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*please watch your step. This is an angry therapy entry*
Is it just me or do older people use the age excuse to treat people like shit? "I'm your elder so you're supposed to respect me and don't talk back."
Then there's "You have to earn respect, it is not given."
So I can give an older person respect when I think they've earned it?
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There's an older person in my household that is one of those ... overbearing (?) types and it grates on my fucking nerves. Especially when I'm strung out already.
I get it. They are stuck at home all day, doing all the chores that the rest of us don't have time to do. I do feel bad about that, but it hasn't been a good several weeks. And I'm out of energy so I can't do a fucking thing even if I wanted to.
Then there's assumptions about "she said later, which means never" and I'm like, you know what? If you already knew that, why ask when you can fucking do it yourself then? I was already thinking about doing what you asked until that point, so now I'm not willing to do that anymore.
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I'm an introvert. I can't deal with people and being fucking nice twenty. Four. Seven.
I want to be brutally honest and know that someone isn't going to take offense. I'm not necessarily a nice person and the muzzle fucking chafes all the damn time.
I don't necessarily mean to snap at people, but that's how it comes across apparently.
And, yeah, I would like that freedom of pouring vitriol about someone just for the sake of venting about being talked to like a child or that I'm not fucking okay with how communication has apparently been on a downward spiral and I think I knew that at some point but the person I've been going to about regular stuff might not have actually been all that helpful because now I don't know what to talk to them about without feeling worse than I already was.
I now have the option of talking to a few other people who might be better for me to talk to and I need that option open to me right now. Because lately I've been lashing out and bossing people around and I'm almost seventy five percent certain the last one is not entirely on me.
The person I've been going to told me some things and I don't think they meant for me to act the way I've been acting as a result of those things. I suspect it was to boost my confidence or self esteem, but it backfired and yeah there's actually been some personal things going on. I'm just realizing that it can't only be things like my dad's health issues or my fascination with a certain walking game - although that's kind of given me an entirely different set of issues.
I was given a mindset or I created one from things said to me. I'm not saying it's either of our faults, but they might have to think about why they tell me what they tell me and what they want want to see as a result. Kind of like how they tell me to be self aware about what I say and how I say it.
Oh well.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Is it just me or do older people use the age excuse to treat people like shit? "I'm your elder so you're supposed to respect me and don't talk back."
Then there's "You have to earn respect, it is not given."
So I can give an older person respect when I think they've earned it?
--
There's an older person in my household that is one of those ... overbearing (?) types and it grates on my fucking nerves. Especially when I'm strung out already.
I get it. They are stuck at home all day, doing all the chores that the rest of us don't have time to do. I do feel bad about that, but it hasn't been a good several weeks. And I'm out of energy so I can't do a fucking thing even if I wanted to.
Then there's assumptions about "she said later, which means never" and I'm like, you know what? If you already knew that, why ask when you can fucking do it yourself then? I was already thinking about doing what you asked until that point, so now I'm not willing to do that anymore.
--
I'm an introvert. I can't deal with people and being fucking nice twenty. Four. Seven.
I want to be brutally honest and know that someone isn't going to take offense. I'm not necessarily a nice person and the muzzle fucking chafes all the damn time.
I don't necessarily mean to snap at people, but that's how it comes across apparently.
And, yeah, I would like that freedom of pouring vitriol about someone just for the sake of venting about being talked to like a child or that I'm not fucking okay with how communication has apparently been on a downward spiral and I think I knew that at some point but the person I've been going to about regular stuff might not have actually been all that helpful because now I don't know what to talk to them about without feeling worse than I already was.
I now have the option of talking to a few other people who might be better for me to talk to and I need that option open to me right now. Because lately I've been lashing out and bossing people around and I'm almost seventy five percent certain the last one is not entirely on me.
The person I've been going to told me some things and I don't think they meant for me to act the way I've been acting as a result of those things. I suspect it was to boost my confidence or self esteem, but it backfired and yeah there's actually been some personal things going on. I'm just realizing that it can't only be things like my dad's health issues or my fascination with a certain walking game - although that's kind of given me an entirely different set of issues.
I was given a mindset or I created one from things said to me. I'm not saying it's either of our faults, but they might have to think about why they tell me what they tell me and what they want want to see as a result. Kind of like how they tell me to be self aware about what I say and how I say it.
Oh well.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