And so it happened that year 2025 has passed and entered the Void. As always, I can look back and reflect what 2025 meant to me.
Lord of the Rings Online: a slight optimism, enjoying my Loremaster. Enjoying as much landscape quests as possible. Re-discovering some old and half forgotten quests. Server migration, initially – real joy to find a community.
And then it all fades. Loremaster becomes some weird new class: good magic, powerfull melee attacks, zero pets. Community activity becomes less and less visible, my texts almost unseen.
At the end of the year I am in very same situation as in Laurelin before move: alone, without kinship, without anybody to socialize with. Yes, there were some kind, nice strangers, but only random ones.
All more-less interesting content is done, sometimes -several times in a row. So now I have almost zero interest. Re-run same region, killing few hundreds monsters? Tell me, why should I do it. For the sake of entire 5 Lotro points and 10 local tokens?
SR. My dream game that promised almost everything I needed. Raph, this honest owner and maybe the best one. If I was to create mmo, I would hire Raph, give him few billions and enjoy quality game. SR signature Servitors are really nice and cool. And main thing: no pre-defined classes, no “thou art Hero”, no regional quests/deeds. Player ran world where players decide. It was a blast for me. I waited for each test day.
Yes, it was my wishfull thinking. Yes, it was my approach that alpha may be rough. And I did not care about things being rough or server wipes. It’s Alpha, roughness/wipes may and will happen. I was really happy: grind materials, then craft, recycle, craft…everything I am good at.
Then things started to go down for me. First, there was no community. Chats were empty or full of “Where to? – Go there. – Ok” style. No small talk. No friendships, clans, cooperative activity. Some light griefing there and here – “just because I can”. My own feedback – it was almost always ignored. I posted detailed reviews about my game life in SR. Sometimes Raph commented and only he. Others did not care.
Later there was last stroke: to get skills, you need not only xp, but lots of local tokens. One simple tool could means tens of thousands tokens. And you need nore than one. So, the game desceded into virtual slavery and loop: to get tokens, do quests; to do quests, get weapons/tools; to get weapons/tools get tokens. No, starter tools would NOT matter very soon.
And of course, it was local “community”. One that villified me for posting not too optimistic opinion. There was hardly any English curse word that was not used to describe me. Almost all kinds of mentall ilnesses, almost all behaviour issues, hundreds and thousands mockings in local Discord and chats. Was anybody warned to stop mobing? Of course, not, local elites are above rules.
Which meant I should leave: quietly, without drama, just step away. I still log in from time to time to see if my toon still exists. If it is – well, I log off. If no – I create new, land on planet, log off.
But I am absolutely, 100% sure, my every action was right. I supported mmo I believed in. I told my honest opinion, not just black/rose propaganda. I tried to be helpfull and polite, even when I was villified and everbody enjoyed mocking me. Yet if SR is to fail, it would be due to its over-complexity (imagine only 100 materials on only 100 planets: only 10.000 materials. Now, some materials may produce two outcomes. So, you may have only 20.000 materials -good luck with creating database). For almost any item you need several materials which could mean, say, 10.000 x 10.000 –> only 10 million combinations.
This is the first reason of SR possible fail. Second is absolute absence of any in-game community. There are several groups of elites, but you will never be admitted there. If you are not elite, you are alone. If you express any criticism, you are villified and mocked.
Bloxd. My re-invented game. Few servers created, then last one created and made quite good one. Of course, dramas with kids, even one griefing.
I wish I could burn year 2025 in the Void and leave even no memories about it. A failed year in gaming that left mostly disappointments.
Is there anything I expect from year 2026? Hardly. I know what I want and need. And too well I know that none game would deliver that.
The only realistic things is to try to maintain my Bloxd server, expand it as much as possible and try to rule local kids as best as I can.
Lotro would be just “oh well, let’s force myself to play” thing. SR is no longer an option. And no other games look like an option.
I really wish I had any optimism for this year…