home again home again, jiggity jig... or in this case, back to the usual theme. well vday is over, so might as well switch it all back to the familiarity of skulls, death and purple. because really that's every girls' dream... i don't know why i'm talking about this actually. my life must be that boring.

so since my phone informed me that it was actually payday last sunday. i now know i officially have 8 days left to book sc pre-order. no worries, i'll get it done. prolly tomorrow when i get my room back, and my privacy returned to me. least for the night anyway.

right-o. yeah so my sisters are visiting... well 2 of them at least. 1 isn't even really my sister i just call her one since we've known each other since we were kids and it's just easier to say to people she's my step sister rather than explaining our retarded family dynamic. she does the same, so i don't feel it's awkward. see my mom had her first marriage and during that she had my two older sisters, jaime and nikki. then she got divorced and had me with my dad years and years later. well my sisters' dad also got re-married quite some time later, and married a woman with a really young daughter named laura. laura is like 4 or 5 years younger than me, which puts her majorly younger than my sisters. well my mom's on pretty good terms with her first husband, and when she was a teen, nikki lived with him so i would stay with her dad and his new wife when i went for visits with nikki during the summer. so i've known laura since she was about 6. she would also come down here with nikki sometimes, and i know it sounds kinda wierd, but she would stay with us, so we;ve kinda grown up with one another around. so she is my little sister and we do get along quite well. well apparently laura wanted to come down and see me and the gang when nikki was supposed to come down as well, so nikki brought her along too.

on the way down, nikki's new jeep was having issues, which it has been having issues for awhile. it's under warranty so she would take it in, but the problem wasn't getting fixed apparently. so she drove it down here, and it started acting up again. because she was down here she took it to the shop down here, and apparently the thing needs a new engine. they're now trying to get out of the warranty because it's a $10,000 car. but my dad (my sister's step dad) is helping her out. he's a mechanic so he knows what to say and how to argue with these guys i guess. anyway, he's dealing with it, but it kinda means she's stuck down here for the time being, which is not good.

she was supposed to go back yesterday, but stayed down the extra day because of the jeep. and because apparently they told her she can't take the loaner car they gave her to kelowna. so kayden's already missed a day of school, and apparently she's freaking out a little because she needs to get kayden and bella back to kelowna by tomorrow evening because they're supposed to be with their dad next week. nikki and the father of her kids are no longer together. so she's leaving early tomorrow, taking them and laura back, because laura needs to be back for work and then coming back down to deal with all the jeep crap. i dunno if she's going there and coming back in the same day, or if she's going to stay up there for a day or two before coming back down...

my worry is... that it started snowing today. and not just a light dust. it was sticking. so i can just imagine what the highway connecting the coast and kelowna looks like, since it winds through the mountains. all well, i'm sure it'll all get figured out.

so last night i was a total nerd, and after work i went with my sisters and kayden to see the bieber movie, 'never say never.' i will admit i did find it entertaining. suprisingly i never actually hate the biebs. suprising because i tend to hate everything... but i kinda see him as the kitten in the charmin commercials. justin bieber, oh you... after watching it, i kinda like the kid. he works pretty hard. he's generally nice to people, and my favorite part is he gets his staff before a show to go out and find groups of kids and if they're fans he gives them free tickets. which is kinda nice... also i like anyone that tries to entertain me with dancing. i've also developed a small platonic crush on jaden smith. that kid's cute!♥♥
i swear if i ever have a black kid, i want him to be just like jaden smith. being that this is highly unlikely. i'll just buy a new cat and name him jaden then make him dance for treats. i like that idea far better.

i hope i can have my bed back, at least for the night tomorrow... maybe i'll just steal it back, fall asleep in it and kick nikki out if she comes back down the same day as she leaves. i have a huge bed, so her and laura have been sharing and then bella has been sleeping in the play pen beside them. this usually works because i need utter silence when i sleep. i usually sleep alone so the sound of someone breathing beside me, bothers me... there's only a couple people i can handle. like izzy♥
because she's completely silent. nikki breathes through her mouth, and sometimes she snores :C
i'll be crossing my fingers. updated the groove list.

Chu,
Brit

after much toil and strife, xmas is finally here. and all i can think of is of how much has changed. it especially hit me when i went to my staff party last monday. i mean a year ago, kitty was with me and i was comforting rocky as i questioned my friendship with mandy. i remember kittie bought me my first tales game and jeanne d'arc for my new psp. i'm pretty sure that was the year i had no license... so we were drinking and shennanigans. i miss having kittie live close, but i suppose as long as she's happy, that's what's important. more importantly she's away from certain other individuals i do not trust.

but that's all past. in the here and now all i can do is sit back and watch. it's odd having kayden and bella here for the holidays. i mean my family hasn't spent an xmas here in several years. usually we go to nikki's but since the fire and the sepparation we can't obviously. shopping was a hassle, as it always is. i hate doing it every year :C but whatever, i'm pretty confident most of the presents i got people will be liked.

