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September 23rd, 2013
01:46 am - -______-;
....I just read an old LJ entry of mine, and based on how I wrote it I'm now POSITIVE that at the time Mike did know Paul left him that voice message, because Mike complained how Paul only bothered to call him when I told Paul Mike was upset with him. That is most definitely a statement that is contextually limited to that specific phone message. So Mike did acknowledge to me that Paul called him, because he said he didn't think it was worth having a conversation with Paul.
Mike claims now to never remember getting that message. >______<;;; gjaroierjaoiewnjfkasdmfhnbcaidsohvyvb;ihgosdvkjanolkchaDLjhfcn.d!!!!!111111
If I write him about it, I will create more drama, even though it's getting damn near the point where it warrants a serious discussion about it. What is so weird is that his memory slips seem to be around very emotionally entrenched subjects. Or at least it appears that way.
But alas, since I am tired of the drama, I will just keep it to myself. For now, until it becomes relevant again.
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July 12th, 2013
09:23 pm
Jason and me interaction of the week:
Jason* Happy anniversary?
Me* Yeah, one day late.
Jason* Uh, no, it's today.
Me* ((Holy crap, am I going senile? Our anniversary is on the 10th, right?)) What day do you think it is today?
Jason* July 10th.
Me* Uh, dear, it's July 11th.
Jason* No it's not! I know because I looked at my phone!
Me* Dear, I am a public notary. Writing the correct date is sorta essential to performing the task right, and I am POSITIVE today is July 11th. Here, I'll even get my phone. *looks it up* SEE?!
Jason* .....Your phone is just wrong. =D;
Me* *giggles* Oh yeah right, you just don't want to admit you were wrong!
Jason* *scoffs* I am NEVER wrong. *smiles* Your phone is broken. It isn't updating dates right anymore.
Me* *pulls it up again* See? See? It is working just fine. *looks at phone* Oooh, I got an email!
Jason and me* *awkward moment of silence* *we both bust up*
Me* What, I was excited!
Jason* ADD Kitty much?
Ah, the fun.
One week until closing on our house. God, there is so much packing left to do. I'm glad we have twelve days beyond closing to keep moving stuff...I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed. That, and I pulled about 12 extra hours this week since Virginia was on vacation.
Mentioning vacations, Autumn, I have no idea how Otakon is going to go. I wanted to check, is your phone number the same as it was years ago? I definitely still want to meet up for maybe a 3 o'clock lunch, give or take depending on the schedule. I would love for you to meet Paul. I might be hanging out with an old YSRMBer too (you remember Spirit of the Rod, right?), if you are okay with his company.
Paul saw a cute picture of a chibi Dark Magician Girl figurine with a spellbook. Now he wants one. (He is a HUGE DMG fan. Always has been. So is Lowell.) His voice goes all soft and cutesy when he fanboys. It's freaking adorable. If I had money, I'd buy it for him.
Other drama has gone on, but I want to keep this entry light, to be frankly honest. XD Just gotta appreciate the little stuff. Oh, and Jason and Mike hung out the other day for the first time. And nothing blew up. They didn't discuss anything poly related, but it seemed there was positivity in the interaction. Dare I hope?
Also, my brother Paul finally got a phone service through me. About damn time. <3
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January 5th, 2013
11:47 pm - I am still alive, yes.
I guess it's time for an entry of randomness.
Christmas was nice and everything. I got my long, long awaited copy of the complete collection of Code Geass, seasons 1 and 2. I love watching that series, especially with people who have not seen it before. I think a lot of its appeal are the surprise plot twists, though I love the characterization as well. I think Lelouch will always be my fav.
I also got a CD, a Target gift card, some more X/1999 manga, and other knicks and knacks I wanted. Oh, and Hello Kitty car mats. Can't forget about those. XD;
I made my first Yugioh deck today...for the first time in about three years. I'm kinda excited about that, and it makes Paul happy too.
New Year's was really special for me. Paul unfortunately had to go to bed later in the afternoon, but we did spend a fair amount of time watching Cardcaptors and a movie. After that, Jason and I just spent a lot of time talking and bonding with that, and some romantic things as well. Probably the best new year I've had in a while. I wish I can say I am feeling as good now as I did then.
Paul, Jason and I are still having some rough moments. I feel Paul did a lot better for a month after that big talk with Jay. I even dared to hope that there was a way for this to work out for a while, even if not to an ideal level for everybody. Paul has been far less jealous about Jason and me, and his complaints seemed to be more with the room mate kinds of issues.
