able to get to sleep, and a good sleep, at the seven hour point.

Drug: 2C-B-fly  

This was strong and yet mild.  The transition was completely easy.  The drug is smooth, clear and real.  Yet I feel that I still can't characterize it.  I think I like it.  Certainly want to explore higher.  Sex was great and trouble free at 2.5, 3, 4, and 5.5 hours.  It seems to be a sex-friendly drug.  I ate heartily at about 5 hours; it also seems to be food friendly.

I can't characterize this compound.  It didn't do much to me.  Generally I think it's boring.

++.5  [this drug]  Dec 4: 4:52 PM = [0:00] [X] mg [him], [her] [0:35] aware  smooth development - to bed (!) music very positive, Poulene, unctisoins, Prokofier [5:00] [her] still ++1/2, me ++ and dropping - soup [7:00] pretty much down - [her] goes on to [9:00] - toes to sleep and she sleeps 12 hours.

2.5+  Oct 8:  8:45 PM = [0:00]  [X] mg each ([her],[him]) in 15 ml tepid water.  Music incredible Prok., Poulene, Bach, sex incredible - [4:00] up for soup, Citizen Kane me 1.5+ [her] 2.5+ still [him] some wine - both to bed [7:15] - [him] 5 hrs - up c no residue - [her] up after 9 hrs. sleep.

[1:00] him ++ her +2.5 [3] up for soup - him  her ++ still.  [6] both to sleep.  Excellent experience.

It was very nice, and lasted a long time.  Very real and very human.  Subtle, yet deep.  We had great sex at 2.5 and 4 hours.  In retrospect, the character of the drug was fully evident at [X] mg.  I just supposed that it would be more complex, and it is not.

I could think of various problems, and felt very realistic.  I imagined what I might feel if I was placed in a social group, and felt that I had the mind of self-protection, and didn't want to be close to other people, and didn't want to open my heart to other people.  My body felt a little uncoordinated, and I felt somehow without strength, and my brain was a bit fuzzy.

This dose was a little too high.  I felt physically discombobulated, and tired, which made sex difficult at 3 and 6 hours.  Also, the mental was a little muddled.

Of [Person A]'s and [Person B]'s productions I think [this drug] [is my favorite drug].  I'm not going to explain what that is because I don't know chemistry at all.  But the [this drug] is probably the best.  Going to heaven drug, well, heaven on Earth drug.

I said often, too often, that something called [this drug] was absolutely great for me. To me, it's the loveliest thing, especially for eroticism.  But I found out that it's not interesting to anybody else. I realized that having said that, I was putting things in motion. The Internet was full of [this drug], and people were asking about it and I thought "uh-oh." It turned out that it's a disappointment to most other people.

[Person A]: "Absolutely divine, wonderful, really."  [Person B]: "I won't go into the sex thing."  [Person A]: "No."

There's a particular one that has an effect on me... that's exquisitely exquisite [sexual enhancement].  But after I had mentioned that at a few conferences, suddenly everybody was trying this and most of them were bored stiff.  It did not have the same effect on anyone else as it did on me.  Which is fine, it means there's more for me to use.  Everyone's chemistry is different.

results of a questionnaire given to twenty-six subjects about [this drug]:
5) How strong were the effects?
In response to the question about strength of effects, no one answered "1" (weakest) or "5" (strongest). Three people gave it a "2", two people gave it a "2.5", eight people gave it a "3", four people gave it a "3.5", seven people gave it a "4", and one person gave it a "4.5" (one person did not respond to this question). One respondent first answered using the Shulgin scale, and then converted that answer to the survey's format.
6) How visual was it?
Responses to the question about the level of visual effects ranged from "1" to "5", with the most common answer being a "3", and approximately equal numbers of people giving it a "2" and a "4". More people rated the visual effects as extremely low than rated them extremely high.
7) How heart opening was it?
Responses about the heart-opening character of [this drug] also indicated that most people thought it had moderate empathic effects. Answers were clustered mostly around "3", with ten people considering these effects stronger than a "3" and six considering them weaker...
Best Effects
Effects offered by a number of people as the "best" qualities of the experience included: the visuals (6 people), open communication (6), body sensations/response (5), happiness (3), energy (3), a clean/smooth high (3), and mental focus (2). Some other effects mentioned as "best" included empathy, camaraderie, thoughtful repose, dreamy headspace, lack of stimulation, and the ability to sleep afterwards.

