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Title: Beneath Our Brave and Trusting Feet
Author: ever_dimming
Genre: Gen, sort-of-AU
Characters: Sam, undisclosed
Rating: M (due to mention of graphic violence)
Word count: 1162
SPOILERS: 15x20
Summary: He's crying in his sleep, again.

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Title: Unfurl in the Wind
Author: ever_dimming
Rating: T
Genre/pairing: Gen
Characters: Sam, Cas, Dean
Word count:
< 30k, WIP
Summary: Sam has managed to fly under most people's radar with this for many years, but not anymore. Not since Dean unexpectedly went missing. He's been struggling more than usual, and he finds himself in a psychiatric ward, facing a diagnosis of Dissociative Identity Disorder that he’s long avoided.
Spoilers: AU, so no specific season
Warnings: Some self-injury, as well as suicidal ideation || Psych ward / hospital life and routines || Present results of past trauma
Disclaimer: Nope, don't own Supernatural

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30th-Dec-2019 10:17 pm - Fic: Misconception (Gen, 15k)
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Title: Misconception
Author: authoressnebula (authoressjean)
Pairing: Gen, John/Mary
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 15k
Warnings: Language, canon-level violence, homophobia, character outed without permission
Spoilers: 14x13: Lebanon

Summary: AU of 14x13. John believes something about his sons and he's determined to set all the blame at his youngest's feet, revealing painful secrets that Sam would've preferred to stay hidden, things he feared anyone finding out, things John feels are wrong.

Too bad for John that Mary and Dean don't feel the same way and are more than ready to back Sam.

NOT WINCEST in the SLIGHTEST, but John sure thinks so.

Read Here: "Hey Dad? Why did you block my number on Dean's phone?"
Title: Like an Echo Down a Canyon
Characters: Sam, Castiel
Genre: Gen
Word count: Around 3,700
Summary: Episode 14X13, "Lebanon" (so big spoilers for that). The night that follows the *cough* events *cough* is hard on everyone in the bunker. Cas witnesses the way it goes for Sam. He expected trouble, but not this.

The fic touches on the repercussions of early emotional trauma, which the show can't really tackle to the degree I'd like it to. So there's mainly vulnerable!Sam, guilt, emotional flashbacks mixed with dissociation, and Castiel's weekly Understanding Psychologically Wounded Humans challenge. Probably more hurt than comfort in this h/c, really. Sorry.

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21st-Nov-2017 02:39 pm - In Sickness And In Health (Part 1)
Title: In Sickness And In Health (Part 1)
Author: synnsationalx
Rating: M
Genre/pairing: Sam/Dean
Characters: Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester
Word count: 10,349
Summary: A few months after the Darkness is released Sam and Dean go to clean up a mess leftover from a recent hunt. The brothers had been arguing lately, tensions high, but their love for each other undeniable. Sam has been hiding a sickness, and it forces itself into the open during a hunt. Dean is furious about having missed the signs that his brother was suffering, promising to pay better attention to him. Fluff and angst ensues.
Spoilers: Season 11
Warnings: Sexual content, some violence
Author's Notes: This was my first ever fanfic. I'd love to get some feedback!

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12th-Jul-2017 11:11 am - Fic: Collision Theory, Chapter 6
Fic Title: Collision Theory
Chapter Title: Sorry, this one's damaged
Author: lennelle
Chapter Word Count: 7k
Fic Summary: A few weeks before the first anniversary of their dad's death, Dean is called into the high school: Sam has finally crossed the line with his bad behaviour.
Given a second chance, Sam must fulfil his punishment: the worst of which being weekly sessions with the school councillor, Mr Novak.
Having recently started a new job in a new town far away from his old life, Cas tries to start afresh: two brothers collide with him, an impact he could never have seen coming.
Chapter Summary: Sam unravels.
Author's Notes: Written for  winchesterpooja. Pairings: Dean/Cas, although the story mostly centres around Sam. No-monster AU. Read tags on AO3 for warnings.


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12th-Jun-2017 06:09 pm - Fic: Collision Theory - Chapter 5
Fic Title: Collision Theory
Chapter Title: The boy who zipped his own mouth shut
Pairings: Dean/Cas, Sam/Ruby
Fic Summary: A few weeks before the first anniversary of their dad's death, Dean is called into the high school: Sam has finally crossed the line with his bad behaviour.
Given a second chance, Sam must fulfil his punishment: the worst of which being weekly sessions with the school councillor, Mr Novak.
Having recently started a new job in a new town far away from his old life, Cas tries to start afresh: two brothers collide with him, an impact he could never have seen coming.
Chapter summary: Cas tries to make a difference, but Sam doesn't want anyone's help.
Author Notes: Written as a gift for winchesterpooja. No-monsters AU. Dean/Cas is the main pairing, but the story is mostly centred around Sam and Dean's grief for their father and Sam's issues with mental illness. Lots of hurt!Sam. Each chapter is from either Sam, Dean or Cas' POV.

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Chapter 5 on AO3
1st-May-2017 07:16 pm - Fic: A Gift For Demeter
Title: A Gift For Demeter
Summary: In which Dean was not killed by Lucifer in the showdown of 2014. In which Dean got his hands on an archangel blade. In which Lucifer is dead and Sam is, miraculously, still living. In which Sam tries his best to grow plants in the dried-up earth.
Word Count: 7772
Pairing: Gen, with minor Dean/Risa
Rating: T

Notes: Written for ohsam's Celebrating Sam 2017, based on the prompt 'pomegranate'. Set during the end-verse. Cas POV.

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Fic Title: The Devil's in the house of the rising sun
Author: lennelle
Fic Summary: Something is wrong with Sam.
Chapter Summary: Five years later, Sam is sick again. Dean takes matters into his own hands.
Author's Notes: The second of two parts (possibly?). Pre-series. Warnings for blood, dark themes and addiction.

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Title: The Devil's in the house of the rising sun
Author: lennelle
Summary: Something is wrong with Sam.
Word Count: 2141
Author's Notes: Pre-series. Horror. Sick!Sam.

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