dear self,

you are writing self-indulgent, id-tastic, likely OOC AU porn. There is no reason to stop every five minutes to look up canon details.

no love,

me

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You know you are having an odd day when reading random Katara/Zuko fic on ff.net seems like a good idea.

Note to self: Self, It is not a good idea. It is nearly never a good idea. no love, me.

Score one for my poor decision-making skills. And yet, I keep hoping to find what I'm looking for.

It's like reading Max/Alec - you hit one good story and you think there MUST be others, and then you read a metric fuckton of TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE fic searching for the hidden gems. And occasionally you find them, but the damage in the meantime is pretty horrific. *weeps* #it's a sickness #fangirl problems

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I did manage to write a wee Steve/Bucky blow job fic last night for the 10 in 10 September thing:

Writing My Life on Your Skin (@ AO3)
Avengers (2012); Steve/Bucky; adult; 730 words
Steve likes leaving marks on Bucky's skin.

As usual, it started with angelgazing saying something about Steve leaving grease-smears on Bucky's hips and me saying she should totally write that, and then two hours later, I had a story. I don't even know why I try to resist.

At least things are getting written, even if they're not the things I want to finish. Let's see, the WIP round-up looks like this right now:

= the Winter Soldier gets hit with sex pollen
= the one where Steve loves puppies and freedom and Russian assassins (not necessarily in that order)
= the DCU/MCU crossover where Jason helps Steve and Natasha rescue Bucky from the League of Assassins

those are the top priorities, the ones I have open in Word at any given moment. Then there's the various other Steve/Bucky ones, the Steve/Darcy fake dating, and the Steve/Natasha undercover married. Plus some other things from that trope meme I might want to flesh out. *hands* Who knows?

And I still have to figure out yuletide. I always wait to see if the stuff I want gets nommed so I can then nominate things I want to write. We'll see how it goes. Thank goodness for the folks who collate that information in easy to use spreadsheets.

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note to self: don't research medical conditions on the internet. it is never ever comforting.

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dear self:

inserting [porn goes here] into the document and hoping it magically writes itself while you sleep is not a useful or productive writing strategy. stop doing it.

no love,

me.

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So after my laptop decided to stop working, I decided I was going to make the three cheese frittata for dinner. I was hungry!

Note to self: do not try to flip the frittata. No, not even with a large plate and a spatula and a metric fuckton of misplaced confidence. IT WILL ONLY END IN TEARS. Or, you know, 2/3 of the frittata landing on the stovetop instead of in the frying pan.

Note to self, part 2: purchase an oven-ready frying pan, so you can just put it in the broiler like you're supposed to, instead of the insanely hubristic notion of trying to flip it. In the meantime, HAVE PATIENCE. The eggs will set. (As an aside, yet again I wish my mother hadn't gotten rid of her old cast iron frying pans. Sigh. I would have taken them off her hands in a heartbeat.)

So yeah, that was supposed to have been dinner last night and lunch for the rest of the week. I did eat what was left for dinner after I cleaned up the mess, and it was tasty, so it wasn't a total loss, but I expected to get more than one meal out of it. Maybe I will try again tonight. It's Wednesday, right? I kept thinking yesterday was Wednesday, when it was clearly a terrible Tuesday, through and through.

If you are also interested in making a three cheese frittata, here is how:

Ingredients:

4-5 large eggs
1/3 cup grated mozzarella
1/3 cup grated parmesan
1/3 cup ricotta, drained
1 clove garlic, crushed
olive oil
salt and pepper to taste

Directions:

Beat eggs well, season to taste. Cover the bottom of your 10" frying pan with olive oil; over medium heat, saute garlic until it begins to brown, then remove and save for later use (I did not remove it, but I like garlicky things). Add eggs to oil, then layer in the cheese on top. Let cook until eggs have set and cheese has melted (5-10 minutes). If necessary (and if your skillet is oven-proof), put under broiler for 2-3 minutes, until cheese has melted and the eggs are a little brown.

Obviously, you can add any kind of vegetable or meat to this and switch out the cheeses or do whatever the hell you like. Frittatas (frittate?) are notoriously easy. I just like them with cheese. Three cheeses, to be exact.

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This is my one-year anniversary at NNP. Yay! Of course, this morning was a little crazy, as trying to get something revised and okayed when both bosses are out is...trying, but I am hoping it will all work out in the end. I mean, I know it will, but if I can get it done today, it can all go regular mail. If they don't get back to me until tomorrow, then it has to be overnight. Which is significantly more expensive.

Anyway. Yay for a year of employment. Man, as much as sometimes I am annoyed or down about it, I am so happy I got this job, and I really like the people, and the organization, I work for.

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Manually reposting.

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Two more vids I really liked, both by the same guy (!!):

Give It Up by jarrow (multifandom, 80s movies)
Awesomely joyful vid about dancing, featuring The Breakfast Club, Fast Times at Ridgemont High, Ferris Bueller's Day Off and Footloose, so yes, pretty much exactly as much fun as you'd imagine. (Also, Sean Penn! Matthew Broderick! Kevin Bacon! All so young!)

