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Another year, another photo [Jan. 1st, 2026|02:02 pm]
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Starting in 1999 I've done a 2 second long self portrait beginning one second before midnight on New Years Even and ending one second into the new year.

Here's 2025 slipping into 2026. 

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I've been in the long habit of going to bed at 8pm so that I can get up at 5:00 and write before the sun comes up, so staying up past nine wasn't really in the cards for me this year. I sent an alarm for 11:45. Trillian offered to get up and put on a ball-gown but getting out of bed to take a photo seemed like more work than I was interested in doing. I remember — years ago -- my friends Joe and Tony and I would always listen to Metallica's Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse at midnight and ring in the new year smashing into one another. I had an awful lot of energy back then but, looking back, not a terrible lot of it was channeled in useful directions. Arguably I have more *energy* now (no way could I run any distance in my 20's) but I definitely feel that I'm focused in more rationally productive directions now. A lot of that is because Trillian's here with me and now it's easier to see the right way to go.

This does always create some internal monologue and reflection about all the things that had to go wrong in my life for things to go right. Some of the really terrible things did build me up better and make me better prepared to carry on. 

I hope your 2026 is a good year, wherever you are and whatever you're doing and whomever you're with or without. 

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New Photo Shoot! [Jul. 20th, 2025|03:11 pm]
kyle cassidy

A few months ago we got a call from Glen Foerd, which is a historic mansion owned by the city of Philadelphia. It's a great example of 1920's gilded age construction. the guy who built it made a fortune figuring out a process for tanning goat skins and made a huge amount of money overnight. Yadda yada yada, it's now part of Fairmount Park and they do all sorts of cool things there. One of these things is to throw a massive masquerade ball on Halloween. So they asked if we could come up with a poster image that was over the top. I had a few ideas and @trillianstars went out to have a look at the place which was fabulous. 

We'd recently seen the Heartless Revival collection at Philly Fashion week and it included some extremely over the top dresses. Behold:

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Between Us And Catastrophe: 2025 [Mar. 15th, 2025|12:21 pm]
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Five years ago this month I started photographing COVID nurses realizing that their stories were going to be critical in our understanding of what was happening to us and the world. This month Philadelphia's Mutter Museum of the College of Physicians put up a 5 years pandemic retrospective of the pandemic called "Trusted Messengers" and included 24 of my photos plus a copy of the book in progress. Trillian Stars and I got to go to the press and members opening last night.

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2024-2025 [Jan. 6th, 2025|01:41 pm]
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Starting in 1999 I've done a 2 second long self portrait beginning one second before midnight on New Years Even and ending one second into the new year. 

Here's 2024 slipping into 2025 in Whitechapel England, for the second year in a row.

With Trillian Stars. 

So much that I should update.....

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New book(s) out! [Nov. 24th, 2024|10:31 am]
kyle cassidy

So, Trillian_Stars and I have two new books out and this is the anniversary of when we first started thinking about them. So first I'll plug out books, which you can get at https://elizabethsiddal.com and then I'll tell you the weird story about how they happened.

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Zones of Possibilities [Mar. 25th, 2024|04:39 pm]
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Our artist friends were either completely destroyed by covid or the metamorphized like butterflies and created beautiful things. Both of these things happened to Helen Rosemier who lost her husband, Matt, during COVID and also created an astounding book about the swirling emotions. ZONES OF POSSIBILITY is a book of photography, memory, loss and celebration. It’s also a book filled with design elements that would send a publisher into spasms. “What do you mean you want to glue photo corners onto page 11 of every copy?” “What do you mean pages 24 and 25 need to be ripped in half? We already agreed to an embossed cover and a foldout flyleaf.” “Wait, you want loose photos stuffed in there too?”

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Mile End with a Hasselblad [Dec. 29th, 2023|10:14 am]
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In London again. With <lj user="trillian_Stars"> and a Hasselblad 4116 trying to remember LJ embed codes. 

Not Spittlefields, probably Mile End with Trillian Stars
Not Spittlefields, probably Mile End with Trillian Stars

I feel like we're at that delicate nexus of possibility and creativity and my inclination is to run as far as I can before we fall off.

But, true love, seek me in the throng

Of spirits floating past;

And I will take thee by the hands,

And know thee mine at last.

— Elizabeth Eleanor Siddal

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Kevin Hollenbeck's Memorial Band Photographer Gear Giveaway [Oct. 30th, 2023|02:15 pm]
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People, let me tell you about our best friend, Kevin Hollenbeck and how we want you to have his cameras.

Kevin Hollenbeck, aka "Shadowcaptain"
Kevin Hollenbeck, aka "Shadowcaptain"

Kevin was ubiquitous in the Dresden Dolls band scene and so many other music scenes. He was the person that a lot of rock stars relied on to Get Things Done when they came through town. I remember Kevin telling a story of how he ended up in a Volkswagon Jetta, driving it like a get-away car, hunched over the wheel, swerving around ducks and trash cans with Weird Al Yankovic in the back seat, careening dangerously towards an amusement park where there may or may not have been a roller coaster they wanted to ride at 2:00 in the morning. And while this sounds like the fevered dream of many a person, it wasn't Kevin's fevered dream, it was a true story, though I may have gotten some of the details wrong.

Kevin Hollenbeck, aka Shadowcaptain, was a photographer from the Washington D.C. area who passed away of colon cancer in 2022 leaving an incredibly large group of friends devastated. Kevin was a theater person who loved music and spent his career helping indie bands with his photography. His kindness and enthusiasm put him at the center of a lot of amazing experiences with musicians. He left behind a lot of photo equipment and to honor his legacy, we want to give that equipment to people who will continue to support bands and theater.

Here's how you can win one of Kevin's cameras.

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In Memory of Peter Straub: Part 2 [Oct. 4th, 2023|07:08 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |missing peter]
[music |lana del rey]

Peter left this world a year ago last month and I don't stop thinking about him. It's really hard to describe how cool Peter Straub was. How just, kind, and funny and full of the joy of life he was. One story that really comes to mind is his side-stint as a soap opera star.

The first time I met Peter I was interviewing him for a book that, so far, hasn't come out about writers in their creative spaces, and Peter told me about his rigorous writing habits, which were to start writing really early in the morning, and then take a break for lunch in the early afternoon, make a sandwich and sit in front of the television -- and this was in the 1970's and 1980's when society told us that men were all at the office and the only people at home watching television were women, so, on the three network TV channels you got during the day, ALL of them were showing soap operas from 12:30 until around 4:00 when the kids were supposed to get home. So Peter sat down with his sandwich and his glass of scotch and he watched soap operas. He told me at the time that soap operas were fun things for a writer working on a novel to watch because "they're 100% plot" like a Dickens novel. So, Peter Straub and three million New York City housewives got hooked on One Life to Live. He watched it religiously and got swept up in the story. And at some point at one of those Manhattan parties that they make movies about, he bumped into OLtL star Michael Easton who plays detective Lt. McBain (and who, for some period in 1997 might have been, I believe, a vampire, it's hard to remember all the plot twists). Michael Easton was a fan of Peter's and they got to talking about things and they realized that it would be fun to work together, so they wrote a graphic novel The Green Woman (Easton had already written a couple of novels at this point) and Peter started guest starting on One Life to Live.

