tired so 'ill make this a short update. guitar lesson today actually went really good.i'm too the point where i'm not feeling like i totally fail. had to get some new picks, mitch said i should try a different size or what not. i never really thought it mattered, but i did notice it's easier to strum with the ones he suggested.

i also made a hair appointment for friday after i get off work. i waited on ichiko to get the dye and shit, but i think she forgot. also our scheduals are hard on each other. but whatevs, i just want it done and over with.

when i got home i just sat and watched tv since i wasn't really up to anything else. just wanted a boring evening i guess. criminal minds tonight reminded me of how dumb some people are. dumb part is i'm heard of the choking game. some kid while i was in school died doing it. i think it was him and his friend and they'd choke each other, and one kid died. something along those lines. i can't really remember too much detail about it. it was a fairly long time ago.

a strange habit i've developed is drawing pictures on my calendar. like instead of words, it'll just have a little picture to remind me about shit. like fixing my umbrella and find the pants to my kadaj costume. i love my calendar, it matches my bed spread.

well that's it for now i guess. i still have to try and get ahold of izzy about jfest. they still haven't posted on the site of when it starts. annoying, but we'll all figure it out.

Chu,
Brit

Should be sleeping so i'll make this quick. went to work today only to find out that something with the fan in the venting system for the fryers broke down, they said they'd call if they got everything fixed but never did. then when i drove by on my way to my guitar lesson everything looked closed up, and there didn't even seem to be a light on. so maybe they didn't open at all today. i don't know what will happen with tomorrow. i'll call ahead, and if they don't pick up i guess i'll go and see. i dunno. it was kinda nice having an impromptu day off. i couldn't go back to sleep, or go into lazy mode i.e. wash my make up off and lounge in my jamas, since i didn't know if they'd call. so i ended up wrapping all my xmas gifts for the family, and going to superstore to pick up bella's present. while i was in line i found a copy of vampire knight volume 1. so i picked it up as well. not this past ae, but the one before it in '08, the goodie bag came with a vampire knight poster and i really liked the art. so i figure i'll give it a chance since it's been forever since i've read any new manga that wasn't over a screen.

guitar lesson went good. he helped me with my f chord, though i still can't play it perfectly because my index finger isn't strong enough to hold 2 strings at once yet, he told me to concentrate on working with the strings my stronger fingers are on, and if i can get three of them it will still sound like an f when it's played. he also gave me a snippet of 'into the night' so i can start on that song and work on the chord changes. learned a minor and d today, they're both fairly straight forward.

other than that, fairly boring day. i enjoyed having eggs in the house again. fried egg sammiches are delicious at any point in the day. watched the finale of SYTYCD, i liked both russel and jacob so i'm glad it was between the two of them. though now i have that j-lo song stuck in my head... it's fucking catchy, as much as i hate to admit it. maybe it because i'm a shoe freak?

Chu,
Brit

been awhile, but i have something on my mind. first, i was offline most of today, spent it watching bram stoker's dracula, and tv. i haven't been feeling well, i think i'm getting sick, so i picked up some cold fx today. hopefully that helps. i just hope it's not what was going around up in kelowna. i swear i have the worst immune system on the face of the planet.

anyway so rob asked me awhile ago if i'd order this wig for him off ebay. i did so, and it arrived today. i told him and he asked me how it was. i said the colour was good and etc. and then decided to just put it on and take a pic for him. i did so and he was just being so short with me. like he was pissed at me. like he was first worried i was going to break something or ruin it if i took it out of the bag. and then he tried to give me a lecture when i packed it all back up about brushing it before i set it back in. i got a tad pissed. like honestly, i know way more about taking care of wigs than him or any of the girls he talks to. he was even entertaining the idea of styling it with a hot glue gun!

it's not the first time either. while i was up in kelowna he got mad at me for 'blowing him off' when we were supposed to go to the pub with my sisters. turns out he had invited a bunch of his friends to meet us there. i talked to him about that. since the idea of inviting strangers along when i had invited him to hang out with my family doesn't really sit well with me. i get awkward when my family's involved. anyway he told me he didn't mean to be mean to me, and i thought it was done. the next night we go see district 9 and he's ragging on me about the pub thing. i was really confused.

i just don't know if he's trying to do this so i stop talking to him because of the situation with us. or if he's doing it unconciously so he doesn't have to say that he'd rather be with bethany. or if he's just being pissy because he's angry at the world... whatever. i just talked with him kinda, and asked him about it. maybe i'll get some answers. probably not....

