I went against what Was once a promise to myself

Too broke for bottles, I grabbed emptily, at the top shelf 

Living a nightmare, I'm surprised I can still care 

At old dreams & goals, I now silently stare

Now feeling lost, I can't seem to change my facial expression

It's not lacking in happiness, but I feel I may be stuck in personal compression 

What may blossom, I hope is quite a sight 

Hopeful, I go into tonight 

Life's been enough of tough

I hope a lifetimes worth, tomorrows aren't all so rough

I'll stay an optimist till my time ends with my days

Happy, jus somewhat stuck, I'll be, in my old ways