I'm being a total sucker for nostalgia today. MTV is running a special about Pedro Zamora. I didn't watch it last night but I taped it this morning and then when I got home it was on again and I watched about ten minutes of it before I stopped myself. I want to watch it all at once. But, man, just those few minutes made me tear up. I'm going to be a mess when I watch the whole thing. I still remember watching the marathon of that season while babysitting one weekend and right after the last episode they reported that he had died and I just lost it. I know I'm going to hate myself for watching this but I can't help it.

And tonight is the finale of ER. I haven't watched for a few years but it used to be one of my favorites and I'm still in love with John Carter. The previews make it seem like he'll be the center of everything tonight so there's no way I'm missing it. But I'm sure it will make me cry too. Ack.

Went back to work today. Kind of wished I hadn't but I'm at least a little caught up now. And now I just have to get through tomorrow and it's the weekend again. Can't beat that.

Now if winter would just officially go away!

Thanks to the skills and persistence of babygotbass, Hope and I are going to see Paramore (and No Doubt) for our birthdays. I'm excited! And Hope is completely abusing exclamation marks in her text messages so I'm guessing she's excited too. Sadly, I can't get ticketmaster to let me buy 2 tickets together for Taylor Swift so I can't make Alicia as happy. How rude. Someday I'll take her to a concert by herself.

The new season of MMASM looks like it will be fun but I definitely miss Ronnie and Ben. Really hope Colin stays around for a while though. He's adorable.

Did I mention the drunken deal I made with Jaimie when we went out a couple of weeks ago? I have to read the Twilight books and she has to read Harry Potter. I've finished the first two books and Melissa is bringing me the third one from Malissa tonight. So far they're not bad but I don't think I'll care about reading them again. Is Bella supposed to annoy me as much as she does? Anyway, I'm a lot more willing to watch the movie now but they're not even in the same league as HP. At least now I know.

Going out tonight to see Chippendales. I'm not a big fan of that kind of thing because they always seem to sense how uncomfortable I am when they come near me. I'm fine with them dancing and looking sexy on stage but when they come out and dance around people in the audience I freak out a little. Hopefully the people I'm with will be distracting enough for them to leave me alone. I will not be waving any money just to be sure. :)

Need to get back to cleaning so I can relax until time to get ready. I love weekends!

I'm staying home tonight! The real part of AI is starting tonight so I'm going to have to flip back and forth between that and TBL but I'm glad to have a reason to stay home from karaoke. I've been needing a break for a while but I kept getting talked into going. I'll still go on Thursdays but not for a couple of weeks. I still love karaoke but I need a little break from some of the people that seem to show up in our crowd. And I definitely need a break from the smoke in the Tuesday night place.

Jake hasn't called. We texted a little last Monday but nothing since then. Whatever. I was mad last week but now I'm just resigned. Lisa is afraid it has something to do with her Jake not wanting to contact her again and I can see some logic in that but in the end it doesn't really matter. If he wanted to see me again, he'd call. His loss.

I have jury duty this week. Ugh. I don't have to go tomorrow but I'm nervous that I might have to go on Friday. I have plans on Friday! It's our monthly staff meeting for the whole agency and then our meeting for our group. And then I'm going to Oak Grove again with Lisa that evening and Jaimie is meeting us there. So being at the courthouse all day really doesn't go well with my plans. I'm crossing my fingers that all the trials on Friday are continued or settled.

I went to the doctor on Friday for my annual checkup. I've been having some issues but I'm hopeful that the prescriptions I got will help. The cats had to go to the doctor too. They were so good. Scared to death and trying desperately to basically crawl inside me to get away from the doctor but they behaved. Chandler is still too fat so I'm cutting down on his food and putting Monica's food on the window ledge in my room since Chandler can't get up there. I feel bad for him but I have the same problem he does so I'm being tough on both of us.

Mom is learning to knit and it's nice to see her so excited about something. She needs something to make her happy for a change.

Okay, I need to focus on my channel flipping. :)

So this morning my landlord's phone was working again and he said someone was supposed to be here last Friday and he'd call them again and remind them. You'd think he'd have noticed that he hadn't heard anything from them about what's wrong but, whatever. No one came today either. Grrr. But at least I know he's still alive.

It looks like Melissa and I are planning a trip to Vegas at the end of March. Lisa is thinking about it too and maybe one of Melissa's friends. I know I'm supposed to be saving money but I haven't been on a trip in ages. Travel withdrawal pains! If we can find good deals and I can limit the spending to mostly just my tax refund, I won't feel too guilty.

We had a beautiful day today with a high of 60 degrees so I got to go for a walk during the lunch break. I hate winter but it sure makes those random nice days in January really enjoyable. It'll be cold again by tomorrow afternoon but today was great.

I think I'm going over to Melissa's tomorrow evening to just hang out. Several other people were mentioned but not the one I was hoping for and I don't want to be pathetic and ask if he's coming. Ugh. Why does this always have to be so difficult?

Who else is watching TBL? In the preview for next week, did they totally give away the two that will be below the yellow line? Not cool. They did that during one of the commercial previews this week when they said something that implied this elimination was going to be a shock. And it certainly was. The game-playing is starting already. Anyway, what's the point of watching the whole show if they're going to give away the bottom two? How rude.

I'm addicted to Word Challenge on Facebook. I was doing so well and now I've been stuck at the same score since Saturday. I can seriously do this for hours.

My boss is annoying me. And I was also not happy about slippery roads this morning. This is what I've been dreading since I switched preschools. I really enjoyed my long weekend but now I'm already ready for my Christmas vacation.

It really was a nice Thanksgiving weekend. Jaimie was sick and still isn't better so she didn't have a wonderful time but Mom and I enjoyed our time out there in Kansas and then still had two days of relaxing at home. I spent Saturday in my pajamas and it was great.

