By posting today, I will have posted the same number of times this month as I did in all of 2014. Of course, that's only three. But still. Progress.

I listened to the new Fall Out Boy album, and I like it. I don't like ALL of it, but I don't usually like every song on any album. I like most of it, and I love some of it, and mostly it just sounds like Fall Out Boy. I like "The Kids Aren't Alright" and "Jet Pack Blues" and "Favorite Record" and "Fourth of July." In my head "Centuries" is a vampire AU or yet another bandom song that should someday be a The Vampire Lestat fanvid. I have a list I'm saving for someday in the future when there is actually source for said vids.

I continue to play a lot of Dragon Age: Origins and ( I have thoughts.Collapse )

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I am in Boston with elucidate_this. Right now we are watching hockey. Or, more accurately, she is watching hockey and I'm playing on my laptop. The Bruins are playing the Rangers, and I'm rooting for the Bruins, which she says I should do because they* knocked out the Caps, which I should care about. Also, I'm sitting on her couch, so rooting for the same team is probably the way to go. I know pretty much nothing about hockey except for what I keep inadvertantly learning from hockey fic, which I read more of than I like to admit to these days since it seems to be a fandom almost entirely dedicated to coming out fic about people who are really bad at having feelings. I'm super easy for that.

Tomorrow we will see Fall Out Boy, and I'm very excited, both for seeing them in general and for seeing them with elucidate_this - we fell hard into bandom together all those years ago (SIX?!?!?! Really? What.), and the only bandom band we've ever seen together is The Cab, so seeing a FoB reunion show feels very appropriate. We were supposed to see my Cobras together when I had plans to follow them up and down the east coast whenever they toured, but then they foiled those plans by never, ever touring on Night Shades. Hopefully they'll tour on the new album they're apparently recording.

Speaking of Cobras, Gabe Saporta is getting married this weekend and I have Feelings about that. Hopefully there will be pictures all over the internet.

In other fannish news:

1) Still six episodes behind on Vampire Diaries, and holding out until I can watch it with my viewing buddy who lives in New York, but it's still the closest thing I have to current fannish feelings.

2) Elementary is my new favorite show, and I don't know how *fannish* I really am, per se, but that season finale could not have been more up my alley if it had been specifically written for me, so if anyone wants to talk about that...

3) I saw Star Trek: Into Darkness opening night with inlovewithnight and sansets. I may see it again while I'm here. I really liked it, and probably don't want to debate that. I totally get the issues people had with it, and there were things that didn't work for me, but there was a lot that did, and I had a visceral reaction to it that I was't really expecting. And also, on a purely shallow/fannish level, I'm on the Kirk/Spock train for the first time ever. I was never OPPOSED before, but I was pretty solidly neutral. The archetypal slash pairing and I finally get it! So there's that.

4) Doctor Who. What?

The Bruins just won Yay!

How are you guys?

*ETA: The Rangers knocked out the Caps, so I should be rooting against them, is what that was meant to say.

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Ahahahahahaha, you guys, it is April, WHAT. I didn't mean to not post since November (I have actually been really bothered about never making a Yuletide post THIS ENTIRE TIME, whoops).

I don't even remember how to do this. So Fall Out Boy is back! That's pretty great, right? When I first read the announcement, I literally full-on cried at my desk. I had no idea I had that many bandom feelings left, but apparently I did and Save Rock and Roll has only given me more. Now I just listen to it on repeat, and worry too much about the pieces I overidentify with, just like every other FOB album. Hooray!

How are you guys?

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Pete and Ashlee. ;_____; Goddamit bandom, just when I thought it was safe to go back in the water.

I get it, okay? Things to never forget: RPF will always find a new way to break your heart. Even when you think you don't care that much anymore, OH WAIT, surprise, you still do. :(

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Sometimes I think my bandom interest is waning, and I that I only hung on as long as I did because of the new infusion of delightfulness provided by The Like last year. And then sometimes I buy tickets so that inlovewithnight and I can drive five and a half hours to Poughkeepsie to see Pete Wentz's new band, and, what's more, I realize that I'm really, really excited about it.