You read that right.

Michael Easton went to the writers and said "Hey, you should write Peter in" and someone shrugged their shoulders and said "ok" and blind detective Peter Braust was born. Peter Brust was the former partner of Lt. McBain's father and when Michael Easton's character was at a complete loss for how to solve a crime, he would go visit Peter Braust who would say something like "you said you smelled hibiscus. Hibiscus doesn't bloom in September. It must have been a woman's perfume." and Lt. McBain would say "Of course! Hiding behind the curtains! thank you so much Peter Brust!" and go solve the crime.

In 2011 Peter invited me up to his house to watch the latest episode and it was some of the most fun I've had in my life. Peter has a wonderful, literary, family. His wife, Susan, started "Read to Me" which is a program to get parents to read books to and with their children, and his daughter Emma is a novelist. It's hard to think of a time I've been surrounded by so much joy and a properly functioning American family.

Some of the cast showed up and I heard lots of inside stories about life in a soap opera.

I posted these photos right after the party in 2011, but here they are again:



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Peter, his son-in-law, Michael Fusco, daughter Emma, Peter's assistant, Este Lewis, actor Robert Woods who has played Bo Buchannan on OLTL, his wife, Loyita Chapel, who plays both Blaze and Dallas on OLTL, & Susan Straub who runs Read to Me.




Blind detective Peter Braust always shows up at the critical moment with just the right insight to crack the case. Though this time, it's the Lieutenant's cold feet in regards to his upcoming marriage to Natalie.


In the episode Bo (played by Robert) gets into a fight with his brother Clint (played by Jerry verDorn) at Natalie and Jessica's double wedding, Clint has a flash drive that has, I think, naughty photos of one of the brides, and someone else has switched one of their paternity tests (they're both pregnant) but can't remember which one. I'm not sure how much of this Bo knew about when he was doling out ten fingered justice. It was confusing but glorious. Peter delivered his lines with eloquence and there was a heady delight at the Straub residence as we watched and cheered. He's really such a lovely person, you'd never expect that he spends most days thinking about how to disembowel people in new and unique ways.


I do miss you Peter Straub. You're one in a million.






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People let me tell you about something beautiful. [Oct. 3rd, 2023|10:37 am]
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Ever since it came out in 2018 I have coveted Micah Bloom's book Codex, published by the University of North Dakota's Digital Press. Codex is a response to the 2017 flood in Minot, North Dakota and asks the question, what if you love a thing far more than anybody thought humanly possible? After the flood, Bloom and a meticulous team of researchers went to Minot and combed through the flood debris documenting and collecting books. Ordinary books. Collected and treated with the care the NTSB would give to airplane wreckage. Indeed, the whole thing has the overtones of an infinitely funded quest to discover ... what? The resulting expenditure of resources on something that we'd all walk past gives us a fascinating and beautiful look at the intersection between humanity and nature. Floods are, intrinsically, i think, about the ownership of the liminal spaces that people expand into.

Bloom took many of the collected books and exhibited them in a gallery show that I'm sorely depressed that I missed. But I'm incredibly happy to have one of the 20 art books created from the gallery show, thanks to me whining about not having one loudly on the Internet and the press realizing that there was one unsold copy lying in a drawer.

This is literally one of the two or three most beautiful books I've ever seen.

But don't be sad!!! You can get a digital version of this astounding book, for free, from the University of North Dakota Digital Press here.

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The Hasselblad X1d is beautiful and terrible [Feb. 5th, 2023|09:58 am]
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The Haddelblad X1d is simultaneously one of the most beautiful and yet one of the most tragically terrible cameras I've ever used. 

It produces excellent images when it produces images but it's as slow as a 4x5 without the reliability.

The X1D is very easy on the eyes for an intrinsically ugly camera.
The X1D is very easy on the eyes for an intrinsically ugly camera.

Being a mirrorless, you can put a whole lot of other lenses on it but with the Hasselblad having the shutters in the lenses, there are some tradeoffs — with a non Hasseblad X lens you're limited to using the electronic shutter, which takes 1/3 of a second to write the frame, so any movement in the camera during that time will show up in the final image. But the advantage of a built in leaf-shutter is that H native lenses will flash sync at any speed. So that's nice. 

The camera itself is ponderously slow to respond to requests from the user to actually do something, pressing the shutter is basically sending a third class parcel package to the camera asking for it to take a photo when it has a chance. Another powerful annoyance is how slowly the camera turns on either the ELF or the rear-screen. I'm used to the Panasonic X series — the GX7 and the GX9 respond instantly to a touch of the shutter button and display the live view. Not so with the Hasselblad, where four or five frantic half-pushes of the shutter and several long seconds are required to switch the camera from menu to live view. But, if you can live with that, the images are nice. There are two newer versions (X1Dii and the X2D) both of which use the same exact sensor. 

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How much vegan chili can you make for $36? [Jan. 7th, 2023|08:57 am]
kyle cassidy

Last week over on Twitter, vegan comfort food emulator Thee Burger Dude  (@TheeBurgerDude) wondered how much vegan chili he could make for $36. I didn't follow enough of the conversation to figure out what made him ask that, but it got me instantly obsessed with how much vegan chili I could make for $36. [EDIT FROM THE FUTURE: Thee Burger Dude responded to me on Twitter saying that there was a viral tweet a couple of years ago from someone lamenting that they couldn't be vegan because it cost $36 to make vegan chili, causing the entire Internet wonder, loudly, just what the heck this person was making chili out of.] A few years back my colleague at the Philadelphia Weekly, Randy LaBosso wondered, in a series of articles, how well he could live on some small amount of money — it might have been $40 a week. And, you know, whenever someone on the Internet does something like that, you're always smacking your head at how you could do it better and I'm going "Randy! Let me tell you about lentils!

I'm fortunate to live in a part of Philadelphia which has an enormous amount of food options and that's not the case everywhere. Many American's live in food deserts where their options for shopping are very limited. For this, I shopped at two different places, Sprouts Farmers Market for bulk spices and Aldi, for almost everything else. There are a few places that I didn't try that might have been able to save me more money, such as our vegetable trucks and the dollar store (critically, I think the zucchini and squash might have been about 25% or so less expensive at a vegetable truck). Also, if I'd been able to go in on this with other people, I think I could have gotten the beans cheaper in larger amounts by shopping at some of our international stores that supply restaurants in the area.

So, all this is predicated on a) having places to shop and b) having the time to go to those places. 

