Nothing like looking for small gift cards where you thought you might have put them eons ago only to find letters you wrote to your goddamned ex instead. I only glanced at one, written about two months after we first separated, that makes note that he sounded happier and I felt happier with us not together, and so what did that mean? Hi, you moron, it means you're better off not together. As in, separate. Divorced. Free. And in your case, quite likely better off alone even if you're lonely. (Don't know and no longer care about his case.)

There's no mood icon for 'blindsided.'