sooo gang. not too much to say, but i figure it's been a bit since my last. worked, more work etc. madam red dress is in pieces at liv's place. i'm getting a tad nervous about it. wig still hasn't arrived. silver lining is, that if it doesn't all get put together, i have 2 complete costumes in the closet i can substitute in should i need to.

after work i mingled about london drugs. i bought this lip close i thought was just a glossy clear. turns out it's frigging black! i don't mean like a sheer black, it's like black black. so i threw it into my make up bag. maybe one day i'll find a use for it. not so out of the ball park considerring my cosplay hobby. liv and i are going to dressew on saturday. we were supposed to go last week, but turns out it was closed on the day we were supposed to go. lame i know. i made a list on my phones of what i need, so i don't forget to check for anything. i really need a hat i can work with :C like super need

made a new album in fb. it's just random pictures of different characters i'd like to cosplay. i'm hoping people will look and put in thier two cents about which ones i should proceed with. i used to do polls in my status, though i can honestly say i've never followed the resaults. usually i end up picking something i didn't even post up in the poll in the first place. kinda like the madam red. the poll for that was between lightning from ff13, and wedding dress yuna from ff10. so far the only characters that are in there are minato/protagonist from persona 3 since it was my favorite persona game. summoner yuna from ff10, poison ivy from batman, and lightning from ff13.

i was thinking i'd do misato for the next aki con, since the costume is a bit warm to wear to ae, and it's not really flashy enough for a big con like sakuracon. ♥
talked to kittie for a bit today. i misses her :C apparently rob contacted her out of the blue, yet it didn't involve an apology for what happened with barry. she basically asked why he was doing this all the sudden... i don't blame her for not wanting to talk to him. i know i don't.

Chu,
Brit

well i was going to go to the bank today, since i got paid on friday, and the only dys i can get to the bank before it closes are monday and thursday. monday because i don't work, and thursday because they're open late on thursdays for some wierd reason, don't ask me why. but i decided to not go, i dunno.... just didn't want to get dressed and shit to go to the bank, so i guess i'm doing it after work on thursday... i was going to start putting the archives of yb onto smackjeeves since i like the enviroment better, but i kinda forgot all together, so i guess i'll do it next week. i do miss working on comics and the fans yb had. i want to relaunch it and hopefully get new and old fans back... drunk duck i'll prolly keep but most of my attention will go to smackjeeves since it's just a larger comic community and i like the set-up better. i know it'll make kittie happy, she misses doodle, and dante lol.

i went and saw legion with john tonight. it was good to hang out with him. he apparently has an obsession with those prize machines you get like keychains and shit out of. so he spent like 3 dollars on a quarter one and we spent a bunch of time opening them up. he let me have the girly shit. like the jasmine and snowwhite tin boxes, the buttercup hair tie and the blossom necklace. it was funny and made me laugh. he was so impressed he got a goomba screen cleaner for his phone, even if i had to explain what it was to him. heh it reminded me of the one kittie used to have on her cell. the movie itself was alright, lot less fighting then i thought there'd be, but i'd totally see it again. the guy that played micheal was pretty snazzy.

during the previews they had one for the wolfman. i'm very excited! looks pretty good. apparently they're also remaking nightmare on elm street which i have mixed feelings about. it looks good and scary, but i just don't think the new freddy will match up. his voice was wrong which bothered me, and the original freddy was so awesome. on my way home i got tim hortons soup which i was very excited about, they were serving my fav, the cream of broccoli. bt when i called mom she got jealous so i had to go through the drive thru again. :C

started new rp with minnie. continuation of the 'what we shared in the dark' fic. which to this day is still one of my favorite things i've ever written. i should get back on that horse. the people at aarin are getting antsy. they miss 'the doll,' and 'bones broken.' and i think even seven has a following now, it's wierd but cool at the same time.

