Came home last night to a message on my answering machine. An appointment slot has opened up for me to have my MLST on Thursday. Now I am terribly nervous I'll go in on Thursday and the excitement and novelty of being there will keep me awake. On the other hand I'll be spending the night there Wednesday night, and if I sleep anything like I did last time, I should be quite exhausted on Thursday.

With all life has to offer, there's so much to be enjoyed; but the pleasures of insomnia are the ones I can't avoid.

I guessed I napped a little too long when I got home from school. Now I can't sleep. I am so tired my head feels hollow; but I have been lying in bed for an hour without success. Is this my body's way of telling me to go back the gym already? Yes, yes it is.

I wanted to get stuff done today; but I spent most of the day working on proving the associativity part of proving that that elliptic curves form an abelian group. Only then to realize that I had been proving all the cases we were specifically excused from proving. Ugh.

I should have canceled meeting to work on the assignment. I was too tired-stupid to be working on it.

Edit: (5:50am)

I am still awake. I finally gave up on sleep and went and did some outstanding Russian homework. The difference in my handwriting between the work I did now and the work I did before is perceptible even to me. But my eyes are burning, and my eyelids are heavy, so I'll try to sleep again.

Four undesirable options to choose from:

-Stay home, again, today and catch up on my sleep and try to get something done
-Stay home, again, stay awake, get little done; but have a better chance at being sane by Wednesday
-Go to classes, get nothing out of them, go home, then try to sleep and then do work thereby utterly ruining my chance to be sane by Monday
-Go to class, get nothing out of them, go home, then stay awake and do little and try to be sane by Monday

I am leaning towards the first option. I don't like this not going to class habit I am falling into; but I don't think I'd get enough benefit out of them to make up for the loss of productivity.

I woke up with a cramp in my leg and a solution. Now I can't sleep.

I added my solution and it does seem to work. Warm milk, maybe?

I did not fall asleep last night. At all. I am still awake. I have had nights of four and even five hours of pillow flipping and rolling over repeatedly; but last night I was in bed for 8 hours, and if I did fall asleep, it wasn't for more than 20 minutes.

And now I have an exam in about an hour. And another one in less than 12 hours.

I am feeling okay, kind of spacey; but I am hoping caffeine helps. alfedenzo being the extremely sweet person that he is had already planned to get up at 7am with me and make me French toast.

I don't get it, All this last week I deliberately made sure I didn't get up later than 9am, so it wouldn't be too hard today. I stopped studying at 10:30pm so I wouldn't be too keyed up.

Damn.

My Exams are over! Now I think I am going to sleep, and stay asleep as long as I feel like.

Another weekend wasted. I have finished my calculus assignment; and am writing up the solutions now. However, the night is young. Maybe I'll write up a detailed outline for my essay; and gather up some price examples for the MEF presentations on Wednesday, before I go home.

Actually, going home early might be a good investment of my time. Holden became convinced I had to go to class at 9am this morning and poked me until I got out of bed. I was thought he just wanted me to leave, and was kind of pissed off at him.

I have found I have been making most of my recent entries the mornings after all-nighters. This is giving the impression that I never sleep. This is not true, I go home, and sleep and eat healthy green vegetables on a regular basis. This is the story I tell my mother and I am sticking to it.

Tonight I have been studying integer partitions. I am feeling much more confident about this topic now. I will read over the website notes tomorrow, and go see the prof in the afternoon to answer any questions I still have. noam_rion lent me a really neat book on the topic. He said he would be by at about 7pm to pick up; but I have not seen him; not that I mind, as I am still using it.

The next little while will be crazy. I have my linear algebra midterm on wednesday, and then my combinatorics midterm on thursday, then a calculus assignment on friday, and an essay worth 20% of my russian studies course on Tuesday.

The new roommate seems to be working out well.