this is definitely the black death. or something. i'm miserable. except i'm thrilled because not only did i get a second interview with lush but this is my last day at the terrible horrible no good very bad placement full of conservative homophobes. HOO FUCKING RAAAAAAAAAAY. so, okay, money might suck a little for a few weeks, but i did get all my bills for september scheduled and paid, and i don't have any plans to travel for a few weeks which is insanely lucky. so i can just kind of lay low for a while. which, NGL, will be really nice. i've been killing myself at this place for months and could use some time to refocus myself and figure out like, the loan business, and how i'm going to go forward with a job search. tonight i'll check postings at colleges and stuff, and maybe the providence journal job postings too. an application to best buy and borders are also in my future-- something that can transfer when i move.

in any case, i'm optimistic. i feel awesome right now (emotionally, lol). now to finish out this day and go home and celebrate. \o/ and WRITE, oh my god. :"D

THIS IS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW.



THAT IS ALL.


despite the fact i just found out that i don't work the week of june 29th b/c the plant is shutting down.... that's not so awesome, but i'll make it work. might be broke for the entirety of july, but nothing i haven't handled before. :3 :3 :3

it figures, i haven't posted in ages and the first thing i put up is a meme. but it's a good one!

Give me a character from any fandom, TV show, movie, book you know that I know I've written and I will tell you:

a. My favorite thing about that character.
b. My least favorite thing about that character.
c. One person I would ship them with in their own verse.
d. One crossover ship for them I think would be neat.
e. One crossover universe for them I think would be even neater.
f. Their ship from hell.
g. Their song.
h. The title of their biography or autobiography.
i. The last bad dream they had.
j. How they're gonna shuffle off the mortal coil, if they haven't already.

usual fandoms apply; check my icons/interests if you're unsure, or just give me choices. i'm going to be packing tonight for my Weekend of Awesome^(TM) so i'll need distractions-- also from the fact that my mother is currently sort of not speaking to me, or at least is very annoyed b/c apparently despite the fact that this trip has been planned since OH I DON'T KNOW, FEBRUARY, she missed the memo that i was going to be away from thursday night to monday night-- and now is doing that "you can afford to take time off work?" thing at me. yes mom, yes i can, because my job fucking loves me and i can handle it. ugh. i mean sure i don't have as much money as i'd like to for the weekend, but i have ENOUGH-- like, i might be broke at the end of it, but wtf-ever, i have scheduled all my bills for the next three weeks and i'm totally fine, so, whatever.

i'm currently reading the court of the air by stephen hunt and it is fucking OWNING me. gyah. oh steampunk, how do you manage to be so consistently awesome.

i got my hair cut short again for the first time in a year (holy crap, seriously, last time i had it cut short was june 27th last year) and i am SO FUCKING HAPPY ABOUT IT. it's funny that it was becky who convinced me i should cut it-- she said "i feel about your hair the way i feel about starbuck's-- when it's long, it looks great and really pretty and feminine, but then she cuts it off and you're just like BAM, YEAH." -- and that's a direct quote, lol. it makes me laugh a) because she clearly knows the easy way to flatter me, and b) the irony, given how obsessed she is with being "pretty" -- but i guess she also knows me well enough to know that that's not an adjective i've ever given a shit about having applied to me, so, there you go. XD i feel pretty fucking badass with the new 'do though (see icon, lmao).

sigh. okay. time to eat something, and then to pack. my list is *prodigious*. :"D

crossposted to dreamwidth.

ugh, i just got really anxious and depressed about this placement ending in 2 weeks. --well two and a half, but bleh, close enough. i've got to talk to the office boss today or tomorrow about this.... it's not like this is my dream job, but i really like it here, and they like me, and i can do the work-- i know what they want from me, you know? that was a big problem with honda, it was like, i know i'm doing a good job, but they had all these stupid rules and measures by which they determined if i was living up to their standards, and naturally the people who were actually good at the job weren't always the people who measured up to the standard. and god, after the bullshit that happened at northwestern, i'm so over jobs where the bosses won't be straightforward about what they need. >.>;;;;; and i'm just really tired of this, of always being the new kid in town, and the uncertainty is such a killer.

