flist, lend me your memories, and/or your google-fu.

we got to talking about movies we'd loved in childhood and becky mentioned one where a kid got sucked into a vortex to another world through a greenhouse, wherein the flowers were actually people. she can't remember anything else about this movie, including the title, and it's driving her (and consequently the rest of us) totally insane. help, oh children of the eighties, if any of you can remember what this movie is. :"D

also vacation is fucking amazing. see sekala's lj for an update on what we've been doing. XD
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just did an ickle friends cut, mostly if i couldn't remember the last time they'd commented on my entries or i had in theirs, and/or their journals had been inactive for ages. but as usual, if i defriended you and you wanna be refriended, just say the word. :)

i so cannot wait to get the fuck out of work. i hate that this job is just mindless enough for me to tweet and sometimes post random inane things, but definitely way too stressful for me to write or tag during work. bleh. but it's a job and i'm doing pretty well at it, if i do say so myself. gonna talk to the boss-man next week about possibility of permanent hiring.... despite horrible ignorant woman (who i haven't seen since last week, FTW) everyone else here is really nice, and like i said, i'm good at the job. i could do a hell of a lot worse.

but christ, has it been busy this week. and today i got my period AND had like, a double load of crap to take care of. the next half hour cannot pass fast enough. >.<;;;;;;;;;;;;


eta : i love my star trek mood theme!! :"} it's by wickedground and stormfronticons.... it is AWESOME. XD

a long time ago i made an LJ purely for keeping track of my fiction. i have this habit when i'm bored of picking up the nearest available piece of paper and writing on it-- when i worked at faces or blockbuster or barnes & noble, those were pieces of receipt tape. in office jobs it'd be a piece of looseleaf or the back of a sheet from the recycling bin. and i can't tell you how many times i would come home and realize it wasn't in my pocket anymore, or worse, a few days later realize i'd put it through the wash. fucking infuriating.

anyway, the point is i've been writing parts of my book on that journal for a while now, and i'm surprised at how well it's working for me. it's a lot less daunting than a word document; when i'm ready to write, i just make a new post, and i don't have to worry about where it fits in with the rest of the story just yet, or the transitions, or any of that other stuff. i just write what is in my head to write, and edit it in comments later so i can see the evolution of what i wrote. it's really baffling me how easy it's making it for me to just get shit out on the "page"... like, i'd say my worst flaw in the technical aspects of writing is how much i hate to write badly.... which i know you have to, that's what editing is about, but if i get stuck on something it's really hard for me to put down a crappy description or some shitty dialogue just to get me through to the next part. but with this it's not as hard, both b/c i know i can just hit post and go to something else, and b/c i know i can edit it later-- and editing a three-page entry is a lot less daunting than editing a section of a 50 page manuscript.

idk, i guess this is just to say that i'm writing, like actually regularly writing something that comes from my own head, and that i like what it is that's coming out. it's been a long time since i could say that... any of it.

today is also six months since i moved out of the house on russell street. coincidence... fuck no.

♥ emily

changed layout and default userpic. i haven't seen this layout before, it might be new, but it is *perfect*. the picture reminds me of kurt halsey (who incidentally, i've been meaning to make icons of his art for just ages now, ugh) and it is just love. but the lengthy style-selection process did remind me of the layout i'd planned and begun oh, god, back last summer maybe, and i'm going to get my ass in gear to finish it.

both scifiwire and knitmeapony's twitter feed provide me with zillions of little fun things / stories throughout the day. like these - steampunk cylon gallery, Extreme Sheepherding (yes, they're Welsh, ahaha, marisa's mad), pouring sheets of lead for pipe organs, and gallery games. thanks guys. :D

bsg tonight. i'll make a flaily post later, and there'll be a chat for those as are interested.

finished the 2nd locke lamora book. really can't handle how awesome it was, how totally gripping. it's been a long, long time since a book really sucked me in like that-- the first law trilogy did, but none of the characters in that really stole my heart-- stole my head, sure, but not my heart, not the way locke and jean did. (the fact that they are, essentially, bert and alain, has not escaped my notice either. :P) but yes... these books are a must-read... basically it's like danny and rusty from ocean's 11 set in an 18th-century-italian style semi-steampunk world. iiiincredible.

