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30th-Dec-2019 10:17 pm - Fic: Misconception (Gen, 15k)
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Title: Misconception
Author: authoressnebula (authoressjean)
Pairing: Gen, John/Mary
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 15k
Warnings: Language, canon-level violence, homophobia, character outed without permission
Spoilers: 14x13: Lebanon

Summary: AU of 14x13. John believes something about his sons and he's determined to set all the blame at his youngest's feet, revealing painful secrets that Sam would've preferred to stay hidden, things he feared anyone finding out, things John feels are wrong.

Too bad for John that Mary and Dean don't feel the same way and are more than ready to back Sam.

NOT WINCEST in the SLIGHTEST, but John sure thinks so.

Read Here: "Hey Dad? Why did you block my number on Dean's phone?"
30th-Jun-2019 05:47 pm - Away from These Shores (13/?)
Title: Away from These Shores (13/?)
Author:ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.


“Sam, wake up, wake up! Don’t do this, come on.” Now that she's forced his eyes open, he can see that her face is frantic, her usually-pale cheeks flushed, stained bright red. Adrenaline. He’s never seen her like this, so terrified. “Sam, please, you’re scaring me.”

Oh.

He needs to wake up.


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31st-Jan-2019 11:11 pm - Away from These Shores (12/?)
Title: Away from These Shores (12/?)
Author:ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

He’s not sure what’s happening. He knows his eyes are open, because he can see the room around him, can see Dean and hear Jane’s voice, though he can’t actively look at anything, can't quite listen. He’s just there. Where - - what’s going on?
“Sam.” That’s Dean’s voice, Dean’s hand on his arm. Warm, solid. An anchor. “Sammy, talk to me. Hey.”

Jane sounds sad as she says, somewhere behind him, “he can’t.”

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12th-Oct-2018 02:28 pm - Fic: Epistemology

Title: Epistemology
Author: katsidhe
Rating: G
Genre/pairing: Gen
Characters: Sam, Jack, Cas
Word count: 3.3k
Summary: Jack's not handling the events of 13.23 very well. Neither are Sam and Cas.
Warnings: PTSD, self-harm

8th-Apr-2018 08:19 am - Away from These Shores (11/?)
New chapter, which somehow turned out to be the longest one yet. I don't even know. As usual, the narrative shifts between POV's, and deals with both Sam and Dean's internal struggles.

Title: Away from These Shores (11/?)
Author:ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma(s).
Triggers/warnings for this episode: Another character's past suicidal ideation (and then some) in one paragraph. Severe dissociation, post-trauma, flashbacks. Past violence & torture in hell and the Cage. Quick reference the Winchesters' painful upbringing.
Spoilers: The fic is standalone, but refers to the plot up to and including 8X01 here and there.
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

A hand touching his arm, pressing on his shoulder gently. "Sam."

He becomes increasingly aware of the distant rattle of distress, and the memory of the torment that still awaits him (not going anywhere Samuel, all we’ve got down here is time, thanks to you) floods him with panic. Stop no please go away please please.

The hand is still gripping his bicep, fingers moving like spiders on his skin, he’s trapped trapped trapped. His body reacts, muscles seizing, breathing growing rapid.

“Hey, hey. Sam, it’s okay. You’re in the hospital, you just had some tests done. Everything’s alright, you’re safe.”

He tries to speak, tries to tell them they’re wrong.
7th-Mar-2018 08:39 pm - Three Minutes - 13.05 coda
Title: Three Minutes
Rating: Teen and up
Pairings: Gen
Word count: 603
Summary: For three minutes, Sam was alone

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See specific warnings for this chapter.

Title: Away from These Shores (10/?)
Author:ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma.
Triggers / warnings: Some past self-harm and its present results for a few paragraphs (Sam's POV of what was referred to in the previous chapter); dissociation, post-trauma, past violence & torture
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

On AO3
It somehow took me less than forever to update this time. See specific warnings for this chapter, though.

Title: Away from These Shores (9/?)
Author:ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma.
Triggers / warnings: graphic description of self-harm in this chapter; dissociation, post-trauma, past violence & torture
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

On AO3

Title: Away from These Shores (8/?)
Author: ever_dimming
Genre: Gen
Summary: A simple hunt leaves Sam in an altered state no one seems able to explain – at first. Pulling him out of it is not nearly as easy as it should be, especially since Dean is dealing with his own trauma.
Triggers: dissociation, post-trauma, past violence & torture
Disclaimer: Supernatural, its characters, plot lines etc. belong to their awesome creators. I am merely suggesting fun new ways in which those beloved characters could suffer and/or be comforted.

This chapter ended up pretty damn long. It explores the ways in which Sam's vulnerable state affects Dean, Ellen and Bobby, but I'd say it's still Sam-centric.

She finds herself absurdly grateful when Sam slides back into blank apathy, because at least then she can tell herself he isn’t feeling anything as she walks him around the living room or in the yard like an ailing horse, gets him to sit out on the porch swing with her. As she presses a glass of cold water into his hand and wraps his lax fingers around it again and again, drink that, honey, come on. Talks to him without getting a response.

Chapter 8 (AO3)

First chapter

19th-Sep-2017 12:02 pm - Collision Theory: Chapter 7
Fic Title: Collision Theory
Author: lennelle
Chapter Title: A wound that can't be stitched back together or disinfected
Fic Summary: A few weeks before the first anniversary of their dad's death, Dean is called into the high school: Sam has finally crossed the line with his bad behaviour.
Given a second chance, Sam must fulfil his punishment: the worst of which being weekly sessions with the school councillor, Mr Novak.
Having recently started a new job in a new town far away from his old life, Cas tries to start afresh: two brothers collide with him, an impact he could never have seen coming.
Chapter Summary: Dean forms a search party when Sam wanders off into the snow.
Author's Note: This is the penultimate chapter, to be followed by an epilogue. No monsters AU with Dean/Cas, but the story focuses on Sam's mental health. Written as a gift for winchesterpooja

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