It was the spring when a large group of friends decided to try [this drug] together. It took two hours to come on. My partner and I looked at each other at the two-hour mark and thought, "Do we notice anything yet?" It took going to our own room, without the stimulation of other people and loud music, to feel it come on. As we lay next to each other in the sweet quiet of our bed we had sensual interactions. We felt a gentle onset of closed-eye visuals taking over our inner space. Music was also enhanced, as we explored more of our sense of touch. After having sex, we joined the group again and noticed that, along with this substance being fun in a one-on-one setting, at this dose it is good for social interacting as well! My partner laughed and laughed as he talked to a friend. We carried on for hours in this manner. After about ten hours, people started coming down and going to sleep. It was a very enjoyable experience; it felt good in the body, and the next day we both felt great.

I'm so bored! I feel the energy to do a lot of things, but nothing seems to satisfy me...  No changes so far. I don't like this stuff (at least not at this dose), I wait for something to happen, and I have the feeling that something could happen, but nothing happens! ...  I must admit, that I've expected much more! Even without having found a single trip report about [this drug], I thought, that this stuff would provide much more. Comparing it with [other drug], [X]mgs are much stronger there, I don't feel that the extra [molecular features] make the molecule more potent.

OEV's [open eye visuals] are extremely mild, much less hallucinogenic than [other drug A]... Overall [this drug] is an enjoyable material, and while not Earth-shatteringly awe-inspiring, could definitely pose as an excellent intermediary to truely psychedelic compounds like [other drug A] or [other drug B].

To my disappointment I didn't feel much of any activity going on. There was little to no breathing of my tent walls, colors seemed just about the same they did when sober. I had a very slight almost caffeine buzz of energy, but nothing out of the ordinary. No audio enhancement either...  I found the experience to be a major let down as I was excited to try out a new chemical that I had no previous experience with. It is possible that doses in the [X]mg range are simply just not so effective when taken orally.

This trip offered more revelations and keys to better living than almost any other trip in the past... It is smooth and allows for interpersonal connections that we haven't found possible with other psychedelics. It feels familiar and relaxed. Even though I was slightly down with a fear of what may come from the trip, the [this drug] actually propelled me far out of that down state to one of the most enlightening experiences of my life.

1:47 - Some stomach weirdness. Nothing mental yet, or really trippy at all.
2:06 - Very slow build, but I finally feel something in my head. My stomach feels like indigestion is occurring.
2:17 - I feel like something's changing with the energy, like it's leveling out. But nothing's really happened yet. My stomach appears to be settling somewhat.
2:30 - Palms and feet sweat, but STILL not much has developed. My body feels light and pleasant though. I'm enjoying some light IM conversation and reading Datura trip reports.
2:43 - It feels like it's really slowly getting more intense. I'm sweating considerably, but I also have been all day because it's hot. I also feel very communicative. This is rare for me on psychedelics. But I still feel unaltered mentally except for a very slight euphoria...
[Note: rest of description deleted because became polydrug at 2:57 with addition of cannabis]
Well, [this drug] both went both over and under my expectations for it. First, the positive. This chemical was really euphoric! It was exceptionally easy on my body. It had the property of feeling very transparent, especially before I vaporized [cannabis at 2:57]. In fact, I couldn't even tell I was affected for a while. It felt like I was coming up for a really long time. Completely absent were any form of body malaise or anxiety or nausea. It felt like it was entirely present in my head, and not at all in my body...  In fact, it was quite like [other drug A] only a bit longer-lasting and cleaner feeling by far, but also less emotionally intense, at this dosage. It feels not the slightest bit toxic, unlike [other drug A] and [other drug B] and other euphoria-inducing phenethylamines.
Along with this, though, came some of the negatives. It was less psychedelic than several reports led me to believe. it was not visual at all, although I had some colorless swirling vortexes behind my closed eyes. But they were not particularly interesting. I tried to listen to music and drift, but I found myself getting bored and I really wanted some extra, external stimulation, like writing and talking. It was useful for self-analysis, but I felt mainly a push to just talk and bond with others...  Also, I noticed that I was unable to tell I was fully affected until I smoked [cannabis]. Once I smoked, it kicked it into high gear almost instantly...  My experience seemed to go against what others have said. I never was higher than a +2 at any point from [X]mg, and it was not intense at ALL until almost T+3:00 when I smoked.