I miss seeing Lance on my tv tonight but I don't miss voting for hours. But I also have nothing to watch on Monday nights now. Maybe that will become my Netflix night for a while.

Back to my game!

When you see this, post in your own journal with a quote from one of the *N SYNC guys

"Get out of my wagon!"

I chose to watch PR and Top Design instead of the debate. I've already been feeling sick this evening. I didn't need to look at John McCain and make it worse.

I was in the first stages of communicating with a guy on eharmony. Then I looked at his profile again and noticed something I missed the first time. His hobby is clowning. Ack. I had a ten minute argument with myself about it and tried to be a sane adult but in the end I just couldn't imagine dating someone that would frequently completely freak me out. I mean, really. A clown. *shudder*

Shut up. It's not funny. :P

I almost missed DWTS because I thought it was on at 8:00. So now I'm missing ANTM instead. But I won't have to miss PR that way. I'm such a slave to my tv.

I got an email full of angst from my aunt last night. They found a place for Grandpa and it sounds like it's pretty nice and he's fairly happy there. But she has to drive by his house to get to her granddaughter's ball games and it makes her cry to see it empty. So sad. She had lots of details about how Grandpa has been staying either with her or my uncle. No mention of my dad, of course. I don't know if he's even been to visit Grandpa since all of this started happening. I don't know what's wrong with that man.

I'm getting excited about seeing the RENT movie this weekend. Actually, I've been excited but now it's almost here so I'm REALLY excited. :) Sunday at noon! Anyone else in the KC area going?

I'm having a crisis of popularity lately in that I'm pretty sure everyone hates me. Being "accidentally" excluded from lunch with the group I usually go with on Fridays didn't help. I'm also having a hard time being motivated to do my job even though I like my new preschool better. But apparently I'm not alone in the "I'm mostly thinking about what I'm going to do next," mentality so that makes me feel a little better.

Also, men make me crazy. I wish I would just remember that all the time. And I'm completely over the whole eharmony idea but I feel bad about the guys I'm leaving hanging. But I just have no interest. Hrm.

In better news, Subway sugar cookies are back. The girl behind the counter tried to tell me they've always had them and I didn't argue with her but I know I haven't seen them for a very long time. And you know I look. The part of me that has missed them was very happy but the part of me that's trying to make better food choices was annoyed. Guess who won?

I'm going out tonight but I'm not very excited about it. I usually have more fun when I drag my feet about going so let's hope for that. I just have no idea what I'm going to wear. Ugh.

I am excited about all of the tv premieres next week but I'm already stressed trying to figure out how I'm going to watch DWTS and TBL at the same time and trying to remember all of the email addresses I "borrowed" when Joey was on so I could vote and vote and vote. Plus karaoke is on Tuesday nights and I can only tape one show. Dilemma! Also, I made it through the premiere of TBL without crying but I'll be surprised if that lasts through the next one. But I had taped it and I exercised while I watched the first half and it actually did inspire me. 20 minutes on my much-hated bike seemed like nothing when I was watching people throwing up after walking on a treadmill.

Anyway, it's the weekend and I refuse to be unhappy or annoyed or have hurt feelings for the rest of it. Happy Friday!

I'm home from Nashville. I was supposed to be home around midnight last night but American cancelled our flight (due to maintenance problems but we were all pretty suspicious about that)so I actually didn't get home until 11:30 this morning. They did book us into a pretty nice hotel and everything worked out in the end with rescheduling the shuttle from the airport but I had to cancel my hair appointment and I had to give up my plan of sleeping in this morning. Mostly I just really wanted to be home last night so I was grumpy. I'm still a little grumpy. But at least I didn't have to immediately get on another flight to Little Rock which is what my boss had to do. It could have been worse. And since I was planning to take today off anyway but spent half the day traveling, I'm going to take tomorrow afternoon off too. Yay for that.

The conference was pretty good. The presentations on the first two days were interesting and informative. The last day was sort of eh but it probably would have been anyway since most of us were just tired of sitting and listening. It ended earlier than planned and we had a lot of time to kill before our flight so we went and toured the Belle Meade plantation so that was fun. I love historical stuff and lucked out that the two people I was with feel the same way. The food was fantastic. I've never had such wonderful food at a conference and the Italian place we went to on Tuesday night was also great. I approve of Nashville's food. I also approve of the several good-looking waiters and other staff at the Loews hotel. Eye candy always makes things better. :D

I also approve of the weather right now. It was beautiful in Nashville and the forecast here for the next few days is for highs around 80 degrees. In Missouri. In AUGUST. I don't know what's going on but I like it.

In family news, Jaimie and the kids moved last weekend and seem to be settled into their new tiny apartment as well as can be expected. And then Jaimie called me today to tell me she got an email from our uncle about Grandpa's 94th birthday party next Sunday. He assumed Dad would have told us but wanted to make sure since we've told him in the past that Dad doesn't always keep us informed. Duh. Of course he hasn't told us. So we're debating whether we'll go. They were already coming here so we could celebrate Tanner's birthday so we really don't have a valid excuse to not go. We haven't been to visit him this summer anyway and we have to be realistic. He's 94. How many more birthday parties will he have? And, selfishly, if we go to this it won't be so terrible if we don't go to the Christmas gathering. At least we can pretend that we have valid reasons all of the other times we don't go if we go this time. So we'll probably go and take great joy in avoiding speaking to or looking at Cindy the Bitch. Ugh. Why do families cause such angst?

I stayed up way too late almost every night on my trip watching the Olympics. Seems like a lot of my friendslist has been having the same issue. ;) Tonight I'm going to have to do a lot of channel-switching though since I missed PR and ABDC is also on tonight. TV causes angst too!