ok. day almost over. then is weekend of amazingness with lheena, douxquemiel and the other usual suspects. it's gonna be fucking amazing... and hot_jupiters just gave me her # so i can drunkenly harass her tomorrow night. XD oh yeah, it's gonna be a good weekend.

i am on fire. as is evidenced by my utter ignoring of this journal for god knows how long.

i live, flist. how are you?

one random funny story : at work they announced that on the 29th of april they'd be having a competition between the collectors to see who could get the most number of payments in a day. i scoffed at this, going, wow, there's going to be a waste of a day for me-- no way i'll even come close to winning.

well, guess who has two thumbs and won the prize of a $75 gift certificate to the place of her choice? this girl. :D

my brain went like this : sweet, get the GC to lucky's so i can get a new tat! cus the only thing better than a new tat is a new FREE tat. wait, except that's totally irresponsible and stupid. i should get it to hess or shell (2 places i fill up on gas most often) b/c really, i could use free gas. but that is totally boring and shitty and predictable, none of which are adjectives that describe me. sooooo let's have a compromise between frivolous and sensible. what's something i spend a lot of money on but shouldn't, and am totally incapable of guilt-tripping myself into doing without? oh right, duh... COFFEE.

so i'm getting the GC to the awesome coffee shop across the street from me, so i will be decked out in awesome lattes and pear-sunflower muffins for at least a month.

.........doesn't quite make up for the fact that they're not giving me the week off to go to maine with my 5 best friends to the cabin we ALREADY PAID FOR..... but at least it made me stop trying to come up with ways to give my boss a fatal disease and/or the evil eye. for a while. >.>

okay..... sleepies now. hope not to dream about gossip girl like i did last night. shelightsupwell, you are going to HELL for this. XD

i hate when there are good memes so soon after i've posted mediocre ones or ones that nobody paid attention to. XD

Stolen from douxquemiel.....

You are the _____ to my _______.

It works like this: Basically, comment telling me that I am the (SOMETHING) to your (SOMETHING). I.e., if they think of you as a good friend, they may say you are the Ron Weasley to their Harry Potter. Or if you're lovers, they could say that you are the Tuxedo Mask to their Sailor Moon. Get it? Pretty simple. And then, as memes are like contagious diseases, spread it in your own journal!

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also, wish me happy lj-versary. :D four years ago today i created this journal. and hoo boy, what a time that was...... i can quite literally say i was a different person then. i used to be so much more wild, and not in a flattering or fun way....... and i think i used to care less about other people, even though i used to talk about caring about them more. i certainly cared less about what was actually good for myself, and way more about what i wanted or didn't want right then and there........ but four years ago i was also just realizing that yes, i was really actually gay, not just gay for that girl with the unearthly amazing voice and not just gay for my best friend...... so i think i can be forgiven for it being a bit of a tumultuous period in my life, yes? :)

siiiiiiiiigh. despite being sick as a dog and having a bruise the size of a baseball on my left knee, i feel great. i just went and spent my birthday money on a shirt and a jacket from faces that i really really wanted-- the shirt is very cool, kind of a trippy print that's not quite paisley and not quite *not* paisley, in plum purple and lime green and bright red and turquoise-- sounds hideous but i promise it's not-- and the jacket is this shortish dressy bright red thing with fabulous buttons and a ruffle around the-- what do you call that, the collar that goes down into what would be the double breast on a double-breasted jacket? i am so unversed in fashion, lol. but i tell you, watching devil wears prada and ugly betty makes me want to subscribe to vogue and read it till my eyes fall out.

[[ additionally - i need a sheep icon for meme posts. i know i've asked this before, like way before ago, but if anyone knows/remembers where to find that program that has those really cute sheep falling onto your screen and walking around doing adorable things..... i want that, so i can icon those sheep. yes. ]]


............also, after four-and-three-quarters years, i have officially quit smoking. at least in the sense that i am absolutely 100% free of cravings, i don't have any desire or enjoyment for regular cigs, and i only have a clove when i drink or when i'm driving and drinking a pumpkin spice latte. (cus man, they go SO good together.) all in all i think this has been a seriously productive few weeks for me. and hot shit, i'm having spoleto express for dinner... grilled vegetable panini here i come.......................

i'm making an announcement-- as of now, unless i state otherwise (or it's otherwise apparent) when i refer to lindsay i am referring to linaeloisetook and not to my crazy ex. okay? okay.

so in that spirit, LINDSAY always has said that this song reminded her of me-- that it seemed to be /about/ me to her. and given that i have always felt the same way about it, i've often returned to it at pertinent times in life and reflected on how i seem to have an endless capacity to reinvent myself. all part of being a scorpio, obviously, but sometimes i start to feel like i can't do it anymore, and i just need to tell myself otherwise. so. GLP.

