I. Am goddamn tired. Of being. IN PAIN.

It's my stomach, except it's not exactly my stomach...it's like it started there, but migrated out until my entire gut hurts, so gulping down Pepto Bismol or something won't do a damn thing but make me want to vomit. It feels like someone's punched me in the stomach a few times, hard. And it's worse if I eat, much worse. I don't even want to swallow anything. But if I don't eat, then I can add clawing hunger pangs to the mess. fhjhglhfgla! I can't fucking win!!!

It's been acting up for a few weeks now, but it's been pretty constant since Friday afternoon. Yeah, all weekend. The last time it was anywhere near this bad I went to the emergency rom, except I don't have that option this time. I only got half the work done I wanted to on Saturday, and today is looking like a lost cause too, which is nightmarish because I have SO MUCH WORK TO DO. I can't get any more behind. I can't afford to go to the doctor again right now, in time or money. I just want to go home and sleep. :/

So...yeah, if you've been looking for me online, I haven't been on. I don't even have the energy or the focus to chat, and I'm sorry. I feel like an utter heel about it, especially after weeks of slacking due to heat and general stress, but I just can't. :(