i was going to post something on bethany's wall about sakuracon. like ask her if she was going to be there this year. but found out that she's no longer on my friends list. she deleted me i guess. i texted kittie, because when i looked at the front of bethany's profile she wasn't listed as a mutual friend anymore, so i guess she was deleted too. she said apparently it was done after rob got in trouble for the breaking and entering thing. i assume that's when she deleted me too, and i just never noticed. i can't say i didn't expect it since kittie and i aren't on good terms at all with someone she's very close to, but it's still sad to see that she's willing to give up a friendship, even a small one. all well, i'm not the type to follow and try and push. if she wants to end it for him, then i hope he's worth it. i have my doubts on that, but i suppose i'm a little biased since he hurt people who are my close friends, as well as myself.

kittie, izzy, liv and ness are my best friends and i'm not trading them for any silver tongued boys or pissed off acquaintances.

never did get to watching sky crawlers today. mom was watching tv most of the day since she can't go out. she's waiting for a call from the union about all the shit that's going on with her work. she won't be able to leave at all tomorrow either, but we're thinking maybe wedsnday for seeing avatar at the IMAX. hopefully they'll get ahold of her tomorrow. though this could all be solved if she broke down and got a cell phone. lol but she's afraid of them i think, plus she hates the phone as it is now. i doubt she'd be too happy carrying one around with her. we want to go see the davinci exhibit at the vancouver art gallery, but we haven't decided on a day yet. it's just it's not ever day there's a showing in vancouver with some of davinci's actual drawings. this show is mostly anatomical drawings. 'the mechanics of man,' i think it's called and it's showing with a surrealist exhibit having to do with human anatomy. exciting stuff!

Chu,
Brit

i'm in a wierd place i guess. i get a call from kittie yesterday. apparently she had been trying to get a hold of me. shit went down, bad stuff though people are fine. rob was being a twat bag and ended up punching kittie's bf barry after barry told rob to 'fuck off' and that he and kittie were leaving. rob had been yelling at her and ignoring what she had to stay in defense. so i guess barry speaks up and get's a face full of fist for it. then runs up to the bedroom like a little bitch when he realizes kevin, one of kittie and rob's other roomates, is standing two feet away. barry is a close friend of kevin's gf, and can supposedly do some damage though is a sweety pie.

anyway kittie calls me, upset and still dealing with her anger etc towards rob. we talk, and i truly feel it for the best that she's decided to just say fuck it with him. i know kittie fairly well, it's hard to piss her off, but hurting the people she loves is a sure fire way to do it, and she's not usually one to forgive easily afterward where such things are concerned.

anyway there's more stuff but nothing worth mentioning, or it's just not mine to mention. bethany was on that night and i talked with her. probably not the best of ideas considerring i wasn't in the most sober frame of mind at the time. her whole defending rob thing just hit my switch i guess. i said a lot of things i shouldn't have. business between me and rob, business between kittie and rob etc. but i suppose it's best she have all the info rather than just some partial view he gives her. i suppose i'm just sick of everytime he has a fight it's like almost immediate that bethany steps in to try and smooth things over for him. it annoys me she would be willing after the way he treats her, and women in general in my view. anyway, so we have this big long discussion going through all sorts of things. shit he lied to me about, shit he's currently lying to her about and the like. i dunno if she believed any of it or not, but whatever... she's going to find out sooner or later what a tool he is anyway.

i've mentioned what happened at akicon before. he completely blew me off, even though i was willing to be civil. he never tried to speak to me or even acknowledge my existence, which was fine by me. i just went on being my usual self and made plenty of new con-ish friends anyway. i'm not horribly unattractive or unfriendly. most of the time in social situations am incrediably outgoing. this coupled with the fact i'm usually in costume i suppose endears me to people. i don't get shy in places like that, and being loud and friendly helps in such situations. i'm not going to play shy and hide behind a mask just because i make him feel awkward. i had fun. i don't give a shit if he feels the need to leave a room as soon as i enter.

anyway, after the first night he arrived, i kinda figured how the con would go. and wasn't very surprised when he didn't talk to me or even look at me much the entire time. i will admit, a sick side of me was chuckling that i was making him squirm. bethany had tried to come up to me and blame his behavior at him being nervous about seeing me, or he just didn't know how to react/apologize because his dad's a jerk or some shit. i don't really care. i told he what i believed. if he wanted to talk to me, he would.

so after all these goings on with barry, and bethany speaking to me.... most likely because she couldn't get ahold of kittie. after all of that bullshit. rob messages me and says, and i quote here!