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Hello 2023! [Jan. 2nd, 2023|07:22 am]
kyle cassidy

Since 1999 I've been taking a self portrait that spans the end of one year and the beginning of the next. They're all two seconds long and start in the last second of one year and end in the first second of the next. 

Here's 2022 turning into 2023. As I've gotten older, I've realized that I have pretty much everything I want right where I am. 

I hope 2023 is good for you. See you there.

I'm now also @[email protected] on Mastodon and <lj user="trillian_stars"> is @[email protected]

2022 becomes 2023. You may clickenzee to Embiggen.
2022 becomes 2023. You may clickenzee to Embiggen.


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One more show, one for the road. [Dec. 31st, 2022|05:18 pm]
kyle cassidy
One thing about getting up early to try and take on the grownup world is that I'm ready for bed by 7. If i dont make it until midnight ... this is still the most beautiful version of this song it's been my fortune to experience.

May your 2023 be filled with joy.








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New Photography Book! [Nov. 14th, 2022|10:22 am]
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It's been three years in the making and quite a long strange trip, but my latest book, Lopapeysa: A Knitter's Guide to Iceland with Patterns, Techniques and Travel Tips is on sale in the UK and EU. It's got LOTS of photos and it's about a really exciting and photogenic location. 

European cover of Lopapeysa
European cover of Lopapeysa
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NEW BOOK OUT! [Nov. 11th, 2022|09:19 am]
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TOP SEKRIT NO LONGER! Lopapeysa: A Knitter's Guide to Iceland with Patterns, Techniques and Travel Tips is out in the UK today. (U.S. version coming soon, but you can preorder from the usual places). It's 1/2 travel adventure, 1/2 historical mystery and 1/2 knitting book. With 12 original patterns by fiber wizard Joan of Dark (Knockdown Knits, Geek Knits, Knits for Nerds) we spent a month on the road, circumnavigating Iceland, meeting some of the O.G. women who invented this now completely ubiquitous sweater in the 1940's and '50's and talking to regular Icelanders about the power, symbolism, significance, and lets be honest, flame-blasting warmth, of this iconic piece of clothing. 

Along the way we watched volcanos erupt, glaciers becoming icebergs, and spent a lot of time soaking in hot springs. 

Come along with us while we try and unravel the mystery of who invented the Lopapeysa and make one yourself. 

European cover of Lopapapeysa. The U.S. version comes out later this month.
European cover of Lopapapeysa. The U.S. version comes out later this month.


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In Memory of Peter Straub: Part 1 [Nov. 2nd, 2022|08:20 am]
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In 2008 I'd just finished a wildly successful photo book called Armed America: Portraits of Gun Owners in Their Homes and was feeling mounting pressure to follow it up, fastly, with something equally as exciting. I'd recently met science fiction novelist Michael Swanwick at a party and had thought a book of photographs of writers in their writing spaces was a great idea for a photo book because it would let me travel and meet new people and, it was pretty much the same thing that I'd done with my last book and I felt that I'd gotten pretty good at photographing people in their houses. 

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I'm in Bangkok and it's a bit of a whirlwind.... [Oct. 22nd, 2022|10:03 am]
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In May of 2021 I got an email out the blue from a guy named Jan Kath, a high end rug maker from Germany with offices in Nepal and India and New York and, it seemed, a lot of other places. He was doing a fiber art exhibit of moderin-ish Afghan "War Rugs" — these started popping up in Afghanistan in the 1980's and depict scenes of war in a traditional fiber art from. Our local museum did an exhibit of War Rugs a few years back that I went to see. Jan wanted to use an image from Armed America to make a rug, it was a photo of Jep and Diana and Gwen and Lilly. People email me about Armed America all the time. It's the book that just keeps on going. Jan had picked an image from the book and I said it was fine with me as long as it was fine with Jep and Diana and Gwen (Lilly sadly is no longer with us) because more than anything, I don't want anybody I've photographed to feel like I've represented them in a way they're unhappy with. I contacted the family and, wouldn't you know it, they were familiar with Jan's work, even if I wasn't. So I wrote back and said go for it and went back to my life. A few months went by and I got a message from Jan that included a photo of the rug partially completed and ... sweet barking cheese ... it looked just like a photograph. Jan told me that the resolution was 200 DPI, which at life size was 19,700 x 13,800 individual knots tied by hand that made up this carpet. The weaver would consult a chart, choose a string by color and fiber, make a knot, cut the string, consult the chart, and go back and do it again. 

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9/11 [Sep. 11th, 2022|03:17 pm]
kyle cassidy

Once again I almost didn't repost these stories from 9/11, but I figured I've been doing it this long — and it's so long now — we live in a world that spun out of that morning. It seems this time like it was nearly missed — there's just so much going on in the news that 9/11 was almost a blip. Anyway, here's 9/11 and it's aftermath like I saw it back in 2001. Hope you're having a good day. 

I'm going to be doing some blog posts in the next week or so about Peter Straub who we lost last week. So stick around, or come back. 

Whichever it is, have a good day. 

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What to do when your dog is dying. [Jul. 15th, 2022|08:31 pm]
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This came in the mail and I thought that since it applies to a lot of people, I'd answer here. If the rest of you want to share your stories and your love and your support, please do in the comments. 

A reader writes:

Our dog Dolby has cancer and we don’t know how long he has left (3 months? 9 months?) do you have any advice to cope? My wife and I are just so upset and have grief. I don’t even know how To process this. I know you went through this with Roswell.

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Emily the Spider book!!!!! [Jun. 6th, 2022|10:42 am]
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[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |judas priest: defenders of the faith]

I'm kickstarting a free book about Emily the Spider!

We want to make a free book that teaches people about the amazing lives of spiders.

This is the story of a 152 day romance I had with a tiny spider on my back porch who I photographed every day for the duration of a summer. I photographed her web construction and maintenance, the myriad of things she fiercly killed and ate, her numerous attempts to have children and find a mate, and how she lived her tiny life in a space I thought of as mine, but soon came to realized belonged to her just as legitimately.

Thousands of people followed along on-line to the soap opera that was this spider's life as I posted about her on this LJ. And it was during this time photographing Emily (the spider) I met Dr. Catherine Scott, an arachnologist and behavioural ecologist whose research is focused on the behaviour and communication of black widows and other spiders and who filled in the many, many gaps in my knowledge.


I learned that Emily was an Uluborade, popularly known as a feather legged orb weaver, who are the only non-venomous spiders.




Emily the spider. You may clickenzee to embiggen.



Emily and her web design.
I learned that some spiders decorate their webs, for reasons nobody really understands, and I watched Emily do this over and over.

This narrative of the life of a spider will include my photos and observations, and genuine expert spider text from Dr. Scott and, I think, at the end of it, you'll spend more time looking at small places, finding big rewards.


I'm looking for $500 to pay Dr. Scott to write about the science of spiders. Anything above that, we'll split. The final (e) book will be available for free to anyone who wants a copy.


