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1st-Jul-2016 01:39 pm - Sam I Am - chapter 3 on AO3
Story title: Sam I Am
Chapter title: Crash
Story Summary: Sam was taken when he was only fifteen years old. It's been two years. Everyone has changed, but Sam is different.
Dean learns to understand a brother who no longer makes any sense, trying to keep him safe from himself and the people who damaged him.


On AO3 and full story in FF.net
15th-Apr-2016 06:19 pm - Weaver
Title: Weaver
Author: Lennelle
Summary: At Stanford, Sam learns to answer difficult questions.
Word Count: 1,162
Author's Note: Written for tumblr's spnwritingchallenge with the prompt: Maybe I'm making it all up. 
18th-Jun-2014 01:02 am - Fic: I Don't Trust Me (2/?)
Title: I Don't Trust Me
Author: themegalosaurus

Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Gen
Characters: Sam, Dean
Word count: ~1000 (this ch); ~2200 (all so far)
Chapter: 2/? (WIP)
Summary: Slight AU for season 5 (starts at the end of 5.02) in which Sam's guilt about the events of Season 4 translates into an unhealthy obsession with self-discipline and self-control

Warnings: language, content: depression, eating disorder, OCD
Disclaimer: I own nothing

(Sam's feet punch against the asphalt of the highway.)
10th-Jun-2014 03:54 am - Fic: I Don't Trust Me (1/?)
Title: I Don't Trust Me
Author: themegalosaurus

Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Gen
Characters: Sam, Dean
Word count: ~1200
Chapter: 1/? (WIP)
Summary: Slight AU for season 5 (starts at the end of 5.02) in which Sam's guilt about the events of Season 4 translates into an unhealthy obsession with self-discipline and self-control

Warnings: language, content: depression, eating disorder, OCD
Disclaimer: I own nothing

Author's notes: This is probably going to be pretty long by the time it's finished; I'm hoping to update at least weekly. Feedback very welcome as this is the first fanfic I've written for years.

("I know you don't trust me," Sam finds himself saying, "but I just realized something. I don't trust me either.")
1st-Apr-2014 02:52 pm - Fic: Broken
princess tutu, brightly lit
Title: Broken
Author: brightly_lit
Rating: PG-13
Genre: gen, intense angst, h/c (mainly hurt!Sam, some emotionally hurt!Dean), brother feels, heroics and badassery, pathetic first time
Characters: Sam, Dean, OCs
Word Count: 16,000
Warnings: language, horrific concepts, mentions of child abuse and torture, PTSD
Summary: Dean spent his whole life searching for the little brother who was taken from him at age 6. He thought once he finally found him, everything would be perfect, but Sam is more broken than Dean could have imagined someone could be and still be able to function. Worse yet, Dean can't even tell if Sam wants his brother back in his life ...

This is a sequel to "Kintsugi." It picks up directly after the last fic leaves off.

Read "Broken" here.
8th-Mar-2014 12:37 pm - Fic: Kintsugi
princess tutu, brightly lit
Title: Kintsugi
Author: brightly_lit
Rating: PG-13
Genre: gen, intense angst, h/c, emotional h/c, brother feels
Characters: Dean, Sam
Word Count: 4,600
Warnings: language, horrific concepts, mentions of child abuse and torture, PTSD
Summary: Dean needs a new protective sigil tattoo, and he visits the tattoo artist other hunters recommend--the only person in the area who's precise enough for the work. Getting two words in a row out of the guy is hard labor, but undeniably worth it in the end.


Kintsugi is a Japanese method of mending broken pottery with gold, where the pot is considered more beautiful for having been broken.

READ HERE.
17th-Feb-2012 08:27 pm - Fic Reality
fuzzy purple unicorn

Title: Reality

Author: ncc1701a 

Summary: Written for my Schizophrenia square of Dark Bingo. Sam doesn’t know which one is real, because he can imagine them both so perfectly.

Rating: R

Disclaimer: To my continuing disappointment, I don’t own the Supernatural characters. If anyone knows where I can purchase a Dean though, please drop me a line.

Warning/Spoilers: Spoilers for Late Season 6, early season 7, makes use of some of the themes raised by Lucifer in 7x01 and 7x02. Warnings for suggestions of torture, dubious or non-consent, pushing of incestual boundaries, very slight, barely there mention of alcoholism and self-harm.

Genre: Hurt/Comfort, dark,

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16th-Sep-2011 12:39 am - The Stranger At The Door 7A/11
sam-dean-dark-twisted-lovers
Title : The Stranger At The Door 
Author: Lady Crystal Castalia [info]ladycrystal_c
Pairing/Rating : Sam/Dean,  NC-17
Spoilers: seasons 5 & 6  

Summary: He’s back. Many things have changed, but the most important hasn’t. He wants his brother by his side, and after a hundred
forty years and five months without him, he will stop at nothing to get him back. They will let him go without a fight if they know what’s good
for them; because a suburban mom and her teenage son do not have a prayer against the former host of Satan himself. 

Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Schmoop, First time
Warnings & Kinks: Hurt!Sam, Powers!Sam, Stalker!Sam, Jealous!Sam, bottom!sam & Use of endearments 
Other characters: Bobby, Rufus
A/N: Mille mercis to [info]genevieve_1 for the beta work! Thanks to [info]smut_slut for the banner!

    

Chapter VI: Good Night Kisses
                    Part I - Rock Me To Sleep: "Afraid I won't be there to kiss you goodnight?"
Previous chapters: Sam knew what he had to do, and the heal with collateral damage
19th-Jun-2011 11:47 pm - Fic: ...And All of It Insane
SPN - Blood
Title: ...And All of It Insane
Author: vail_kagami 
Characters: Dean, Sam, Bobby
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: mentions of torture and rather violent murder
Spoilers: Some spoilers for the end of season 6.
Words: 4,710
Summary: Hiding an injury from someone who knows you better than they know themselves isn't an easy thing to do, especially if that someone basically lives in your pocket. Sam still managed to do it - and the reasons for that turn out a lot worse than Dean ever imagined.
Note: Late fill for this prompt by foxstarreh at the latest comment fic meme.

“Dude,” Dean said carefully. “You okay?”
12th-May-2011 07:36 pm - FIC: Kings of Medicine
spn - hand!porn
Title: Kings of Medicine
Rating: PG-13
Genre/pairing: AU Gen (as gen as the show is, anyway)
Characters:  Sam, Dean, Bobby, Cas
Word count: 15,889
Spoilers: Generalized spoilers for season 6. (goes AU after 6.11)
Warnings: powers!Sam, unstable!Sam, angst and confusion, shameless overindulgence in Sam!whump
Disclaimer: .....really? this is necessary?
Note: Written for brokenangel6662 's oh_sam  h/c challenge prompt.  Sorry it's taken me so freaking long to finish this. :(
Also, this is unbeta'd. (I go through my fics with a fine-toothed comb, but there's only so much I can catch.)

Summary: Dean strikes a bargain with Death in exchange for something Sam lost... but not without complications.  Sam's visions return, hurting him more than before, and his mental state quickly declines.  Knowing it's his fault Sam is suffering, Dean has to figure out a way to keep his brother together.

Part OnePart Two, Part Three
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