"Im sorry. I really am. I'm willing to talk if you are."

gee, this is a good time. you upset my best friend. you punched a friend of mine, knocking out one of his teeth and causing him to get stitches... yeah i really want to talk about our fucking 'relationship.' i can't answer him now. i'm angry. when i do i'm going to make it blatently obvious that the only reason i'm willing to speak to him is to get rid of his need to exit my presence when i walk into a room. i can be civil, he should be to. we're not friends, and that's not changing.

Chu,
Brit

changed my lj theme to match my very favorite holiday. i love halloween so much! i'll prolly change it back once it's all over with. i already kinda miss my purpley little death. but i thought, lj has all these holiday themes i might as well abuse them.

so i have learned that rob is actually going to make it out to aki-con. which makes things entirely more awkward, but i'll deal. i'm kind of worried. i want to be civil with him, but he has a way of pushing buttons, and i don't want to end up in a fight around all of our mutual friends. it makes me even more thankful for the people i got. i know that if i tell kittie and izzy that i just can't do it, they'll have my back, and stay with me. i hate being alone. eh maybe i'll hit up the akicon forums and make some more friends too. maybe find a couple to hit on.

seeing what he does though, he'll prolly ignore my existence like he did with his ex-gf at ae. then again he could go the complete opposite route and make some big scene because he feels the need to prove his non pansy ways. i dunno, fact remains i'm concerned. one thing i don't expect him to do is apologize for any of it. in his mind i'm sure he thinks he did nothing wrong.

whatever, i'll try not to worry about it. i was so excited for akicon. to spend time with kittie and izzy... i don't want to let him ruin all that planning and hard work for me. so what, he found a way there. i can be polite to someone and dislike them, i do it all the time. best thing i can think of to get back at him is have an awesome time, be my usual, social self, and hit on as many little americans as possible.

things i have to do today include:
mail tanya's baby gift
mail rob's wig since i don't want to deal with it anymore.

i dunno if i can though. is the post office section even open on sundays? i don't think so. i might end up doing it tomorrow. rob's wig i can send through regular mail, but i don't think the baby things will fit. but if i don't go down there to ship those. there's no point in me getting dressed and sending out just rob's wig... hrmm dilemma. meh i'll just go tomorrow. i have all the addresses ready.

Chu,
Brit

this is the text log that started the fight. i'm nt posting this for any particular reason. i know what i did was right. i just told a few people i would put it up here so they could read, and some parts are lol worthy. take note that we would fight quite frequently, and it's not like this is just out of the blue, it's been quite a few months coming, and i even warned him during our fights that i would reach this point if he kept it up with his bitchy attitude. by this 'point' i mean the end of my rope.

me: wig is here! along with some mystery package i have to pick up.
rob:yay. if only i had mine...
me: well now your's can sit with mine and be friends. did your coat arrive?
rob:i like how you don't even apologize for forgetting it. yes coat came

(on a side note he's referring to when kittie came down and we hung out for a day. i apologized to him the next day for forgetting it. i don't apologize twice. i see no point in it)

me: I would have, but i blame society for not reminding me.
me: it's a birthday present
rob: marie did remind you and i already paid for it. it doesn't count as a birthday present.
me: marie reminded me after i had left the house. also i was talking about my mystery package, it's a birthday present from my aunt.
rob: yay... fuck you're useless
me: gee thanks buttercup. maybe you should take off you bitch panties for five seconds. it's not like anything can be done about it now.

(my time with kittie had been several weeks ago, and only for the one day.)

rob: nope and there really is no point complaining, because it's obvious you will never me reliable.
me: (now angry) that's rich coming from you. after all you were so reliable planning out this akicon trip, solely depending on donald for his vehicle. i knew you would fuck shit up the moment i tried talking to you about getting things rolling, and getting plans in order. so in the end all the people i was in charge of are still going, and you're still trying to get your shit together. fucking bite me, you are the most unreliable person i've ever met! i'll mail the stupid fucking thing to you. after that don't fucking talk to me anymore.
rob: that's right not fun when people aren't considerate of your feelings is it? you can dish it out, but you can't take it.

