After 2 weeks of migraines due to nonstop rain, the sun is finally out,

For the first time in weeks, I woke up with no headache or aura. I've almost forgotten what it's like to not be in pain.

Happiest of birthdays to my much better half, @lescar -- I am so thankful that you were born 💜

Requesting for stickers is a must when grocery shopping at Trader Joe's. They always have a different set every time we go.

I am honestly incredibly upset with myself. I could have done better. I should have done better.

I am capable of so much better.

That's it. It's out of my control now.

I could be back to square one by tomorrow.

Prepping, always prepping.

I'm hoping this is the very last prep I have to do because ugh, I'M TIRED.

Milestone moment: Ran 6.3 miles today -- which makes it my official longest mile I've ever tracked in my life.

I need to practice more patience.

Constantly selling my souls to these companies and then playing the waiting game to see if they're even interested in buying.

I'm tired. Really tired.

Ready for this era of my life to be over with.

The waiting game is exhausting.

I don't think I've ever been ghosted by a (/my) therapist before. This is new.

100.06 miles complete in 6 hours, 54 minutes, and 40 seconds.

100 miles for 100 days. I'm going to eat, shower, and then sleep.

95 miles down, 5 more to go.

Crawling to the finish line. I barely have any energy left in me.

80 miles down, 20 to go.

Been taking more breaks than usual but I'm so tired. Estimated time of completion is 1hr, 22m. This will put me close to 7 hours, if not more. Ugh.

60 miles down, 40 to go.

Took a break for lunch, and had some carbs. Feeling sleepy but pushing forward.

25 miles down, 75 to go.

100 miles for 100 days.

The goal is to finish at around 7 hours riding time. Pretty upset with the late start but it is what it is.

Last day of November. I'm honestly not sure if I have much to show for this month.

I survived. Barely. That means something, at least, right?

Just another Monday staring at my inbox waiting for an email that I am simultaneously dreading and needing to see.

I literally have not been able to breathe all weekend.

My favorite round of interviews thus far has been with the Director of Engineering.

I've always enjoyed my close partnership with the Engineers I worked with. I hope that my excitement shined through today.

Now, we wait some more (into the weekend).

Another case study interview complete. One more tomorrow.

Then I won't hear back until next week on if I royally screwed any of the rounds up.

I'm exhausted.

The wait is over for yesterday's call. I did not move forward to the next round.

Although I think I did better yesterday compared to my train wreck last week (in which I moved forward from), the vibes were off.

Is this why I haven't cried yet? I definitely cried last week. Are my tears running out? (Hard to believe)

I'm grasping at straws here.

Just once, I'd love to leave an interview feeling confident I aced it.

Waiting game, pt. 3(?) -- I lost count.

Email received.

I'm still not quite sure how it happened but it looks like I'm moving on to rounds 3 and 4 this week.

If I'm dreaming, someone wake me up.

The worst part about today is waiting for an email I am simultaneously hoping would never come yet am eager to receive just so I can get it over with.

I don't even know if I'm supposed to get it today or some other day. Or maybe, I'll just get ghosted.

Why am I like this?

Two+ months later, I finally received my Internet Phone Book. Really excited to look through it!

Halloween 2025 -- the scariest costume? Me, pretending I have it all together.

(And probably not doing a good job at it)

The mental health is mentaling right now.

I just need to find a way to convince myself I actually didn't even WANT the job to lessen the heartache for when I end up getting rejected.

I'm a puddle of mess right now.

I'm pretty sure I totally just bombed that interview and I'm incredibly upset. In my defense, I've never had anyone watch me prompt / prototype something... and I think the nerves just got to me.

It's no excuse though. Recruiter is out until next week so now I have a few days to continue to feel bad about this until I hear back.

Ugh. Might as well kiss that next round goodbye.

Do you ever just get tired of hearing yourself that you kind of just stop talking out loud and retreat into yourself?

But then you keep everything so bottled up inside that eventually you kind of just explode. Everything just spills.

It's a scenario that you know is totally avoidable but it's a train wreck you can't seem to bypass.

It's been a while since I was so consumed by a book I stayed up til 2 am reading it, and took less than 24 hours to finish it.

In the midst of all the craziness of our lives, we managed to pull ourselves together well enough to do a photoshoot we booked months ago yesterday (from our same wedding photographer).

