Animation Source is Terminated
Hi everyone, Magnum here and I am here to celebrate and to try to vent some more... but more importantly to open up.
Now Animation Source is finally gone and it has been a long time coming given it's negative reputation and just sheer problems I had with it personally. Animation Source, specifically Balto Source was my first sortie onto the web and it fairly quickly became thee most miserable time I ever had, so bad in fact that the trauma still effects me harshly to this day and I don't think I will ever get past it.
Animation Source went into maintenance back in very late 2022 and when I found out about this I posted a journal which I do highly recommend checking out and I'll put it here just after this paragraph, basically celebrating that it was dead as by the time I found out many months had passed and a couple months ago it is officially over, matter a fact the domains are up for sale and the only way to see Animation Source and it's sites are via the Wayback Machine which no one has archived properly.
Link to DA journal: https://www.deviantart.com/magnumwolf2/journal/Animation-Source-is-Dead-947543201
Here is where I am going to start to get into it, as a heads up I just want everyone to know that from here on out it is going to get very sad, I just want to let that be known.
When I joined Animation Source, I did so under the username MagnumWolf and eventually changed it to Magnum(StarFoxFan). Now I was new to the online scene and after some fumbles with the popular users I did eventually settle in and met a few users on the site and while it was hit or miss it was going okay.
Then eventually I became part of this pack called the Unalaq and this is where it.. *sadly sighs* starts to fall apart. Now like I said when I first joined the site in general it started fine as I talked to more or less everyone in the pack and it was going smoothly. Though eventually I got this feeling something was developing behind the scenes but I couldn't place it, I started to feel this subtle form of animosity and I started to see that the pack was starting to have some issues but since none of it was towards me I pushed it off to the side.
Now at the time I had some rp's going and I eventually lost interest in them but kept them going as I didn't want to risk hurting anyone's feelings. To point out real quick when you read my fiction, you notice that I mostly focus on combat, science fiction, fantasy and stuff like that and so I introduced it into one of the rp's and there was some major miscommunication which resulted in me getting banned from the pack.
I did try my best to try to establish contact and explain myself but it didn't work and long story short I eventually lost my temper and I didn't handle the situation properly at all because I felt thrown away, alone and scared as the packs matriarch tore into me pretty hard and several others and our care and loyalty was simply discarded.
I guess she figured it was the best chance to remove the sparkle dogs from the pack as at the same time the sites were going through some changes that removed them just in general. I was more or less on the receiving end on all fronts with my mystics being extinguished and half the Unalaq just coming down on me like an avalanche. I remember that the other sparkle dog members sent me pm's but I never read them because by that point I was done with all the drama on the site and I was just so fed up with all of it.
I'll get back to this whole pack craze in a moment, but I want to talk about Animation Source and the issues. Now at first it was alright and none of it hit me initially but it didn't take much time for the cracks to show, the forums were just this sea of negativity and while not directly worded, I think some users were blackmailing others from what I remember.
But the main problems with the sites was the owner of them all Steet, most if not all of the moderators and the popular users which ultimately lead to a very negative and toxic atmosphere. Needless to say I did my best to just do my own thing, work on the early lore for my mystics and just try to make the best of it.
This wouldn't last however as eventually Steet had announced that a sparkle dog ban was going into effect in the near future with his claims being they are just throwaway characters with no effort put into them. I was one of thee biggest voices against this change, not just because of my mystics but I was concerned with the creativity of every user being basically thrown away and at risk, stating that many of these sparkle dogs have a lot of lore and backstory behind them with many having enough words to rival a short story and that this was an extremely bad idea and that if it did go into effect and was enforced then Animation Source which was already dying would have the final nail put into it's coffin. I got a flood of support from my standpoint though amazingly none of the mods and popular users sided with me in this case, which is insane as a fair number had these sparkle dogs and given that these changes would effect everyone including them when it comes to creativity among other things it didn't make any sense.
Myself and many others became targets and it quickly became a massive witch hunt with the mods and popular users basically being executioners and starting flame wars with the wider userbase... and thankfully this would have major backlash for them, as not long after all of this on every other platform they either deleted or abandoned their accounts as no one in their right mind wanted anything to do with them.
With Animation Source and it's sites now having gone the way of the dodo and most of the userbase leaving I too deleted my account on there as I simply viewed it as no longer worth it.