( most of our fights revolve around him getting his feelings hurt when i jokingly refer to his opinion not mattering because he has a penis. or because he watches lame shows, or is a physics student etc. the same sort of teasing jokes i use with anyone that had ever come in contact with me.)

me: that is completely not what this is about. i was trying to be nice and keep it light, but you were looking for a fight. i'm not going to do it anymore. you know ever since that one big fight where i ended up crying on the phone to kittie, i knew i could never date you. the fucking mind games you play not only with me, but with bethany too are just insane. i don't have the patience to care, so i thought fine, we'll be friends. but i'm not sure if we can even be that. you're self absorbed, you get jealous, you never think things through, and you have no common sense or common decency. you think everything should be about you, yet you don't even realize when someone else needs you more than you need yourself. i'm serious, i don't want to talk to you, or be friends with you anymore. if you make it out to akicon, tell dave he can bunk with some other lackey, i'm done with you.

after that is when i got home and he contacted me over fb. i lost the log but it pretty much hit around the same tune. except he the tried to say that i was the one who was self absorbed etc. yeah, i know. except for one major difference. mine's mainly an act. most people tend to figure that out. i don't do well with narcissists... he takes everything for face value. it's part of his problem. i'm below face value. if you can't figure that out, you're just not worth it.

Mirr Come on babes...LET'S ROCK! says: (1:29:54 AM)
he said my suggestion of prepping and telling his profs he was going to be away was shit. 'why would i take academic advice from an art-school drop out?' 
Sunny says: (1:30:07 AM)
uncalled for
Mirr Come on babes...LET'S ROCK! says: (1:30:12 AM)
i pointed out i've never been to art school. and i never dropped out of anything
Sunny says: (1:30:31 AM)
ugh what the fuck

one of the more lol worthy moment of the argument. though this is from my recapp discussion with kittie. since i don't have the fb log anymore when i deleted him from my friends-list.

Mirr Come on babes...LET'S ROCK! says: (1:33:32 AM)
then covered it when i said i never flunked out of anything. i passed with flying colours by saying 'yeah passed with flying colours in gumby math. real achievement.' or something of the like
Sunny says: (1:33:48 AM)
what the fuck
Mirr Come on babes...LET'S ROCK! says: (1:34:04 AM)
whatever. least i can fucking read a bus ticket
Sunny says: (1:34:11 AM)
snaaaaap

referring to, of course the now infamous may long weekend hang out. when he took the bus down, and read the schedual instead of his ticket for boarding time, and missed it by a half an hour. he then took another bus, but didn't ask the driver or clerk when that would arrive, and proceeded to just make up a time in his head when it would be there. i ended up waiting in a chilliwack wendy's for him for 3 hours. lucky they had good frosties.

i had a 2 hour talk with kittie tonight. it was funny, and totally worth missing dancing with the stars for. we're both super excited for aki-con, so we talked about that, and of course rob. apparently he's being extra jerky to her, and she's been avoiding him. she's trying to remain unbiased and just be nice despite me fighting with him. but apparently he was being an ass so she said screw it for the day.

quotes:
(me on rob.)
i'm beyond not caring. if not caring was an island, i'd be out to sea. i'd have a telescope and still not see that shit.

(kittie, on persona 2)
i want to resurrect hitler and be gay with my best friend.

(me on a weiss kreuz cosplay)
i'd be the gayest aya ever. i'd follow behind you and point and say 'lawwwwl ken.' you'd be ken by the way.

she has no choice. she'd be ken, no excuses. i'm sure there was some other shit in there. like if how we did a weiss kruez cosplay i'd challenge her to poke battles. i'm not sure why that's funny. but it is to me. really it would just be me chucking pokeballs at her. or perhaps my wabbafat. i told her she could borrow him if she ever did like a team galactic cosplay/pokemon cosplay whatevs.