Kickstarter is here.


The more money we have, the more time we'll be able to spend working on this and the better it will be. We're counting on your investment to make a book that we can give away to people for free.


Here are some excerpts from the book as it exists now.
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LJ Mon Amour [Mar. 10th, 2022|11:52 am]
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[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |contemplative ]
[music |rainer Maria: catastrophe keeps us together]

LJ, if you get cut off from us, it's been a great 20 years. You've got a really clunky editor, but you've never been surpassed. Thanks Brad Fitzpatrick, you made a beautiful place where people met and fell in love with the idea of knowing each other.
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2021-2011 [Jan. 1st, 2022|02:28 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |duran duran: view to a kill]

Every year since 1999 I've been taking a self portrait a midnight. The self portrait lasts two seconds and starts in the last second of one year and ends in the first second of the next, catching a little bit of both. This year, and for the past two years actually, we spent a lot of time in the back yard. It seemed sensible to take our portrait here. Dressed in our best lockdown Zoom uniforms. Avec trillian_stars






Welcome to the new year. You may clickenzee to embiggen.







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Scott Church [Jan. 1st, 2022|01:40 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |Black Sabbath: Trashed]

Back in Ye Olden Days when I was thinking that I wanted to become a better photographer (I'd wanted to be a photographer since I was very little, but at some point I thought it would be nice to get good at it). At the time I rolled into Philadelphia, Scott Church was the photographer everybody was talking about. He had a book out. Which was pretty amazing to me. It seemed like the pinnacle of success to have a book out of your photos. He also had a posse. A gaggle of people who sort of swarmed around him, and they were always doing things. A lot of people were cos-laying photographers, Scott seemed to be really doing it.

I started going my thing and years later when I finally met Scott Church in the back room at a party in North Jersey I felt like I wasn't completely outclassed and it was nice to have a conversation with him.

A few months ago, out of the blue he emailed me and said he had a new book coming out (I think his count is nine now) and he wanted to send me a copy.

"Make Me Hate Me" is Scott's reaction to COVID-19. In a year when the pandemic just shut a lot of people down, especially creative people Scott had started thinking about what he could do instead of worrying about what he couldn't do.




Scott Church, Make me Hate Me, 2021



Scott invited people to his studio to celebrate and accept the thing they disliked most about themselves -- from scars to fat to their physical selves, Scott made beautiful images, the last one being himself, coming to terms with the body a year and a half of lockdown had left him with.

Throughout it all, Scott and his collaborators have made something beautiful out of a collection of things that are terrible, showing the gestalt of art and the power that we all have when we realize that we're all in this together.

Read more about it here.


"We can be terrible to ourselves sometimes, especially when we have nothing to do." -- Scott Church, introduction to Make Me Hate Me




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See you on the flip side. [Dec. 31st, 2021|10:26 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |nicki jaine: Auld Lang Syne]

2021 marked the first time I'd seen Nicki Jaine again in a long time, maybe ten years? One of the gifts of the pandemic were Zoom hangouts and back yard visits.

I hope that through all of this you've found good things too. This is the most beautiful version of this song it's been my fortune to experience.

May your 2021 be filled with joy.








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Melvin Van Peebles, 89 no more. [Sep. 22nd, 2021|11:38 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |melvin van peebles wid laxitive: my love belongs to you]







trillian_stars said that when I met him, I had to call him Chevalier Van Peebles because he'd been knighted in France. And he was knighted in France. Back when he started trying to make films in America in the 1960's and ran into the problems that a young, black filmmaker inevitably runs into in the U.S. Melvin heard that France paid its artists, as long as they wrote in French. So he packed his bags, moved to France and started making movies in French. And he was successful. And they knighted him.

When he opened the door of his apartment in a ritzy New York neighborhood I said "Hello Chevalier Van Peebles," and he waved me in with a cigar. I was there to photograph a cover for the Philadelphia weekly, written by Michael Gonzalez about how the badass filmmaker was still very badass and had a new band.

We bonded over running, something we'd both started in our 40's, and art, and movies.

I eventually asked where he kept his suit of armor and he showed me his knighthood, he kept it in the closet. Like everybody in New York does.








I took photos, Michael interviewed, the band played. You meet a lot of people as a photographer and most of them you photograph and you leave and later you have the photos. Melvin was one of those rare people who turned into a friend. He loved what he did, and he loved that he was able to use his cache to help other people.

He called a few weeks later and suggested that he and the band should crash at my house while they were in Philly. Which sounded like a tremendous idea. I took Melvin to our local diner where he tried politely, though legitimately, to pick up the 20 year old waitress for the duration of our brunch.







Melvin watched the movie that trillian_stars had just made, A Doll's House drank a couple of bottles of wine with a cat on his lap and told us stories of Hollywood. The one that sticks in my mind is that when he was making Watermelon Man, (his breakthrough 1970 comedy about a racist white guy who wakes up one morning to discover he's Black,) Columbia Pictures wanted him to cast a white actor to play the role in blackface. Melvin said "why should someone be in makeup for 90% of the movie? Why don't I cast a black actor to wear whiteface for 12 minutes of screen time? And the studio executive twisted his face and said "Can a Black actor do that?!" Melvin said (to us) "They always think that the prince can play the pauper but that the pauper can never play the prince."







The film was a success but Melvin had enough of that and set out on his own where he wouldn't have to listen to people like that. He spent the rest of his life in indie cinema and was a huge inspiration to me in college. The thing I learned from him when I was 20 was that it's better to do something not as polished if you don't have to ask people you don't respect for money. It's been a guiding light of nearly ever creative project I've undertaken since then. Melvin found his own money, he found his own cast -- he wrote, he directed, he acted and he was a success. At a time when Hollywood thought that nobody would go to see a movie with a largely Black cast and a Black hero who fights a corrupt police force and wins, Melvin helped break open Hollywood like a teapot.

Another of the things I found remarkable about him was just how kind he was and pleasant to be around.

A few months after the magazine came out, I got a call from editor Stephen Segal saying that we'd been nominated for two Keystone Press awards, one for my cover photo, and one for his layout of the article. (We won both of them. I keep the award on my desk and a giant copy of the photo on the wall in our living room.)







Right at this very moment, there's an unsent letter to him on our mail table that I keep thinking I need to put a stamp on that.

If you have a letter like that on your mail table, send it tomorrow.

Mikel Banks, Jared Nickerson, Bruce Mack, André Lassalle, Chris Eddelton, and especially Paula Henderson, my heart is with you today.




































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9/11 [Sep. 11th, 2021|08:51 pm]
kyle cassidy
I almost didnt repost this link to my 9/11 memories. I just feel fatigued. I didn't turn on the radio today or look at the news. But I've been linking to them for two decades now. So.

Hope you're all feeling well.

