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I'm heartbroken! First of all, I had to hunt down this news on Twitter. Why it wasn't all over my timeline with all the local news accounts I follow is beyond me.

I've been a Seahawks fan most of my life. I've seen great players come and go, but this really hurts. I've liked Wilson from the start, loved his positive attitude, and his great leadership qualities. And OMG can the man throw a football! Perfect accuracy. And the way he avoids getting tackled? Legendary. Then there's Wagner, another amazing player who's been with the team for so long. This is an awful 1-2 punch. Sure, the Seahawks had a terrible time last season, but some of it was just bad luck.

I just can't imagine the Seahawks without Russell. He wanted to stay here, spend the rest of his career here in Seattle. Now it's over...

@seattletimes @SeaTimesSports End of a Super Era: The Seahawks agreed to trade Russell Wilson to the Broncos and release Bobby Wagner on Tuesday. @StoneLarry @bcondotta @APSE_sportmedia pic.twitter.com/rBg9bPBhmu

— Tony Lariccia (@TBLariccia) March 9, 2022

Last Shot.@JHuertaK5 @KING5Seattle pic.twitter.com/8Dh8zd3XJP

— Chris Daniels (@ChrisDaniels5) March 8, 2022

Sorry there's no Just 'Cause post today, but Friday was not a good day/night for me.
If you follow me on Twitter, you saw the progression. Not pretty.
So many have reached out to me with support, but I haven't had it in me to reply yet.

It hit suddenly, overtook me, but I'm finally seeing some brightness. I don't know why.
These feelings hit and then leave so mysteriously.
I feel a little better, but I just don't have the energy to choose a cap to post.
I hope a good sleep will reset me.

I hope you all understand. ♥

More images on my journal are gone thanks to Photobucket. *sigh*
I figured this was going to happen. I have 4 Photobucket accounts - 2 that were my "main ones", the ones I used to pay for. They started with the 2nd one and now the first, older one has been hit with the "No 3rd Party Hosting" invasion. Grrrr.

Guess I know what I'll be doing later on today...re-uploading all those images over to SlickPic so I can re-link them. *sigh*

Btw, I've made a decision over this whole issue that is heavily effecting posts over at spn_locations. I'll be posting about it later.

Oh, why did I look at my lj comms???
The header and backgrounds are totally gone at positively_spn and spn_onthheeset! * Gah!!!! They look HIDEOUS!!! Thanks, Photobucket. Thanks for ruining my life. Thanks for giving me more work than I need right now.

* Thankfully, the actual images used in all the posts for spn_ontheset are in LJ's Scrapbook and unaffected.

You know what this means....all my old Just 'Cause posts are now gone. The ones made from when I began them 9 years ago until I switched them over to SlickPic a couple of years ago. Lovely. I'm so sorry for anyone who goes back and views those old posts, not that I expect many will, but still. OMG This is so upsetting! Hundreds of posts just GONE like that! Seriously, I'm tearing up just thinking of all those Just 'Cause posts that are totally worthless now - on top of Seasons 1-7 over at spn_locations! Friggin' Photobucket and their $400!!!!

Guess I've done something to piss people off again.

Yesterday's posts? Zero comments.
And people are suddenly defriending me out of the blue this week. Three so far.

I loved yesterday's Just 'Cause post. Worked on it in Ribbet to make it look as good as it possibly could.
I thought it looked beautiful, but I guess nobody else did. :(

I was going to do the Just 'Cause post for today, but then I figured "Why bother? The public has spoken - by not speaking." I even deleted the VanCon 2016 Video post.

So you'll get nothing else from me today besides this post.
I take it you want to see less posts from me, so I can certainly oblige.

And I'm sure some of you will say...but I don't reply to your comments. I want to, I do. But you try driving 100 miles every day, come home late, and see how much energy and motivation you have. I've been coming up empty.

I'm trying to work out a way to reply to comments earlier in the day, when I do have more energy. It's just been a crazy, lopsided week.

Sorry for being a disappointment.

Grooveshark has been shut down. Dammit!

Loved that streaming music site. I had a TON of playlists....all gone. Goodness! My Favorites alone! So many great songs totally gone! *cries*

Thankfully, I usually managed to find a lot of the songs I really, truly loved on other sites for...*ahemkeeping* But still...this is a tough blow. I loved how easily accessible so many of my favorite songs were on Grooveshark and how fun it was to find new songs.

