crushedWe used to be so close. We used to be inseparable, practically joined by the hip. I befriended you when nobody else was interested. I thought I could rely on you, because you could rely on me. I was there when nobody else was, the shoulder you cried on when everything got too much. I was the one whose house you stayed at because you didn’t want to spend another night at home. I was the one who was there for you when all those boys dropped you, left you with nothing.
But none of that matters now.
You’ve changed. I’ve seen it happening, and boy has it hurt, having to sit back and watch you become something else. A year ago you’d never have dreamed of doing the things you have done now. I do wish I could change things, I really do. I would give anything to have the old you back.
They were only words, but they hurt so much more than any cuts or burns ever could. But not only the words, but the whole situation, the fact that you actually did it is what really hit me hard. The fact that after all I’d done for you, you could still do that to me. And I’m almost certain he was involved, because he always is.
He always was.
He’s possibly the biggest factor in all of this, the spanner in the works. I told you he was bad news, I was right. More things you’d never have done a year ago.
A lot can change in a year, we proved that. You proved that. One, two years ago we were innocent. Just kids with dreams and hope. But all that’s gone, all gone because of time and people. I wish things didn’t end like this, and they have ended because of this. But I wouldn’t have known if not for your slip of the hand, your little mistake. I’d never have known, you’d never have told me, you’d have hidden under the masquerade of a computer screen.
And I noticed, when she came along you started losing interest in me. I was an old toy that you’d tired of playing with and she was a new, shiny toy to entertain yourself with. You didn’t need old ‘dependable’ anymore. It seems old friends are low in value these days.
It’s a shame.
I never thought it would end, if I’m honest. I thought we’d be friends for life. We had these dreams of going to America, visiting all the different states. We wanted to see the world.
I guess everything was just a little too perfect.