Drug: Aleph-2  

As with [other drug A] itself, and in most ways with the entire [other drug A] family, there is no predictability of the dose/response relationship. One person had expressed his psychic isolation by taking and maintaining a fetal position in relative hibernation for several hours and with substantial amnesia; this at a [X] milligram dose. Yet another person, at fully twice this amount, was aware of a slight light-headedness that could in no way be measured as more than a bare threshold.

[this drug] is a good representative to show the positives and the negatives.  The effective dosage is somewhere between [X] and [Y] milligrams.  The individual experiences range widely from extraordinary imagery, to childhood events reliving, to hibernation, to intense intellectual confusion.  Different things for different people.  The dosage requirements turned out to be unpredictable as well.

"Well, it impresses me as a mellow, pleasant material, so far.  It certainly did creep up on me while we were doing all that talking."  [Ben, X mg]
"Yes, I'd have to say that there's quite a lot of movement, now that I'm paying attention."  [Ben, X mg]
"Very nice, indeed," said Ben, "It shows potential, Shura.  Quite a bit of visual; comfortable body, reasonably strong effect.  I'd say it's pushing a plus-three."  [Ben, X mg]
"Good day, for me," said Ben, "Good talking.  Body felt fine.  No hints of trouble what I can recall, physical or mental.  Plus-three and generally a positive experience."  [Ben, X mg]
"I had a good one, too, although it was light.  There was a slightly body tremor for a while, but it wasn't a problem, just felt like good energy.  No dark corners.  No particular insights, but I was too busy talking to go inside much.  It was a friendly material, for me.  What else?  Oh, yes.  I'd put it down as a plus-two, definitely.  And I wouldn't hesitate to take it again."  [John, Y mg]
"I was really cold, most of the time.  I'm just beginning to warm up now, in fact.  The food probably helped.  As for insights, well -" she paused, "I didn't feel like doing much talking, so I reviewed some things that've been happening recently - difficult interactions with a certain professor, a couple of good discussions I've had recently with other people, that kind of thing - and I was able to get a fresh view, see some things I hadn't seen before.  So I'd have to say there was insight, yes."  She smiled impishly, "Of course, it might not have been the drug.  Maybe it was just giving myself a chance to be quiet and think for a while.  These days, I'm so damned busy, I forget I should make time to just sit and think about what's going on."  [Leah, W mg]
Leah concluded, "I'd say it was a plus-three, pretty strong, with the only negative being the cold; I was just as cold inside the house as outside.  I couldn't seem to get warm anywhere.  Otherwise, mainly okay, but I've had a lot more fun with other materials."  [Leah, W mg]
"I'll second that," said Ruth, "Okay for me, too, but not much fun, not the kind we've had on other things.  Of course, I was a wee bit worried about George, and that probably influenced me.  It wasn't more than a two-plus, I'd say, and I'm not sure I'd get too excited at the prospect of taking it again, to tell you the truth." [Ruth W mg]
"I was off baseline, but not very much.  Even after the supplement, I couldn't feel anything more than a pleasant relaxation, about a single vodka-with-juice's worth."  [Alice, Y mg]
"I had a fine time.  Plus-three, body good, mind brilliant, thoughts incisive, observations profound - as usual, I might add." [Shura, Y mg]
"Don't remember any great insights, but I was too busy exchanging wild tales of fond memories, most of the time, to bother looking for any.  I think [Y] milligrams is about as high as I want to go, though."  [Shura, Y mg]
[Shura] looked over at George.  "You got the overload this time, friend.  Sorry about that.  Plus-three and much too strong in the visuals department?"
"Can't figure it out," muttered Shura, "That wide a range is very unusual; Alice barely plus-one with a total of Y milligrams, and you blasted out of your skull with X."

There was a warm feeling in the total body and a light pressure in the head that changed with time into the feeling of a balloon without any anatomical definition. The usual color perception was not very much increased, and my vision was not sharpened as it was with [other drug A]. Both my tactile perception and auditory acuity were enhanced. The main effect for me was, paradoxically, an easier handling of the outer world. None of the jitters of [other drug B]. The body feeling is good, healthy, and I am at peace with the body-mind dualism. These are pretty much personal comments--I will write up the pharmacological points later.