so keep your fingers crossed for me guys. i'm really hoping this will pull through.

on the plus side though, yesterday was an awesome day. like, i was really in a good mood all day long. i wrote, i made tonight's dinner ahead of time, i did some tr plotting -- minimal tagging, but that's what tonight's going to be for. so, hooray. hopefully i can shake this anxiety BS and get that mood back again, it was a really nice feeling. :}

just did an ickle friends cut, mostly if i couldn't remember the last time they'd commented on my entries or i had in theirs, and/or their journals had been inactive for ages. but as usual, if i defriended you and you wanna be refriended, just say the word. :)

i so cannot wait to get the fuck out of work. i hate that this job is just mindless enough for me to tweet and sometimes post random inane things, but definitely way too stressful for me to write or tag during work. bleh. but it's a job and i'm doing pretty well at it, if i do say so myself. gonna talk to the boss-man next week about possibility of permanent hiring.... despite horrible ignorant woman (who i haven't seen since last week, FTW) everyone else here is really nice, and like i said, i'm good at the job. i could do a hell of a lot worse.

but christ, has it been busy this week. and today i got my period AND had like, a double load of crap to take care of. the next half hour cannot pass fast enough. >.<;;;;;;;;;;;;


eta : i love my star trek mood theme!! :"} it's by wickedground and stormfronticons.... it is AWESOME. XD

still replying to all the awesome things people said for me in tarie's love meme - overwhelming, y'all, seriously. ;;;o__o;;; <333333

i am *drowning* in tags. in a good way, like, right now i am so so so so excited about every single thing i have going on. i have PLOT, for chrissakes, and new prospects surfacing on several counts, and i still have so much to DO this week, but omg, being busy is gooooooooood. also, this isn't often true, but my RP writing and my other writing are actually running parallel to each other in terms of productivity and creativity. i like it.

contrariwise.org is a blog of literary tattoos. surfing this shit is dangerous; i now want to cover my entire body in quotes. not that that's terribly different than my normal state of being, but now i actually have examples of how awesome word tattoos can actually look. :x lheena and linaeloisetook, this one made me think of you guys. aaaaaand i'm pretty much in love with the idea behind this one, and if i ever get my ass in school, i will totally consider something similar, probably not w/HP, but idk. it's awesome to ponder, though. XD

and my placement at this data entry job is ending on friday, about a month and a half sooner than expected. this is upsetting only in that it tweaks my anxiety, wondering if i did anything to make them cut me over one of the other temps, but the others have been there since september so if they were going to cut one it makes sense for them to cut the one who's only been there seven weeks.... but still. >.>;;; after the shit that went down at northwestern and at honda, i'm super paranoid. anyway, it's okay, because i'll be moving to another placement at brown university in about a week and a half / two weeks, one that isn't just dumbass data entry, one that will hopefully let me use my brains a bit. also, in a way cooler part of the city, literally on top of thayer st. which is kind of my favorite place to hang out, so, that's awesome, and it pays almost $2/hour better than this. i just hope they call me back today to confirm that i've gotten it; this agency has offered me stuff this juicy before only to retract it later, so, plz keep fingers crossed that i get a lucky break on this one. :|

also, mom and i played hooky from work yesterday. it was awesome... i really needed it, we did a bunch of stuff, and it was just nice to hang out and kind of have a free pass day.... weekends we always have Things To Do, and it was great to just sort of... idk, even though we were running errands for a lot of the day, it felt v. relaxing. and we went to a pampered chef party at night, which was also awesome, and she's going to be hosting one for her work friends in may. she bought some really cool stuff, i'm quite excited for the mail to come next week, lol.

oof, hunger, and it's only 10:15. guess this is what happens when i get up early enough to exercise and then only eat a piece of toast with peanut butter for b'fast. >.>;;;;;
♥

omfg, i cannot believe the weather right now. i just sat in my car for lunch with the goddamn windows open - BOTH of them - and a sleeveless shirt on. why does it have to go back to being thirty degrees next week?? D: D: D: it needs to be spring, stat.