Unfortunately Paul and I had a pretty rough week regarding how things keep "interrupting" my time with Paul. Paul said on last Sunday, "I know it isn't your fault, but we haven't had alone time. You got called into that extra shift at work, and we did that double date with Kimberly (who is leaving Colorado Springs again, so this was our goodbye hangout). I was okay with having breakfast together with Jason this morning, but then you spent time talking to Mike and Todd...I understood both of those were important, but I was hoping we'd have some alone time today." I told Paul all he had to do was tell me he wanted alone time and I could have just called Mike later and talked to Todd later. He never acknowledged that part of the argument, and instead felt butthurt that half of his day got FUBARed. Then a few days later, he told me that he doesn't like how my time has been so divided lately. He said he understands that he can't help things like work, family, and needing to talk to Todd about my facebook concerns, so he can't change those things. He concluded then that the only thing in his control was Jason, so Paul said that if he continues to feel bad about my time being divided then my time with Jason was the only thing within his control. Paul claimed we had more time together before I went to school than how things are now, which I said bullshit to. I called him on that for numerous reasons, such as that I work far less now than I used to. Still, after challenging him several times Paul never gave me a really logical reason for believing Jason was causing all our woes, considering Jason had nothing to do with the stuff that was miffing Paul at the time. That, and my time with Jason is while Paul is sleeping or at work, so it barely affects him at all. Because of this I think Paul being miffed over some of this is mostly full of crap. Paul finally just said I just wasn't understanding him very well and that he was having a hard time phrasing it right. Paul said there was nothing I could do to help him feel better about the time concern and that he'd have to learn if he can get over it or not. Which is like....oooookay......didn't make a whole lot of sense to me. Still, I told Paul I was still upset about it the morning after we talked about it and he's upped his affection towards me since. Hmm.
If Paul made the argument that I could have done some of my personal stuff on Jason's days, I would have found that somewhat more logical. (Oh, and my obligations to family and work FUBARs Jason's days, too.) Still, I wish he'd treat my time as something I give freely, not something to monopolize.....I feel so pressured all the time now to meet some unknown quota with Paul. Even this weekend I was asking him, "Is it okay if I spend time doing such and such?" just to make sure I'm not overriding some grand expectation he formed without my consent. Ugh. It just hurt me that I HAD spent a fair amount of time with Paul last weekend, albeit with other people around and he got all butthurt on Sunday over not having alone time. For the most part Sundays are usually spent at the game shop so we DON'T get the alone time. We always had to agree on it before, otherwise he usually invites Lowell over.....so I still say it's on Paul for never communicating that to me.
I'm trying to be really hyper sensitive about Paul's wants this weekend, but there is a part of me that feels that Paul doesn't recognize how hard I've been trying already for his sake.
Jason's grating on my nerves too. I have no idea what the heck was up with him today, but he was in a damn argumentative mood. He argued with Paul over furniture rearrangement (a bit with me involved), he argued with Lowell like, three or four times, and I argued with Jason because I called him on his shit. Then Lowell and I argued with Jay over his gamer raging. When I called Jason on his crap earlier, I told him he was getting upset over some pretty stupid shit, and that he really ought to save his anger for something worth his damn emotions. He wasn't happy about what I said, but I think he realized I was sorta right and apologized. Didn't stop him from being stubborn later though.....hell, he was even trying to get Kimberly into a stupid debate. O_o; Kimberly very politely said she wasn't going to continue arguing about it anymore, and Jason took offense to that and said he was going to say why he felt she was still wrong about whatever. It's like the end of the world if we don't see things from his point of view.
Another thing Jason is REALLY bad about is playing a semantics game. He thinks he knows the EXACT definition of a word, so if we use it in a way slightly different from that supposed definition he will say we are flat out wrong. For example, Lowell said, "Is the game being evil?" and Jason said, "NO, it's being retarded!" I throw the to-mah-to/to-mae-to argument his way and he argues that they are not the same and...ugh. He fails to look into the intention of the communication very well and takes things way too fucking literally. Plus he fails to realize how stupid it is to contradict us over a damn fucking definition. We don't give a damn if you think a game is being retarded or evil, we are trying to be sympathetic to you and help you with your woes....gods.
Jason and Lowell have not been getting along well lately. Lowell doesn't stop the argument as soon as he should, and Jason won't stop to save his life until he's overkilled us with an overly long description on his opinion. We'll tell him we're done talking about it and that pisses him off more. It's like he wants us to agree with him or else we'd better argue further. I wish he'd learn to agree to disagree.
On days like this one with Jason, it's no wonder Paul is oversaturated with him. I was pretty tired of Jason's crap myself, because it is not enjoyable to be around.
Sometimes, I do think both Paul and Jason can be pretty immature at times. They can be very wonderful when at their best, but pretty bad at their worst, too.
I am tired of feeling pressured with my time....I really wonder if that one issue will be a breaking point for me at some point.
