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joebrown42
Date: 2022-11-26 21:10
Subject: Elation — 2 versions
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v2

Elation

rainbricks crashing on my window

as chocochunks melt on morning toast watching delusioned awakenings over morning coffee

26 November 2022

v1

Elation

                     in

windows of crashing
like rainbricks of melting choco-chunks
that drift away the more I drink my morning coffee’s

                                                              Delusioned Awakenings [Was “Dillusioned”]

[Undated]

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joebrown42
Date: 2022-11-26 14:34
Subject: Morning Song
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Dog barking woke me up. Damn the dog, damn the neighbors, damn the world. Rolled out of bed and pulled on some clothes. Drank a cold cup of coffee. No hot water. Damn that dog. Made breakfast. The dog barked again. Threw the cold cereal at it.

Turned the computer on. Five messages in my box. Three junk mail, one from mom and one from my e-mail lover. We have developed a complex relationship. Too difficult not to write a book about.

Wrote back to the one about a free t-shirt. Could use an addition to my wardrobe.

Water should be warm enough by now. Damn, wrong. Cold showers wake me up too fast for my brain. Took a lukewarm shower anyway.

Drove to work. On the way a cat ran under the Buick. Damn that dog.

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-14 22:53
Subject: un
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derstand that if i
am not able
to un
derstand how to
get over you
i am un
der you


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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-11 21:37
Subject: אדים
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יושב על ספה בסלוני, כוס קפה
מנסה לחבר במקלדת כמו אז, באוגוסט
על ספה בסלונך, כוס קפה
עט ביד, מחברת פתוחה
הקימור של גבך עוטה אור כפרי
אל מול הציור ממנו את בוקעת
אך מולי אין קימור ואין ציור
כי אם קופסא שעוד לא פירקתי
ומסך שאינו מחובר לדבר

[תודה לנדב קדם על העזרה בעריכה]

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-11 20:43
Subject: miss
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in the smallest of silences
i hear the sound you made
inside your apartment, alone
as I stood outside your door
and caught my breath before knocking

in the smallest of silences
i hear the sigh you made
inside your apartment, together
as we stood as one
and I entered you

in the smallest of silences
i hear the tear i made
inside my heart, alone
as I stood outside your love
and heard the phone line die

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-11 08:05
Subject: אדים
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יושב על ספה בסלוני, כוס קפה
מנסה לחבר במקלדת כמו באוגוסט
על ספה בסלונך, כוס קפה
עט ביד, מחברת פתוחה
אך מולי אין את הקימור של גבך
או את הציור ממנו את בוקעת
כי אם קופסא שעוד לא פירקתי
ומסך שאינו מחובר לדבר

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-10 20:30
Subject: tongue-tripped
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wednesday evening, 8p.m.
wondering why i don't dare call you
your number is unmemorized, not speed-dialable
and it would be so easy to just hit 'call'
but the fear of you saying 'no'
has paralyzed me so much
i avoid my phone completely

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-09 20:17
Subject: העדר
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ובהיעדרך עשיתי כביסה
ערבבתי בין לבנים וכהים,
והם יצאו נקיים
ושטפתי כלים
וסידרתי במתקן הייבוש באנדרלמוסיה
ואף הם יצאו יבשים
ושטפתי רצפה
וסידרתי מיטה
ולקחתי את הכלבה לטיול
ועל אף שעשיתי כל אלה לפני שהכרתיך
הפעם עשיתי זאת בהיעדרך


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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-09 02:03
Subject: dwindling paths
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our paths shall meet again
you wrote
surely
i responded
and all i could think was
how our fingers met
how our lips met
how our bodies met
how our minds met
and how the intertwinings of paths
is insufficient

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-07 20:56
Subject: am oh meant
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i thought of writing something cute, something fun

i couldn't write anything

and i got stuck in am oh meant


[this was very very bad]

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-03 19:26
Subject: (no subject)
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What point is there in reaching a dead end
if you can't even turn around?
What if you are stuck so deep in the cave, even though you can see it from the outside?
not good

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-07-03 07:49
Subject: המניע הבלתי ממונע
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אני באמת חושב שלכל אחד יש כזה.
אני רק מקווה ששלי נמצא מתחת לאגר העומד מולי, ושאינו אותו אתגר.