There was a phase of unabated inflation. The intensity was noticeably dropping at the five hour point and I observed considerable residual shakes and a muscular tremor. Even towards midnight there was some tooth-rubbiness, but I was able to get a somewhat fretful though adequate sleep.

I was exposed to a number of new environments and it was difficult to completely separate the experience into what was seen differently and what was seen for the first time. The Santa Cruz Mystery Spot should have been bizarre but it was simply hokey. And yet the boardwalk that should have been depressing was totally magical. The day was unworldly and I ended up with considerable muscular weakness. All in all, I handled it well, but I probably won't do it again.

An amazing unification of visual hallucination seen only in the very fine detail of something, and what must be considered retinal hallucination. There is no one-to-one correspondence between the many retinal cells of the high-resolution part of the eye. Thus, the mind can pick and choose, sometimes from the right eye, and sometimes from the left. And so a small curve or bump can become whatever you wish. For a moment. And then it chooses again, but differently. Is all of our perceived world as subjective as this?

Extreme intoxication, but almost no visual phenomena. Even well into the evening, I know I absolutely could not drive. Why? I don't know, since this experiment, at least, seemed to be quite free of strange colors and wiggly lines and streaks of light. It's that I don't trust that the reality I see is the same reality that the other driver might see. I am very much the center of the world about me, and I don't think I could trust anyone else to fully respect my reality.

Drug: MDMA  

Qualitatively, the drug appears to evoke an easily controlled altered state of consciousness with emotional and sensual overtones.  It can be compared in its effects to [other drug A], to [other drug B] devoid of the hallucinatory component, or to low levels of [other drug C].

In most aspects, it is deceptively simple in action, leading to a sensory and verbal disinhibition, a state of mutual trust and confidence between subject and therapist, but without the distractions of visual distortion or compelling introspection.

a certain commonality exists in the kinds of feeling states usually named: ecstasy, empathy, openness, compassion, peace, acceptance, forgiveness, healing, oneness, and caring.  Individuals are able, if their intention in taking the substance is serious and therapeutic, to use the state to resolve long-standing intrapsychic conflicts or interpersonal problems in relationships...
People feel they have true compassion, forgiveness, and understanding for those with whom they have important relationships.  Most importantly, in terms of the therapeutic implications, they have empathy and compassion for themselves, for their ordinary, neurotic, childish, struggling persona or ego.  The relative absence or attenuation of normal anxiety and fear in these states is perhaps the single most important feature in regard to their therapeutic value.  People report being able to think about, talk about, and deal with inner or outer issues that are otherwise avoided because of the anxiety levels normally associated with those issues.
Feelings of being returned to a natural state of innocence before guilt, shame, and unworthiness arose are common...

It was not a psychedelic in the visual or interpretive sense, but the lightness and warmth of the psychedelic was present and quite remarkable.

The primary reported effects of [this drug] were a 'positive mood state' and feelings of intimacy and closeness to others.  The secondary effects of [this drug] were the stimulant effects of energy and activation, and the psychedelic effects of insight and perceptual and sensual enhancement.

There was a change in perspective both in the near visual field and in the distance. My usually poor vision was sharpened. I saw details in the distance that I could not normally see. After the peak experience had passed, my major state was one of deep relaxation. I felt that I could talk about deep or personal subjects with special clarity...

I feel absolutely clean inside, and there is nothing but pure euphoria. I have never felt so great, or believed this to be possible. The cleanliness, clarity, and marvelous feeling of solid inner strength continued throughout the rest of the day, and evening, and through the next day.

Drug: TMA-2  

The central, sensory changes appear in the second hour and are characterized by some exaggeration of visual input (especially in the appreciation of colors and contrasts of lighting) and of empathy with irrational objects in one's environment.  These preludes lead to a plateau, from three to about six hours following administration, which is an impressive altered state of consciousness virtually free of the distortions and portentousness so common with [other drug]...

There was a slight movement of surface textures, my hearing was deepened and spatially defined. The body was relaxed and stretching seemed necessary. The further I got into it the more I realized that I was totally lazy. Very lethargic, to the point of laughter. At the sixth hour, I was seeing more life in the woodwork, and the wooden angel hanging on the ceiling was flesh and feathers when I stared at it. Great vision. But by no means overwhelming.