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Trillian Stars has a new movie [Aug. 18th, 2021|06:17 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |metallica: master of puppets]

trillian_stars used her lockdown to do a couple of things, one of which was to make a movie about novelist Mary Shelley. It's opening on the 30th of August on Shelley's birthday. You can watch it in the comfort of your home, or, if you're in Philly, you might be able to watch it at a special party in our back yard.

Trailer and link to tickets below.



Mary Shelley: Strange Star
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Watch the trailer here:










(Also: Hi everybody!)
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Portraits [Jun. 9th, 2021|02:22 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |solstafir]

I've been collecting masks for more than a year now, using them in portraits of doctors and nurses and essential workers. But the masks themselves, because of their disposable nature and incredible variety, have a beauty all of their own like Hilla and Bernd Becher's photographs of water towers. So much the same, and yet so different.








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During this pandemic I feel that I can see the angel wings on some people whose feathers are deeds [May. 3rd, 2021|11:07 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |Jo Beth Young, Mechanical Ballerina]

"When you give someone Narcan, you’re touching them, and in the early days of COVID when I saw someone going out I didn’t think about putting on gloves, my first response was to get to that person and give them Narcan and check on them and then after it was over it would dawn on me, Did I take the necessary precautions? Did I touch my face? Did I sanitize my hands? And in the rush of the moment you don’t think about those things because your priority and your objective is to get to that person and help them. In those instances you’re not thinking about yourself, you’re thinking about that person who’s on the verge of dying.
"My father died from an overdose, by himself, and sat in a room for three days. Alone. I never wanted anyone to experience that, or feel like no one cared if they lived or died. I never wanted anyone who overdosed to be alone, and unfortunately that’s not how these tend to happen. You can give people Narcan in hopes they use it, you can reverse an overdose and tell that person to be careful and inform people if they’er using just to be safe, but many times it doesn’t happen this way. You never know if someone who overdoses will make it. So I wasn’t thinking too much about my safety, I was thinking I have to make sure that this person lives. I have to do everything possible with my being to make sure this person has a fighting chance. COVID and all—this person has to make it."


Jose Caraballo is a Harm Reduction Specialist with the Philadelphia Department of Public Health, working with people experiencing homelessness and substance use disorder in the Kensington area of Philadelphia.


April 29, 2021 — 403 days after the stay at home order







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Leica M10, TTArtisans 21mm f1.5 Sunpak 622 flash. Printed through a discarded surgical mask.

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thanks [Apr. 23rd, 2021|08:47 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |Jo Beth Young, Mechanical Ballerina]

So we made a movie! And it's 90 minutes long and playing during Philadelphia's Theater Week. trillian_stars plays Nora's friend Christine Linde.

Here's the trailer for the thing.

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We're making a movie! [Feb. 15th, 2021|12:30 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |The Doll's House]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |Jo Beth Young, Temples]

trillian_stars and I are making a movie. We wrote an original adaptation of Henrik Ibsen's A Doll's House set to take place in 2020 during lockdown.

The Kickstarter for it is here. We'd love it if you signed up to get a copy of the movie for $15 and we'd also love it if you'd share with your friends.


COVID-19 shut down the theater industry overnight. Venues closed their doors, laid off workers and actors put their careers on hold. We knew that the power of theater was something sorely needed during quarantine when we seek intimate connections, powerful stories and shared experiences with others. So in April of 2020 we started planning a transition; thinking of theatrical performances we could still do utilizing the skills and technology we had access to to bring timeless stories to audiences. What if we could take the production of Ibsen's A Doll's House that we were planning on performing and adapt it to take place not in 1879, but in 2020? What if we could view our limitations as challenges?



Watch the trailer here



This movie version of Henrik Ibsen's A Doll's House is set during the middle of the COVID19 pandemic. Ibsen's story of a woman awakening in and breaking out from an oppressive world translates well to our time. This original adaptation puts Nora, Torvald, Dr. Rank, Krogstad and Christine Linde in lockdown as they try to lead their lives against a background of isolation, infection, heartbreak and survival. While this takes place in a Zoom-like environment, it's not filmed on Zoom, but is a fully realized production filmed in HD and edited by award-winning filmmaker Anna Gamarnik. Anna has created a virtual environment both similar to and better than the ones we're used to, in order to create the best experience for the viewer.

The original soundtrack was written by British singer/songwriter Jo Beth Young (jobethyoung.com).

Thanks everybody. Hope to see you all on the other side of this pandemic.





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thanks [Jan. 1st, 2021|07:12 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |Molly Robison, "Roswell"]

For, geez, twenty one years now I've been taking a 2 second exposure that begins in the last second of one year and ends in the first second of the new year. 2020 was quite a year.

Let's hope 2021 brings joy.




2020 turns into 2021. You may clickenzee to embiggen.
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also... [Dec. 31st, 2020|06:36 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |Nicki Jaine: Auld Lang Syne]

I've been posting it for like 17 years or so now. But if you're going to listen to Auld Lang Syne tonight, listen to this one. It's beautiful, and you will be haunted.


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thanks [Dec. 31st, 2020|05:49 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |Molly Robison, "Roswell"]

One beautiful thing that came from 2020 is that Molly Robison wrote this song about giving your whole heart away to someone you know is going to die. She wrote it about Roswell and about her mom, who also passed away. It's the most, heartfelt wonderful piece of music I've heard all year and I think it can be the mood of 2020. We can look at it as the year that defeated us, or we can look at it as a year of remembering and appreciating the things we had and the love we hope we'll one day have again.

If you like the song, I encourage you to share this and to buy it from her website.

"And while it hurts to think of you not being here
And the time we have still remains unclear
I'll still love you as well as I can, my dear
'Cause it's folly trying to know what's next
We'll stay happy and then we'll make up the rest
Can't guarantee it won't hurt, but I'll try my best"

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9/11 again [Sep. 11th, 2020|02:59 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[music |the fan rattling away]

My posts about 9/11 are now twenty years old. It's hard to think. And that I've had this blog for that long. There are three posts, one from the Pentagon the week of the attacks, one from the World Trade Center site, and one from Shanksville PA, slightly later. There are adults now who weren't born when this happened. It's weird to think that.


You can read them here.
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I've missed so much. [Aug. 5th, 2020|10:59 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]
[music |the fan rattling away]

Of all the art from this campaign -- well, there's so much of it that's transcendent, but this one hit me particularly hard. It's beautiful. Not sure if it should end up as an audio drama, as a comic book, or as a little, tiny chapbook.... (Drawing by Rebekka_Guðleifsdóttir)


By Jane-Rebecca Cannarella


The Sunrise and Stabatha

Two dragons lived in a nest at the top of the Provident Mutual Life Insurance Building, curled fire around a burrow of treasure in the dome of an abandoned neoclassical palace. Licks of living flames collecting scoops from every corner, dipping down onto West Philadelphia streets for their thieving. Building a pile from the pilfered glow to use as a pillow on 46th and Market.