It's been awhile since I posted, but I'm not dead, I'm just currently not very interesting and the new job is very time and energy consuming. I may continue to be scarce for a bit as I adjust, but I'm around and reading. <3

I finally caught up on Entourage (still brain candy) and True Blood (also still brain candy, but brain candy I have thoughts about; I'm just always too lazy to type them up) and I'm excited for the new television season! I finally watched the season premier of Merlin last night, and I'll be watching Glee this week at least - probably SPN too. I was so satisfied by last season's finale, that I thought I might be done, but I don't really think I'll be able to stay away. I'm assuming other stuff is premiering this week, but I don't even know what. What are you guys watching this season? What new shows have piqued your interest? I looked at a guide of new things premiering yesterday, and I didn't have a clue what any of it was. So out of touch. /o\

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So in general I tend to be more invested in FOB musically than I'm invested in them fannishly, but when I spent all those hours refreshing ICH last night I realized how much I really do worry a whole, whole lot about Pete Wentz. Oh, Fall Out Boy. :(

I worry about our fandom too. *hugs,* guys. ♥

...My next fandom is going to be fictional, I SWEAR TO GOD. I don't think I'm cut out for this RPF thing long term. Except that it's already been long term.

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As predicted, I am sicker this morning. And today I am going to do piles of reading for class, hopefully write a paper and take the cat to the vet. Huzzah! Exciting times. At least campus is closed for Columbus Day today. And if I don't feel any better tomorrow morning than I do right now, I may stay home tomorrow too. Blah.

But what I WANTED to say in this post is that inlovewithnight has posted her bandom_hc fic Guest Vocals By and you should all go read it. Pete/Gabe and Pete/Ashlee (and Gabe/Pete/Ashlee if you read the coda *g*) and complicated lives and getting your shit together. 'Night's character insights are so spot on. So many times during the beta process and then again when rereading it, it just made me stop and go "Oh, God, Gabe," because yes.

While I'm reccing, the only other bandom_hc fic I've had a chance to read is Some Sort of Cosmic Joke by morganya (mostly gen, with some Gabe/Bianca and Gabe/Travis subtext), also with *excellent* Gabe characterization, also highly recommended.

My "to read" list on delicious is getting sooooo long. ;__; SCHOOL WHY ARE YOU THWARTING ME?

The rest of the day must be devoted to homework. If you see me on the internet yell at me.

1) I've skimmed back through skip a million on my flist, but I know there's a whole lot I've missed fannishly. I'm glad everyone at Writercon had fun, and I'm trying to catch up on that stuff. I also missed ibarw completely, though I have a whole lot bookmarked that I need to read through. I hate feeling so behind on fandom, but I should probably get used to it because I'm pretty certain that next semester is going to kick my ass in a way that won't be all that compatible with my current level fandom participation. :(

2) There should be a word for being stupidly overinvested in a platonic relationship. Because sometimes I am *more* invested in platonic relationships than I am in the things I actually ship, but it's *not* shipping and there's not a word for it and this is incredibly frustrating, especially in the wake of the Panic breakup. (Ryan&Spencer ;___;) And if you thought I was ever going to stop harping on the Panic breakup, you were wrong. Sorry.

3) I love the "What a Catch" video. Oh, Fall Out Boy. ♥___♥

4) I know you all have been waiting with bated breath for me to weigh in on Hot Mess, so here it is: ( Put it in your blog, I promise no one even gives a damnCollapse )

5) There should be a five. Here is a list of the Top 278 Star Wars Lines Improved By Replacing A Word With "Pants"

Now I really am going to clean my apartment.