We just got the sneak peeks in, and we're utterly obsessed. Contemplating putting up some of them on the photo blog at some point... maybe.

This is the second time I've scheduled THREE interviews (different companies) in one day.

Past me never learns how mentally taxing this can be.

Why am I getting a rejection email on a Sunday night?

Crying while working out has become my new norm.

It may not be much, but I swear I'm doing the best I can.

Woke up at 3am to a 4.3 magnitude earthquake. Shook the bed really hard. My heart did not stop pounding for some time.

Finished 75 miles in 4 hours and 50 minutes. I'm exhausted.

Trying not to crash. I'm so tired.

65.6 miles out of 75 miles. So close to the finish line.

3 hours and 15 minutes in.

Finished 19.06 miles which puts me at 50.2 out of 75 miles. Average speed went down to 15.5mph.

Got my electrolytes and carbs in. Pushing the last 25 miles.

Hour 2 complete.

31.2 of 75 miles done. Currently averaging around 15.6mph. This puts me at around 4hrs 48m finish time. Let's see if I can keep this up.

One hour down, 15.9 of 75 miles down.

Will I finish in 5 hours? Who knowsss?

It's nearly 5am. Prepping myself to do a 75-mile ride in 5 hours. I'm still half asleep.

Waiting game. I don't want to play.

22 miles for 22 days.

I guess this is one way to continue being in shape.

Woke up with a killer migration with an aversion to light.

This is it. I'm finally turning into a vampire. DND.

I've been taking progress photos of myself all year after working out.

Lately I've been thinking that my photos portray myself looking fitter than I am in real life (LC thinks I look the same).

So is this some sort of impostor syndrome against my own self? I don't get it.

Finally got around to cleaning my home office. I've avoided that room since losing my job. Feels like a slight closure.

Moving my working space to the loft temporarily. I'm not mentally ready to occupy my former space just yet.

Nothing like registering last minute for a 75 mile ride on Saturday... right before an insanely busy day.

I think I am slowing breaking apart.

Insanity is checking my email every 10 seconds knowing full well that no new email has come in.

Applying to jobs on a weekend. Who am I?

Flu shot acquired. They didn't have any COVID boosters left, so have to wait for them to restock... whenever that may be.

The downside to losing weight and doing a body recomposition when you've lost your job is that you can't buy new clothes.

So now I'm stuck with these super baggy clothes that I'm absolutely swimming in.

Rode 15ish miles but then my app crashed. Didn't get credit on the app.

Had to remind myself that I didn't do this for the app. My body got the credit (workout) it needed.

Picked up running again. It's a bit symbolic considering I'm also currently running away from my problems.

(Not really. Don't believe everything you read on the internet)

Am I too lonely to think that blogging is lonely?

I cut the bottom of my lip from eating a burrito yesterday (assuming from the foil?). Who does that?!

Got some not so great news today. Will be taking a hiatus... until who's when.

Take care y'all.

Dreamlight Valley on sale on Switch and I think I'm going to get it.

Who else is playing it? How do you like it? Am I going to be equally stressed with it as I am of Stardew Valley?

I have worn a thumb ring on my left hand for 26 years without fail. Yesterday, I lost my ring. The weight loss had made the ring too loose, and I guess it slipped off.

I ordered one right away, but it didn't arrive in time today... and now I feel lost out and about without one. Ugh.

Giving my Ricoh GRIIIx a break as my daily carry and picking up my Fuji X100V for today.

I've missed it so much!

I just saw Tiny Bookshop was released for the Switch. Super tempted to get it.

Anyone else play it? Thoughts on it? Worth it?

Took a (much needed) 3-day break from working out... and I honestly felt a little lost during those days.

Back in the gym today, and all is right in the world again.

There is currently a tsunami advisory in San Francisco. Less than 24h until our wedding.

Hopefully the advisory lifts beforehand. We're about to do vows surfing or something.

I've been pretty burnt out with my calorie deficit at 1200 daily intake the past ~6 months. Today is the last day. Can't wait to get a little bit of energy back.

Maintenance calories (~1600) starting tomorrow!

Instant panic when I accidentally uploaded my private progress pic to Strava instead of my "today's workout" photo.

Photo has been deleted but if you were on there for the .01 second it was up, no you didn't see it.

Just finished putting together a sales pitch deck for a Client that I've been working on all week. Included in it is a working prototype that I deployed in Netlify*

*this is a big deal to me because as a non-developer in tech, this is actually the first time I've deployed anything in public EVER.

