i'm in a wierd place i guess. i get a call from kittie yesterday. apparently she had been trying to get a hold of me. shit went down, bad stuff though people are fine. rob was being a twat bag and ended up punching kittie's bf barry after barry told rob to 'fuck off' and that he and kittie were leaving. rob had been yelling at her and ignoring what she had to stay in defense. so i guess barry speaks up and get's a face full of fist for it. then runs up to the bedroom like a little bitch when he realizes kevin, one of kittie and rob's other roomates, is standing two feet away. barry is a close friend of kevin's gf, and can supposedly do some damage though is a sweety pie.

anyway kittie calls me, upset and still dealing with her anger etc towards rob. we talk, and i truly feel it for the best that she's decided to just say fuck it with him. i know kittie fairly well, it's hard to piss her off, but hurting the people she loves is a sure fire way to do it, and she's not usually one to forgive easily afterward where such things are concerned.

anyway there's more stuff but nothing worth mentioning, or it's just not mine to mention. bethany was on that night and i talked with her. probably not the best of ideas considerring i wasn't in the most sober frame of mind at the time. her whole defending rob thing just hit my switch i guess. i said a lot of things i shouldn't have. business between me and rob, business between kittie and rob etc. but i suppose it's best she have all the info rather than just some partial view he gives her. i suppose i'm just sick of everytime he has a fight it's like almost immediate that bethany steps in to try and smooth things over for him. it annoys me she would be willing after the way he treats her, and women in general in my view. anyway, so we have this big long discussion going through all sorts of things. shit he lied to me about, shit he's currently lying to her about and the like. i dunno if she believed any of it or not, but whatever... she's going to find out sooner or later what a tool he is anyway.

i've mentioned what happened at akicon before. he completely blew me off, even though i was willing to be civil. he never tried to speak to me or even acknowledge my existence, which was fine by me. i just went on being my usual self and made plenty of new con-ish friends anyway. i'm not horribly unattractive or unfriendly. most of the time in social situations am incrediably outgoing. this coupled with the fact i'm usually in costume i suppose endears me to people. i don't get shy in places like that, and being loud and friendly helps in such situations. i'm not going to play shy and hide behind a mask just because i make him feel awkward. i had fun. i don't give a shit if he feels the need to leave a room as soon as i enter.

anyway, after the first night he arrived, i kinda figured how the con would go. and wasn't very surprised when he didn't talk to me or even look at me much the entire time. i will admit, a sick side of me was chuckling that i was making him squirm. bethany had tried to come up to me and blame his behavior at him being nervous about seeing me, or he just didn't know how to react/apologize because his dad's a jerk or some shit. i don't really care. i told he what i believed. if he wanted to talk to me, he would.

so after all these goings on with barry, and bethany speaking to me.... most likely because she couldn't get ahold of kittie. after all of that bullshit. rob messages me and says, and i quote here!

"Im sorry. I really am. I'm willing to talk if you are."

gee, this is a good time. you upset my best friend. you punched a friend of mine, knocking out one of his teeth and causing him to get stitches... yeah i really want to talk about our fucking 'relationship.' i can't answer him now. i'm angry. when i do i'm going to make it blatently obvious that the only reason i'm willing to speak to him is to get rid of his need to exit my presence when i walk into a room. i can be civil, he should be to. we're not friends, and that's not changing.

Chu,
Brit