But with the Unalaq it doesn't end there... I wish it did but apparently that was too much to ask. What happened was that one of the packs members began to spam my DA page and no matter how many times I told her to stop or I blocked her messages she just kept hammering me with gloats, heartless mocks and so on. This went on for I think a week U think but eventually it all ended with the packs patriarch contacting me to see how I was doing and asking me if I was alright, I could tell there was no means of malice or anything like that and to be honest if I didn't have that other user bothering me constantly I might have been on a more positive and talkative note, but by that point after everything that had happened I was just so angry, I was seething with so much annoyance and rage that I just wanted it all to stop. Here is what I said as a response:
"I am guessing this is *redacted*(also keeping DA username off of here as well) tell her to leave me alone at once!!!
The reason why I am on here is so I can get away from you guys!"
I put up an edited version up there for obvious reasons, but finally it all ended and I can be on Deviantart in peace. But for the Unalaq it wasn't over yet, what happend was that the packs matriarch drew up this anti-sparkle dog submission with all four sparkle dogs(half the pack at the time) that had all four of us with a red censor circle covering us with me in the middle and the matriarchs fursona in the corner giving this disgusted look with her bashing the four of us in the description. I know this because once in a while I would visit the site and see how it just kept burning down with flames wars with no new fiction and art really being uploaded.
At the time only the annoying user I mentioned had commented and she was praising it with her laughing gleefully I was front and center like I was being executed or something like that.
Look I wanted to talk and I wanted to set the record straight as I wanted to understand and cooperate but all attempts were met with censorship and silence from the four remaining pack members, which leads me to believe the matriarch of the pack just had this weird control over them or something, I am not sure.
Now the reason why I am leaving a ton of usernames out is because I don't want anyone to go and harass them, granted their DA pages have been dead for a while but I just don't want to put that information up there, I feel comfortable giving the pack name out given it and variations of it are used on a decent scale, as for Steet... well everyone hates him so that's a wash.
Sadly all of this had and still has quite a powerful effect over me, you see for a long time if I already didn't know someone I was paranoid, very hostile and pretty volatile to where I effectively self-isolated myself. Overtime I have done my best to sort out my emotions and to keep moving along, but a few things for me still hasn't changed where I am still nervous when it comes to interacting which is already difficult given my autism but sometimes I have flashbacks which forces me to back out of sending a message for example and while the paranoia has calmed down it is still a major issue. Another big one is that because of the mods and popular users on Animation Source I look upon the more popular users(as in the ones with high hundreds to thousands of watchers/followers) with a lot of distrust and loathing from the onset due to the trauma I have suffered. I have learned to greatly dial it back though as I know not everyone wants to attack or harm me, but it's a protective instinct I can't seem to fully override at the moment.
I know how all of this sounds but this is sadly what has been beaten into me, I know I did my best to cover this earlier but I decided to go all in where it stems from and to just get it off my chest and all of this negativity just has weighed so heavily on me.
The big question is, how do I feel exactly? Well I hate Animation Source to the very core along with all the former mods, the owner and so on but I am happy that it is finally gone and that they are just footnotes when it comes to the Wayback Machine.
Then we come to the Unalaq.... *sighs* I used to look up to everyone that made it up, especially to the matriarch and patriarch who ran it, I don't think I had a major role in the pack as I was just happy I was a part of it and I was completely loyal. But now... I wouldn't even spit in their direction! After all of this time, my anger, my hatred and bitterness has only gotten stronger and sharper, as far as I am concerned the Unalaq is and will always be my sworn enemy along with those that are part of it! For me it is a long war, I curse their names and I will never forgive them for not just for what happened to me but what they did to so many and that the pack that was constructed was destroyed all through lack of communication and slight communication error, that they threw us under the bus!!! I have forgotten nothing!!!
*Takes a deep breath* It took me a while to type this up given how much I had to effectively bring out but I wanted to give a proper explanation, I broke down a few times and even shed some tears as I relived all of this.
To clear a major part of this and to show where my thoughts exactly are, as hostile as I probably sound, I don't want revenge, vengeance or whatever. I just wish I was as bright as I use to be, I wish I had the positive outlook I use to have before becoming part of Animation Source where I was more outgoing, had drive and confidence. I joined Animation Source, specifically Balto Source because I was a huge fan of the Balto movies and I wanted to show not just my love for it but to also show what I can do and to interact with the wider community as positive as I could.
To be honest I still can't even bring myself to watch the Balto movies anymore or even listen to the music without it bringing a fair amount of anxiety out, every time I want to go back and watch one I get this shock up my spine and cold chills, which just sucks!
