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still taking drabble prompts here.

it's going to snow a shitton today. i am very excited about this. :D

good things about today :

- temp agency got me some short-term work, and work = money = awesome
- spoke with both of my parents! am not a delinquent daughter (or at least, am less of one than i was this morning)!!
- am selling stupid old futon for twice the price i thought i was getting for it, due to some shenanigans with the buyer sending me the wrong check or some shit-- anyway, it also means money, which means i've recouped a week's pay, which means i'm only out about $300 for the entire month, which sucks, but is workable.
- texting linaeloisetook throughout the day-- nothing like ridiculous texts to make the day pass faster.
- looking forward to VISITS THIS WEEKEND. from mom on friday to saturday (with bonus haircut involved!) and then linaeloisetook and usually9_15 on saturday. good tiiiiiiiiiimes, yo. XD

bad things about today :

- the WEATHER. oh my SHIT new england, please wise up. we don't need you to try and have winter and monsoon season at the same fucking time.
- wrong shoes. definitely definitely wrong shoes. owwwwwwwww feet and legs. :(
- filing is BORING AS FUCKING HELL and i mashed up my cuticles nicely on all those cardboard edges.
- can't get out of work early on friday, which means less time seeing mom when she comes. still feel slightly like a delinquent daughter about this; it is her birthday on saturday. :-/

oh well. money is money, and i've definitely done worse / more boring jobs than this one. at least after tomorrow we'll be past the stick-stuff-in-files stage and onto the pull-files-and-throw-them-the-fuck-away stage, which is infinitely more satisfying.

i'm going to go wait for someone to stop doing her bio homework now. >:P

what's that you say? laura fraser's going to be in a scottish lesbian love story about food? be still my heart....... and it comes out tomorrow! :D :D :D


also, it fucking snowed today. :D i am a freak-- i realize this-- have known it for years-- but i love snow. it gave me such glee to wake up and see it snowing-- i literally gasped and went "OHMYGODYAAAAAAAAY".

whatever, my bitches. :) i'm gonna go make a quiche.

halfdreams AND linaeloisetook YOU MUST TELL ME WHAT TO BRING FOR THANKSGIVING. XD XD XD

it's been cold for three days. i love it. it reminds me of that november day in 2003, the afternoon of the first snow. i always hope it'll snow on my birthday, but it never has-- i suppose i really ought to be grateful for that, because i don't know that even i could stand four months of winter. but if it was winter from november to january instead of december to march, then i would be much happier. and hell who knows, it could snow tomorrow and put 24 years of hoping and waiting to rest. lol.

maya [one of my housemates] is taking me to breakfast tomorrow. and my mom might come up for the afternoon into friday. that will be nice-- plus i think i might finish painting the door and trim in my room, i primed for it yesterday and mixed the paint, it's a nice bluish purpley color. i just don't know why i'm not looking forward to my birthday...... it's weird and i suppose a more telling mark of the depression than anything else i've run into lately.... i called the doctor about another appt which i know i should've done a while ago... i'll be out of pills in less than a week and i've been taking just a half a one a day for two weeks or so now. i definitely notice a difference; i guess that's enough of a sign i shouldn't fuck around with them anymore. it's hard, though; $30 a visit is a lot of money to me right now. but i am, with all luck, going to have a break on the job horizons on tuesday of next week. and then, ladies and gents, it's business time. :)

links for today's amusement/interest :
- cupidsbow writes on how to write a long-form story. especially useful to you nano crazies out there, or to people like me who have Grand Ideas for novels but no fucking clue how to actually make them work. lol. fyi, her post is geared toward fanfic writers, but i find it useful just for fiction writing in general.
- the gay in hollywood, or not : why two years after brokeback, there's still not enough gay in the movies.
- office fans for office writers : support the writers of 'the office' during the strike. and baby, do i ever.


ETA : i meant to do this nearly two weeks ago, and forgot. oimizza, you are **AMAZING**. your gift to us at the party was literally jaw-dropping, and i am SO IMPRESSED. you brought marisa to tears, that's how good it was. i am your worshipful fangirl, now and forever. :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

baaaahahahahahah GIIIIIIP.

house fans on my flist represent. i'm a recent convert, and i just discovered lilhouse which is kinda like i_harth_darth or theneed2express, and omfg this icon has kiiiiiiiiiiiiiilled me. i cannot stop snickering at it.


in other news, i got absolutely fuck-all done at work today, because my cramps were bad enough to keep me crunched in my chair like an invertebrate all day. srsly, if i weren't so fucking broke i wouldn't have even come in. this past week has sucked enormous dick. buuuuuuut i'm totally going home to curl up and watch chasing amy which the lovely ceilidh has sent me, i'm fiddling with this journal layout cus i got sick of the labyrinth one, my fiddling with the lj reboot stuff is going okay, and i've converted 2 more people to reading asoiaf, so... it's not a total wash.

i just want it to not be winter anymore. is that too much to ask?

the lj reboot is my friend. :D i am so jazzed to start working on this -- i think i'm going to do it for sinistrata first, mostly 'cus i don't know what i want to do for a layout here yet... i started a rent one, and if it comes out awesome i may use it here, we'll see. anyway i did a mockup of what i want it to look like; the lines will be gone obviously, but that's the division as i see it, the content going below in the center portion... i also want a side-runner thing going down with more film frames but i will have to see how that will work.... i'm still tweaking the bg image too, i have to get rid of the white lines around each pic and make it so you can see through the holes in the film... but anyway, that's what i spent most of last night doing. and now 'tis time to start tweaking the stylesheet.

