I'm a very shy person that has very little to no, self respect.

I am a very small person barely weighing more than 50kg with an average height of nearly 5ft 10" and with a frame that often gets me mistaken for a petite woman, scares the hell out of them when i speak though as my voice is quite deep.

I used to write stories but after I started working several years ago I gave it up. I miss writing greatly as it was my one creative outlet, I regret never learning to draw anything more than a bad stick figure.

I never stand up to anyone that confronts me directly and with all the build up of emotional turmoil I fear myself just snapping day and hurting someone either emotionally or physically in a way that would affect our relationship irreparably.

I long for a true mate, someone I do not have to hide my tastes from and accepts me for who I am, not who I could be.

I have a fear of men including myself and many of my friends say I am more of a Lesbian than I am a heterosexual man.