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-26 17:28
Subject: caesura
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i have always heard music in between the notes
unwritten counterpoint-upon-counterpoint-upon-counterpoint
with tempo and time intertwining and demystifying the simplest of do-re-me
and the more extended the silence,
the more colorful my orchestrations became
a sixteenth could be filled with cellos,
a whole note with more than the worst nightmares of Stravinsky

And as I now have the strongest pause
since I last touched your hand,
the orchestration is so loud
it has deafened me to silence

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-26 15:37
Subject: not here
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again

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-26 13:47
Subject: musings
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when the Politicks have dissembled and dissheveled
and the Generalls have kompleted the killing
and the Kommentators have quashed all knowledge
will the pipul have a chance to thrive?

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-24 22:06
Subject: coin toss
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tails up, head down,
like a pig seeking truffles
or a man lost in a marriage


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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-22 11:45
Subject: driving home last night
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i listened to Billy Joel songs, via a streaming service.
it was uplifting — i knew most of the words and either sang or hummed along the whole 75 minutes or so.
he is the only artist i want to go see, perhaps because i played so much of his music.
and yet i have done nothing to do so.
perhaps i should


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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-21 14:54
Subject: מורא
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בקצה חיוך
לא גומה ולא קיפול
זריחה קטנה

בקצה חיבוק
לא מגע ולא  הימנעות
נשימה קטנה

בקצה יחסים
לא מילה ולא דמעה
געגוע גדול

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-21 00:24
Subject: הערת אגב
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קשה לי לכתוב שירה על הטאבלט. גם בעברית קשה לי וגם באנגלי. צורת ההקשה מקשה עלי.

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-19 21:36
Subject: 2am
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2empT
couldvewrittenitbetter
2tired2type fullwords
2am
2dogsbarkingoutside
2quiet
2angry2gobacktosleep
2annoying2try


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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-18 20:52
Subject: This is a voyage
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I have always been amazed by the simplicity and depth of this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MciKzgSTKOM
I do not know why it came back to me tonight, but I enjoyed all 6:10 of it.

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-11 22:47
Subject: and i'm alone (revisited, 11June2019)
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in mistclouds and thought
like the dead face in the skies
belongings and longings of no one I know

questionclouds and an unnoticed dog
queryskies and a mind left behind
questings and floatings of unconscious thought

uncover, discover, astound

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-11 22:43
Subject: And I'm gone (written in 1992-1995)
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And I'm gone in a mist of clouds and thought
And it's almost like I'm dead
And I'm alone

The face in the skies belongs to no one I know
The clouds form a question mark
And a dog passes me by and I don't notice
And I'm alone

Querying, I leave my mind behind, and go on a quest for the unknown
Floating in a limbo of unnatural reality
The body is the mind, the mind the unconscious thought.
The unconscious uncovers, discovers, astounds.

And I'm alone.

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-11 22:37
Subject: untitled (written between 1992-1995)
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One man makes his way in the world, knowing nothing but his name. He doesn't need to know anything else. He doesn't want to see the pain, so he avoids other people. His eyes won't let him look.
One man makes his way in this world, living with pain. He doesn't have the time to understand anything else. He looks through eyes of sorrow, and never sees any joy. His pain won't let him feel.

One man makes a living, another man is unemployed.
One man has a heart attack, and dies at the age of twenty-five.
One man works all day, and comes home to a loving wife.
One man does nothing to stay alive.
One man.

One woman loves a man, and lives just for him. Caring for the welfare of his children. She doesn't realize that she's her own person. No one's ever treated her right. Her mind won't seek.
One woman lives in an office, fighting for what's rightfully hers. She can't spend the time she wants to on the small things in life. Her schedule has taken over her private life. She can't breathe.

One woman cleans all day, another woman lives on the street.
One woman works all day, trying desperately to make ends meet.
One woman lives in a closed world, and doesn't know she's blind.
One woman does nothing to stay alive.
One woman.

One flower grows in the darkness, another blooms in light.
One never knows which way to go unless he's been there before.
One raindrop doesn't mean a shower, one tear doesn't mean pain.

[I like it, but it needs work.]

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joebrown42
Date: 2019-06-11 22:23
Subject: Hello here (written in 1993)
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Hello here.

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