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resorting to reading pornfic between seminars/rituals

which you may or may not already know, i don't really make a secret of it.

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I often get the question: When are you going to update/finish Eir's Tomorrow?  And the answer is: I don't know, because honestly I'm kind of burned out on the FF7 fandom for the first time in, what, seven years of poking at it, haven't read other people's fic for it in like four or five years anyway, and I just.  It isn't fun writing it anymore? I'll finish it eventually just because I've spent so much time on it by now that it'd be stupid to let that all go to waste, and there are only like one chapter + epilogue left, but there you go.

Psych medication hasn't been helping my ~creative drive~ either.  :(

Comic store: Oh by the way we're having a sale the weekend before your birthday with coupons and shit.
Me: ...
Me: Yesssss.


Avengers Assemble #1
Marvel Adventures: Iron Man vol.3
Locke & Key vol.1
Hellblazer vol.1
The Invincible Iron Man vol.8
Tank Girl vol.1
The Sandman vol.10

I'm on first name terms with everyone who works at/owns the comic store by now, by the way.

I feel like I'm hardly ever online anymore and I'm not sure what to think of this.

• Used my student loans to get a car, then get a permit, learn to drive, and get my license within the span of about three weeks because I'm just that talented.  This means I'm almost never home anymore (but how can you blame me when I live ten minutes from the beach and ten minutes from the mountains in the other direction, I mean really).
• I got a job as an aide to an elementary school teacher who's gone blind the last few years - why anyone thought I'd be a good role model for our future generation I have no idea, but she seems happy with my performance already, so.
• Started participating and volunteering with a local eclectic spiritual organization, which means an atheist-recently-turned-reluctant-sort-of-agnostic is cavorting about in witchcraft and sin.  I should note that pagans are damn good cooks and store-bought pumpkin pies just won't cut it anymore.
• No more schooling means no more having to read about other people's religions in both anthropological and philosophical senses and much more time for personal existential crises.  I figure if Cloud is allowed to have one every other month or so, then I can have one or two myself, damnit.
• The fact that I don't have to read anymore means such texts are suddenly that much more appealing.  Imagine, reading something for fun that isn't fanfiction, what is this nonsense.
• Being back in my home country means being back with old and close friends.  :D
• November is usually my favorite month.  Just sayin'.

Long story short, I have a social life to compound my laziness in writing fic, though I still add a few more paragraphs to Eir's every other day or so.  I'm still not sure how this happened.


Also got confirmation back from the University of Edinburgh that I did indeed pass, so I can legit go around being a dick and bragging that I'm 23 and have a European master's, albeit in a discipline that's rather useless outside of teaching, preaching, or interfaith diplomacy.  \o/ 

Student debt, pshaw.  Seriously, though, coming from a less-than-financially-blessed background has made me realize just how fucking lucky I am, particularly in the current world that's led to the necessity of movements like #Occupy Wall Street.

a lazy, hot afternoon
rusty furniture on a crumbling porch
a beer
writing



Fuck yeah.

Guys.  Guys.  Check this shit out:


That's right. Green d4 earrings, made by our very own arin_rowan.


Well, I only have the one now because I'm an idiot and wore regular earrings in gauged holes without a rubber stop on the end BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT.  The point is that you need to check out her store.  This lady is quick and does quality stuff, and since this is like her job, you're also supporting not only an independent craftsperson but also a friend.  :D

I have a fair amount of manga and doujinshi that have been sitting on my shelves for a good six years by now, largely untouched or changed except for the occasional nostalgic reread.  I was thinking about finally selling most, if not all, of it.


And I wanted to know if anyone would have an interest or would know the best way to go about this sort of thing.

( You know you want this sweet, sweet drug.Collapse )

( Banana-flavored condoms as tools of behavioral conditioning. Eat that, Pavlov.Collapse )

Also, I know I've been posting a lot these last few weeks.  This is because: one, I talk a lot anyway no seriously it's pretty amazing sometimes, and two, because my dissertation is wringing the life out of me but I don't feel like reading much escapism!fic and I feel guilty trying to write it and gah, I'm sure this all makes sense somewhere.  And I know how I want to end Eir's Tomorrow now except I'm afraid of disappointing people and so I intimidate myself, which means I put off writing and I know that irritates people because I get messages asking what the hold up is, and then I feel guilty all over again and it's all a VICIOUS CYCLE of VICIOUSNESS.  And it's been like three years since I actually participated in this fandom outside writing my own fic and I don't know what's going on anymore Out There and I'm all like DDD:    WHY NO I'M NOT NEUROTIC WHY WOULD YOU EVEN ASK.

/woe

Normally I'd do something spiffy like provide links to history and ~lore~ and shit, but this time y'all will have to make do with general lovey-ness.  ♥

I have a lot of work from now until August.  I'm considering dropping out of the spn_j2_bigbang  for this year, which breaks my heart because damnit I was looking forward to it.  I am disappoint.

Also, currently no Internet at home, which means resorting to long hours in a cafe buying tea to justify my extended presence.  I've been acculturated.  Long story short, extended absences from LJ broken up by irregular splurging on my f-list I just have no self-control in avoiding fandom, so whatever.  There have been some lovely comments left by people that have made me warm and fuzzy inside, and I promise to respond when I'm able to.

I can't wait for this year to be done.

( In the meantime, have some art thing.Collapse )

I HAVE FIGURED OUT WHY MY POSTS WEREN'T SHOWING UP ON FLISTS, though oddly enough it wasn't because I'd missed some of the settings or anything.  Anyway, problem should be resolved.  The previous Sticky Post with links to all my fics and fic recs will now be added to the side menu, fyi.

InsaneJournal is a bitch and I think I'll stay right where I am, thank you very much.  >: (