Respect, please
i honestly want a large group to read this, but I do have to rate it about teen. Please note this is about how i am treated by one person and it mightbe a trigger for some of you.
For a long time, i was active in my church, mostly VBS.
Most years I was part of the music department, but I was constantly turned away from the kitchen because it was 'kids first' before volunteers. Even my most innocent interactions were seen as 'pesky fly who doesn't understand the rules'.
I finally got around that when i did outside activities, but this entry isn't about that and the kitchen regime.
This is about Margie.
I attended one of her VBS summers at her church and every interaction since was negative and filled with dislike.
Back then, I was told to go sit down and was barely given the chance before she got up into my space in that 'discipline misbehaving child' way that i felt was completely uncalled for, but ive since understood miss control freak has a mental image of the world and will make you feel like shit to do it.
She's considered a 'pillar of the community' and cant be touched or badmouthed, so i can't say anything. But I want someone to take her down a few pegs, it just won't be me because I don't think it would be as meaningful or as fulfilling but it'll never happen.
I know she doesn't like me - and i know very well that most church goers are even more biased against the people they are supposed to accept - and the feeling is very mutual.
I think she might still be a teacher and i thought i heard that she had experience with 'special needs' kids, but that shocked me because my early interactions with her did not reflect the type of person she claims to be.
Im not going to let her win, but I don't know how or if i should set that horrible behavior aside for the good of the team. I don't think she is an inclusive leader and i want many people to see that, but i know it's never going to happen.
I compare her to other church people and find her significantly lacking, so i don't think she's happy in life or maybe she is and has a shit way to show it.
Margie is a fake and I said what i said. I just need to figure out how to navigate future interactions without losing my cool and getting a bystander in trouble.
For a long time, i was active in my church, mostly VBS.
Most years I was part of the music department, but I was constantly turned away from the kitchen because it was 'kids first' before volunteers. Even my most innocent interactions were seen as 'pesky fly who doesn't understand the rules'.
I finally got around that when i did outside activities, but this entry isn't about that and the kitchen regime.
This is about Margie.
I attended one of her VBS summers at her church and every interaction since was negative and filled with dislike.
Back then, I was told to go sit down and was barely given the chance before she got up into my space in that 'discipline misbehaving child' way that i felt was completely uncalled for, but ive since understood miss control freak has a mental image of the world and will make you feel like shit to do it.
She's considered a 'pillar of the community' and cant be touched or badmouthed, so i can't say anything. But I want someone to take her down a few pegs, it just won't be me because I don't think it would be as meaningful or as fulfilling but it'll never happen.
I know she doesn't like me - and i know very well that most church goers are even more biased against the people they are supposed to accept - and the feeling is very mutual.
I think she might still be a teacher and i thought i heard that she had experience with 'special needs' kids, but that shocked me because my early interactions with her did not reflect the type of person she claims to be.
Im not going to let her win, but I don't know how or if i should set that horrible behavior aside for the good of the team. I don't think she is an inclusive leader and i want many people to see that, but i know it's never going to happen.
I compare her to other church people and find her significantly lacking, so i don't think she's happy in life or maybe she is and has a shit way to show it.
Margie is a fake and I said what i said. I just need to figure out how to navigate future interactions without losing my cool and getting a bystander in trouble.