When the door shuts don’t worry about me
Its not attention that I want from you
I need you to trust who I’m gonna be
And in everything I’m going to do
Cause I’m not afraid of what I don’t know
For understanding is all that I earn
What is for sure is I’m gonna to go
I’m gonna to live and I’m going to learn
And I know there will be mistakes that I will make
But I know none are worse than chances I don’t take, take
Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing
When the door shuts, it shuts in front of me
A new person that I have become
I follow my heart to my destiny
But living in fear and sorrow is done
There will be no more feeling that I’m all alone
I will surround myself with things that help me grow, grow
Right before your eyes I am changing, changing
New life on the inside I am changing, changing
Right before your eyes


also-- in an effort to minimize the craziness of this lj, i've gone through and unfriended a bunch of people who weren't on my filters. if you've been unfriended and you'd like to be re-friended, just let me know and i'll add you back. i'm pretty easy about these things. :)

overhauled my icons last night and tonight; got rid of a bunch of unused ones, rekeyworded what was left so i'd actually use them, and then uploaded about a dozen new ones. i enjoy doing that periodically, the icon dump-and-reboot. it gets ridiculous, having 117 icons and realizing that 15 of them are RENT related and you never use 6 of them.

this is a post of total randomness. there are emails and calls i have to make that i'm nervous about, and am therefore avoiding. i wish it were warmer, it would be easier to make myself go for a walk, but with the cool drizzle and my cramps and the fact that i have to work tonight from 4-10, i'm kind of feeling like i should give today a pass in terms of productivity. i'm going to make shittons of tips tonight though; it's troy night out, which is this thing troy does the last friday night in every month, where it's like a showcase of all the businesses and restaurants in the downtown area, and it's always hopping. so, yaaaaaaaay money, god knows i need it! :D tomorrow morning will be a high-take day too; i made $30 last saturday morning and tomorrow should be even busier b/c it'll be less sunny and fewer people will be outside. XD i miss making tips so much. it's so nice to go home at the end of every shift with a wad of cash in my pocket.

i also have to say, i had the most amazing weekend. m&c's jam on saturday, lindsay's birthday on sunday, which was the closest thing to a perfect day i've had in longer than i can remember. i couldn't be happier with the way things are going for us; it's a total turnaround from the stress it was to me (and to her as well, i know) the prior few months. and truly, i know it's hokey, but i'm so in love with her, it startles me every time i think about it. every time i see her smile, which is all the time now, i just light up. okay, i can hear you all vomiting in the corner now, lol, so i'll stop, but i just had to put that out there, that i'm very happy. :)

also, as per my last post, i'm glad my daemon isn't a ferret anymore. n____n;;;;;

another meme, this one from unanon.

Comment and I will give you 3 interests on your list, and 3 icons, for you to explain. Do the same for me if you choose. (I hope you choose. :))

though actually today was blissfully sunny and warm, almost 60 degrees. it can stay like this, please and thanks. also, new default icon in preparation for new starbucky layout coming soon. *dance* i have a pretty sweet design and i just have to work out the code before i put it up. i'm quite excited not to have penguins or the generic city skyline anymore. :)

also i have to say, few things in life have been more amusing (but not in a mean way!) than walking my mom through figuring out how to download battlestar episodes from the lj comm. over the phone and internet, i mean, cus doing it in person is fine, but trying to describe how to navigate megaupload and changing file extensions, to someone who is serene in being completely unfamiliar with such things..... pretty freakin' funny. but mom if you read this, i'm not making fun of you. too much. ;)

at lindsay and steph's behest, i need to go play guitar hero now. i suck at those coordination games. did me sucking at DDR not teach us this? come on now.............

♥