A great way to start off my week-vacation... which also happens to be the longest time off I've taken this year so far.

Ok, signing off ✌️

Sunday night.

Going to sleep means accepting the weekend is finally over. I don't want Monday to come just yet. Ugh.

I am trialing the Ladder fitness app... although their current marketing strategy of trash talking a competitor (that I've been using for >4 years) is not really sitting right with me.

I have once again found myself maxing out on my accrued vacation days at work this week.

Forcing myself to take a half day on Friday to subtract just enough for it to start accruing again.

Oops.

Not feeling the best today, but still trying to do my best.

The house literally just shook. EARTHQUAKE!

The hardest part of working out is actually getting off the couch to work out. Once I start, it's difficult to not put my all into it.

Day 1 of kitchen countertop installation complete... amidst one of my busiest days at work.

Tomorrow is a super stressful day for me at work, so hopefully day 2 of the installation will be just as seamless.

New profile photo, still the same me.

I am an absolute introvert but being out with Cocoa forces me to be slightly more social.

The amount of people who came up to us today, stopped to converse, take photos of her drained my social battery.

Crawling to the gym this afternoon because all I want to do is have a LAZY SUNDAY before a busy week but I have to get a workout in.

Win of the day: losing enough weight to fit into my jeans from 5+ years ago.

Haven't had the heart to attempt this until today. It was a nice surprise!

6am meeting.

Hoping this coffee will save me.

Just finished a 50-miler (80.5km) for Pelofondo all before 10am.

So happy I still have the rest of the day left... even though the exhaustion is slowly hitting me.

Pickles have been an absolute game changer snack in my calorie deficit journey... while cheese has been my downfall.

Balance.

I've been using IceCubes as my Mastodon app ever since joining almost a year ago. It's been failing sporadically recently since social.lol did its migration last week.

So I'm trying out Mona. It's taking some time to get used to but it's a decent alternative for now.

Two years on Bluesky today. 2.1k posts. 90% of those posts were from the first 6 months.

Today, I used Greek yogurt instead of Mayo for my egg salad sandwich to stay within my calorie budget.

It's not the same as the real thing but it wasn't the worst thing either.

I highly dislike small talk and so sometimes coffee chats for networking really bother me.

In my line of work, it's hard to navigate around it, so I'm stuck doing it... especially now. Ugh.

Jokes on me, I do still have to pay for my mortgage today.

I experienced one of the worst migraine episodes I've had in years last night. I'll spare the details, but it was messy and unglamorous.

Spending the day recovering from the migraine hangover today on the couch since I'm still pretty weak.

Today is my younger brother's birthday. I think he much prefer to celebrate with cake instead of pi though.

Parents are visiting and staying with us for the first time in 4 years next week.

Of course the guest shower stops working, and there may be a leak in the bathroom. Called a plumber to check tomorrow.

Can't catch a break.

Having to prepare for the worst, and yet I know that none of this will be any easier when the time does come when I have to put the preparation in action.

Sleep has still been hard to come by due to managing Cocoa's pain in the middle of the night.

Last night was the first night she was able to sleep for more than 3 hours at a time (and in turn, me too).

Hoping that it is just upwards from here. Cocoa says thank you for everyone's well wishes.

We were up a majority of the night tending to Cocoa. She's in a lot of pain due to what the vet is assuming is her arthritis flaring up.

She's still a bit uncomfortable today, so we're trying to just find ways to lessen the pain so she can rest. We're all a bit slow moving today.

I hate Mondays.

Good review from my dentist today + no cavities. Calling that a win for the day.

After looking and failing to find eggs for the past month+ (that's not $20/doz), we finally got some at Costco.

Do I even know what eggs taste like anymore?

The cookie dealers got me outside of a bookstore today.

Well played little humans, well played.

I've been a Flickr user since 2008. I was a Pro member for the first 10 years until they got acquired in 2018. Took a break from it, and 7 years later, I finally decided to go Pro again for their 21st birthday.

There's a 21% off discount right now for those who are interested!

Counting calories and having to input 80 calories for each slice of Muenster cheese hurts my soul.

I wish I didn't love cheese so much, because right now, they are my downfall.

Today was not a good day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I finally personalized and added stickers to my journal the other day (ugh sticker anxiety). It brings me more joy looking at it now, than when it was just a blank yellow notebook.

