hey gang. so life's been going good i guess... i dunno, depends on your definition. i've been kind of antsy and, i'm not sure the word. maybe jittery as of late. yesterday was really bad. i was just so down and depressed for no reason, and i couldn't sleep. it was horrid... i'm not sure, i think it's because sc is coming up, and trips always makes me nervous. couple that with the fact i have to gather my funds for a new cos, pretty soonish. an expensive one XP i have several expensive costumes coming up that are making me a tad nervous, but i think it'll all work out and i'm just being an odd duck.

other major news is that i applied to be a model in the sixh fashion show while i'll be in seattle. i dunno if i'll make the cut, but i kinda just applied because i think it might be fun. getting all decked out in visual kei. unfortunately all my sample pics are me in cosplay because i'm a wierd and have no normal pictures of myself XD if i was less insane/had more time, i would have just gotten john to take a couple. but alas, i needed to get the submission in before the end of the month. they'll be contacting people by mid-march. i'm not getting my hopes up though.
( here are the pics i usedCollapse )

all but the first were taken by john i think... he makes me look pretty, when really i'm just awkward and stupid. i'm sure i had much more to say, but i can't remember any of it. so i wanted to bring back a tradition i started years and years ago. it was pretty crude and dumb. but looking into old hard drives i found all those wacky pics i captioned, and i miss doing that. so i'm bringing it back. I'M BRINGING IT BACK YO!
just for all of you, amaze in my wit and uncanny humor.

i know it's amazing. don't ask me what the hell it means.... i just laugh everytime i say this line to myself. on to the next topic. i've been crazing backed macaroni and cheese for the past 3 days. but for some reason my mom keeps making dinner, so i can't just go out and buy some. lol sorry momo, i'm sure your chicken is delicious, but no. i'm not eating it. I BOUGHT MY DINNER DESPITE ALL THAT EFFORT YOU WENT TO! that'd be kinda jerky of me.
and i know specifically what mac and cheese i want. i want the mac and cheese from red robins. it's delicious, backed, it comes with cheese toast and a ceasar salad. mmmm god that sound good right now. i love cheese. i'm such a fat person at heart.
despite this craving, i have been good and eating what was made for me. but then for snack tonight i made a toasted tomato sandwich and it was awesome. mayo makes everything spectacular! it's like the orgasm condiment, which sounds really wrong. but then again i say the same thing about hot sauce... *MY* hotsauce, not that wussy frank's, or tabasco shit. that stuff tastes like vinegar. korean hotsauce, that's where it's at.

Chu,
Britt