{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lightofeilia","title":"l i g h t   o f   e i l i a","subtitle":"and never to be forgotten ;;","author":{"name":"lightofeilia"},"link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/data\/atom"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"service.feed","type":"application\/x.atom+xml","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/data\/atom","title":"l i g h t   o f   e i l i a"}}],"updated":"2016-01-08T01:13:46Z","entry":[{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lightofeilia:15987","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/15987.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=15987"}}],"title":"lightofeilia @ 2011-05-16T00:38:00","published":"2011-05-16T04:38:54Z","updated":"2016-01-08T01:03:32Z","category":{"@attributes":{"term":"poems"}},"content":"Here my remorse lies unattended<br \/>Embellished with tears and heartbreak<br \/>Your scent permeates the stagnant haze<br \/>This prison slowly, silently, decays<br \/><br \/>Here my sorrow lies unfettered<br \/>Fluttering about with need and desire<br \/>Your shadow creeps around and stumbles<br \/>This cage slowly, silently, crumbles<br \/><br \/>Why do you sing, why do you sleep<br \/>Why do you scream, why do you weep<br \/>Without a window, without a shade<br \/>Were you truly, truly betrayed?<br \/><br \/>Here my love lies unbroken<br \/>Adorning various truths and lies<br \/>Your voice echoes off the walls<br \/>This haven slowly, silently falls<br \/><br \/>Here my heart lies asleep<br \/>Dreaming of memories bittersweet<br \/>Your love dissipates through the skies<br \/>This refuge slowly, silently dies."},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lightofeilia:12624","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/12624.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=12624"}}],"title":"lightofeilia @ 2011-04-07T17:00:00","published":"2011-04-07T21:00:29Z","updated":"2016-01-08T01:10:06Z","category":{"@attributes":{"term":"poems"}},"content":"you talk about your wounds, and your healing scars<br \/>and let's discuss this privately now<br \/>[how many times has this been covered?] <br \/>[it's not a problem], i say, [and go on]<br \/><br \/>i'd talk about nothing else aside from you<br \/>and let's discuss this, publicly now<br \/>[how many times have i said i love you?]<br \/>[it's not a problem], you say, [and carry on]<br \/><br \/>we'd talk about nothing else that i can remember<br \/>and we'd discuss this under the covers, whispering<br \/>[how many times have we done this now?]<br \/>[it's not a problem], you say, and continue on<br \/><br \/>now [there's nothing left to talk about], you say<br \/>we shouldn't be discussing this at all, but i ask<br \/>[how many times have you been wanting to leave?]<br \/>[it was always a problem], you say, and move on."},{"id":"urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lightofeilia:10049","link":[{"@attributes":{"rel":"alternate","type":"text\/html","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/10049.html"}},{"@attributes":{"rel":"self","type":"text\/xml","href":"https:\/\/lightofeilia.livejournal.com\/data\/atom\/?itemid=10049"}}],"title":"lightofeilia @ 2011-03-07T03:10:00","published":"2011-03-07T08:10:15Z","updated":"2016-01-08T01:13:46Z","content":"so we'll occasionally find<br \/>sleep beneath the covers<br \/>and we'll be, as always<br \/>the fraction of a whole<br \/><br \/>casually spin these lights above<br \/>and we'll illuminate the room<br \/>with some of your skin, cool<br \/>to the touch, but barely (enough)<br \/><br \/>and then we'll occasionally find<br \/>clarity, through the fog<br \/>and we'll be, as always<br \/>the glass that's thinly cracked<br \/><br \/>causality is a grenade waiting<br \/>waiting to light up, as we pass<br \/>the blame, the fault, the lies<br \/>and the cruelty yet remains (with us)<br \/><br \/>and we'll occasionally find<br \/>peace, through the arguments<br \/>few and far between, we'll be<br \/>as always, the failing of a lifetime.<br \/><br \/>____<br \/><br \/>my site's gone. well, no, it's still there. it's just not mine anymore, so i figured i'd post whatever i still write here."}]}