They only had one child after generations of trying, a spigot of fire who smoldered like hiccups off a hearth. Their daughter was born during a spring storm, hail in every strand of her black and white fur, eyes yellow just like her parents. A preening princess, the kind of little kitten who only ever wanted to wear her Sunday best; she napped on the stone scales of the dragons. She chased the fireflies who lived in the treasure piles.

Stabatha was a Viking in feline form: a magical dagger of a cat.

***



Drawing by Rebekka_Guðleifsdóttir, you can click to make it larger.


The ghost pepper night of June 2020, the heat was a clumsy tiger pawing the dragons’ daughter into waking. In the stifling warmth of the evening, her stomach rattled like stone soup. And the want for wandering comes from being a beast born from slumbering stone-backed dragons.

Mischief is a lure that calls little cats out of their beds during very hot nights. Stabatha left the dragons, and their treasure, and the dome’s disrepair. Past the graffitied walls with the tags from people she knew as friends, past the corpse of a gazebo with a gutted turret, past the Aldi where she always forgot to bring her quarter for the shopping cart. She walked down the block from a haunted house obscured by a copse of black cherries, trees-of-heaven, oaks, and juneberries. She stopped to smell something interesting at 43rd and Baltimore, which turned out to be a discarded muffin that helped a bit with her hunger.

After touseling crumbs out of whiskers shaped like fishing line, she saw a quail loose in Clark Park looking for its covey. A loom of a voice rustled out of the pastel throat, and Stabatha darted into the grasses chasing the chip chip chip of the bird’s greeting.

She pursued the bird past the Gettysburg Stone, past the chessplayers, and through a meadow-y field where cloaked LARPers fought with foam swords--stopping briefly to hiss a ribbon of smoke at the pretend knights. The quail landed on the statue of Charles Dickens with his niece Nell, a collection in a curiosity shop.

So much stillness at the statue.

The covey: each bird a petal falling from a bouquet among the bronze, feathered flowers of the sky, and Stabatha: the daughter of fire monsters. Forever dressed for a feast with a belly made for volume, Stabatha swallowed each member of the flock whole, holding them in the home of her body.

***
She smoothed the down of her fancy white bib while the brood roosted in the wetness, a mottling collection of Jonahs calling to each other in the body of a whale-cat: chi-ca-go.

Stabatha sat on Charles Dicken and wet her lips.

In the damp of the humidity with a body full of poultry, she fell asleep on the weathered patina that reminded Stabatha so much of the armored flakes of parents’ backs. Eyes hot behind the closed lids, twitching.

***

The sweat of an almost morning woke Stabatha up in the den of Dicken’s lap, and she circled her ears and brightened her eyes to adjust to wakefulness. In the terracotta of a soon-to-be-dawn, Stabatha watched with backyard telescope eyes a moving silhouette, the atmosphere in motion.

A boy in jeans stood atop the back of chestnut gelding with a Sixers flag in one hand, the palm of his other extended to the sky; inhaling and exhaling with the shadowy lights of a day turning into itself. His feet in a climber’s pose, sure and adjusting to the mountain of the horse’s back, the calm that comes with welcoming. Strands of braided gold reached through the air, the universe’s necklaces.

In her looking, Stabatha could swear she saw the Milky Way’s eternity in the height of the moment while the darkness of night fell away like a heavy mantle--the same as the ones actors wore during twilighted evenings in that very same park who spoke words that sounded like words but not quite.

The flag rippled: small waves adjoining the distance between landlock and the sea. Peeking bright light crawled gently out of a dark socket, the exact kind of riches her parents’ loved to steal.

The earth moves the most in the morning, and the boy and the horse stood surefooted against the spinning, bringing the sun to rise. And only Stabatha with her throat full of game was there to see how the sun comes to her seat in the sky above Philadelphia, brought to her place in the heavens by a boy in jersey standing on a horse, Sixers flag in hand.

***

Horsemanship against the cement and cinder of buildings and sprigs of spicebushes; the day was carried to the city by the magic of a child atop a horse. After his task was completed, the boy on the gelding left the park for the sleep that comes with the silence of stables. Flag sailing out behind them.


***

So much flying in and all around her, Stabatha trotted back to 46th street. Past the apartments piped like cakes with pink and green, past the ghosts going back to sleep in the cemetery, past the trucks coming in overflowing with produce to park on 43rd street.


In the canopy of the dome, her parents greeted her back, anxious to hear where she’d been. Their lizard heads crossed like a heart, twined like pretzels. Yellow eyes met yellow eyes. And Stabatha, the story of how the sun rises above their burnished home--another golden glow for her parents to desire--was alive in her body.

Jittery with myth, Stabatha had a plan to steal the sun from the morning conjurer to keep their vault golden and warm like an electric blanket. How she would scare the boy’s horse to distract him from his magic, and then her parents could capture the golden disk of day.

Another treasure for them to take for pillow and pile.

Instead, when Stabatha opened her mouth to trill her tale, devious schemes for the fire family, squills and squawks escaped. Every time she parted her lips: a screech. The dragon parents shook their head at the pips while Stabatha put her paw to her neck and felt the interrupting companions; no throat clearing could push them out. A meal awry, alive within her.

The covey of quails in Stabatha’s roosted throat spoke from the hollow: chip chip chip.

Chip chip chip. Chip chip chip


Loud and pure-tuned the noise continued while the sun shone on each of the dragons’ scales.
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thanks [Jul. 30th, 2020|04:10 pm]
kyle cassidy
[mood |gratefulgrateful]

I'm grateful to Jesse Nicole who wrote this essay about experiencing homelessness with cats in honor of Stabatha. You can follow Jesse on Twitter here.



By Jesse Nicole

You can know that you are going to lose one of your best friends, but I don't think you can ever be fully prepared for when it actually happens. Don't worry, this may be a bittersweet story, but i'd like to think that it is still, in its own way, a happy one.

I had 3 kitties- all rescues from when they were babies. Missy, the eldest, died very suddenly when she was 15 years old. I was devastated and shocked, but when I looked back at the events of that day, I realized that although I did not get to say goodbye to her, per se, she had, in fact, said goodbye to me, in her very unique, Missy-esque way, and I will always be grateful for that.
After having just Missy and I for a while, Frankie came along. He was no more than 3 weeks old, and abandoned. I had to bottle feed him and I was not sure he was going to make it, but I was determined to try and save this tiny boobieman. I think It was really the other way around.

Maybe a year later, Whisper showed up on my doorstep, maybe 6 weeks old. Welcome to the family, tiny, quiet void kitteh!...Oh, but she did not stay quiet for long at all!

These furbabies were (are) my best buds and a huge part of my life. I have had multiple surgeries, and they ALWAYS knew where they could and couldn't step/jump/nuzzle on my body when I got home. They were always so gentle, my little feline nurses!