the austin's xmas party was held at some buffet this year instead of just at the restaurant. i'm not sure what changed with that, but then again i don't really care. i got all i could eat crabs legs out of it. micheal and evelyn gave us each a gift card to old navy/gap/banana republic worth $100. i was hoping i could get some of those knit adora boots. i don't really shop at any of those stores, but free's free i guess. despite that i found some things when julia, stacey and i wetn to the mall after dinner. all the rest of the crew decided to go bowling or something. i'm not sure if i could stand that. i'm not really friends with jeff and mandy, and their complexes annoy me now. luckily the girls i was giving the ride to didn't really feel up to bowling either. but shopping was a-okay! so i got a sweater, a cover-up and a tank top. though unfortunately they didn't have the boots i wanted. after that i came home and my dad suggested maybe heading to see avatar. we had tried on sunday and tickets were sold out. so i agreed and we raced down. dad got pulled over but the cop was feeling the xmas spirit i guess and let him off with a warning. we made it and saw the movie. unfortunatly it wasn't in 3D. but kayden wants to see it too, so i might take him to the colossus imax 3D on saturday. it was really good. easily a new favorite of mine... as i assumed i liked the blue people. they were badass.

that's it for now i guess. uncle tim stopped by and we all got to open our presents from him. he bought me oui by lacome, since my regular perfume, betsy johnson is discontinued. it smells really nice, apparently the lady said it was similar. i think the effort he put in was sweet. xmas day is probably going to be spent at marcy's, nikki and i are both not looking forward to it. but it's dad's family, so it's for him mainly. besides we can entertain each other.

Chu,
Brit

called work early, nobody answered at first but evelyn called me back later and said they still weren't open. had a lazy day for the most part, though i did find out through nikki that jaime had the fraggle rock box set, so i went on a mad search for the receipt so i could return it. found it in the bottom of my car, behind my seat. during this time i kinda had to tell mom i got her the same thing. since she was all 'well why can't we keep it,' 'c'mon, let's just keep it....' etc. till finally i told her i got her one. she seemed pleased, though it kinda sucks i had to ruin the surprise.

as i said, lazy day though.... didn't get ready and head out till around six. apparently i looked 'cute' today. my mom was quite upset, since it meant she had to put effort in and look cute too if she was going out with me... that made me laugh. since it used to be the other way around. i was the one that always looked like trash and she was the one in her steve madden heels and guess jeans. i don't know, maybe it's a step in the right direction that i care about the way i look again. rather than moving into my old mentality of just getting everything over with. i suppose it helps i tossed/donated most of my trash clothes. i dunno i figure if i'm making the effort to go out when i'm not working, i might as well look awesome while i do it right? plus it was an excuse to wear my favorite boots!

so anyway, i took the set back and got jaime and the kids a new present... well 2 technically. i hope they don't have them, but if they do well they can suck it up and wait until after the holidays! though now i do have to wrap 2 more presents :C

dad and i have plans to see avatar on sunday. i'm quite excited actually. i keep hearing good things from people who live in a different time zone, or people that saw a pre-showing. i hope it lives up to my expectations. i like the blue people. i think they're fucking cool looking. evelyn called me around 4 and said that the restaurant will be open tomorrow. i was like 'aw fucker.' i mean i'm not hurting for cash or anything... i have two paychecks in my purse i still haven't deposited and a wallet full of twenties from collected tips. plus i was kinda enjoying my impromptu break. it also kinda suck going to work for one day, and then having three off. maybe more... i keep forgetting it's xmas, and to check the schedual to see when we close up for the holidays.

Chu,
Brit

my second guitar lesson is tonight. i don't know if i like it so far. it's just too early for me to tell. i mean yeah, music is cool and i suppose having hobbies that don't involve talking to your cat make people think you're a little more trustworthy. but i like things where i'm good at them right away, and there's quite a few things i'm like that with.... so working for something isn't huge on my 'my pleasure' list.

it also takes time, which impedes on my sleeping, and general laziness. i mean i can say i could be using the time more productively all i want. but truth is i probably would have just spent it watching criminal minds. it's wierd having something i have to do besides work. i'm still not used to the whole groove of it. i forget to practice a lot. this week i only practiced for 3 days, and even they it wasn't like it was an hour long. maybe 15-20 mins. whatevs... i now have a g and c cord memorized so i suppose that's good enough. i tried to pick my way through i've got a feeling, but i dunno what i'm doing wrong, it just doesn't sound right... maybe i'll quickly revue seven nation army to try and impress. i was always good at that one when i played bass.

other than that i dunno too much what's going on in my life. nikki's coming down for xmas with the kids. i'd love to know the exact date but she's being a douche and not answering my txt's. i tried calling her too and she didn't pick up.... wanker. now i'm just really craving a junior chicken from mcdonalds.

