Hurtful Truth - By Cacuu
The truth can be a vicious and merciless thing. Taylor could already tell something was up when both her father and mother began to introduce another female into their family in preparation for the switchover from one mother to another. She began to rebel and act out her independence, trying to maintain some modicum of sanity over her own life that seemed to be spinning wildly out of control around her. It wasn't up until this very moment that she finally found out what the root cause of all this change and uncertainly was: her mother had been diagnosed with a cancer that had no known cure. Trying in vain to read up on it, she broke down in tears when not even the most expert of books revealed anything of use. One of her best mentors, friend and cherished loved one, her mother, was going to pass away and there was nothing she could to do stop it.
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Though I had to stay fucking strong reading this, I forced myself to read it, I have to Remind myself of the truth, keeping myself grounded in reality...This sounds terrible, but its like Facing the Monster, I deal with it, this way..I wont allow myself to be in Denial...I Wont Live In Fear Of This Cancer Monster, it cannot take the memories or Love for my Father, so in my eyes It Didn't Win!~`
As I read, It was like reliving loosing my Father, who I loved more than life, when in January 2020 he was Diagnosed with 5 types of stage 4 Cancers..By the time they found it out....it was too, late. He was already terminal...They treated him at the Nursing home and the hospital, but it did little to help..All they could do was keep him comfortable and doped on 15 different pain killers..I visited weekly, as often as I could, I forced myself to see the Hurtful Truth, I was Numb allot, I think I still am over it, But I Loved Him, He understood how I felt.
Daddy Lion wasnt one to Spare my Feelings, he expected me to stay in reality, To Stay Strong, He called me his "Last Soldier", being from a military family inn my life from my Mom Svettelana and her side and my Father in the US NAVY, he a Vietnam Veteran... As that is expected of me his only Adopted Daughter, He loved me very much, but was a Strong Father, Not one to let ,me drift into a fantasy to avoid something, like this, he kept me Grounded..
That too like her is when my life went off the grid, spinning outta control, as The (One) stabilizer, I had to be my Center, was about to Die..I realized after on the phone what he told me, I knew it was over, So I did everything I could to Save it, in vain, But it took a toll on me mentally and physically...Nothing like Taylor I read too, could Save him, all the knowledge in the world wasn't gonna bring him back....Like Taylor the Crushing Truth hit me...I was never the same, even now..
My Life was about to change, there was no going back, no reset button, no miracle...
Just the Cold Truth! I Understood, I Was Going to Watch my Father die...It had all started in 2018, but we didnt know then.. he was getting sicker month to month, he suspected he had Cancer, I refused to accept it, I could not Fathom my life without him.
But here I am now in 2023, Thankfully I have Lubbayah with me and Mutamayez, my new Wife with her. It takes the Harsh edge offa this...But that feeling still stays with me...
Especially the Morning of 02.September.2020, I called and had to (Terminate his Life), he signed a DNR (Do Not Resuscitate) clause 23.June.2020..
So that morning...I did my Last Duty I was POA over him, so.. in 7 mins he Was Gone....at 10:08:40 AM CDT, Time of Death...........I Still feel guilty, I Hate myself for doing it, but it was my duty, as "His Last Soldier", it still hits me crushingly..But I have moved on. I had to.
Sorry Murana. I just needed to say that. This picture helped me in its own way, dealing still with the Hurt! I was as Taylor, Realizing the "Hurtful Truth".
I guess what can I say, I did the best I could for him. Its All I could do. My OC too, Kaag4e, she is a Badass like me, but I know too, she can bleed like me and die, So that keeps me in reality, too. I modelled her after me in Character, All my Flaws are Her's, All my Strengths are hers too. Lets say it this way, if she did ever die, it wont be because she gave up or surrendered in battle, just like me, she will fight to the death, to last breath, even if its a whimper, so be it!~`