Ah well. December is pretty time-consuming with a variety of crap, so now that it's over I am hoping this problem will be alleviated. I'll probably start doing some therapy sessions with Mike soon, or at least, I hope so. Our brother Paul offered to do therapy for free this year as his Christmas gift to us. He hadn't given us gifts for the past few years, so he felt obligated I guess. I'm just glad he's willing to do that, whatever the motivation. It's just a matter of whether Mike will go for it or not. Mike's always had more issues getting along with our brother Paul than I have.
Mike has been mostly better with his mood too, the last month, though the last week he's seemed moodier. I'm not sure what's going on, sometimes.
Besides that, I've developed a work crush on Matt. He's been with us about six months now. He's very handsome and sweet. It's a nice crush because both Paul and Jason know about it, and generally have not had much of an issue with it thus far. I'm not seeing it going anywhere honestly, unless he's into my kind of kinky lifestyle. He's got a girlfriend and I don't mess with that. I just enjoy spending time with him and getting to know him better, and that's enough. <3 (That, and I don't like the idea of chancing a romance born in the workplace, especially given my position as manager...)
Anyhow, that's all for now......ah well. I'm still in decent spirits, despite my aggravations.
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December 13th, 2010
10:54 pm - Pimpage topic.
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For my old YSRMB friends, I have restored the board to its normal non-doggy self and plan on posting significantly more in the near future. Please join me for this holiday reunion, post lots of new topics, and most of all lets have fun on chats again. =D
I know we've been busy these last few months, but I think the holidays are an important time to remember all our buddies and just have a good time. Even if it dies off after I go to school again, I think we have a lot to benefit by joking around on the board for a month. =)
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May 13th, 2010
12:30 am - So...YSRMB is born again.
It's still under construction and awaiting images, but I'm ready for people to start posting on it. So here goes:
The official opening of YSRMB to the masses at large!
Please spread word, else I sick James on you in all his spandexy-glory.
Current Mood:  creative
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March 19th, 2010
05:03 pm - So...what do you guys think?
Conversation with a fellow YSRMBer on Facebook (editted to get to the point):
C: Misses the YSRMB days... ;-; Wants to go back . . . I just miss a CRAP ton of the old members.. ;-; And the AOL chats we'd have...
Lisa: I wish I had more time. I'd love to create a revival board, but school has me pretty booked. =/ If I could count on some people to support it in my absence, that would be fine...but my last coupla attempts, I was the ONLY one posting. -_-;
C: x3 I could help Lisa! . . .And what's great now...>3 I've had computer classes! -*is hyper tonight, spins in her roller chair*-
Lisa: If I could get five people who could agree to help and promise me they'll post on the forum two - three times a week, I'd consider creating it then. (Though four - five times would be preferable.)
C: I could promise that. =D
Lisa: XD Now for the other four people.
So. I've been wanting to recreate the Yugioh theme and go back to our roots, with some adjustments. I was thinking I'd have a forum for each Yugioh series as well as a lot of the old fandom and general forums. It would take me about a day to create, so that's not the hard part. The hard part would be keeping it alive, and I really don't want to put all that work into it unless I had some very dedicated members willing to post consistently on there. This means not only replies, but creating topics of your own. I don't mind it if we only have like, 20 members, as long as we're making an equal effort. If it becomes super-huge again, that's fine too as long as I have the help. So, if you guys are interested, or know another YSRMBer that would be interested...please let me know. This post is public.
And of course, I would need banner art and button art again, if anyone wants to volunteer. *hint* Wendy *hint* A smexy Yusei banner would make me very happy~
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October 20th, 2009
10:57 pm - Rant on illegal immigration.
I have a gal named Tara in a couple of my classes whom I talk with some, who is a very smart gal and is also going for a career in elementary education. She resembles me in her academic excellence, but our personalities couldn't be more different. She's very blunt with making judgments and opinions, while I try to avoid just that. I sometimes neglect to mention my own opinions and interests as a result, but not today:
Me* I have to take a foreign language class of some sort.
Tara* Really?
Me* Yes, for my major I'm required to take two classes in a language of my choice.
Tara* You could take Spanish classes easily enough.
Me* *grimaces* I'd rather take Japanese.
Tara* But Japanese is really hard!
Me* Yeah, but I like their culture a lot.
Tara* Spanish is a lot easier to use.
Me* It is, but I'm not crazy about encouraging Spanish in America. I think by learning it I'm encouraging illegal immigration in a way.
Tara* Yeah, but your ancestors were immigrants at some point too, right?
Me* Yes, but they were LEGAL. (On my paternal grandfather's side, anyway.) I know, my feelings on this are highly political.
