I liked it. But I liked the bsg finale at first and now feel all angry when I think about it? Right now I am all "meh, I don't need answers, I have emotions", that may fade with time.

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I dunno if I'm ready for Lost to be over. I wish I had rewatched it over the last hiatus. I can barely remember everyone who has died, and that makes me sad. There's just so much lost... did even bsg have this high a body count? I really hope the finale of Lost isn't as fundamentally disappointing as the bsg finale in terms of going against what I thought the whole point of the show was...

This made me sad: Fanvid to an original fan-made song about Lost, spoilers through "across the sea", technically. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iggE4ImYwyc

Stories have meaning. Stories affect me, stories make me feel things, stories give me a context to feel things from my own life. Lost keeps killing characters I love. Maybe none of them will ever make it off the island again. People fall, people are redeemed, people are redeemed and fall again, people fall in love and are torn apart, children grow up without their parents, parents don't get to see their children grow. There doesn't need to be a moral, but with so much talk of good and evil, there will be. Until the end of a show... there's always hope. There are infinite possibilities. Decisions can be unwritten. When the show finally ends, when they write the last chapter... that's it. We're stuck with what they wrote, and we can remix and rewrite all we want, but that's what the canon is. And I'm scared of how they will do it. I spent so many years wondering and spinning theories, and so often I like the truth less than ideas I came up with. There are so many ways to do it wrong and so few ways to do it right.

I'm still not sure if I want to go to the Lost finale party, or watch it by myself where I can cry without shame. And without the hostess wishing death on Kate all the time, which I find distracting. And I will cry, and I don't want to be judged for that. What I need is to make my tivo start working again so I can have the option of punting on the party and picking up immediately at home.

Will you be watching?

I wanted to go down to the cape to see my friend who finished school today. This was a great plan when my interview was tuesday afternoon, not so great with it moved to wednesday morning. In the end I decided not to go, and I passed out before 9 pm of exhaustion, so good decision? I woke up close to midnight, planning to go back to bed for good soon. I am trying to not get my expectations up for this job that I am totally underqualified for? If nothing else, it's interviewing practice.

I'm in the middle of 4x08 of Dexter, and whenever I am watching the back of my mind is desperately trying to guess what is going to happen. After this season is over... I will be Dexter-less for the first time! How sad! I hadn't really realized that. I'm not used to being caught up on things anymore. I keep hoping that sometime soon I will get through the backlog of shows I should have been watching while at MIT. I love all the TV I am watching, but sometimes it's overwhelming. After Dexter... s3 of Big Love is waiting for me, because we were talking about it yesterday and I realized I miss it, s3 of Deadwood needs to get finished before festivids reveal in case that's what I get, White Collar is definitely calling out to me, I want to watch at least some House that I missed, and there's no time pressure on Twin Peaks, but I have the pilot sitting there... Merlin, unh, I dunno what I am going to do with that. I think that is most of the pressing stuff? I want to review Lost before it comes back, I kind of want "Lost summarized in an hour", not "Lost in 8:17 minutes". (and Leverage! i'm sure i'm missing more. AND LIFE ON MARS. and then ashes to ashes, obv.)

Oh and it's my birthday now, actually right around my birth time as well. We're going to see "Sleep No More" at 7:40. I hear it's all sold out now? Good thing we got tickets. Also we're going to see The Slutcracker ( http://www.theslutcracker.com/ ) on Sunday at 8 if anyone wants to join us.

No yuletide progress today, damn it. I am going to refuse to make plans for Friday and do some marathon writing I think. Given that I have evening plans wed, thurs (late), sat, and sunday...

Aww, man, I didn't watch last night's "Glee" before I sent in my yuletide prompt, and it totally affected it! :-)

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oh my god that episode was SO GOOD.

[edit: anyone who can actually recognize what gender recent Broadway songs are written for... is unlikely to be overly critical on this topic, I think!]

White Collar! Episode Two! I have nothing coherent to say!