Chu,
Brit

nicole ended up staying longer than i thought she was. she leaves tomorrow, and i've managed fairly well, thought i've been tired as hell. i was able to spend the weekend with her and the kids. we went to playland, stanley park and castle fun park. it was a nice visit. the rest of the week i had to work till 4, so we couldn't do much.... but we packed it all in there. going out for dinner, shopping, going to the movies. it was nice.

nikki was upset because mom apparently didn't spend any time with her. didn't go out with her and the kids etc. all she did was stay home and play eve. if i was nikki i'd be pissed too. she's taken off this time and come down here to see us. my sister's a nurse, she doesn't get much time off, and with the divorce. i think she just really needs her family. i mean, she's had to move and now has to share custody of her kids. not to mention jason's now engaged and living with the woman he cheated with. it's a big adjustment. i can see how it's draining on her. she's had to move into the basement suite of the house owned by her dad and grand parents.

i had a long talk with nikki tonight about the goings on with the family. my mom had apparently told jaime she was going to go and visit.... but now says to nikki she's not. jaime lives in virginia, and really is on her own down there. she had no family, is married to a jerk, and has to live with his douchebag parents. she's extremely depressed, and i think just suffering major cabin fever, since she still can't leave the country. i miss both my sisters. i miss people around me that will love me unconditionally, even if i am a bit of a fuck up. they never really pressure me, only encourage, and although they can drive me nuts at times.... its because they're family, and not because they're purposefully bringing me down.

i had been pondering moving up to be with nikki a while a go. but i didn't really mention it to her. yet here she was tonight, offering me the extra room at her place, and even saying she could talk to her friends about maybe having me work at the mrs. vanelli's they just bought. problem is, i want to go to school. so, i'd have to figure it all out... dad said he'd prefer it if i did my first 2 years at douglas since it's cheaper... but then i wouldn't be able to live on my own, and i couldn't move in with nikki.

on a grosser note.... my hair's falling out. not to the point where you can notice it really. just in the shower a lot comes off.... i think it's due to stress. i've been taking vitamin b complex to help keep myself from going bald i guess.

kittie apparently ran off to kelowna during the time she was on black out for talking. i know she was having a rough time, but i feel kinda bad i didn't know she wasn't even in the same city, and i had no idea.

i miss rob.... he eats my left over food and does stupid things to make me laugh and make fun of him. he's good for my ego. he also calls me pretty. he'd be happy if i lived in kelowna. my sister wants to meet him, and feed him for some dumb reason. i'm planning to go with my dad to visit her at the end of august.



from the show last night... can't wait for the new true blood eps this sunday. it's going to be magical! i went and say ice age 3 today. i wasn't a huge fan of the first one, and i never saw the second, but i really did love this one... i liked the baby dinosaurs.

i don't want to work tomorrow. i want to curl up and not leave the house for a week or so. two more days, and then i can do that for like 3 days...

love,
Brit

i didn't work on any of my stories at all this wekk, even with the extra day off yesterday. i know i won't have much time to this weeked either... since nikki's coming down tonight with the kids. well i suppose i can just write a little bit. i told myself to write the 731 chapter next, since it hasn't been updated as recently as the other ones. but my mind keeps on trailing back to the werewolf fic... it's odd i know.

i'm pretty sure my thumb has a mosquito bite on it. which will betray why i hate summer.... besides the heat. mosquitos drive me nuts. i hate them so very much.



on a side note, this is my favorite from last night's SYTYCD performance episode. i have a soft spot for this song. and i love sonya.... also helps that kupono and kayla are my favorite couple. so i was happy. i'm not sure who will be in the bottom three. prolly kaitlyn and her partner is my only estimation.

nikki comes tonight. i should pick up some pills.... and get ready for work. like.... now.

love,
Brit