I want to do that ship meme. Gacked from everyone! Do I get 10 or 15? It seems to vary so I'm going to go with 15, because that's more. The list is chronological through my fannish trajectory and not at all in order of importance. It mostly features the same characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer in various combinations. *hands*

1) Lestat/Louis (The Vampire Chronicles)
2) Barnabus/Angelique (Dark Shadows)
3) Mulder/Scully (The X-Files)
4) Krycek/Marita (The X-Files)
5) John/Aeryn (Farscape)
6) Scorpius/Sikozu (Farscape; SHUT UP YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND MY PAIN)
7) Buffy/Angel/Spike (Ok, so this is cheating, because I like all three ships individually and I passionately ship B/A and A/S deep in my heart, and there was a time in my fannish life when I shipped B/S just as passionately too, but I need the space, okay? And I feel like post-Chosen/NFA in any of these dynamics the absent third is always relevant.)
8) Buffy/Faith
9) Angel/Darla
10) Spike/Drusilla
11) Brian/Justin (QaF)
12) Veronica/Logan (Veronica Mars)
13) Kara/Lee (BSG)
14) Helo/Athena (BSG)
15) Brendon/Ryan (bandom, PatD)

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Look what inlovewithnight made for me! Pete & Gabe platonic cuddling fic. This needed to exist and it is adorable and excellent.

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Off to my presentation, kids! Tonight: drinking. \o/

So the concert last night really was amazing. And I only got lost twice getting to inlovewithnight's apartment and we didn't get lost at all on the way to the venue and I didn't get lost at all on the way home. \o/

I'd never been to the Merriweather Post Pavilion before, and I did like the set-up. And I liked that there was beer. I've been to several bandom concerts where alcohol is unavailable and really? Concerts in general are just so much better when you've been drinking. This is especially true for me because I don't like large groups and I'm very easily overwhelmed so I drink to combat social anxiety. Which . . . yeah, I know, but it is what it is. Anyway.

Hey Monday (or at least Cassadee) is just as adorable as advertised. They were having some kind of weird technical difficulties last night and the jumbotrons kept going out. For Hey Monday and Cobra we were way in the back, so while we could see down the hill sort of onto the stage, we couldn't see much when the jumbotrons lost picture. (Especially me once it started to get dark because in my infinite wisdom I only had my sunglasses - which are prescription - and it hadn't occurred to me to grab my regular glasses out of the car).

Cobra, as usual, was fantastic, even if we didn't have a very good view for the end of their set. (The jumbotron went out at the second to last song). I just . . . Gabe. I don't even know you guys. I have my, like, intellectual, crtical, analytical opinion of Gabe Saporta, which just does not always line up AT ALL with the heart-clenchy, weak in the knees feeling I get when he's on stage. There should be a Cobra Starship live DVD; I WOULD WATCH IT EVERY DAY.

Victoria wants Gabe dead. At one point he introduced her as "this is my friend Victoria, who is mad at me." Then he looks at her and says, "but you're not mad anymore, right?" And she said, "no." And (since the jumbotron was working at this point) the expression on her face said, very clearly, "I am, in fact, still mad at you. Be careful. I know where you sleep." I do wonder what that was about.

Gabe doesn't sound great, and there were definitely places where he was straining and a few where he didn't even *try* to hit the high notes. GABRIEL, I WORRY. REST. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. SOBRIETY IS A VALID LIFE CHOICE. :( But overall, Cobra Starship left the usual hearts in my eyes.

We skipped 50 Cent and All Time Low in order to get more beer and sit on the steps discussing the difficulties of RPF. Metro Station was not there and no one acknowledged or explained this fact at any point. We think perhaps they were abducted by aliens, but if anyone has a better explanation, I would be curious.