Their catalog was amazing! They even had Jason Manns, Steve Carlson, even Louden Swain!
Gah! This sucks out loud!!!! >:[

The Seattle Seahawks were set to score, set to win the Super Bowl for the 2nd time in a row. We were soooo close! But a poor play and the Patriots intercepted the ball and it was over. Patriots won 28-24.

Stunned is an understatement. I can't believe they threw the ball instead of giving it to Lynch. Lynch, who'd they'd been using endlessly the entire game! Why, oh why didn't they do it when they needed to the most???

Bravo to the Patriots for a great game.
I'm heartbroken...as are all the 12s. We had it...victory was ours and now it's gone.

I still love the Seahawks, after all I've been a fan since I was a kid (Steve Largent FTW!), but this is a tough loss to take. We'll be back. I know Russell Wilson's already planning for next season. He's that kind of guy and a true champion. The team will want to erase this bitter loss, but it shouldn't have happened this way.

I just shut down spn_ontheset.

This decision has been tearing me apart for nearly a week now, but I couldn't see any other answer. The sites where I used to get my pics are no longer being updated and I can't find any other new resources for official on-the-set pics. I've tried to post some un-official ones, but sometimes I feel wrong about those. It's a tough call.

In the end it's come down to a lack of new material. It's not that I want to stop posting to the comm, but it's just that I'm posting from the same few episodes over and over again. It's all I have left and it's boring.

Still, it's sad for me to call it quits. Hard to believe I began that comm 5 years ago.
I never thought it would end before the show did. :(

The comm will stay on LJ, with the understanding that I may resume posting pics if and when I find some new images.
I hope someday that I do.

I know in a way it's a bit of a relief: One less thing to post for, but I'm still very sad and heartbroken over saying goodbye to it.

Please forgive my two earlier posts, which I've now deleted.

The poll post was made in a rush, while other things were distracting me and what I was trying to say wasn't expressed properly. Then I got upset when people understandably misunderstood what I stated.

For the record: I enjoy capping and I enjoy sharing them. I may not enjoy some of the processes that fall in between capping and posting the caps to all of you (the Sorting & Deleting is especially trying), but that's the way things go. I do it all anyway because I know people use and enjoy the caps and I use and enjoy them myself.

Here's all the steps I do in order to post SPN caps here on LJ (for those who may not know):

1. Cap the episode (this usually takes anywhere from 3 to 4 hours - sometimes even 5 - because I grab all caps by hand).
2. Sort & Delete (I sort through the caps and delete ones that are blurry or otherwise not very good).
3. Fix (I fix the caps using software which does it all in one batch once I have the settings I want).
4. Divide caps & zip into folders.
5. Upload zipped folders to file host.
6. Pull sample caps. (These are the ones I place in the post, usually as clickable thumbnails. They number from 10 - 50 in some cases.)
7. Make cap card for the post. (This is the image that put on the LJ post to make it more attractive and easy to spot.)
8. Upload sample caps & cap card to Photobucket.
9. Post cap card, sample caps, and links to zipped folders to LJ.

Limiting the number of sample caps that I post along with the zipped folders of all the caps would help, but I don't want to eliminate them if some people simply take the samples and that's it. I know many cappers who only post a few sample caps, but again...if some people can't take the zipped folders then I don't like to leave them without another option. All I wanted was people's opinion on the number of sample caps they would like...if I could cut it back to only a handful or if they wanted the same 10 - 50 clickable thumbnails that I've been doing.

I'm just trying to do what's right for everybody. *sigh* Which, of course, in reality is impossible.

I apologize to those I confused, hurt, or upset with my comments and my outburst post.

I clearly shouldn't have posted anything today in the state I'm in.

I'm starting to think I'm putting too much work into things for nothing.

Over 4 hours spent working on an episode review - only 2 comments (the episode before that got 0 comments).

Unknown hours spent capping, fixing, & uploading the caps for 7x18 - only 3 comments for over 30 downloads.

Why am I busting my butt on this stuff if nobody gives a crap?
Some days I just wanna up and quit this whole thing.

I did something really stupid last night. I acted on impulse instead of using my head. Instead of simply letting something go I kept going at it and now I'm paying the price.

And today, with a full night of reflection, I feel bad about it.

However, when I tried to apologize to the person she blocked me from leaving her a message (which I guess I really don't blame her for). I wasn't seeking forgiveness, I simply wanted to explain my poor judgement and actions towards her and say I was sorry.

Guess that won't be happening now.