for those of you who've done the reboot-- how did you find the different layouts to work with? the boxer is my preference, but i worry that it'll be too hard to fiddle with. nelle, i know you did smooth sailing, and steph is yours the flexible squares one? that's the problem with you doing them well; i *can't* tell wtf you started out with. :}

ps - i figured out how to do masks! *points to icon* also incidentally for anyone who's a fan, i have somewhere in the vicinity of 2000 screencaps of rent including the deleted scenes, and a couple hundred of mirrormask. if you want, just comment and i'll YSI them to you. :)

*heaves sigh* oh god, it's friday. somehow the fact that i overdrew my bank account for the first time in months doesn't seem so bad... i tell ya, i cannot fucking wait for spring. this seasonal affective shit's gotta go.. i am so fucking sick of being insecure and depressed JUST BECAUSE IT'S MARCH. seriously, whatthefuck. tonight i'm going out for green beer with meggs and becca... and tomorrow i can sleep as late as i goddamn want. i swear, i will not fall down the stairs when i get up. ^^;;;;

eta - just a psa, i did a little friends cut this morning; if i cut you, it doesn't mean i hate you, but my flist is seriously overwhelming and i would rather be able to actually read people's entries instead of skimming everything frantically. :/

so i left my building about an hour ago to walk the mile or so to the place where they're going to get me an ID card. i stop at the dunkin donuts on the corner and then proceed on-- i've gotten about seven blocks from where the dunks is and this woman accosts me asking omg, where did i find the dunkin donuts. i tell her oh, it's a little ways back, down that street and across the river and two blocks over. [a five minute walk, maybe less] and she says "oh.... that's *way* too far... thanks anyway!"

you know you're in new england when six blocks is too far to walk for a dunkin donuts. *facepalm*

also - r.i.p. michael vale. *tear*


okay, folks, i know i've been scarce [[and i also know scarce is putting it mildly]] but throw me a frickin bone here. how are y'all? how's your january? can we discuss how it was fucking 60 degrees out yesterday? way to have summer in january, new england. :P i want stories. tell me something interesting. in fact, if you're bored, tell me a truth and a lie, i want to be entertained. :)

current movie : dangerous lives of altar boys. that's tomorrow morning's project.
current music : mom gave me tracy chapman's 'telling stories' for xmas - i saw her perform most of it for my birthday, but it's awesome to have the album. she is *incredible*.
current kudos : ceilidh, ashkitty and delicfcd. you guys fucking RULE me.
current pimping : f00dpr0n has had no posts lately. *saddo* feed me, people. XD

i'd drink a case of you and i would still be on my feet yeah i'd still be on my feet

this morning has been a study in how many times can i reheat the same cup of coffee before it turns to mud. so far : five. still not mud. but still not drunk. woe for mrs. wooding's coffee, which was always perfect and they always had enough sugar. i've come to the conclusion that whole milk is the only creamer-type-substance i can take in my coffee. no matter how much skim or 2% you add, it just doesn't do the trick. and half&half/cream/powdered creamer crap makes me sick.

also, i know it's the holidays and you're not supposed to buy shit for yourself, but i am SO sick of my fingers being falling-off-freezing, so i ordered those fingerless gloves from sockdreams for myself on saturday. they should be here tomorrow, i hope, so HOO-FUCKING-RAY for no more frostbitten fingers. i also may or may not have seen that amazon had one used copy of rory merritt stitt's 'harlequin' album, and bought it. whatever, i'm not going to feel guilty. it's not like i could have used that seven dollars to do something else; i would have probably just gone and spent it at starbucks. *headdesk*

HOWEVER. i have gotten most of my christmas presents taken care of. some of them will have to be given post-holiday because of shipping times, but i basically know what i'm getting for everyone and have procured most of it.

also, have been working on my commissions, and will continue to do so today and tomorrow. :)

everything hurts right now- my back, my neck, my legs, my ankle, even my goddamn wrist is acting up again. i feel like a fucking arthritic here, like i need to be wrapped in padding to protect my fragile bones or someshit. or wait, that's osteoporosis. whatever. body, stop hurting.

i wish it would snow again.

linds and steph, any word on what you're up to the rest of the week?

eta : six times on the reheating.

snow makes it better. things feel right again, back to their regularly scheduled boxes in my brain. part of me wishes that weren't so... for a long time i liked the weirdness, the whoa-what-is-this-happening feeling. but i think i was looking for it in the wrong places. i feel really good right now... no trace of bitterness or self-loathing or fear or pain is present for me. i know that'll change - life isn't a flatline, there are peaks and valleys just as the waves rise and fall in the sea. but my blessings are much more easily countable when i'm free of the hurt....

yesterday we went to boston, which was awesome. we watched romeo + juliet on the way back, which gave me hardcore deja vu, but also refreshed for me its visual beauty and why it's one of my favorite movies. i know people hate on leonardo dicaprio and claire danes a lot, but i think they are both amazing in their roles. mercutio and tybalt have always been my favorites, of course, and benvolio is really interesting as well. i really wish we were studying this in my shakespeare seminar... but it'll be a personal project now, to study it like i studied the others.

furious gratitude burns with freedom. that is all.

to-do list :
-shakespeare final topic
-kids' lit papers
-yuletide challenge research
---help sekala with hers
-draw secret santa
-make gift list
-turn in time sheet >.<

i can get all that done by wednesday, right? ....right. :) oh and crystalshatter thanks for calling the other night - v. enjoyable. i still want to see pictures of the box! <3

sometime's i'm foolish and i'm clumsy but i got friends that love me and they know just where i stand, it's all a part of me, it's who i am
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