Tara* Well, I can understand where you are coming from, but Spanish really helped me teach English better in Korea. It solidifies your English even more. Also, Mexico is really beautiful. I went to this one place, (insert tourism stuff here).
Me* That's probably true enough, but I'd rather learn Japanese, so it will help me teach over there, if I chose to do so.
Tara* Some of them don't want you to know their language necessarily. (??? This response struck me as strange, as I can only see how knowing Japanese would help me in teaching *Japanese* children how to speak English, but she's already taught English in another country, so I can't say for certain. I responded differently as a result:)
Me* I know you don't *have* to learn the language, but I'd rather know it before going over there.
Then the lecture started. This gives you an idea how talking with her goes, and it can be exhausting in a way. I usually can see her point of view somewhat better regardless of disagreement, but I don't really take well to opinions almost being shoved down my throat. I don't think that's her intent, but that's how she comes across. It feels very akin to how I felt when Sarah tried to debate religion with me. I hate voicing my opinion when I know others disagree with it, but there's no way she can change my mind on this by acting like my idea is wrong. I felt I had to stand for my opinion and not back down this time. At some point I'm insulting my integrity by not standing up for my beliefs.
I am very anti-illegal immigration, and as much as I feel sorry for the Hispanic citizens in Mexico, I do not feel their hardships justify bringing their problems over here for us to solve. *Their* government should take more responsibility for their economic issues. I understand to a point that illegal immigration happens around the world, but our problem is out of control. Based on my Geography book, our population will consist of 50% Hispanics within my lifetime. This will result in policies and laws that will cater to their culture. If this was a result of legality, I would have no problem with it. Yet when I think of a population boom of non-English speaking illegal immigrants who will influence their legal brethren to vote for legislation that favors illegal immigrants, I cringe inside. It seems so anti-American somehow and unfair to other immigrants who want to obey our immigration laws. (Not to mention many of them probably speak English way better.) I feel racist about this, but I want to point out a distinction; I don't believe in shipping current illegals back. It's too damn expensive. I'd rather we allocate our funds to blocking the rest the hell out. I've dated two guys who I'm relatively sure had Hispanic blood, so I clearly have no problem with *educated* Hispanic-Americans. So my racism is mostly limited to non-English speaking *illegal* immigrants.
So yeah. Absolutely NO interest in learning Spanish as a result. As it is, it pisses me off how many corporations are incorporating it in their products to make more money. Just encourage the illegals to move over here, why don't you? But those who print in French, Japanese, and other languages as well are forgiven. At least there's an attempt at equality there.
Even before I developed these strong feelings, I had no interest in Spanish anyway. My parents tried to get me to take it in middle school, and I had absolutely no desire. I've been to Mexico about a dozen times, so I saw plenty of the poverty that affects their society, and I feel completely sorry for them. I just think they bring more problems than the benefits they bring over here.
Plus, I just find learning a language you are interested in and have a chance of using is far wiser. Both Paul and Mike learned Spanish, but they both have forgotten most of it. At least I watch anime often enough that I have a chance of retaining the knowledge. Especially if I can take it with me to Japan for a year or two in an exchange program, where I can have daily practice with it. So yeah, taking the political context out, it just seems more logical to learn a language from a culture you are excited about, regardless of the language's difficulty.
Okay. Done ranting. XD Btw, I know you guys have responded to some of my posts. I intend to respond to them still, so I haven't forgotten you. <3
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May 3rd, 2009
09:29 pm - YES! *pumps fists*
Nakago kissed Tamahome! And I hear that he'll lick Tamahome very soon. <3 <3 <3
YES! MY PLAN TO TRAUMATIZE PAUL AND MIKE IS COMING ALONG WELL.
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April 21st, 2009
10:43 am - Da Full Metal Alchemist movie
I finally saw Conqueror of Shamballa last night. I've been wanting to see that movie for ages, but Cartoon Network never showed it. So I got it for Mike for Easter, since he's really into Full Metal Alchemist too.
I liked it overall. It had a couple faults in my book, but it also had a lot of good points too. The main faults I had with it was the poor plot line surrounding Hohenheim and Envy. At the end of the anime series, he and Ed are together in "our" world, so there's hope for some mending, and in the movie he disappears AGAIN. I found that weak. That, and the Envy being a Serpent, while creative, was a little too abstract for my tastes. O_o
Other than those two things, I thought the story was very intelligently written and well-done, especially with incorporating Pre-World War II elements. Yay <3
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April 9th, 2009
05:13 pm - No..no....NUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
You bastards! Why did I have to read 20 chapters in one day and catch up? Now I have to wait a week at a time like everyone else...wahhhhhhhhhh.....it's not faaiiiir! *throws a tantrum* It's not-it's not-it's not! *pout*
....in other words, I'm a complete Narutard like everyone else now. ^^;
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