Learn to Crawl by jarrow (BSG)
Fantastic Kara/Kat vid. I never quite shipped them, but goddamn they had some great slashy moments. The eyefucks! The punches thrown! That moment where you hoped thought Kara might just lean in and plant one on Kat after Kat punched her! So this one made me all teary.

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I had a conversation about yuletide with yahtzee63 at bethebethbeth's birthday party on Saturday, and now I am trying to get a jump on thinking about things to ask for (and offer) for yuletide this year. I think this year I am really going to stick to my guns and only offer things I really-o truly-o want to write.

As for what I'm thinking of asking for, because I never ever remember when it's time to sign up, so I ask for the same thing every year, so I am going to make a note to myself now:

1. MIDDLEMAN!
2. The Thief of Attolia series by Megan Whelan Turner

Sadly, I don't think Dark Angel will be included this year (it wasn't last year, after having previously been a yuletide fandom), and I have a feeling that Criminal Minds is too big, too, so I still have two slots open. Big Bang Theory is a possibility, I guess, as is Psych. The True Meaning of Smekday! Will Leverage be too big? I don't know. There is always Ocean's 11 and The Iliad, as well as Lucifer and Sandman, my perennial fallbacks. Hmm...

At least now I will be able to refer back to this when the time comes, and I'm going, "Uh, um, Achilles/Patroclus! Danny/Rusty!" like I always do.

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Note to self: DO NOT READ THINGS YOU KNOW WILL MAKE YOU CRAZY. THEY ONLY MAKE YOU STABBITY.

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( spoilery yet AWESOME quote from the Middleman table read at ComicConCollapse )

from this article at io9 (which is spoilery for the finale table read).

Where is the video of this? WHERE?

*shakes the internets looking for it*

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Regarding my poll from the other day, clearly I FAIL at poll-making, because it was meant to be about your knowledge of my fannish development, and people seemed to think I was asking them about their fannish development, so... whatever.

The correct answers are:

1. the first source text I was ever fannish about: Star Wars
You know, it could have been Trixie Belden - I read them voraciously, and occasionally Mary Sued myself into the Bob-Whites - and it could have been Little Women, because I spent a lot of creative energy getting rid of Amy and Professor Bhaer so Jo and Laurie could be together, but I say it was Star Wars (original recipe, back when it first came out), because that was the first property I read tie-in novels for, that I scoured various magazines for information about when the next movie was coming out, that I speculated with my friends in school over what would happen next (I SO CALLED Leia as the other Yoda referred to, for example). Also, there were action figures involved, which the other two did not have (of course, I also had Charlie's Angels and Bionic Woman action figures, but none of the other stuff was involved).

2. the first fandom I ever participated in online: Homicide: Life on the Street
I forget why I logged onto Outlook Express and went looking for alt.tv.homicide; I just know it was in November 1997 and I'd just discovered HLotS and was devouring the reruns on Lifetime, and I needed people to talk to about it. I couldn't get enough of it.

Which means that

3. My first fannish interaction was: on Usenet
alt.tv.homicide was a good place to start out, I think. And alt.tv.buffy-v-slayer, as well.

4. the first fandom i ever posted fanfic in was: X-Men Movieverse
In September 2000. I was a hardcore OTP Logan/Rogue shipper.

5. I've never seen a full episode of: All of the above
What can I say? There are large gaps in my fannish education I have no real interest in filling.

6. fandoms in which I currently have works in progress: Supernatural, Firefly, BSG, STXI, and various crossovers. I doubt the BSG and STXI stories will ever be finished, but you never know.

Well, that was thrilling. I still have to be here for half an hour, though. Sigh.

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Wah! FedEx just called and they can't leave my new seatbelt mini messenger bag without a signature and I won't be home until 4 pm! (and apparently the neighbor who usually signs for things is not home?) They said they would try again tomorrow. I hope they do! I want my bag!

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amberlynne has just been giving me the weekly update on The Office, which, as you know, I don't even watch regularly, but I kind of ship Jim/Pam hardcore OTP, and all I can say as she's telling me what happened tonight is "Oh, Jim. Oh, Pam." My heart, man. I can't take it, and I don't even watch the damn show.

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So I broke 16K words on the girl!Sam AU, and I have to say an honest, conservative estimate right now puts the final word count at something between 24-26K words. And that's just with the stuff I kind of *know* has to be in the story for it to work. Because I can't rush the ending on this one. I am sure you're all sick of hearing about it, but you know how I get when a story eats my brain - it's all I can think or talk about. It probably doesn't annoy me nearly as much as it annoys you, but I do realize it can be annoying. I just can't stop talking about it. Or writing it. Or write much of anything else, though I do have another story I want to get done soonish, which may or may not be what I write for Dean's birthday. Except I only have two lines and a vague structure to work with.

Note to self:

Brain,

get yourself in gear.

please.

hopefully,

me

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