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Thou art I... And I am thou... Thou shalt have our blessing when thou choosest to make a Persona of the Magician Arcana...

I have been meaning to put one of these things up, so I better do it now before I forget again. Anyways, this will always be available, and can double as an extra means of getting in contact with me about anything! ♥

THE RULES: Have you ever wanted to say something to me, but were afraid to do it in person? Do you have some sort of opinion of me (both positive or negative) you're uncomfortable with expressing? Have a compliment you've been waiting for an excuse to use? Want to say something scathing without causing drama? DO ALL OF THAT NOW. Comment with anything and everything you want me to know, honestly and without fear. Anonymous posting is ON. IP logging is OFF. Then, if desired, post this in your journal and see what others want to tell you! Comments are screened.

Stolen from antiva

Instead of writing forever and ever, or instead of putting off updating forever because I don't feel quite like writing forever and ever, I'ma join in this one:

HONESTY MEME
Step 1: Post this into your LJ publicly.
Step 2: Others will reply anonymously (if they'd like) about what they really think of you.
Step 3: Cry, because this meme is so brutal, and it hurts.

LOOK, EVEN THE MEME IS SO HONEST-- But no, really, I do these in case there's anything anyone really does want to say, so comments are screened for this, anon is enabled, and I thiiiink IP logging is off lemme check--

Yes it is!

LAST POST BEFORE DISNEY WORLD!!

We're leaving in about 6-7 hours, and ahhhh I'm so tired I need sleep so ungodly badly sdfjkl but I'll be too tired/rushed to do this once it's time to go so!

Even though we were blessed with a 13-hour power outage ever since 1 in the morning (something that was particularly awesome since my mommy planned to do all of the laundry today...), we actually did a pretty good job of getting things together, I think. We even got the van all pretty darn cleaned out, to the point where I'm even pretty impressed with it |D That's something that's never been done before a trip!!

I may still update if there's anything semi-worth updating during the trip though, since I now have that new super neat phone. I forgot to mention earlier that my number is still the same! But at any rate, I downloaded this neat app that lets me update my LJ from my phone haha :'] It doesn't do anything else though, but I think I can still access LJ regularly from the internet browser. I'm just not sure if I can select icons from it. We'll see though, I guess!!

I think I've finally gotten everything taken care of that needed taking care of, but once again, I've been pretty out of it all month, so if I've missed anything in particular, it wasn't intentional, but I apologize in advance :'(

One more thing real quick, too!! I did get a call back from UPS a few days ago, and I was told I could fill out the application (so I did), and call back on Monday to schedule an appointment for an interview when I come back from vacation. My background should finally be taken care of so oh my gosh I'm ridiculously excited; the timing is beyond PERFECT and this job was... actually kind of my first choice atm. So I'm really hoping it works out ahhh

Other than that! I hope everyone else has a wonderful two weeks filled with equally awesome things! And I want to thank havocmangawip for the dessert waffle IT'S SO CUTE and it made me smile ;w; ♥♥♥

... This is my only phone icon.

Anyway!! I've never really cared too much for cell phones. Or, well, phones in general. I'm way behind the times in even knowing what they're capable of nowadays and it never really bothered me that I'd never get those happening models and such.

But we've been shopping around for new phones lately and my mom's actually even been trying to convince me that the smart phones are nifty, and-- well, apparently the price wasn't bad enough to change her mind! Plus TMobile has a sweet buy one get one free sale going on, so tomorrow we're all going to get them and... so I've been looking into it and all the apps I can download and stuff and ahhhh I'm actually really excited sdkljf

The ones we're getting are the T-Mobile myTouch 3G Slides. I read a pretty extensive review on them that said they're basically the best phone TMobile's ever released and while not perfect, of course, they're pretty darn excellent. We stopped by the store today to get price quotes on the plan and to take a look at them firsthand. The keyboard, like the review said, is really sweet and I like it *~*;; It seems overall pretty rocking and ahhhhhhhhhhh I can't wait until tomorrow I want to play with it |D

Man, I never expected to be able to talk this much about a phone, of all things. (Granted I'm more interested in the non-phone aspects of it hahahaha)

And now I remember a few of the things I kept meaning to post about! First off, I moved my art posting stuff from mementomoros to SINcake. I actually really like the webs.com templatey setup type thing :O I don't think I'm using much of it very efficiently, but someday I'll play around with it some more and maybe have it looking a little nicer. I'm also back to being slightly more selective about what I upload there, so maybe I'll keep mementomoros around for really really sketchy stuff or something... Although that's usually the stuff I'm too lazy to upload haha |D;

On a similar note! There's also a link through there to a new oekaki board I made a while back that I'm trying to keep alive this time haha |D That's right HERE if anyone is interested, and everyone is free to come post if you'd like!!

I still need to get drawing more again. I'm actually still trying to make a mini Angel Beats doujin of sorts, even though I know I get overambitious with these things, but... It probably wouldn't be of the highest quality anyway |D So if I aim for that, maybe I can make it happen at least!!

And finally, I rejoined VDex a while back! I'm kind of a casual VDexer, but feel free to add me and I'll add you back!

Here's my dude and current team!:

Well so... huh, very nearly a month ago and I never did get past 22 things. You know, I was so afraid to even try it, because I was so down about everything then that I really was afraid that I couldn't finish it. I really hadn't expected to not even able to get a quarter of the way through, though. And it wasn't because there aren't 100 things that make me happy, of course. There's millions of things and even beginning to count them just makes it that much harder to narrow down, but... It was more that I was completely unable to realize them. Nothing was affecting me, just like I'd feared, and having that realized actually just made it seem so much worse in the end.

But it was also probably thanks to that that I was finally able to sort things out a bit further in my head. Even now, I know it wasn't so long ago, but I can't recall the moment where it finally started to turn around, but it did and that fact alone is like the greatest happiness. Things aren't awesome; I'm still struggling with some things, but it's moving again and I can deal with it. That's all I was really hoping for.

I'd like to thank everyone for bearing with me, one way or another, through such a long period like that. I do kind of have a tendency to hide away as much as possible when I'm like that.

I want to talk about a lot of things, but none of it's really important and it'd just be me rambling like I tend to do, and actually my arms really hurt from swimming all week so I'm also kind of opting to lazy out for now...

I still feel kind of different lately. Maybe I'm still coming to terms with these differences, but I'm at least trying to stop being so overly negative about... well, myself. And to stop feeling so guilty over absolutely everything, but it's hard. While those are things I've kind of always done and will continue to do because that's just a part of me, I was always able to manage them somehow or at least balance them out. Nowadays, the only way I can really combat that is to turn my mind off completely, but I'm already pretty scatterbrained so this is likely not the smartest move.

Ah, on another note entirely, in three weeks I'll be in Disney World again. God, I really can't wait. After how much time I spent there last year, I'm kind of having some serious withdrawal by now, so maybe that vacation is really what I need to kind of snap me out of all this. I think I'm going to start packing already. It'll keep me excited for it, so hopefully that excitement can transfer into some of my other endeavors that I'm struggling with.

I'm likely to tire out and not finish this in one go! Anyways, in no particular order and just as things come to me and... such. We'll see how this goes!!

EDIT; oh right, turning off custom comment pages for a while for this.

EDIT2; er... I was going for at least 25 for now, but I guess I'll make camp here and try for the summit in the morning. :(