Chu,
Brit

no getting into details. least not yet, i don't have the time. i should have already been sleeping. but having a friend, and then making the decision to break contact with said friend for certain reasons that i know are justified. i would think i would feel sadder. true, earlier i was angry about what was said, now i'm not. i just feel an entire weight lifted. i don't have to deal with it anymore, and i feel free.

Chu,
Brit

well so i talked to evelyn today. she says that on nov 5th, the day kittie, izzy and i are going to be bussing out to everett for akicon, i can leave as soon as tyler gets there. he usually gets there around 2. but he said he'd try and make it 130, and i really appreciate it.

so i came up with this idea that at akicon, for like the last day, me and kittie should get like angel wings and halos for our cosplays. since she's going as aerith, and i'm going as kadaj, and we both die... makes for big lolz, least to us. so after work i headed to zellers to see if they had an angel costume i could use. they didn't, but since i was there, i figured i'd go to the bookstore. they're in the same mall. i finally asked about the next in line of the psy/changling series. i found out there was one out i hadn't read. it came out in july and the next comes out in november. so i'm super swanked ♥

i'm kinda of annoyed tonight. though only just because my new book it making for happy reading time. rob is upset about not going to akicon. before he had told me about the news. he had been watching some gay show on tv, and kittie had fb'd a status about it. i commented, and rob commented back in a joking manner. so i said 'shut up rob, your opinion doesn't matter, you have a penis.' i then texted him this morning like i do most people. i usually text rob, kittie and lately izzy before i head in to work. usually it's nothing. just comments, or asking how they are sort of shit. so i sent him a text asking if he was still in a shitty mood. well he didn't text me back, but when i got off work i noticed he had, and it was really bitchy. so i assumed he was just being an ass, because kittie had sent me a txt saying he was getting on her nerves, and being a total ass to her as she tried to help him out with his akicon problem. so i was just like 'fine whatever,' and had all intention of avoiding speaking with him. anyway he basically tries to pick a fight with me, saying i'm always insulting him etc. which is complete bullshit. when i 'insult' him, it's usually me joking around. i can't modify my personality because little baby rob didn't get his nap! anyway he says everytime he says anything back to me. i say something and make him feel bad. oh um hmm gee that sounds familiar. except when he gets snappy and actually insults me, he isn't kidding. he's just having a 'bad day,' or 'meagan's whining is getting to him.' whatever. then he has the nerve to say. 'you want to know who else did that shit. my psycho ex-girlfriend!' and i was just like 'don't ever compare me to your ex, i'm not your girlfriend, i'm your friend.' and honestly, i may have been interested in going down that road earlier.... but seriously, long before this fight he lost his chance of that EVER happening. he is way too self centered, egotistical, and sensitive for me. it occurs to me that i need someone as thick headed, and stubborn as i am. like a real guy guy. these sensitive dudes just can't keep up. david, josh and now rob... i run them over. i need someone with as thick a skin as i have. guess the chinese horoscope called it. a rabbit just can't compete with a tiger -shrugs-

in other news, my dad wants to start doing laps at the leisure center. i thought it'd be fun for me to go along too. the leisure center opens up again on monday, since they had construction. but i need to find a new bathing suit. there's no way i'm ruining my bikini in chlorine for a workout. i'll find one of those one pieces that are made for pool use.

i was kinda a super jerk a couple weeks ago. and i know it sounds so bad and highschool, but i totally put up the pic of the two hot asian guys that chased down izzy and me at ae, and who we then went out on a date with a couple weeks later. it was really just to piss him off, because he hated it when i would comment on anyone attractive, or when i would get hit on around him. i know it was bitchy, but i thought it was hilarious.