I became homeless in December of 2019 and am SO thankful that I had friends who were able to take Frankie and Whisper in together til I finally found a place for the 3 of us to live. That took close to a years, and I was miserable without them, but happy that they were safe and well- loved by their aunties!
I have type one diabetes, and I called Frankie my "feline CGM" (Continuous Glucose Monitor) because he would alert me to a crashing blood sugar before my actual CGM device would. I don't know how he did it, but he did. without fail, and right up through his ending days. I am convinced that he was trying to teach Whisper to do the same, because she doesn't do it as regularly, but she does do it. It's quite amazing, really...

Anyway, we discovered that Frankie had a mass on his left hind paw and he was losing some weight right before he came back to stay with me. The vet said it was time, but I could tell that it wasn't and we got a 2nd opinion. He definitely still had life left in him, and I am forever grateful for that time.
We were told in September that it was time, and he was with us til early April... but at this point, we were fully in pandemic mode. Even when I brought him to the vet for a check-up, I wasn't able to be there to hold and comfort him. How could I take him to "say goodbye" and not be able to hold him, to rock him, to cry my eyes out? Not possible.

Thankfully, I was granted the opportunity to have a home visit for this, so I was able to be right there with him, and talk to him and tell him that I love him and thank him for being the best boy in the world. I am forever grateful for this. I know that not eveyone has the chance to say goodbye, and I am glad that I got to- because Frankie would have been 18 a couple of weeks ago, so really it was almost half of my entire life that I had him...that we had each other.

Now it is just me and Whisper against the world. Whisper is almost 17 and she definitely spent time being confused and wondering where her brother went. Sometimes i feel like he is still here with us, by the way she acts... she is such a good girl. She is such a weirdo and I love her. We are still in this pandemic at the time of this writing, and I have no idea when it will end, but I am super grateful for my purry, noisy, little floofy girl.
Losing our fuzzy family members is never easy, but once you can get past the sorrow and pain (and that can take a while, and THAT IS OKAY, NOBODY CAN TELL YOU HOW LONG TO GRIEVE) then you can start focusing on the good times, the funny things, the silliness, the smiles, the funny noises they made- any number of things that your sorrow made you cry about... now you can smile again.
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thanks [Feb. 9th, 2020|01:42 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |Peter Murphy: Crystal Wrists]

What if Maggie Fox and Charles Dickens teamed up to fight ghosts?

I found myself thinking that a couple of weeks ago when I did photos for the new Hedgerow Theatre production of "The Haunting" by Hugh Janes. It's based on some plays of Charles Dickens and I thought "well, why not do the photos like they were done at the time Dickens was alive?" and then "Why not do them as though they're the very photos that inspired Dickens to write these stories?" -- so, with way more backstory than is ever necessary, I set about to do that.

You can see the rest and buy prints of the photos here, which offsets the cost of Hedgerow having to pay me to do them. This allows me to work with smaller theaters with smaller budgets.

They look like this.....





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Mike Resnick [Jan. 9th, 2020|07:45 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]

I was sorry to hear of the passing of Science Fiction titan Mike Resnick. He was one of the first really famous writers who said "yes" when I wanted to photograph people in the places that they wrote. This isn't where he wrote, but it was next to it. I was always interested in seeing everybody's collection of Hugo's too, obviously. He had a beautiful library and a really nice house out in the woods. He was nice to me although he really had no reason to be. His daughter, Laura, who's also a novelist, was very nice to me too and I'm glad to still know her.





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Between the Years [Jan. 1st, 2020|11:47 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |auld lang syne]

Since 1999/2000 I've been taking two second long self portrait that begins one second before midnight and ends one second after midnight, joining the two years and my own journey from year to year.

Here's 2019 transitioning into 2020




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thanks [Dec. 9th, 2019|08:06 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |gratefulgrateful]

I was saddened last night to hear of the death of Rene Auberjonois. He was one of the people who agreed early on to be in Geek Knits the book I did with Joan of Dark. His signing on was crucial for the book to be treated seriously. He was delightful to work with and I'm grateful for his time.





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Today was the last Roswell Day, but that's fine. [Dec. 2nd, 2019|09:13 pm]
kyle cassidy
[mood |gratefulgrateful]

Roswell has left the building.

But don't be sad. This is still a very happy story.

This morning Roswell had a very swift downturn and she was purring and with us when she died, thirteen and a half years after she showed up on the back porch, filthy and with her eyes swollen shut. Over the years she was a thing that absorbed, amplified, and radiated unconditional love, and I'll miss her. I'm only sad for selfish reasons and I'm only sad a little bit. Mostly I'm grateful -- not so much for the time we had together -- but rather the time we had together knowing that the clock was running out. I'm so grateful that we had the time to live those days as though each one was the last. And I'm glad for how much she was able to impact other people's lives for the better in the time she had.

All in all there were 379 Roswell Days, each one the best day of her life filled with love and attention and, occasionally, food. I don't feel the need to memorialize her because I did that a year ago when I thought she was going to die.

In the past year, she's had people come from Scotland, from California, from Florida, from Canada, from Oregon, from Kentucky, and from just down the street to say hello and goodbye and make her feel special. She survived life on the streets, meningitis, diabetes, asthma, and cancer. She was a very lucky cat who stretched all of those nine lives as far as possible.




One of the first photos of Roswell after she came in, July of 2006.
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How to be a better Cat Dat

I spent a lot of time in her last year wondering how I could do better by her and these are what I'm left with.

1) (most important) Never be mad at anything just because it loves you. When claws go into your leg, when someone wakes you up by sitting on your head, when someone wants to be picked up, when someone follows you around mewping or claws your nose at 5 am, don't get impatient, don't shout, don't push. Remember that's all they have to say they want to be with you.

2) Never leave a meow or a tap unanswered. If you can't reach out and touch them right away because you're carrying dishes, answer with your words and follow up with a touch when you can.

3) All requests for petting must be answered with petting. This is meows, leg rubbing, lap sitting.

4) The minimum amount of time for petting is 10 seconds. Count to ten. Don't scritch & go. There will be some day you'd give a lot for ten more seconds. Enjoy it now.

5) Always make space and recognize when she wants to be with you. When you're on the sofa, or in the comfy chair, or at the computer; make space. I put a chair next to my computer chair for Roswell to sit in, it's pushed right up next to mine so we touch. If she climbs up on the keyboard, I put her on the chair. She's happy enough.

6) Always be thinking "Can I make her happier? Can I make her life better?" She's a cat. She can't do stuff on her own, like open cans or turn on the Youtube Birds Eating Seeds channel. Sometimes you need to intervene.

7) Never use your size or fear to get what you want. Don't chase her away from something -- a table, a dish, a door, -- rather give her a reason to come to you. You should always be the thing of love, never the thing of fear.