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MINOR MAD MEN SPOILERS FOR 1X05 OR SOMETHING AHEAD. I just finished 1x07.

in other news, i am not exactly half way through season one of Mad Men, and, um, I think watching this on the heels of "Dexter" is doing strange things to my head. Like, um, there's this scene when Don Draper is upset with someone ( spoilersCollapse ), and he decided to go meet with them, and he gets something out of a locked drawer that we can't see, and goes to meet with them, and then pulls out the something, and i was COMPLETELY SURE that Don Draper was going to pull out a silenced gun and shoot him. And, um, maybe the show tried to push me in that direction like a little teeny bit, but at most I should have suspected or been concerned, not be COMPLETELY SURE. What next, Draper drags clients off to kill rooms and covers them in plastic and stabs them to death and drops their bodies in the Long Island Sound? I mean, I think Draper could do it, for sure, and not let on to anyone.

Here is the main difference between Don Draper and Dexter Morgan[1]: I know Dexter's secrets. All of them. He shares with us, openly and freely, the way he never can in real life, even with the people he sometimes gets close to, no one ever gets all the way through. But us, the viewer? We know everything. We're his allies, his silent coconspirators. He fights to protect his secrets, and we cheer him on, and we watch him dupe them and we cheer and we know that WE know the truth, unlike anyone else. But Draper? Dude's an enigma. I don't know his secrets, and that makes him an unknown, dangerous element. He is creepy to me in way Dexter never is, because Don keeps secrets from me.

Does anyone else in the world feel this way? And yes they are obviously all fictional, but this how I engage with my media.

In conclusion, Don Draper is a creepy dude and I'd rather hang out with Dexter, who has a clear moral code that leaves me safe. Don? Does he even HAVE morals? Dude creeps me out. Peggy's a fricking weird mystery too. And Pete. Hell, they're all sad closed up little boxes of repression and weirdness. I don't want to hang out with ANY of them.


[1] Shut up, the lack of serial killing is irrelevant here.

So, I'm almost caught up on "Dexter". WHAT NEXT? "Dexter" has gotten my standards preeetty high, let me tell you!

[edit: i forgot "chuck" and "little mosque on the prairie", so, uh, comment about those if you think i should watch them?]



Feel free to promote your favorites as much as you like. I am always happy to watch recruiter vids!

WATCH THIS SHOW. You don't need to know details, just go in and watch, I enjoyed not knowing anything in advance. There are pretty people, being smart and clever and witty and one of them has VERY PRETTY EYES.

Okay, if that's not enough, the thing that finally got me over there, after all the other flist squee, was this post from Ms. frostfire_17: http://frostfire-17.livejournal.com/142218.html Including screencaps! Of a crucial scene!

And after you watch it, you can check out some links here: http://svmadelyn.livejournal.com/654723.html

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It hardly needs saying the fandom for this is going to be AWESOME.
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And if you didn't see, and it's still tuesday earlyish, this person desperately needs to borrow money because of her insane mother: http://laura47.livejournal.com/1051767.html

I am too caught up in this show!

I have to explain first that I don't even believe in capital punishment, I think it is barbaric and horrible, not to mention it not being a deterrent and hugely expensive. But when I am watching "Dexter", I just sort of accept the universe I am in and go with it. The show is firmly from Dexter's POV, with frequent voiceovers letting us know the thoughts he never shares, and I mostly accept it. Do I think that there really is anyone that compelled to murder the way Dexter is, and that they can sort of shape it into a twisted morality and have the life he has? It doesn't matter. I think I see it almost like the conceits of fantasy or science fiction.

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...right. This is GOOD TV. I forgot how awesome, and a bit creepy, it is to get this into something. WHAT ELSE IS THIS GOOD? I NEED MORE EXCELLENT TV.

Also, anyone know when Dexter s4 will end?

This is the hardest I've fallen for a show... in a long while. And it's wonderful! It's beautiful! Why didn't I do this sooner?

Actually, I know why. "Six Feet Under". Michael C. Hall, who I now adore beyond reason, was one of the stars of that show, and... I've never been able to finish SFU. I can't let it end, and my own grandmother gave me a spoiler I just couldn't deal with. On SFU, Hall played David, the sweet gay Catholic undertaker. On "Dexter", he plays the eponymous serial killer. It's, uh, different. I thought I couldn't deal with the transition until I'd finished SFU and could have closure. Turns out, he is just so different, it's fine. I swear his voice is totally different. He's... he's a good actor, and that makes it okay! Yay!