When we went back over toward the stage for FoB one of the security guys was giving out bracelets for the pit because apparently Pete didn't want to go on until the pit was full (or so the security guy said). I don't usually like the pit, but I'd been drinking enough that it sounded like a GREAT idea, so we went down there. It ended up absolutely being the right decision because then we were close enough to see everything even when the jumbotrons went out again. I'd have been really annoyed if I hadn't been in the pit and that had happened because it was out for probably about half of FoB's set. We were at the back so we weren't *that* near the stage and it ended up being a pretty chill pit, at least on the side we were on. All the crowd surfing was on the other side. We had lots of dancing and bouncing, but not a lot of shoving, which I *hate* because I am so not hardcore. So that worked out well. Fall Out Boy was excellent; I'd only seen them live once before and I forgot how much energy they have and how much fun they are to watch. (I love how it was a FoB show, I was in the pit for FoB where I could actually see, and I'm *still* all LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT COBRA STARSHIP).

Oh, there is so much fic I would read right now. I would read about Pete and Gabe on this tour where Pete has his shit together now and Gabe still doesn't and is pushing himself way too hard and Pete being the one trying to kind of keep Gabe together. I would read slash with this premise, I would read gen. I would read it however it came to me. 'Night is considering it, I think, but she's afraid that if she writes bandom fic it means she's actually in the fandom. Which, granted, is a valid fear.

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I was in a really kind of stressed out, edgy, nervous place and the concert was COMPLETELY cathartic. Today I am going to finish Big Bang and not leave my house.

&bandom; &Hey Monday; &Cobra Starship; &Fall Out Boy; &inlovewithnight; ♥

So that was exactly what I needed when I needed it. More tomorrow. Now I am going to bathe and pass out.

I am about to go pick up my car from the mechanic (I hope?) and then to pick up inlovewithnight and then we are going to Fall Out Boy! (Or we are going to go hang out in Columbia for awhile and then tonight we are going to Fall Out Boy). Hopefully I will be able to find 'Night's apartment. Hopefully after that with our powers combined we will be able to find the Merriweather Post Pavilion. Idk, you guys, I remember when I went to Baltimore to see Cobra and my friend and I only found the venue through sheer blind luck. Maybe someday a bandom band will actually play in DC near a metro so that 1) I don't have to worry about getting lost and 2) I can be sufficiently intoxicated and not have to worry about driving home. This last point is actually the more salient of the two, I feel.

Dear Bandom:

Where is the Pete/Ryan/Ashlee fic? Someone is on that, right?

Really? Okay, then, Fall Out Boy.

I am also debating the Fall Out Boy tour. I don't like arenas and I'm pretty sure my bandom concert moratorium that was in place last semester needs to still be in place for financial reasons (money, I have none) - but there is the Cobra exception and Cobra is opening! Does that count? DECISIONS.

I have been in very strange and kind of ick mood all week and this is partly related to being ambivalent about my classes so far and partly related to old rl drama that I don't want to deal with that I might potentially have to deal with (I don't want to be cryptic, but see also: don't want to deal; let's just say people suck and leave it there) and partly related to the fact that I AM FREEZING. Are you tired of hearing about that yet? I know! I'm sorry! But the low today is seven degrees. I am too cold to function or think or have emotional reserves. I'm telling myself that's the problem, anyway. /o\ (I know many of you live/are from places where it is much colder. Many of my classmates are also laughing at me right now. I'm just not used to this!)

I have been combating my moodiness through cooking, which is something completely new and different for me since I can go months only eating things that I can take right out of the refrigerator (cheese, crackers, peanut butter, fruit, ice cream, etc) because the microwave is too much effort. (This used to be my default, idek). Right now I have left over soup, lasagna, peanut stir fry, pecan pie and snickerdoodles. *hands*

I haven't watched last night's SPN yet because I've been trying to catch up on this season of Dexter. And BSG comes back tonight! I'm excited! Though I also should have rewatched the first half of the season first because I'm pretty sure I've forgotten most of the salient details in the YEAR WE HAD TO WAIT.

I finally listened to all of Folie a Deux. I feel like the titles make even less sense than usual. "Disloyal Order of Water Buffaloes"? Okay, Pete. Despite this, overall I like it very much - better than IoH, I think. Not as well as FUCT, though that could change the more I listen to it. (I like TTTYG differently).