And now with Animation Source finally gone, I finally feel a sense of vindication and retribution, that in the end I and so many others were right and that despite it all, we got the last laugh. I know for many these sites hold a great deal of nostalgia but in a practical and realistic sense, these sites were just simply put extremely toxic once you got under the thin paint and pretty much every time these sites are brought up I hear nothing but negative words. The end of Animation Source was just inevitable, even without the rules change it would have ended the same way, just an arena of constant flame wars as the userbase dwindles and all the mods do is sit around and add fuel to fire all while Steet just stands there letting his false kingdom burn into oblivion... I am amazed it all lasted as long as it did!
At this point in time I am declaring that Animation Source has officially been terminated and thank goodness, the madness is over and done with and I never see it ever coming back in any shape or form. Now while I am celebrating, I do so with kind of a heavy heart, that despite all the pain, all the hurt... I wish it all was way more positive then it was and that Animation Source simply played a better role with me rather then against me.
*Sighs* Alright, I think I have said basically everything, for my emotional and mantle health I held back a fair amount, I just didn't want to rant or anything like that. I wanted to simply put my feelings out there and now that I have, maybe I can finally start to truly recover from all of this, maybe I can regain what I had lost.
I think it took me this long to open up because I was embarrassed or something along those lines and I thought I could just push it all aside, but in me trying to cover it all up it turned out I was bottling my emotions which I have been doing for an extremely long time. I do have periods of time where I am able to get excited and be positive but unfortunately I inevitably just break down even when nothing is wrong... hopefully for me things will start to change for the better as I am tired of this constant cycle, I feel drained and I feel so exhausted.
What ultimately has caused me to open up and do this, is the positive words and reinforcement from those I talk to and seeing the support I have been getting has shown me that things have gotten better and for once I think I am starting to regain a feeling of hope and optimism. I am not sure how long it'll take me to fully recover or if I even can, but to be honest some progress is better then none and words cannot express how grateful and thankful I am.
To end this I want to leave with you a few songs, not just convey how I have and been feeling but to show as well I am trying to progress, it's just I have to improve on some fronts.
Unwell by Matchbox 20: https://youtu.be/StFfXP4eAgU?si=nsDTq3ftNuP5-SSk
Spaceman by The Killers: https://youtu.be/jOFxt6y1xGA?si=4p347MrSRHGjMmWG
Human by The Killers: https://youtu.be/PODjfdNOIEo?si=3lexJzU59L6s5PBW
Now that all of this has been said, I am going to go cry for a little while as for me this was actually a lot for me to get into.
I hope everyone has a good one and likes the drawing, if you made it this far then thank you a bunch for hearing me out, Magnum out.
Magnum (c) Me
Now Animation Source is finally gone and it has been a long time coming given it's negative reputation and just sheer problems I had with it personally. Animation Source, specifically Balto Source was my first sortie onto the web and it fairly quickly became thee most miserable time I ever had, so bad in fact that the trauma still effects me harshly to this day and I don't think I will ever get past it.
Animation Source went into maintenance back in very late 2022 and when I found out about this I posted a journal which I do highly recommend checking out and I'll put it here just after this paragraph, basically celebrating that it was dead as by the time I found out many months had passed and a couple months ago it is officially over, matter a fact the domains are up for sale and the only way to see Animation Source and it's sites are via the Wayback Machine which no one has archived properly.
Link to DA journal: https://www.deviantart.com/magnumwolf2/journal/Animation-Source-is-Dead-947543201
Here is where I am going to start to get into it, as a heads up I just want everyone to know that from here on out it is going to get very sad, I just want to let that be known.
When I joined Animation Source, I did so under the username MagnumWolf and eventually changed it to Magnum(StarFoxFan). Now I was new to the online scene and after some fumbles with the popular users I did eventually settle in and met a few users on the site and while it was hit or miss it was going okay.
Then eventually I became part of this pack called the Unalaq and this is where it.. *sadly sighs* starts to fall apart. Now like I said when I first joined the site in general it started fine as I talked to more or less everyone in the pack and it was going smoothly. Though eventually I got this feeling something was developing behind the scenes but I couldn't place it, I started to feel this subtle form of animosity and I started to see that the pack was starting to have some issues but since none of it was towards me I pushed it off to the side.
Now at the time I had some rp's going and I eventually lost interest in them but kept them going as I didn't want to risk hurting anyone's feelings. To point out real quick when you read my fiction, you notice that I mostly focus on combat, science fiction, fantasy and stuff like that and so I introduced it into one of the rp's and there was some major miscommunication which resulted in me getting banned from the pack.
I did try my best to try to establish contact and explain myself but it didn't work and long story short I eventually lost my temper and I didn't handle the situation properly at all because I felt thrown away, alone and scared as the packs matriarch tore into me pretty hard and several others and our care and loyalty was simply discarded.
