The Story of Heartless

As a young one, I was often the most nurtured but also the most troubling one of my family. I used to cause so much mayhem, my mother would suffer dearly for it. I felt that never, would anyone understand what I have gone through. But from that trouble, came hope. Not in a hope that you would think but one that would occur either by instinct or because of my behavior. I began to read and write. Where it came from, truly never remembered. but knew this, when I wrote, it was about dragons.

My first dragon movie was Dragon Heart and till this day, it still fills my heart with warmth and wisdom. For my first dragon book... well I truly wish I could remember. If was so long ago and I never once found it again. If I could even get a title of the book, it would bring me to tears and make me a happy man again. That book single handedly changed my life and my world. Dragons, wonderful and colorful creatures of delight and fear, hope and anger, fire and wind and so much more. But it was also the first time at a young age, 6, that I learned how cruel the world can be. At such a young age, I learned the harsh factors of life and the evil that lied within humans.

From a young age, I saw two iconic statues of hope fall, I saw the young become part of the war, the families that turned one on another by silly pieces paper and so on. I saw death, I saw famine and I saw hopelessness. When I grew, I thought I could find enlightenment in religion. From the time I turned 7 and became 16, I always thought there was a... presence in life.

Alas, only till my eyes opened not even a year later to a much darker world, did I abandon hope on religion and the world. Humanity sickened me, the damage done, they done, had gone unnoticed by the higher ups. Those that control us and turn the many around us into slaves. They say they care but I see that they don't and they never will. Not even when a million lives are held hostage, would they give us true freedom or respect.

I got the name Heartless because I laughed as those two icons fell and 3000 lives fell with them. The anger from others, including my family, I was thought of as cruel and uncaring. Heartless because even years later, I heard that name told to me by an old acquaintance.  When I dropped my religion, I fully embraced the word as I turned my back on humanity. The dragon, being my symbol since youth, was also part of my name. The dragon, in its history, often meant it could be used for good or bad. A universal or element symbol on its own. I used it to reflected the name I received and the creature I wish to be.

I am a human but I wish to die something else, if it is a little while to not be this filth.