Garden Of Angels

This community is for parents, familys and single parents who have lost a baby through still birth, cot death or illness. It is a community for people to come and talk and share their grief with other people who have been through similar experiences themselves!!

I lost my little baby sister Scarlet in the most traumatic and cruellest way possible: before she had even begun life. By now we should have been watching her tiny fingers curl arounds ours as she takes her bottle, watching her feet kicking playfully into the air. Instead, we are facing the grim reality of living without her, and trying to face the fact that Scarlet Rose Watson was never given a chance at living.

When a terrible event such as this happens I have found that I have been left with questions of which there are no answers to. Justifying why such a tradegy befell us is an imposibility. Often talking with those closest to us, especially those directly connected with this terrible experience is extremely difficult and fails to yield any of the answers I so need. Even talking with a professional, who may not have experienced something like this and therefore cannot identify with my personal situation, fails to aid me in any way. In setting up this community I hope to do just that: meet people who are willing to share their similar experiences with me in the hopes of trying to come to terms a little better with the loss.

I am a young mother myself, and having to witness my mum go through such a painful experience has not only left me devestated, but full of anger and resentment towards god. I have not yet found a way of dealing with these emotions, and so maybe sharing and discussing them with people who would like to talk would benefit me in this way also. However, although I do have these feelings towards god I also feel gratitude towards him that he looked after my mum at a time she needed him. She almost lost her life herself, ironically doing all that she could to bring another life into the world.

So, if you happen to find this communtiy and would like to share your personal experiences surrounding stillbirth, or in fact any child death instances in general, please do so. I am always here to listen and would love to hear from you. We only have a few members currently, as we are just starting out, but we hope to meet many more of you soon.