Chu,
Brit

so it's my birthday today. i wake up and come out to what i think will be an empty house beyond the cats and dogs, but turns out mom's here. she was just being quiet. a feat in itself. so i come out of my room to a chorus from pico and roxie, as per the usual. pico wants attention and in the room so we can cuddle. which i wouldn't have minded, i had some time. but my mom's here so i officially wake up and go and kiss her on the cheek and get my card. turns out she bought me 10 guitar lessons from the music store that just opened up. i don't really know why, since i haven't much played and instrument since i was like 11 and she decided i could play the piano instead of the violin like i had wished.

i showed some desire to learn guitar a few years ago, but that quickly faded. i got bored i suppose. but i feel bad because she could tell i wasn't too enthuised, and she spent nearly $200 on it. i guess i just can't fake it this early in the morning. but i lied anyway and said it was a cool gift. i'll take the lessons, who knows maybe i'll have a bit of fun. i'm just worried on how it will fit into what i do on a day to day basis. ie. work.

speaking of work, i have to today which is kind of lame. mandy can't work on her birthday but i absolutely have to on mine. like i realize it's your kid, but sometimes you just have to tell them to suck it up. whatever. i'll only be there for like 3 hours on nov 5th because i need to catch my bus out to everett.

hurricane nikki is rolling into town tonight. apparently she has some concert she wants to go to tomorrow, and i'm her date because her friend backed out. normally i wouldn't mind, but i just really didn't want to go. not because i don't like rob thomas or anything of the sort, but because i work the next morning, and i know i'm going mainly as her drunk sitter and ride. i suppose it's better than her original plan. i drive her and her friend there, then come back a few hours later and pick them up... it's like a 2 hour fucking drive. yeesh, sometimes she can be so retardedly selfish.

i woke up to a bunch of birthday wishes on my wall. most of them from the older ladies and gents that can actually do mornings. erica and ichiko texted me last night. ichi at like 5 pm, and erica at like 1 in the morn, which would have usually pissed me off. but it was sweet of her, and an amusing conversation so i can forgive. apparently because nikki's not coming till like 7 or 8, we're waiting off on dinner and going to the pub. i didn't really want to go to the pub, but i can't really complain. either way i get to eat. secretly i was kinda hoping for the olive garden. haven't been there forever. but i'm not going to mention it. i suppose it's better to have more family there, than where it is that we go.

Chu,
Brit

nicole ended up staying longer than i thought she was. she leaves tomorrow, and i've managed fairly well, thought i've been tired as hell. i was able to spend the weekend with her and the kids. we went to playland, stanley park and castle fun park. it was a nice visit. the rest of the week i had to work till 4, so we couldn't do much.... but we packed it all in there. going out for dinner, shopping, going to the movies. it was nice.

nikki was upset because mom apparently didn't spend any time with her. didn't go out with her and the kids etc. all she did was stay home and play eve. if i was nikki i'd be pissed too. she's taken off this time and come down here to see us. my sister's a nurse, she doesn't get much time off, and with the divorce. i think she just really needs her family. i mean, she's had to move and now has to share custody of her kids. not to mention jason's now engaged and living with the woman he cheated with. it's a big adjustment. i can see how it's draining on her. she's had to move into the basement suite of the house owned by her dad and grand parents.

i had a long talk with nikki tonight about the goings on with the family. my mom had apparently told jaime she was going to go and visit.... but now says to nikki she's not. jaime lives in virginia, and really is on her own down there. she had no family, is married to a jerk, and has to live with his douchebag parents. she's extremely depressed, and i think just suffering major cabin fever, since she still can't leave the country. i miss both my sisters. i miss people around me that will love me unconditionally, even if i am a bit of a fuck up. they never really pressure me, only encourage, and although they can drive me nuts at times.... its because they're family, and not because they're purposefully bringing me down.

i had been pondering moving up to be with nikki a while a go. but i didn't really mention it to her. yet here she was tonight, offering me the extra room at her place, and even saying she could talk to her friends about maybe having me work at the mrs. vanelli's they just bought. problem is, i want to go to school. so, i'd have to figure it all out... dad said he'd prefer it if i did my first 2 years at douglas since it's cheaper... but then i wouldn't be able to live on my own, and i couldn't move in with nikki.

on a grosser note.... my hair's falling out. not to the point where you can notice it really. just in the shower a lot comes off.... i think it's due to stress. i've been taking vitamin b complex to help keep myself from going bald i guess.

kittie apparently ran off to kelowna during the time she was on black out for talking. i know she was having a rough time, but i feel kinda bad i didn't know she wasn't even in the same city, and i had no idea.

i miss rob.... he eats my left over food and does stupid things to make me laugh and make fun of him. he's good for my ego. he also calls me pretty. he'd be happy if i lived in kelowna. my sister wants to meet him, and feed him for some dumb reason. i'm planning to go with my dad to visit her at the end of august.



from the show last night... can't wait for the new true blood eps this sunday. it's going to be magical! i went and say ice age 3 today. i wasn't a huge fan of the first one, and i never saw the second, but i really did love this one... i liked the baby dinosaurs.

i don't want to work tomorrow. i want to curl up and not leave the house for a week or so. two more days, and then i can do that for like 3 days...

love,
Brit