I read about "Dexter" when it first premiered, and I saw things advertising the fourth season that contained spoilers, and I saw a vid at vividcon, that I remarked at the time seemed like it could be a very misleading recruiter vid, as it was focused on happy family life. :-)

"Dexter" is so much more than I had hoped for. I figured it would be all Dexter, all the time, and he'd kill people all the time, and the rest of the characters would be one or two dimensional, and... I don't know why I thought that, given what rave reviews it gets. *shrug* BUT! I was wrong! There are all these characters, and they are wonderful! They have lives, and we get to see things that have nothing to do with Dexter sometimes! Even the characters who we're probably supposed to like the least have all these facets, and everyone's sympathetic sometimes, and it's just wonderful. It passes the Bechdel test just fine (easier for TV, I know) with these professional women interacting professionally. And it's in Miami, and most of the cast that isn't Dexter, his girlfriend or his sister (who I think are probably the main characters) is not white! I should have realized that would be true if the show is at all realistic, but I never really thought about it, and it is wonderful. Sadly my Spanish is too rusty to make out most of the untranslated scenes. But I'm starting to work on that again.

Basic premise: As a kid, Dexter Morgan had all these impulses to kill. His adopted (cop) dad taught him how to kill and not get caught, and to only kill people he was absolutely sure were murderers who were likely to kill again. Dexter is also a genius forensics investigator or Miami Metro Homicide, which gives him plenty of resources. Dexter thinks he doesn't have real emotions, that he has to fake every kind of human interactions. Dexter starts dating an abused woman because she doesn't want sex, and having a girlfriend makes him look normal. Dexter tries very hard to look normal, and fake normal, but as the show goes on... things start to become real.

And that is why I love this show. Dexter evolves. Dexter grows and changes and sometimes it makes me squee when he realizes how much he cares for someone or somebody just does some normal human relationship thing at him. Dexter is like my serial killer Pinnochio. Someday he'll be a real boy! With love and friendship and fishing! I don't know how the series will end, with regards to Dexter's habit, but I am so psyched to find out. IF YOU SPOIL ME ON ANYTHING I WILL SCREAM. I don't know when I last cared so much about spoilers, I've been pretty chill with that for awhile for most things.

I also love the characters. Deb, his sister, Rita, his girlfriend, Maria LaGuerta, his tough as nails boss, Angel Batista, the cop who says he's Dexter's best friend. I don't really love Masuka, I guess. Is he some kind of audience surrogate for the inappropriate comments about gore? FIIK.

But Deb. Oh Deb. Everything is so close to the surface with you, you can't hide anything. Heart on your sleeve, ready to be ripped off by anyone who passes by. But she's not pathetic, she's strong and beautiful and smart, even though she's loud and foul and brash and impulsive. I say she's so young, even though she's older than me, but she is. Oh Deb, I love you! I hope you get a good relationship some day, eh?

And Angel! Angel Batista! I want the world to give you rainbows to walk on. You... I just love you! I don't even know why! You're honest and loyal and a good cop for any definition I can think of, and you don't scheme and you just want a little niceness in the world, you want something beautiful and real and I want you to have it.

Which of course brings me to Rita. Rita Rita Rita. Now she really deserves what she dreams of, that "normal life". No abusive husbands, no drugs, no bullshit. And what you have is Dexter, and he's a serial killer with deep emotional problems who is acting so much of the time... but he's not acting as much as he thinks he is. He loves you, and he loves your children, and he's good for all of you, and it's only a tiny part of me that wants to point out that Dexter secretly kills people... but this is fiction, so I don't mind. It's weird. If any of my friends were dating Dexter, I'd flip out, but on TV? You kids are great together!

"Dexter" is awesome and I love it. I'm on 3x08. I will be very sad when I catch up to current season.

"Dexter"! You should watch it! It's not even that gory! Less disturbing in my mind than autumnesquirrel's crime procedurals (which she watches like 50 hours of each week, those CSIs and Criminal Minds and stuff... though that one guy on CM is cute in a really weird way, and I do like seeing Mandy Patinkin out there, first ep I saw half of gave me rape nightmares. ugh.).

"Dexter"! Yay!

[edit: so Dexter's reading the paper about a murder, and I decide to pause and read the article, and the guy is FROM MY HOMETOWN. And also Coral Gables, Florida, I assume a snow bird. So weird! Wikipedia says there are 7600 people in that town, and 20,000 in the related-adjacent-town that I actually grew up in, but I consider them equally home. Didn't actually realize my town was so much bigger... anyway, WEIRD.]