also-- data entry might be boring as all hell, but *damn* i am glad to be working again!

just for posterity, i have to record that last week honda terminated my placement with them with no warning, after nine months of killing myself working for them. the moral of the story is, when you find out one of your supervisors is prejudiced against you, cut your losses and hit the road. gah.

well i've been in RI for the past week chilling with my mom, catching up on nine months of visits crammed into 48 hours or less, so that's been really nice. i fell down the stairs this morning, which wasn't so nice, but hey, it's been a while since i hurt myself doing something stupid, so i figure i was due for one, lol.

one day till i get oimizza, rinlage and douxquemiel descending on me for the weekend, not to mention all the usual suspects. i'm quite excited, i gotta say. it's been a long time since i had a birthday party.... and my track record with them means there'll probably be some really great pictures going up on facebook come monday morning. XD

o god it is so nice to have all my icons back. it's also nice to have corn cakes from whole foods (super yum) and a bottle of very nice chardonnay-- gotta love WFM's weekly buy knocking $5 off the price, or else i'd probably be drinking yellow tail, lol.

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and the chaos of finding housemates is also ongoing.... we have 3 nailed down, 2 guys and an older woman artist with an adorable chihuahua she rescued from hurricane katrina :} and one other possible yes from a very sweet korean girl who came last week. the second floor is basically full, now all we have to do is find people to live on the first floor with us, lol. it would help if my roommate erik wasn't such a giant fucking baby-- he asked for 24 hours notice before i show his room, and srsly if i give him like, 23.5 hours, he won't let me in. if this was the first tendency like this he'd shown i'd probably think less of it, but this is the guy who had a temper tantrum when someone left the tv on upstairs and dismantled the entire fucking entertainment system and took it into his room. i cannot WAIT for him to move out, omg. >.>

work is okay.... long, but i'm kicking ass and taking names, and i really am keeping my fingers crossed for the "hiring" word to get thrown around within the next few months. that would be so sweet........ sigh. i had a nice short week this week too, coming in late on monday, though i was away for not such a great reason; my girlfriend's grandfather died on friday and so we spent the weekend in long island for services and family stuff. it was hard not only b/c she's never really had someone close to her die before, but also especially b/c she is very close with her grandmother and is terrified of her passing away. :(

so, meh. all around meh-ness. i cannot wait for this month to be over, seriously. it is driving me fucking apeshit crazy, and i just need it to be september already. now i'm going to go tag some, and work on my third glass of wine. :D
♥ em

i am on fire. as is evidenced by my utter ignoring of this journal for god knows how long.

i live, flist. how are you?

one random funny story : at work they announced that on the 29th of april they'd be having a competition between the collectors to see who could get the most number of payments in a day. i scoffed at this, going, wow, there's going to be a waste of a day for me-- no way i'll even come close to winning.

well, guess who has two thumbs and won the prize of a $75 gift certificate to the place of her choice? this girl. :D

my brain went like this : sweet, get the GC to lucky's so i can get a new tat! cus the only thing better than a new tat is a new FREE tat. wait, except that's totally irresponsible and stupid. i should get it to hess or shell (2 places i fill up on gas most often) b/c really, i could use free gas. but that is totally boring and shitty and predictable, none of which are adjectives that describe me. sooooo let's have a compromise between frivolous and sensible. what's something i spend a lot of money on but shouldn't, and am totally incapable of guilt-tripping myself into doing without? oh right, duh... COFFEE.

so i'm getting the GC to the awesome coffee shop across the street from me, so i will be decked out in awesome lattes and pear-sunflower muffins for at least a month.

.........doesn't quite make up for the fact that they're not giving me the week off to go to maine with my 5 best friends to the cabin we ALREADY PAID FOR..... but at least it made me stop trying to come up with ways to give my boss a fatal disease and/or the evil eye. for a while. >.>

okay..... sleepies now. hope not to dream about gossip girl like i did last night. shelightsupwell, you are going to HELL for this. XD