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1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
- Lived alone (no roommates), played D&D, cross dressed, worked outside Tel Aviv, owned a good camera, cared about how clean my house was, been to the UK, seen Therion live.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- I don't make new year resolutions.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
- My dad's spouse. Got a new brother :)

4. Did anyone close to you die?
- No.

5. What countries did you visit?
- England and Wales. Wales rules.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
- Friends.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- March 2nd. The date Klil and I got back together.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- Surviving through it.

9. What was your biggest failure?
- Renting an apartment together with Inbal. Big fucking mistake.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
- Mental?

11. What was the best thing you bought?
- Must have been the How Loathsome graphic novel issues.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
- Guy. Apologizing for what he did is something that I never thought would happen.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
- Some of the people who were close to me.
(ודי לחכימא ברמיזה)

14. Where did most of your money go?
- Rent, University, the trip to the UK and the camera.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- Books?

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
- In Your Light, by Distorted.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
- It's kind of hard to compete with last year's levels of misery... But I wouldn't define it as "happier". Less sad, perhaps. Everything in life is relative...

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
- Resting.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
- Letting people step on me (namely: Inbal).

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
- Will?

21. Did you fall in love in 2007?
- Not as such. I've had a few crushes. (That is, new ones.)

23. How many one-night stands?
- One.

24. What was your favourite TV program?
- Oh, god X_x Death Note. Why couldn't it stay good? :'(

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
- I don't bother with hating.

26. What was the best book you read?
- How Loathsome - Tristan Crane and Ted Naifeh.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- Borknagar.

28. What did you want and get?
- A vacation, and an apartment. And Klil.

29. What did you want and not get?
- A social circle.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
- Vincent Price movies. Fuck yeah!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- I was 24. It was more like a wake than a party, which was funny. We were all very depressed, but we ate (vegan) chocolate fondue and told dead baby jokes.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably satisfying?
- More chocolate fondue? More books? I find the question hard to answer, because making a year immeasurably satisfying would take a lot.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
- Going-on cross-y.

34. What kept you sane?
- Was I kept sane? If I did, it was always material obligations, such as work and the University, that kept me from falling apart. But I wish I could (fall apart).

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
- Vincent Price?

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
- Feminism.

37. Who did you miss?
- It's not who, it's when.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
- Ghaith.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007:
- I don't think I learn them. Or if I do, I don't put them into catch-phrases.

Give me an apartment!

And to elaborate - Inbal just changed her mind. This means I have one month to either find a good apartment for myself (1-1.5 rooms in the center of Tel Aviv, up to $550) or a good someone to live with (up to $400).

Help?

Dear god, this is just prescious!

Made me giggle out loud... Click it.

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The above is the quote I have today on my IM's.

I encounter a strange situation now: I have been planning to make an update since Saturday, but haven't had time since. Since then, my general feeling has changed slightly, and as I see it as particularly important not to dwell, even on three-days-old feelings, I try to avoid returning into them as it might distabilize me.

( I guess I'll just write about whatever comes to mind. If it comes to mind, it must be relevant.Collapse )

One of the small joys of life: In my office, music is basically not allowed. It's not like anyone outright forbids it, but they won't let anyone have loudspeakers on their computers. A few lucky ones here, however, have loudspeakers built in their screens. One of the girls who sits not too far away from me is one of those lucky few, and she's been playing music on it for a few days now. She has surprisingly good taste. This is nice, as this means that finally I can listen to something musical other than cell phone ring tones.

One of the small annoyances: My boss, Doron, is on vacation this week, and his asistant Ilan can't bear to see me not working for even five minutes. So he's forcing it, trying to find things for me to do in any possible way, including making up things that are simply unnecessary.

That said, I have to go and do something completely unnecessary right now for him. I hope to be able to complete this entry (or rather, post another) later.

You can't see he's the heartless
Your pain won't ever be love
It doesn't matter how hard you try
To you all is lost

And somehow, hearing this song makes me happy.


...But then again, so do dead baby jokes...

Also: my new Jack Skellington keychain. It looks like this, only plastic.


Hmm. I seem to feel a little more optimstic. I think I'll go with the dead baby jokes as the main culprit...

I feel mostly annoyed right now. Not quite sure why. Perhaps frustration of the fact that despite my decision to feel a little better today, I still feel like shit. Still feel like he's all around me. Still feel like he is missing from everywhere.

Along with that, though, is a constant relief that he isn't contacting me, since he's managed to hurt me so much during all the last times that I communicated with him. I truly do not need to be put down once again right now, and all the things that he said on that email two days ago are certainly not helping my feelings about my birthday right now. I keep struggling with the "go somewhere and die" notion reflected from his email and to counter it with something a little more optimstic. If it's any progress - in addition to being amazingly hurt, I am furious.

Not that that helps any.


Today is my first birthday in years, and perhaps in all my history, in which it hasn't rained. I'm trying to take this as a good sign, and yet when I try to think of fun things to do today, something nice to buy myself as a birthday present, something happy, I can think of nothing. Happy? What's that?

I thought of buying a CD, but there's no music which symbolizes happiness for me. Not as such. Thought maybe about HIM, because their music is pure fun, and perhaps I will buy it, but on the other hand, there's nothing really new about it.

Thought of buying chocolate, and I might... But, chocolate is not a real present to myself. I thought of going to sit in Salon Mazal, but then figured that I should probably avoid it at all cost today if I want to take no chances about seeing Klil.

I just want to enjoy myself... And I don't know how.


If only I could meet up with someone right now... Go and hang around King George, Alenby, whatever. Buy cheap useless junk in the marketplace, some shinies to make me feel better. But what shinies do I want? I can't think of anything that I truly want right now. At least, not anything that can be attained with money.


In Salon Mazal yesterday I saw Assaff, and he gave me the sweetest hug I'd received all week. I think he is the one person whom, although I am not at all close to, I really love and trust. I think I'll start seeing him more often now (especially now that I have more time). I actually started by inviting him to my birthday gathering today. If I see him today, I really want to thank him for that hug. It was the one best thing that happened to me yesterday.


Anyway, I have to decide what to do with myself now... I think the first step would be leaving the computer lab.

Cheers.

I'm happy to announce the opening ofthe Israeli polyamory community - polyamory_il
It's co-maintained by leehee and by myself.

You're all invited to join in, and spread the word to those who might be interested.

Wish us luck!

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5% Upper Midwestern

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Funny. I have no idea what most of these things mean.

Would one of my American readers be so kind as to expalin to me?