The first two hours seemed like an eternity, with time passing slowly. Then it settled into a very calm and enjoyable event (not that it wasn't already). The material seemed somewhat hypnotic. I suspect that I would believe suggestions, or at least not challenge them too much. I had a little confusion but it was not troublesome. On reflection, the material was quite good. It was benign in the sense that there appeared to be no dark spots.

after another hour, there was the entire package of [other drug], missing only the intense color enhancement. The world is filled with distorted. moving things. Then my little fingers on both hands got periodically numb. And there was an occasional light-headedness that hinted at fainting. The two phenomena alternated, and never got in each other's ways. Both passed, once I realized that I would recover from this experience. Then the humor and joy of the world returned.

One friend described her experience with it as "rather unimpressive."  ... [X] mg of [this drug] from a reliable source. His results were summed up as "interesting but rather disappointing." ... "similar to [other drug] in a number of ways, but with more of a liquid wave-like motion to stationary objects, rather than the 'crawling-in-place' movements that [other drug] produces for me...   The effects were mild, rather like the level that would be expected should I have eaten maybe [X] mg of [other drug].

I felt the weight of my self, that kind of genuine self.  It's the one before we know self-esteem, self-respect, self-pity or selfishness.  It's the genuine being of my self, the kind that relates to my heart, that we felt strongly when we fall in love, that can be touched by what it can feel.  This self seems to be a common ground between me and other people.  It presented itself so strong, so solid, and I realized I was a bit distant from my self in reality, and now I was with my self at home.  It was what I felt before I got out of the protection of my parents, and set out to explore the real world.  I felt at home, and I felt human.
Then I began a journey about how I feel about people.  I felt my parents with their very good hearts, my brother with a soft heart but not weak, my sister with a still very innocent heart, and my baby nieces still new and whole.  And every grown up has been hurt in some way or another, that their self was shadowed or diminished, or their self was buried in a steel seal of defense (mother-in-law).  It's extraordinary to feel people in this way.  There is no judgment, just a feeling associated with the people that comes up to my mind (my family and my husband's parents and brother), not about wrong or right, just feeling them, and sometimes these feelings so touched me that I was in tears (when I thought of my grandparents).  Seeing my family in photos is great.  I could feel them.  It's much richer than without the drug.
Then we saw flowers.  The flowers have amazing beauty and presence.  They were very gentle.  I could connect with them very easily, feeling the flowers and the flowerness, the being. 
I felt very strengthless all along the way.  The sex was wonderful.  This was the only sex that has lived up to my imagination about how I should feel in my fantasy sex.  This was it.  Although psychedelic sex is generally great, with psychedelics it seems that I can not feel the fine details of genital contact which I am able to feel in the normal state without drugs.  With this drug I felt the fine detail, and the yearning and desire to be penetrated were very much there and every actual thrust was great and I just wanted more.

I looked at flowers, and saw them with all the beauty and connection that comes with [other drug A, B, or C], though it seemed to have a more earthy quality.  But what seems absolutely unique with this experience is its connection to other people.  When I think of my mother [eyes closed], it is as if her presence is with me, in three dimensions.  It is not that I see her, actually I see below the surface, her essence is with me.  There was a kind of three dimensional representation of her, but it didn't have the facial surface, it had her inner being.  This was very strong when thinking of my mother.

I have taken [this drug] twice. My first dose was [Y] mg... Certainly, there was much of the feel of an organic psychedelic, with earthy colors, but not overwhelming visuals.  My mental state was one of gentle clarity. Communication was good, as was appreciation of music. At about five hours, we went to the forest and bonded with nature. At several points during the day, there was some "edge" or lack of complete ease, but overall I found it a good and complete psychedelic, although perhaps not an outstanding one. My second trial was at [X] mg ... there were delightful rushes to hyperacuity; the day was glorious and healing...  It was not overwhelming (mentally)...  It isn't in the [other drug A/B] league perhaps, but it's still pretty damn good stuff and an ally.

Beautiful experience. Erotic excellent. Eyes-closed imagery and fantasy to music. No dark corners. Benign and peaceful and lovely.

Beautiful plus 3. Some visuals, but not intrusive. Moderate, good-mannered kaleidoscopic imagery against dark. Music superb. Clear thinking. Calmly cosmic. This is a seminal, or archetypal psychoactive material. A very good experience and good for repeats.

