nicole ended up staying longer than i thought she was. she leaves tomorrow, and i've managed fairly well, thought i've been tired as hell. i was able to spend the weekend with her and the kids. we went to playland, stanley park and castle fun park. it was a nice visit. the rest of the week i had to work till 4, so we couldn't do much.... but we packed it all in there. going out for dinner, shopping, going to the movies. it was nice.

nikki was upset because mom apparently didn't spend any time with her. didn't go out with her and the kids etc. all she did was stay home and play eve. if i was nikki i'd be pissed too. she's taken off this time and come down here to see us. my sister's a nurse, she doesn't get much time off, and with the divorce. i think she just really needs her family. i mean, she's had to move and now has to share custody of her kids. not to mention jason's now engaged and living with the woman he cheated with. it's a big adjustment. i can see how it's draining on her. she's had to move into the basement suite of the house owned by her dad and grand parents.

i had a long talk with nikki tonight about the goings on with the family. my mom had apparently told jaime she was going to go and visit.... but now says to nikki she's not. jaime lives in virginia, and really is on her own down there. she had no family, is married to a jerk, and has to live with his douchebag parents. she's extremely depressed, and i think just suffering major cabin fever, since she still can't leave the country. i miss both my sisters. i miss people around me that will love me unconditionally, even if i am a bit of a fuck up. they never really pressure me, only encourage, and although they can drive me nuts at times.... its because they're family, and not because they're purposefully bringing me down.

i had been pondering moving up to be with nikki a while a go. but i didn't really mention it to her. yet here she was tonight, offering me the extra room at her place, and even saying she could talk to her friends about maybe having me work at the mrs. vanelli's they just bought. problem is, i want to go to school. so, i'd have to figure it all out... dad said he'd prefer it if i did my first 2 years at douglas since it's cheaper... but then i wouldn't be able to live on my own, and i couldn't move in with nikki.

on a grosser note.... my hair's falling out. not to the point where you can notice it really. just in the shower a lot comes off.... i think it's due to stress. i've been taking vitamin b complex to help keep myself from going bald i guess.

kittie apparently ran off to kelowna during the time she was on black out for talking. i know she was having a rough time, but i feel kinda bad i didn't know she wasn't even in the same city, and i had no idea.

i miss rob.... he eats my left over food and does stupid things to make me laugh and make fun of him. he's good for my ego. he also calls me pretty. he'd be happy if i lived in kelowna. my sister wants to meet him, and feed him for some dumb reason. i'm planning to go with my dad to visit her at the end of august.



from the show last night... can't wait for the new true blood eps this sunday. it's going to be magical! i went and say ice age 3 today. i wasn't a huge fan of the first one, and i never saw the second, but i really did love this one... i liked the baby dinosaurs.

i don't want to work tomorrow. i want to curl up and not leave the house for a week or so. two more days, and then i can do that for like 3 days...

love,
Brit