Chu
Brit

ok so through txt messages kittie and i have finally worked out what will be going on for akicon. i was really pleased she was with me in not leaving it up to rob, and all for going the day early, and leaving the day after instead of racing like rob had wanted us to do. also she even looked up amtrak for us and turns out it's going to be quite a bit cheaper than when we went to seattle which is awesome. i'll have to talk to evelyn about leaving early on thursday, and talk to my dad about dropping me off in vancouver so i can book it down to where ever the station down there is.

good thing too, since tonight rob revealed that donald's not going, so he has no ride etc. i feel bad that i don't feel bad for him, if that makes any sense. i just... don't give a shit. he and donald just made me really pissed off. so now, it's like a total girl's weekend. i kind of feel like a bitch since i was like 'well if you can get a ride down here, we're leaving on thursday.' and he was all 'well how's kittie getting down?' and i said she was flying, like durr? after all, kittie flys for free because of her dad's work. and he was just like 'yeah of course she is...' it just came off really sarcastic and kinda catty. like we should have figured out a backup plan for him too. i mean come on, are you serious? he's the one that said he was organizing rides and shit. of course it was a bad idea to put it all on donald going with his truck.

then he spends like $500 on a leather trench for cosplay, and complains he can't afford to bus it down or take amtrak. kittie and i did warn him, and told him to save the cash and buy the complete costume made of leatherette off ebay for $100, but he chose not to listen. no i'm kinda in that state where i feel i should feel bad that i'm so excited to spend time with izzy and kittie, but really i'm not, because i'm happy.... then i feel like a giant bitch. though hearing shit he's done through kittie makes me feel a little bit less like a cow. apparently he's pissing her off. and people pretty much know how protective of kittie i can get.

okay so here's the setup. i'm going as kadaj and kittie is going as aerith. so we're gonna kinda match again. fun stuffs, we can hold hands. i dunno if izzy's going to do a cosplay. i'll have to ask her later i guess.

i will admit, as vain as it sounds. i really like my ass. like a know it's small, but i think it looks good. i mean i'd look really odd if i had a bubble ass. i like mine, it's just enough to squish.

erica and i went out for wing night with her bf tim. wings are tasty, and cheap. it was nice to see her again, and hang out. i just want the weekend to be here so i'll be off work... lol

Chu
Brit

i'm getting extrememly frustrated with rob and his friends. like i know sometimes i do things last minute. kittie and i went to sakuracon last minute. but the difference is, they have like two months to figure this shit out and they're being all wishy washy, and rob is letting them. if it was me, it would never happen. once kittie and i decided to go, we found a way there, i booked hotels, we did our pre-reg and then it was done, no more fucking around. hotels get more expensive the closer you book to your date, or isn't anyone aware of that?

like honestly, i want to tear my hair out. he blames it on donald, and says how donald's pissing him off.... well fuck, he's your friend. just say to him either you're coming or you're not! end of story. my only concern is getting izzy, kittie and i there. and i have the means of doing that, though i don't really want to be driving that far. i suppose it's alright, it's not like everett's really big or anything like seattle. anyway...

then there's the issue of his classes or some bullshit. oh no we can't leave till the day of the con because he has classes that friday. honestly? like i understand it's your last semester. but get your notes and shit a head of time, tell your prof and get your ass down here on thursday! he's all, so many kids fail this class... well one day isn't going to make a difference if you pass or fail. especially if you're prepared ahead of time. it's like the concept eludes him... god i'm so annoyed.

my solution was, kittie comes down, me her and izzy break it for everett on the thursday after i get off work. and then firday is all good for us. they can meet us down there if they want to. that way donald's not my problem, and rob's classes aren't my problem. he's so worried about not having donald's truck, like if we don't have it we can't go... well then he can wait around for donald, and his friend to find thier own assholes.

like i already have anxiety about big trips like this. i don't want to deal with any of this anymore. i'm already pissed i can't get the thursday off. apparently it's mandy's birthday or some shit. like are you kidding me, you have five waitresses and you think only mandy can cover me. maybe i'll talk to julia after, or amanda, i'm pretty sure she takes night courses.

Chu
Brit

me: i just ate the most heart attack inducing
lunch ever. and it was delicious.

rob: what was it?

me: cheese fried in a pan with a bunch
of butter

rob: ...

me: i'm pretty sure i put some zuccini
in there too

rob: that is terrible

me: it was magical

rob: I bet it was

me: you should have seen the butter dripping
from it. it was glorious

rob: you are such a fatty
I felt bad because I have been a fatty the
last while. but Im not even close to that

me: i licked the butter off the plate.... it
tasted like cheese

i think he's jealous of my mad cooking skills.

Chu,
Brit