I guess she figured it was the best chance to remove the sparkle dogs from the pack as at the same time the sites were going through some changes that removed them just in general. I was more or less on the receiving end on all fronts with my mystics being extinguished and half the Unalaq just coming down on me like an avalanche. I remember that the other sparkle dog members sent me pm's but I never read them because by that point I was done with all the drama on the site and I was just so fed up with all of it.
I'll get back to this whole pack craze in a moment, but I want to talk about Animation Source and the issues. Now at first it was alright and none of it hit me initially but it didn't take much time for the cracks to show, the forums were just this sea of negativity and while not directly worded, I think some users were blackmailing others from what I remember.
But the main problems with the sites was the owner of them all Steet, most if not all of the moderators and the popular users which ultimately lead to a very negative and toxic atmosphere. Needless to say I did my best to just do my own thing, work on the early lore for my mystics and just try to make the best of it.
This wouldn't last however as eventually Steet had announced that a sparkle dog ban was going into effect in the near future with his claims being they are just throwaway characters with no effort put into them. I was one of thee biggest voices against this change, not just because of my mystics but I was concerned with the creativity of every user being basically thrown away and at risk, stating that many of these sparkle dogs have a lot of lore and backstory behind them with many having enough words to rival a short story and that this was an extremely bad idea and that if it did go into effect and was enforced then Animation Source which was already dying would have the final nail put into it's coffin. I got a flood of support from my standpoint though amazingly none of the mods and popular users sided with me in this case, which is insane as a fair number had these sparkle dogs and given that these changes would effect everyone including them when it comes to creativity among other things it didn't make any sense.
Myself and many others became targets and it quickly became a massive witch hunt with the mods and popular users basically being executioners and starting flame wars with the wider userbase... and thankfully this would have major backlash for them, as not long after all of this on every other platform they either deleted or abandoned their accounts as no one in their right mind wanted anything to do with them.
With Animation Source and it's sites now having gone the way of the dodo and most of the userbase leaving I too deleted my account on there as I simply viewed it as no longer worth it.
But with the Unalaq it doesn't end there... I wish it did but apparently that was too much to ask. What happened was that one of the packs members began to spam my DA page and no matter how many times I told her to stop or I blocked her messages she just kept hammering me with gloats, heartless mocks and so on. This went on for I think a week U think but eventually it all ended with the packs patriarch contacting me to see how I was doing and asking me if I was alright, I could tell there was no means of malice or anything like that and to be honest if I didn't have that other user bothering me constantly I might have been on a more positive and talkative note, but by that point after everything that had happened I was just so angry, I was seething with so much annoyance and rage that I just wanted it all to stop. Here is what I said as a response:
"I am guessing this is *redacted*(also keeping DA username off of here as well) tell her to leave me alone at once!!!
The reason why I am on here is so I can get away from you guys!"
I put up an edited version up there for obvious reasons, but finally it all ended and I can be on Deviantart in peace. But for the Unalaq it wasn't over yet, what happend was that the packs matriarch drew up this anti-sparkle dog submission with all four sparkle dogs(half the pack at the time) that had all four of us with a red censor circle covering us with me in the middle and the matriarchs fursona in the corner giving this disgusted look with her bashing the four of us in the description. I know this because once in a while I would visit the site and see how it just kept burning down with flames wars with no new fiction and art really being uploaded.
At the time only the annoying user I mentioned had commented and she was praising it with her laughing gleefully I was front and center like I was being executed or something like that.
Look I wanted to talk and I wanted to set the record straight as I wanted to understand and cooperate but all attempts were met with censorship and silence from the four remaining pack members, which leads me to believe the matriarch of the pack just had this weird control over them or something, I am not sure.
Now the reason why I am leaving a ton of usernames out is because I don't want anyone to go and harass them, granted their DA pages have been dead for a while but I just don't want to put that information up there, I feel comfortable giving the pack name out given it and variations of it are used on a decent scale, as for Steet... well everyone hates him so that's a wash.
Sadly all of this had and still has quite a powerful effect over me, you see for a long time if I already didn't know someone I was paranoid, very hostile and pretty volatile to where I effectively self-isolated myself. Overtime I have done my best to sort out my emotions and to keep moving along, but a few things for me still hasn't changed where I am still nervous when it comes to interacting which is already difficult given my autism but sometimes I have flashbacks which forces me to back out of sending a message for example and while the paranoia has calmed down it is still a major issue. Another big one is that because of the mods and popular users on Animation Source I look upon the more popular users(as in the ones with high hundreds to thousands of watchers/followers) with a lot of distrust and loathing from the onset due to the trauma I have suffered. I have learned to greatly dial it back though as I know not everyone wants to attack or harm me, but it's a protective instinct I can't seem to fully override at the moment.