Will work on adding stickers to the back next.

It's a little after 4:30pm. I have been in bed in the dark since 8am trying to survive this migraine.

I am 80% better but very weak. I'm ready to feel 100% again. It's been awhile since I've had a migraine that lasted more than 3 hours.

Officially switched out my Apple Watch for a Coros Pace 3 watch.

Testing this out for the next couple of weeks, and will hopefully do a review at some point in the future.

I've missed wearing circular watches. Battery life is apparently 2+ weeks on this so can't wait to see what I can do with it.

The hardest part about going to the gym is getting DRESSED to go to the gym.

Case in point: it took me TWO hours to get dressed today. Now that I'm here, I might as well workout, right?

Saying you support LGBTQIA+ because there's a hidden 🏳️‍🌈 somewhere in your website is like saying you're not racist because you have a black friend.

I have not been able to put down Onyx Storm since getting it at 9pm last night accidentally... instead of the 18 week wait I was supposed to have. (Thanks, Libby)

Anyone else reading this right now?

I don't know. Today is just hard.

12 hours later, we finally made it home.

As we drive home to Northern California from SoCal, we are seeing a bunch of fire trucks heading South to (most likely) aid in the fires.

Attempt number 2 in our journey to driving back from San Diego to San Francisco. We will be heading East as much as we can to avoid the fires, before going North.

Wish us luck.

Officially checked in to our new AirBnB. Thankfully someone was able to accommodate our last minute check-in PLUS allowed us an early check-in time.

Now to see if we can find our dog's prescription food that I did not pack extras for...

Our drive home to San Francisco from San Diego was supposed to be today. Unfortunately our route home is blocked due to the fires, so it looks like we may need to stay for another day.

10 hours later and a small detour, we're finally in LA.

7am and finally on the road.

10pm and I am now just getting myself to the gym. Sigh.

I've been neglecting updating the macOS on my 2019 MBP but am now officially updating it to Sequoia due to an app I need to download. Ugh.

I do a phone reset at the beginning of every year. What this usually means is deleting all my photos (they're backed up to my ssd) and starting new. Sometimes also deleting unused apps.

Anyways, I went from 2,539 to 698 photos. I couldn't get myself to delete most of the photos of my dog this time around.

The downside of being a natural brunette is that it takes FOREVER to go blonde.

3.5 hours in so far in the salon... probably another 3-4 hours left. My hair takes way too long to strip its color.

I wish I liked myself enough with dark hair but ugh.

I get packages in the mail often for products I review... but today, I got an unexpected $75 candle with no note.

First, I don't understand why a candle should cost that much and Second, no one is owning up to sending this to me so I can thank them properly.

I got 3 shots at the doctor's yesterday and feel like a truck has run over me (multiple times).

I look like I’m 12 in all the photos the Apple AI Playground is generating based on my pictures. Tell me what you really think, universe.

Just spectated my first marathon. Now I am inspired to run one myself. Maybe a half first, though.

My team decided to take photos of our desk / workspace and we all had to guess which desk was who's.

Between the camera, fountain pens, and mech keyboard on mine... it was a super easy guess for my team.

I just got an Earthquake and Tsunami warning alert in a span of 30 minutes.

Just bought a Roomba and it's currently mapping the house. Cocoa is not amused. She doesn't know what this stranger is doing bumping into her bed while she's napping.

I absolute despise the process of setting up a new phone, and having to re-authenticate everything.

Marked safe from grocery shopping the day before Thanksgiving.

The new Kendrick Lamar album is not speaking to me. Do I need to keep listening to it to see if it clicks eventually?

For those who like it, what's your favorite song from the album?

Bomb cyclone and atmospheric river hitting the West Coast… which means a week+ of rain. My migraine episodes have officially started.

Just pushing through the rest of the work week so I can curl up in a ball and hide in the dark all weekend 💀

I just received my Pilot Vanishing Point F. I don't think I can ever go back from this. It writes so buttery smooth.

3 weeks ago, I had no #fountainpens. Now I have 3. I think the Lamy Safari, TWSBI Eco, and Pilot Vanishing Point is all I need right now.

Perfect night for pho.

Decided to call in an order. When they asked me what I wanted, a rice dish came out of my mouth instead.

This always happens. Ordering via phone causes all of the anxiety.

I finally got my new journals in. I still have 16 pages left in my current journal (that was started in 2021!!)... contemplating whether or not to finish my current journal before moving into a new one.

