Railee
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I am one who is very passionate about things I choose to love. I am a reader by heart, able to take the stories I read and add them to an inner colective, the characters within being granted access to my own worlds just as much as I was granted access to theirs. I will be truly honest, I see the world I live in as not good enough compared to what I know it could be, too many letting their judgments cloud how they feel about others. To be completely honest, I have no interest in seeking out love, and if any remember me, I have lost nearly all interest in sexual activities. Just last year[September of '19], I had moved to California to live with someone I thought cared about me. Instead, he saw me as nothing but a toy for self gratification, and when I became too much trouble, he threw me away, degrading me in ways none had ever done before. It hurt. I still suffer from rather potent PTSD from the experience, and that makes me rather distant at times. There are few triggers[those being Marijuana(he made weed products in home, and I am mildly allergic as is, so it caused pain constantly), hard rap music, and degradation], but those triggers are potent, and can lead to not just panic attacks, but also to full blown paralyzing seizures. I see myself as a mistake in this world, and the words and actions of those who I believed cared about me have proven that. But through recent reading[Tale of the Guardian Master(https://www.sofurry.com/view/1046379), written by ModestImmorality(https://modestimmorality.sofurry.com/), HIGHLY recommend if ya like pokemon and realism], I have found worth in myself[even if during the 4 days I spent reading it I forgot to eat]that I forgot I could have.
Now, onto some things about myself I have not covered. I am 21, born in 98[that's both month, day, AND year, and if you are clever enough to figure it out, congratulations~], and currently live in Bend Oregon. I am transgender, M->F, and have been struggling through transition for about 6 months. Currently, I am homeless, and have been for 3 years, many mental problems causing places that hire me to later fire me for failing to perform as best I can, and others being completely unwilling to hire me due to those and others. I am an open book when it comes to myself, and do not have anything that I hold back. ANY questions, and I truly mean ANY can be asked and I will answer to the best of my abilities.
And as a note to the staff here, yes. When I first made my account I was underage. And I apologize for that. I had many problems at that age, and at the time I thought I had none and deserved what I took, despite truly not. If this account must be closed for those actions, I understand, and merely ask for another chance with a fresh account, one made to follow the rules in place. As I stated earlier, any who knew me in the past would not recognize the person I am today, as I am more reserved, more mature, and will likely never return to the ways I once had.
And now, as a final statement, thank you to all who have made this site a possibility. Thank you to the writers whose works should go in books, and yet instead go here, where none have to pay, and many simply read and move on. More should strive to provide input on the things that they read, whether it be praise, criticism, or both[or even neither]. Now, I can say I do not normally provide input on things, but that is simply because I get so drawn into the works that I end up piling all my love for it at the end[commented on TOTGM on the most recent, and, heh, may have done 7 paragraphs, with 2 being massive and easily split into 3 each].
And that is all I have to say here. This is less a biography, and more my true emotions in written form, and I thank you if you made it this far.
Now, onto some things about myself I have not covered. I am 21, born in 98[that's both month, day, AND year, and if you are clever enough to figure it out, congratulations~], and currently live in Bend Oregon. I am transgender, M->F, and have been struggling through transition for about 6 months. Currently, I am homeless, and have been for 3 years, many mental problems causing places that hire me to later fire me for failing to perform as best I can, and others being completely unwilling to hire me due to those and others. I am an open book when it comes to myself, and do not have anything that I hold back. ANY questions, and I truly mean ANY can be asked and I will answer to the best of my abilities.
And as a note to the staff here, yes. When I first made my account I was underage. And I apologize for that. I had many problems at that age, and at the time I thought I had none and deserved what I took, despite truly not. If this account must be closed for those actions, I understand, and merely ask for another chance with a fresh account, one made to follow the rules in place. As I stated earlier, any who knew me in the past would not recognize the person I am today, as I am more reserved, more mature, and will likely never return to the ways I once had.
And now, as a final statement, thank you to all who have made this site a possibility. Thank you to the writers whose works should go in books, and yet instead go here, where none have to pay, and many simply read and move on. More should strive to provide input on the things that they read, whether it be praise, criticism, or both[or even neither]. Now, I can say I do not normally provide input on things, but that is simply because I get so drawn into the works that I end up piling all my love for it at the end[commented on TOTGM on the most recent, and, heh, may have done 7 paragraphs, with 2 being massive and easily split into 3 each].
And that is all I have to say here. This is less a biography, and more my true emotions in written form, and I thank you if you made it this far.