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NAME: Jenna
AGE: 18
WEIGHT (LBS): 153lbs
HEIGHT: 5'1"
DISORDER(S): Ed-nos
HOW LONG?: Current episode began a little over a year ago
LONG TERM GOAL: 95
HEIGHEST WEIGHT: 240lbs
CURRENT BMI: 28.9
FAVORITE BOOK: Too many..
FAVORITE BAND: Linkin Park
1+ PICTURE OF YOURSELF: I always have the most recent pictures of myself in my userinfo.

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<3 Jenna

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NAME: Caitlin
AGE: 19
WEIGHT (LBS): 102.5
HEIGHT: 5'11
DISORDER(S): anorexia
HOW LONG?: four years
LONG TERM GOAL: 95
HEIGHEST WEIGHT: 134
CURRENT BMI: 14.3
FAVORITE BOOK: Wasted
FAVORITE BAND: n/a
1+ PICTURE OF YOURSELF: nothing current and no scanner, hopefully that doesn't do harm.

favorite quote: mirrors NEVER lie

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Hey girls, yeah this may be long but please read it i could really use the support, and i may be leaving soon... I havn't been around very much... i'm currently 5'7 and 111 pounds... i got down to 109, unfortunatly thanksgiving with 18 members of my relatives...and i wasn't forced but if anyone knows the pressure of having 18 people looking at ya... you'll know what i mean... I was officially diagnosed anorexic yesterday at the doctors office, they're sending me to treatment if you remember my earlier post(s)... my parents keep telling me, "eat please hunny, buy us some time." well i'm sick of eating for them, "buying THEM time" so i've stopped eating... its so confusing now, my heart is set on being 89-93 pounds and my mind is slowly saying you need to get better come on... and now i don't know what to think, keep fasting, or eat healthy until i can get real help... The fact of the matter is that with my heart and mind occupied i have no time to think or feel about anything else, all i do during the day is write in my journal to keep my hand from shaking from malnutrition... the sad part is that i have no idea what i've done all this week, like i'm just going through the motions, which is also from malnutrion, my skin is blotchy and pail, i'm weak, and lightheaded, my nail are all breaking, and i'm utterly freezing 24/7... my hair is thinning and yet when i look in the mirror all i'm doing is getting bigger and bigger...i see myself as everyone else says "dying" which i mean i guess i am... but what in hells name do i really look like? if we have such distorted vision and people say i look too thin, what do i really look like? i'd like to find out, but really if i look bad to me now, won't at some point i look better, after i drop more weight? i don't know anymore, so at the moment until they can get all the stupid financing worked out and i'm leaving i'm fasting...contradiction truly but i don't know where i'm going in life... what is after this? i don't even know, i'm in a about to cry mood right now... and i don't like that mood, because i never know what i'm about to cry about... I want to recover but i don't... and its here that i end my post because you're probably tired of listening to me...

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ok so you havn't heard a lot from me lately... sorry about that, i'm going to be doing an assessment to be admitted at Rogers Memorial Hospital, I think, my parents got very worried about me, and I still havn't eaten about 12-13 days, so I'm recovering now, still not sure yet if i want to, I'm nervous and scared to start this process... We're not sure yet where I'm going but I'm doing that pretty soon. I'm 5'7, 109.2 pounds, and yeah there isn't really a lot to say accept that sometime very soon I'll be going into a treatment center. I will miss all of you terribly, I will be letting all of you know where and when I'm going soon, I just thought I'd get that out there, though I am still fasting and all that crap I just thought I'd let you know that if I seem to disappear thats where I am lol... you all have made such a difference in my life and I thank you, anyone who's been to Rogers Memorial Hospital let me know, it would be really cool if I could hear some more about it... this sounds like i'm saying farewell, but i'll still be around for awhile, i just have no solid ground to stand on right now, it's all up in the air so, anyway...if your interested in the place or whatever the website is...
http://www.rogershospital.org/eating_disorders.php
there ya'll go... well more later i guess...

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ok, well an update...
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I had the worst hunger pains today, seriously it was almost unbearable. I had to sit down because I felt like I was going to throw up.
It was so random and sudden too. I think it was probably beacause I binged for like 3 days straight, and have been fasting for 2. My body was probably used to me being a fatass and eating like a rhino.
has this ever happened to anyone else?

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This community has been very dead for a long time.  I'm trying to restart this community up.  I would like all the posts to be "friend's only" from now on.  Please post & promote if you can.  I'd just like a close-knit community of people that can talk about what's going on.  Thank you, guys.

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http://www.fxnetwork.com/shows/originals/starved/main.html



how is this even acceptable?