Recorded live with no overdubs at October 5, 2024, Sapphic Manor, Bainbridge Island, WA.

Jackie An (violin, vocals), Raqa Down (synthesizers, percussion, vocals), María Dolores A. Matienzo (synthesizers, percussion, piano, vocals). 

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do what you can to make yourself still.
relax or sit upright, whichever
feels the most comfortable for you.

empty yourself as much as you can.
to let go, feel zero, sense nothing.
hold onto what's left; cling there, barna-
cle you; hold fast, waiting for plankton.

keep drifting. feel yourself merge into
voids. think of a person who made you
whole: material, sensual you.
uncanny, unfamiliar sensa-
tions, enlightening you, as their gift.

remember how you didn't know that
your body could feel that way, so full.
the soles of your feet, backs of your knees,
nerves in your solar plexus, ribs, veins
in your shoulders, muscle in your mouth.
all wrapped in white linen, just for you.

remember the way sweat on skin tastes,
and when it hit your tongue. why was theirs
so memorable? was it salty,
metallic, unpredictable tang,
or sweetness you felt inside your soul?

step backwards and think how they made you
feel whole, where you felt it, how you sensed
it. clutch it as you float through nothing,
embodying sounds that bring them here.

continue the sounds demonstrating
their presence for as long as they stay
by your side, or until they dissolve.

E ["remember the way sweat on skin tastes"]

D ["remember how you didn't know that"]

C ["keep drifting. feel yourself merge into"]

B ["empty yourself as much as you can."]

Recorded November 9, 2024 in Seattle, Washington. Digital piano, rain, emulated frippertronics, granular synthesis, convolution reverb, and sampled voice. Dedicated to the memory of Dorothy Allison.

Contains elements of Dorothy Allison's reading on March 23, 2015 at Kelly Writers House at University of Pennsylvania.

two or three things i know for sure

Remix of Eyehategod's "Peace Thru War (Thru Peace And War)"

Peace Thru War (Pure Moods Remix)

an attempt at running hands over the traces in honor of celebrating 666 days since a chance meeting between empanadas and femme decks.

01. matmos - "public sex for boyd mcdonald" (dj freermasonry may subd. geog. mix)
02. dillinja - "one for the trouble"
03. sweet trip - "noise is a social skill (v.0.8)"
04. true love always - "tongue"
05. kaytranada feat. h.e.r. - "intimidated"
06. front line assembly - "justify my love"
- - - side division - - -
07. the jam - "happy together"
08. juliana hatfield - "popsicle"
09. hum - "i hate it too"
10. david watson and bill nace - "walnuts"
11. chicano batman - "pomegranate tree"
12. horse jumper of love - "orange peeler"

this mix also contains excerpts of charles stein's "the virgo poem: ouspensky addresses a congress of virgoes" from his june 23, 2016 reading at rhinebeck, new york and derek jarman's "wittgenstein."

the twelfth: denn sie sollen alle mit der hand angefaßt werden

María Dolores A. Matienzo is a composer, poet, and archivist living on unceded Coast Salish lands. Her works explore ritual, sensory experience, immaterial labor, memory, and memorialization.

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