I guess I just need to write more... so I can switch sooner, if I don't want to waste it...

I have a fountain pen I fell in love with after trying out in my cart that I am waiting to buy. When I added it to cart last night, there were 6 left. Now there's only 1. I have been refreshing nonstop to make sure it doesn't sell out.

I also have another #fountainpen that I ordered last week coming in today.

What have I gotten myself into?!

It's raining, and I'm feeling melancholic.

My latest post made it to Hacker News and I have no idea why.

I'm around. I've just been really, really sad.

I need to stop staring at this map because I really cannot breathe.

Today has been difficult, and continues to be so.

Just have to keep reminding myself to breathe... and that it's not over yet.

Houses in my neighborhood take down their Halloween decorations faster than I can get my life together.

Received confirmation that my ballot has been received and counted.

I'm all about this Nintendo Music. ACNH tracks on repeat, with a side of Mario.

Sometimes I just really need a tiny break from managing products.

Dropped off my ballot today.

Just wrapped up my October book club meet up (online) with friends I've known for 21+ years.

Always fun to talk about the book for 1/3 of the time and then life for the rest of the time.

Finally recovering from my 8+ hour migraine episode... now that Sunday is basically almost over.

We went to TWO different bookstores today and I didn't buy ANY books (or anything for that matter) in either places.

I'm not sure whether to be proud or disappointed in myself.

I’ve always been intrigued by the world of fountain pens but felt intimidated.

Today, I finally faced my fears and got a Lamy Safari. What am I getting myself into?

I think my Nespresso machine is dying. Trying to wait until Black Friday to buy a new one in case there are discounts.

This is what heartbreak looks like today.

Nearly 10pm and still no Internet (as originally promised). Checked the status and it now says 3:00AM.

Let's see if the Internet is back up by 7:00am for my stand-up... 🫠

Internet out since this morning, and estimated to come back up at 10pm (8+ hours from now).

Did I mention that we also have bad cellular signal at home?

Embracing the Halloween vibes with a new (probably temporary) Mastodon profile photo.

Forcibly took a day off today because I am once again maxed out on my vacation days accrual.

Summer is officially here in the Bay Area.

So sick, so sick of being tired And oh so tired of being sick

Anyone else following the Papershoot train wreck that happened this morning? So much tea spilled.

Today would have been one of my favorite person's 100th birthday. 9 years gone, and it's still not any easier. Miss you, grandma.

Still sick and miserable but watching Taylor's Eras Tour on Disney is making me feel a little better.

Day 4 of being sick and I am incredibly miserable.

I am officially sick.

Weighing the pros and cons of working* tomorrow. Waiting until morning to make a decision.

*I work remote so no risk of getting anyone else sick.

I can follow people on status.log now? How nice! Especially for those who don't auto post their statuses on Mastodon.

Loving the app updates!

The turkeys got way too close to Cocoa and I again during our morning walk today. It was about to chase us (there was 5+ in the flock) but we thankfully got away.

If you didn't know, turkeys are fast af.

I caved. I finally downloaded iOS 18.

Feeling blue.

Stopped by a neighborhood garage sale with multiple houses. Everyone seems to be selling some sort of workout equipment. I guess people are giving up on their pandemic "hobby".

Got a weight bench out of it, so I guess it's a win for me.

Downloaded the status.log app so that I can start logging my statuses. Hopefully I can remember to do that now on here.

I am just always... so... exhausted.

The last time I updated this was 3 weeks ago and I was doing laundry. I am updating this to say I'm doing laundry again. Why have I been feeling the need to update here when I'm doing laundry?

Laundry day.

Embracing the start of the weekend with open arms.

Back to work I go today.

Last day of our staycation. Back to work tomorrow.

Sunny days make me the happiest

Rainy day today.

Wine tour today

It's a beautiful day to be off work.

Extremely sleepy. May nap before I have to go for a run.

Drinking an Okinawa Pearl Milk Tea to celebrate National Bubble Tea Day

(Although let's be real, I celebrate this nearly every day)

Work meetings started at 7AM today. Happy Monday.

7am meeting tomorrow but here I am still watching Killing Eve. Season 1: done.

Can't stop watching Killing Eve. Officially obsessed.

Coffee, before anything else.

No work talk allowed starting...now.

I just signed up for omg.lol -- now what?