8) When it's time to go, it's time to go. Don't linger on the last decision because you can't imagine life without them. Imagine instead their life without pain.

Remembering Roswell

On the anniversary of her cancer diagnosis we threw her a party which we called Day of Gluttony, Night of 1000 Cans where we invited some of her friends to come over, bring their favorite foods, and celebrate by eating. Roswell got to eat as many cans as she wanted and we livestreamed the whole thing. Six hundred people tuned in to watch.

I think this is a great way to remember her. You can watch it here. It's the best party I've ever been to.





If you want to do something to memorialize her and you can, adopt or foster a cat. If you can't do that, you can click here to donate to City Kitties the group that helped her when she was a kitten. If you can't do that -- make every day a Happy Roswell Day for a person or animal in your life. You can also get some Roswell art from M.C. Matz and think of her every morning while you drink coffee.

Have a Roswell Life everyone.

Thanks for being a part of our lives. If you have a favorite Roswell story or an idea about how people can do good in the world, let us know in the comments.



Hayley Rosenblum videotaped Roswell eating some nori earlier this year.





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Updates [Nov. 6th, 2019|12:55 pm]
kyle cassidy
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]

Roswell seems to be doing ok, almost a year out from her diagnosis. So yaay. trillianstars just finished starring in Tartouff at Hedgerow and has some time off. This Saturday, November 9th, we're party of the marathon reading of Moby Dick at the Independence Seaport Museum. Trillian and I are reading chapter 17, The Ramadan, we start at 5:00 I think. Maybe we'll see you there.
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Just stuff [Sep. 17th, 2019|09:59 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |babymetal: karate]

Things have been tooling along pretty well. Roswell is still with us -- fat and happy and doesn't seem to know she has cancer. So we're taking every day as it comes and celebrating each moment we get together.

Couple of book projects in the works mostly all of which are at places in development where they're out of my hands right now, so I don't really know what to do with myself.

I did go see Babymetal and they were awesome.

Apart from that, not much to report.




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September 11th will come every year forever. [Sep. 11th, 2019|03:56 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]

My posts about 9/11 are now ninteen years old. It's hard to think. And that I've had this blog for that long. There are three posts, one from the Pentagon the week of the attacks, one from the World Trade Center site, and one from Shanksville PA, slightly later. I think the thing I wonder most now, after all this, is if you could ask those hijackers now, "do you think you made things better?" What would they say?


You can read them here.
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Happy Roswell Day [Feb. 9th, 2019|05:10 pm]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the sofa, with roswell]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]

Just a quick update, Roswell's still around and happy. Her "six week" prognosis seems to have been a little off. We're still spending every day though as if it was her last. Getting in lots of love and lots of time in front of the fireplace snuggling.

That is all.

kyle
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thanks [Jan. 23rd, 2019|07:56 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |The Antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |Slash & Miles Kennedy - "too far gone"]

First off -- Roswell's still kicking. She seems to have no idea that she has cancer. So that's good. Lots of people have been coming to visit her.

In other news ...

Top Sekrit No Longer! Tomorrow, Mütter Museum, be part of the studio audience for the live taping of our podcast MOVIE vs EXPERT, a podcast where we watch movies with experts and separate fact from fiction. Tomorrow co-host Mikey Mongol & I are subjecting Mütter Museum curator Anna Dhody to the 1997 museum monster film THE RELIC. $20 includes AFTER HOURS ADMISSION TO THE MUSEUM. See the soap lady without all the crowd. Light snacks / cash bar!

Get tickets here




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Happy New Roswell Year! [Jan. 6th, 2019|11:01 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |The Antipodes]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |Car Seat Headrest]

So, 2018 passed inevitably into 2019 and, for the 19th year in a row, I took a two-second long self portrait that begins in one year and ends in the next. You can find most (or all of them) by just looking for the January 1 entry on this blog for various years.

On the one hand, it's impressive how sedentary we've become in some ways -- it's not that we don't go out to party anywhere for new years as much as we have trouble even staying up until midnight anymore.

However, in our defense, we've done a lot this year. I wrote 44,000 words about the history of the invention of the payphone for an upcoming book, trillian_stars wrote a play about Mary Shelley (which she's performing right now on tour). Trillian also played Medea, one of her dream roles, and went to Norway to research Ibsen, Armed America was exhibited in a museum in Germany, I wrote my column for Videomaker magazine -- I gave a lecture at Tarletan State University and I think they'll have me back this year for a longer engagement.

But we pretty much don't leave the house for parties anymore.

Roswell seems pretty good -- she doesn't know she has cancer. She's had a lot of visitors -- people came from as far away as Seattle and Georgia and even Scotland to visit and bring her treats.

We've started a writers retreat where you can sit in our house and work on your book while we're away and have Roswell sit on your lap and "help". It's been nice seeing novelists and playwrights and the like getting to spend some time with Roswell trying to lay on their notebooks.

All in all, 2018 was a pretty good year for us. I hope yours was too, and I hope 2019 is even better.






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DMV [Dec. 17th, 2018|04:55 am]
kyle cassidy
[Current Location |the antipodes]

So ... I was in the DMV the other day, getting my driver's license renewed. It was packed, and incredibly inefficient. They only took money orders. No checks, no credit cards, no paypal, none of the trappings of the late 20th century had permeated the air of that place. I'd been there about an hour waiting for my number to show up on a screen when an old guy in a wheelchair came in, being pushed by his daughter. They sat next to me. He was wearing a USMC hat and had an eagle globe and anchor tattooed on his forearm and -- since I'm interested in military tattoos, I asked him about it and he started talking about his time in the military. He'd spent most of his time in Okinawa but spent six months in Vietnam towards the end of the 1960's. He was far from the front and felt relatively safe, if not bored. He pulled a lot of guard duty and spent a lot of time standing around. At some point things were getting stolen from the base at an alarming rate -- people were somehow climbing over or the fences and burglarizing storage facilities, taking food, car parts, blankets, anything. They put up signs that said something to the effect of "keep out trespassers will be shot" and eventually they put up guard towers and they put guards in the towers armed with shotguns and he was one of these guards. They told him "if you see anybody, tell them to identify themselves or you'll shoot and if they don't identify themselves, shoot." One night this gentleman was up in the guard tower and he saw a shadow moving between two quonset huts and he said "Identify yourself or I'll shoot" and the shadow didn't identify itself, but started running and he thought "they told me to shoot," so he fired his shotgun and heard a cry -- immediately he wondered if they meant shoot if someone was running away or only shoot if they didn't run away -- all of this while he quickly climbed down the tower and ran over -- there was blood on the ground but no body. Other Marines arrived quickly and searched the area but didn't find anything.

"There's never been a day since then," he said, "sometimes when I'm at home and there's a sudden lull in conversation or maybe I'll be about to get on a bus or I'll look down at the sidewalk ... but there's never a day when I don't think about that person I shot, who he was, and what happened to him."
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