I know how all of this sounds but this is sadly what has been beaten into me, I know I did my best to cover this earlier but I decided to go all in where it stems from and to just get it off my chest and all of this negativity just has weighed so heavily on me.
The big question is, how do I feel exactly? Well I hate Animation Source to the very core along with all the former mods, the owner and so on but I am happy that it is finally gone and that they are just footnotes when it comes to the Wayback Machine.
Then we come to the Unalaq.... *sighs* I used to look up to everyone that made it up, especially to the matriarch and patriarch who ran it, I don't think I had a major role in the pack as I was just happy I was a part of it and I was completely loyal. But now... I wouldn't even spit in their direction! After all of this time, my anger, my hatred and bitterness has only gotten stronger and sharper, as far as I am concerned the Unalaq is and will always be my sworn enemy along with those that are part of it! For me it is a long war, I curse their names and I will never forgive them for not just for what happened to me but what they did to so many and that the pack that was constructed was destroyed all through lack of communication and slight communication error, that they threw us under the bus!!! I have forgotten nothing!!!
*Takes a deep breath* It took me a while to type this up given how much I had to effectively bring out but I wanted to give a proper explanation, I broke down a few times and even shed some tears as I relived all of this.
To clear a major part of this and to show where my thoughts exactly are, as hostile as I probably sound, I don't want revenge, vengeance or whatever. I just wish I was as bright as I use to be, I wish I had the positive outlook I use to have before becoming part of Animation Source where I was more outgoing, had drive and confidence. I joined Animation Source, specifically Balto Source because I was a huge fan of the Balto movies and I wanted to show not just my love for it but to also show what I can do and to interact with the wider community as positive as I could.
To be honest I still can't even bring myself to watch the Balto movies anymore or even listen to the music without it bringing a fair amount of anxiety out, every time I want to go back and watch one I get this shock up my spine and cold chills, which just sucks!
And now with Animation Source finally gone, I finally feel a sense of vindication and retribution, that in the end I and so many others were right and that despite it all, we got the last laugh. I know for many these sites hold a great deal of nostalgia but in a practical and realistic sense, these sites were just simply put extremely toxic once you got under the thin paint and pretty much every time these sites are brought up I hear nothing but negative words. The end of Animation Source was just inevitable, even without the rules change it would have ended the same way, just an arena of constant flame wars as the userbase dwindles and all the mods do is sit around and add fuel to fire all while Steet just stands there letting his false kingdom burn into oblivion... I am amazed it all lasted as long as it did!
At this point in time I am declaring that Animation Source has officially been terminated and thank goodness, the madness is over and done with and I never see it ever coming back in any shape or form. Now while I am celebrating, I do so with kind of a heavy heart, that despite all the pain, all the hurt... I wish it all was way more positive then it was and that Animation Source simply played a better role with me rather then against me.
*Sighs* Alright, I think I have said basically everything, for my emotional and mantle health I held back a fair amount, I just didn't want to rant or anything like that. I wanted to simply put my feelings out there and now that I have, maybe I can finally start to truly recover from all of this, maybe I can regain what I had lost.
I think it took me this long to open up because I was embarrassed or something along those lines and I thought I could just push it all aside, but in me trying to cover it all up it turned out I was bottling my emotions which I have been doing for an extremely long time. I do have periods of time where I am able to get excited and be positive but unfortunately I inevitably just break down even when nothing is wrong... hopefully for me things will start to change for the better as I am tired of this constant cycle, I feel drained and I feel so exhausted.
What ultimately has caused me to open up and do this, is the positive words and reinforcement from those I talk to and seeing the support I have been getting has shown me that things have gotten better and for once I think I am starting to regain a feeling of hope and optimism. I am not sure how long it'll take me to fully recover or if I even can, but to be honest some progress is better then none and words cannot express how grateful and thankful I am.
To end this I want to leave with you a few songs, not just convey how I have and been feeling but to show as well I am trying to progress, it's just I have to improve on some fronts.
Unwell by Matchbox 20: https://youtu.be/StFfXP4eAgU?si=nsDTq3ftNuP5-SSk
Spaceman by The Killers: https://youtu.be/jOFxt6y1xGA?si=4p347MrSRHGjMmWG
Human by The Killers: https://youtu.be/PODjfdNOIEo?si=3lexJzU59L6s5PBW
Now that all of this has been said, I am going to go cry for a little while as for me this was actually a lot for me to get into.
I hope everyone has a good one and likes the drawing, if you made it this far then thank you a bunch for hearing me out, Magnum out.
Magnum (c) Me
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