I have no deeper thoughts because I'm too exhausted for higher brain function. I don't sleep anymore, but I don't do work either. I just fuck around on the internet pretending to do work and panicking over the fact that I am not doing work. I have moved on from glutting myself on mediocre High School Musical fic and last night I started mainlining Merlin because I'm nothing if not easily-led by the tide of fandom. This is not the most productive way I could be spending my time. I have one more final paper to write and I'm not sure how or when that's going to happen because the thought of it is almost enough to send me into a panic attack. I guess I'm going to write it sometime in the next ten days! Currently I'm mostly planning to pull it out of my ass and hope for the best. This plan is going to go great because they apparently expect me to work for my grades here *and* they seem determined to call me on my bullshit. I find this unreasonable. Oh my God, there are so many reasons I am not cut out for academia long-term.

Also, in a somewhat hypocritical move I put my name on the Secret Santa anonymous love meme here. If you guys have threads there, link me!

Yeah, everybody's seen this at this point I'm sure, but Bronx Mowgli? Seriously?

Okay, then. It could be worse, and they did succeed in choosing a name that will cause fans to refer to the baby as something other than Pear Liberal Studies. Helps that it's a boy. Bronx Wentz is awkward, though. He's going to have to use the middle name to make it flow at all.

Bronx, kiddo, you're gonna have an interesting childhood.

Does anybody know of any RPF/S fanvids that are really well done? In any fandom, I don't care.

I was thinking today about how I haven't really come across that many that I've liked. There's, like, one RPS vid that really stands out for me and that was CWRPS, and it makes sense that there aren't fanvids in RPF fandoms the way there are in other fandoms because the canon really is so different. But we do have more caught on video canon now. And what we DO have in a fandom like bandom are the songs themselves, which could be really interesting. Semi-relatedly, I've been thinking aboutcounteragent's SPN-meta vid Still Alive for DAYS (and if there's anyone left who hasn't watched that, you should. BRILLIANT) and then I was listening to FUCT on the metro and "Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year" came on and, like, if ANY song was ever crying out to be a vid full of metacommentary on the fandom itself and the fandom's relationship to the source text, it's that one. We`re the lifers /here `til the bitter end,/ Condemned from the start,/ Ashamed of the way, /The songs and the words own the beating of our hearts.

I am just saying.

Yeah, I don't even know what that would look like and I know fuck all about vidding, so I'm only typing this up because I'm completely delirious and therefore not bothering to filter my random fannish thoughts. I'm currently procrastinating on a brand new assignment that I don't want to do any more than I wanted to do the assignment I wasn't doing yesterday. Seriously, I have been staring at the computer screen so long that I just looked over at my window and the blinds were breathing. Not FAIR having hallucinogen side effects without the hallucinogens.

Anyway! Vid recs, please?

Thank you for the voodoo doll, anonymous flister! <3

After having heard "What a Catch, Donnie," I want Patrick Stump to never stop talking about his emotional connection to Pete's lyrics. Lately their dynamic gets more interesting to me every time Patrick opens his mouth.

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I really have been all over the map fannishly lately. I keep getting distracted by things like Good Omens and High School Musical and then loosing hours. It is a bizarre quirk of my personality that when I'm in full avoidance-of-school-work mode, I am far less likely to procrastinate with one of my primary fandoms than I am with something completely random. I suppose it's not surprising that my fannish behavior is reflecting my academic behavior. I have NO FOCUS.

Have I talked before about how much I love it best when Patrick talks about how much he loves Pete? Because usually that comes from Pete so overwhelmingly and when Patrick is so explicit about it in interviews, I just ♥____♥ I love it BEST. For a variety of reasons I don't really ship them, but their platonic, BFF4ever love consistently makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.

I have barely left my apartment in two days because I was determined to get piles of work done, and I got about half of it done maybe, but now I'm just restless and stir crazy and procrastinating and I can't figure out whether I should just give up and call people to entertain me or try to soldier through and actually get something useful accomplished.